Sprada:
Originally Posted by sprada
Hey Sageous,
First of all let me say that I find amazing that you keep this thread going for over a year sharing your knowledge for free, instantly replying to (often) the same questions over and over again.
Hats off to you sir.
Thanks -- I never thought about the "for free" part, though!
Life in general is simply taking the best of me. I'm always running and as much as I don't want to admit I believe work related stress is somewhat preventing me from achieving an ideal mind-set for WILDing and LD in general. Still I'm really stubborn and determined so LD definitely came to stay. So everything that I can learn and develop at this point will probably serve me well in a near future when things slow down a bit.
Yes, "always running" is not the best consciousness state for successful WILDing. WILD is basically a form of meditation, and works best, I think, in a state of calm detachment from the general torrents of waking life activity. That's not always easy to do, but it is very important.
I've tried a couple of times during WBTB after a 5 hours' sleep. Since I simply can't sleep more that 6 or 6½ hours a night I can't spend that much time gaining awareness and properly waking up during WBTB. So I just fall asleep instantly when going back to bed.
So I've been trying to WILD during naps almost every day in the last 3 or 4 weeks with no success.
I wake up every day at 7am and get home from work at 17:30. I usually have 1 or 1½ hour before I have to leave.
I know that this is not an ideal time for a WILD attempt and that I'm probably far from an REM cycle but I have no other time available.
That's not ideal at all, I think, as WILD's tend to have their best chance for success after those six hours of sleep. Also, trying to insert a WBTB into a night's sleep that must end after 6 hours can be difficult. If you can arrange for attempting WILD's on your day off (you must get one occasionally) so that you don't even have to think about when you must get up (and thus avoid thinking of all the things that come with that). If you can never find a few hours (after that initial five) to add to your night's sleep for WILD attempts, you might want to stick with DILD.
So, I usually lay down, I try to relax my body and properly clear my mind from all the worries.
Then I repeat my mantra "I am Aware" (sometimes I count backwards from 100). I use my mantra in English. I think it makes more sense to me because everything I read regarding LD is in English and I tend to think about it in English too. Hope there's nothing in a deeper level of my brain that removes meaning from it for not being in Portuguese.
That's an interesting choice, using English for your mantra. This is totally my opinion, but I think you might be better off using Portuguese, even if you've begun to think in English on these sites. Dreaming is a very primordial activity, and using a language that might work intellectually for your waking-life activities but is not the first language of your unconscious, dreaming, mind might cause a communication block somewhere on the way to a dream. You want to open doors to your dreaming mind, not hang new ones! I could be wrong about this, but it is a direction I would not take.
Sometimes in just a minute I get strong hypnagogic jerks. Then no matter what I do to preventing from sleeping too soon and keep my awareness up I simply fall asleep. Then after a short sleep I wake up and feel more rested.
There is little you can do about those jerks except, of course, just letting them happen and trying to stay aware as your body sets into physical sleep. It's that simple, and that hard.
What usually happens is that I start to visualize some random scenes. Not sure if it's HI, just daydreaming or the dream starting to form.
Sometimes it's just random scenes changing, sometimes it's already a full scene with plot and DCs and all but I'm never fully aware of myself at this point that I can consciously "walk" into the dream or "imagine" myself there.
Those random scenes might just be dreamlets that appear as you are drifting between physical waking and sleep states, and it's best to ignore them as just a bit more noise, or perhaps use them to help you form your dream.
Those full-blown dream scenes might be a problem, though, because, as you describe them they could be actual non-lucid dreams, which indicates that you did lose awareness at some point. That might mean you missed your WILD chance, but if you've done your mental prep well, then you might still have a chance at a WILD ... so, it's not a bad thing altogether, as long as you are flexible enough to switch to becoming aware, rather than maintaining awareness.
Then I am violently "awake" by some really strong vibration. I mean really strong.
I couldn't care less about them. But it's like someone is grabbing my foot (usually my left foot…) and shaking it. I almost jump out of bed like "shit what was this?! Oh damn vibrations again".
Which leads to believe that I'm slipping into a non lucid dream.
I got really close a couple of times but seems like there's something blocking me.
The violent foot-shaking thing is certainly a problem, but after you make many WILD attempts and become accustomed to it happening, you'll likely be able to move past the shaking toward your dream. Also, I suggest that you try avoiding ever thinking or, worse, worrying, that you are slipping into a non-lucid dream or that something is blocking you. Thoughts like that tend to create the condition: assume that you are losing lucidity and, sure enough, you will. Stay positive and rest assured that if you are able to ask questions like that, you're probably still at least a little aware!
I hope that helped and wasn't too scattershot. Let me know if anything was unclear.
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