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Yesterday I went to sleep at 8PM and slept till 7AM, during the sleep I woke up a lot of times and tried WILD huge amounts of times, never worked out. I even don't remember any dream except for a few fragments.
I think I should concentrate on something other than WILD, it's too damn hard. I can lie for 3 hours without moving a muscle but I never even have SP! Yes a few years ago I did WILD a few times, but now it got harder for me, mostly because of my great expectations, I get too excited about possibility of lucidity and what I will do once there.

I was looking for an easier technique and remembered MILD, I'll focus on it, will try to do it for 40 days as some people successfully did on this site. I'll make daily reports on my progress.

My dreams were excessive and vivid last night... but I only recall fragments and I'm sort of thankful for that

Early on, there was a sex dream with me and my step-dad.
There were dreams of being lost while driving and while riding a bike... of a mall and other large buildings.
I remember scenes from a beach and tornados.
Then there was a strange dream of people passing between realities in order to stop dangerous events from happening. One guy was flung beyond the range of their device. (I was him in the dream). He landed next to a hatch in the sand at a beach. The waves were insane and one of them opened a hatch. There were land mines inside, and every time a wave crashed into the silo like storage area, one of the mines would be flung out and it would detonate. 3 other people showed up. One of two of them died from the mines. "My" friends ended up coming to my aid and extended the range of the reality devices. But I woke up before the dream could progress.

Then there were weird TV Ad type clips of ways to commit suicide. None of them were pleasant in the least. One that I recall, was of making a deep slit in your side to pull out some of your guts. Then you fed it into a device connected to a toilet. Once the tension was just so, you would rubberband and hit your head on the ceiling, making yourself pass out, while the device continued to churn your intestines into sausage.

The last dream was semi-pleasant. I was lost and took a back road and ended up near my grandmothers house. I told someone else whose house it was but she didn't believe me. We got closer, then went inside. I started pointing out the furniture which had been favored by different members of the family (my grams took care of her 3 mentally retarded brothers). I expected to see my Uncle Eddy- the only family member still alive today IRL. Instead, I saw my grams. Only, she looked exactly like me when I was in my 20's.
She was wearing a shirt that tied in the front to show off her stomach and I saw several beautiful tattoos.
Then the dream jumped some and I was at a board game or something and there was real money tucked at a corner. I wanted to steal it, lol, but then it disappeared.
Later, my grams came to me and asked if it was mine. I opened the bills and there was a lot of money there (big bills) and some of them were foreign. I told her it wasn't mine (in my mind, pocking $5. is much better than pocketing $20.+)

I recall snippets of shopping; of being in a different country and worrying over my vape supplies.
Oh yes... then I was in another country, but I was having horrific headaches, so I went to the hospital. I was given an occipital blocker and there was much confusion over paperwork, payment and insurance.
I recall snippets of my old Congregation; and more dreams of extreme weather... and something about my kids and the destruction of homes when they were little and resentment about it all.

Morning of October 20, 2018. Saturday.

Dream #: 18,933-02. Reading time (optimized): 2 min. Readability score: 58.



In the first part of my dream, I am in the backyard of the Cubitis home with Zsuzsanna. We are sorting a big pile of laundry in the area near the southeast windows.

Over time, I realize we are in a different world, without considering how preposterous that is (subliminal awareness of the dream state). Eventually, we walk a short distance east, now being in the Stadcor Street house’s kitchen.

An unfamiliar dark-haired man of about thirty years old, implied to be a denizen of this “other world,” looks on as I try to copy a structure for serving a useful purpose for the length of our stay. From what I know so far, the denizens make large metal frames, though I am not yet sure of why. Mine turns out to be a wooden bed frame, though my dream self does not viably make the association (with either beds or sleep). I had mentally created it without lucidity. I study it for a considerable time, puzzling over how the wood is not perfectly straight from different viewpoints, yet I do not feel concern or a sense of incompetence.

“I am good at building houses,” I say with confidence, as I place the wooden bed frame in about the center of the Stadcor Street “kitchen” (still perceived as being outside in a rural area). My dream self does not consider that this wooden bed frame could not serve as a foundation for a house.

“You’re not making it out of metal?” asks the RAS simulacrum (the unfamiliar dark-haired man of about thirty years old), seeming somewhat puzzled, his expression and words causing me to consider if I need to make a metal one as a legal or social requirement. I slowly wake while thinking about what I need to add to our “house.”

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solution

a common factor of communication with the RAS simulacrum is its effort to get me to realize I am dreaming - but it only intrusively dominates when there is not a viable threshold (enigmatic space) thread

the bed frame that my dream self is going to use as a “house foundation” in my dream is wooden though our real bed frame is indeed metal

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dream factors

two locations incorrectly and uniquely combined
west area of Cubitis backyard > Stadcor Street kitchen (east)
directional orientation correct

indoor-outdoor ambiguity (simultaneously being indoors and outdoors)
Stadcor Street kitchen is also outside in “another world” in a rural area
Cubitis backyard is also an indoor area in the first scene

subliminal appreciation of the dream state as being “another world”

incorrect placement of Zsuzsanna in an American setting

dream state indicator as laundry (as I do not wear clothes when I sleep), representing the subliminal recall of having discarded clothes before going to bed

dream state indicator of literally “making the bed” (subliminal awareness of being asleep)

RAS simulacrum does not typically dominate the waking process when I am in first-level dream state indicator space even if I am not lucid

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Non-dream stuff - Woke up at about 8:30 but didn't remember any dreams, fell asleep and woke up again at 10:15, initially remembering a couple of dreams that started to fragment before I got up to write on the DJ.

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Dream:
I was at a computer and looking at a website; it had a plain black background and it was some sort of shop, selling plushies. There was a dropdown box and there were about 5 options. I had a dream memory or dream bit where I bought something like a crate of 200 ram plushies from some other website at a much lower price, for about 50 in total. On this website, each plushie cost anything between 16.99 and 38.99 or so.

I remember buying a goat plushie and when I clicked on the plushie titles from the dropdown box an image changed to show a rotating photo of them as a preview. Then I saw there was a little wolf, called something like "bloodthirsty wolf" or something, and it was really cute and had really large bloodied fangs and had an open maw. The size of the mouth and head looked exaggerated on purpose. Most of the plushies looked to be exceedingly well detailed, despite not being much bigger in size than my closed fist; they were in a cartoony style. I really wanted to buy the wolf plushie too and I think I did, but I started to wonder if I should be spending so much money on plushies. Remember thinking to look at my bank balance, but for some reason my phone wasn't near me and I ended up not checking.

It seems I've forgotten the other dreams as I wrote this one, hopefully remember them or fragments while doing something else...

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Some notes:

• While I really do like collecting animal plushes, I haven't bought any in some time now.
• I also wouldn't, in principle, be looking to buy them online. I like to know the quality of the material as I buy them, as when I was a child I always had a somewhat irrational fear that plushes I had would tear apart etc if you weren't very careful. I still feel like I have to be very careful with some, as I don't like the idea of damaging them.
• There's a big connection to my childhood from plushes in general, as my room had a lot of them by the time I was a teen. Friends often made fun of it if they were visiting and my oldest sibling would sometimes mess around with them which would really upset me and almost make me cry sometimes, though he actually didn't mean it with any ill intent. I just saw things as being very fragile, while he never did.
• A pair of plushies I last bought were two fluffy sheep. The ones available on the dream website seemed to be sheep, rams, goats and wolves.
• I'm not sure what brought on this dream context as a whole, as I see my and my partner's plushies around the house often, every day.
• Edit: discussed the dream briefly with my partner and he reminded me that recently we'd been working with goat and sheep leather, and that was probably what elated this dream context. I found myself immediately thinking about the leather as he mentioned this, and thinking how the fluffy side would be interesting as a material on plushes.

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Scoring thus far:
+ Previous score: 51.0

+ This DJ entry score (breakdown below): 1.0
++ Recall a non-lucid dream: 1.0

= Total score thus far: 52.0

I'm watching a movie and at is at a rape scene. The background was black. There is a woman getting forced to do sexual things with some man. It showed him hunched over the top of her with his naked ass pointed towards me, then it showed them standing up with his dick inside her cat then her sucking him off. When they got finished she was looking at his cock as it hung from inbetween his legs. it was a small pink color, slumped down not looking satisfied.

After that I was up and then go into a new five minute dream

I'm in a bathroom and was about to use the toilet but then I see mass amounts of water in the bathtub. There is a vacuum/ rug cleaner there and it was turn over on it's side with water coming out from the canister inside. It looked like it was cracked or damaged. I get up and ask mom about it and she tells me that she is draining out all of that water so that it don't sit inside and get stagnant. I was slightly afraid of the amount of water in the tub and it seems to be filling up and I pulled up my pants and got out of there.

I'm in a strange place that is very dusty and quiet. Dust roiled up as I walked around and then I seen a fireplace near me. I went over to it and inside was Auric! "There you are!" I felt myself being lifted up and realized that I was in his hand and quickly jumped out of there before he can get me. I heard him say something and then he squeezes himself out and I saw he had his sword out. I ran but I saw him put his hand up "Wait!" I saw him start to fight people and monsters as he made his way towards me.

Lucid

Was walking around a school and a bunch of kids tried to trip me in a hallway. I went outside became lucid as soon as I saw Jamie walking out the front doors with her phone in her hand, she was texting or something. Went up to her as she sat down. I asked , "Are you Jamie?" she looked up and changed her face to someone else and said, "no."

I went up to some kids sitting on the stair railings and said to them. "This is a dream!" Some of the DCs didn't like that and seemed to vanish from pure anguish. I then asked if anyone had seen Jamie? They said no. Jamie was just sitting there staring at me like WTF?!?!?!?!?!? My dream self is pretty dumb at times.

Jamie is still mad.

Various dreams of her being mean. In a couple she is dating my brother in front of me to make me mad. In another I'm walking around didsbury and some cop is giving me heck. Jamie keeps walking by with her hair dyed blond and is giving me mean looks.

Hurt

I am driving with people in a place that reminds me of BC. We stop at some shop to get ice cream. I know Jamie is there. I go to the counter and order Icecream. Jamie comes into the place from a back room. She looks at me and gives a weak smile. She is wearing a long white shirt and I notice her chin is severely bruised. I don't know what to say to her.

Weeks later

Was in a dream where I'm at some crime boss's house and he is supposed to have a meeting with someone. I start remembering and alternate dream where the man he was meeting shot him. I try to tell the crime boss about the man's plan to shoot him, but the way I reveal it just confuses him. A blond girl pulls me into a hallway and into a bedroom. She looks like mikala but not sure. We start sweet talking or something. I say something dumb like. "I'm in all these alternate realities but there is one constant in all of them : Jamie." Mikala smiles at that and kisses me. The rest of the dream I"ll leave out.

I have other dreams about "mikala." I wake up never sure who the girl actually is.

Dara dreams

I'm in Dara's apartment, and we are talking. Suddenly she hears a noise and goes to investigate. Later I had a dream of me standing in a kitchen and holding a baby. Dara is nearby looking at me.

Missing Girl

I'm walking with my dog in the woods. I hear a girl scream and I discover a cave with a deep drop. I hear a girl calling for help. My dog's mother Daisy rushes down the hole to find the girl. I go down and run into some guy. "Did you see the injured girl?" I ask and he says: Yes. He then shows me where the girl is. Suddenly I'm in a big house that's inside the cave. I go through a room where computers are set up for video game live streaming. The man leads me to a room. I see a desk with teeth and blood on it. He indicates that's where the girl was. There are 2 guys in a bed waking up, they are obviously gay. Not sure where the girl is still.

More Jamie dreams


A few dreams I am in a fortnite setting and jamie is with
More dreams at the highschool. In one Jamie doesn't speak to me but she hands me a written test, A boyfriend test. I pass it and she looks disappointed that I passed it as i she expected me to fail. But then she smiles.


In another we are in drama class and we are in a big circle doing some stupid dance. Jamie is a cross from me and beaming a big smile at me.

In another we are walking through a school field and Dara floats by shuffling a deck of tarot cards. "ooh this case is a tough one to crack innit?" She says.

The other night i have a flash of Dropping off Jamie at her house. She goes in through a trap door, she looks and smiles at me, but she looks rough like she hasn't slept for days.

I wake up briefly and I say to myself, "where is Jamie?" I fall into a dream and I see 7 angels with 7 trumpets they point at the throne of God with 7 fingers but the throne of God is blacked out. It's like they are saying," She is there talking with God."

Various Dreams

I'm trying to escape an abandoned mall. I find a flight of stairs which I kind of just glide down. I enter a street and hop over a fence to keep from being discovered. I walk into an apartment complex and find youtubers Omar and James. I ask Omar if he's ever tried bloody mary? He says no. I have a brief flash of walking with them earlier in the dream in the abandoned mall.

Next we are in a flying car in a futuristic city. We fly by these huge apartment buildings that look really futuristic. there is no way to enter them from the ground. Instead you have to fly up to them. I ask Omar if we fly in. He says no. We soon land on a landing where there are seats we strap ourselves into. The seats are attached to a metal beam which pulls us up into the apartments. The place reminds me where Asuka hid for years in an alternate dimension to hide from Walms/Hukif. I remember an Alternate Asuka took her place and created a clone that Walms killed thinking it was the real asuka. My dreams are messed up haha. Anyway we enter an apartment which belongs to my friend CJ. His place is a mess and his girlfriend is around and is a drunken mess. That's all I remember.

Created Friday 19 October 2018

Got a WILD/DEILD loop to note.

Scrap Group 1
Various WILD/DEILD chains. Most collapsed within seconds, often right after I floated out the . In one case, I'm dragged into a white void, where a female voice laughs at and taunts me. Another supposedly had a roach flying around my bedroom before I got up. I slowly spun in midair during the last one, until the dream collapsed again. DEILD transition two minutes later.

Dream 1 - Rickety Tortoise Waterfall Slide

The visuals were blurred. DEILD transition in bed. I float to the lounge, struggling to do so due to fatigue and dizziness. Had to take a moment to rub my hands and (ironic as it sounds) spin in place to stabilize the dream.

With the competition and tasks in mind, I glance at the bureau nearby. Sure enough, the glass tortoise statue was there in its rightful place. With a touch, I brought it to life. Unlike the statue, this creature was small enough to fit on one of my outstretched hands, and was colored naturally instead of the vibrant patterns of its previous glass form. Moreover, the sclera and irides in its eyes were distinctly human-like. It otherwise behaved as any animal of its kind.

I carried the tortoise off towards the living room, levitating it over my hand halfway through for the fun of it. That's when I saw an even larger tortoise was ahead, its shell alone at least 3-feet in diameter. It was struggling in vain to crawl out the glass sliding door. I similarly tried phasing past it, but even with 20 seconds of effort, I couldn't get through. So, I commanded the smaller tortoise to break it. The animal winded back out of view, then, while spinning, flung itself to the door. Despite the harsh impact, this proved ineffective. I resigned to just opening the dang thing, and actually managed to pull it off (quite surprising, given how that rarely ever worked before).

Out I went, to find an impossible structure awaiting me: a massive, rickety tower held together by random junk. I fly myself instantly over clouds and to the top of the structure, if overshooting by a story or two. As per the TOTM, I start imagining a waterfall would await me below.

Things warped. A tall, thin mountain had now replaced the junk tower. Everything now appeared "rendered" in blocky graphics similar to Minecraft. I almost got annoyed, but actually seeing a waterfall below, and hearing Leading Lights from Sonic Adventure, mollified me. I dived towards it, and allowed the water to carry me away. The first few seconds were a bit slow before momentum caught up. I fell into a sheer drop, only to collide chin-first on a rocky overhang. I was then launched away from the stream and into a narrow pit, tumbling around in pitch darkness for a bit before getting sent back outside into the waterfall. The descent continued for a few hundred feet more, until I abruptly crashed back-first onto jagged rocks. Though painless, the shock of the impact nonetheless knocked me out of the dream.

Just scribbling down some things I remember from this morning, a few hours after being awake. I dreamt my mom was involved in a horrific stabbing incident. I investigated the crime scene, and saw a lot of blood everywhere. I thought I'd be okay with it, but the scene was pretty gruesome. I think it was a movie theater lobby, and I saw no bodies anywhere. Evidently they were all gone, taken to the hospital. I didn't see any security or police or anything. I was fairly sure my mom was not harmed, but I also didn't have contact with her, so I was worried. I was just about to leave when two pretty girls appeared and wanted to investigate but were too spooked to do it alone. They pleaded with me to join them in looking around since I didn't seem to be scared. Great, if only I wasn't more worried about checking in on my family I really would have taken them up on their offer. How often do you get the opportunity? I left alone and started my search. The details here are foggy, but I recall seeing someone that looked exactly like my mom in a store. I talked with her and she didn't seem to recognize me. I asked her name and she gave something completely different than what I expected. She told me I was mistaken and to leave. I saw yet another person who had the same appearance in the store next door. Something weird is going on, and I want to solve it. As expected, she also was not who I was looking for.

Whether the dream changed or not, I found myself in a desert that felt a lot more like a video game. I seemed to be playing GunZ or some form of it. I think I was playing as a Mario character. I got surprise attacked by a person wearing full minecraft iron armor. I managed to get the lead on them and won the duel. I only got iron boots from them. Two more ambushed me and I again won the battle. I got two more pieces of armor and a good sword. Another attacked and I realized I needed to leave the place I was at. I checked my coordinates and found I was in the exact center of the map, of course that was why I was being hunted. I ran to the nearest city I could find and was in awe of how detailed it was. Tall cylindrical buildings with parkour stairways. The air was warm and breezy. I noticed the village went down a distance and the buildings continued the path. I saw some loot chests near the top of some buildings, but didn't want to risk going there in case I would fall. I got a bit too excited to explore and accidentally caught the wind and started gliding over a ravine. I made it to a safe landing and saw something that really caught my eye. It was a gigantic structure lit with LEDs and neon lights. I forget exactly what it said, but there was the name of something along with a topless woman.

The scene shifted a bit again. I was in an enclosed location with the structure in front of me. I reasoned that I was at some sort of movie theater / frat party. The sign was welcoming the party guests and saying what movies would be playing. I felt I didn't belong here, but still looked around to see what was here. I saw a couple of passed out drunk people in a living room. One completely nude. I saw a room down a hallway with a homeless looking guy inside and a sign on the door that said cannibal society. I saw another room down a ways that had several more nude people inside. I questioned whether I should participate in such a "lively party", but decided to leave instead.

I had another major dream segment where I was a child talking with my (irl) sister in law. She was with some loser who only wanted to get in her pants. I asked if she thought they had a future together and she said he didn't want to get married. We then had a discussion on how relationships shouldn't stay together if there is no hope for marriage.

Morning of October 19, 2018. Friday.

Dream #: 18,932-02. Reading time (optimized): 2 min. Readability score: 58.



In my dream, I am in an unfamiliar field, though it eventually seems to be modeled after the playground of my elementary school. A boy is playing soccer with older males. At one point, there is an accident. He gets kicked hard by others and falls so that his body vanishes. (This is the typical nonsensical “dream logic.”)

There are other people present making comments about the situation, saying that the boy should not have been there in the first place, implying the team members should have been within the same age range. It had been late in the afternoon, but now it is getting to be nighttime, and people are still debating the event.

An unfamiliar male (the preconscious avatar of this dream) picks up one end of a sidewalk. (This would be the northwest area of the West Elementary playground, but my dream self is only vaguely aware of this.) I lift the other (west) side, and we pick up the whole section, though it remains mostly diagonal. The body is not underneath it. I then start talking about how the season and the temperature relates to the level of difficulty in lifting sidewalk sections. I consider that we may be checking under all the others, but I wake after this scene.

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In the study of tens of thousands of my dreams on a day-to-day basis since childhood (for over fifty years), I have unlocked the recurring function of the preconscious helping my non-lucid dream self to resolve enigmatic space and return to consciousness. An aspect of this is “finding the sleeper,” which stems from the obvious subliminal thought of “Am I sleeping?” as well as “Where am I?” or “Where can my conscious self be found?” (to return to real life, not from the philosophical standpoint.)

The RAS simulacrum is lifting a sidewalk section to look under it, and I decide to help him (choosing to participate in my potential wakefulness). This process stems from childhood lucid dreams, where I would deliberately evade the RAS process and its avatars by sinking into the ground and chanting “invisible, invisible.” (I would find myself in an underground cave. I used to use devices, such as canes and bracelets with buttons, to augment my intent of sustaining my dream.)

The location is the same area where I deliberately sank under the ground in childhood lucid dreams, to sustain my adventure and the dream state after emergence into its vivified form. (Now, I mostly use doors, staircases, and virtual melatonin reinducers; water splashes and Naiads.)

The reticular formation’s simulacrum lifting the sidewalk section is modeled after the lifting of a trapdoor, to remind me that my waking life identity can leave the essence of the dream world. The falling boy was the vestibular event. My location and orientation in contrast to the preconscious avatar’s were the same as in those early dreams. (Ultimately, I am, at least physically, no longer a boy, so that property will not necessarily emerge during the waking process.)

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I am always dreaming, even in the waking time I am dreaming, daydreaming, dreaming at nights and dreaming in dreams. My mind is too far away from being lucid for most of the time, I have to do something about it.

I remember that the best recall and few lucid dreams were products of my sleeping on my back (usually I sleep on side), so I will try to make a habit of sleeping on back, last night I did it, my sleep monitoring app even said that as it didn't notice ANY movements it can't analyze my sleep!

Starting from today, I will try to go to bed before 21:00, wake up after 4.5 hours of sleep, analyze the dreams or read this forum for 20 minutes and try WILD. I hope it will help...

Summary for to-do:

Sleep on the back
Stay for 20 minutes awake after 4.5 hours of sleep and try WILD
Record everything

I am walking with some books, a few girls all in black are passing by, I feel out of place, accidentally I press a button on my keys and the car truck opens just when they are passing my car. I feel embarrassed to make it look intentional I go there and put the books into it... I am driving the car through bazaar through narrow passages asking them to make way.

I am experiencing problems with falling asleep on my back. I can relax and lie for 2 hours without moving a finger but I never reach full SP and even just falling asleep is a huge trouble. Also for years I have been a xxx addict, so whenever I feel on the edge of sleep I start fantasizing about the sex stuff and it makes concentration almost impossible. Although one of the main reasons of my starting this practice is having dream sex, yet I realize there is no way to do that without first mastering some basic skills like easy dream induction and stabilization. I will try not to think about anything sexual until I reach 50 on my lucid dreams counter...

Tonight I'll try to go WILD and fly.

Non-dream stuff - Woke up at 8:30 and then again around 9:10 and had some long non-lucids, but forgot most of the details. Really tired too so not particularly motivated.

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Fragment:
Something about Dark Souls (3), I remember the feeling of keypresses for attacking but remember being "in" the game.

Remember some other scene where I interacted with dream characters.

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Scoring thus far:
+ Previous score: 50.5

+ This DJ entry score (breakdown below): 0.5
++ Recall a non-lucid fragment: 0.5

= Total score thus far: 51.0

I enter a fancy, beautiful restaurant in one of the nice towers on Coruscant. I round a corner and sit down at a table with Qui-Gon Jinn and Obi-Wan Kenobi, whom I had arranged to meet there for breakfast.

I am approaching the main entrance to Hogwarts, but in order to get to the main door, you have to get through a series of challenges and tasks. They include climbing across a sliding metal puzzle-thing (which someone who was there before me has already aligned so that it can be climbed across easily), and washing some dishes and putting them away neatly (again, this has already been done for me). When you get to the main door, you have to sing the Hogwarts school song to the low doorknob to get it to open. Fortunately, I still remember most of it, and I sing the end part of it. The door opens.

I'm with one of my coworkers, and we are meeting to play a Star Trek RPG. We have to wait for my sister to show up, and I go on a rant about how she can get away with sleeping in late, while I never could when I was a kid.