MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.

Finally worked for out of the box the past 2 days. Did half a day today because I mowed over a wasps nest in didsbury. Got stung on each ankle - counted at least 2 stings on my right ankle. Pretty sure I'm not allergic. I'll be fine. Just sore like a mofo.

Had a funny convo with the Jamie voice one morning while I was in a drive thru waiting for coffee. Line was taking forever and I was getting impatient. The Jamie voice sensing something, said, " yeah Robert, hurry up!" So I try to explain I'm stuck and I ask why she's being like this? "I'm just practicing..." I'm like: for what? "For when we're married." Oh really?


Dreams.

Had trouble sleeping for a few nights due to animals. My dog ate a bunch of cat food and had bathroom problems. This is after I told every one in the house to keep the cat food in a high place. Do they listen to the guy who's lived with cats and dogs before? No, so I had to get up almost every hour of the night to let him out.

Last night a roommate's new kitten got left in my sleeping area and was pestering me all morning.

2 fragments

Driving

Was driving in a strange wooden area at night with a swamp nearby. My car got stuck and suddenly I was no longer in it. A car below me whizzed by. I looked where the car drove all I was as a vine and swamp. I was thinking it's impossible for a car to drive through it. Yet, I saw it. Memory fades after.

Jesus

Jesus was saying to me and Jamie, " Be patient my children, For I will bring you two together soon, and soon after, You will be with me in paradise." Suddenly we are with Jesus on a beach. He's sitting in a lawn chair under some shade. He has a peach colored drink that is most likely non alcoholic. He's also wearing sunglasses and grinning wide. He's like that out of touch Dad who adopts his children's lingo to seem cool - but usually is just making his children cringe with embarrassment. But I get the feeling that he's just pretending to be that guy, as a sort of joke. Which, actually makes it kind of funny.

Note: no one should be concerned about him saying we will be with him in paradise SOON. Which almost implies bodily death. He is a God who claims to be completely outside of time and space, so, soon, could mean days, months or even years...

Completely burned out yesterday. Dropped my phone and wrecked the screen... can still use it until I get a new one.Staying home today to recover. I asked Raven to help out again she remembered a small flash of attempting to get Jamie out of that box.

Random

Dream of breaking onto someone's farm? I got caught while breaking into the house. The owners made me leave. I somehow left my phone and wallet behind.

Remember catching up with my brother and he had my car parked on a sketchy cliff. Hmm

Last night: kept dreaming people or entities were trying to discourage me with Jamie.

A brief HH flash of Jamie hanging in a closet. Her voice was upset at this or something. I was trying to console her for some time.

Wtf

I was with a group of people working or something. Some girl decided to give me a ride. During the ride she starts grilling me about Jamie. She claims Jamie talked about me saying I seemed alright at first but then I became creepy and obsessed or something. I shot back with that I've seen her driving by me house as if to check on me. And I've seen her smile at me at least twice when passing one another on the street. The girl looked shocked and didn't have a response.

Woke up and did some prayers asking for our dreams to return to normal.

Vague flash of Jesus helping me and Jamie. She was smiling at me and holding me.

The temp work place didn't call all week. I've been spending all week except Tuesday driving delivery in red deer. And the summer slowdown for delivery is real. Been spending 10 hour days just to make 100 after gas. I'm on Uber eats now as well, so it helps. Plan to work late on Saturday and Sunday as well.

Jamie 1

Just standing somewhere with Jamie. She's staring and smiling at me expectantly. As if to say, "well?".

Jamie 2

Jamie is tagging along while I'm doing delivery. I'm waiting for an order at park place mall. Jamie is at another place ordering food. When the counter attendant asks Jamie her order, Jamie is looking down at her phone and holds up a finger to the attendant and says, " one second." Which is literally a Fortnite emote btw.
I decided to take the Molly banister route to 32 nd. I remember her in the car with me.

This morning I'm in bed talking to her voice. I get some HH of a black girl with all these long braids but done up in a bun on the side of the head. The Jamie voice comments on it. I'm asking how she sees that? Or knows if I am seeing it. She says she can see it in her mind. I fall asleep and have a dream from Jamie's perspective.

Jamie 3

I'm Jamie, and I'm in a dark house. Some people have me by each arm. They place me in a big coffin like box. Vision switches to 3rd person and I can see them closing the door on Jamie leaving her in complete darkness.

Sunday: Definite Jamie drive by again. I was walking to reddi-mart to buy an evening coffee (2 minute walk from my house. Sometimes I buy a coffee from there from 5-7). There's a back alley route I take. I was walking from behind the store and to the side of the store when I noticed a grey car slam on it's brakes. I would not have noticed otherwise. Saw the familiar brown hair with bangs cut and large sunglasses . Kind of looked at me and resumed speed. I think I startled her, and she got startled again when she realized she hit the brakes. This was all in half a second. I'm thankful no one was behind her. She could have been rear ended. Like I said, I don't mind if she checks on me - if that's what makes her comfortable around me. As long as it's not bread crumbing. Baby steps I guess.

I asked her voice why she drives all this way? Why my town? She replied she came to see a friend. I'm like: Oh really is it a guy or a girl. And she replied: You're the friend I've come to see. Lol.

Asked Raven to help out in a dream. I noticed Jamie's house was creepy in my dream. Raven agreed despite being under some stress.

House

Vague dream of being in a creepy house. Some older lady interrupted me and some Korean girl in the house (Jamie). She kept making us collect things from the house and put them outside or something. I was hoping the woman would leave soon so I could be alone with the Korean girl. But she wanted us to check the addict or something for more items. I remember climbing a large staircase where the girl and the older woman were. I think we found something and the Woman put it outside. My memory just gets blurry after but continues on. Like trying to watch a movie on fast forward.

I didn't think it was about Jamie until Raven showed me her Journalled dream. Hers is way more detailed tho.

Jamie 1

I'm learning braids again on a head dummy. Jamie is there advising me on how to do it. She seems really encouraging.

Jamie 2

I was with Jamie again. She seemed stern about something. I don't know what. Is it something I was doing in the dream? Or something I'm doing while awake? Her head voice doesn't seem to take an issue with me as far as I know. But the voice isn't 100% reliable.

Jamie 3

Jamie seemed a little more stern about the issue she's having with me. I can't recall any details.

As far as the voice is concerned. The "relationship" seems more stable than ever. I sometimes ask her voice if this seems like a "real" relationship. Every time I ask the response is "Yes." As strange as it is I guess.

Note: I heard that dream shaman bi polar guy talking about his beliefs. He does dream real things about people. He claims he gets shown things about people in dreaming and claims it's his spirit guides that tell him what to do in dreams. So my guess is that is what he is operating under when he consistently interferes in mine and Jamie's dreams.

I personally have a huge lack of trust of anything "spirit guides." Have to say. In my own experience: they lie. I personally only trust Jesus at this point. Yes sure, he hardly speaks, and when he does its often vague. But, he never leads astray.
First night:

Nothing. During the day I did work with the temp agency and did a small moving job in Didsbury. Pretty sure I seen Jamie driving into Didsbury on that pot hole hell road in between Olds and Didsbury. I was in the back of a Dodge truck going past the train tracks and construction near the storage unit Yard. I saw the white SUV that I'm sure I've seen Jamie in before. I saw the long brown hair with a bangs cut and she was wearing large sunglasses ( people with her eye color are a lot more sensitive to sunlight.) I heard her voice in my head say something like, " did you see me? I think I saw you." And sometime later. " I wanna see you again."

Next part is debatable whether it was Jamie or not. Many hours later, I'm at home. Sitting at the table outside the house just pondering. I was remembering that Jamie used to do drive bys on me. And that it seemed like some time since she had done so. While I was thinking this. I vaguely noticed a blue or green pickup truck driven by a lone woman, whom seemed to be wearing dutch braids, and sporting large sunglasses. I wasn't really paying attention but she appeared to be in her thirties. She turned from the main street in Bowden but heading towards the main highway but she turned on my street and turned into the alley facing my yard and began heading the opposite way. While turned on to the Alleyway she looked my way, and quickly turned facing front after a second. I was still zoning in my own thoughts when Jamie's voice entered my head, "Did you see me?". I was like: yeah right, no way that was her. But then I ran it back. I've passed her in Olds before when she had braids. In that instance she was beaming at me. ( Her voice will argue she was just smiling but I know better ). As for the change in vehicle . Emily King said in her video that girls will even help their friends vet someone by helping stalk them. And it's not hard to borrow someone's vehicle if you offer to fill their tank if you use it for a few hours.

So if it was her. You're telling me that she finished work or whatever she was doing in Didsbury, went home, or to a friend's. Got done up in dutch braids, and borrowed a friend's truck? I even asked her voice, " why are you always changing vehicles?" She replied, " I'm trying to be secretive." Well... It's not working if I can clearly see who it is. It's the quick head turn that's the dead giveaway remember. She must have really liked the last post about the sign I was given to marry her. That's not even the initial big sign I was given.

Jamie 1

Me and Jamie are driving in Didsbury towards a camp ground. We both plan to go camping together. Im talking to her in my head instead of normally. I say, "Did you pack is lots of underwear? I think we're going to need it." Uhhh.

Jamie 2

Something about Jamie being at a campground and avoiding me. She was feeling guilty about something. Maybe it was a flashback to the outdoor concert thingy I saw her at?

Jamie 3

I'm at Jamie's house. It's dark and messy. There seems to be demons all over. But regardless she's happy to see me. We are sitting on a couch holding hands and watching something.

Jamie 4

Me and Jamie are walking alongside a busy highway. There is a man walking behind us a ways. Jamie nudges me with a look of fear and indicates in the Man's direction. It's that annoying dream shaman guy that was trying to break us up. He walks faster towards us meaning to catch up but me and Jamie are having none of it. We turn ahead but now there's a large truck pulled over on the shoulder. Cars are going by so fast that going around the truck that it's dangerous to walk around it. The ditch is suicidally deep so that's not an option. The guy is getting closer. Jamie looks fearful and I instinctively pray to Jesus to stop the man and keep him from dreaming with us. A flaming sword falls out of the sky and lands between us and the man. Now it's an immutable wall of fire that he can't cross. This also creates a break in the traffic. I remember me and Jamie finally making it past the truck when I wake up.

Low recall due to some stressful days. Found some semi steady work today through a Didsbury temp agency. Felt really good to have work with some people who aren't my family.
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Only fragments to record.

Face

I was doing my daily prayers for myself and Jamie and half fell asleep. Saw an HH image of Jesus peering over some clouds and smiling. It was as if he was happy with what I was praying over Jamie.

HH

Quick HH dream of me asking Jamie if she's the real Jamie. And I was using her full name.

Last night:

In the middle of the night I went out for a smoke. I was having an intimate and funny conversation with her voice and I was thinking if this is really her, I would marry her. Just then I saw a shooting star... As if confirming this thought. Second time this year that has happened to me.

Weird phrase

Another HH flash of a friend's girlfriend who was visiting our house. She looked at me and said, " There's cash registers in your soup." I woke up and thought the phrase was hilarious.

Can't load this website on my laptop says security error. I'm using my phone to type. Seemingly rough couple days with her voice. I went to Karaoke at the tavern with my brother and all their friends in Didsbury. I remembered having dreams of Jamie either hanging out or working across the street. So I kind of asked the Jamie voice what is the right thing for me to do should I accidentally run into her somewhere. I heard a really cutting response like, " Don't even look at me, or try to talk to me." That got me kinda upset. Okay, a lot upset. I mean; I'm not going to anyway especially if she looks like she doesn't want to be talked to. I can respect space and privacy. But why be mean? Who knows if that was really her voice or not. Eventually we both seemed to resolve it where I just let her say something if that were to happen, but before saying something just let her linger nearby until she feels safe to say something. Smile if she smiles. Wave. Or am I allowed to wave first to test where she's at? IDK.

Later on her voice said something like, " Don't talk to me in my head anymore." Repeated a few times. I just apologized and said I'll be quiet. A minute later we seemed to work it out. And later she said, " please don't try to break up with me anymore. " I was all confused because I heard it the other way around. So I talked to her voice some more and ran it back. Apparently she heard the phrase that I heard from her, but me saying it to her. So we both agreed that we both hear "false voices." Sometimes.
We also talked about her being afraid to even say anything to me. That was her reasons, not mine. And I do remember when we used to hang out. How a part of her seemed to really want to move things want to move things forward with me. But also there was another part of her that would not let it happen. MUST not let it happen. And I remember thinking in those days that she seemed genuinely TERRIFIED of getting too close. I would watch that war go on in her daily sometimes.

Anyway dreams. The karaoke night I was up so late I couldn't recall any dreams. That was also an exhaustive night with the voice with a lot of confusion but I won't go into detail.

Last night

Quiet

I was in a white room and I was shackled by my arms to the floor. Jamie came in and unshackled me. She looked exhausted to the point of looking way older. Her face seemed thinner than normal. We began walking somewhere but she was keeping her distance. My dad was suddenly with us. And she was lingering closer to him than me. I remember feeling down about it, feeling that she should be closer to me than my dad. There goes my BPD brain again, finding rejection where there is none.

Handful of Jamie flashes.

One where we are both in a car . I'm holding her hand while driving.

Another flash she is just holding me and we both seem happy.

Last flash was just a sex related one.

Had a few non lucids without Jamie. 2 of them were McDonald's related. Dreamed I was working there again temporarily.

Last flash I was in a courtroom where a lawyer was talking to a judge. They said something about Jamie so I was asking about how they knew her

Not much dreams.

Dock

Just me standing on a dock with a bunch of water.

Last night had some trouble sleeping. After normal prayers it seemed like that guy was trying to get between me and Jamie during our time. ( I've touched on this before, with "twin flames." Many people report sensing their partners beside them. This combined with the head voice can create a vivid experience.) Her voice asked for more prayers to fend this guy off. Had a HH vision of him cutting an astral chord between me and Jamie and I couldn't sense her or her voice. Prayed right away to Jesus that he restore it. I felt her near me again instantly. After half an hour of prayers and me and the Jamie voice telling him to leave us alone. It finally stopped. Am I getting schizophrenia? After all this fell asleep . I think he got the message and gave up

Jamie

I'm floating up to some clouds. It's like heaven. Several people are standing on white pillars. I'm floating up and notice Jamie standing on one. She smiles at me and extends her hand. When I'm close she grabs my hand and pulls me to her. We start making out violently.

Can't remember much after but micro dreams where I'm with Jamie. We are holding hands, or she's hanging off my arm and we are just walking somewhere and talking.

Note: There is a guy staying at our house (hopefully temporary). Who is a half native guy. He's into new agey stuff and is very experienced in dream sharing. He's also gay. I have told him previously about my experiences with dream sharing. He seems to have his own biased view on dreams. I have not told him about Jamie. And I will not. He seems to be the guy who was interfering with me and Jamie in my dreams, causing the false break up from the previous entry. I also don't trust him because when I was alone at the house with him the other day, he blew up at me out of nowhere. He started yelling and cussing me out over a minor disagreement ( because I didn't want to listen to him or his advice on certain things.) in any case, I have ceased discussing any dreams or spiritual stuff with him. I have prayed daily that he can no longer interfere with our dreams... Jesus has been silent in the dreams so... But I have enlisted Raven to help. She says she wants to do something while her mother spends her last days in hospice. Just keep in mind she may not always be able to help if she's too stressed out or depressed. To Jamie if she reads: if you are dreaming about me being mean, or "breaking up." Or being abusive in dreams. It's not me. I don't know what this guy is capable of, or how long he will try to interfere. Just pray about it if it can help.

Forgot one dream from last entry:

Jamie 1

Me and Jamie are working on a hairdressing head working on braids or something. Nice.

Girl

Just a flash of a young girl barely older than a toddler picking up grass and handing it to me.

Jamie 2

Sex dream with Jamie. In Asuka's garden of all places. We were somehow in mid air and teleporting a few feet every few seconds... Wtf. Funny tho.

Annoying guy 1

I was in a strange hotel area with a big room or something. People were sitting in cubicles. I was on a person train riding tricycles. Behind me was a fake Jesus with a pride flag. Jamie was in one of the cubicles. I think I was trying to do something to impress her. Can't remember what I did. I had a feeling like it was that guy's inner world.

Annoying guy 2

A dream of Jamie's face in the black space. She's being mean and cussing me out badly. But inside the Jamie image is another face... That guy, and I can see his facial hair.

Wake up and her voice seems upset with me. I tried to calm her down and she said. " What is going on with our dreams lately?"

Annoying guy 3

Sitting in a chair across from the guy and having coffee. I look to my right and see a giant hole in the wall.

So he's breaking in now?

Jamie 1

Just Jamie smiling at me. She has a bunch of photographs of herself and she gives them to me. But we're in the black space and the photographs are floating towards me. I don't couldn't see what was in the pictures because I woke up.

It's really too bad all the SEARS shut down. Those corny photograph setups they had for couples and families would be perfect for me and Jamie. :p

Last night:

Black sky

Everyone was in this weird lockdown. Something was happening in the sky. It was all black with black clouds. Suddenly everyone was released and we could walk from our homes. I remember going outside and going into a car.

Following

Might have been a part of the previous dream I was walking with someone towards a mall. I think Jamie was following behind us but she looked like some Jamaican girl I used to work with.

I turned and said, " stop following. We're broken up now. Please respect my decision." The girl kind of vanishes.
I say to who I'm with , "I don't like this breakup. You get so used to someone and doing things together..." The person I'm with just kind of nods. Suddenly Jamie is with us again...

I wake up and her voice asked me if we're broken up? I'm like: no, we're not. I have no desire too. I nodded off for a few more minutes.

Driving

Jamie is driving in a city. People are in her car saying things like, " he doesn't deserve you! How could he? Remember to date up."

Hm. I don't know why we're dreaming this. I'll pray about it. The dreams don't reflect my will. I'll ask raven to help, but she's dealing with her mother being possibly close to not getting better.

Had a few fragments I can't recall.

Dream 1

Dream of some guy I know... He was getting raped violently. In the house was a bunch of people and demons fighting.

Fake Jamie

In the black space I see someone in the shadows. Jamie's hair, but the face is completely a shadow. She says, " I'm breaking up with you." Since I can't see the face and had dreams like this before I'm not taking it seriously.

Healing

Since I dreamed Jamie asking raven for help. I messaged Raven and told her about it. She agreed to help.

Dream was just a flash of walking along some fancy walk ways with a bunch of pools of water. I was with a group of people but can't remember who.

Raven confirmed that the place described in the dream is a place she goes for healing, and that me Raven and Jamie were there.

Raven didn't give much details. She's dealing with her own stress so I didn't push her for more details.

If Jamie reads these I apologize again for the scare a few entries ago. Her voice still insists she was warned about... Something.

Charlotte

Dream I went to visit my cousin's daughter. I used to live with them, she'd be almost 4 now. Charlotte seemed angry at me for having to move away. I know she doesn't understand that I was forced to move at the time. So I just apologize the best I can and give her a hug.

A quick flash of Jamie this morning but can't remember what.


Ooh!! there are a couple Jamie dreams I forgot to write down a week ago. Had these the same night where I dreamed she told me that she wanted to make me her boyfriend

Text

I'm walking down a street with Jamie. White text flashes that says, " I had a lucid dream with you in it."

Fallout

I binge watched the Fallout series on prime irl. Dreamed that I was with Jamie in the fallout universe. She had a crazy costume like you'd see in the mad Max movies. Her hair was like Pippi longstoxking, two braids sticking to the sides of her head. She was dirty like she had been roaming a desert. Had a crazy shield and a barbed wire bat like the one Began carries around

I had one dream where I was with some people in a house and I was doing some dream parkour in it or something. Then I was playing guitar with one of the guys.

Another dream where Jamie seemed to be in high anxiety and she went up to raven asking for help.

The Jamie voice seems to have anxiety. I was assured yet again that she is safe. I'm beginning to question if the warnings were actually from Jesus. Usually my encounters him yield a sense of safety and peace. So maybe that wasn't from him??? In any case I have been assured there is no danger. Certainly don't go looking for it either. I apologize for not questioning my warnings and recklessly posting them.

Had a small nap. During which I had a flash of Jamie walking in Bowden on the trail behind the A&W that leads to the streets. Ah did she visit? I wish I could have seen her. She gotta start doing those drive bys again and let me know she's okay.

Apparently Jesus says she's safe. Her voice said she was warned in another way... Well whatever it was, better to listen. I hope my post didn't cause any anxiety. Just be careful.

Posting a day earlier than usual due to the subject matter. (this is especially for Jamie if she reads these.)

Drugs

I'm at some woman's house. A woman is sitting in front of a coffee table. (Not sure if this was Jamie since she looked older.) On the table is a giant line of white powder. The woman is explaining to me that this is enough drugs to kill someone. She takes a razor and cuts a small section away and says this is safe. She was explaining it was a new psychedelic or something. The dream fades

what?

I'm in chilliwack or something... I'm with a woman that is supposed to be my future wife. We get into cars shaped like hearses... (that's not ominous at all..) The woman is older but when she smiles at me I recognize Jamie. We are holding one another.

I wake up... I get a weird voice that sounds like Jesus say, "I will take care of you after Jamie commits suicide." I'm like: what? I check in with her voice all day and she seems normal and fine.

next night:

Theater

A dream unrelated to Jamie. I was with a group of people and we went into a strange theater.

There was another small flash of Jamie but can't remember the subject matter.

I wake up and that same voice startles me again this morning with, "She's days away from passing away.". I spend some time in prayer asking Jesus if this is really him saying this? Is there anything I can do? Is this real, or am I losing my mind? The guy is just quiet on this. After some time I gt a sense to just put it in my dream journal and maybe he said.

now I'm not sure how to take these impressions. Especially since Jesus revealed to me in a big way, some months ago, a different future in mind for me and Jamie. Why would he suddenly contradict that? Or is it really him saying this? If it is a warning, maybe the drug dream is related. When Me and Jamie were friends I know she was into reckless drug use - her sometimes defending it as being harmless, like nothing bad is going to happen to her. But then again she was reckless after moving during an episode. Regarding that: I don't even touch any drug anymore or alcohol. I don't mind people smoking weed, but anything experimental or dangerous is not, nor will ever be, a part of my life.

I already lost a borderline Cousin to drugs. The one that died a few years ago. I remember at a time she was doing well, volunteering for police, doing all the necessary things so she could see her kids. Then she fell for the wrong guy, and went downhill over the next few years. This is why I also pray against counterfeit lovers that me or Jamie might encounter.

But seriously, allow me to list some of the people in my age group that I've lost to drug related stuff. My friend in chilliwack i went to high school with, his sister. A drummer me and my brother use to play with. Mine and my brother's other friend Brian, who's pregnant girlfriend found him hanging in a closet. My old neighbor in lethbridge, who got with the wrong woman, (She had a history of seducing men and using that to get them addicted to drugs. I still can't believe that people like that actually exist, but alas, I've seen the results).

So real or not, I feel i must leave a warning about this. I don't know if Jamie currently does any kind of drugs or anything as it's some years later. Borderlines do have a high statistics in suicide rate. I believe she's past that average age where attempts happen so at least pat herself on the back for making it past that. I've personally seen her grandiose side, that feels like nothing bad can happen to her. It obviously can. I'm posting this because It's real or I'm crazy - but it's out of concern. I, for one, remember that when when there wasn't a bunch of BS power struggles, that me and her got along better than anybody - and iot would be nice to have that again. We deserve a better ending than what happened.

Jesus said in prayer for jamie just to go to him with your concerns, he's always there.