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I was afraid like yesterday - today I will have problem with sleeping because I went to bed at circa 3am LT and it passed 2-3h untill I drift off. But good ending happening (sometimes)

Dream (DF) 1#
I dont remember this dream very well, only some pieces:
On the begin I remember my dream looked like GTA (IV or V). I had some shooting with cops and I went from outside to interior of building. In the end part of dream I saw something like HoI4 game. I saw "battle" between my and enemi tank divisions. My division won the battle but it lost entire ammo supply and organization and I started to think my template of division suck.

Dream (DILD) 2#

Non-LD part
My friend sent me to buy some food for our party. Some chips, alcohol etc. I started to count money he gave me and I return for more money then I went to shop. For some reason my dream changed scenery. It was just random moment - no after passing door nor rotate behind my backs. It looks like I have hole in memory bc I was walk forward to shop and my dream just changed. Now I was on my bike with half empty beer can. I wanted to drink some of beer but in last moment I saw police car passing me so I abandoned that idea (In my country drinking in public is illegal. And still I was on bike ) but police just passed me and nothing happened.
I parked my bike on car park and passed 4-5 cops. "What happened here? What is going on?" I asked myself. I saw one policeman is pumping something like industrial hosepipe. I ignored that fact and just entered to market. For some reason my other friend respawned with me (I don't know him from real life. Just random NPC). We walk through supermarket corridor and stopped at kebab kiosk to buy some fastfood. I checked the prices
-What the fuck, why evrything here is so expensive?!
-Because customers are buying it anyways
I was really hungry, my friend also. He ordered "rollo kebab hamburger". I ordered traditional polish cutlet in bread roll. After few moment cashier said:
-Here is your order
-That cutlet looks awfully. And where is roll? I ordered cutlet in bread roll
-No rolls for you!
-OKAY. SO I WISH REGULAR KEBAB AND DONT PISS ME OFF!
The cashier started making new order and he went to backroom. After few moments he come back
-My manager said everything will be prepare good but I cannot promise that he dont use his ass to mix your kebab sauce
After that I just make sure the cashier started my order and I just left the place without paying. He was calling me for money but I just ignore him

Lucid part
Scenery of dream changed. Now I was with my childhood friend outside. I started to think that something is wrong. That isn't the place where I should to be. I check where I am and I made reality check - it's dream. My friend told to me
-Lets go that way - he pointed direction with his finder
-No, no let go that way - I pointed my direction
-Nah, my way is better
-Okay then. See ya!
And I just flew away My friend was scared and I just flew away from him. It's was my fist time when I flying in LD with full control. The felling was so nice. And I can feel nice fresh wind on my face when I was flying forward. And the view of my city was wonderful. I decide to land on roof of the high building. I wanted this because it was abstract for me - just random flying person standing on the roof. In the meantime I trying to recall my three-step-goal but I failed. "Anyway - this is LD and I have fun! I dont care about step goals" I though.
When I was trying to land on the roof I recognize I have problem with that. So I decided to just fell down from circa 3-4m. I didint feel any pain and It was something new for me. In normal condition mistakes in my dreams are painfully. Anyway I reach my roof and again I look for my city view.
My friend respawned near to me. I saw his happy smile. He was proud of me.

Today I remembered 3 dreams, but I lost memory of first one before I woke up from bed.

Dream #1 (about 11 a.m local time)
I was in some sort of village in 1939-1945, probably in Poland. Weather was was windy and cloudy it was a little bit dark like autumn evening. I was running away from gestapo or other nazi agency (it wasn't specified in my dream). I asked people for help or place to hide but nobody responsed so I crossed the main village road. It was made of mud and I almost slipped. I entered to someone backyard and I opened door to basement. I saw 2 people inside (probably the owners) so I ask them for hiding. They agree. I went inside and man led me to special place in his basement. After crossing hidden door I was in some kind of forest. It was dark like night, and I saw snow and frozen mud. We went to the end of main road of tha forest and that was my place for hiding

Dream #2 (about 1 p.m local time)
I entered to area of big jail. I was outside on the road. Structures was made of red bricks and architecture was old. Weather similar like in dream no. 1 - windy and cloudy but I dont remember what season it was. I passed side road and entered to building. I was in dark room probably in undergrounds. For some reason I had long sharp knife and magazine. I tried to hide that knife because I dont want to have any problems. After that I left the building and I left the entire area. On the end of dream I passed main gate.

Yesterday like 2 days ago I played asrm during WBTB but nothing happened. I just didn’t drift off. But today I had exactly the same circumstances like 2 days ago:
- I went sleep at 0200 local time
- I woke up circa at 0730
-Before nap I drunk 1 cup of coffee
- At 0945 I went back to bed with prepared asrm
As in previous attempts I had problem with falling asleep so the fact is this ASRM is working as anchor. Good enough because even if I must wait 40-50 minutes to drift off still I’m relaxed so I don’t feel anger, mad or other negative waiting-related emotions.
Btw I never had so low "cooldown" between lucid dreams. Usually I must wait 2-3 weeks for next LD, so 2 days it is very quickly!

Dream 1 (lucid)
I had sleep paralyze when I realize fact I’m sleeping. I tried move my left hand but it was blocked. Alse I felt very unpleasant feeling on right side of my chest. I felt my body is bending I direction of that feeling but I tried to let my hair down (this is my first time when I’m using this idiom so I don’t know if this is understandable – I’m tried to be relaxed). And I woke up.
I went to toilet. When I looked into mirror I saw my face have some kind of offset. I don’t know how to describe this – it was a little bit moved. Then I saw my head in mirror is rotating slowly. “Oh c’mon. What the fuck. Of course this is dream” I though. I went outside of toilet and my grandfather went inside. I recognize that everything are light (I’m – in almost every dream, especially in LD, I have night. Sometimes I’m almost blind so dark my dreams are) “This is not night time, weird. Maybe this isn’t a dream?” I used nose plug RC and I check my hand shape – It’s dream. And in this moment I woke up.

Dream 2 (non lucid)
I spend more minutes in bed so I drift off again. But this time I had short non lucid dream. I was onboard as 3rd officer. I was repairing valve from firefighting system.

Yesterday I got an idea that I can play ASRM from Pornhub on earphones during WBTB so even if I fail then still I have chance for nice dream. And I done this.
First, in morning (0630 am) I set up alarm clock and I woke up. According with the plan I played prepared looped ASRM and I went back to sleep. I had problem with falling to sleep and max what I got it was deep relax. Not bad but it wasn’t my goal. I spend 1 hour in bed and I woke up.
Next, because of cancelled 2h of e-learning I had some time for nap so I repeated my procedure. At 0950 I went to bed and I played prepared looped ASRM. First about 20 minutes was the same – just regular relax but I decided to stay in bed anyway. After few more minutes I fell asleep.

Dream 1 (lucid)
I restored my awareness in late pre-dream state. Right before the dream started. I felt like my eyes was trying to open by itself so I was focused on keeping my eyes closed. But they opened anyway. “Fuck it” - I thought and woke up. Habitually I grabbed my phone for time checking and before I even looked at my phone I recognized fact I’m in dream. I felt sleepy and dizzy and I hardly stand on my feet. Anyway I reminded that I wish to talk with my subconscious so I went to my door with intention with that intention. When I opened the door I saw nothing. Next room was much more darker and the only thing what I saw (exclude empty corridor) shadow (and only shadow) of unspecified person. I went to next door with same intention – I want summon my subconscious behind door but next room was empty. After that I woke up.

I still had 1 more hour of free time so I stayed in bed and I drifted off almost instantly.

Dream 2 (lucid)
I don’t remember that dream very well. And to be honest that lucid dream was more like half lucid but still this is success for me.
I was in my bed. I saw via my opened door that my mother and grandfather come back to home so I decided to do nothing. For some reasons I didn’t recognized them as NPC although I was aware that I’m in dream.

I woke up and again instantly drifted off.

Dream 3 (non lucid)
This dream wasn’t lucid BUT… BUT it was about I was making entry in DJ on this forum. And in this dream I made well accurate description of 2 previouse lucid dreams. Even somebody replayed to me but I don’t remember what about it was.

I’m not sure if I woke up after that dream or not

Dream 4 (lucid)
Same like in dream no. 2 that dream was more like half lucid and my memory from this dream isn’t perfect. Anyway, I remember much more than in dream 2.
Because I was still hearing ASRM so I decided to make some fun. But for some reason I didn’t even tried to summon someone to play with me and I spent that time alone :/

Dream 5 (non lucid)
I was playing in video game. Something between simcity and city skyline. Nothing special, BUT… sometimes in that dream I was thinking about lucid dreaming

Summary: That nap was awesome! It’s my record in LD chaining. And even non lucid dreams were related with lucidity. Tomorow I have free day, so I will do the same thing
I'm wondering on one thing. What exactly helped me with lucidity? It passed almost one month when I started with ADA and in this period of time this is 4th "lucid-related event" (I'm counting failed WILD during competition when I was close to enter into dream), so my theory is: That asrm probably is working as anchor for me and because I'm training ADA so maybe my WILD skill is boosted?

Tonight I remembered 3 dreams, but I’m a lazy bastard so I will write down the most interesting one. Anyway, it passed a lot of hours so I have holes in my memory.

I don’t remember the beginning of this dream. I was with pretty woman (she was my friend but I don’t know her from real life) on unspecific place, probably in some kind of city in middle of night. She ran forward maybe 20-30m from me.
-Hey, wait for me! – I said
She looked at me and gaily smiled. I approached to her.
-You know… I very like you. Very – she said.
-I feel same way to you. You are very special for me.
-Really?
-Yea!
I looked at her smiling face and grabbing her shoulders. She had long light-brown hairs and thick eyebrows. I saw streetlight reflecting in her blue eyes.
-What do you think about date tomorrow? – I asked
-It looks great!
I started to feel weird, very strong and nice feeling and my rushing heart. “Wow that must be a feeling of love. I never felt that before” I thought. My girlfriend grab my hand and we climbed on nearby hill. To the end of dream I was observing this new feeling.
The most interesting thing in that dream is that I was very aware of my feelings. It wasn’t a lucid dream nor even half lucid. But I was aware of that strong feeling. I almost started to meditate.

19.03.23

Before I fell asleep…
I woke up at 0930am LT. I began to wonder that it will be good time for WBTB bc I woke up by myself directly after dream so in theory I’am in REM phase. So I started WILD. During this I recognised that I’m too rested and propably WILD isn’t a good tech for this moment so I resigned. „I will stay i my bed one minute more and I will stand up. I don’t want mess with my bio clock one day before monday” – I thought. Aaaandd…. After this one minute I just fell asleep…


Non-lucid section
I was passing near some kind of restaurant. I stopped to look what is inside and the old woman accosted me. She had white board on her chest with written sign „Good beef – 1pln per 100g” (pln is my country currency and it is circa 0.23 usd). She recommended me her beef but I said
- Sorry ma’am I’m looking inside that restaurant, not on you
- Just try it. It’s super cheap!
I checked my pocket but I left my wallet in my home
- Wait, I’ll go for my wallet
Dream scenerio has changed and now I had wallet. I paid that woman 3.50 pln (circa 0.80 usd) and I entered inside that restaurant. After ordering fries I sit down on chair.
After moment somebody seat near to me. This guy was from my company from crew recruitment department. „Oh shit. I’m sure he will start inportune me”. But no – he wasn’t inportune me. He just took a seat near me and he was waiting for his food. I thought it’s great oportunity to make „job conections” so I started convartation with him
-Do you have some news from sea world? - I asked
-Excuse me?
-Do you have some rumors or news about our job. Especially from shore department. You know – we seafarers like such topics… it’s good to keep conversations onboard.
-Ah.. not really
-Okay
I was looking on city view by window. It’s was a little bit strange because I wasn’t in my home city but I can see characteristic skyscraper.
-That is weird… I didn’t knew we have office in this city – I said
-What do you mean?
-Look – I point on the skyscraper – It’s our office. Literally, I can see name of our company on top of this building.
He didn’t even looks in this direction.


Lucid section
I made RC using nose plug technique. Person ahead of me saw that.
-What are you doing with you nose?
-Nothing important. I have runny nose, don’t mind that. Anyway, I’m going to toilet wash my hands. Wait for me.
I left that place and my „friend”. When I passed the door I was teleported into my home (not intentionally). I entered to second room, I was trying to remind my three-step goals from competition and my personal goals (ofc I know the competition is ended. I wanted to recive some of these goals just for fun). After that I summoned assault rifle. It looks like combinations of Scorpion Evo SMG and AR15 rifle. Next I checked magazine – it’s was full. I smilled. I come back and kicked closed door saying „I’M BACK!”. I just shot him. 3-5 shots in chest and 2-3 shots in head. After, I went to next room in my home and I shot my grandfather in the same way.
I felt a little bit sorry bc I killed member of my family, but this was my personal goal – do something crazy so I can breake my in-dream fears


If it was during the competition I should got:
DILD = 10p
WBTB = 2p
RC = 1p
Using object (I mean making sure my weapon is operational) = 5p

three-step task:
Basic summoning = 5p

Personal goals:
Kill someone with a rifle = 15p

Total: 38p
That's much more than I got in entire competition (33p) XDD

In this night I memoriaied 3 dreams but I forgot them very fast. But I made WBTB (failed as usual) and I got 1 more dream:
I was playing in card game, pretty similar to "Duel Master". I recognized that I have so good deck so I can beat enemy in one turn. I wanted to test that on my friend but he made unexpected move that make my strategy invalid. I asked him for undo his move and he agree. I took my cards and I started shuffle them.

13.03.23
#1
I’m sure it was a first REM dream because when I woke up I saw that I was lying in the same position when I was falling asleep, so ofc this dream was very short. And what I was dreaming about? I not gonna lie – it was porn dream. Without any special scenes.
Bc this dream was short I count this as fragment.

#2
Dream no. 2 I memorised for half day but I was waiting too long time with writing this dream and I cannot remind what about this dream was. I will not count that dream.

#3
This dream was during my nap. I was child and I went to my grandfather’s room for something (I don’t remember what). After some minutes I went back to my room passing my grandmother. I went inside and sit on couch between my mom and sister. The grandmother went to us and she started to yell at us bc someone didin’t segragate trash. After short dialogue she went away.

My sister was forced to throw away some of her toys (both of us we where childs) so I told her what it looked when I threw away my toys. I started to cry and my mom hugged me.


#4

It was dark outside. I recognised some burglar was escaping from police. I helped near policeman bu catching him .


14.03

#1
My friend (I don’t know that person in real life) woke me up and told that somebody stole his tabacco. I stand up and went to local shop that looked like shop near my garden plot. Inside of the shop I saw owner trying to hide tabacco. He didin’t saw me so I went back and called police.
When policeman and my friend come I showed where the tabacco was hidden

#2
I don’t remember beggining of this dream. I was driving on bike to my friend to pay him visit. When I was talking with him I sam bluck fluffy mold on white walls in his room. It was growing slowly but fast enough to see that process with naked eye. I told him about this and he was scared. Together we started remove that mold with duct tape (in the same way like we epilate hairs on skin). This method was unefective and soon I smell unplesant scent of mustiness. I told to my friend „Wait I’ll go to my home and I will get some chem”. I was teleportated to my house and I tried to find some anti-mold chem but the best thing I found it was a isopropanol.

07.03.23
Today I had dificulty night because I had 40 minutes of sleep latency, my sleeping was shallow and I slept 5h in total. I memorised only 1 dream.

Dream #1
I don’t remember the begining of dream. I was near my college and group of my friends come to me and they asked about my notes, raports, exams and other stuff. I told them „I already passed college I dont care about this. I don’t have any of this stuff”. They started to beg me about this because they want to pass college in easy way and I ALWAYS have something. I told „First I need to check what I have in my home. Until this I cannot promise anything”.
[…]
I was in my home checking for something. Then, whenI get out of my home I met some of my friends. „Sorry guys I don’t have anything”. I don’t remember they reaction and (in dream) I don’t cared about them. After I went on walk. I got new earphones and smartphone from my dad and I wanted to listen a music but the earphones was incompatible.

08 - 10.03.23
I paid a visit to my friend and because of alcohol and inreagular sleeping I don't even trying to remember dreams

11.03.23
In general I remembered one fragment and one fully dream, but I forgot the dream and i'm unable to recovery that memory

DF #1
I was a woman and I went down in staircase. It was a little dark and the staircase was very old. When I was going down I met my friend

12.03.23

I come with 2 other (non defined) persons to unknown house. One persone went around the building and I and other guy went inside. The interior looked simply I saw some cracks on yellow wall, old furnace, cooking pots and plates. The house has two more roomes – small toilet (this room was inspected by nobody) and small sleeping room. Inside we (I and other person) saw two-person bed with sleeping person covered by white duvet. I went outside and told to my companion „I know what is inside. Don’t uncover him, just let’s leave” but my companion didn’t listen to me and he uncovered corpse. We escaped from house. Now this house looks different – like big tent inside bigger hause.

Dream scenery changed for sohrt time. I was a diver underwater and I was looking for something (I dont remember). Someone caught me and that person said to me that I’m not allowed to dive. After short conversation I convinced him to allow me diving.
Again the scenery changed now I was inside shop and I tried to find some material to re-craft my diving gear

Today I memorised a lot of dreams! I thinkt it is my life record

Dream #1
I was in my childhood as kid and it was afternoon probably winter but without snow, sky probably cloudy (I think so because light was a little bit tinted). With my friends (2-3 additional persons I didn't count them) we were playing together but I don't remember what kind of play it was. We were playing near local general shop and the owner invited as for dinner and we accepted it. We waited few minutes so we spent this time on joking and laughting. She gave us fried pork chop with boiled potatos (traditional polish dish). I didn't feel a taste at all.

Dream #2
My dad bought new electrical car. It was black station wagon with unspecified car brand. He showed me inside of the car and after this he showed me electrical bike he got as a bonus to car. The bike had blue frame with black sign and trims. Model was crosscoutry or MBT. He made first test drive around our house estate. Also he showed me that this bike can climb on 45 degree hill we have near. Now its my tur for the test drive! I made the same route around housing estate and also I tried to climb on 45 degree hill. It was easy. In general driving with that bike was really fun and I loved that bike. I ask my dad if I can keep this bike for myself but he refused. After we talked about bike technical specification: Power consumption, battery cappacity, weight etc.

Dream #3
I was on beach in the night. Saw ancient chinese architecture with lights and alot of people far away. "It's not suppose to be like this. I'm not in China" I though. But I decide to went in this direction and I was savoring with beautiful traditional chinese view. The dream has changed. Now I'm prince. I saw my future wife on stairs and was waiting for me. I ran to her and she hugged me


Dream #4
I don't remember the beginning of this dream, but I "captured" ship with 2 other persons. It was about 200m long bulk carrier moored to shore. We unmoored the vessel and started to move. Another vessel showed ahead of us controlled by our enemies. They made collision course with us and we tried to avoid contact with them but we failed - enemy rammed us and damaged our hull and steering system. Captain ordered me to take emergency steering mode on. We rotate our ship by 180 degree and tried to flee but we hit quay and vessel was too damaged


Dream #5
I was in aquapark with friend. We were swim on deep swimming pool. He preferred to stay on water surface but I love diving so I spent almost entire dream underwater. When I emerged from water my friend asked me if it is possible to coming here everyday. I said "Yea, I can come here everyday for free, but I prefer come here every other day". He was a little sad but he said "That's fine".



Dream Fragment #1
My friend or superrior (I don't remember relation between us) made prank quest (quest like in video games) for somebody. The quest taker take that quest and after completing he was so angry at us so he casted meteorite on us. I don't remember details of this dream I thing what I remember is day time - it was night.

Today I slept only 4h but i'm sure I will sleep more today. Also I reminded dream from yesterday, but right now is only a fragment.

Dream from yesterday:
I was in jail as prisoner but I don't remember why I got jailed. My cell was very tight and I was closed with 5-6 other persons. For some reasons guards left the cell open so I could just go somewhere and I did it. I wanted go to toiled but I got lost. after few minutes of walking the guard found me and he thought that I escaped. I tried to explain him that I just go to toilet but he didn't believed me :/

Dream Fragment #1
I was near my home in middle of the night. I went in direction of my favorite market.

Dream Fragment #2
I was on submarine and we had some minor leakage. I spent few minutes on reparing hull.

Dream fragment #3
I was in my sister's flat (it is false memory - my sister in real life is living in different place). I fed her cat and went on walk. It was middle of night. In entire dream I didn't met any person nor animal (excluding that cat). My dream was completly empty. Empty roads without any car, no sounds, no DC. I was alone

This night was dificult for me. I fall asleep alrmost 3h after I went do bed and when I woke up I didint remember any dream. Also I had problem with falling asleep during WBTB but it was done (I failed of course but it was done).

Dream 1
I got a contract on the small bulk carrier ship. It was the same vessel when I had my first contract in real life - M/V Vines - "I wish I will not meet with the same bosun like las time" I thought. And of course I'm lucky guy so I met him again xD "Okay, that's fine" I thought. He greet me. [...]
[...] I was on the brigde with almost entire crew. I was suprised that nobody called me for mooring operation because we are already in next port. How it is even possiible they moored entire ship without me. In this moment I heard that somebody called me via VHF radio. I responsed and that person said what I need to do. I told him I'm not understand him (his voice was deformed by my dream) and asked him for repeat. He said something but I still didn't understand him, so I just went down to him. On deck the 2nd officer ordered me to close all cargo holds. This is second time when I was suprised in this dream bc our cargo were cars and they left. Anyway, I found power switch for crane but the crane wasn't operate. The officer discover that the cargo hold covers are light enough to lift and move by 2 mens, so we made it by our hands.

This night is difficult to describe for me. I woke up several times in night/morning and I remembered 4-5 dreams fragments but I immediately forgot most of them. Maybe later I will able to recall them but I don't think so.

1st dream:
I remember only a main topic. I cannot recall any memories from this dream, I remember only a topic. It was about working at ship. Because it isn't a dream fragment I will not count in competition.

2nd dream:
I was dreaming about Russian-Ukraine war (second time in this week wtf). My point of view was pretty similar to game "Heart of Iron 4" and I was playing as Ukraininian comannder. I made sea landing in netherland (name of city or port wasn't specified) but my troop was defeated. My point of view changed. Now it was similar to game "World of Tanks" (but it wasn't this game). I was "playing" as t-34/57 and fighting against 2 shermans (I don't remember what exactly model, I think it was M4A4 but i'm not sure). I was drive my tank around 1st sherman in this way I can avoid direct contact with second one. After destroing first sherman I focused on fighting with another one. I don't remember result. Even if I lost the battle, I was survive for sure. As a person I went inside some kind of warehouse and looking for something.

And now, I'm not sure if next part was in the same dream because the next part is in the same warehouse, but I thing it was in diferent REM phase (I remember I woke up twice in night between these dreams). I will count both parts as 1 dream just for sure (anyway it is only 1 point difference, and I'm playing for fun not for points)

I was in warehouse. I looking for something. It was very dark inside. I think it was night time. During exploration I was attacked by chupacabra so I just fled into forest. I joined to not specified group and our mission was to re-enter into this warehouse. During exploration I went into toilet and I was this time attacked by owner of this warehouse.
Next parts of my memories are completely chaos. I have some pieces of memory but I have no idea where to put them on time axis.

When I woke up I remembered 1 full dream, and 1 fragment, but I quickly forgot what was about the first one (If I remind then I will write).

The fragment I memorised was about... Dream Views forum. I don't remember what I was doing, propably I was participating in Spring Competition. I remember I was writing something on my computer.

01.03.23
I totally forgot the competition is starting 1st march (for some reason I thought it is 5th march ), and so shame bc 28.02 i had short LD so its doesn't count Anyway, yesterday I had 1 vivid non-lucid dream and one regular non lucid dream. Because it was yesterday I dont remember these dreams so good right now (I have only tags in my notebook)

1st one:
I won some kind of lottery and my reward was studying on very prestige college. In general that lottery was for "rich studens" and I won by accident. I packed my luggage and black limousine come to me. I entered inside with one other guy. [...] We where in old part of town. Propably it was germany - I can recognize classic medival germany architecture. The limousine was drive along to river, and the sky was ligtht, clear and sunny. I very enjoy that trip. [...] My destination was some kind of seminary. When I come in to my dorm I left my luggage and I went on walk. I met my friend from high school.


2nd
The Russian-Ukraine war was break out and army conscript me into. I dont remember what was my role in army, but some part of training I got in seminary.

Funny thing is that in both of dreams I had education in seminary