non-lucid

I'm so mad. I slept so badly last night!!! I had pieces of dreams here and there and one that I remember but was stupid and non eventful. And weird. But I'll post it anyway. I suspect that it might have something to do with the diet Dr. Pepper I had last night. I never drink diet soda. Who knows, maybe I'm just looking for a scapegoat.

Something about going to a bookstore. I work at a bookstore IRL. But I was going with this guy Phil who was in my computer classes like two years ago and I haven't seen since. I don't even remember what was so important that we needed at the bookstore. I remember that it was an hour away.

Then I'm in the kitchen at my parents' house. I'm getting some ice cream for a bunch of people that are on my back porch. IRL it's screened in, but here there's just a roof. There are some people eating cake and ice cream and as I'm scooping the ice cream out, I realize that it's just a solid brick of ice cream, not even in a box or anything. Then, my neighbor from across the street John comes over and he's all fucked up. He said he was in a motorcycle accident. I thought this was strange because it's my next door neighbor Randy that has the motorcycle, not John. So he was like bleeding still and had a bandage on his hand like it was all wrapped up. And his face is all bruised. And he sits down and my dad's at the other end of the table and John and my dad start discussing how fast he was going and how many RPM's he was up to.

Then I'm on a school bus. I'm watching my other neighbor from across the street Alice, who has graduated college already, get off the bus at a bus stop that is on the opposite end of the street from where we live. Someone sitting in front of me and I are like spying on Alice. We're trying to figure out a way to get off the bus and follow her without her realizing that she's being followed. I wish I became lucid so I could have done December's basic task!!! It's ok, I still have ten nights to try.

One: I'm working at Target. Stacking liquor bottles into a pyramid shape in the middle of an aisle of other alcohol products. They might be champagne bottles because the tops of the bottles are wrapped up in foil. I guess my supervisor came by and said I was doing it wrong. Well, no one really told me where to put these bottles anyway. My supervisor tells me to look out the window at the fireworks for the Washington Redskins vs. Baltimore Ravens game. So now I'm in a hotel room on one of the top floors looking out the window. I see a ferris wheel and what looks like a state fair or something. But my supervisor was right, there are tons of fireworks going off... but no football game. Next thing I know I'm at that fair. I sign up to play a game and I think my sister's with me. The game is like this: a post in the middle of the ground, and everyone has to attach a string to it and walk around in a circle holding their string. I have no idea what the object of this game is or how you win. And it doesn't matter because as soon as I start walking around, my string breaks. With me there were eight people playing this game, and I crawl underneath the other strings to try to tie my string back together because it broke near the post. Now I can't get back out because of the other people playing the game. I have no idea how I got out, but the next thing I know, I'm by a pond and someone is chasing miniature frogs out of the tall grass around the pond into the pond. I decide to help and end up slipping on the wet grass and falling right on my ass onto a frog. I then fell into the pond, which was only knee deep. I felt like I needed to get out of there before I killed anymore frogs.

Two: Something about a broken water slide at a water park.

Three: I'm performing in a skit or show or something at school or in an auditorium. I get yelled at for doing my part wrong. Everyone had big stuffed animals almost person-sized and they were dogs. We were all acting like cats trying to convince the dogs to have sex with us. Then we were all lined up in a hallway watching a skit on tv that I think we're supposed to mimic. Me and the girl next to me are trying to keep up with what's going on on the tv and then realize no one else is acting out the moves. Some girl walks by and says that the two "yogurt girls" on the end can't be in the show anymore. So the girl next to me and I look at each other so confused because we didn't know what we did wrong. Next thing I know everyone's out in like a courtyard with picnic tables and this guy comes up to me and asks the other yogurt girl if she was ok with him having the same partner as last year. He's wearing roller skates, and so are a lot of other people in the courtyard. She says that's fine and he grabs me around the waist and spins me around and we start going in the other direction. Then she comes up from behind and asks, "what about your class ring?" to the guy. And he said he found it in the trash at home. Then something happens behind us and there's like a fight about to break out. This guy hands me his GPS because he's planning a getaway and he thinks his GPS has a tracking system in it. It is now that I realize that I am wearing only socks and I ask the people around me if I should go put some shoes on.

I'm starting a little experiment. For a week starting last night, I'm going to take a Flintstones multi-vitamin and a melatonin before bed to see how it affects my dream recall and the vividness of my dreams. Last night I had four dreams that I remember.

First: Tom Cruise on a snowmobile. It's like I was watching a movie. It's an aerial shot of him on a snowmobile and he's like racing other people. Weaving in and out of other people on snowmobiles. Then he's done snowmobiling and he's in a sporting goods shop. He's getting something to cover his head like a person who handles bees would wear... even though he's already wearing a hat like Cousin Eddie from Christmas Vacation when they're going sledding (you know, the black leather one with the flaps to cover your ears!). Then, he's out by a river watching this guy wearing camo fishing or hunting or something and he's got a document all drawn up by a lawyer and he's trying to convince this hunter/fisher guy that he needs to join him on his quest to stop all the forest animals from pooping. If he signs this document then he will be famous when they finally accomplish this task. Tom Cruise is getting closer and closer and in this guy's face and then the guy wants to make out with him, kind of like the scene from American Beauty when the next door neighbor is trying to kiss Kevin Spacey. And Tom Cruise is all like, woah, you've got the wrong idea.

Second: I'm at a lake watching some kids play with their dog who is like kind of walking on top of the water, either that of it's just really shallow. Then, I'm looking for my hamster and one of the kids says he's swimming across the lake!!! So I see way far away this little hamster swimming across the lake! It looks like this lake has no end, but on the part close to me, like all around the right side of my field of vision is beach. I know it's a lake and not the ocean because the water is so calm and clear. So I start freaking out about my hamster and I go to save him. I swim out to where he is and bring him back to the beachy shore. And I have him in my hand and I'm yelling at him that he can't do that, he's just a hamster and I turn away and when I turn back he's turned into a little boy and he's all embarrassed that I was calling him out on being a hamster. Ha! Like I revealed his big secret or something.

Third: I'm at the school bookstore looking for a shirt to wear to the gym (probably because I didn't get to go yesterday because I left my shirt at home). I have a shopping cart and I'm with someone else who has a shopping cart. I was looking at the clearance rack and there's nothing but ugly Christmas sweatshirts and shirts with sailboats on them. I had left my shopping cart with my friend who was in line. I turned around and she was gone and our shopping carts were moved out of the line and there were now tons of people in line. I went to grab my shopping cart and I couldn't find my friend and this other girl isn't looking where she's going and runs her shopping cart right into mine. I remember then just turning around to continue looking at some shorts and thinking, "are these longer or shorter than the ones I have now?" But then I turned them around to look a the back and they said VCU on the butt, and I thought, I'm so not *that* girl, and I put them back on the rack.

Last, but not least: Last night before going to bed, A and I watched this weirdness on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqi5F5MqqTQ. So I had this dream that I needed this particular sword to kill this particular enemy like in a video game or I could not vanquish this particular foe. So I went to kill someone else to get this sword. Then someone tells me that I have to go through this mirror in order to get to this person who has this sword that I need. (That part was kind of hazy and I'm sure there's a lot more to it that I can't remember because I was really focusing on this next part.) So I go through this mirror and I walk down this hallway to the last door on the left. I open it up and it's kind of like an auditorium and there are all these blue plastic seats like in a gymnasium, you know, the ones that fold up and you can push them into the wall to save space on the gym floor when there's not a game going on... and there are people everywhere sitting in some of the seats and some are standing... well, each of the seats is labeled differently along the right hand side of the seat. I didn't even look at what they all said, just this one said "sex" and I thought, that's the one for me! So I sat in it and the next thing I know, I had sunken into it and flipped over into another dimension (as if going through the mirror wasn't enough!). It's the same auditorium but with different people in it. I'm in my seat and everything is mirrored, like I was on the right hand side of the room, now I'm on the left. I see all the guys are wearing sweatpants and most of them have very obvious erections. Then, this really cute blond girl sits next to me. She's wearing short blue gym shorts and a white tee shirt. She takes my hand and puts it on her thigh. I immediately have the feeling that I need to have sex with her. So I ask her if there's anywhere more private we can go. She stands up, takes my hand, and tells me to follow her. So I do and she dives between two of the seats across from us and I dive right in after her. We're in a dark room and one thing leads to another... So next thing I know, I've got to get out of there. I find a like a bathroom mirror and try to crawl up into it. Then, I vaguely remember some girl getting beat up and it's her fault no one can get out.

Bizarre, bizarre, bizarre!!!!

EEEEeeeee!!! I had an LD last night!!! I had been doing RCs all day and I finally did one in my dream!

I was taking a girl who said she only had $50 and was going to go stay in a crackhouse back to my place to look after her. I tried to get into my house which was in a weird apartment building and I couldn't get the door unlocked. So I decided to bring her to another one of my houses and the door was open and my cat John was walking in the doorway. I think I said something like, "John, is that really you?!?! I must be dreaming!" And I tried to poke my finger through my hand. It didn't go through, but it felt really squishy and all of a sudden I got a strange orange square pattern in my left field of vision as if it was an indication that yes, I had discovered I was in a dream. It was like the visualization effect on iTunes. So I told John to follow me upstairs and I was so so happy to pet him because Andrea and I put him to sleep probably two months ago. He kept trying to get off my lap, though. And the apartment we were in was nasty gross. Then I lost lucidity. I was just so happy to have my cat that I didn't want to do anything but pet him. And I woke up and almost cried because I miss him so much.

Next. I'm in a mall at a jewelry store with my mom. We go to the back right corner and look into a display case. My mom tells the guy working there that she wants five of the same white gold necklace with some pendant on it. He gets them out of the case and my mom goes to the counter and starts writing a check for them. She signs it with my sister's name and her name is on the checks. But she spells her name wrong. Then she shows the guy her driver's license and my mom's name is now Joyce Garcia. I look at the guy workig there and tell him... in Spanish... that my mom doesn't know how to speak Spanish. So he takes back the necklaces and puts them back in the case.

OMG. Then came the weirdness. I'm having sex with this guy and I think I'm at my parents' house. The bed is squeaking really loud and I'm afraid that we're going to get caught. My friend Trelease is there down the hall going to the bathroom. I tell the guy to stop he puts some pants on. I look in his pants at his penis and it's flat. I touch it and it's all gooey. I'm like disgusted. I go to the door and peek out. I see that it's my friend coming out of the bathroom and go out and giggle with her that I'd just lost my virginity. And it's perfectly normal that I have no clothes on.

I woke up a couple of times thinking about a blue face like a cartoonish character and feeling really happy. No idea what lead up to that, but I think it had something to do with buying back textbooks for work. Like they were a student selling me their books.

Something about a limo again. I knew the people getting into it. I have the feeling I was lucid for a moment and lost it because I remembered the task of the month about public transit and I wondered if getting into a limo and having no control over where you were going counted.

Then I remember being in Kentucky. I asked someone if I was in West Virginia and they said no, Kentucky. I told them I'd been there before for a school function in a hotel (in another dream I'd had) and if I knew they'd lived so close, I would've tried to stay with them. I was at some sort of cabin in the woods with a huge family. It was snowing out and there was about six inches of snow on the ground already. I was walking around the outside of the cabin with some tall guy telling him about how my friend Matt put fudge crumbs in a baggie for me and they were awesome!! (I haven't even tried them yet, they're still in the fridge.) The mom of the family was mad that her daughters, Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen, were not wearing the scarves she had made them with the rosaries on them. I had to go and tell them.

I remember two things about last night:

One: I'm at some ancient temple. Outside. It's a rocky landscape, everything's brown. There's a river. It's starting to over flow and there is water everywhere and it just keeps rising. Some tribal people start shooting arrows at me. I have the impression that I have to stop all this water. I feel sort of like I'm in a video game.

Two: I'm in first grade. I'm sitting in the back row and the teacher is starting to tell us vocabulary words. I'm looking in my backpack for a pencil but no one else in class is writing anything down. Someone passes me a note. At the top is written the name of a girl whose time card is in front of mine at work. The teacher is coming and I cover up the note with another piece of paper really quick. There is a tv videotaping everything in the classroom. I walked up to it and focused the camera on the clock which is behind where I sit so I can always tell what time it is. I sit back down and I can't stop looking at the girl sitting behind me. It's Tricia and she's wearing the dress from her first grade picture. For some reason I am really attracted to her.

so, Friday night the only thing I remember is something about a limo.

Last night I was at a holiday party at Andrea's sister's house, drank three beers and we spent the night there. I went to bed around eleven because I had had a hell of a week at work and was exhausted. The party was loud until about two in the morning. And I was cold.

One part: I was in a mall and my friend Emily was there. And another girl I don't know. There was a kiosk in the middle of the mall about two stories high. It was full of stuffed animals and I wanted a panda with magnets in the hands and feet for Andrea. Emily got up on the top level of the kiosk and started throwing down stuffed animals asking, "is this one ok? how about this one?" Then I'm in another store in the mall called "Grandma's Attic" and there was a boy trying on glass slippers. I was so mad that he was trying on girls' slippers that I found a slipper and started hitting him with it. Then I ran away and went to customer service in the mall and there were some older women there and they asked me if I knew what happened at Grandma's Attic. So I told them what went down and they said, "He was trying on girls' slippers and you beat him up? Good for you!!" Then I had to go to the bathroom and I found the corner of the mall and there were a bunch of cardboard boxes. I tried to hide behind them to go to the bathroom and this Asian guy peeks in and asks me what I'm doing. So I ran away to find a bathroom and he follows me into a small bathroom and leans against the door and it looks like he's going to break the door down because it's barely on the hinges. I tell him to get away from the door because it's going to break and he does. Then he tells me he wants to have sex. He starts taking his pants off and his penis looks sooo strange. It's cone shaped and prickly. He says it hurts. I said I bet it does looking like that!!

Another dream: I'm at Andrea's parents' house. We're upstairs in the computer room and her dad tells me to go downstairs by the front door. I go and find two ice cream cones and a big mac. The ice cream cones didn't have ice cream on them, just the cones and ice cream down inside. I bring everything back upstairs and I eat the ice cream cone but I really wanted the big mac, but Andrea's mom was eating it.

Then I was at the top of the stairs yelling at some kid. He was on the ground and I was on top of him yelling that he needed to pay $25,000 to the guy whose leg he broke, and did he just think it was ok to drift through life letting everyone pay for his mistakes?? Andrea's dad came up the stairs and just looked at what was happening and smiled and nodded in approval.

There was an envelope that Andrea's dad told me I had to look in. It's a 9"x12" manila envelope and inside the envelope are printed pages with pictures and descriptions of houses. Apparently I have inherited all this property and I have to choose a house to live in.

Then I'm getting into a hot tub. I went to look outside for it, but it was inside.

First: I'm at my friend Shiela's old house and some people are on her lawn. They're on a flat area at the bottom of a hill. One guy is throwing tennis balls into the air and people are taking turns hitting them with their hands across the lawn. This one guy hits his so hard that it rockets off down another hill to a tennis court enclosed by a chain link fence. It goes through the fence down to a creek at the bottom of another hill. He runs off to get it and I chased after him to tell him not to worry about it, there are more tennis balls and he doesn't have to go get that one. I run fast and slip down the hill and fall into the creek. When I pop up out of the water, I yell, "Cloisine Enamel!!!!" and I'm really pleased with myself for this for some reason. I get out of the water and find the boy didn't get his tennis ball. And his name is Beau. He wants to kiss me. Weird.

Second: I'm I guess at a party with these teenagers and there's one girl going on and on about how her dad's going to pay off her $10k credit card. She has just had a nose job because her nose is all bandaged up. I tell her I hope it turns out ok. But I start to bitch at her for being a spoiled brat. Then there's two lines of people standing opposite each other and people dancing down the middle of them. I started doing some funny dance and all of a sudden I'm flying and break-dancing over one line of people and I end up on the other side of the line watching everything else that's going on.

Third: I'm by a swimming pool and this bodybuilder lady goes to put on some bronzer lotion or something and she comes out all sparkly and strange looking. Then she demonstrates this lotion by putting some on my hoo-ha!!! I felt kind of self-conscious.

Fourth: I was in the Olympics for gymnastics representing Australia. I had to do something on the "uneven bars" which were actually perpendicular bars. I had a partner who also had to be performing at the same time... to music... about sex. For some reason I was hearing Forever the Sickest Kids' "Buy Yourself a Drink." We did our routine and I have no idea what it was but we took the bars off of where they were and were making words on the mats with our bodies and the bars. The crowd loved it. I was done with the routine and I found a waterfall where the gymnasts could rinse off and cool down so I went under it. Then Beau who wanted to kiss me from my first dream pops up and now he wants to have sex with me. I excuse myself to call my dad to let him know I'm in Europe. I go to a payphone but when I dial his number I get a busy signal. Go figure. I decided that his phone must be tapped. Beau is yelling at me from across a parking lot asking me if I want a butter flavored or regular condom. I think for a second and say regular because I'm definitely not putting his penis into my mouth. Wow.

Maybe I was thinking about popcorn from the dream from the night before??? ha!!

I was cranky about a long day at work when I came home. Andrea told me to just go to bed because I looked tired. That was at like seven. I didn't get up until about seven this morning. She thinks it's maybe a bad thing that I can sleep for so long. I don't know. I like it.

The first part of my dream was about my day at work. I was being monitored by some people in a control room while I was buying back textbooks. Then I woke up and sat straight up in my bed and pointed my finger like "I know what you're doing!!!" ha!

So then I went back to bed and dreamed that it was Halloween at my parents' house. They decorated the fromt lawn and made an obstacle course that the kids had to go through in order to get their candy. There was a zip line and a balance beam. This one kid tried to go on the zip line and make it to the front porch but he fell off into the bushes. I went to go help him and he had turned into a He-Man action figure. And for some reason I thought he was Skeletor. So I picked him up and brought him out of the bushes where he turned into a regular kid again.

Then I went into the house and there's a party going on. I went up to my room and hung out with some people and then the party was over and I went downstairs to the kitchen and started chopping onions and putting them in a tupperware bowl with green peppers. I was rinsing them under water and my sister comes out of no where and I don't know what she was doing, but I yelled at her and told her to just get out of the house because she's aggravating my parents!!!

Then I went upstairs and the walls of my room at all banged up and falling apart. So I called my friend Chris who I hadn't talked to in ages and he said he'd come over and help fix my walls. Maybe that's why I was so mad at my sister? She was the one who messed up my walls??

It's 9:18 pm and I just remembered another dream I had last night. I was reading the tutorial about dream content and I remembered this: I was driving down what I thought was a street in Atlantic City when I pass by the Tropicana where I stayed a few years ago. I was telling my sister that that's where I pulled in to do the valet service, neat, huh? Well, I pulled in again and we went into the casino where I think my mom and dad were. This is kind of fuzzy, but I guess we were on a vacation, and we were supposed to be going home, but Renee (my sister) checked us in for four more nights. I remember being mad because I didn't know how I'd explain this to Andrea! I asked Renee how she was paying for all this because she has no job right now and is generally without a job anyway. She said that my uncle taught her how to make marijuana popcorn. She brought me into some snack bar or cafe or something and people were in there eating it! They were all so happy that this had ever been invented! I think I then said I had to go to the bathroom because I vaguely remember something about a bathroom, but I don't remember anything else.

So my theory that my dreams get better as the night progresses is ringing true. Well, maybe not better, but I can remember them better.

I was camping. With my old roommates Mike, Stan, Anthony, and Lynn. It was dark out and my dog (who Lynn had to put to sleep three years ago) was there. We were pitching a tent. Someone said that we had to get ready to go to the parade downtown. So we walk over and there are six horses and Stan is getting them harnessed to pull like a flatbed thing that you ride on when you're on a hayride. So I got in and I had Addie with me and then she escaped from a hole in the back of the flatbed. So I stood up and said something like, "well, someone needs to stay here with the dog," and jumped off the flatbed. I chased after Addie but I couldn't find her.

There was something else about being in a grocery store but I can't remember why... and when I left the grocery store I was in a car driving to a neighborhood.

I'm going to make this quick so I can run to class and take my Art History final.

Part 1... I was at a high school football field with a track running around it and there was a big storm coming with a lot of wind. I was running track and then all these metal poles started coming at me from out of left field, just rolling in my direction... like pvc pipe but metal, like maybe ten feet long and an inch or two in diameter. So I started running away from them but one nicked me in the leg. Next thing I know, I'm in a house in the kitchen and someone's telling me they need to amputate my leg!!!

Part 2... I'm at the beach with my mom and we're looking for something to eat. We go down the strip and there are all sorts of touristy shops and some vendors selling chicken strips and fries and like fair food. So I ordered some chicken strips with honey mustard sauce and the guy selling it to me says I have to wait eight hours for it to be marinated! So I go looking around in some shops and I find magic mushrooms for sale. There are two plants, one's a fly agaric and the other one's brown with white spots. So I grab a baggie that was under the shrooms and pick the tops off of the fly agaric and bring it to the register. They were only 60 cents an ounce.

Couldn't remember any dreams from half the night. I kind of remembered one:

I'm outside in like a woodsy area. Maybe by a river. I'm walking along a path and I see this guy and his truck. Then there's this other guy and they're in a confrontation. The feisty guy is super short and he looks over at me and shows me that he has a gun on his hip. So I start walking away and I get on my cell phone as soon as I'm far enough away and call 911. They get on the phone and I'm telling them an address where we're at. (Which is weird because how can a woodsy area by the river have an address??) But I was confused anyway because I didn't know whether I was at North or South whatever street name I gave them. But the address was 1. And while I'm on the phone I find this waterfall and I think this is the only way to get away from the crazy guy with the gun, so I start going down the side of it and then I'm just like fuck it and I get *in* the waterfall and slide down to the bottom which ends up just being dry land.

So at the bottom I find this bmx looking type bike and I'm walking with the bike over to this little sheltered area where there are some teenagers hanging out. I think I told them that they need to get out of there because of the guy with the gun and I don't know where he went. So they start running up this spiraling staircase and I'm trying to follow but I've got this bike, so I can't go up the stairs. I find another way out and then I'm at a bridge but the water level has gone up and no one knows why. So there is no way to get across this river to the other side and I see some people coming to help us but they can't get across from their side either.

Andrea got up to get ready for work and that dream ended. I went back to sleep and dreamed up this:

I'm in some sort of recital. On a stage like the one in elementary school in the cafeteria. Someone's giving directions but I can't see who it is. There's another guy and a girl on the stage with me. I'm not sure what my part is. They's bobbing back and forth together and singing "row row row your boat" and whoever is giving the directions is telling them that with every word they have to perform a new action like put their hands up above their heads or squat down or whatever. I decided I didn't like what was going on here and it was too weird for me so I left and went behind the stage I guess and there was another room. Some people were shooting pool. I'm thinking, sweet, I can get in on this. When it's my turn I have this crazy impossible shot after sinking like three balls and I straight up scratched. I was so embarrassed that I went outside. It turns out that outside is my old next door neighbor's house so I look at my old house next door and whoever moved into it has expanded it and took all the siding off. I looked into the backyard and there were no more hills, it was leveled. And two cars just like my dad owns are in the backyard: a blue 75 corvette stingray and a GTO. I'm wondering if whoever lives there now has stolen my dad's cars!!

I guess I went in to investigate who lives there now because the next thing I know I'm in the house. Only, it's not the same floor plan (maybe it's not the same house??). Then some other people arrive and it's like a game of hide-and-seek. I'm trying to find places to hide and there are tons of doors and I don't know where they all go so I open them to look and I find a good hiding spot and then like five other people come and hide in the room I'm in. I don't even know what we're hiding from. Then I leave the room I'm in and find a door that leads to the attic. I go all the way up to the top and it's a cemetery!! And there's an alarm set up so that you can't go past the top step. I accidentally set the alarm off and I run back down the stairs and find a door that leads outside. Once I get outside I think I'm safe. There's a car parked in front of the house and four guys get out. They come over to me and I think they were all gay. They wanted to tell me to stay low and make sure that no one from the inside of the house can see me from the windows. Then they walk away across the lawn.

A couple of nights ago I dreamed that I was at Denny's with a girl from my Spanish class, Sharon. She ordered something and I said I didn't want anything. So the waitress comes over faster than if we had ordered Mexican and brings us something that did not look appetizing at all. It looked like some sort or scrambled egg concoction on toast. I looked at Sharon and she just says, "That is *not* what I ordered," and pushed it away. So I talked to the cook who I flagged over to the table after he brought someone else their food and he said, "sure sure, I'll be right back." He came back and brought me a bowl of my favorite Denny's meal, which is a sausage supreme skillet. I have no idea what happened to Sharon's food.