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So yeah..... lucid dreaming practices is pretty much non existent for me as of now. Nothing special really, I almost never stay with my commitments (a flaw I'm trying to fix). This morning, when I woke up, I was still pretty tired so I tried a whack at WILd'ing, and oh boy was it worth it. I chained up to 7-8 lucid dreams (albeit being rather short)!

I'm just lyin' there trying to WILD. One mistake I made throughout the process was trying to calm my heart rate, as I thought it was because of unconscious fear of hypnogogia and it would harm the development. I kept doing this until I finally let up, and there was a loud buzzing in my ears. Everything intensified and I was in the dream.

The first dream had me right where I was in waking life. I immediately remembered one of the goals of summoning someone, so I tried calling out for them but at the back of my bed a monstrous arm lifted me up in the air from the back of my shirt. Of course, not being scared I recall saying, "hey! put me down buddy!"

This next dream brought me into this school like building. The vividness wasn't bad even without engaging my senses, so I went around to look for some women. I was about to get the attention of one, but another one (who I recognize in waking life) walked by me and I went for her instead. I asked her if she wanted to do something cool, and without even waiting for a response I put my arm around her and strolled her along into, apparently, a mixed washroom. There was a large amount of people there in front of the mirrors just looking at themselves, as well as in the stalls, but I managed to find a free stall to start doin' da thing with her. She somehow disappeared when I went into it though, and the wall to the stall next to mine collapsed to reveal simply a hand stretching out across it.

After chaining to about 2-3 more lucid dreams which I can only recall being fuzzy and short, my next dream had me in a grocery store. Contrarily to what I did in the previous ones, I took my time to ground myself and the dream became very vivid. Also, this time I did a good job of not thinking of my sleeping body, keeping me in the dream for longer. I walked around and met a helper and I wanted to ask him where I can find a product, but there was another man next to me asking something else. After he had left, he brought me over to an area where there was a shelf really high up and asked me to bring down two types of chips up there. When I did so, I seemed to have forgotten about him because he wasn't there anymore. The chips wasn't the product I wanted, but eh, whatever. I was about to take a bite when the dream faded and I chained into another dream.

I was outside my house when it was around noon. It was really vivid and I wanted to fly to go somewhere else. After failing, I decided to just jump up the rooftops like a ninja instead. I backed up all the way into the neighbour's yard where he was sitting on the front porch, and after a running start I couldn't jump up high enough. I tried again on the neighbour's rooftop where the front yard was sort of like a hill so the ground was closer to the roof, but again I failed. I gave that up and went back to flying, doing a parabolic flight out on the street and flying back down near a car. The dream ended and, you guessed it, I went back into another one.

This one brings me into a motorcycle race. There was about 3 racers and I had a motorcycle but wasn't in the race. They left off but one of the racers' motorcycle vanished, and I felt bad for him so I gave him mine. Since the other racers were long off, I gave him a boost by giving him turbospeed by putting fire behind his pair of wheels. I was stepping side to side in front of him to make sure nothing happened to the motorcycle while it was going so fast. He easily passed 1 of the other racers. It's complicated to explain. It didn't feel like the motorcycle was going SUPER fast that the speed I was walking at must have been the same, but it felt like the racers' time were slowed down. Despite it all, his motorcycle eventually caught up to my foot and he swerved to the side to hit a tree. Oops. I teleported to where the last racer was and he kept going to eventually win the race. Going the opposite direction to where he went, a woman on a motorcycle came up and parked right in front of me, right on the street. I walked up to her and simply said, "hey, beautiful," and she was instantly attracted to me. When I approached her, her appearance changed but it didn't really matter to me at the time as she was beautiful either way. Also, my appearance changed as well as I suddenly became buff and tall, as well as probably good-looking. We wanted to have sex so we started taking off our clothes, but it kicked into us that we couldn't do it right in the middle of the street! While still being nearly naked, right to the side of the street we found a hotel so we went right behind it to start. Right before our intercourse, two middle aged men walked up to us and said we can't do it behind here. I suggested that we could just rent a room in the hotel and do it but they responded by saying they don't allow that. I finally gave up and we went back to the street to find somewhere else but the dream faded.

A couple of non lucid dreams that I can't recall here as I lost awareness.

Yeah, I've been pretty disconnected with lucid dreaming in general. At this point I can't promise anything, but I hope to have more entries available. On a side note, I had a nice WILD tonight. I feel confident that if I can WBTB and WILD every night, I could have lucids every night!

Besides that, I didn't remember any other dreams...

Failed Powers

I'm awake in my bed. I get ready to start WILD and, like usual, paralysis comes in a matter of seconds. Only auditory hallucinations, which I can't seem to remember, come and it all goes silent. At first, I'm sitting there thinking about when the visual hallucinations which create the dream will come, but I realize the dream may have already started. I get up, do an RC and find I'm in a dream! Strangely enough, this is where my memory of the dream is blurry, as I can't remember which RC I did, or if I even did an RC in the first place. Details become so bright in the dream, and when I start to make my way out the door of my room, I remember the tips to remember your waking life memories and it all comes flowing in. I decide to go in my sister's room, and I find her lying down on her back smiling. She doesn't even blink or move in my presence, and I saw her face being so detailed and accurate. I motion my hand over to her face to get a feel for it, but she kicks me away. I get a bit more aggressive now and start to get in a position to lie on top of her, and I try my earlier move again but she again reacts the same way. I decide to leave her. Yet another blurry part until I reach outside. I see most of my family and I believe I greet them? I'm not sure. I head outside and recall wanting to summon up my tulpa. I tried summoning a door to find her but that failed and the area was so detailed that I could even see that blotch of colour that you see when you focus really hard. I started to lose lucidity at this point. Out on the street I was on, people from both sides started walking towards me, and if I recall correctly the scene sorta looked like it was morphing into a school setting with lockers (but hadn't completely changed into it). To prove to myself to be completely sure I was dreaming, I tried launching a fireball at one of the people, but to no avail again. I then woke up quickly before I had the chance to chain it. Or the dream just went on non-lucid, and I can't remember it.

When I woke up that morning, I asked my tulpa about it and she was sleeping at the time. Heh..

Oh boy! Been enough time since I've written a DJ entry. I have been consistently writing in my physical one (what I'd like to think ;-; ). I've been doing WBTB for the past few nights and I'm happy with my recall when I do so. Unfortunately, I keep waking up after the first WBTB and being too lazy to write the new dreams. I've missed writing around 5 dreams like this. Tonight's no different, but I managed to have a short LD tonight! The dreams I recalled after the first WBTB are sometimes just me writing in my DJ (lol). Anyway, here are some dream fragments:

In the dream I wanted to "better myself" or something similar.

There were a few dreams where I wrote in my dream journal. I distinctly remember one where I tried to WILD after doing so.

And for the other dreams, and the lucid:

Get the program, hurry!

My brother said we had to obtain this piece of software to fix the broken computer. We had to hurry to the store quick or else some other guy would have taken it. I asked if I could have a new PC after this and he said, "maybe". We never did end up searching for the thing and, though I'm not sure if this is in the same dream, there was this dangerous maze I had to navigate that had monsters and was really bloody from all the other unlucky people to have ventured there.

After quite a few awakenings, I came across this dream again:

I was controlling this strong man and was entering the maze from the ceiling. I was thinking the monsters'll never catch me from up here, but surprisingly one jumped up very high and nearly bit my legs off. I was back at my real body's view and my brother said, "Come on, we have to go get the software! Remember last dream?" I got distracted by Saitama and Genos (from One punch man) walking down the stairs and had followed them. But I pondered over what my brother said earlier and realized I was dreaming. I was at the bottom of the stairs and there was a turn that led down to more stairs, which led to a door outside. I was at that middle section, and there was a guy standing there. I decided to wear Saitama's hero clothes, and the show's opening started playing in the background. I punched that guy, OPM style. Strangely enough, I did it with my left hand and I'm right handed. Interesting. I went to the bottom of the stairs in front of the door, and I tried using my cape to teleport myself (sorta like Meta Knight) to Boros so I could fight him. That didn't end up working, and I woke up.

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I couldn't remember any dreams the other night (mostly 'cause I didn't put any effort), but I have a very long dream tonight with some dream fragments.

All he wanted was blank papers

I don't really know how the dream started, but I was this knight with a different appearance (something similar to Marth in physical appearance and armor, but without the cape). I wanted to save Yato (from the anime Noragami) because he was apparently my friend and he was kidnapped into this castle. I almost forgot about him but remembered him from a distinct memory of when we were together (In the show, he's a god so if you stay a certain amount of time away from him you will forget about him). I was in front of the castle but there was a moat with no drawbridge, and a large group of people were behind me. These people couldn't really fight, but some could. Suddenly, a darkness from the castle enveloped everything, and everything looked black, even with the sun up. Panic was setting in for a few people. The scene sorta changed where we had to push back incoming monsters in the complete darkness. Everyone was safe. The scene changed back and the darkness was gone. We had found a way to get up by using a sort of wooden bridge and tilting it against the castle wall to climb up. Fast forward and almost everyone was up, and it was my turn. My perspective changed to a few people at the bottom, and when the knight was near the top he was shouting at them asking for some help. The thing was about to fall, and it did but it did so in a way to act as a bridge to the castle. The knight thanked them anyway, and my perspective went back to him. The circumstances changed in which I was Eren Jaeger from Attack on Titan trying to save Armin and Mikasa from Dr. Eggman. I was the same age as he is in the show (15) and I apparently hadn't seen them since 8 or so years. I was walking through this tunnel-like place where many of the people earlier were trying to find some blank pieces of paper. All Dr. Eggman wanted was a stack of blank lined paper. I easily supplied him with it and he let my friends go. I was surprised to find them the same age as before, and they hated me for some reason. I had aggresively asked him if he did experiments on them and he replied with a yes. I demanded him to revert the effects, but all he could do is give them children's toys and videos and he ran away, leaving me with my toddler friends.

Couple of dream fragments

I was playing this red, blue and white card game with my little brother and he really wanted a white checkered, to the extent to cry for it. I had hidden it from him but showed him, and he was pleased.

There weren't a lot of boots around in stores, so we had to find some other shoes outside of town.I believe this happened the full dream above, which might explain why there was a lot of people with me?

I was shopping for something.

It's been such a long time since I wrote in my dream journal. I may not have the consistency to write every single day, but I can surely manage once every two days. Of course, I'll be having a physical dream journal I'll write in everyday.

I couldn't remember most dreams during the night, but I can easily recall one when I woke up and went back to sleep.

I need to WILD!

I was on a bed getting prepared to WILD. The vibrations came rather fast, only a few seconds after getting relaxed. Must've been very tired. I fell right into another dream, where I simply got up from the bed I was sleeping in, and was disappointed as I thought I failed the WILD. I went into the washroom but as I wasn't focused on the mirror I never saw my reflection. In the bathroom I realized I might have already been in a dream, and did a successful reality check, and before I could even say "I'm dreaming!" I woke up right back in the first dream. I went to right back to another WILD and when I woke up, I did the reality check where I look at my hands, but I couldn't see them clearly so I tried levitating, and it worked! I tried to call upon a thoughtform I wanted to hang out with in the dream but found myself waking right back up again. I got pretty upset, and it only made it worse that my family came in saying I had some errands to do so I had to wake up. Strangely enough around the sides of the rooms were glass walls where prisoners were mining up ore deposits. To much world war two in history class. When my family left the room, I thought, "maybe one more shot at this". So I went back to sleep and woke up again, and gained lucidity again. This time though, I immediately went to a wall to ground myself into the dream. It was getting much more vivid. The room wasn't well lit, and on the corner of the room I could just make out a younger version of myself who wanted to help me find that thoughtform. Also, I saw what I thought to be my aunt (She's came to visit yesterday, and also now that I recall this part of the dream it seemed more like some demonic being, something like the monsters in amnesia) lying on the bed. I decided to stop touching the wall but when I stopped I started feeling as though the dream would fall apart. So I went to the opposite wall and started feeling that. It felt close to reality now, and I could stop now. I was looking towards my aunt and she had apparently turned into a blue sheet and attached herself to the wall. I could distinctly hear the words "Ding! there we go." I had lightly laughed. I gave a glance towards my younger self and said, "Hey, instead of doing that to find the thoughtform, why don't we teleport to where she might be?" So then, I tried the spinning method, as I heard it helped with grounding as well as teleportation, but it made the dream unstable and I woke up for real.

I decided to post this up because I had some interesting dreams when I fell unconscious. Originally woke up from normal sleep at 9:10, started 12:30, woke up 14:35, fell unconscious around 13:00. This makes about my 6th failed nap WILD, but the first one where the problem was I fell unconscious. I'm usually too awake to WILD.

I'm lying down prepared to WILD. I'm on my stomach and after what feels like 7 minutes, I use KingYoshi's "Rolling Victory" and roll over to my side. I didn't really feel very comfortable so I rolled over again on my back. After another about 10 minutes, my body went very numb but my head didn't feel very comfortable so I decided to roll over again to my other side, my normal sleeping position. I felt my body go really numb here after a bit of time, but I just couldn't go to full body paralysis. All the while, even though I felt sleepy enough to fall asleep, I was still a bit too conscious, so I was thinking a dark void and of course, my anchor. After a cycle of this and back to my normal sleeping position again, my motivation dropped significantly and here was where I didn't pay enough to my breathing (my anchor) and fell asleep.

I had a dream where I was trying to WILD. I was having the regular problem where I was way too conscious of my surroundings and couldn't sleep. I got up and went downstairs down to my laptop and was just doing stuff. While walking there I'm pretty sure my brother was on the couch trying to WILD (in waking life he doesn't even practice lucid dreaming), but I'm not very sure. I was sitting there on my laptop when I suddenly decide to close my eyes. For some reason I could still see everything in front of me but I knew my eyes were still closed. The scene was exactly the same with my eyes closed, except that it seemed to be night time because it was really dark and my sister was standing in front of me. Or so I thought. She looked the same but seemed demonic when I recall it but at the time I wasn't phased, and I was thinking I should WILD, right there. So I set the intention to and while still viewing the static scene, full body paralysis was gradually affecting me. I was waiting for it when it suddenly stopped coming. I was trying really hard to make it come but couldn't. It just stayed at about 85% paralysis. My body felt extremely numb but not completely paralyzed. I was going to become angry about when the dream ended.

I tried MILD tonight, and tried to induce a WBTB + a recalled dream, and even though the WBTB didn't work out I'm glad I could remember a dream.

Am I really that scary?

Note: Title only applies to the end of the dream.

The first thing I could recall in my dream was being in a store. There were lots of things around and I had about 35$ (the amount I have in waking life). I wanted to get some sweets and other junks with only the 5$ bill I had. I got some things like doughnuts, and something else. I looked around and I could find even more things. I wanted a cold sweet, like an ice cream sandwich, so I looked in the store refrigerator things but I couldn't find any ice cream sandwiches. I thought I found one in one of them, but I found it really wasn't, when a DC pointed it out. The last refrigerator was somewhere behind the cashier area, so I tried to go but, like many times earlier, the cashier didn't let me go. So I went back to the other ones and found a cold cupcake box which apparently costed 179$. I thought that must be a mistake and they actually cost 1.79$. So I went to the cashier (who was interestingly my past art teacher). My friend, who also wanted to buy something, threw some medicine near my things and I told her that this is separate and threw it back. My things costed AROUND 188$. I was thinking, did that really cost 179$? I asked the cashier to put it back and she then said it costed 8.36$. I really didn't want to use my 10$ bill, but I ended up doing so. Fast forward and I'm walking back to school. But for some reason we (I was with some other people) take another way and it leads us through a lot of places in town but we manage to make it back to school. Some other people in school (who aren't very fond of me IWL) say that there's a cool movie going on in the field, which they thought was a theater, when really it was just a soccer game. I needed to go to the washroom so I went in and notice the door locked behind me. I assumed it was those guys so I looked around for an exit. There was a door to the girl's washroom and I figured if worse comes to worst I would get out through there. I then realized that I can unlock the door from the inside, and I wondered how they even locked it from the outside. So I got out and one of the guys, who was affiliated with the guy who locked me, had this look that he was surprised I got out and scared that I would be angry. I really wasn't though. I was walking out to the field when I noticed I don't even have pants. I was covering my parts with my shirt but eventually I had some shorts on, but only saw it as some mirage for everyone that will get me through to eventually wear pants. Outside, the soccer game started and one person, who I could recognize in waking life, was crossing everyone out. Something happened and I think they won the game. I went back in school to find a poster for a movie. The picture was of 4 guys looking up, one of which was the guy who saw me come out of the washroom, and 2 other people who were friends IWL, but they would definitely want to do a prank on me, and the other guy I can't recall. Probably the one who locked me in the washroom. The title of the movie was something along the lines of "The Terror of <My real name>" and under the picture, not as a review but as part of the movie, it said "scary doesn't even begin to describe it". In the dream I fell down on the ground, and it was cool as I was falling slowly as though time went slower, and I was bursting out in laughter. I then woke up laughing as well.

Same result as yesterday. Zilch.

Definitely have to actually follow the suggestions of past comments to address this -_-.

Tonight surprised me.. I couldn't remember anything at all. Even at days when I don't remember anything, I can still faintly recall images or events that happened, yet there was nothing today. Nothing.

Uhh.. I was snoring all night tonight.. I definitely didn't not remember any dreams..

Nearly forgot to write this one .-.

Searching

I remember having a lucid tonight but I forgot the first scene so this is a dream scene change where I retained lucidity from the last.

I was on the sidewalk. There was no one else around me and I was walking down the street. I remember wanting to look for my subconscious again, but that's when a car passed by me. The woman driving the car was literally staring at me. Now that I recall it, I felt as though she had this evil presence and she put her head out the window when she passed by me just to keep staring at me. But it didn't bother me at the time because I knew it was a dream. More cars started to drive by the road and I stopped a car to find a chubby man driving it. I asked him what he represented, but he didn't really give any significant answer. I left back to the sidewalk and decided to look around the grassy hills on the other side. I kept trying to look but couldn't find her (my subconscious). There was suddenly these people in a cafe, but I can't really describe it. It was as though I was in a cafe, but I felt as though I was still in the hills. I forgot everything after this.

Don't come

I woke up in my house. The dream was too hazy for me to even think about it being a false awakening. Also, I woke up in my parents' bed. I got up and then someone said I had to not go to the next room because there was someone there and she was busy with something. So I waited and she finished. I went to the bathroom, but I could not recall any experience with mirrors there.

I also remember getting some riot points and wanting to buy a skin (League of legends.).

The dreams I had just barely slipped out of my mind earlier today :/.

I've been slacking off in daily reality checks and general awareness these past few days. I gotta step it up.

A type of school

I was in this sort of school. I was in a room that didn't really seem like a classroom and I was the only one in it and I was in the only desk. A teacher, who I could sense behind me, was giving instructions, and I thin he was teaching me a language. It seemed to be summer school, though I forgot what made me think that. I left the desk and went to another classroom and there were 3 other people with me. There was a girl, a fat person and someone else. We did something there and sat in the hallway to eat lunch. I forgot what else happened in this dream.

League of Legends

This dream was actually part of the last one but I decided to separate them because unless you play the game you really won't understand what's happening here.

I was in bottom lane playing the role of AD carry on blue team. I was in the same perspective as the game but I didn't have a physical body. I was playing as Striker Ezreal and my support was Blitzcrank. He was tower diving the enemy AD carry so I decided to tag along. Blitz grabbed him but he somehow went towards him instead and the AD carry went to the position Blitz was. I tried to Q him but the Mystic shot just barely missed, so we went around the tri bush. But the enemy team, led by a Riven with a resource bar similar to the Rek'sai and Tryndamere have came along. Weirdly enough, they didn't acknowledge my presence so while Blitz died I was able to get away by E-ing over the wall to a blue buff with the same terrain as the purple team's red buff. I wanted to try and escape somewhere else from here, but decided to recall (Recall is a spell in the game, I don't mean to recall the dream).

I dropped from an average of 2 dreams per night to 1. And it's really irritating because I'm able to easily recall another one but by the time I started writing it in my dream journal I forget about it.

The school and game system

It started in my current school. I was going to go outside to take a bus ride home when there I found out there were no buses I could take. So I had to take an alternate bus route home. Though, the bus stop I was heading to was the on the street of my old school. I remember the giant field behind it. Also, the school changed to the structure and ground of my old school as well. There was a giant part of the school missing though. Along with this, there was a giant building in front of the school. A large fishing pole was cast from the top of it, and at the end of it was a gaming system of mine. I really wanted it back, but decided to give up on it. So I went to this other bus stop and there were some other students there as well. I waited for a couple of seconds when a bunch of doctor like people with face masks came out of the school. And along with this, a sudden crowd of students were spread out across the entrance. The surgeons, I'll call them, said they needed to bring everyone back to the school for some tests. When we went back inside, the area appeared to be a train station platform. I was walking around and may have been doing some other things but appeared on the screen of a computer. I was literally in the screen of the computer. I was reading some things about me, which I forget, while walking up. I finally reached the top of the browser. I asked the owner, who was one of the surgeons, if I could go to this tab which had this title which was school building or something like that. He accepted and I went in only to find myself in a hallway. It was all empty. I walked across and this is where my memory really becomes hazy. I was either becoming a pawn which had to overcome challenges from monsters that came from the game system I was talking about earlier, or I just had to do something. Either way, a monster spawned across the way. If anyone is familiar with the Monster Hunter series, it was the mixture of Rathian and Yian Kut-ku which had no skin, similar to the colossal titan from Attack on Titan, and was a sub species called Omega Rathian. Only it was very undersized, reaching to about my chest in comparison. I didn't have any weapons to fight it so I went around and ran away. Some DC's appeared and tried helping me escape. At the end of the hallway I made a turn left into a door and turned left again into the top of these stairs. But the monster made it through and was coming towards me to do a tail flip, similar to the ones Yian Kut-ku does in the games. It very easily missed me though and the scene changed back outside the school. I had the game system I wanted earlier. I was watching some DC friends go on a bus which was on the bus stop I didn't want to go to earlier. I then walked along the street to the bus stop I needed to head to. When I reached the other side of the street from it, a GUI popped up in my vision saying information about the bus that was coming. At the bottom of it, it said "the place to find shy girls!" Ah, so this is the nonsense that dreams can demonstrate. I knew nothing before this . The bus then came and I head on my way home.