A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry Lucid # 61 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. WBTB

Lucid Dream # 61, day: 07/11/14, time: 3:27-4:40am Am" Miniature Soccer":
I am in what I think is San Francisco. It looks like there is some special event. I see people walking by. I am just standing there dazed. I see a bicycle pass by me. I am looking at the city lights while it darkens. I started to finally walk. I see another bicycle or was it the same one. I am now engaging in the dream. I realized that a carnival came to the city. I go inside and see that it's a miniature soccer match between insects. I realized it was a dream.

I started rubbing my hands to stabilize. I look around and my perception looked like an old 1960's camera. It had distortion along with those black dots in the film. I then wanted to fly out of the carnival tent. As I am ascending I see garden weed start to grow from the ground and it went all the way up to the tent. I thought I could breach the tent but when I got there it was difficult. It felt solid. I kept pushing through, my head got in and when it did I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid # 60 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. As I was going to sleep I tired to notice the process of sleeping to induce a WILD or OBE.
As I start to feel the sinking sensation and I became aware of it, it disappeared.

Lucid Dream # 60, day: 07/07/14, time: Unknown-6:49am Am" Angel of Death":

The girl I once liked was in my room. She started to touch my private part and it felt good but I know we can't be together. It felt wrong. I left her and went to the bathroom to wash my face. I thought to myself it could be a dream. She wouldn't do this in waking life.

The bathroom light was off. I see a blurry image of myself, it gave me chills. I then go to my room. I look at that mirror and I see myself as an eight foot tall giant, wearing a black hoodie. I then turn around to see that it is not my reflection but Death. He had his staff with him. I couldn't see a face, the hoodie got rid of that.


A man shows up and distracts Angel of Death, "Killing one guy won't solve your problem". He teleported me to my house and I am watching it on tv. I felt powerless because he too my flight from me. When he teleported me, my perception changed, everything looks like a poorly 3d animation. They were having an intellectual conversation that I couldn't keep up with. They even said words I didn't know, they might have just made it up though. I grabbed paper and tried to write down what they said. I thought, "how stupid is that, this is a dream, if I write it down it doesn't matter!" I threw my paper away. I tried to enter the TV screen to stop Angel of Death.

Death pushes the other guy. He then summons me. He had an army of robots connected to a plug. They had these arms that were bluish and transparent. They used that to lounge at me. I used telekinesis and threw them aside. One of them threw a punch at me and I noticed it. I extended my arm and stopped it. He kept pushing at his arm and it got closer and closer to my face. I then pushed back with a burst of TK. I then went to the plug and I exploded it by clinching my fist.

There is a kid at church, in 6th grade and I introduced him to LD. He has been wonderful in dream control. The one thing is, he is extremely violent towards DC. He suggested if I have any trouble with dream characters I use TK to stop their heart. Creative but brutal.

And I remembered what he said. I started to fly, I didn't think much of it. I point my hand at Angel of Death and I clinched my fist. He grabbed the left side of his chest and fell. I thought about what I have done. I felt guilty. I went to him and I looked closer and realized that he was a machine. It was circuits that I blew out. I felt relieved. I starting thinking about Death and the irony that it has life.

I see the kid from church, ES. He said, "what now?" I looked around perplexed. I remembered that I wanted to make a portal. I told him that we are going to make a portal. I went to a supply closet and I said this will be our portal. I didn't really imagine a destination but I just wanted it to go somewhere else. I opened it and it didn't work. I tried over and over again but still nothing. He started to get bored. I told him and his friends that we could just fly away. I went to the window and I told them we are going to have to jump. His friends advised him not to follow me. I am flying outside their house. He started to fly to. They then tried it out. As we were flying I see a door in the middle of sky. I go to it and I open it. It has a shining light. I woke up.

I think the reference when the man told death "killing one guy won't solve your problem" he might have been talking to me as well.

Journal Entry Lucid # 59 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before sleeping. WBTB.

Lucid Dream # 59, day: 07/04/14, time: 3:38-6:30 Am"":
I am in the computer room. I see a hole in roof. A giant is looking at me. I ask her, "What time is it?" The oddity of the event made me realize it was a dream.

I then walk out to the backyard. It almost matched my house completely but I didn't look at every little corner. What I noticed was chairs and it had two fences just like my house. I am just blown away by the details. I am just comprehending how all this could be a dream. I am rubbing my hands to stabilize. I look up at the dark and cloudy sky. I think to myself it might rain. It started to rain a bit. I am now trying to remember what I wanted to do. I thought, "build a house?? no, no that's not it. I know I wanted to extend the power of TK. Ahh to lift a house that's it!" I woke up before I could do anything.

Journal Entry Lucid # 58 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. And I meditated after doing WBTB. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness. When I did my WBTB I woke up at 2:00 Am and I watched some movie. My parents are getting ready to start the day as always. I then talked to my dad and said to him, "Do you know what is so beautiful about the darkness?" He responded, " heh, nothing darkness is evil", he is a very christian man and only sees one way. Even though I know this will dissatisfy him, but I proceeded, "Darkness gives rise to possibility, only the imagination fills in the gap". He tells me, "darkness is bad..". I told him to look at it a different perspective and maybe he will understand what I mean. He didn't quite understand even though he claims to. Well you get the point.

WILD experience: I had a dream and I awoken from it. I kept thinking about the dream and I began falling back to sleep. I then hear the loud wind again. At first i was scared and the noise started diminishing. And I became sad, but then I resolved to myself that I will do it sooner or later. I stayed still. I felt like my hands were swinging. I felt out of control. I don't know if that was astral body or part of the dream. During all this I could hear the loud wind that was deafening and it got higher in frequency and it felt like needle that keeps getting sharper with the increasing of sound. I thought I can't do this, but I kept thinking about the dream I had to distract me. New images started to form, complex patterns. I could also hear sound now, no more pain. I think I came in with fear though. I hear laughter that keeps on distorting and getting lower in pitch. I saw blood dripping from the patterns. They turned into a pyramid. Then I hear a voice say to me, "Do want to meet our lord, Lucifer?". I thought this is only a dream, and besides I have to live by my words, I say to myself to face all fears. I then say yes. I see a book open and it was covered in blood. My body felt possessed and I squirmed around in the dream without my control.

Lucid Dream # 58, day: 07/03/14, time: 5:20-6:59 Am" Facing Fear:
I am now 180 degrees on my bed, sleeping where my foot should be. I see a clown, a lady clown looking at me, she had blond hair, She had a clown outfit but the colors were a little bit faded as if she has worn them for years. She said, "I am sorry it didn't work". I know it's a dream so I just looked at her. I could see that I am in my room, but it is still a dream. She looked at me and realized that I know. She said, "If you want to explore this place you have to put on a mask". I am still just thinking to myself, "no, mask is a representation of losing one's identity and replacing it with another". With that thought, she said, " okay you have to put on a scarf". She put it on me and told me to follow her.

As we were making our way through an office with little to no lighting. I am looking around telling myself be aware. I touch the desk to feel the texture. I would look at the wall for pattern and I am just occupying myself saying be aware that i am not truly experiencing the dream. The clown lady is standing next to the door like a SWAT person and she open the door slightly. I see a little girl in a bright pink room, looking frightened saying out loud to herself "Be aware. Be Aware." She is walking back and forth. I thought to myself what is my dream trying to tell me, the clown said calmly and slowly, "Calm down". I started settling in the dream. It felt stable. The clown disappeared. I wanted to see how the little girl responds to the change of my thought. I opened the door and I hear a short scream of something fearful, "Rah" and for that very second I felt a cold darkness come over me.

I am scared and I rocked back away from the door. I then calmly told myself to calm down. I turned and started walking away. I pass through door after door in a endless mansion. I started to become scared. I see the walls crumble. I thought to myself without being scared, "wow this doesn't usually happen in a dream of mine, it is mostly stable". I started to walk away. I kept telling myself that I got to get out of here. I see a friend of my sister, KE, and he is outside the house being dragged by strong wind. He tells me that I need him for some reason. I tried to use telekinesis to bring him back into the house. I couldn't the wind were blowing really hard. And objects in the house started to throw themselves at me, a lamp, a vase, etc. I used telekinesis to stop them but they kept coming. I then found a slide looking thing that leads outside.

I see a man climb out of it. Towards the slide and he slides back down. It looked like he is having fun, even though I had hell in there. He actually wanted to come back to the mansion. I on the other hand flew up into the air. It is raining. I felt so relieved and i could think clearly now. I felt powerful. I then extended both my hands and used telekinesis. I created a barrier around me, I want to say spherical but since it wasn't visible and I know there was a force field because of the way the rain responded. The rain didn't touch me. I see myself in 3rd person perspective. I could see the water bouncing off of the shield, it bounced more at the top*. I am viewing first again. Since I could think clearly I thought why did I experience that. I realized the conversation I had with my father, that was one. I also know that I came with fear from the start of my dream.

I told myself If I go out and have fun in the dream it would be preferable, but if I go back I could face a fear that I thought I conquered, darkness. I judged myself and called myself a coward, I agreed that I am acting as a coward at the moment but if I go back and face my fear that is what courage is, to face one's fear. I decided to go back. I flew back to the ground. Just a weird thing I noticed, I saw the clown but now she is a business lady. She started walking with a long coat on. She takes it off and now she is naked and begins to approach the other guy. I just ignored them for I had no interest. I went back to the dark room. And I opened the door. I see a lot of people cleaning up the place. I see Walter White from "breaking bad" with a bandage on his face. His face looked bruised like on season 3 after he beat gust. He was next to a pay phone. He calls Dewey from "Malcolm in the middle". He looked dead at me and he said on the phone with a serious tone, "Dewey (3 second pause) it is done". I then feel my body being dragged at an alarming rate. I woke up.

My interpretation: I think that it had nothing to do with darkness, but since I came with fear in my heart from the start my mind related it to the last things I saw.
I think the whole thing was about me facing fear not the fear of but confronting fear. And maybe the guy having fun on the slide signifies that I make the experience what it is, he was having fun while I wasn't.

*I love mathematics and after thinking about the way the water splashed; I think it make sense that the water splashed more at the top of the force field because the top has the most amount of surface area that comes into contact with the rain. The side would just brush the water and the bottom doesn't really exist. I am just amazed at the details that dream present themselves. It truly is fascinating that something creates without us straining our mind.

I just realized that the clown lady could be Harley Quinn from the comic books. I never knew she had blond hair.

Journal Entry Lucid # 56 - 57 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness.

Lucid Dream # 56, day: 07/01/14, time: 3:38" Singing Monk":

*notes 8:04-12:53 Am: In the middle of the night I was half awake and asleep. I thought about silly things, still lightly dreaming. I then started to hear loud noise that sounded like wind. It got louder and louder. I felt vibration. I am becoming aware of the situation, it is a transition to a dream. The noise freaked me out and it made it made my heart beat rise. I kept telling myself to become aware of it instead of being scared. My heart beat kept getting faster with the increase of sound. Then the sound started to decrease on its own, my heart beat as well. I realized that instead of paying attention to the physical sensation, I should have been aware of the little images I was seeing from the start. I then went to sleep without awareness.

Background on Ld: I wanted to become aware of sleep process(WILD) as I went to sleep. I laid there quietly. I told myself I am just going to be aware, I will let my body do what it wants. You know like when it jerks upon sleeping. I got tired of waiting and I fell asleep. And I got some cool dream and ok lucid.

So to shorten this dream up, it is about a a guy who can live forever. (I watched a movie called The Man from Earth) pretty cool movie well it influenced my dream

So, when the Ageless man told the people that he doesn't age, they asked him if he made music because music express the soul. I am thinking yes if never made music in his endless life he has never lived to express life. For some reason this brought up my memories of the Tibetan monks singing the "ahhs" and the "oms". I opened my mouth and sang "aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh....". I can't sing, but in the dream it sounded so beautiful. My voice was then followed by a multitude of people in harmony and unity singing "aaaaahhhhh...". I felt the vibration and the energy in my stomach. I then look at my body and my arms are moving uncontrollably. I let it. I kept singing. I then woke up in the kitchen with my arms moving uncontrollably. I see my parents walking back and forth in a hurry trying to start their busy day. I see a girl from church, BY, she is with them as well. And I am just there on the floor. I got up and sat down on the couch. I see my sister. I did a RC (counted my fingers), but it was normal. I actually woke up and went back to sleep after doing a RC.

The next dream I was with somebody. He threw a remote control at his brother. I asked the mom what is wrong with him. She tells me that he has a delusion that he has live for many generations. I then go back all the way to the beginning of this dream. I see the mother taking the Ageless child. She took the wrong child. I followed where she is putting the other child. She grabbed him by the wrist and took him to a house. I became the little kid. She tells me to trust her. I realized it was my dream.

I told myself I need to stabilize the dream. I started to touch the wall. I see a bunch of children rush into the building. This big fat kid wanted to show the other children his house. I walked with them. I am touching the wall as I walked maintaining awareness of the dream. I could still hear the fat kid, "This where my dad..." while pointing at TV. I tuned him out. I could see pictures of people. It looked like the old times, 1700s. As I was making my way through the hall way I see the mother of the character that I am. She asked me if I could let her in. I kept walking. I saw a couple of stairs I didn't want to touch for some reason and I flew over it. I started walking up the stairs with my hands touching the rail. I see another kid doing that to the opposite side going down stairs. I kept looking at the pictures. I see racist images of black people picking cotton and stuff. I then hear the owner bragging about how big his house is. I see a person run out the window. I am trying to maintain awareness. As I was going to the top of the building I then ended up at the bottom of the building. I hear someone say something and I woke up immediately.


Lucid Dream # 57, day: 07/02/14, time: 3:30 - 7:20 am"":
very blurry dream. I was next to gangsters and trouble makers. I remember walking to a house and realizing it is a dream but I don't remember anything in between. I lost lucidity very shortly.

Journal Entry Lucid #55 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I didn't meditate before going to bed. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I lost awareness for a brief second. This was the break I was looking for. After struggling to have a lucid dream in a while, I got a break. I started to do ADA and RC more often now.

Lucid Dream # 55, day: 06/30/14, time: 6:30-8:33 Am"":
I am looking at the mirror in my room. I am kind of disappointed that I couldn't fall back to sleep. My grandmother is calling my name telling me that I have slept for far to long. She is trying to open the door. I see the pillows move (I put pillows on the cracks of the door so that light won't enter, I am a very sensitive sleeper). I then turn and look at my bed. I am there laying down sleeping in the same position as I did. She approaches me and touch my back to wake me up. I was looking at her and I could feel her hands on my back. I then went inside my body. (I woke up and I realized that it never happened. The pillow is still in the same position next to the door.)
I am now in a car going to SF with my parents. I just think to myself if this is a dream I could levitate a car to the moon. I then look at a car and I toss it up in the air. It some how burst into fire. I then did it again. Which gradually got my attention into realizing that it is a dream.

I threw a couple of cars in the air. I tried to throw one more but I couldn't. My mother said to me, "If this is a dream where is the bomb?" I didn't know what she was talking about, but in the dream it was relevant to the dream. I told her it doesn't' matter I could create anything I want. She had a fake bomb in her hands. I thought I don't know if I could create a bomb from scratch but I have had a dream where I created a nuclear blast with the mushroom cloud and everything. I then turned around inside the car. I looked back at Oakland. I put my hands out and imagined the nuclear explosion. I imagined the bright light followed by the mushroom cloud. I tried, nothing. I tried again. I saw a small bright light form. I imagined the expansion. oh yeah I didn't close my eyes while imagining. When I imagined the expansion. It suddenly did a flash of bright light followed by the mushroom cloud.

My mother ask me, " So, where is he?"

Me, "Who?"

Mother, "the big dinosaur from the explosion"

(I didn't know what she was talking about but I wanted to create another nuclear blast this time it was a piece of cake. Now there is a two huge mushroom clouds floating above Oakland. The strange thing was that there was no sound from the nuke).

After I did the second nuke, my mom ask me, "Where is the dinosaur?"
I realized what she is talking about, I responded, "I don't want Godzilla in my dream, even though I could create it".

With that thought Godzilla tears the bridge apart. It looks disastrous. Cracks on the ground, some part of the floor is rising 10 ft in the air. A war zone is what it look like, cars are flipped. I then see a 7 foot dinosaur pops up and it is looking for food. I see my body being dragged. I couldn't move my body even though I was lucid. It felt like sleep paralysis. I see rebels shooting at the little dinosaurs. I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid # 54 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before sleeping. WBTB.

Lucid Dream #54, day: 06/15/14, time: 3:32-5:47 Am"":
I see my legs are 15 ft in the air and I look down and it is stretched. I thought that is strange. My legs got shorter.

I realized it was a dream and I started rubbing my hands to make sure that the dream is stable. A man who looks like a cook, an Asian restaurant cook, showed up. He said that he wanted to do service with me. I was confused and I found it very funny. I am outdoors and there is sand. This man is saying the same thing, he doesn't want me to serve. I got distracted by all the confusion and went back into normal dream.

Journal Entry Lucid # 53 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before sleeping. WBTB.

Lucid Dream # 53, day: 06/15/14, time: 3:32-5:47 Am"":
I am playing a video game, it resembled Saint Row IV. The character I had didn't have telekinesis as his power. I thought if this was a dream I would have telekinesis. I realized it was a dream.
There is a big bag in front of me that impeded my progress. I used telekinesis to lift it and toss it. (I awoken for a split second and I closed my eyes and I am back at the dream). I see a lake of lava. I am on a floating platform, like the one from star wars. I see a women on my platform. She started to shake the platform back and forth. It flipped. I nearly fell into the lava but I used TK to stop myself. She landed on some pipes. My shoes then started to melt. I started to fly and kept on flying. I went to the rooftop of the building. I landed on a stove. It melted my shoe off and I felt a little hot. I couldn't move my shoe. Someone offered to lift it for me, I kindly told them no. I wanted to freeze it. I thought about how I would go about tackling this problem. I remembered what my physics professor told me "there is no such thing as cold their is only the absence of heat" or something like that. I put my hand forward and imagined me taking away the heat that it is producing. I see all the heat rise and come towards me. I didn't feel on my hand though. The stove was icy cold now. I then tried my hardest to remember the TOTM but I couldn't get myself to remember. I woke up shortly after.

Journal Entry Lucid #52 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: Didn't have much of a lucid week, but I haven't been doing all day awareness so it is understandable. I had lucid dream in the beginning of the week, and I was doing all day awareness.
ToTM: June 2014 Basic Task II
Lucid Dream #52, day: 06/08/14, time: 5:26-6:49am" Kiss of same sex? kind of?": The dream first started off way different than the lucid.
I see a little girl, maybe 12 or less, she has a stuffed animal in her hands and a friend by her side. Her friend looked a little older than her, she had the same hair as her and they looked similar. Since I don't know the little girl name, I will call her Linda, and her friend Carina. Like all children Linda got peer pressured, although it wasn't the usual peer pressure. Carina tells Linda to do daring tasks. Carina told Linda top military secrets. She told Linda that she has to do something about the evil corruption in the world.

This part of the dream got fuzzy. I am now a character, no longer spectating. I find myself in a car, it looks a military version of Jeep CJ. I am shooting at some other guys to receive a document. MY dad was in the passenger seat. He shot RPGs at the other car. We were driving around grand canyon. Well after having some gun battle we got the document. It was now in the Linda's hand. She walks into a dark room. A lot of people walked in and surprised her. They congratulated her about revealing the truth on the military corruption. She humbly tells them she couldn't have done it without Carina. She turns and gestures to her friend Carina. The guy that was about to give her a reward said, "Sorry? There is no one next to you. Is Carina around? Linda quickly turned around and frighten with what she saw, nobody was behind her. Then she looks at the man. He started to flicker, like those horror movie style, until he disappeared. As a spectator in dream, I commented as if I am watching a movie. I thought, "Is she schizophrenic? And did she just see the illusions that her mind made up?" She started to run in fear. She went into the night not know what is real or fake. As she went into the tunnel her illusions became vivid. She saw different color animals come at her, such as bears. Some of them clowns. I all of sudden became her. I felt her fear and desperation of answers. I spectated again, and thought if only she realized it is a dream. I became lucid and I became one of her hallucinations. An English man with one eyeglass, and a big hat. I

I told her to stop running and face her fears. She stopped immediately. I saw her as part of my psyche. I wanted her to feel strong and what better way than lucid dreaming I thought. I told her that she is not crazy and that she is dreaming. I turned around and I see a door come out of the tunnel. I took her hand and she followed me. I see my body and I am an old white man. We are at a mall. As I was telling her that she could do what ever she wants and she don't have to be afraid, I see myself in the mirror. I am young now, my eyes are hazel slightly blue. I was getting distracted, this was the first time I saw my reflection in a dream. I walked a bit and turned and I am now a women. I had red hair, I had blue greenish eyes. I had wrinkles around my eyes. I am dressed in a red poke-dot skirt. I looked like a 1950s gal. I looked about 40 something years old. I had a wonderful body not too fat or too skinny. I thought about doing the challenge since I am now a girl, I could kiss another girl. I wanted to make sure that I am not a transsexual so I picked up my skirt and saw no penis. Oh yeah the little girl disappeared long time ago, I don't know when but she did. I scattered to look for a women. I saw one old lady, and another that is slightly younger, I would say about 40-50. She had grey hair. She was not attractive but she wasn't ugly. She was doing someone's nail. I rushed and grabbed her head. I first went for a light kiss, then I started doing tongue. I was slightly uncomfortable because she is old. I am old too but dam she was really old. What made it even more sickening was that she started to enjoy it. I then woke up. My legs kind of jerked as I woke up, Idk what that was about.

Lucid Dream #53, day: 06/11/14, time: unknown "Short dream ":
I am in my house and I found myself already aware that it is a dream. I don't remember what I did but I do remember walking around the house and recalling how blurry the dream felt. I didn't stabilized thinking that the dream will stabilize on its own. The rest of dream was about GTA 5, and friends from high school.

Journal Entry Lucid #51 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: Meditated before going to sleep.

Lucid Dream #51, day: 06/07/14, time: 4:11-5:14am" Details":
I remember I had a nail and a hammer in my hand. I looked at my left hand and it had a nail inside of it.I then take it out and I try to put it into my feet. It was painful. After taking it out I looked at my hands and realized that there is no hole in my hands. I made sense out of it by saying that the nail was so small that it closed up quickly. I am in my childhood home when I was 6 years old. I see my sister. I start talking to her. I hear someone in the bathroom. I told her that I could hear someone in the bathroom. She responded, "Yes that is me".
I knew it was a dream now. I then tried to focus my attention on details for this dream. I was telling her about piercing myself. I saw the wooden cabinets and I noticed that there is no mirrors. I see white paint smeared on the wooden cabinets. I began washing my hands, after turning off everything I left. I see a guy from the church, YE. He is a short man that is bold. I tried to ignore him but thought about the strangeness of him being in my dream. I saw a marble floor. I went downstairs. It was the weirdest stairs they had a twist in them that seems to define logic. I then went to a kitchen area that previously didn't exist. Inside it was huge. I then touched the table. It felt slippery. A quick look and I realized that I didn't wipe my hands upstairs after washing. I laughed at the details my dream put into it. I then grabbed a towel. It felt foamy like after shave. I see a men walking back. I said to sister loudly as if I can't hear myself, "I DO NOT KNOW HIM". I could barely hear her, she whispered, "No, ignore him". He then stopped to look at me. I believed he felt what I felt. He knew it and I knew it, I am waking up. My sister's voice is diminishing because I am waking up.

Journal Entry Lucid #50 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:
I meditate and woke up for WBTB. I meditated again and went to sleep.

Lucid Dream #50, day: 06/03/14, time: 4:27-5:20am" Confusion":
I am in the house. I see my dad is in the kitchen making some food for my mother. I am hyper active running around the house. At first completely unaware of the bright pink lights that makes it look like a club. My sister woke up. she came out of her room drowsy. I jumped around and I thought this feels like a dream.
I then do a R.C, but it failed. I didn't accept it though since I knew it was a dream. I looked at my hand watch and it says 9:15 and I look away and back it reads 9:10. It was fairy close. I went to our backyard. The house look so 'real'. I am too focused on the idea that it could be real that I didn't think about it as 'dream'. I went to the wall outside and I wanted to create a portal. I turn and look back to see no portals. I try again and again. My sister calls me and tells me that I am losing my mind and I need to stop LD. Little by little getting increasingly confused. With further confusion the dream destabilized. I went further into my backyard. With out the confusion I could have been aware enough. I didn't have a door in my back yard. I tried to open it and it wouldn't open at first. I couldn't even recognize that I went into 3rd person perspective. I didn't like it at all I wanted to wake up. They come out and told me to follow them. I didn't want to. I instead willed myself to wake up.

What convinced me that it was "real" was not the logic in the dream, but the confusion. Confusion gets rid of the clarity that lucidity offers.

Journal Entry Lucid #49 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I do not normally attempt Task of the Month because I don't like the thought of failure. This was on a monday morning. Mondays are normally not a LD dreaming day for me.
ToTM: June 2014 Advanced II
Lucid Dream #49, day: 06/02/14, time: 6:09-7:59am" Meteorite Strike Ocean":
I was having a very vivid dream about being shot. I don't actually remember being shot but I do remember trying to take out the bullet. I was looking at my arm trying to take it out. My family was bothering me. I thought I just want to experience feeling a bullet in a dream and I can't.

That's when it clicked. I started heading out. My body was hard to control at first. I thought about doing the task of the month but I didn't want to drop a meteorite unto a city so I wanted to do next to some body of water. I opened the back door to the house and it served as a portal to an island. It was a tropical island, had trees and stuff. I didn't think too much about the summoning of the meteorite, I just believed that it will show up. I lifted my hands and strike it down. I see 20+ meteorite come towards the ocean splitting the clouds open with fire. I see ships ahead. I hear someone behind me say hurry you are going to miss it. I started to fly. At one point I nearly went into the water and I became terrified since I can't swim very well in waking life. I shook off the fear and concentrated on the meteorites. As they were about to hit the ocean's floor I hear this high pitch frequency and it was painful to hear. When they hit the ocean it wasn't anything dramatical. It had waves but it wasn't as big as I thought it would be. One of the meteorite levitated out of the water. I see Iron man show up and take it. He took it back to the shore. I wanted to see what was inside. He opened it up and I saw a robot. It was black with blue neon glowing lights on it. I started flying and shortly after I woke up. I don't know if I was suppose to go underwater to investigate the ocean but at the time I did what I thought was right. I was pretty happy with the outcome.

Journal Entry Lucid #48 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
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Lucid Dream #48, day: 06/01/14, time: 4:04-5:26am" Flying and Telekinesis":
I see a flood and I question if it was a dream. I did a R.C and wished for it to work and it did.
I became fully lucid. The rain subsided after a while. I touched the floor, it was wet and cold. I got on top of a desk that was just in the middle of an apartment complex. I turn around and I see another desk with computers on it. A women shoed up on the desktop of the computer. She started to talk. I didn't care to listen. I just wanted to cause havoc. I levitated the desk that had the computer and threw it. It hit something and violently spin out of control. I picked up the desk with TK and broke it into two pieces and threw it. I see my friend AN and Big AN. They were just looking at me, cheering me on. I wanted to see how well I could fly and use telekinesis. I started to fly and I levitated the desk. At first it was ok, but I realized in order for me to fly I need to be aware of the sensation of flight and in order to use telekinesis I need my mind to do it. So I had to switch back and forth from the two. It was pretty difficult and I started to come down from the air and the telekinesis stopped as well. It felt like I drained my "awareness". I couldn't keep up to the sensations. My friends were cheering me on. I saw a cabinet made of glass and I wanted to break the glass behind them. I cringed my hands and it didn't work. My friends asked, "what are you doning?" I told them to back away. They kept walking towards me. I tried to levitate them away. AN said, "we're your friends". I tried again, it merely pushed them. They grabbed me and AN got me in a bear hug. They then get the lady that was talking on the computer. I was sure they were either going to kill her or worse, and I didn't want that to be a LD experience i have so I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #45-47 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
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Lucid Dream #45, day: 05/29/14, time: 3:23-5:06am" shortest lucid":
I was in the bathroom taking a bath, which I normally don't do. And a girl walked in. I didn't want to be seen naked so I told her to close it. She didn't want to close it. I realized it was a dream. I did a RC, first the finger count, but since it takes time, I did a nose plug. I got out without a care in the world. As I was walking, she followed me, then somebody bumped into me and said that she is a fraud. I woke up.

Lucid Dream #46, day: 05/30/14, time: 4:02-5:42am"":

I became lucid as I was on the internet watching a video where a man tells the crowd that we all can fly and that we are amazing. We all started flying and I became lucid. As I look up at the clouds floating up. I thought about death and how wonderful it would be if it was as beautiful as this. I heard music play in the background. The wizard man made fireworks and I see colors blend in the sky. I wanted to rub my hands to prolong the lucid dream but I couldn't. I just accepted things as it is and I flew.

Lucid Dream #47, day: 05/31/14, time: unknown"":

As I daze away in sleep. I am in my kitchen. I thought about how real it feels. I start rubbing my hands. I thought, "Wow where imagination hits dream". I went down at the ground and felt the texture and marveled at the details. I got up and felt the table. I started getting excited. I wanted to leave. I tried to control the anxiety that I have because I know it will wake me up. I see my grandmother in the house. Nothing could calm me down better than family. I walked towards my grandma and she kept getting shorter and shorter. I hurried towards her and I hugged her. She stopped shrinking. I told her I love her. I woke up soon after as I became excited about doing telekinesis.

Journal Entry Lucid #43-44 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I meditated and then said mantra as I went to sleep.

Lucid Dream #43, day: 05/23/14, time: 3:03-4:33am" Adapter car":
I was with some friends. We were hanging out, they had a little dog, everybody just hanging out. I left their house and laid on the ground. I wake up and I look around the dog is all grown up. My friends still looked the same. It has been over a year since I saw them. I see a hover aircraft. We were at war. I thought war that is ridiculous, why am I dreaming about that?

I became lucid. I see a car coming towards me. I used TK and launched it with my mind. It went over me. I went down a snowy hill, which quickly became dry hill. I see a freeway. I went in front of some cars. It was strange a car without a driver. As I was going to sit on it, I realized that the car was just a big giant adapter. I got on it and I thought how will I use this as a car. I wanted to go forward and it went forward. It was done with will. I went extremly fast. So I didn't do exactly what I wanted but it is ok I will get it.

Lucid Dream #43, day: 05/24/14, time: 2:15-4:04am" chicken head":

I became slightly lucid while looking at a fridge. It had math problem, simple math problems like division/fractions. The numbers kept changing. I did a RC early in the dream that failed so I was skeptical to believe. I then told myself to confess it is a dream and I became fully lucid. I rub hands to stabilize the dream. I turn around and I see my grandmother making food for us. She was talking to my sister.I turn around and turn back. She had a chicken as a head still talking. My sister is talking to her very seriously. I couldn't stop laughing because she couldn't see the reality. I became haunted with the thought that maybe we are dreaming in the day and we don't see it. I decided to leave because they were both distracting and creepy. As I was about to walk out I woke up.