Nightingale42

definitely don't feel like i'm getting enough sleep - maybe that is hurting my recall more than i thought it would. i'll take some melatonin tonight to get to sleep earlier.
sleep 2am
wake 9am

Found a Harry Potter gun. well, it wasn't the gun itself but blueprints for it. told what material was needed for what part. there was a weird bubbly part at one end made from several different ores. brought it to a group of people that agreed humanity wasn't ready for it. to get to the building they were in I had to pass garbage containers and other objects that could move. 'suspicious looking trash can' (written on it) for example. they followed me/moved when I wasn't looking.
I was swimming at one point (there was an island type deal - i was going in this crevasse to get to the two treasure chests underwater. they started moving (turned into mimics sort of - they still had treasure inside of them if i could pacify them). i think i died and respawned (mimics trapped me underwater). someone there told me i should use some sort of swimming enhancement - speed or fins or water breathing or somesuch ((I've been playing a lot of Terraria on Xbox))
I think the inanimate objects were having a revolt or strike or something. They were still defining themselves by their usefulness to humans however and couldn't carry out their rebellion.

((well, I managed to flesh the fragments out a lot more than I thought I would be able to. Still feel I forgot overly much, but "I think I was swimming at one point" turned into an actual remembrance, so I count it a win))

nearly a dreamless night - luckily i barely pulled these back before getting up
sleep 1230/1am
wake 1030am

Watching a language learning show for children. It used a little dog and some other animals. The longer it went on the more cartoony it was. I was trying to guess a color in one exercise. a different one was flashing through different images of rain and other weather. I was supposed to pick one that was a certain level of wet. Instead I was trying to match the color of the overall picture to a word. The end of the show had the dog playing around pretending to pee on stuff (along with another dog). Then he pulled a bit of ground/grass over himself like a blanket and went to sleep.

The government was after me for something - big brother dystopian government. There was a tracker jacker chasing me. We found out that this specific type of bird food threw their tracking ability off. Some guy in an outdoor class had some and was feeding it to birds in a feeder. After that, I always carried a little bit of the food around to keep the trackers off of me. I was in a bathroom one time with them outside it waiting for me to come out. Someone distracted them long enough for me to get away. They sent a boy after me - made me fall for him and used him against me. They had injected me with something that weakened my will - I was very pliable and prone to weeping after that. They boy I was in love with helped them take me captive. I believe he loved me too, but truly felt he was doing what was in my best interest by taking me captive. They used a boat to take me away from my old life and into their captivity area. I was simply depressed after this. Deep depression - the kind where everything means nothing - don't care enough to do anything. Was mostly naked in a common area - getting to my cloths in a locker of some sort. didn't care though.

Indoors basement like area in a huge complex building. some guys were playing video games in a common room. Maybe guitar hero.

went to sleep a little on the drunk side. finnally getting back to where i notice my wakings during the night. the dreams are still very murky - probably a 4/10, but at least i'm pulling a little more back again.
sleep 130am
wake 440am
wake 730am
wake 1030am

Locked up in a movie theater because someone was heard threatening to blow the place up. I had been trying to get back to the party with my mate. went through a door that was supposed to lead back to the party, but just opened into another theater room. when we tried to go back to keep looking we weren't allowed out. I was having claustrophobia/extreme issues with the restriction. (was crying/panicking and hiding in my mates shoulder)

We all got on this mass transportation thing - me and a friend or two and just random people. It was really really fast cart that traveled through the air like a tram but really really high up (impossibly). one person that seemed squeamish about getting on the tram launched herself out the side - she was dangling from ropes and very much enjoying herself. maybe she was just claustrophobic or something. I dangled a little as well, but it was unintentional - I slipped or something. I was fine - i used her ropes and she supported me a little. i was also enjoying the rush.

There were cats and kittens in a different dream - cant quite seem to place them though. was positive. I keep seeing their adorable little faces.

nothing again from last night, but i took a 2 hour nap around 11 and managed to pull back a decent bit. not going to record them here because all three of them were just me trying to get off - apparently i was really horny when i went to sleep >_< in any case, at least i pulled some back - even if i was only because i took a nap.

sleep ~12am
wake ~6/630am
attempted to go back to sleep till 9, didn't work out - was 'awake' and annoyed by neighbors radio.

Visiting partners mother. she lives in a house with two other women. the two other women seem to be in a relationship. They help us leave - I don't think they wanted us there. we didn't wake up till 2pm - it was very warm (the warmth being what woke us up) - but our plane didn't take off till really late (after 10pm) so it was ok. we had to go back to the hotel to pack. apparently we hadn't intended on sleeping over there.
In the house upstairs - two beasties after me. largish - wolf or big cat or something. I think I am whatever they are. there is some sort of communication

running from something (might have been the beasties above)

memory of flight. how or where is forgotten. the outside seems most akin to void when I try to remember it.

((Woke with tool playing in my head - 'i barely remember, who or what came before...'))

((Kind of irritated. yeah, that nightmare was disturbing, but not worth loosing this much friggin recall. I know that if I had had more awareness in the moment that it could have been easily dealt with, and that I should get to the point where I CAN deal with nightmares. *sighs* I feel like i'm building up my recall from scratch again. oh well - bit by bit))

Its amazing what a few days of willfully ignoring your dreams can do for long term recall.
I've been going through the buffy series again and all I really remember from the bulk of the dreams last night was that they were about buffy and the characters on the show. As
I was waking up I had a few more snippets, but a week ago that same state of sleep/wake would have pulled a few paragraphs - vivid remembrances. In any case, from my paper DJ:

Buffy. coffee shop closed. world covered with snow, most dreamscape and not characters ((was trying to say that in the dream i was making note especially of the world around me, and that there was little if any focus on people walking around)) spike trying to skate with buffy and angel (he had no shirt/pants, but I couldn't see below the waist anyway). My mind was very busy creating the last 30 min or so. most still faded before i got to the notebook. ((entered later))There were cigarettes smoked at some point.

12-1 sleep
9 wake
All these children had become possessed or cursed or something. They were coming after us. Their touch evoked extreme fear - I was screaming at several points in the dream. Ran up stairs and barricaded the children outside. There were a lot of people in here. They didn't quite believe me, so wound up pilling the barrier (barricaded door) down and experiencing the fear themselves.

there were two kittens - one orange one that looked like a cat i used to have (sammy). He got loose and I freaked out. Eventually got him back but he was a little more brown than orange. mostly dirt, but some a natural darkening of his fur as he grew

Had climbed up to the top of this really tall mountain. There was a lot of fog around the edges, so must have been really high up. Was there in a largish group of people (hiking or something I guess). The view was beautiful. The mountain was a giant world tree - the branches running off into the distance. I almost fell once. I was overcome with fear at the edge of a drop (we were really, really high up. Couldn't see anything below us - just a kind of foggy distance).

there was an earlier dream with the tag 'captivity', but its gone now.

12 am S
3 am W drank a strong peppermint tea (three tea bags). back to bed at 330. didn't actually get back to sleep for a while after that
4-430 am S had to be closer to 4 considering all the dreams.
5 am W - nightmare, wrote everything down and went back to sleep an hour later
6 am S
9 am W - final

Had gone to my grandmothers house when she wasn't there ((nothing like their RL house)). I cleaned up some stuff on a counter and when they got home told them I had. 'thats nice dear'. There was someone there they didn't like.
Transition
My grandparents were no longer around and the house was a little different. K and B were behind a bar and in a kitchen. Me, L, and random guy were in the living room. ...sexins ensue... i'm invited to play with K and B and go around to do so. i cant seem to kiss K right - something just keeps feeling 'off'.
Transition
I'm in some sort of apartment. The guy 'next to' us (it was kind of embedded in our apartment and connected to another apartment network as well (used shadow memory of a previous dream to briefly touch on what that network looked like - I was never there in the dream)). had just installed an awesome AC system. The controls were in our apartment though. Apparently they had to wire it that way because of the buildings design. They guy there came out and talked with me, my mate, and a friend of his. They all started talking about some game and/or the computer. At some point I was outside the apt along with the neighbor guy. One of my cats (oci) was there as well - he slinked back into the apt - clearly uncomfortable where he had been. i think i was smoking outside. while the guys were looking at a comp, I started focusing on a magazine. I got about 1/3 - 1/2 way in when it got to the main article. It was all on a movie that was coming out soon. It was filled with gory shot after gory shot - all stark whites and reds. It started with an image of a chick kinda grainy and turning her head - very reminiscent of the grudge. I told my mate that I wouldn't be able to see this movie - too disturbing. I keep flipping though and the article doesn't end - the rest of the magazine is nothing but those disturbing images. I close the magazine.

Spoiler for Nightmare:

she is lying on the floor - coming for me. I freak out. I try to stab her in the head with something, but she doesn't react. I have something sharp and I cut off her head and toss it (after imagining her holding it). She is still reaching for me - I'm terrified. I chop her hands off - with a lot of difficulty - she is wiggling around a bunch still trying to 'get me' as i'm doing my best to pin her while chopping. She still seems to be coming for me somehow. Despite the lack of hands she seems to be able to grip a tiny bit. I'm hysterical at this point. I go for the window - its smallish and high up - as if we are in a basement. Its as i'm opening this window and she is reaching for me that I realize this must be a dream and immediately wake myself. I could feel myself creating the next part of the dreamscape - parking lot and cars. There was super creepy heavy base music to go along with her coming after me. ((there was no thought at all of turning on her. The terror sensation lasted a bit into waking life - lots of RCs. I'm still a little shaken up (this is at ~530/6 when i'm writing this) and uncertain about my ability to go back to sleep))

((this dream was really confusing to write - the location kept changing in my memory. i might have been mixing two different timelines))
There was some sort of fungus being spread on all the pot crops - government conspiracy. Wanted to find and hide the little bit that I had, but the cops got there too soon. They weren't after pot though. Eventually it was just a large group of people being held in a smallish space At some point in the dream the space was larger - like two houses to either side, one above, and a common area in between. Some of the 'prisoners' were organizing a resistance. They met up above. There was a slip of paper with someones # hidden on it. I was trying to find it and somehow call them - they could end this captivity. They guys name was Travis or Tailor or some other T word - I don't think it was actually a name, but it slipped away quickly. A person's head was snapped in front of me by invisible hands - she knew too much and was going to spread that knowledge. A friend was getting pulled out of the captivity 'room'. She was special in some way - had money or friend in really high places. They said they were neither holding nor not holding her and moved her elsewhere (i'm assuming somewhere nicer).


((So, i'm thinking that the Peppermint tea Definitely had an effect on my dreams. Dont know if i will ever try that again though as the nightmare was extremely vivid and disturbing.))

((oh yeah, when i was writing in my DJ after waking up at 9, i realized i had tool's song parabola running through my head))

sleep at 1130/1200
wake 3/330 - back to sleep ~4 minor waking ~5 and final waking at 9
took some menthol last night at my first waking - meant to take like 30mg, but after the first cough drop i knew the others weren't going down. so, only got ~10mg. don't think it really effected my dreams. mb i'll just start making myself peppermint tea during a WBTB.

~5 Zombie dream - don't seem to remember much of it anymore (should have used more tags). Zeke (my cat) showed up in three different parts of the dream - just camping by my feet ((he seems to come into my dreams quite often - probably the most likely candidate for a 'shared dream', but no way of confirming it >_<)). i used a key or some other really small thing in my hand to try and pierce one of the Z's brain. It didn't penetrate deep enough, so I used a long pole to pierce the soft spot in the back of the throat and into the brain.

Unknown time - I checked an alarm clock. Then I checked it again. The numbers kept being screwed up so I kept checking it. It kept being screwed up. So I figured 'oh, i must be in a dream'. the whole dream was in my apartment ((this is really odd - don't usually dream places that i'm in a lot. ex- i dream a lot of a house i grew up in, but i didn't dream of that house when i lived there)). I floated around a little - just playing with bodyless space. my mate was there as well - its like we were both disembodied ... he was complaining that he had been waiting for me to 'wake up' for a while.

no idea if that was a true lucid that i lost very quickly or really was more of a 'dreamed i was lucid' situation. its... fuddled in memory.

Went to sleep around 10pm slept ~11hrs

(+3h)1am
I was keeping someone knocked out for something. "taking advantage of". I think it had to do with dreams.

(+8h,+5h)6am
I had to protect myself. there were two other guys in this dream. i bought a short sword/long dagger but i had been looking for a spear/??? ((was thinking of a quarterstaff with a blade on it - probably Matt's weapon from Wheel of Time)). we were in a room of a larger complex. set up camp there - beds and everything. the two guys were in a different room ...playing video games? i had stepped out of our little dark room and into the main hall. i saw a guy and was startled - i 'eeped' and ran back into my room to get my dagger. the guy figured that with my response i had to have been up to no good, so he followed me. our confrontation was a little one sided. he had overpowered me while questioning me. i was pinned to the ground with my dagger useless beside me and was about 5 inches away from him kissing me when my mate and his friend came in (the two guys from earlier) came in and broke us up. i felt slightly guilty because i hadn't asked for permission to play even if the other guy wasn't really giving me a choice in the matter.

Someone was walking behind me toting a cart overflowing with junk. i believe they were RC devices/dream symbols/totems/etc.

(+11h,+8h,+3h)9am
Action. Attempting to kill someone - there is a firefight all around. this one guy isn't human (or at least has otherworldly armor) and cant be killed with guns. i try to blow him up by giving him a small bomb. it is either a dud or he destroys it before it can go off. i try to buy another one - need 3 parts and they are all 20,000 each. someone alerts me to my yellow skin - i don't have much more time to complete my mission.

i'm getting dressed for school (have the sensation of running late) in (sort of) the house i grew up in. my mom is there - someone had rented out my room ((Happened irl - i was in a different bedroom at the time)). my mom wound up buying back the offshoot room but the renter didn't really care because it was full of junk anyway - some of it mine some not. anyway, getting dressed and all my normal clothes are dirty - i wind up getting old cloths and clothes my mom had gotten me but i had never warn. i wind up in a rather skimpy shirt and jeans. i think the shirt had kid rock on it. definitely something my mom would wear - slightly see through - button up in front - black. i rummaged through my mom's closet as well. there was something with the candles upstairs.

someone was reading my dream journal and telling me how pretty my handwriting was. ((this is really odd because my handwriting is all but unreadable most of the time - esp when just waking up. he was, however, not commenting on the legibility, simply that it was 'pretty'))

1.there was something to do with bdsm.. like a party or maybe just someone talking about it. ((was a non-rem dream - in the first 3 hours of sleep - very short. it was linking from last nights party.))
2.i stole/borrowed a usps truck because i was late for something. later obama was there and i was in trouble.
3.((later in the night/morning, but probably connected to #2 anyway)) i was being questioned for the numbers to a safe. i was in trouble for something, but not exactly 'in custody'.
((f'ing neighbor had her radio up REALLY loud - pissing me off and making me less than inclined to focus on my dreams))

I feel like i was aware of the fact that i was dreaming most of last night, but was too damn tired to force a more active lucidity (stayed up ~4 hours later than my body wanted to).

woke up knowing i had been dreaming of zombies (played the first bit of the walking dead game before bed), but not much else. watching a youtube video about owls flying sparked the following recollection.

I had this little motorized winged gadget that is meant to help one fly. there was a spot in the woods that had awesome updrafts - enough to get me flying unassisted (more of a gliding thing - couldn't go long distances. going up takes a LOT of effort, and the forward movement is mostly gliding/making use of updrafts). i had to go somewhere far away, so i figured stealing one of the flyers (the winged gadget) would help get me there. When I used it in the updraft place however, it shot me up too heigh too fast. it was slightly frightening, but mostly inconvenient as i couldn't see where to go. i had a male friend with me at some point. vaguely fairly like (we were)... were on someones roof - the someone else's patio - used their comp/radio/etc for music.
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a secret base for...? abnormal people - deep underground. there is a valve like tube to get there. usually solid, but if you know how to get there, you can make it open and admit you. there might have been a fire there at some point - well contained. i thing i stole/borrowed the flying device from them. the mission was probably also from them. it was in a place way to the north - on a coast.

so, yesterday i decided to use a bracelet that i always wear as a kind of RC. i wrote some numbers on it figuring they wouldn't show up right in the dream. unfortunately it didn't quite work out - i think my mind has turned that particular number combination into a picture, therefore defeating the number test. i did, however, manage to bring the bracelet into two separate dreams (at least - all i could remember) and actually had a 'wait a moment' and did a RC with my bracelet (even if i did fail). plan on still using the bracelet, but imagining something else on it/reminder to do *other* RCs. also trying to be more aware in daily life. ADA. used to meditate a lot, so not that unfamiliar with the process, just out of practice. also, found myself naturally waking up ~4-4.5 hours after going to sleep - around 12/1230am. wasn't sure if that would be the case considering my wacky sleep pattern (i'm trying to force it to normalize yet again).