Mezzanine

Chorus Class Karaoke

I'm walking around a high school campus and I'm in an auditorium. I don't have class this period or I'm skipping. I walk by a stairway leading down into a grassy area where chorus class is. I'm not in the class but I overhear some girls talking about being naked for class!!! I look down at them and they see me and say I should come to class or I'm not going to see everyone naked!!!

Next thing I know I'm outside and there's a set of risers and girls (clothed) on them only on the top row. I'm seated to the side of them and the teacher is calling people up to sing karaoke and the girls on the risers will sing the backup. This girl I went to high school with, Lynn, goes up and sings something, but on the three monitors that have the lyrics, the lyrics to her song weren't coming up... the lyrics were for Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. And when she was done, everyone clapped because she did the song by memory without messing up.

Next, someone told me that a guy was going to go, then it was my turn. The teacher called the guy's name and he wasn't in class that day. SO it was my turn. I wasn't ready, I hadn't picked out a song!! Everyone in the class who wasn't on the risers had a different page of songs to choose from. I was going person by person looking at all the music and none of it was alphabetical or organized in any way at all. Some of it was even handwritten instead of typed. I wanted to sing "Without Me" by Eminem but I couldn't find it anywhere. I saw Prince at the bottom of a page and I thought the list of songs would be on the back but nooooo. So I just started singing "Without Me" a capella.

Renee Cleans the Kitchen

I am at my parents' house in the kitchen and my sister had cleaned it all up. This is probably a result of the fact that I'm constantly on my mom's ass about keeping the kitchen clean, and no one in the family is talking to my sister right now.

Night of 1/09/09

Sex

Let's just say... it was some good sex... that turned into strange sex.

Demolition

I was in a car driving away from a demolition wrecking ball or something coming after me. I could see it coming in the rear window when I turned around. Next thing I know, there is a building crashing down on me, but when the wall of this building comes down, a window falls over me so I'm not hurt at all. Then, I'm in a room of this busted building with a group of people telling them the story of how I escaped injury.

Tripping in High School

I'm at my apartment. Aaron and Matt are over and they're making acid in my kitchen. It involves orange juice. But oddly, no chemistry set or anything. I'm sitting on my couch watching them do this. They both drink the orange juice and start tripping. So I walk over to the sink and pour the rest of the orange juice into the palm of my left hand. I think I licked it off my hand.

Next thing I know, I'm at my old high school. I'm walking down the corridor between the classes and the cafeterias. It's a campus style school built in the 60's or 70's. Outside of Cafeteria 2, there is a group of students assembled. I get in line with them and a teacher comes up to me and asks for me to initial something. She points to a box in an otherwise empty grid and I write "OMG" in it. And smile. The teacher looks at me and asks, "Do you think this is funny??" And I'm starting to trip and I just smile really big and shrug my shoulders and walk into the cafeteria.

I walk to the lunch line and grab a tray and see strawberries in a white plastic container that's shaped like a jar and take one. They all look really fresh and good to eat. Then I look behind the glass at what the lunch ladies have going on for lunch today, and it's all different kinds of pies. I HATE PIE. I look at one of the lunch ladies and ask, "Are you kidding me? Are you serious? Just pie???" I don't think she responded. I go to the cashier and now I suddenly have a soda on my tray as well, and I have to give her $2.35 for my lunch. Which is pretty steep for a strawberry and a soda.

I leave the lunch line and see that some people are calling me to sit with them. Then I see Danielle and smile and walk over to her. She's sitting at one of those tables with the little round dots for seats. As I'm walking over to her I blink and when my eyes are closed it looks like someone's notebook with drawings all in it, just line drawings, and they're all filled in with diagonal lines. Everything is in different colors. I sit by Danielle and ask her how her trip is going. She says somewhat loudly so the other table that I was supposed to sit at can hear, "Sure I'll show you the pictures from my beach trip!"

Ice Hockey with Danielle

Next thing I know, I'm a goalie at an ice hockey rink!! Danielle is trying to score goals on me! But I don't have a big goalie hockey stick, I just have this little regular one. We get tired of playing and I want to go to the pro shop. We go put down our hockey sticks in a pile with some others and they're all like plastic little kid hockey sticks, even the ones we were playing with.

Lucky Zipper at the Pro Shop

We go into the pro shop and I lost Danielle. I'm walking around and I see that it's not a hockey pro shop, it's a roller skating pro shop. There are pictures on all the walls of all sorts of shoe brands that have started making their own line of roller skates. I walk up to the counter and the guy behind it looks familiar. He's the dj from my old skating rink that my sister used to date. I asked him the best time to come skating and he said when he's working, of course. So I asked him for his number and he gave me a business card that said his name is Lucky Zipper.

He also mentioned that he was working the Headbanger's Ball and that I should call him for details. I asked him to price a pair of black and white Adio skates for me with the best plates and speed wheels and he said they'd only be about fifty dollars!! Then Danielle walked back in and asked where I'd been because she'd been looking all over for me.

Going to Maryland

I'm in a car with Sara Flexon and she's in the front seat driving and I'm in the back seat and I asked where we're going and she says to Maryland. We stop at a Taco Bell for food.

The Indian War

I'm in a big open field. There's dead bodies of Indians everywhere. All of a sudden, arrows start flying at me!

Sex in Cracker Barrel

I'm in Cracker Barrel. In the entrance part where all the junk that they sell is. I'm on a bed. Doing Andrea. Like it's no big deal and we do it there all the time.

Running Around the School

I was in a classroom at a school and someone was packing some clothes or something. I see a black DC hat and a pair of black DC shoes. I steal them!! I ran out of the building and show them off to some people outside. I decide to go in and get some more shoes.

I'm looking for the classroom I was in and this school is like four stories high and crazy confusing with hallways all over like a maze. I go to an elevator and this guy follows me in. He's got a speech impediment. He asks me where the student housing office is. We stop at a floor that is all dorm rooms. I ask him is he sure he wants to live in a dorm? He should get an apartment. We stop at another floor and I follow him out of the elevator still talking. He goes into this theater and I follow him in and sit down next to him. What's playing looks like Rules of Attraction, even though I've never seen it IRL. I tell the guy that I didn't know we were going to a movie and that I had stuff to do and I had to leave, but could he give me his number so I could call him and check up on how his apartment search was going. On the paper that he gave me his number he had written down three apartments he wanted to look at and asked if I could go look at them with him tomorrow. I have no idea how he found this apartment information in the time from when we got off the elevator to now. So I say sure and see that on the paper his name is David.

I sit for a while in my seat and there's a commercial on about this powder foundation like Bare Minerals stuff and all of a sudden I have it in my lap. It's in a compact and I open it up and try some on. It looks horrible on me, all chalky and just bad, like you can tell I just put makeup on. Not natural at all. ew.

So I look around, and even though this is bad makeup, I decide to steal it. I walk out of the theater and an alarm went off, but there are students walking in and out and no one cares that it's me that set off the alarm. I look around for security cameras. I think, awesome, I got away with it. I'm walking around now looking for that classroom again. It's a chemistry classroom that I'm trying to find.

I have this makeup compact in my hands and I decide I better put it in my back pocket. So now, all of a sudden, they're onto me that I've stolen this makeup! I start running. everywhere. And take breaks between running and just briskly walking. Tons of hallways, a suspended catwalk, and nowhere I need to go to find this classroom. Students everywhere but no one but the people chasing me are paying attention to what's going on.

I find a bathroom to hide in. This bathroom is more like a fitting room in a department store. There's a bench seat and no toilet. I sit on the bench and pull my feet up so no one can see under the stall that I'm there. Then, it's like my stall is a breezeway and there's like a classroom behind me that I can't see and people are coming into and out of my stall!!! But the people chasing me don't find me. I find a door behind me and go in and there's the toilet. But it's a fucked up toilet with two toilet bowls one above the other and I have no idea how to go to the bathroom there. So I look in the mirror at how bad this makeup is on me and try to rub my hands on my face to take it off. Then the janitors come in and I have no idea what happened after that. I was stressed out.

Chaos at Work

I'm at work. I'm usually a cashier, but now I'm running around helping people get their textbooks. I have a list from someone and I'm standing in line a the textbook counter waiting to give them my list and get this person's books when there are two guys playing with a tennis ball like throwing it back and forth to each other. I get out of line to yell at them and lose my place in line and freak out because I've been standing there for so long. Then two people walk up to me and hand me this guy's books. There are way too many books for me to carry, so I make them do it.

The Hotel Room and the Missing Board Shorts

So I'm in a hotel room and my parents have left to go somewhere but have not told me when they'd be back. There's someone else in the room on the bed but it's no one I know. After a while of just looking around, I get the feeling that they've left me and aren't coming back at all. So I start packing up all my stuff. Into a suitcase I'm putting all my clothes from the vacation. Shorts, t-shirts. I must be somewhere beachy. So I'm thinking... I really want to go to the pool or the beach. I start looking for my board shorts because when I look down I'm wearing khaki shorts and gym shoes and I just can't go swimming in that. I look in the bathroom thinking maybe they were wet and hanging over the edge of the bathtub... not in there. I look through everything I packed... not in there. Then I look under the bed... there are two Pez dispensers, but no board shorts. I look in between the bed and the nightstand... there are two pairs of Adio shoes, my grey ones and my black ones... and a glass of red wine... but no board shorts. I start finding all the shoes I own currently in the hotel room and I put them all in a silver Express bag. I go through my stuff again and find the board shorts!! They're black and white, but I was looking for purple ones. I pack them. I walk out of the hotel room.

The Lucid Casino

I'm walking out of the hotel room thinking, maybe I won't go for a swim, but I'll go to the casino. Mom and dad are gone, they won't care. I think on the way that I've left my player card in between the mattress and box spring back in the hotel room. It was fleeting though, because I kept going to the casino. I get there and look in my back pocket and find among other things my player card. I walk up the the first slot machine I see and put in my player card and choose to play all reels. I see that I only have like three dollars left, but it's on my player card, not on a slip of paper. Anyway, I play once and win like $20. Which is awesome because I am pretty sure I'm only playing penny slots. So I play all reels again and... I hit the jackpot! Something comes up on the screen that says it's just going to give me cash. I look down and sure enough there's a dispenser spitting out ones... then fives. I have a stack of almost all five dollar bills like a foot and a half tall. On the top the last bill to come out is a $50,000 bill. I look at it and it's from the casino, not real money. It says I'm in a drawing to win ten million dollars and the odds are three in twenty. Not bad. So I think I need to cash this in for smaller bills. I go to "customer service" and tell the lady that I need to change this out. It was really hard to walk with all that cash. I put it down on the counter and the stack tipped over. She was surprised at all that cash and asked how I wanted it. I said fiftys and hundreds. Then... I tried to text Andrea to tell her I just won $50,000!! I look at my phone and it's like a sidekick. I don't have a sidekick. Texting her didn't work. I was thinking, am I in Vegas or Atlantic City? My heart is racing... and I think... this oh no, this is all wrong... this can't be real... I'm dreaming this. And I think I told the lady at the counter, "This isn't real, is it?" And I just thought, FUCK. I really wish this were real. I got so angry and I started telling the lady, "This is $50,000. I was going to pay my car off, my student loans, all my bills!" The logic part of my brain kicked in. But for a moment, everything was so life like. I really felt like I was standing at the counter there, feet on the ground, counting all that money. I was too upset to try to do anything now that I was lucid. I was looking at my phone that was all wrong, trying to tell myself, this isn't a dream, this is real!! I was trying to convince myself that I really had just won all that money. The lady asks me if I was on machine 258 because she was reading the stats this morning and that one was supposed to pay out today. I said I didn't know, and then in the middle of the stack of money was a paper with the machine info on it. She looked at it then showed me and sure enough I was on machine 258. Then the lady hands me a touch screen thing to sign for the money and I asked her didn't she want to see my id. She said no. Fuck. I'm really dreaming. So I'm losing my lucidity. I take the thing to sign and it's so hard to write my name with this stylus she handed me. Then I look at it and my last name isn't spelled right. I go into some options screen to change everything to times new roman and fix my last name but it doesn't work. Then Andrea's alarm went off.

Girl Scouts Slumber Party

This starts weird. I'm in a public bathroom somewhere. I don't want to sit on the toilet seat so I'm straddling it, however, I'm hovering with my one foot against the wall and the other is trying to get to the side of the stall to prop me up right, but my pants are at my ankles and it's difficult. Then a little girl comes into my stall!!!

Now I'm in like the den of someone's house. I still have to go to the bathroom. So I find the bathroom here and go in. I sit on the toilet and I'm trying to go but can't. I can hear people yelling for me outside the door. Then this girl from grade school, Renee, pokes her head in the gap between the door and the floor. She is lying on top of a brown paper grocery bag. I told her she could use that as a sleeping bag. She said something about using my green girl scouts card. I said I could only think about yellowcard right now.

I'm over trying to go to the bathroom. I walk out of the bathroom and Emily says to me that while I was in there her mom made us stuff to eat. I look on the mantle over the fireplace and there is a bowl full of cinnamon rolls. I'm really excited about this. I haven't had one in a long time! I look around some more and on a table are cheese danishes. On another table is a glass jar full of what looks like peanut brittle on clear glass rectangles. Then Mallory walks by me completely naked and asks why I haven't picked something to eat yet.

Stoned With Danielle and The Creek

I'm at Danielle's apartment. We have to go somewhere so I'm looking for my clothes to put on so we can get out the door. But I'm already clothed. I find a pair of socks and put them on over top of the socks I already have one. I feel like I'm stoned. Everything feels heavy and extremely difficult to do. But I don't remember actually smoking anything. I think I stared at the coat rack for a good while until she snapped me out of it. I put on my black and white Adidas coat and went out the door. As soon as I got outside I realized that it was summer and took off my coat.

Danielle says it's so nice that she wants to go for a ride in the convertible. I ask her when she got a convertible! I was looking for her silver Acura. She jumps across this creek that is in the middle of the parking lot to get to the other side to her car. I tell her she's crazy and I'm not jumping across that creek because I'll just fall in and that would suck. Then this car pulls up and parallel parks next to the creek. Ok, maybe creek doesn't describe it well enough. It's much deeper than a creek. Like six feet deep. There's like an embankment on each side that's grassy and then the water in the middle. So this car parks and is hanging over the edge like it's going to fall in. I'm watching it and sure enough it falls right in. Then three guys get in and try to get the car out. One guy gets the entire top of the car like it's a toy race car that you can switch the tops on. He pulls it out and comes over to my side of the creek and puts it over my head so that we're both under the top of this car. I'm kind of freaked out by this because I don't know what this guy's intentions are.

Next thing I know, I'm throwing my two sheep that I sleep with out from under the car so that if we fall in the creek they won't get wet. I have no idea what happened to Danielle and why she isn't helping me. So this guy is walking too close to the edge of the creek and I feel like we're going to fall in. Like I'm on the very edge. Then everything stops and the guys acted like it was a joke. So I ran away.

Board Shorts in the Locker Room

I'm in a locker room and some girl says that I have to try on all these board shorts that someone left in there. So I do and they're all huge on she and I. She said they were some guy's and they were a size twelve. Which is weird because I wear a size ten jeans and guys shorts are in waist sizes not whatever made up sizes girl clothes come in.

The Singing Contest

So I'm at my parents' house. I'm upstairs and I have a tape recorder. My mom walks by me and asks what I'm doing. She always wants to know what I'm doing. I tell her that on the radio there's a contest for knowing all the lyrics to the All American Rejects album Move Along. I told her I was going to sing all the lyrics into the tape recorder and mail it in. So I go to my room and start trying to operate the tape recorder... big surprise, it doesn't work. So I figure, who uses tapes anyway? I go to my computer and open up some music editing software. All of a sudden I have two friends in the room with me. On the screen I can see waves representing the music but now I'm playing Kenna's Sun Red Sky Blue and it's instrumental. I'm singing the lyrics for the first few lines and I stop recording so I can see what it's like when I play it back. I decide I sound horrible. So I say I'm going to try like five more times and then really belt it out.

I wish I could have stayed asleep so I could see how that turned out, but I had a bad night's sleep and kept waking up.

OMG Last night was loooooong. Well... I *did* sleep for fourteen hours.

First... I was in church. I had something to confess apparently.

Babe's

Next thing I know, I'm at the local lesbian bar, which I haven't been to in a year. Audrey was working there again, even though I haven't seen her in about six months, either, and she now works at Richbrau. I was sitting at a table and I asked Andrea what she wanted and she said nothing and I asked Jen what she wanted and she said to get her some fries. I go to the bar and ask Audrey for some fries and she has them all ready for me... sort of... she hands me like a flat wire basket that was separated into different sections that was only about half-full of french fries. I didn't question it and she was really happy to give me what I asked for. So I brought them back to the table, but Jen and Andrea were already paying their tabs. I noticed that Andrea's tab was for 2 Chai Lattes and was $6. I don't recall her ever drinking them.

College Campus Sorority Girls

Now I'm walking around a school campus. It was kind of a mix between ODU and William and Mary. There were sidewalks winding through some nice trees and there were students hanging out in little groups and I noticed a really cool looking tree with a pink boombox in its branches. I walked past it but was kind of confused as to why that was there. I was on my way to class when this girl called my name and asked me to come meet someone. It turns out that she was rushing my sorority and we turned her down. She introduced me to some other girl and then all of a sudden there was another group of girls next to us and both groups of girls started doing some sorority song or cheer or something. The girl that called me over and all the other girls in the group I was standing in shouted, "Alpha Phi Omega Pi!!!!" And there is no sorority in existence that had four greek letters. In my dream this didn't bother me. So I excused myself and said I had to get to class. This girl followed me and I get into this house where my class was supposed to be. We were in a stairway and she was behind me and I turned to her and I asked her if she wanted to know why we didn't pick her to pledge our sorority. She just kind of looked interested. I said, "It's because you're too sweet. This sorority is filled with badass bitches. We just didn't think it was a good fit." And she said, "that's why I rushed. I thought I could balance it out." She asked for my phone number so we could hang out anyway and she started to write it on her hand. The pen stopped working and she asked me for the last two numbers like four times. She finally got to write it down.

Room 524

I walked up the stairs to find that the door to the class was open and there was a teacher's desk and a fourposter bed and desks that students were sitting in. There were a lot of people in the hallway, mostly girls who were wearing different greek letters. We were all waiting for this class to end so we could go in. Then the teacher yelled out into the hallway that we could come in and pick up our tests. I was confused because I thought this was the first day of class. Someone told me that they didn't think I could start in the middle of the semester. I looked at the number above the door and I knew I was supposed to be in room 524 which is where I was.

I left the room and walked down the hallway and saw Todd P. walking into another room. I followed him in and said, "Todd, is that you?" He turned around and gave me a big hug and at the same time we both said, "I haven't seen you in forever!!" I asked him how his mom was doing and he said, "she's fine, and my dad is celebrating two years of I don't know what. Everyone can come over and sell their pot." Which I found interesting. Then in the room on a tv there was a video playing of a weiner dog in a slinky.

House Fire and Flood

Next thing I know I'm at my parents house. I'm in the kitchen and I walk into the living room to find that Andrea's couch is there now and the end of it is facing the fireplace and the other couch is against the wall. How everything fit in there and I still had room to walk was amazing. I look at her couch and behind it I notice that some stuff from the fireplace had jumped out and was now burning her couch!! I ran to the kitchen to get some water to put in a glass to put the fire out. The fire was burning along the hearth on the carpet and it was also underneath the couch. I could see it glowing through the couch cushions. So I kept going back and forth from the kitchen to the living room with glasses of water trying to put out the fire. Then my mom and dad come downstairs and I'm freaking out telling them the house is on fire!! They sit on the couch like it's no big deal. I asked my mom to help me and asked my dad if he called 911 yet. He said no so I grabbed the phone and walked past him to go to my room upstairs. On the way past him I whacked him in the face with a newspaper and said, "That's what you get for leaving the fire going and going to bed!!" So I went to my room to call 911 and find out that it's my sister taking the call. I look out my bedroom window to see that next door we now have apartment buildings. And everything is flooded up to the second level of them. I looked out the other window and at the entrance to the neighborhood is all this construction. And big tour busses and ambulances are flying out of the neighborhood ignoring the stop signs. I was concerned that they were going to cause an accident and also that with all this going on, how could the firetrucks get in??

Next thing I know, I'm outside in the flood. Forget about my parents inside, they probably drowned anyway. There are lots of school busses outside underwater with kids in them. I'm underwater now trying to swim to the surface. I get to the surface and I'm on top of a school bus that is now on its side floating in the water and I can see all the kids inside. I walk to the front where the driver is and then the bus lifts out of the water and is flying now. It is a helicopter-bus and I'm hanging on the the driver's window yelling inside that "you better not drop me!!" because if I fall I will fall through the helicopter's propellers. I fell off the bus and woke up and immediately wrote all this down so I'd remember. This was the first time that I didn't just try to remember in the morning when I woke up. This was at about 430am.

Gerbil Theater

Now I'm in a theater and there's a stage production going on. It looks pretty boring, so I turn to leave. On my way out I see Stephanie so I walk back inside with her and have a seat. In my shirt I have smuggled in a hamster. I take him out to show Stephanie and then they guys nest to us take out their puppy. And to the right of us down the row someone has a rabbit and someone else has another animal further down the row. I glance up at the stage and it's now a movie. There are gerbils in a fire. There's just like a boyscout fire pit with tree branches and rocks around the outside to contain it. These gerbils are in the fire and it is not burning them. So this rabbit comes over to my seat and the girl down the row asks for him back so I go to pass the rabbit to her and the rabbit goes between the seats and comes out the other side. I take my hamster and leave the theater.

Now I don't have my hamster anymore, I have a puppy. I'm walking the puppy in a courtyard and it's really nice weather outside. Andrea's with me. We encounter this lady walking her dog around a corner. The leashes get tangled up and when we untangle them, she asks Andrea what she should use to straighten her hair. Typical. Andrea knows everything about all the beauty products. The puppy gets away and I chase after him. He ends up in an elevator so I dive into the elevator before the doors can close and scoop the puppy up into my arms. I'm trying to remember what floor I was on so I can get back to Andrea.

I also recall my dad being really mad at me for something and he slapped me. Oh yeah... I was at the mailbox mailing some packages and the mail lady came by and said that one of them had to go UPS. I looked on the side of the box and sure enough it said UPPS, not USPS. So I went in and told my dad and he got mad and slapped me. That bastard.

Vampires Trying to Kill Me

Occasionally I have dreams where I'm being chased and someone's out to get me. I never know in my dream who it is, just that they're after me. So I'm in this house that's like three stories high. I remember I keep trying to get out of the windows to get on the roof. In other dreams, once I'd get to the roof of a house, I'd usually fly places, non-lucid. I open the window, push out the screen and crawl out the window. Then it's like groundhog day and I'm back in the house again looking for another window to get out of. I think I managed to get out of all the windows in the house at least once each. I turned around at one point and a vampire was trying to pull me back into the window. Makes sense. Andrea has been reading the Twilight series, so I suppose vamps have been on my mind.

Last night the only thing I remember is something about looking something up on what seemed to be an online forum. All I recall is a page about Villas... there were names of cities or villages that were not in the United States... they were up for adoption. There was a picture at the top of the page that looked like the Taj Mahal.

Even though that's all I remember, I'm not stressing. The neighbor's dog was barking all night and it kept me up. It didn't dawn on me that I needed to turn on the fan to drown out the sound until it was almost six thirty. I just know that tonight I have to make sure the fan is on.

The Amazing Christmas Lights

I was driving down the street leaving my parents' house when I look up and notice there is a tree that's about 400 feet tall with Christmas lights all over it. They're LED lights, not just your normal old school lights. I know this because I drove into the neighborhood and found what street it was on. All down the street there were more trees like that one, just not as large. I must have gotten out of the car somewhere along the way because the next thing I know I'm in someone's backyard on their deck overlooking a lake sitting in a chair talking to them telling them about the lights. Then I look up in the sky and there is a beautiful fireworks display. I told the people I was with to look out on the lake to see the reflection of all the fireworks.

The Lucid Beach

I was at the beach looking out into the ocean. There were people there in the water and I see sharks coming. I thought to myself that's unsafe. So I changed the sharks into dolphins. The waves were crashing and the dolphins were jumping in and out of the waves. I raised my hands above my head and the waves grew really tall! I put my hands down and it wasn't like my other beach dreams where they get out of control when they crash. They just kind of shrank back down to normal. I raised my arms again with emphasis this time and the wave grew as high as the sun was up in the sky. I put my arms back down and the waves went back down again. That's when it hit me... I'm making this happen... I'm dreaming this!!

So I thought of everything I had read on DV and tried to stay calm. The first thing I did was rub my hands together. I could actually feel myself rubbing my hands together. It was bizarre. Such a different feeling than anything I had dreamed before. I had never felt something like that. I looked around and I was still on the beach, it looked a little bit more stable and a bit more clear. I really felt like I was standing on the beach. I wanted it to feel even more real, so I said, "Clarity now!!" Never before in a dream had I felt and heard myself say something. I just kind of felt dialogue, but this felt like I was awake hearing myself say something. But, it didn't make anything that much more clear. I think I was too excited about how it felt to be lucid. I remembered one more thing I wanted to do. I tried to spin. I closed my eyes and thought not about being somewhere else particularly, but just not being on the beach anymore. The first thing I came up with was kind of a construction site, but I didn't want to be there, so I tried to spin again and I ended up back at the beach. It was then that I lost lucidity. I think I was either too excited that it was actually working or frustrated that I ended up back at the beach. I probably should have just stayed there anyway. I can't wait to try again!!

I just remembered.... I felt at some point like I had woken up and Andrea came into the bedroom from the living room where she said she was looking up recipes. I was sleeping at the bottom of the bed instead of at the top. When I actually woke up I asked her if I said anything in my sleep and she said she didn't hear anything and I was never at the bottom of the bed. I wonder if that's a false awakening. I'm going to read about that now.

Matt's Kangaroo Destroys the House

I have no idea what house I'm in but there are a couple of dogs running around and someone says that we should let Matt's kangaroos out. So I look and in the closet is a kangaroo. There is another on in kind of a dog crate, but with a particle board door on the front. They're not full grown kangaroos. One of them is really sweet and gentle and the other one is jumping around like an asshole knocking shit over and fucking the house up. I'm mad about this.

Express is not What it Used to Be

I walk into an Express store that I feel like I've worked at before in another dream. I walk straight up to the counter and talk to Frank who is the manager according to his nametag. On the opposite side of the counter is The Skank. I have no idea why she was there, but I think she was just a customer. It was questionable. I saw her at the grocery store during the day, I think that's why she was in my dream. So I'm talking to Frank, asking him when I can do some volunteer work there. He yelled to another girl who was working there when her next volunteer shift was and she didn't say when, but that she was making fifty cents an hour when she was doing her volunteer work.

Next thing I know, I'm actually working there. I think I just left the counter and started helping some guys pick out some sweaters. I asked someone on their way out if they got everything they needed and they said they got the shoes they wanted and thank you very much. I walked around the store and saw maybe eight or ten tables lined up. Each table had a different style of pants on it. There was only enough room for each table to hold one stack of pants. The tables were pine and oval like a kitchen table. I found this very odd and wondered what happened to the other tables we used to have. They were a lot nicer. So I asked someone else who was working there, "What happened to the square mahogany tables we used to have?" And I just got a blank stare. I found another girl to talk to and I asked her, "is the dry erase board with all the numbers from around the district still there?" She nodded yes. Then I turned to look at this display against the wall. It was a ton of glass cubes each holding I think shoes? But they were nasty dirty. So I grabbed some Windex and paper towels and started cleaning them. Then I kind of just dropped what I was doing to help someone in the fitting rooms and one guy came out in a striped dress shirt and I told him, "the size is just right, a large would be too large and a small would be too small!" He seemed very happy about this. Then a guy came out of the next fitting room and he looked great, too, and I told him so. No one wanted to get naked for me. Thank God!

Hotel John Marshall and Weed in the Truck

I'm in a truck in the passenger seat next to the guy that works at Quizno's that served me the Chicken Carbonara that gave me food poisoning the day before. We're looking at the Hotel John Marshall that was on the news last night because two limestone panels fell off the facade. Through the windshield I see Angela who works in General Merchandise at work. We're having a discussion about the hotel and that the squatters who live there are going to be shit out of luck when they turn the building into condos. I'm kind of going off about it, like I'm really angry that those squatters are there. So then she gets into the truck with us and the Quizno's guy lights up a joint and passes it to me. I see no problem with smoking with a manager from work. ha!

Army Boot Camp

I'm in fatigues! I'm in a line of like forty other girls and we're in the woods. There are chairs set up in rows, maybe ten chairs to a row, four rows facing one way and four rows facing the other rows. It's some sort of game. So we all sit down. Then the one girl who I guess was in charge leaves and says we have to find something that she kept in her footlocker. (I think she's keeping our shoes or our cell phones.) Like we're in teams of ten and we have a GPS. So my team starts off single file walking against this chain link fence that's to our right and to our left is a steep incline that is like certain death if we fall down. Six girls just take off really fast and it's me and three other girls trying to navigate around this fence. Ok, we get past the place with the steep incline then we turn a corner and it's like jungle. It looks like a rainforest... except... I look up... and there are huge bigger than person sized killer insects in the trees!!!! Ahhhhhh!!! I am now scared to death! These bugs are low in the trees and we have to kind of squat down and walk underneath them. The fence is still to the right of us. I was debating going slow and stealth so that the bugs wouldn't even know I was there or maybe I should run so that I could just get it over with. I start out slow and then get so freaked out because I brushed the underside of one of the bugs!!! I can't help but run now! I get past all the bugs and do the 'ew get them off of me' dance. I have no idea where the other girls went.

I had food poisoning yesterday!!! Bad Quizno's!!! I was up and down all night. I only remember two snippetts of dreams:

Movie Theater

Andrea and I were at a movie theater. The movie hadn't started yet and the lights were still on. We went to the left hand side of the theater near the back. We didn't sit down but just kind of stood there looking at the people coming in. I turned to A and said, "watch this." I looked at this kinda frumpy looking woman in the middle of the theater who was looking at us and I telepathically told her to take her clothes off. She wasn't paying attention to me and turned and walked away. Then this guy walks into the same row as her and looked directly at us. He was wearing tye-dye scrubs. He stuck his hand into his pants and then his wang came out of his fly like he was wearing boxers. There was something dripping from the tip of it like he was coming, but then it kept going into and out of his penis. I looked at Andrea and said, "This is so weird, it must be a dream." So I was lucid for about a minute tops then I lost it because my stomach hurt and I had to get up and go to the bathroom.

Auntie Lillie's House

Somehow I was in Chicago. I was driving but it didn't feel like driving. Every time I dream about driving it's not like I'm in a car because I don't look at the dashboard at like the speedometer or the interior of the car at all. I pulled up to what I think is a museum. I ran up the marble steps to this huge building and then maybe I realized that I shouldn't be there, or I had something else to do, but this building was not where I was supposed to be.

I get back to the car and drive about one block to what is now my aunt's street. Parked outside is Andrea's car. I almost passed it up, so I threw it in reverse and backed up and parked a couple of spaces behind her. She got out of the car and said, "I didn't want to just go in without you. I didn't know if this was the place because it looks kinda shady." So we walked up the steps to the porch to the door and my aunt opened the door. This house is the same house that was my aunt's house from a dream I had a while ago, but it's not at all like her actual house IRL. Two pug dogs ran out and she scooted them back inside the house. I lose Andrea and walk into the kitchen which is now looking like my grandma's kitchen. At the kitchen table sitting around having a conversation are my grandma and her two sisters. Auntie Lillie is the only one who is still alive today. My grandma was telling a story about something and my Auntie Sophie interrupted and started talking about something completely different. Andrea walks through the doorway and almost steps in a pile of dog poo. Then a dog runs up and starts eating it. It sounds crunchy.

Spin magazine and the CDs within

I'm at Danielle's new house. For some reason there is a stack of Spin magazines on the floor. I open them up and find that each one has a cd inside. I pop them into the computer one by one and rip the music onto the hard drive. I can't get them to play back right. There was a lot more to this, but I can't remember. I slept so badly last night, I woke up almost hourly.

The Beach and the Flying MinPin

Andrea, Danielle, and I are at the beach. I have a miniature pincher and I'm holding him up in the air and pretending he's an airplane because he's just that cute!!! He fits into the two palms of my hands!!!

12/28/2009 Saturday night/ Sunday morning

I'm at school. I know I'm in college for some reason. I'm at work, but on a break. I'm in a building looking at different art exhibits. It's student art and I'm looking at students actually painting stuff. It's kind of like a science fair. I feel like I was judging these exhibits. I looked at and immediately hated the first thing I saw and I don't even know what the art looked like. It just rubbed me the wrong way. The next exhibit wasn't that good, either. I was talking to the guy who was painting. I went to another room and saw this girl painting and whatever she was doing was spectacular. I just wanted to stay there and talk with her about art like all day. Then the guy who I was just talking to and wasn't impressed with came in. I was kind of upset that he was there. I wanted him to leave.