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#168 - 4:54AM - WILD?/OBE - DILD

I have one more round of OBE FA for the night

*warning sexual content*

I find myself in another OBE but it feels slightly more stable. Still it's dark and I feel the need to stabilize. This time I go ahead and resort to floor licking wishing for light. Soon I see light coming through the windows. I get up and make my way out the back this time. I see my Stella, my cat, lying by the back door. For whatever reason I give her a lick too. My mouth becomes full of hair and I have to spit the fur out. Then I notice a strange sound. As I listen it become clear that it is raining hard outside.

I open the back door and see its raining so hard the back yard is flooded. I can play in the rain! Suddenly, the thought of playing in the rain because the best idea every. I excitedly step outside but as soon as I do the rain stops. I thought, Ah you've go to be freaking kidding me! I see the huge puddle that is my yard and get an idea. I think that if I dive into head first it will become deep enough to transition into an ocean and I'll be able to do the Australia TOTY.

I jump off the back deck and dive head first only to get my head stuck in mud and in darkness. Stubbornly, I make swimming motions and try to picture the coral life. Nothing happens and I am forced to give up. I pull my head back and find myself still in the same dream. I see some movement on the other side of the privacy fence and vault over to see who's there. There are a few very attractive young women hanging around. I feel menthol calling and I move in close to what looks like an Asian/Causation her hear is long curly and black. She jumps on me and I catch her. I notice she is completely nude from the waist down and we begin to have sex standing up right there in the alley. But before anything really happens I come to my senses. I push her off me and toss her to the side like a rag doll.

I start running down the alley to the South. I'm now curious what I will find as I realize that I have never explored this area during an OBE. I begin running at super fast speed. I've never done this before and I was really enjoying it. I could feel my legs moving inhumanly fast with little effort. The only problem was that the faster I ran the longer the alley got. I decided to stop and as soon as I did I was at the end of the alley on 20th Street. I decide to fully transform in to a werewolf and have some fun in traffic.

This time I distinctly feel my body shift and streatch. I begin running again but I am on all fours. I feel my hind legs in perfect rhythm with my front legs.

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I try to get in front of the cars and attack them but the deftly avoided me. The closer I got the fast away they moved. It was like polar opposites. I tried various approaches but I could never get close to any car. I soon lost interest.

I looked to the right of the road and saw a woman and man calmly walking away from me. They looked really cyber punk. The man had a black leather jacket with some orange and red design on the back. But my eye went strain on the woman. She had birthright orange hair with black yoga shorts with some colorful design on the butt. I am immediately turned on and quickly move to her. She looks a little like Gwen Stefani or the white rabbit chick from that matrix. Not that it mattered I just want to pull those yoga shorts off. I snatch her up with superhuman strength and carry her off. As I reach the other side of the street she become burdensome and I notice I am back to human form.

I completely lose myself and don't want to wait. I bend her over and pull her short down and have my way with her. She yells, "Oh... Right here? OOOOOHH YEA!"

After some time I regain my self control and stop. I realize I that I could really have issues when I woke up. I move away from her and try to wake up but have a FA instead.


This is getting embarrassing.... I am in the bathroom trying to clean myself off but am having difficultly. The strangeness of it all makes me think this is still a dream so I do a nose plug. I laugh out loud and can't believe how many FA's I am catching on to tonight. I decide if I really do have a mess it doesn't matter now.

I go out the front door and find that the day light is super bright now. The air feels cool and I notice I am wearing a jeans and a jacket that I don't own in real life. I decide to go for the China TOTY now. I think I'll make a sliders wormhole and teleport. I move into the street but the sun seems so bright that everything is getting white washed. I move to under the big tree in my front yard and the lighting is perfect.

I make a hand motion to create a wormhole. Nothing. I try again. This time I see a white ball of energy suspended in front me but it refuses to form. I let it dissolve and reach behind me to summon the "timer". I point and shoot, see the beam, but nothing happens. I give up and decide to try flying there.

I look around and see the terrain has become slightly mountainous and some very modern Chinese buildings are on the hills to the North East.

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I begin to fly in that direction. I jump and land hard. hmmmm. I decide to "focus fly" by picking a spot on a building and focus on going there. I feel myself levitate but I never move. Damn, why is my dream control failing now? I run to one of the buildings and begin to manually climb up it. The effort is labored and I feel tired when I reach the top. I look down the other side and notice its a REALLY long way down. I see something down there. It looks like the Great Wall! The shadow of the building covers part of it and the darkness worries some but I try not to let it manifest. This is it. I just need to jump down there. For some reason the height make me a little apprehensive and I hesitate. After a moment, I get over it and jump. The dream time lerches and there is no falling. I simply find myself on the ground next to the thing I saw. I stand up and look it over. It's just some stupid fence made of sticks and river rocks! I feel horribly cheated as I wake up.

#167 - 4:23AM - WILD?

I have a long cycle of SP to OBE to FA and back again. During each FA I am back in my bed and I remember nose plug. I am surprised that I am still dreaming. During the SP I find transitioning almost impossible but there is a lot of sensory input. I feel like I am spining and then going up and down on a roller-coaster to the point that my stomach feels like its turning upside down. There is tons of vivid imagery. I remember trying to read some huge billboard that appeared to me but it's all in Russian. Once I am in the white void and I become excited but it doesn't last. I remember hearing some rap song and then a rock song. I tried to just enjoy the show. I did lots of hand motions and noisy hand rubbing. Once I felt like my physical body was on the edge of the bed and I scooted over but I think that wasn't real. At one point I kind of want to bail out because I feel stuck in this long cycle but I don't want to wake up completely so I just ride it out.

Finally, I have an OBE long enough to write about. It was very dark and unstable, but a start. When I got out of bed I remember having breathing issues. It felt like total sleep apnea and I had to force my breath to be steady and long. For a second I focused on my physical head and tilted my head back enough that I felt breathing was easier. I didn't lose the dream when I did that and continued on. I wasn't sure if it was real or not but either way it helped.

I was acutely aware of the sound of the box fan but tried not to pay attention to that because I didn't want to wake up. I notice there is light but it is dimly lit like a dimer switch on the lowest setting. I made my way to the bedroom door but it felt wrong. It was extra wide with 5 or 6 brass and steel sliding locks mounted on it and an odd door knob. Luckily the door opened with ease.

It was dark in the next room and before I move in there I try feeling around for a light switch. I see some male DC standing there just in the darkness. I don't become frightened. I asked for help. "Hey can you turn the lights on, sir?" He steps closer and I see that it is my dad in his PJs. "Dad! Will you turn the light on?" He mumbles something and looks to be half asleep. He reaches near the area I was feeling around at and the lights come on but they are just as dim as the bedroom. Dad staggers off in the darkness of the kitchen and I head for the front door. I look around noticing my house is not at all right. It is creepy and dirty with huge cob webs. Parts of the house looks badly in need of repair. Some of the flooring looks to be a hodgepodge of various scarp boards. I try to make it to the front door but as I pass by the dining table a chair sticks to my arm and holds me back. I have to take time to relax and will it way before I could continue.

Finally, I reach the front door and step out only to find that it is totally dark. Instead of going back inside I turn around and float up the exterior of the house keeping its detail in my vision as a way to stabilize. I notice we now have a second floor and I can see my mom in some bedroom through a series of 3 windows in a row. See looks like she is pulling back sheets and getting ready to lay down.

I continue to float up to the roof. As I reach the peek I notice a super bright construction light and the entire back yard is lit up. I am thankful for the light but I focus on it too much. The white surrounds me and I wake up.

#166 - 3:55AM - WILD

My memory is getting weak on these early ones this time. There's not much to post anyway but I'll do my best.

I entered a dream scene were I was talking to my wife about something. There was something bad that happened. I kept saying to myself, This is a dream it's not real

Suddenly I am sent back to bed and I have a brief OBE but nothing really happens in it. It is dark and unstable.

Then I have a false awakening. I am sitting at the table with my laptop in front of me. My wife walks by saying something to me. I am wondering how I fell a sleep at the computer.

I wake up, remember to do a nose plug and tell myself to watch for FAs.

After the crazy WILD "The Longest SP", it takes a while to get back to sleep. But I manage. I wake from some NLD. I don't worry about recall too much and focus on DEILD. I focus on my neck and force the vibrations to start but they fade almost instantly. I should have nose plugged! I assumed I woke up. I don't remember anything until...

6:59AM - #152 - Whispers In The Dark - DILD/DEILD?

The beginning is crazy and mixed up. Basically I have several FAs and finally start doing nose plug RCs

I do a nose plug RC and try to get out of bed. I find I am on the other side of it. I try to roll out and fall clumsily to the floor. I land hard with a loud thud. I am not totally sure if I am awake or asleep but I decide to just lay still and DEILD back. Duh I never woke.

I have a FA. I am on my belly and I pick up my head. I am back in bed so I am not sure what's going on yet. I wait. Then someone touches my back. It feels like 5 finger tips digging in hard. I am not sure if I'm dreaming but I say, "Don't touch me." I still feel vibrations so I don't want to move. I just assume that I am able to talk in SP. (dream logic ) I hear a strange whispering voice in reply. I don't understand it but I just reply, "I am trying to have a lucid dream. Leave me alone, please." More strange whisperings. At some point it sounds a little like my mother but only briefly. OK something is up.

I nose plug and blow through. Huh? I can't believe it for some reason. I nose plug two or tree more times to be sure. I stand up and turn around. The room is dark but I see some strange mass on the bed. I get in the fighting mood now. I growl the words, "OK YOU BITCH! FIGHT ME!" The shape becomes more defined and I clearly see that it is Shelob!



Shelob lurches forward as do I. We clash and I come in swinging. I punch, kick, bite, gouge, and scratch. We both roll over the bed and end up on the other side. The giant spider begins to deflate and shrink in size. I lift if up and it feels about the size of a large house cat. I rip it in half and it tears like a stuffed animal. I decide that is enough. I drop it and run out of the bedroom. I slam the door behind me. I realize that I am panting and laughing like a child who has been rough housing too much. Without much thought I run outside. I laugh when the door doesn't open and I have to unlock the deadbolt.

Outside there is more light but not much. Everything is lit with moon light. The neighborhood looks normal. I check my body and feel and see that I am properly dressed for cool weather. I feel my steel toe boots are on and I feel really warm.

I look at my hands and clearly see they look normal. I find that looking at them helps me to feel stable in this poor lighting. I notice cars passing and headlight briefly lighting the scene up. But I only get to enjoy it for a second or two and it gets dark again. Actually, it gets darker than before and I have to really look hard to get the moon light back. I see some guy come out of his house. The light from inside his house has the same effect as the head lights. Ignore him and continue walking with my hands out. I think I must look like some sort of cartoonish sleepwalker. I laugh a little.

I look up and see a few stars and a slim crescent moon. I see something brighter and lower behind some trees. I crane my neck and move over a little and see that it is a second and full moon. Satisfied, I continue down the street. I really have no plan this time except for keep moving and hope the dream gets brighter. I feel pretty stable but feel like a balancing act at this point. I'm almost to the end of the block when I hear a loud cry.


I realize it is my son in waking life and I am now wide awake.

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4:41AM -#151 - Longest SP - WILD

I am counting 1 I am dreaming, 2 I am dreaming, ect. while focusing on my body. Suddenly I am gripped by intense sleep paralysis (NOT REM atonia this time)I hear a demonic cat sound and feel a presence hovering above me. The vibrations are really intense and I cannot move. I feel the entity grab my balls and the vibrations intensify there to the point of mild pain. I try to cry out but the sound is caught in my throat and it sounds like a feeble wheezing. I open my eyes and see swirling black entities like Dementors above me. I am terrified but having been here many times; I force myself to relax and stay calm. I will the entity away. Immediate calm and quite comes over me.

I do my usually getting out of bed. It's dark and I feel really dizzy. I fall backwards into the wall. I feel like I am falling into a bottomless abyss. I see the hole I entered getting farther away.

I find myself back in bed. I can't see at all now. I use my dream hands to pry my dream eyes open. My eyes do open but I can see the bedroom and the red glow of the alarm clock. I close them. I do this several times but feel like its my physical eyes. At one point I feel the ceiling fan drying my eyes out and have to blink. I try getting up again but pretty much the same thing happens again. Then again I get up. I try to phase through a wall but it's solid. I am too frazzled to think clearly. I end up back in bed.

The vibrations are so strong. I decide to wait and focus on the vibrations. I feel like I am lying in an awkward position but I am not hurting so I don't move. I realize too that my head is at the foot of the bed and I can feel the box fan on my face. I don't care. I'm in the zone. I hear my wife ask I am ok. I become annoyed and tell her, "Yes Shhhhhhh!" I wonder how I am talking in SP but just go with it. I consider the probable fact that none of this is really happening. Still, I feel the vibrations and can't really move. I get the feeling that we are in my childhood bedroom in Luling from my teenage years. The lay out just seems to match.

I think I hear my son cry and I hear and feel my wife leave the room. I just lay there in waiting. What seems like a few minutes later she comes back and gets in bed. I realize that now I am back in the right position in bed. My hands are free to move now so I reach over to feel if my wife is there. I grab the ankle of a small child. I hear someone *gasp* so I let go. Was it my son? I was surprised she brought him to bed with us. I shrug it off. I feel like I can really move my hands now. I rub them and feel my face. Super real. BUT I can still feel vibrations. I decide to just wait this one out and let the dream form.

This waiting was a really long time. I think I'm forgetting a few details but it's mostly all there. I start doing things like the Gladius swing, Walking motions, anything repetitive to maybe get something started. Nothing worked. I get really bored so I meditate for a few minutes. Then I visualize being on the beach. I see some really vivid images but its more like flickering photographs. I try to imagine my feet in the sand but its a dull sensation that quickly fades. At some point I start talking to myself. I say something like "Well Shit. Hurry up dream. I am dreaming." I say all this out loud and I wonder if my wife can hear me because it sound ultra real. I begin to think at some point that I am going to be stuck like this forever and never wake up. I think this is my idea of Hell. Then I laugh and say out loud, "Of course it won't. It will change. I just need to stay patient."
After some more waiting and fiddling about in bed I start to hear music. It's Sugar Ray's Fly but instead of "I just want to fly" it is "I just want to dance." The beat and music and vocals are very high quality. I am thankful for some entertainment right now and I feel relieved to have a distraction. I begin to sing along loudly and dance as best I can in bed. I move my arms, head and upper body in rhythm to the music. It begins to feel invigorating and soulful. I enjoy the hell out of it. Soon the words fade and the music begins to wind down like a slow record player.

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Then there is nothing. No physical sensation. No sound. No movement. I just wait a second and the BAM!

I find myself standing in a big open room with no furniture. The room is well lit and there is gray carpet. I look around and say, "OHHHHH WOOOOOW! THAT IS SO COOL!" The layout of the house is off but reminds me of the house we lived in Luling. I can see out the windows as there are no blinds or curtains. I see the front yard but in the distance there is a thick mist. I have a feeling that my brain hasn't finished rendering the dream yet but I feel super stable and confident. I make my way to the front door. At that point I remember how this house was "haunted" in waking life. I imagine a horrible demon coming after me as I close the door but nothing happens.

Now I am outside the lighting is a little worse. The world looks cold and gray. I walk along the front of the house on the sidewalk. I realized that I forgot what my task was. I think for a second that I really should stay inside until the dream gets more stable but I am afraid and really impatient.

I can hear something like cheering and jeering at the nearby football stadium. I feel curious but I have something in mind first. I really want to burn this house down and never visit it again. There are too many bad memories. I see my shadow projected on the side of the house. I see brown wood siding. (Brick in real life) I think that if I can start a fire there is will catch and be gone. I do the clapping motion that I used for the fireworks TOTM. I hear a loud sound of fire like a flame thrower but only see a small flame on my shadow like a cigarette lighter. I try several times but only see and hear the same. Then I hold my hand up still looking at my shadow. I see handcuffs and a chain coming off it. I note this but ignore it for. The crowd at the stadium is jeering loudly now. (Damn I could have turned that into the Colosseum if I thought about it) I tell myself I will investigate in a minute. I really want to get the fire trick down. I focus on the palm of my hand. I see a glowing ball form. I stare at it and focus longer and harder.

Then, I am suddenly awake. NOOOOOOO!