non-lucid

Andrea's Grandpa, My Grandma

I'm at Andrea's grandfather's house visiting him with her. I vaguely remember how we got there, I saw Christmas lights on some houses on the way. I don't know if we were walking or riding in a car. On the way to the door, she tells me that he's a dirty old man!! (I doubt anyone in her family has that capacity, they're all really sweet people.)

We go in and hang out with him, which I don't really remember, but on the way out he gives me a big hug and kiss on the cheek and tells me I'm welcome any time. I don't remember any bit of him being a creepy old guy. I'm standing on the porch and I look down the street and realize that my grandma lives like five houses down from him. I ask if he knows them and he says yes, he even went to see the house when it was up for sale and he saw their bed and liked it so much he got one for himself! Suddenly, it's urgent that I get to my grandma's, so I leave Andrea on the porch and run down the street.

I walk right into the door to my grandma's and go into the kitchen to see her. She's smoking a cigarette which is bizarre because she's never smoked in her life. She stands up to give me a hug and she's wearing a shirt that's kinda blousy and had little pockets in the front near the bottom that each holds a pack of cigarettes!!! Andrea walks in and I introduce her to my grandma and we go into the living room. I see on the end table a ring that turns into a bracelet the second time I look down at it. It has jewels all over it and there's a big Mickey Mouse in the center of it, all jeweled. It's really sparkly and there is other jewelry on the end table as well, but I can't remember exactly what. I just knew that Andrea would love looking at all the sparkly jewelry.

Casino Coin Push

I'm in a casino (again). I think I was on an elevator and I got out on the casino floor. I have a twenty dollar bill in my hand and I am looking for a change machine. I come upon a change machine and find another twenty dollar bill and a ten dollar bill sitting on top of it. I stick them into my pocket. I make my change and look around for a machine to play. I turn a corner and find a strange version of the coin push. I put my coin into a little flippy thing and it flips over to the other side where there's another bank of machines just like the one I was playing. My coin fell off the side and I tried to go grab it but I woke up.

The Dog With the Strange Butt

So I think I'm going door to door selling something. I'm at some sort or run down house and I don't see that anyone is home. I see this dog in the yard and he has a big problem with his butt! He's a bulldog and he's facing away from me but he's got his mouth hanging open and he's panting with his tongue hanging out. I get a little closer to him and see that his butt has a huge tear in it right underneath his tail. I can see through his body to the other side out of his mouth. Then a little girl comes to me and says that he needs some help. I figure this dog will die soon if he doesn't get to a vet!! The dog doesn't seem like he's in any pain, though. We go in the house to call a vet or something and the little girl's dad is home and says not to bother with the dog.

Working at Pier One?

I'm behind the cash wrap at some home furnishings / greenhouse-ish store. I'm trying to ring someone up on my register and it stops working. Maybe I ran out of register tape. Then the girl next to me is trying to ring up a guy who wants a Pepsi. Her register isn't working, either, and the manager (who is Sherise, my old manager from when I worked at Hollywood Video ten years ago) tells me to hurry to the fridge and grab another Pepsi!!! I told her I was already on my way, which I was, and then I get caught up in helping some people find a dresser they saw in one of our newspaper advertisements.

Hamsters!!!

This is a fragment... I don't know where I was, but there were like twenty, or twenty five hamsters. I am sitting on the floor with all these hamsters... and some of them have little outfits on!!! I'm worried that I haven't hamster proofed the house and that they will crawl under the baseboards and get lost in the walls.

Jurrasic Park Pond

I'm in the woods. I think I'm either chasing someone or being chased. I'm running down this really muddy trail. I get distracted by this pond on my left hand side. It's all mud up to the edge of this pond but the water itself is crystal clear. I'm barefoot. I dip one foot into the pond and when I pull it back out the part of my foot that was in the water is all green! Like just a dull mossy green... like that styrofoamy stuff that you put silk flower arrangements into.

I think that's just wrong, so I walk down the muddy trail some more and find another pond. I'm thinking this is just a forest full of these little ponds. I go up to this one and it's deeper and it seems like something's just off about it. For whatever reason, I just get all the way in. It's kind of like a pool because as soon as you walk to the edge of it, the mud just stops and it's deep, there's no way to just wade into it. I see a fence to my left and my sister's in a lawn chair sunbathing. She flips out when she realizes I'm in this pond and tries to get me out. I crawl up on the side of the fence and look over the fence to see these strange dinosaur-like animals. They're reptiles of some sort, brown and almost blending into the mud. It feels like they would kill me if they saw me, so I try to be really careful and get away from the fence.

I think I woke up and then went back to sleep so I could finish out this dream. Next thing I know, I'm at my parents' house and my sister is trying to explain to them where we just were and my parents don't care, in fact, they make her give them like $100 and tell her to leave. Somehow I have one of the creatures in a plastic grocery bag and I take it to the driveway where there are fires going all in the backyard and I set the bag down in a fire to kill whatever's in the bag.

This was my most bizarre dream in a long while... other than the killer bugs and the army scavenger hunt.

Cops on the Bus

I'm on a school bus. I know it's a school bus because at the back of the bus is the emergency door and the window... not like public transportation with a seat at the back. So I'm sitting with some people... they're police officers. I wonder if I'm in trouble??

Next thing I know, there's a ruckus at the back of the bus. One of the police officers tells me to go to the back and break it up. I look down in my lap and there's a badge in my lap!!! I clip the badge on the back pocket of my jeans and walk back to the back of the bus to see what's going on. Someone had broken a glass bottle. Standing at the back door to the bus is a guy I went to grade school and middle school with, Carl. I look at him and ask him what happened. He doesn't answer me and I get mad and tell him that someone better clean up that broken glass before someone gets hurt!! He doesn't do anything. I yell at him to give me the napkins he's now holding in his hand so that at least I could clean it up. He tells me, "You know, we don't talk like we used to."

Vitamins at the Grocery Store

Now I'm in a grocery store. I'm going up and down aisles and I see that it's like an after Christmas sale. There's just all sorts of junk lined up in no particular order. I look up at the ceiling and there's like barbecues hanging from the ceiling... and kids bikes. I have a shopping cart but I have no idea what I'm looking for. I must have had some stuff in my cart because I get in line to check out. Then I remember!! I need more Flintstones vitamins because I'm out!!! I run to get the vitamins, then...

The Award Show

I'm in a bathroom. Or a dressing room. Doing my makeup. I'm looking in a mirror. (score one point for a personal goal attained!) I'm putting on eyeliner, but I already have eyeliner on. So what I'm doing is adding another color above the brown that's already there... interesting. I do my left side fine. Then when I go to do my right eye, the eyeliner smears and I have to keep starting all over again.

I finish my makeup and now I'm in a beautiful white gown with a really really really long... wrap? It's not part of the dress... it's like what Starter had on in that scene in The Cell, that obnoxiously long cape... but white and with little raised dots about the size of a quarter all over it. I'm walking out onto a stage and it's an award show! I have just won the award for best outfit ever!! I'm so excited and I wonder if my makeup turned out ok. And then I wonder... if I'm at an awards show, why didn't someone else do my makeup? Anyway, I walk off stage and find a place to sit, which is difficult because of the size of my cape, and when I sit down I look at my shoes... ruby red high heels. I think this doesn't match at all. But they were awesome shoes!

Photo Shoot With Ellen

I'm on a stage. Like on a talk show. I realize that I've switched places with Ellen DeGeneres and she's in the crowd like where I should be sitting. She gets up and plays it off like it's a joke and comes up on the stage to do her talk show. I'm so floored that I'm up there with Ellen that I ask if someone can take a picture of us together. Someone from the audience gets a camera and asks how many shots I want. I'm concerned that this is a once in a lifetime event and I want to make sure the person working the camera gets a good picture. I ask them if they know how to work "wide and tight" on the camera to make sure we're both in the shot and it's properly zoomed. The person (I don't know if it was even male or female, probably female because the audience is mainly female.) gets indignant and says, "Of course I know how to work a camera, I'm a tourist, aren't I?" Oh. Well. Fine. So I say I want twenty shots of Ellen and I and the person begins taking pictures. They hand the camera back to me and there is not one picture of Ellen and I. Instead it's all pictures of Jen and I think Audrey and Danielle.

Renee's House

I'm walking down a street in like a downtown area (that I recognize from previous dreams). I have no idea what my motivation is, but I need to go to my sister's house. I think I'm motivated because I hadn't seen her in a while and inherently I really want to make sure she's all right. So I find her house and the address is 2800 something street. I knock on the door and go on in. I see my sister and I expect to find that the house is a terrible mess, but it's mostly clean. She's living with three other people she says and that's good because the rent is $2800. It's even spray painted on the walls on the stairway up to the second floor.

Everything is particle board. I feel like the stairs are going to break when I walk up them to check out the upstairs. She told me the landlord just built the upstairs and added two bedrooms for the other people living there. It looked like there was indoor/outdoor carpet stapled to the floor. It was actually like four different colors of carpet in squares on the floor, not even overlapping but just next to each other with gaps of like three inches in between. There was a dog upstairs. He was in a box with no top on it and he jumped out and ran away to the back of the house. Someone was downstiars doing dishes. I found it hard to believe that they were paying so much for such a shitty house.

Ice Hockey (again)

I was watching some people play ice hockey and I guess I had skates on, too, and I was trying to play. I was talking to the goalie and she told me to tell the best player on the team to practice making goals on her. She wasn't wearing a helmet or any gear. I told her that she was in danger of getting a puck to the throat and never being able to talk again. She said there's no way that would ever happen because she's a better goalie than the best person on the team.

I skated over to the biggest looking guy I could find and told him that the goalie wants him to try to score on her, even though she's not wearing any gear. He was surprised but he gets in front of her and starts shooting. I'm watching all this and he's got like unlimited pucks and keeps shooting but all the pucks are going up above the net. Finally, the worst happened. He shoots on right into the girl's mouth and breaks her two front teeth. She's all bloody and busted. Before I could tell her I told her so, the dream faded.

Lucid Mike B.

I'm in the woods and there's a path winding through all these trees and cabins. I don't remember what it was that made me realize I was dreaming, but as soon as I became lucid, it was like an explosion of color. Everything became like high definition. I know my friend Mike is kind of outdoorsy, so the next thing I saw was him. I was talking to him about something, and then I remembered I wanted to look at myself in a mirror in a dream. So I left Mike and ran and ran on a path thinking about a mirror. I can upon one and just as I was going to look into it, I lost lucidity.

OMG. So finally I wore myself out completely after running errands all day yesterday. When I went to bed, I was telling myself that I would remember my dreams over and over like a mantra and more often recently I've been looking at my hands and telling myself to remember to do that in my dreams. From the lucids I've had already, it's not the realizing that I'm dreaming that I was having trouble with that I need to do RCs all the time, it's the stabalizing that I need to work on, and I know looking at your hands helps. Also when I was falling asleep I thought about the nature of dreaming in general and that I'm a whole person in my dreams and I never really have gotten the chance to realize that in a lucid. Ugh. I better add goals to my signature. Anyway, I had another lucid last night!! YAY!!

The Skank is at my House

We were in a house that doesn't exist IRL and the skank went out the window to smoke a cigarette. I crawled out the window and sat on the roof with her.

The Lucid Bookstore and the Dorm Room

I'm at the bookstore that I work at and I am walking through the area where the textbooks are kept. I keep seeing money everywhere, just little piles of cash, sometimes change. I'm picking it up and I take a look at the bills and they're not your typical denominations, they're like $4 bills and stuff. This makes me realize that I must be dreaming, so I become lucid. The first thing I do is get a sense of myself and look at my hands. Then I look up and walk out of the bookstore and into a college campus. There are people walking to a dorm building and I follow them. I open the door and go up several flights of stairs following this one guy to his room. In his room he has some beakers on his desk like from a chemistry set. As I was going to ask him to remove his clothes (just to see if I could while I was lucid) I lost lucidity.

I think so far that's the longest I've been lucid.

Night of 1/17/09

Stealing Tips

I'm walking around in a lunch line, but it's like in a strange mall food court. Like there were places to eat and they were all set up like this... instead of going up to the counter, you go into like a store and it's set up in a circle: you enter, go around and pick out what you want to eat and at each station there are cashiers. Each cashier had a tip jar on top of their register. I saw a kid in line ahead of me and he was taking tips and no one was noticing or saying anything to him... so I took a dollar from someone's tip jar and stuck it in my pocket. Then a security guard comes up to me and asked if I took anything!!! And I said no and got the dollar out of my pocket and dropped it on the ground. I told the security guard that the guy he's looking for is ahead of me in line and as I'm saying this, the guy runs out of the line and out the door to the "store." I run after him and tackle him. I don't know what my motivation was for doing this. ha!

Fishing

This is just a fragment, maybe it was a whole dream that really just wasn't that interesting. I'm in a shallow lake in a boat and I'm fishing... the top of the lake is covered in grass clippings.

Christine's Messy House

Somehow I end up at my friend Christine's house, who I haven't talked to since her little brother died in a car accident two years ago. This isn't her real house. But I know she's a pretty messy person, so it didn't surprise me that her house was a total wreck. The thing that stuck out the most was that there was a flat screen tv in the living room that took up the entire wall. I wish I would have written this down sooner because there was a lot more to it that I just can't remember.

My dreams haven't been as vivid as they usually are over the past few days. I don't know why. I'm not stressed out or anything, I'm getting plenty of sleep. I hope my body and my brain figures it all out.

Car Wreck Cops

I'm at a post office I think. I'm in line behind a man at the counter who has sheets and sheets of stamps. Just like a huge stack of them. All different designs and different values. He's just trying to mail three letters and put some stamps on them. I pointed out to him that he should use the smallest denominations first to get rid of them.

He leaves and it's almost my turn at the counter and four police officers walk into the building. I look down at the floor and see that I have a grocery bag full of fireworks at my feet!!! I'm sure I don't want to get caught with this. The cops point at me and tell me to come with them. I leave the bag of fireworks and go out the door with them.

We get outside and we're in the covered entry way to the building. It's maybe thirty feet long and the parking lot is to the side and at the end of the entryway. I see a couple of guys walking towards the parking lot. It's night. I look into the parking lot and don't see my car where it was parked. The cops tell me that my car got wrecked and they took it away on a tow truck. I ran to the guys walking away. I grabbed one of them by the collar and demanded he tell me what happened. He didn't understand English and he was Asian. I was mostly mad because my camera and my ipod were in the car, along with the rest of the fireworks.

Last night I watched the Golden Globe Awards. I think that's why I had this dream.

I just remember a little bit... I was getting text messages from and interviewing celebrities. No one in particular that I recall. I was exhausted when I went to bed, so I bet that's why my recall was not so good.

Chorus Class Karaoke

I'm walking around a high school campus and I'm in an auditorium. I don't have class this period or I'm skipping. I walk by a stairway leading down into a grassy area where chorus class is. I'm not in the class but I overhear some girls talking about being naked for class!!! I look down at them and they see me and say I should come to class or I'm not going to see everyone naked!!!

Next thing I know I'm outside and there's a set of risers and girls (clothed) on them only on the top row. I'm seated to the side of them and the teacher is calling people up to sing karaoke and the girls on the risers will sing the backup. This girl I went to high school with, Lynn, goes up and sings something, but on the three monitors that have the lyrics, the lyrics to her song weren't coming up... the lyrics were for Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. And when she was done, everyone clapped because she did the song by memory without messing up.

Next, someone told me that a guy was going to go, then it was my turn. The teacher called the guy's name and he wasn't in class that day. SO it was my turn. I wasn't ready, I hadn't picked out a song!! Everyone in the class who wasn't on the risers had a different page of songs to choose from. I was going person by person looking at all the music and none of it was alphabetical or organized in any way at all. Some of it was even handwritten instead of typed. I wanted to sing "Without Me" by Eminem but I couldn't find it anywhere. I saw Prince at the bottom of a page and I thought the list of songs would be on the back but nooooo. So I just started singing "Without Me" a capella.

Renee Cleans the Kitchen

I am at my parents' house in the kitchen and my sister had cleaned it all up. This is probably a result of the fact that I'm constantly on my mom's ass about keeping the kitchen clean, and no one in the family is talking to my sister right now.

Night of 1/09/09

Sex

Let's just say... it was some good sex... that turned into strange sex.

Demolition

I was in a car driving away from a demolition wrecking ball or something coming after me. I could see it coming in the rear window when I turned around. Next thing I know, there is a building crashing down on me, but when the wall of this building comes down, a window falls over me so I'm not hurt at all. Then, I'm in a room of this busted building with a group of people telling them the story of how I escaped injury.

Tripping in High School

I'm at my apartment. Aaron and Matt are over and they're making acid in my kitchen. It involves orange juice. But oddly, no chemistry set or anything. I'm sitting on my couch watching them do this. They both drink the orange juice and start tripping. So I walk over to the sink and pour the rest of the orange juice into the palm of my left hand. I think I licked it off my hand.

Next thing I know, I'm at my old high school. I'm walking down the corridor between the classes and the cafeterias. It's a campus style school built in the 60's or 70's. Outside of Cafeteria 2, there is a group of students assembled. I get in line with them and a teacher comes up to me and asks for me to initial something. She points to a box in an otherwise empty grid and I write "OMG" in it. And smile. The teacher looks at me and asks, "Do you think this is funny??" And I'm starting to trip and I just smile really big and shrug my shoulders and walk into the cafeteria.

I walk to the lunch line and grab a tray and see strawberries in a white plastic container that's shaped like a jar and take one. They all look really fresh and good to eat. Then I look behind the glass at what the lunch ladies have going on for lunch today, and it's all different kinds of pies. I HATE PIE. I look at one of the lunch ladies and ask, "Are you kidding me? Are you serious? Just pie???" I don't think she responded. I go to the cashier and now I suddenly have a soda on my tray as well, and I have to give her $2.35 for my lunch. Which is pretty steep for a strawberry and a soda.

I leave the lunch line and see that some people are calling me to sit with them. Then I see Danielle and smile and walk over to her. She's sitting at one of those tables with the little round dots for seats. As I'm walking over to her I blink and when my eyes are closed it looks like someone's notebook with drawings all in it, just line drawings, and they're all filled in with diagonal lines. Everything is in different colors. I sit by Danielle and ask her how her trip is going. She says somewhat loudly so the other table that I was supposed to sit at can hear, "Sure I'll show you the pictures from my beach trip!"

Ice Hockey with Danielle

Next thing I know, I'm a goalie at an ice hockey rink!! Danielle is trying to score goals on me! But I don't have a big goalie hockey stick, I just have this little regular one. We get tired of playing and I want to go to the pro shop. We go put down our hockey sticks in a pile with some others and they're all like plastic little kid hockey sticks, even the ones we were playing with.

Lucky Zipper at the Pro Shop

We go into the pro shop and I lost Danielle. I'm walking around and I see that it's not a hockey pro shop, it's a roller skating pro shop. There are pictures on all the walls of all sorts of shoe brands that have started making their own line of roller skates. I walk up to the counter and the guy behind it looks familiar. He's the dj from my old skating rink that my sister used to date. I asked him the best time to come skating and he said when he's working, of course. So I asked him for his number and he gave me a business card that said his name is Lucky Zipper.

He also mentioned that he was working the Headbanger's Ball and that I should call him for details. I asked him to price a pair of black and white Adio skates for me with the best plates and speed wheels and he said they'd only be about fifty dollars!! Then Danielle walked back in and asked where I'd been because she'd been looking all over for me.

Going to Maryland

I'm in a car with Sara Flexon and she's in the front seat driving and I'm in the back seat and I asked where we're going and she says to Maryland. We stop at a Taco Bell for food.

The Indian War

I'm in a big open field. There's dead bodies of Indians everywhere. All of a sudden, arrows start flying at me!

Sex in Cracker Barrel

I'm in Cracker Barrel. In the entrance part where all the junk that they sell is. I'm on a bed. Doing Andrea. Like it's no big deal and we do it there all the time.

Running Around the School

I was in a classroom at a school and someone was packing some clothes or something. I see a black DC hat and a pair of black DC shoes. I steal them!! I ran out of the building and show them off to some people outside. I decide to go in and get some more shoes.

I'm looking for the classroom I was in and this school is like four stories high and crazy confusing with hallways all over like a maze. I go to an elevator and this guy follows me in. He's got a speech impediment. He asks me where the student housing office is. We stop at a floor that is all dorm rooms. I ask him is he sure he wants to live in a dorm? He should get an apartment. We stop at another floor and I follow him out of the elevator still talking. He goes into this theater and I follow him in and sit down next to him. What's playing looks like Rules of Attraction, even though I've never seen it IRL. I tell the guy that I didn't know we were going to a movie and that I had stuff to do and I had to leave, but could he give me his number so I could call him and check up on how his apartment search was going. On the paper that he gave me his number he had written down three apartments he wanted to look at and asked if I could go look at them with him tomorrow. I have no idea how he found this apartment information in the time from when we got off the elevator to now. So I say sure and see that on the paper his name is David.

I sit for a while in my seat and there's a commercial on about this powder foundation like Bare Minerals stuff and all of a sudden I have it in my lap. It's in a compact and I open it up and try some on. It looks horrible on me, all chalky and just bad, like you can tell I just put makeup on. Not natural at all. ew.

So I look around, and even though this is bad makeup, I decide to steal it. I walk out of the theater and an alarm went off, but there are students walking in and out and no one cares that it's me that set off the alarm. I look around for security cameras. I think, awesome, I got away with it. I'm walking around now looking for that classroom again. It's a chemistry classroom that I'm trying to find.

I have this makeup compact in my hands and I decide I better put it in my back pocket. So now, all of a sudden, they're onto me that I've stolen this makeup! I start running. everywhere. And take breaks between running and just briskly walking. Tons of hallways, a suspended catwalk, and nowhere I need to go to find this classroom. Students everywhere but no one but the people chasing me are paying attention to what's going on.

I find a bathroom to hide in. This bathroom is more like a fitting room in a department store. There's a bench seat and no toilet. I sit on the bench and pull my feet up so no one can see under the stall that I'm there. Then, it's like my stall is a breezeway and there's like a classroom behind me that I can't see and people are coming into and out of my stall!!! But the people chasing me don't find me. I find a door behind me and go in and there's the toilet. But it's a fucked up toilet with two toilet bowls one above the other and I have no idea how to go to the bathroom there. So I look in the mirror at how bad this makeup is on me and try to rub my hands on my face to take it off. Then the janitors come in and I have no idea what happened after that. I was stressed out.

Chaos at Work

I'm at work. I'm usually a cashier, but now I'm running around helping people get their textbooks. I have a list from someone and I'm standing in line a the textbook counter waiting to give them my list and get this person's books when there are two guys playing with a tennis ball like throwing it back and forth to each other. I get out of line to yell at them and lose my place in line and freak out because I've been standing there for so long. Then two people walk up to me and hand me this guy's books. There are way too many books for me to carry, so I make them do it.

The Hotel Room and the Missing Board Shorts

So I'm in a hotel room and my parents have left to go somewhere but have not told me when they'd be back. There's someone else in the room on the bed but it's no one I know. After a while of just looking around, I get the feeling that they've left me and aren't coming back at all. So I start packing up all my stuff. Into a suitcase I'm putting all my clothes from the vacation. Shorts, t-shirts. I must be somewhere beachy. So I'm thinking... I really want to go to the pool or the beach. I start looking for my board shorts because when I look down I'm wearing khaki shorts and gym shoes and I just can't go swimming in that. I look in the bathroom thinking maybe they were wet and hanging over the edge of the bathtub... not in there. I look through everything I packed... not in there. Then I look under the bed... there are two Pez dispensers, but no board shorts. I look in between the bed and the nightstand... there are two pairs of Adio shoes, my grey ones and my black ones... and a glass of red wine... but no board shorts. I start finding all the shoes I own currently in the hotel room and I put them all in a silver Express bag. I go through my stuff again and find the board shorts!! They're black and white, but I was looking for purple ones. I pack them. I walk out of the hotel room.

The Lucid Casino

I'm walking out of the hotel room thinking, maybe I won't go for a swim, but I'll go to the casino. Mom and dad are gone, they won't care. I think on the way that I've left my player card in between the mattress and box spring back in the hotel room. It was fleeting though, because I kept going to the casino. I get there and look in my back pocket and find among other things my player card. I walk up the the first slot machine I see and put in my player card and choose to play all reels. I see that I only have like three dollars left, but it's on my player card, not on a slip of paper. Anyway, I play once and win like $20. Which is awesome because I am pretty sure I'm only playing penny slots. So I play all reels again and... I hit the jackpot! Something comes up on the screen that says it's just going to give me cash. I look down and sure enough there's a dispenser spitting out ones... then fives. I have a stack of almost all five dollar bills like a foot and a half tall. On the top the last bill to come out is a $50,000 bill. I look at it and it's from the casino, not real money. It says I'm in a drawing to win ten million dollars and the odds are three in twenty. Not bad. So I think I need to cash this in for smaller bills. I go to "customer service" and tell the lady that I need to change this out. It was really hard to walk with all that cash. I put it down on the counter and the stack tipped over. She was surprised at all that cash and asked how I wanted it. I said fiftys and hundreds. Then... I tried to text Andrea to tell her I just won $50,000!! I look at my phone and it's like a sidekick. I don't have a sidekick. Texting her didn't work. I was thinking, am I in Vegas or Atlantic City? My heart is racing... and I think... this oh no, this is all wrong... this can't be real... I'm dreaming this. And I think I told the lady at the counter, "This isn't real, is it?" And I just thought, FUCK. I really wish this were real. I got so angry and I started telling the lady, "This is $50,000. I was going to pay my car off, my student loans, all my bills!" The logic part of my brain kicked in. But for a moment, everything was so life like. I really felt like I was standing at the counter there, feet on the ground, counting all that money. I was too upset to try to do anything now that I was lucid. I was looking at my phone that was all wrong, trying to tell myself, this isn't a dream, this is real!! I was trying to convince myself that I really had just won all that money. The lady asks me if I was on machine 258 because she was reading the stats this morning and that one was supposed to pay out today. I said I didn't know, and then in the middle of the stack of money was a paper with the machine info on it. She looked at it then showed me and sure enough I was on machine 258. Then the lady hands me a touch screen thing to sign for the money and I asked her didn't she want to see my id. She said no. Fuck. I'm really dreaming. So I'm losing my lucidity. I take the thing to sign and it's so hard to write my name with this stylus she handed me. Then I look at it and my last name isn't spelled right. I go into some options screen to change everything to times new roman and fix my last name but it doesn't work. Then Andrea's alarm went off.

Girl Scouts Slumber Party

This starts weird. I'm in a public bathroom somewhere. I don't want to sit on the toilet seat so I'm straddling it, however, I'm hovering with my one foot against the wall and the other is trying to get to the side of the stall to prop me up right, but my pants are at my ankles and it's difficult. Then a little girl comes into my stall!!!

Now I'm in like the den of someone's house. I still have to go to the bathroom. So I find the bathroom here and go in. I sit on the toilet and I'm trying to go but can't. I can hear people yelling for me outside the door. Then this girl from grade school, Renee, pokes her head in the gap between the door and the floor. She is lying on top of a brown paper grocery bag. I told her she could use that as a sleeping bag. She said something about using my green girl scouts card. I said I could only think about yellowcard right now.

I'm over trying to go to the bathroom. I walk out of the bathroom and Emily says to me that while I was in there her mom made us stuff to eat. I look on the mantle over the fireplace and there is a bowl full of cinnamon rolls. I'm really excited about this. I haven't had one in a long time! I look around some more and on a table are cheese danishes. On another table is a glass jar full of what looks like peanut brittle on clear glass rectangles. Then Mallory walks by me completely naked and asks why I haven't picked something to eat yet.

Stoned With Danielle and The Creek

I'm at Danielle's apartment. We have to go somewhere so I'm looking for my clothes to put on so we can get out the door. But I'm already clothed. I find a pair of socks and put them on over top of the socks I already have one. I feel like I'm stoned. Everything feels heavy and extremely difficult to do. But I don't remember actually smoking anything. I think I stared at the coat rack for a good while until she snapped me out of it. I put on my black and white Adidas coat and went out the door. As soon as I got outside I realized that it was summer and took off my coat.

Danielle says it's so nice that she wants to go for a ride in the convertible. I ask her when she got a convertible! I was looking for her silver Acura. She jumps across this creek that is in the middle of the parking lot to get to the other side to her car. I tell her she's crazy and I'm not jumping across that creek because I'll just fall in and that would suck. Then this car pulls up and parallel parks next to the creek. Ok, maybe creek doesn't describe it well enough. It's much deeper than a creek. Like six feet deep. There's like an embankment on each side that's grassy and then the water in the middle. So this car parks and is hanging over the edge like it's going to fall in. I'm watching it and sure enough it falls right in. Then three guys get in and try to get the car out. One guy gets the entire top of the car like it's a toy race car that you can switch the tops on. He pulls it out and comes over to my side of the creek and puts it over my head so that we're both under the top of this car. I'm kind of freaked out by this because I don't know what this guy's intentions are.

Next thing I know, I'm throwing my two sheep that I sleep with out from under the car so that if we fall in the creek they won't get wet. I have no idea what happened to Danielle and why she isn't helping me. So this guy is walking too close to the edge of the creek and I feel like we're going to fall in. Like I'm on the very edge. Then everything stops and the guys acted like it was a joke. So I ran away.

Board Shorts in the Locker Room

I'm in a locker room and some girl says that I have to try on all these board shorts that someone left in there. So I do and they're all huge on she and I. She said they were some guy's and they were a size twelve. Which is weird because I wear a size ten jeans and guys shorts are in waist sizes not whatever made up sizes girl clothes come in.

The Singing Contest

So I'm at my parents' house. I'm upstairs and I have a tape recorder. My mom walks by me and asks what I'm doing. She always wants to know what I'm doing. I tell her that on the radio there's a contest for knowing all the lyrics to the All American Rejects album Move Along. I told her I was going to sing all the lyrics into the tape recorder and mail it in. So I go to my room and start trying to operate the tape recorder... big surprise, it doesn't work. So I figure, who uses tapes anyway? I go to my computer and open up some music editing software. All of a sudden I have two friends in the room with me. On the screen I can see waves representing the music but now I'm playing Kenna's Sun Red Sky Blue and it's instrumental. I'm singing the lyrics for the first few lines and I stop recording so I can see what it's like when I play it back. I decide I sound horrible. So I say I'm going to try like five more times and then really belt it out.

I wish I could have stayed asleep so I could see how that turned out, but I had a bad night's sleep and kept waking up.