Turquoise Dreams

12.11.14

Last night bed 10pm - 6am

Had dreams all night. Everytime I woke up, I remembered some.

DR:
I'm in the mountains. Many people around me, all tourists. We are getting on a ride, that looks like Disneyride. But only the vehicle, the nature around us is real. It's a large open-top vehicle on rails. It seats about 10 people in a row and has about 8 rows. I see my frends sitting in the first row left, but somebody already sat next to them, so I sit in first one on the righ. I'm holding 2 seats for other friends. I wonder how it will be sitting in the first row.

10.7.14

Last night before 9 pm, then again at 9:30 ish.

DR:

I'm at my current work, or on some retreat with coworkers. There is lot's of going on, people walking around, busy doing work and plannig.

I'm in a room, taking a shower behind the door. People walking by. Boss walkes by talking to another person waking behind him. After they walk through the room, boss tells the other person "you should at least put up a sign or something. I just saw her whole ass, ffs"!

DR:

Something with Ophelia. I woke up right after, but didn't have enough strength to reach for a pen I had nearby. I was fighting it but I guess I fell asleep.

12.6.14

Last night bed 10-ish.

Dream at 2:32am

OpheliaBlue is visiting. She is staying over, but there is also something about the hotel.

I'm at some sohooting exhibition or competition. Somebody is shooting into the air, and the goal is to catch the falling bullet with the smallest of the devices. So someone makes the falling bullet land on a tip of a stick, that is only as wide as the bullet is. I think he won : D.

10/4/14

Last night bed around 9 coz soming down with something.

Woken up at 3am, spent 30 min on comp, then bed. Woke up at 5:30 from LDs.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD, but proly DILD. Next thing I know, I'm walking down the street, happy as can be and singing and old song, one of my favorites. I realize I can sing nice and loud so I start really singing from top of my lungs. It feels GREAT. I have the lyrics right and I carry a tune.

The dream fades, I see my hands and I realize I'm still dreaming, because a thought crosses my mind that I always am. No transition.

I'm ourside, between 2 buildings. I want to fly up, but there are boards like a scaffolding. I'm pushing them aside and telling myself its easy.

I'm on the street again I think and I manage half of the same song, again happy as fuq, before dream fades.

Not sure if still lucid here or not, proly kinda aware but not lucid. So I go look for OpheliaBlue which I know she is in that corridor. I find her and I'm all excited telling her that I just had a DILD and a DEILD.

Woke up ecstatic.

Why can I sing in dreams but not IWL?

12.1.14

Last night bed 10:20pm - 7:40am

Back to bed 8am-10:40

I put an extra pillow under my 2 and propped it against the dresser. So I was on my back, with head raised a bit. I was daydreaming and felt the falling asleep sensation few times and surprised me that it came that soon.

I got into a transition, which consisted of a mild wierd head sensation, as if falling forward or backwards, but very mild. More just a head sensation. And at that exact moment my cat jumped on my bed. The other cat was already asleep by my left arm. So this one took up position on my right, plopping her body on me and purring up a storm.

I continued falling asleep, but when he changed position third time, I turned to my right side so he is behind me, rather than on me.

Very soon I got into another transition. Again, just a wierd feeling in the head. I tried to make it bigger by pushing my head backwards. Then decided to start getting up, even I knew that transition is not finished yet.

It was very hard to get up. I couldn't. I could barely sit up, but I was almost like held down by gravity or something. I tried to levitate up desperately, while also trying to sit up. I finally levitated out over some guy asleep in red shirt. I stood up and started walking away in what looked like a large warehouse. I saw my steel ring on the ground but walked by, didn't want to waste time. But ofc I couldn't leave it there, I turned back and picked it up. I looked at the inscription as I always do before putting it on. There were some pictographs on it, instead of word.

That's when my cat behind me moved again and I got out of it.

Had one more transition within minutes, but nothing came of it.

11.27.14

I'm standing with other recruits and members of a spy agency. Somewhere outside, near a slope with dirt and some eucalyptus trees and bushes. I don't wanna be there, because we are there against our will. So I'm escaping. These agents were female, btw.

I run, but they are immediatelly after me. I duck under a flat stone that has only few inches off the ground some free space. One agent kneels down and looks through the hole in the stone, but few feet from where I am and he doesn't see me. Another one kneels right beside me and is quietly waiting for me to notice. I notice that I have been caught and I see myself being led away. I don't like that so I take my slim chance and run again.

I make it to some small shack with 3 others. People keep coming by, but we lay down under the window so they cant see directly down and we hope to stay undetected.

This happens again, we lay down, but one of us is smoking and that makes the other one crawl away. I can tell that this movement will be visible.

A reporter is peeking through the window and I hear him say "nobody here". I breathe a sigh or relief. But then he continues "only the family that moved here few days ago". I instantly see some black dresses agents miles away, that were looking for us, hearing these news and rushing towards our location. We don't have much time, have to run again.

11.26.14

Last night bed around 11 or so till 9:20 am. Tried a WILD around 12:30pm, but just couldn't fall asleep. But I recalled a dream from that night.

I'm looking at Ophelia's hands, that are in front of me. I see them, as if they were mine, right in front of my face. She has a copper colored elephant ring on her left hand, silver colored one with small colorfull stones on the same finger, and another ring on another finger. Perhaps one more. And a necklace type chain between 2 fingers.

Morning of 25th. Bed 12:30am - 5:11am (potty)
woke up f DILD at 6:27

It was about 10 min long.

I'm in a smallish, dark room and I'm thinking "next time when I'm dreaming, i just look at my hands and I will know if I'm dreaming". I look at my hands and they are fading and melting as energy would.

I realize I'm dreaming and decide to use the door properly to exit. I use a classic european doorhandle, open the door, walk through it and then close the door. I'm happy this all time that I'm lucid and want to go and do things fast, but I'm pacing myself to do it the right way, slowly, taking my time with details.

I'm out on a street. Sunny day, wide pedestrian zone, people walking around me. There is ocean in a distance to my right.

I start to hop up with intent to take flight. I jump 10-20 feet straight up, slowly, and slowly come back down. I realize I can't fly there, coz a concrete roof. I walk little closer to the ocean, look up and with force of my will I SEE blue skies with some white clouds, and not the roof.

I keep walking and come to an older looking single story house. The outside is sunbleached brown wood, almost gray with age, and a chinese type of wooden doorway. It has 2 part, on left an right, and it's old red in color.

I really don't like houses in lucids, even if I love them in non-lucids. So I make a consious decision to walk inside. As I walk throught the door, I reasure myself that "only nice things are here".

I know whom this house belongs to. It's "S". He is not home, only his mom. She thinks I'm a friend, and I'm not gonna tell her any differently. I'm walking through the house, aware that his mom is in other parts of the house. I'm looking through a dresser. There is a ziploc baggie with golden rings and earrings. I take it. I also take a baggie with old coins, and another 2 bags, that I keep finding in this drawer. Normally I would never take what's not mine. But I know this person and it gives me some weird satisfaction that I'm taking it.

His dad is coming home. I have a feeling that he will know I'm not a friend, and I know his mom is clueless, but she doesn't trust me either. It's time to leave. I'm at the window to the yard and his dad is coming through there. I avoid him and get out.

11.11.14

Last night bed 12:30am - 9am

1. This could have been a DILD, but not sure, maybe not.

It's at night and I'm in old Rome. I'm telling myself it's just movie props, but I have a feeling it's a real deal. There are old churches, already very old and almost in ruins. Lots of tumbs, graves, sandstone buldings with walls half fallen down, burned out and never rebuilt.

It's a place of my nightmares, but somehow I'm not scared. But I know flying would be safer than walking, so I try to fly up. I can just a little bit. So I do what I sometimes do. I grab on a branch of a tree, pull myself higher, then hop on taller tree and keep pulling myself higher till I can jump off and glide or kinda fly to next object, like a roof.

At some point I'm trying to fly differently. I remember not to try to fly, but rather imagine myself "going" or being at a desired location, so dream does the flying for me.

I also remember to fly up at 45 degree angle to get to next dimention.

So I'm kinda tree-and-roof-hopping from place to place. I land outside of a very large and imposing church. The front courtyard and some walls near are collapsed, burned out. I don't really look at it coz it's scary as hell, if I was to go in there. So I keep flying-walking to tumbs and graves and stuff.

Sometimes I see people that are walking slowly, without emotions. They all look like ghosts from movie 13th. ghost I watched just before bed.


2.
I just arrived to India. I'm suppose to babysit there. So I'm talking to mom and I'm impressing here. There is more going on here, we are walking around, talking. I compliment her place, having such a good location in middle of the town. Then I talk to her and she sounds like a grownup. She offers me Bud and something else. I realize I'm thirsty and I ask for a Bud, after I figure that I'll be still able to talk inteligently with them, coz Bud has no grades.


3. We are watching the ocean. It's so beautiful and sparkly from the sun being at just the righ angle. Sudenly there is something happening. Some 4-5 large indents form on the water. They keep changing, It's a beautiful and misterious sight. I'm devastated that I don't ahve my camera with me. Then I say, "oh wow, I really hope it's not a commercial". And sure, suddenly there are cars on the water and it's a car commercial. I'm so mad and disappointed.

11.11.14

This was few days ago.

I'm climbing up a latter. It's standing on the bottom floor and top of it ends in a small circular opening in the ceiling few stories high. It's not near the wall, more like standing in the middle of the room.

I got to the top and here getting off is a bit tricky, because some old wood rigging that doesn't look too stable and there is a gap between the latter and the floor you need to get on to.

As I reach the top, I stay there and help others behind me to get to the floor safely. They are all children, maybe just a few adults. Like a class or something.

I have a feeling we are leading them to a safe place, because end of the world is coming in form of some explosion. So after we tuck everybody safely in some room, me and another person stay out there in the room with the latter. We sit down and we ahve a view through a window on a nearby wall. We are discussing if it's a safe place to be for us two, if the blast wave from explosion wont blow us off from that room. Maybe we should hold on to some metal railing, but I don't see any there. I don't feel very safe, but I think we are going to be ok.

11.4.14

Last night bed at 9pm - 2:30am

also slept a lot yesterday from 9am to 2pm, coz I wasn't feeling well last few days, and I'm still not good

DR:

I'm at some kind of a family compound. Outside in the very large yard, or field. It's surrounded by a fence, but inside is just dirt or dry grass, as if it was fall or winter.

Somebody is trying to come in in a homemade helicopter. I realize something and I get him to take me home from there to my mom. It's far away, another country or even continent.

Now I'm at home. I'm heading to the restroom when my mom is calling me. I go to see and she has some pyjamas on the bed, asking me if I want to take some with me when I'll return back to where I came from. They are very cool looking, gray and black and white, and soooo soft. But I don't want to take hers away, as I did last time. And I feel sorry now for not bringing those back to her now, since I could have had, having a ride and all.

Now my dad is there too. We have the courtains opened and I'm looking outside at some dark cloud, which has a "leg". I think I see it getting longer, and another cloud has a part that is also protruding down and getting longer and bigger. I say "wow, you guys we are getting a tornado". The hanging parts are now in shape of a tornado and spinning wildly.

By the time I grab my camera, they are so close that all I see is blackness. I ran to doors and close them, yelling at everybody to do the same. In case some window opens, it won't suck us all out.

It goes right over the house. I am excited. I go out on the kitchen balcony. My aunt is there and I ask her how they protected themselves from tornado. But she is busy. Her daughter (my cousin K) is in wedding gown, getting married. She says we should hurry, coz they are starting to gather.

My mom says she has no dress for a wedding, coz they didn't tell her on time. I also don't have anything, since i only grabbed one bag when I was going there.

I ask about my friend who came with me yesterday and was sleeping over, and mom tells me she went home already. I remember she has family in town.

I'm looking out the living room window again. I tell my mom "you won't believe how often I have a dream about me looking out this window". And I see the tennis courts across the street.

Suddenly its pitch dark outside. I see an anourmous cloud of large, black birds flying by. They are mostly or all crows, flying in neat formation, all same speed. Some of them look at me. I once again scramble for my camera to take pictures, coz it's an incredible sight.

Now from the other direction, from south to north, there are people flying in the air. They are standing up as if walking. Most if not all are male, all dressed in business attire. I regnize one of them as an american actor. He has a bloody lip. I look at others and most of them have some sign of trauma. They are all somber, not talking, not looking around.

I ask a question and one that looks like the actor answers "time". I ask to clarify and he says "we are running out of time".

10.29.14

Last night bed around 11pm -5 am 5 min wbtb, then up at 8

DR:
I'm in a rather large room. It's a bottom level of a generational space ship. We are traveling to colonize another world. We have kids with us, because travel will take that long, that only kids and their kids will meke it there alive.

Stairs go up from our level to the one above. From there, there is an elevator to the top and to all levels in between. The space ship is shaped like a skyscraper. For some reason we are occupying only bottom two levels. The other levels are dark and I feel safer down with others.

The interior is decorated bright, almost like a cruise ship.

For some reason we just realized that we have lots of food with us, so everybody grabs something. It's still organized, not like we are going to waste food.

I ask for icecream. I'm given a small container, like icecream normally comes in. Paper cup is beige color with some nice, delicate drawing of flowers on it.

Flavors are cocnut - white, peach and one other flavor. I don't like peach, but I'm resolved to eat it as not to waste food. I start with coconut and it tastes aweful. I wonder why. After I eat half of it I look at the container and it says "Dairy free icecream" in nice cursive. I'm like "oooohhhhh, that's why" . Tofu icecream, lol.

10.28.14

Last night bed 11:10

I'm in a hotel sort of a building. Sitting on the restaurant patio on some higher floor. I point to the sky. There is a white banner hanging in the air. It has bat from Opehlia's avatar on it. It is soooo cute.

Now there are 2 birds flying up and down on the banner. Someone asks who is that guy up there. I say it's hewhoshapes, he is directing the birds. I pull out my camera and zoom in to see him closer.

10.27.14

Last night bed 10:30 - 5am

Wanted to do WBTB, but realized it's still dark out and I don't wannu WILD in the dark. But I woke up with some serious cramps that kept me awake for an hour. So at 6 I decided to take:

1x4 mgGM
1x300 mg alpha GPC
1x300 mg choline

Had to get up at 6:45 to potty. And had to kick off my cat 3-4 times from the bed, walking all over me : (

By the time I had to go potty I felt I was very close and soon after I got back to bed I got to that state of mind very soon again. I hear my watch beep at 7 and I get lucid minutes after. I wake up from it all at 8am and write it down.

So it was a 30-45 min event, if not longer.

I didn't feel any transitions, any bubbling or coldness in the top back of my head as usually. No HH, no sensations, no NOTHING.

I kept concentrating on my black eyelids and saw just fog swirling, what happens at the very beginning and it normally doesn't end in a lucid for me. So I was thinking nothing will happen this time either. But I also knew that it will.

I heard my cat and I imagined how it would be to hear HH and I may have heard my name being called, but I was so close to falling asleep, I'm not sure.

I felt the slightest sensation of moving forward (I was more sitting than laying down with comforter and 2 pillows behind my back) so I rejoiced and pushed myself backwards and it worked!

1.
I realized I can see my room (not my real room IWL). I was like "finally I'm lucid". I had pyjamas on (I don't wear any in WL). Flanel, beige colored with some print. Top was unbuttoned. I almost got up, but thought that I should check "down there". Since ophelia often talks about her parts, I wanted to know myself. I rolled my pyjama bottoms down. I saw nice flat tummy and lady's parts. I looked at them thoroughly, thinking "daum, I look awesome". Was shaved, but with like a 5'clock shadow, lol. Everything looked as it should, and better.

2.
There is no transition between LDs at all, just one long event.

I'm walking down the street. It's very wide, not many cars, and sidewalk is almost empty of people as well. It's evening, and it's like suburbs, not in the city. No houses either.

There is a very colorful huge billboard on the left side ahead, with sea life on it. A sea turtle and 2 other animals and some text. It's so colorful, sharp and detailed.

A georgeous blond duude runs by me and he wants me to follow him. He needs help. As we are walking, I'm telling myself not to be stupid and waste it on sex. I'm not in a mood for sex anyway. But he is so damn hot. I'm not into blonds, but he IS HOT. So I ask him if he wants to do it. He doesn't. I should have taken my hint, but now the liftoff sequence had been initiated and there is not steping back. I lose lucidity somewhere here. But I continue with the fantasy.

3.
No transition again. After I realized the previous LD is over, I think to myself "ok I'll just wait here for the next one" only to realize "wait a minute, I'm still dreaming, I'm lucid wooo".

I'm on top of the hill. It has dry bushes growing on it and it's almost straight down. I don't think twice and I launch myself down head first. I fly at breakneck speed. It's so awesome. I can feel the tingles in my stomach, like on a rollercoaster. Only much stronger, almost unbearably strong.

I see some hot air balloons being launched to my right, on some kind of a very large flat part of a mountain slope. I decide to try if I can steer and I turn slightly to the right and I'm flying towards them now.

4.
They are looking for girls for some favor. They assure us nothing is going on, like porn or anything. It's suspicious anyway, but I trust them. Then there is this long part that's kinda foggy, but sex is involved.


I made a decision between LDs that I'm not going to retell them in my mind during transitions to remember them better. I didn't really care to remember them this time. Just happy that my dry spell is over.

10.26.14

Last night bed after 10 - 5:30 (overslept my 4:45 alarm)

DR
Ring, that looks just like the one I have in WL is broke. I didn't even notice at first, but something catches my eye and I look closer. I see one stone missing. I get a bad feeling and keep turning it and another one is missing and another one. Some stones are like filed down or broken, many are missing, rest is dirty.

I'm glad I didn't remember this one in the mornign. Recalled it just 30 min ago.

DR 5:30
This one I remembered when I woke up.

I have a dog. I give him hotdog with a bun. He swallows it whole. Then he tries to spit it out, coz obv too big. Only half comes out. On the second half he starts to choke. I'm getting scared and I do Heimleck on him. Doesn't help. I yell for a doctor. Some kind of a dentist shows up and not sure if he helps or not, but dog is ok now.

Then we debate best toothbrush for dogs.

DR
I'm looking out the window on the tennis courts accross the street from my house. I realize my view is obscured, because they build some walls and stuff. It's all metal sheet walls.