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12/15-13 DEILD I am laying on the hard ground outside (I had DEILD while actually on a hard floor). I realize it is a dream and look around. My friend Todd and me are apparently camping in a field with no tent. His dog is there (recently died). I notice a wierd cloud and point it out. It looks like a lion. I watch it and it becomes very much like a lion. His dog is running towards it. It is now in the branches of a tree. Suddenly it is a leopard and jumps out of the tree at me. I am so suprised I take a step back and accidently wake up.

12/15/13 DILD. All I really recall from this is that at some point an old friend, who in later years got very mad at me, was furious. We were talking and he kept complaining about me having a flat affect (no expression). He wanted to know how anyone could trust me if I have such a unexpressive face. He said he wanted to punch me sometimes because of it. He was in a rage.

I just watched this from outside the dream image of me. I wondered how this could reflect on waking life and if maybe I should contact Bob on facebook when I wake up. I realized he would not really want to hear from me, much less offer me any advice or constructive critism.

12/14/13 DILD. Brain keeps going on about some plot based on the show Leverage. The Sophie character is telling about 7 different variations on the plot and how each is essential and how they can go wrong. I try to pay attention and see if this dream is interesting or not. None of it makes sense. It is just my brain running stupid dream loops, but nothing that is being said really forms a story. It just keeps me from blissful unconciousness. I tell my brain to knock it off and let me sleep. It does not change and I am in no mood to be forced to do a proper LD. I just want to sleep! Finally I imagined all 7 parts of the dream loops like a colage and made a giant glowing 7 cover them. I focusd on the burning 7 and would only allow the thought "7" and only the graphics "7"
Before to long I became unconcious,,, sigh deep sleep at last.

12/14/13 I had as many as 6 LDs last night, but most were short and not worth recording. This one however was very fun and long. I do not remember when I became lucid. I know I had been able to recall a scene prior to this when I woke (maybe it will come back to me). So at some point I went into a fast food restaurant and was behind the counter. The DCs assumed I worked there and two DCs were making hamburger patties and the boss told me to do it too. I normally would just walk off, but I noticed the beef and tools were very vivid. I wondered how real it felt. So I started needing the ground beef and squishing it through my fingers. It was awesome, very tactile and realistic. I was just having fun, so instead of doing the patty making part correctly I pushed the press as hard as I could and made ground beef squirt out the edges. Then I made a beef patty and started to cook it on the grill. It sizzled and seemed pretty real. The boss came over and asked me what I thought I was doing. I said I was hungry. She wanted to know why I was not doing what she told me to do. I told her it was because I did not work there. She said I was so and so and did work there. I just told her I was dreaming and just screwing around. Then I climbed out the drive through window, and went on my marry way.
I eventually saw a very large local park and was on one side of it. I decided to time myself flying across it feet first. I looked at my watch (never wear one IRL) and it was 9:01 I started flying through the park feet first. It was fun and what I would expect, until all the graphics in the dream went black. I told myself I was just flying through a tunnel and not to worry about it. Is there a tunnel in that park. Sure there is, just don't think about it. You will be flying through a tunnel until the visuals come back. I still felt like I was flying feet first, and before long I saw a square that was lighter. See, you are almost out. The visuals did come back and I was flying through a condo complex. That is ok, there is a condo complex midway in the park (not really, but I use this artificial logic on purpose). Now you will be back in the park,,, and so I was.
I came to the end of the park and went to check my watch. I stopped and laughed at myself. Of course my dream watch would not be able to keep time, how silly. Next I saw a road side vender and they had a rack of doughnuts. I wanted one, but no one was around. I looked at the racks, and these were big tasty looking doughnuts. I picked a chocolate one and it was very fresh and broke into 3 pieces. Before I got to taste it some kid DCs were there and said I was stealing. I figure giving DCs something they want is a good way to get them to leave you alone. I pulled out a handful of change and set it down. How much is a doughnut? maybe $2-? Why don't I give you the money and you can pay the guy for my doughnut when he gets back. I started trying to count the change, then figured who cares how much dream money it is. Keep it all.
I never even tasted the doughnut (damn waste of hard earned imaginary money!) I then just flew around feet first on my back. Before long I came upon a party in the walk way of an apartment complex. I wanted to float up all casual like and see what my DCs would do. They were talking about drugs and how they need some more. One of them pointed at me floating all casual and said 'That guy obviously has some good drugs!' Then he started to read a news article about some sheriff saying kids were rubbing drugs into there underwear that absorbed into there skin all day long and they were calling it 'crack'. OMG! My brain just through that out as a random joke. LOL. I woke up after that because I had to use the rest room. Dur- at least 15 minutes but perhaps longer.

12/12/13 I am watching a dream happen. I am not embodied and make no effort to control the action. I am however curious enough about the dream to pay close attention. It went like this. Some guy is shopping in the mall. A big black woman is pissed off at Princess Diana, she starts demanding her bag. The guy can not believe Diana does not have better security. He steps up and protects the Princess. Mall security comes and so does her one body guard.

At this point I am wondering if Dianna is still alive in RL. I am pretty sure she died a long time ago, but decide to go back to watching, what does it really matter?

The guy has a friend around and they are both surprised at Dianna having only one body guard. He is now a bit of a hero and everyone pats him on the back and such. He and his friend decide to leave. Dianna tells her body guard that she does not want the guy to leave. The body guard says he should ride down to such and such a place with them. You can tell the guy is wondering if maybe he will get to make out with the Princess in the limo.

His friend walks with him as they are going to the limo, and asks how he will get home. He tells the friend they will probably send him home on a plane or in a town car or some thing. Now they are at the vehicle and it is a beat up nasty primered suburban. He would have to get in from the front as the back doors do not work, oh and Dianna is sitting in the front seat. Suddenly all sorts of details flash back and it becomes clear this woman is a not very good Dianna impersonator and the body guard is probably her boyfriend.

The two men walk away and are discussing what would have happened to him if he had gone with them. Maybe they would have strapped him with a bomb and forced him to rob a bank. I had not seen this twist ending coming at all and was very amused!

12-13-13 This LD was very very long. I really watched most of it some what passively to see what would happen with little guidance from me. The theme it seems was that I was up in the mountains and had to walk out on foot. A friend from long ago and one of his friends was in the dream. We floated down a river body surfing at one point and I loved that. It felt very real and was fun. We /then appeared on the dirt road again and I asked why not body surf all the way to town. They showed me a nasty damn and spill way. I thought perhaps I should summon a girl friend to pick me up in her car? Suddenly I was in an old girlfriends room and looked about. I saw a journal and it looked like she had drawn hearts and my name. I started to look at it, but realized I was redirecting the entire dream. Her car was out front, but she was not around. I though perhaps I could take her car. Oh sure, what do you mean? Take her car and go pick yourself up in the mountains? I reappeared up in the mountains and we kept walking. Eventually we were at a rest stop and some of the structures looked Asian. My friend explained that this had been a movie set in thhe sixties. When I would look at a section of the rest stop I could also witness the scene from the movie that had taken place there.

12-13-13 I was involved with a nice fairly normal long LD when my latest dream guide showed up with a female entity I did not recognize. He wanted to show me off or something, because he started testing my skills and having her observe (maybe he is going to turn me over to her?) He asks me to come up with a fairly elaborate goal, and then talk my way through each step and explain my methods while achieving the goal. I suggested travelling to a very specific famous location and having an appropriate monument there. I suggested perhaps "The Eiffel Tower." He said that would be fine, and that they would go along and judge the quality of my work. I in no way felt that I had gone astral, so I assume they both had entered my own personal realm.

I told them I would travel to there and not just summon it, in order to create a better effect. I pointed to a door way. I said "through that door way is France, I suppose I had already arrived here and was in a hotel."

The woman asks what will make it France? I tell her "I KNOW it will be France." We step through the doorway and I create a beautiful field with rolling hills, flowers, butterflies, a stream, and trees. She asks how I can be sure this is France? "It is France, it looks just like France would look, and besides, The Eiffel Tower is near here, so clearly it is France."

OK, what next? "I know there is a small boat on this hilltop. We will row it to Parris." Sure enough there is a boat, but I think my DG was testing me. The boat was tiny, just big enough for one. I think he hoped I would change the boat. Instead I just said, "I will go in the boat alone and you can rejoin me in Parris." I rowed through a brief image of a nice stream, and then buildings were around, and I 'knew' it was Parris.

I had to stabilize and I think they were throwing challenges in my way. I went through 3 False Awakenings, but was not fooled by any of them. In each a sexy woman was with me (twice my wife, and 1 an ex). They would grab me and so on. I pulled out of the first two and stabilized. Each time they were there waiting for me and looking like they were evaluating my style. I did very well at stabilizing and detecting the FAs. However on the 3rd FA I kind of forgot they were watching and started making out a bit with my DC wife. "Ahhemm!" Oh, my bad. I think they decided to leave off as the weird cycle of instability and FAs/ temptations ended.

We were now all in a hotel room. I said "The Eiffel tower is just out side this window." I pulled back the blind and there it was. My DG asked if I was sure, and the tower was replaced by a colonial style building. I told them I would not be satisfied yet. I will go to the tower itself and climb it. I went out there and changed the building back into the tower, but I think the DG was challenging me. The tower would morph back part way between the building and the tower.

I teleported up onto the spire and held on. This stabilized the image, as only the tower had a spire and I had my arms and legs rapped around it. I was now on top of a small version of the tower. She asks me if that was it? I said I am pretty sure the real tower is huge. I do not know how big, but much bigger than this. I make the images of the ground shrink until the tower seems about 20 stories high. Oh wow! This is almost scary!

I appeared in front of them and got the impression that the test was over, and that the woman was able to judge my level of training. They then left me alone and I continued a fairly routine LD after that. In all I had to stabilize perhaps 12 times, about 1 every 3-4 minutes. I assume the entire LD must have been 30-45 minutes, but really kind of lost track.

12/08/13 I had a very long vivid pleasant semi-lucid (observing without controlling) dream about exploring Maui. I rode around on a massage table with wheels. I would kick off across the ground like a skate board and then steer the table by shifting my weight. I say semi-lucid because of things such as looking at the sea and thinking "this is much more colorful and fantastic then waking life," yet I never pulled full awareness in or tried to control anything. I just was having a very relaxing fun time. I did this for awhile and then found myself with out the table. I started walking and really was almost non-lucid at that point. I walked awhile and thought that this would get tiring (loosing a bit of understanding that it was a dream). I appeared in a room with other people and it turns out we have all been kidnapped. A Hawaiian guy tells us they will kill one of us and makes us hold these tubes of smoldering leaves. The first one to drop theirs dies, and you must hold them so the flames will burn up towards your hands. You must also breath onto the top opening of the tubes thus increasing the flames. Mine caught fire and I really had a feeling the situation was real. Then we were all in the room and a kid brings in food. One of the other captives raps a shoe lace around the kids throat and I start looking for something to place in the string to twist it tighter than can be done by hand. We will use the kid to force them to let us free. I find some dull knives and we test which is sharpest. I decide we will threaten to cut their child's throat and we all are to decide who is most likely to be able to cut the child if they need convincing. I say we should all at one time say a number between 1 and 3 to express how likely we are to be able to really hurt the kid. One person says 1, me and 3 others say 2; my wife says 3. I tell everyone I do not believe my wife is a good choice and offer to do it. I suggest slicing open a couple inches of the skin over the artery surgically so we can appear vicious with out endangering the kid. The dream ended at this point.

12/07/13 I played DDO (online game) late into the night. When I did WBTB WILD it was so simple to recreate the vivid graphics. No normal dream formed, so I ran around Gianthold as my paladin and jumped off cliff and so on. Mostly my brain was trying to replay the exact images from the game, but I was able to steer and jump and such. Very vivid and fun. I think I kept it up about twenty minutes or so.

12/06/13 This was the 4th LD this night. I was sitting on a floor and looked around. My wife and son were with me and we were at her ex's house. I could tell it was a dream. Her ex had served us dinner and was wearing a tuxedo. It was funny, the contrast with us on the fllor and him in a tux. I looked at the food. It was pretty vivid and kind of like a pastry stuffed with ham and cheese and peas and carrots. All the DCs wee acting like it was reallife so I wanted to mess with the wife's ex. I kept using TK to move objectsas he tried to grab them. I flipped a knife around and stuck it in a wall. I made one float up in front of him, point first. He actually looked excited and thought somehow he was doing it. He wanted us to take a picture. This time I flipped a fork around and poked him in the leg with it. Then I felt bad and stopped this.
Now the setting changed a bit and some guy at the dinner had a broken ankle. He was going to the hospital. As it was a dream I told him I would heal his leg. I made it look straight and healed, but when he stepped on it it cracked. Now it looked disloctaed. I pulled it out and set it but I could see bone and it fractured. I caused the skin to heal and there was still some weird lump. I used energy to pull what looked like excess bone out through the skin. A oval flat stone about 3 inches long formed out of the stuff I removed. His ankle was now perfect. I looked and the stone had inclusions that looked like lightning and had the color of bone. I handed him the stone and everyone was looking at it. At this point the alarm went off.

12/6/13 After the alarm woke me from my last entry I used DEILD. I appeared ina romm with little feature. I phased through the wall knowing I would be on the roof top in Maui. I could see a wonderful beach party going on down below. I levetated all aropund the party, and some DCs acted suprised. I was floating indian style about 5 feet up. The dream must have been around 30 minutes, but perhaps as short as 15 (30 min snooze). I noticed that the images were very vivid.
I floated out above the sea and it was calm like a pool. I just buzzed around enjoying the vivid scene. Then a DC asked me how I could be floating like this. I looked down and the DC was standing on the water. I found this funny. I told him that it was about the same as him standing on water. he looked down and seemed a bit suprised that he was in fact standing on the surface of the ocean. I then demonstrated that I could walk up the air as if it were stairs.
I floated around exploring and eventually was inside a bach house and found a very pretty dark skinned woman. I made out with her and had to stabilize a couple times. She was topless and it was realistic. Eventually I stopped and wandered out side looking for another woman just for a change. I went up to the first lady sitting on the beach, who had a towel draped over her shoulders. I knew she would be topless and busty. Sure enough she was. We started to make out and I had to stabilize agian before long, but I ended up waking up (I do not remember what woke me, maybe the alarm, maybe just a failure to stabilize well enough)

12/06/13 I am not sure if this would be WILD or DILD, probably needs its own class. I had done a WILD, then the dream faded and I floated in and out of various states of sleep verging on unawareness. Then a new dream formed. I was lucid more or less right away.

I was standing across from a beach in Maui. I walked over to the little park above the beach and could see people sitting on the grass and that the ocean was going totally wild. Crazy waves were slamming into the land from various directions. A voice from the life gaurd shack was projected by a bul horn. It was a female, "If anyone goes any where near the water, I will close the park immediatly!"

I figured I would sit and watch the waves, so I sat on the grass near a tree. I noticed the grass was soaking wet. In fact it seemed porous and like it was leakig artisean sea water. Cock roaches were coming out of burrows and so were worms and such. I felt like making the dream stop this as it was just nasty, but decided not to be to controlling. Well I certainlty did not want to keep sitting there anyways. I stood up and noticed some kind of critter in a crevice. I figured it was some orm of crab. I focused on it nad it slowly gained detail. It was some sci-fi spider about the size of a softball. I could see its mouth and judged it could fit my thumb in its mouth. I said out loud to no one in paticular, "look at this spider, it could bite off a finger."

DCs gathered around and started poking at it. They asked if it was dangerous, and it would charge out at them as they jumped back. the life guard on the bull horn called out "of course it is, leave it alone!" Now there were about 3 spiders making charges in and out of the crevice. I decided to get into the tree to watch. I was now in the tree. I decided to leave this scene as it just staye about the same, so I swung out of the tree and leaped to the side walk.

I walked down the road a bit and came to a building. I decided to climb ithe building, but to do it like rock climbing instead of spider climbing. I suppose I cheated, because I just morphed the surface as needed to get good hand holds. I was suddenly on the other side of the building, but it did not seem weird. I reached a roof and then climbed higher to a flat roof. i could see the beach.

At this point my first alarm went off and I began some DEILD attempts.

12/06/13 I woke in the hotel after 7 hours sleep and decided to do a real WILD. I focused on one of the advanced tasks repeating "I am the wolf" while visualizing transformation into a wolf. I got into the first stage of sleep and ran around as a wolf, but it was still just flashes of HH. Not very vivid. I kept imagining my arms transforming and so on, then I tookoff running. I was only getting whispy visuals and could not really feel the snow, except that it made me kind of slide on the turns. After I was feeling like a wolf and seeing flashes of myself as a wolf, I took off after a rabbit, but never caught it. I suppose the sleep cycle switched to REM, because suddenly I was standing in the condo we had just been in for vacation. I totally forgot about the wolf thing and had not actually caught the rabbit. I leave it up to Ophelia if that counts for anything. It was not bad, but I can do better.
I was now thinking about closing my eyes. I tried it, but could still see everything just fine. Hmmm, I felt as if my eyes were closed. I decided to look in a mirror. I found one on the wall ( actually a pillar) and could see myself. I closed them again. The me in the mirror close its eyes. It felt like my eyes were closed but I could still see. I decided to try and convince myself by play acting. This was Hawaii so I needed sunscreen, right? OK, you never spray it in your eyes. I now had a can of sprayon sunscreen. I looked in the mirror and closed my eyes. The image closed its, but I could still see. I covered my closed eyes with two fingers and started spraying. My eyes felt closed and the images eyes were covered by fingers. I could feel the sunscreen spray onto my face and hand, yet I was also watching all of this in the mirror. Very curious. I would call it a success as I do not think the task required I be blinded by the action. At this point the dream faded. I floated in HI and came in and out of awareness until another dream formed.

12/06/13 Had a 2 hour break so I did a WILD nap. I got about 45 minutes of concious sleep before I had to wake up. The first stages were very cool. Electric psychodelic patterns that were gorgeous! I got high as can be in total euphoria from the cascade of sleep chemicals. Very nice! Sexier than a high dose of narcotics (maybe not sexy, but damn sensual), near the end dreams started to form and I just watched. I did take control of one dreamlet in which someone was playing no-limit Texas Holdem. I entered the DC and caused him to get an ace high flush and go all in. Then I pulled back and watched him beat the other guy. Then a weird thing happened. I saw a baby duck. It jumped up and kind of kissed me. I actually woke up at this point. When the ducks little bill hit my lips, I could feel it, even after I woke up.

12/04/13 I really did have a fully non-lucid and was shocked. I have really had basically no bad dreams in years, due to always being semi-lucid. This was very uncomfortable. I am in a house and my sister is telling my wife about things that make me so angry. The things she is talking about did happen to my father and his sister, but in the dream they happened to us, and I want it kept a secret. My father had kept it secret his whole life, and his sister just recently told my sister the details. I got so angry that I told my sister I would beat her up if she were a man. My wife said what happened to me as a child did not in any way hurt how she felt about me. I grabbed the sprayer on the sink and sprayed it full into my sisters face, but even then she kept talking about it.

Well, I asked for some truly vivid fully non-lucids, so I guess I got that. I am not used to this, and it makes me cringe a little. I am not sure what to make out of it.