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I crashed last night at around 9:30 and woke up feeling sick at 6AM (sick like a medicine hangover). I know I had a lot of dreams during that time, and some were even pleasant, but I've forgotten them thanks to the last dream/s I had.

I don't recall where the dream began exactly, but I think I was at a table. Zee's friends Katie and Brittany were beside me. I told Katie I needed my iPad back and she said she didn't have it anymore and she would explain later. I told her she would explain NOW. She told me she sold it on eBay and I became infuriated. She kept trying to get me to keep my voice down (though I wasn't yelling), but I marched right over to her mother and told her that her daughter stole my iPad and I expected it back.
Even though I was worried Katie would tell on me for teaching her about scratch tattoos and sharing smokes with her, I had to speak my mind. I was sick and tired of people stealing from me.
My hubby was nearby and he told me he was disappointed in me. But then later in the dream he was proud for me sticking up for myself.

Then the dream changed or merged into another one. I was sitting in theater style seating. I was close to the bottom with Katie. I confronted her on her purchases. I found where she had bought a book "Studies in the Scriptures" that was written in Spanish. I called her a fool (she spent $90.) because I could get one for free at the local Kingdom Hall. I told her I expected every single penny back and whatever else it took to replace my iPad.

Then she made the mistake of mentioning Zee. I told her she would NEVER see or speak to Zee again. I further said I would sooner send my daughter into Foster Care then to have the two of them anywhere near each other. Which made Katie very upset. But then it wasn't Katie anymore but a random DC. She told me I didn't know what I was talking about- that the book was from HER religion and she showed me what the title actually translated to. I told her I apologized for my mistake, but it didn't change the fact I was going to the police and getting a warrant for her eBay account.

At that point, a JW woman I love dearly- a woman who I've only heard raise her voice once IRL, she's that soft spoken- stood up and told me to get my ass out of there. It was only then that I realized I had been making a scene. I turned around and saw my p-doc in the audience.

I was so upset[ furious], that he followed behind me to see me home. Of course, my house was thoroughly disgusting. My kids were little and I asked who last had bathroom duty, because odds and ends needed done. It wasn't that bad though. The bed was gross though and my p-doc said he wouldn't lay in it anytime soon if he were I- but he was commenting more on its stability than anything else.
There was a strange container in the bathroom that interested both of us. It looked a little like a more flattened shaped genie lamp. He lost interest and stepped out of the room. I managed to get it open and there was silver creamy stuff in it. I smelled it and it got on my nose.
He said he worries about me. I wiped it off my nose, but he wanted me to sit down so he could properly wash it off.

My house was 2-storied and one of my kids (not a real kid) was exceptionally small. He was walking down the stairs with my doctor and I. The kid was near tears and I asked what was wrong. He wouldn't say. I asked if he would tell just me and he nodded his head. We disappeared into some other room and the little one said he felt like the Doctor was trying to get rid of him just like his dad and step-dad. He thought my p-doc was trying to spend time alone with me but I pointed out that the little one had never been asked to leave.

At some point during all the iPad drama, Zee showed up. I briefly told her everything that had happened as well as my threat to send her to Foster Care. She wasn't angry at me, but gave me a hug intead and said something along the lines of "poor mommy".


I know how all of the first part of the dream came about. While visiting Zee, she said we had to start family counseling soon and I would be very angry to learn half of the stuff she either didn't tell me or lied about. I told her I could guess some of it and that I was still angry about my iPod. She asked if I knew the truth and I said no, but I've guessed she sold it for drugs. She told me then that she was at a drug dealer's house taking care of his baby, who was crying. She had just gotten her cellphone from her friend so she was doubly distracted and forgot it there. Her friend then left state and she didn't know the apartment number of the dealers house. By the time she saw them again, they had already gotten rid of it

When I got home, Katie, Brittany and Anthony showed up at my door. They all crowded into my bedroom. The make pretenses for a good 20 minutes then ask for a smoke. Unfortunately, I'm one of the neighborhood's "cool" moms. I told them I wouldn't be doing it much longer because I was quitting. Then we talked about e-cigs for a while. Then Brittany told me about a scratch tattoo she gave herself and I called her an idiot because she cut much too deeply and she only succeeded in giving herself an ugly scar. So then I felt compelled to educate her on how to properly do it.
I usually hid from Zee's crew when they come over. I hate being the cool mom. At first, I only gave smokes to kids after I spoke to their parents to make sure it was okay. But then those kids would just give them to the other kids so I figure why try to keep up with what's what.

In the first part of the dream, my hubby was disappointed in me because I had been stupid enough to let someone borrow my iPad to begin with. But then he was proud of me speaking my mind because I'm naturally passive.
I'm not sure about the symbolism behind being in theater seating and having an "audience". The Witness was there because I've been thinking about returning and they've all been on my mind lately.

As for the second dream... I really have no clue about any of it. My house has always been the bane of my existence, but I also fell asleep thinking of ways to rearrange and decorate my room.
The cream I got on my nose represented Silver Nitrate.

I've now been typing this for almost an hour. TIme to eat...

I went to sleep at 3:30, woke at 11.

I remember tidbits about losing my car and being at the same vacation spot snow and all. I don't recall any animal dreams
But I did dream that my son Myles had died. "Ms. Jessica", my main spiritual mentor eons ago, came over to comfort me and to give me the name of a good funeral parlor which was run by someone named "MelanieB"

That's it.

I slept for 11 hours straight. I feel like it was restful, but my mattress is pushed away from the wall and my blankets are all over the place. I only recall bits and pieces of my dreams.

In one, there were lots of kittens and other animals. Forget the details though.

In another one, I was at a store and I couldn't find my car. I wish I could remember more of the dream though because there was a lot more to that story. I get fleeting glances of babies.... Ah yes... As I was leaving the store, a family was walking in. The had a toddler in the seat part of the buggy but he managed to fall out. The door greeter caught the kid by his feet right before the little one cracked his head on the cement outside.
And I don't know if it was in this dream or another, but I was waiting in line to order food but I stepped away to grab something. I was going to go to the back of the line, but a really nice man told me I could have my spot back and everyone behind him was in agreement.

Then there's the dream I REALLY wish I could remember. It was a surreal "nightmare". I was being chased by (?) but I was also on vacation. Snow was everywhere and there was some weird body of water that I've dreamed of many times in the past. It's located in the middle of nowhere and while it's not incredibly wide, no one knows how deep it is.

That's it

Some time has passed, so I've lost some of the details but....

I dreamed of many kittens again. Yet the dream spiced things up for a change and added a bunch of cats and rabbits too. Two of the rabbits were ones I've lost Neval and Mylopsia.
All of the animals were running around together. The rabbits kept getting loose and I was terrified the cats would eat them, but they all seemed to get along just fine. Some kittens were even nursing from Mylopsia
Then I went outside and the boys were loose. They had gotten their chains tangled together. I unhooked Snuffanuff easily enough but Rocky kept jumping all over the place and then I noticed that half of his face was missing

In another dream, the car theme ruled. I kept trying to get gas but ended up on the wrong side of the pump or way too far from the pump, then I wasn't filling my car at all but a gas can. Then I lost the gas can, lost my car, was going crazy trying to find everything I took off flying to get a better view, but it was so windy, I kept getting thrown off course. I eventually found my car and, drove awhile then parked some place I thought was safe. Turns out it was a semi-frozen body of water. I got out of my car, walked back somewhere, heard the ice crack and watched my pride and joy slowly slip beneath the water. I even tried to use my dream super powers to telekinetically pull it out, but it was hopeless.

I woke in a panic and annoyed at all these "stress" dreams. WTH? Life is fine right now. Life has been fine for over 2 weeks.

I also had an extremely bad dream at some point but I've forgotten it completely. I went to sleep at around 3AM and I woke at 8:30.

I almost forgot the music video dream. It was awesome. I was here at DV, checking out music videos and I found one by Enya (but it was actually, Enigma). I thought it strange because I could hear a musical score, but there were absolutely no lyrics. Then the video became my dream. *I* wasn't there but saw the following:
There was a couple in a garden, passionately kissing and in each others arms. But then you hear a bird call out and the woman looks up into the tree and sees a hawk/falcon. She grabs her lover by the wrist and they run as fast as they can down a path and to a cobbled road. She meets with a friend and tells him in confidence: "Hide him. Guard him. But if it looks like he's going to be captured then kill him. That would be a better death than what's being planned for him."

But then you hear the rush of horse hooves and a noose (as a lead) is thrown around the lovers neck. Then you see a young boy: blond, thin, with freckles. He looks to the woman and says: "You killed my uncle and my mother."
But the woman protested: "I'm not dead!" and she held her hand out to him.
Then I woke up.

I'm getting sick of the kitten dream. My brain is trying to tell me something and until I figure out the symbolism of the dream, it will plague me. It doesn't help that I don't recall the entire dream. All I do remember is walking through a house and there were tiny kittens everywhere. I found one who was close to death so I moved him closer to his mother. He started nursing but I found him again, in death throes Beside him was a pile of poop and I almost got my hand it in but I had to pet the little one to try to bring him some comfort.

The driving one was a typical stress dream. I had to get up a hill, but the road was covered in snow and ice. I made several attempts, but I kept sliding back down. THen I clicked my cars overdrive button and lowered it a gear and got to the top of the hill with no further problems. Once at the top, someone wanted me to drive them to the store. They were carrying a tiny baby and had to walk across slippery ground to get to the car. I was afraid for them and thought them foolish to have the baby out.

That's it.

Though not necessarily in that order.

Last night, I dreamed of being in a fancy hotel with my hubby and a teensy kitten head popped up out of the sink drain. I helped it the rest of the way out and saw its mom on a nearby counter freaking out.

I took a nap from around 7-11 this evening after having eaten TGI Friday's Onion Rings "Chips".
In one dream, I was on the phone with my oldest daughter. She was asking when she can come home (for a visit) and I told never because I can't afford all the back and forth driving. She became extremely upset and started speaking some other language. She translated what she had said and one of the words was the "F bomb". I find that word incredibly offensive IRL. My kids can get away with dropping occasional bad words but NEVER that one. So, in the dream, I told her I was hanging up because I didn't want to hear that sort of language but we still managed to say "I love you" before I did.

In another dream, I was in some house and there were kittens EVERYWHERE. You couldn't take a couple steps without fearing you'd squish them. There was a lot more to that story, but I don't really recall anything other than going into some guys garage/basement and asking where the breaker box was because the lights were out. He was worried about something (?). And later in the dream, when I told some other random DC about the encounter he became very concerned for me (??)

In the most disturbing dream I think I've ever had, my youngest daughter went into great detail about how she and her friends raped a classmate during a sleepover. I will spare you the details. I felt outrage for the sake of the girl and my bile rose...... literally. I woke up sitting in bed, unable to breath because of those stupid Onion Ring Chips lol. I was choking on acid which also makes me vomit a little, but I instinctively swallow which causes a seemingly endless loop until I regain consciousness enough to take control of the situation

Oh yeah.... I also had a strange dream about some "Asian" tribe. A very elderly woman was recounting her life in her village and how, when she was younger, conspired with others her age to destroy the elders. She shook her head in sorrow at their foolishness. But she went on to say the elders still live on in the descendants of the tribe and how she could always tell who had been related to this or that elder. She could even tell, because of it, who would come into power and who would have a bad life. She spoke of one such person of having a "water mark" (totem tattoo birthmark) who inherited it from a certain wise elder and how he became Emperor of the tribe for many, many good years.

I don't remember actually being in that dream. All I recall of it is her story and some faces. Ahhh yes... she was being interviewed by some News channel. At the end of the dream, specialists were brought in who debunked her ability to tell the bloodline of everyone from (what became) a very large tribe- merely from appearances. They went on further to say there were originally 10 elders (who were somehow destroyed), but that created enough diversity in the gene pool for significant differences.
I rolled my eyes- even though "I" didn't really exist lol.

I've been placed on a blood pressure med called Minipress which is helpful for nightmares and night terrors. It usually works very well. Last night was the exception.

I took one and laid down to sleep at 1:30


I dreamed I was in some sort of hostage situation. I was in some house with a few ladies, one man and a bunch of little kids. I was NOT cooperating with them in the least. I felt certain I would be raped, but I just couldn't stop my defiance. I was just SO MAD.

At one point, I grabbed my phone out of a purse [RC missed- I don't carry a purse lol] and I tried hiding it under a couch cushion but I was caught and dragged away from the phone by my feet.
Eventually, I escaped and it turns out I was in row apartment housing. At the end of the row I ran into a woman and asked her to call the cops. I didn't know which house number I had come from and I worried about the others, so I went back.

When I entered the door, one of the women was holding a gun on the 3 bad guys and the man of the house boasted about the level-headed thinking of his wife. He beamed at her and I felt his jab against me for putting up such a fight.

The cops came and they took out one dead body. The body of another woman was wrapped in some sort of plastic to keep her insides from falling out and to keep constant pressure on her wounds.


I woke up and took another minipress, don't know at what time. (My p-doc wants me to take 2 at bedtime but I can't take them together or I get extremely sick)

In another dream, I was at some sort of religious event. I think the people there were Catholic for the most part. One woman was very welcoming. She was a nun but not in the traditional sense. She didn't wear a habit and she wasn't a virgin because she entered after having kids and being married. Then the dream contradicted itself because she went on to say the Priest wanted her to change her name when she was 17 because no one would want to marry her. But she refused. Her name was pretty common too, Margaret, I think.

She was very depressed and I told her to just cast her worries on Jehovah and he would sustain her. She despised herself though so her worst enemy was herself. Then I told her to remember Job as he wrote the book of Jude [ say WHAT] and how many of the disciples entreated God to take their problems away but he said no. It wasn't God punishing them, it was them having to live with previous actions or the effects of time.

She appreciated the comfort and sat with me. Conversation got heated somewhere else, and I HAD to get involved and correct someone's misunderstanding of a certain Bible verse (?)


In yet another dream, I heard a knock on the door. I opened it and found the construction crew. One of them was letting me know they were just finishing up. There were garages and smaller building all over the yard, but they looked unfinished.
I walked outside to look at their progress. There was a pile of logs near my house and as we walked by the pile became unstable and rolled. Many people were it. A couple were buried. I raced to see where I could be of help, but I felt in the way as others beat me to the wounded. So I just tried cleaning up and rearranging tools on a table (?). Then it occurred to everyone that some people could be completely buried.
All of us started to move the logs and sure enough, we found 4 white slaves (?). They were in some recess and it didn't look like they had been crushed, but they still appeared dead.
I went to check on one of the women and she darted up in shock. She said sorry about the fright, but she must have turned her "rape shield" on at the last moment. lol

A recurring theme seems to be assertiveness and aggression. Both of those things have been on my mind a lot. Especially since I answered some questionnaire about/for my youngest daughter and one of the questions was: "[Does she] knows the difference between assertiveness and aggression?" I became very annoyed at the question. I thought to myself: "There's a difference" "What's the difference"
that says volumes about me. Once I thought of it, I knew the difference and was like But in my mind, they go hand in hand because all my life my assertiveness has always = someone else's aggressiveness
So, it seems my dreams were telling me I need to stand up for myself more often, but I still need to use logic.

As for the rape theme.... in my demented mind, rape is still sex. I've not had sex for over a year and I went to sleep last night in a "mood". I can't cheat on my hubby, but if I was raped..... yeah, warped thinking I know. As if any sane person would ENJOY being raped.

The first thing I recall is dreaming that my teeth were falling out. They came out with little effort (i poked and pulled a tiny bit). It was as if they were suspended inside my mouth by nothing and I wondered how they hadn't fallen out sooner and I thought of an example of slamming on my brakes while driving and my teeth just flying out lol
In the dream, my p-doc was my Dentist and I worried how he would react.

I've not had such a dream in a VERY long time. I blame Erii's post about the Dentist

In another dream, I was at my Grams house and I kept missing phone calls because she had a telephone that flashed red instead of ringing for the hard of hearing. But then the dream gets all jumbled with another one.
What I recall of it is being at some bar/restaurant. The Land Cruiser was in the parking lot but it wouldn't move. I went out to put something away and berated myself because not only had I left the keys in the door, in another door hung the keys from my new car.
I was traveling somewhere and I worried about hubby finding the Land Cruiser.

Somehow all of that gets jumbled with yet another dream of me babysitting. One of the neighbors was a real ass and he came over to harass the little boy under my care about one thing or another. The boy was only about 6 or so. He just barged in and went to the boys room. I told him the boy was napping and that I wouldn't try waking him and that he needed to leave etc. He shook the boy awake and the boy promptly bloodied the mans nose
The man left, taking his little daughter with him (?) and the mom walked in and I started rambling off what happened. She was furious and went to the door to yell at him, but at that moment, his little girl fell and cracked her head on the sidewalk. Her dad was right there but we females still wanted to rush out and comfort the child, but we held back.

Which jumbles my memory further and I recall my parents at my Grams house. They were upset about something and had to travel a great distance to pick up my kids because my sisters car broke down (kids were with them). My dad raged on about how what goes around comes around and he might not give my sister and her hubby a ride home before bringing my crew back.

Which further jumbles with the dream from the bar/restaurant and someone asking who my hubby was and being shocked by the answer and more shocked by the age difference.

And then I recall having laid down on someone else's bed and I was certain I had been exposed to lice and I became highly annoyed.

I only slept for about 5 hours and it was definitely NOT good sleep.

I took a nap from around 5-10PM (some "nap" lol) and I had a dream worthy of recording.
It actually wasn't anything special but it left me with a good feeling when I woke.

It started out kind of strange. I watched the dream as I'd watch TV. There was a boy of about 10 and he was twirling around young, thin-ish trees. He'd run at them, jump, grab and then turn in circles until the tree was uprooted (they were growing on a sandy incline). Afterwards, something caught his eye (?) and he felt bad for his actions and wondering how many animal homes he had destroyed.
Then a hideous woman came along but he saw her as a young girl which melted the woman's heart. He picked her dandelions (?) before the flower stage and the pieces kept blowing away in the wind. He didn't notice, though, and the woman didn't mind.

Then he was going to make her "soup" and so he began gathering ingredients. She asked if she was free to leave whenever she wanted (she thought she was his captive?) and he said "I guess so... you're old enough." Implying he would have made her stay if she was younger but only because there were dangers in the woods.

Then the dream changed completely. I was there and there were 2 young boys. One of them found a Donald Duck Pez Dispenser and tried eating some of the candy still in it. I asked for the dispenser and began telling the boys what it was. I told them they had found something from when their fathers or grandfathers had been boys and that the Duck was of a cartoon- something you would watch on a thing called a television. I noticed an old fashioned TV in front of us and indicated it. I then told them about cartoons and indicated a nearby coloring book, telling them it was like that, only they moved around and talked etc.
They were in disbelief lol.
I went on to tell them about movies and how they made you feel anger, sadness, joy or hope or even terror.
They started looking bored lol and I woke up.

Before then though, I had some run of the mill dreams. In one, I was going to help my brothers ex move but I didn't want hubby finding out. I was driving the Land Cruiser for some reason. There was a thick blanket of snow on the ground and I turned around in the driveway, careful not to get hung up when I backed in the yard a bit. Then I realized I didn't have enough gas and that I would have to reschedule.
There was another dream before that one, but I've forgotten it.....

I've been having some doozies lately.
One night, I dreamed that Artie, from my Kingdom Hall, cornered me and told me enough was enough. I needed to get back into the KH. His wife made a move to take my cigarettes but I wouldn't let her. I told them I could not come back until my kids grew up and left me. They caused too much stress, legal problems and messes for me to go back. I NEEDED my smokes until they left to cope with stress and I couldn't go back as long as I smoked. Joni (wife) said I needed to just attend the meetings and regain my spiritual strength and that if I did, I'd surprise myself at just how much life would improve.
They then asked if I had gotten rid of some books and video games that were overly violent and inappropriate. I hadn't.

That's the only dream, from earlier in the week that I recall.

Last nights dreams had me talking to my former bestfriend from the KH- Roxie. There were some weird changes happening. Men could now marry more than one woman Ron and Melvia (an elderly couple!) were trying to bring a younger woman into the marriage.
I was surprised Roxie was talking to me. We spent a good while just catching up and I asked her why she deleted her FB account. She answered it was too distracting.
There was a lot more but I seem to have forgotten it.

In another dream, my former favorite cat Rogue came home. I was so happy and pet him and played with his stubby tail just as I used to do. I was at my parents house but it was a lot different. I eventually realized the bathroom door was open and Cuddlebug (bunny) was nowhere to be found. My birds cage was open too. I closed the cage, amazed that Rogue didn't even try to eat them. Then I went looking for Cuddlebug.
I opened the back door and there were strange bugs and reptiles on the top step. I didn't want to squash them with the door, but I also didn't want to be attacked, so I was extra careful.

There was a small pond to the side of the steps. It was tropical, with lots of plants and flowers.
Then I see some other reptile slither to the water. Only, it wasn't really slithering. It was just really close to the ground. I thought it was a baby gator at first, but it was actually some enormous lizard/salamander
The dream then changed direction and I was with my hubby trying to repair a generator. I told him about the lizard and insisted on him looking at it.
I don't recall how the dream ended, thought the eldest dog briefly entered the story. He was with a black lab stray and it was starting to rain very hard. I put them both in the garage, worrying they would jump on and scratch hubby's new V.W. bug. It was a great shade of green- light, but almost olive.
The dogs started barking crazily and THAT'S when I woke up.

When I woke, that dog was carrying on IRL.

Strange combo, I know
They were separate dreams, I think.

I don't recall much about the kitten one. Only there were a bunch of them and for some reason I was removing their heads with a pair of canine nail clippers The last kitten was bigger than the other. I snipped and snipped at him neck but I just couldn't remove it. The kitten was purring and being affectionate and I felt bad that I had to kill all of them.

In the other dream, I was at a large hospital or school with an older sister. She was blonde and beautiful. We ran into some sort of trouble and took off running for our car. A man reached us just as we were trying to close the doors. He began trying to rape my sister but I talked to him. I told him I was perfectly willing and I'd make it worth his while. The eyes of my sis were kind of glazed in shock and disbelief.
He came to the back seat and started removing his clothes. I helped him and kissed his stomach.
Then he did the deed and it was over within seconds
Then I cursed having not asked him to wear a condom because I was ovulating PLUS I didn't want to get some disease. But it was too late to think of that...

Then he thought we were dating and my sis and I decided to keep things hush-hush. Our dad was someone important and we didn't want to make his life difficult.
The dream gets all jumbled at that point. Dad had taken someone to a secret room to torture and kill him, thinking the man had hurt his oldest daughter. We wanted to intervene but our shame was great.

The dream then changed almost entirely and I was at some park with friends. There were 2 sets of roller skates. A RL HS friend wanted to skate with me, but they were too small. Instead, my "rapist" was going to go with me.
But along the way, I stopped to gather the eggs of a "thrusher". There was also a spider as large as a german shepherd that I tried avoiding.

That's it.

I've been sleeping WAY too much. Sleepiness swoops in on me almost as quickly as my old cataleptic episodes. Which tells me 1)I'm either sick or 2) My anxiety is a lot worse than I think.
I don't recall much about my dreams.

One of my earliest dreams was about my cockatiels. I had their cage covered for the night and when I removed the pillowcases they were dead from suffocation. The female looked red like a cardinal.

In one of them, Zee told me she was pregnant and she started flipping out, saying her life was over etc.

In another one, I was talking to some guy and his son about my weight. I told them I gained 40 pounds in 12 years. They said I didn't look fat and I told them I was almost sickly-thin 12 years ago lol

In another one, I was at my grandmothers house. She was upset because the rumor mill was saying she was bad talking one of Zee's old friends Colleen; that grams was saying she was glad she was removed and placed in a facility. But, in the dream, Colleen was like family and my grams was devastated when she was removed and equally devastated by the rumors.

In another dream, I was at a house and woodpeckers moved into a bedroom closet. Somehow they were able to conduct experiments on each other which strange results. Some of the birds had liquefied. Others were just heads. There were several babies and cross breeds. Some looked slender yet resembled cardinal red doves.
There were a bunch of cats everywhere and they were going after the birds. I rescued several of them, but others I left for the cats because when I took them away from the cat it was too late. The birds who were injured had "meaty" flesh, another one had it's back pierced.
I was very upset I couldn't save them all.

**EDIT**
I am most curious about the red birds. I have a lot of tidbit dreams about my birds dying and the female almost always looks like a cardinal. She's a sickly bird- always has been. She's a seed snob so her belly's distended from a form of malnutrition. I often worry she's going to die. But I don't associate the color red with disease or death. Or do I lol

... or rather, fragments of such.

All I recall from my last dreams was some adventure by water. I was with a group of people and we were traveling by river. It was very marshy in areas and there were frequent sand dunes. Someone almost drowned but some guy swimming by (in a group of 3) rescued the person. I barely recall hiding in the trees.

Then I had a video game style dream in which I was viewing a world map and trying to find the perfect spot to build my city. I built one, but then found an even better spot on another continent and I commented to someone (?) that I hated separating my cities by so much. That dream was in "god mode". "I" didn't exist in the dream except to make that comment. The map filled my entire vision and I could zoom in to see certain areas better.

In another dream, I was living in my parents house again. I had to go outside for something and I heard something big in some bushes. I quickly got to a car and locked myself in. Then I saw a bear cub. He was very cute, but I knew the mother had to be nearby, so I was just going to wait in the car for them to pass. Except the cub was too curious. He walked over to the drivers side window, looked in and roared at me. Spittle flew. Then his mom showed up at the passenger side window- which was rolled down. She stuck her head inside the car and I grabbed it, pushed her outside and quickly rolled up the window.
I don't recall how it ended.

Okay... maybe these were better than fragments lol

I've been having lots of stressful dreams lately.
Let's see... last night (err... this morning), I fell asleep at around 3AM. I was up at 6 and back in bed by 7 and I woke up at 10.

I crashed so hard the first time it literally felt like I had JUST closed my eyes before the alarm went off. The only dreams I now recall from then was flying through a war zone in a video game-ish setting. I've forgotten the finer details. I also dreamed of riding a dinosaur that resembled a T-Rex while some narrator explained the terrain and the dino's physiology. A cliff crumbled under us at one point and we fell into some lava at which time the narrator said the dinos tough skin protected it from the lava

**Now I recall two other tidbits**
I was driving on the interstate and the roads were horribly complex. I got lost then started walked, trying to find my way. I was turned around and going in the wrong direction at one point.

In another dream, I was about to drink a fountain Coke out of my large cup. I picked the cup up by the lid. The lid fell off and I woke to the alarm clock going off

When I went back to sleep, I dreamed of my ex-husband. I was living in my parents house with my husband and my ex just waltzed in and plopped down in the recliner. I told him my hubby would be home soon, so we should talk elsewhere. He said he was just about to suggest that. I couldn't find my shoes or jacket and I was getting more and more annoyed. There were many more rooms than there should've been and I was getting more and more frustrated as I went through the house. There were people I didn't know living in some of the rooms. Some of the rooms were trashed.
I finally found my youngest daughters room and she had several girls over. One of the girls followed me around and told me that her parents used to like Zee- that Zee used to be so quiet and respectful; but now she has to sneak out to see her.

I finally found my clothes. My ex was waiting in his car when I made it outside. But it was VERY foggy. I got into my car, wanting him to follow me because talking in the driveway was pretty much the same as talking in the house. I somehow lose him and turn around to hunt him down.
Then, for some reason, I got out of my car, walked just a few feet then realized I lost my car. There were many more streets than there are IRL. I went up and down them, but I just couldn't see well enough to find it.
I ran into my ex then recruited the kids into helping me look.

Then the dream veered just a little and I started also focusing on sewer covers on the road right in front of the house. There were caps over the holes, then the cover snapped into place above it. They were of different sizes and shapes and I was getting annoyed trying to properly pair all of them. And I still hadn't found my car and hubby was due any minute.
Then I was behind something and I saw an ambulance in my driveway. I peeked around the corner and there was hubby. He saw me, so I had to go over and talk and hope he didn't notice my car was missing.

We went inside and he showed me part of the presentation he used during the convention he participated in as a speaker.
Then I woke.

At some point inside the house, I also dreamed of my old cat Rogue. I pet him and held him. I was so glad he finally made it home after having been missing for several years.


I don't FEEL any more stressed than usual. My dreams, however, point to a breaking point in my levels.

I had some frustrating dreams the last time I slept from around 8AM-11:30.

I was feeling randy in the dream so I grabbed some bengay and alcohol wipes and tried to disappear into a room to take care of some needs
But I kept getting interrupted.
One interruption in particular was a baby. Some woman kept trying to pawn him off on me but I just wanted to be alone. Eventually, I gave in and laid him on my chest to try to get him to sleep but he had a soaking wet diaper.
I don't recall how the dream ended.

At some other point, I was playing Farmville and there was some sort of event going on. But Farmville kept freezing my browser, I couldn't send or receive the special gifts and anytime I tried to exit and reboot, more Farmville pages would open. I was extremely angry about the whole thing.
My hubby's son was in the dream and we talked about exchanging gifts. I told him he wasn't my neighbor, though, but he insisted I was. I kept wanting to congratulate him on his new baby but the subject kept veering before I could.

That's it.