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12/15/13 DILD. All I really recall from this is that at some point an old friend, who in later years got very mad at me, was furious. We were talking and he kept complaining about me having a flat affect (no expression). He wanted to know how anyone could trust me if I have such a unexpressive face. He said he wanted to punch me sometimes because of it. He was in a rage.

I just watched this from outside the dream image of me. I wondered how this could reflect on waking life and if maybe I should contact Bob on facebook when I wake up. I realized he would not really want to hear from me, much less offer me any advice or constructive critism.

12/14/13 DILD. Brain keeps going on about some plot based on the show Leverage. The Sophie character is telling about 7 different variations on the plot and how each is essential and how they can go wrong. I try to pay attention and see if this dream is interesting or not. None of it makes sense. It is just my brain running stupid dream loops, but nothing that is being said really forms a story. It just keeps me from blissful unconciousness. I tell my brain to knock it off and let me sleep. It does not change and I am in no mood to be forced to do a proper LD. I just want to sleep! Finally I imagined all 7 parts of the dream loops like a colage and made a giant glowing 7 cover them. I focusd on the burning 7 and would only allow the thought "7" and only the graphics "7"
Before to long I became unconcious,,, sigh deep sleep at last.

I'd like to share a lucid dream from early November 2013. This is so far the longest lucid dream that I've had. That night I took B6 100mg after 5 hours of sleep and the LD occurred 2.5 hours later.

I am in my bed and I look at my hands (RC) and realize that I’m dreaming. I get up and start stabilizing the dream. I think first I rubbed my hands but I don’t recall for sure. I decide that I need to eat something to stimulate my taste and in fact I seem to think there should be some lobster in the kitchen that I put into shrimp water so it would be tasty. I go in the kitchen and the layout is different from my kitchen. I check a toaster oven and there are slices of bread with something on top but I decide to forgo tasting this. I then look in the oven and there is a filet of fish..again I don’t really want this. Then I look in a pot on the stove and there is something weird and possibly slimy in there and I decide to try it - it was disgusting and I spit it out. Enough for my sense of taste...hahaha. I walk out into the living room and start looking around. The room is completely different and the view outside is so clear. I am on the first floor of a house and I’m looking out through large floor to ceiling (or close to it) windows. I’m in a city. I then go ahead with anchoring and I imagine lines with anchors pulling me and attaching to this world...the lines go down and sideways. I also say out loud some stuff such as ‘I’m all powerful’ and ‘I’m anchored to the dream.’ Outside I see a car and I levitate it without going out. Then I see a van and I levitate it too and make it shoot out into the distance real fast. It went flying but then for some reason started coming back and I caught it with my telekinesis and put it down. Then I made some more cars crash on the street and then I smashed two cars into each other. I also flicked my finger and made a car slide sideways on another street. After I was done having my fun with telekinesis I decided it’s time to move through solid objects. I am trying to put my hand through a piece of wood that is part of a staircase. It is not working and after a few attempts I gave up. There was an older guy maybe a father figure but not my dad. He had some needles without syringes and I assumed he wanted to poke me and either make me fall asleep or wake up for real. I decide that I would not allow this to happen because I don’t want to loose my lucidity. I grab the needles from him and then I try to convince him that this is a dream. I tell him that I will tell him what’s going on but he will probably not believe me. I take him aside and I tell him that I’m a human being and that this is my dream and he is a part of my dream. He of course does not believe me. I take the needles away from him and I want to run away and fly away. He holds onto me for a bit but then I break free and fly away. As I’m flying out I see down the street someone I need to pick up....I think it’s whom I believe to be my girlfriend. I pick her up and hold on to her as I’m flying. In a little while the person I picked up turns out to be my little brother ( I don't have a brother in WL). As I’m flying I say out loud something like I’m still anchored. I decide I want to go see a pretty girl. First I see a house up ahead on my right and I consider this to be the place I will go to see her but then I see a tall apartment building up ahead a bit to my left and I decide that that’s better. I want to drop off my little brother and leave him there and I land. The little guy would not let go of me and I try pushing him off and then I bite him real hard on his finger. I think I almost bit it off...I definitely bit into it and made an impression but it was sort of plasticky and there was no blood. He didn’t seem to be hurting too much and was still holding onto me. I slapped him around a bit and then I grabbed him and smacked him into a tree. Finally he let go and I woke up.

Because this is my first post, I guess a good place to start is at the beginning - where my journey into the lucid state first began.
I've always had an interest in dreams. My non-lucid dreams are arguably just as interesting and exhilarating as my lucid ones. My first lucid dream though, freaked me out and to this day (roughly two years later) I still panic when I become lucid - which happens, a lot.

I can best describe the place I was in as the Island's of Adventure theme park in Orlando, Florida. To those of you that haven't been, my apologies. I was no doubt in an amusement park abundant in trees and lacking in "rides" - very Jurassic Park I guess. Interesting about my dream was that I became lucid twice. The first time, I was trying to jump off a type of jungle gym that was high off the ground. In real life, I have an irrational fear of jumping off of things - probably because I'm horrible at it. I don't know how, or why, but an odd thought came to my mind in the dream - I thought, I will jump off and if I land, that means I'm dreaming because there is no way I would land in real life. It really was as simple as that. Surely enough I jumped off and BAM! I land perfectly, I knew I was dreaming.

As I walked through the dream I seemed to forget all about my lucidity - this was until I came across the first real amusement ride I had encountered throughout the entire dream. It was, as all dream-related things, strange. It was huge, and it was T shaped. The top would spin, much like a merry go'round but high up in the sky and the only two places to "sit" in where at each end of the T. Somehow, I end up on one of these ends and the contraption begins to spin on its own. At this moment I realize again that I am dreaming, as I look down on the landscape of my dream and see a large, dark, ominous-looking lake and think to myself "this will turn into a nightmare if I fall in there."

I suddenly remember something my friend, who is very interested in LD's, told me one could do should you ever achieve lucidity - ask your dream a question. And so, I did. I asked "why am I dreaming this dream?"

Even as the words were coming out of my mouth I knew I would regret it, the words literally produced ripples in my dream and suddenly, it was all gone, everything was pitch black. (I swear, this happened) I am in total darkness except I am aware that behind the darkness there is some sort of building, a temple of some kind with hundreds of arched doorways. At the same time, everything in my dream was shaking, vibrating and - I know this is crazy - there was this disturbingly loud opera-type music playing. It was not pleasant, the longer I stood there the louder it became. Terrified, I willed myself to wake up, but couldn't. As is custom, I experienced sleep paralysis for what seemed like eternity - I distinctly remember seeing eyes all around me as I fought wake up. I think back to the dream today and it still scares me, I don't even know what it means. But I figured it was important to share, considering it was my first experience. My apologies if it sounded like I was trying to make it overly-dramatic, it was just crazy. Amazing the kind of things the mind can do - but also terrifying.

this dream is from when i was much younger when i was 5 but i can still recall it. So, i am running for my life on a board walk away from a guy with a gun and i eventually run out of energy and partially collapse about 15 feet away from him. out of rage i hit the ground as hard as i could for no apparent reason and a streak of lava flows underneath me towards him and eventually makes its way out of the ground and it and consumes him in a column of lava.