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LD37: I will be changing my numbering at the end of the month. These numbers are LDs after 02-17-12. I will start at 0 each month form now on, and record it by each month.
I have no time to give details here. Started to get into a LD and the scene was unclear and my dream body ill-defined. Suddenly REM started and I could sort of feel my eyes start bouncing around. The imagery came in very vivid. It was of a river. There was a sense of motion and I had been walking but was drawn forward so fast I needed to run. I played with changing the vivid landscape. I have been trying to clearly see the moon and this worked pretty well, then I created a veiw of the lunar lanscape, then a giant lake which I made freeze solid. I managed to slow to a walk again. No real plot happened and I just practiced forming new landscapes to help me teleport more smoothly. Eventually, the dream ended and I lost lucidity. Dur~4 minutes.

LD 36: This was probably a WILD as I was well into SP last I remembered, but I may have lost awareness and had a MILD. I am pretty sure it was a WILD. Suddenly and almost instantly a vivid colorful dream formed and I was lucid. I watched to figure out the scene. A few people were in a park on a beautiful day. I was disembodied and could change my prespective so I tried to see who was in the scene. One DC was the woman who plays the blonde doctor on 'Scrubs' I tried to focus on the other people but she was the only one who I recognized. I drifted close to her and decided to try and form a dream body. I tried to reach out and touch her, but something woke me up. Dur~1 min.
I had 2 vivid non-lucids that were so odd I should have RCd, but didn't.

LD 33 as of 02-17-12. Awesome WILD with Shape Change, Advanced Flight, Teleport, Sex with Movie Stars, and more. Worth glancing at. This was my 6th WILD attempt and the second successful one for the night. I spent 11.5 hours in bed all totalled. I already had 10 hours in bed trying WILDs and had 1 LD, so I almost gave up. Man, one last try. I went back to bed and chanted the mantra "flying snake" to myself. I hit SP in only 3-4 minutes and instantly could feel my dream body. All sort of HIs appeared like swirling clouds of smoke. I examined my body using my hands but could not see it. I needed to wait for this all to develop. I kept scratching my fore arms to stay stable and casually watched HIs. After another 2 minutes or so I decided to try blind transformation. I had wanted to be an Aztec Flying Serpent. I could not see a body, but felt it very clearly. I felt myself change and before long was experimenting with my new flying snake body. I really felt my long tail and could cold and slither. I actually tried flying and could feel motion and inertia.
I transformed back to human and the visuals had begun to develop but were vauge. I spent a couple minutes feeling myself and watching my hands while climbiing a ladder and a rope. I came to a platform blocking my way and it felt very real. I had to climb around it. I decided that, that was real dream stuff so I may as well get the fun moving along. I now had normal dream visuals. This dream went on for about 45 minutes total, not including all the intro warm up stuff I just mentioned.. I was in bed for 1 and 1/2 hours. So, I will just hit the high points.
I transformed into the flying snake and flew around exploring above a forest for a few minutes. I felt exactly like a snake and nothing like a human. I got up real high and dove, but the body would kind of flap behind me and I had to spiral down. I tried this about 3 times and was not satisfied. I was getting tired of fying way back up there, so I started looking up at a cloud and then teleport my snake self to the top of it and reapet that again. This let me get crazy high, like many thousand feet. This dive was awesome. I had figured out how to move and do stunts. It took forever to actually reach ground. I would be diving and then flex and do a loop and rolls. I was going very fast and the ground approached. I tried to pull gracefully out of the dive, but ended up slamming into the peaty forest floor! What the heck? Grrrr.
I get up and brush myself off. Ok, the flying serpant thing is pretty complete. What now? The challenge thread had 'interact with a DC as a task. I walked around a hill side and run into a woman. I think sexing it up with a movie star would count, I start talking to the woman and getting cozie, kissing her neck and playing with her hair. I caused her to become a famous singer (Britney) and we fooled around for a good 3 minutes or so. I stopped that because if I did not stablize I was going to loose lucidity. I went through another stablizing sequence.
What now? I tried to think about the challenge thread, and remember what else was on it, but it was a total blur. I remembered that there is a challenge of the year thread. I could only come up with the Sputnick challenge. I decided to get launched into space with Sputnick. I flew up above the hills and circled looking for some sort of base or rocket pad. I did not see anything. There was a building on a hill side and I decided it must be a Russian guard house. I would have a DC take me to the launch site. I walk up to the building and a male guard is there. We talk and he gives me no real help. I decide that a different guard has replaced him. This one is a woman. I hate to be so much of a male here, but I decided Sputnix could wait. I would suduce the woman and then she would want to take me there. I also decided that the gaurd was a famous actress (Jen) and she became that person. I also change her into another actress for awhile, but went back to Jen. I quickly noticed she was more like a doll than a DC, so I told her 'I release all control over you, please act naturally.' She did, she developed a personality and made suggestions and was a very active partner.
I materialized cloths for her and then for me. Finally I had a plan. jen is not really a gaurd, she is a Russian scientist who wants to let her new boyfriend she the Sputnic launch. I materialized lab coats for both of us. We go through a back door and come out on a launch site. I fly over to the rocket. I grab some fins near the nose of the rocket, but then think fins don't make sense here. I transform the fins into metal hand grips near a service hatch. The count down happens and I ride the rocket. I end up way up in the sky when the thing comes apart and the satalite is released. I had to levitate over to it. I decided that those anteni things would be how you stear it. I sit on the satalite and picture it kind of like a Sputnick Harley. Wow, it was great fun! I could see the earth below and saw Africa and Europe. I flew around very fast and it was like a rocket scooter. I decided to visit a space station. I could see one and drove Sputnick to it and left it with a valet. The space station was basically a casinoe. I spend some time at the buffet. i try a glazed bannanna and it tastes kind of bland. I try to smell it, but can't. I pour a shot of whiskey and try to smell it, it smells barely. I drink it. I practiced Super Speed by moving across parts of the station lightning fast. I did this until I ended up going up the side of the station in a Super Speed Spider climb.
I decided to dive from space back to earth, but had not found the snake a very good body for that. I transformed into a hawk. I dove and banked and had a blast until I reached the ground. What now? Summoning, I made a giant water trough appear. Elemental I pulled water from out of the air and filled the tub. Telekinisis, I summoned a piture and fancy goblet and manipulated them with TK so that a glass full of water ended up floating over to me. I drank it and decided to take a bath. I enjoy interacting with water in LDs. I finally laid back in the tub and watched the sky. I was hoping to get a real clear view of the moon, but the sky was just pshycodelic clouds and sunsets. At that point I woke up. Dur~45 minutes

LD32 as of 02-17-12, Four failed WILDs before this one. I reach SP and this time as I try to feel a dream body I can feel myself move. I do a stabilization blind. I can only see HIs but I manage to solidify a great dream body. I just start walking through the swirling colors. I screw around doing all sorts of motions like dancing around and running. I finally come to a formed scene. It is like a English village where you may see Little Bo Peep. I spider climb up a lerge stone chimney.
What had I planned on doing? I remember the challenge thread on Dream Views, probably something to do with that. I am tripping out on the tectures of the stones of the chimney. The are moving and changing. One stone comes off in my hand. Super Strength, that was one of the things I was going to do. I started tearing large stones out of the chimney. I pulled the whole front off the chimney. I climbed on top of the building. There was construction stuff around, so I saw a box of stone tiles and lifted it easily with one hand. I lifted it high with just finger strength and then casually threw it way out into the village. Not good enough; I looked for anything heavier. A pallet full of bricks or tiles was there. I picked it up withone hand and flung it off the roof.
I went too long without stablizing, and something woke me up. Dur~8 minutes

LD30: Had 1.5 hours to attempt my last WILD for the night. It had almost failed, and I got very floaty and almost lossing awareness. I finally started see exotic swirling patterns and I tried to move a dream body, in case I actually was on the threashold of an LD. I could feel myself move. I could bend each joint and feel myself dance and stuff, but the visuals took a couple minutes to become dream like rather than pshycodelic. I spent some time working on transforming into a horse. I like to feel as if I am the animal rather than just appear as it. I spent a few minutes and got into the shape of a horse. Other than me there was no imagery, like The Matrix training room. I stablized by stamping my hooves and trying to hear the noise it made. I couldn't really hear it well, but it did the trick. I was trying to remember why I had wanted to become a horse. The alarm rang and woke me. The dream may have been less than 10 minutes, so that short WILD took 80 minutes to work. Dur~8-10 min.

LD29: A short strange dream I can not really describe. I did a WBTB and got all zoned out and almost lost awareness when a vivid dream started. I was disembodied and my feild of vision was all blue and weird. I tried to move and the blue shifted around as if I was somehow this squarish blue thing. I wanted to be sure this was a lucid dream and not HIs. I had not experianced anything like this in any HI. The visual field was not just blue but I seemed to be a blue squarish blob, that could shift about and I could figure out nothing beyond that I was lucid in a truely odd dream. I focussed my vision trying to understand, but that caused me to open my waking bodies eyes, and the dream ended

LD28: I am sitting at a kitchen counter top covered with clutter, my cat jumps up, but it is not my cat. I do a levetation RC and become lucid. I search my mind for memory of what tasks and goals I had set. I thought off the Sputnix task of the year,and figured I should work up to that as the dream progressed. I remembered that one thread had a challenge going, and mass telekinisis is something I am not sure I remember doing any time lately. I used my energy to grab 5 things off the table and then 4 more, all things like plates and glasses of bright colors. I needed one more item so I grab a garden chair and used telek. to juggle them around in the air. That eneded up being too easy, so I thought I should try the giant object version.I looked around for a building and a school building appeared. I use telek. to tear it from the ground and float it up into the air. That was easy to as it does not seem any harder to lift a building than anything else.
I transformed into a bird and flew up into the air. The challenge mentioned 'super flight' and I wondered if I should try anything like that. I wondered if flying as a bird counted, but transforming into one counted for something. I start to fade in these random thoughts and need to stablize. I drop the bird image and study my hands. I pat them against my knees and elbows and remeber I also wanted to activate my voice during stablization aand to call out 'thank you' a few times. I started with 'hey!' a few times, until it sounded good, then called out 'Thank You' across the dream world twice.
I had posted that someone should try throwing knives that he would keep summoning into his palm. I tried it and it was fun. I created a huge tree stump and summoned a knife, then threw it. It felt cool, because I could also feel the knife hit the tree. I coughed and turned over and that woke me up. Dur~5-10 min

1)Having a dinner party. I am trying to describe the white wine to the crowd. It was so hard to get the subtle flavors. The sense of taste was on ultra-light. Should have RCd.
2)Visiting my old Kundalini instructor at his house. He shows me a bunch of pot plants and we walk around looking at his place. He would not be growing pot, and it was not the house he lives in, and we have not talked in 10 years,,, should have RCd.
3)Sitting in the back of a pick up with high school friends playing with a tekescope. Some weird galaxy or hole in space starts to move and grow. I determine it is kind of a swamp gas reflection thingy. Should have RCd.

LD24:The 2nd ASTRAL REALATED dream in this journal... I am in a dream and have no memory of what led up to this. I am on very steep dangerous ground and loosing my grip. Someone is down below me trying to assist me, but they can't get up high enough to steady me. If I slipped, I could see very clearly a cliff below of huge proportions. WOW This is scary. Good time for a reality check! How lucky mt RC is levetation. I try to levitate and it works fine. Ok, I am now lucid, and the scene is not the least bit scary suddenly. I decide to become a bird and fly down for fun. It works quickly andI am a falcon. I bank and dive... and suddenly the dream changes into some phase that is not easy for me to understand. I am deprived of a dream body and am recieving some kind of instruction. The instrucor can not be seen, but can be heard and I could feel its presence. The instruction and other odd experiences lasted an undetermined amount of time. Did I learn something? Maybe so. I have found that often when I am lectured to by a dream entity it is so forigen to real life that it dose not translate well into waking consciousness. This episode had something to do with layering of the dream personality. A basic picture of how each thing with real existance in the dream or astral plain, is like multiple tubes of colored transparent plastic, that when viewed through each other would create a composet image of the entity.
Does it make sense to me? Hard to say, I probably will discover some new power or way of doing astral dreams or a way of causing them, the next time it comes up. Dur~ ??? from 3 minutes up to 2 hours ???

LD22: I had to take all the sleep aids again, so I am happy to have had even a short LD. I did a WBTB Wild at some point in the night and had a realatively easy entery in an LD. I started moving around before much imagery appeared. It mostly look like houses along a road. I stablized with my standard hand stuff. I remembered I want to do one of the tasks of the year. I have picked the atom bomb testing one. I start trying to warp the scene away from house and into trenches. I could now see a large black field with a trench and shadow like images of soldiers down in the trench. At this point the sleep aids got the better of me and I lost lucidity and recall. Dur~2-3 min.

LD20 as of 02/19/12: My third WILD attempt, but now I have had 6 hours sleep. I go through my whole process of looking at my hands and stablizing. I am luucid and standing by a road side in front of a park. The park is vivid and pretty, I will start with a casual stroll. I come up to the tennis courts and eexamine the chain length fence. Nice, very good detail. I casually stroll a ways further and examine some object like a bucket lid or big frisbee made out of grey plastic. Very realist, but not of much intrest to me.
An apartment building that looks like the one in the last entry comes into veiw. I walk over to it and then teleport up to the door I guess matches the location in the last dream. I go inside and the apartment is very similar. I see a DC there who looks like Rob. I go out an see if the balcony is thee same. When I go outside it has become night time. I can see down the 5 stories and can see the river, but no longer can see the city on the other side. Wow, it really is pretty and the sky is ultra high def! I decide not to have an adventure and just to trip out on this awesome lucid sky. So I hung out on the vivid balcony and enjoyed. The sky was amazingly stable as dream images go. I saw all real things like stars and a milky way kind of area. I was pretty aware and lucid so I actual carefully watched one part of the sky to see if it would mutate and swirl or anything. Nope, stable image of a high def night sky, except way to pretty with way to many stars. I did this for what I guess was 3 minutes.
I turned and noticed a dew like film on the apartment door jam. I got up real close and it looked awesome. I took my finger and slowly wiped away the shape of a tiny crossand examined it. It stayed and looked very detailed.
I re-enter the apartment and DC Rob has made tacos. He hands me one but looks upset. I take the taco, and he talks as if we are room mates and I don't pay for my share of food. Hmm, random DC stuff, not intersted. I examine the walls. Still pretty vivid, but less so. He gets real loud and says "and what was that shit about you would just get some food from the moon!" I ignore him, but remember I just did a LD on the moon a couple days back. Some kind of residue thought I guess. He yells it again. I do not feel like arguing and messing up my lucidity. I just say what should shut him up. I say "Listen, I know taco meat does not come from the moon, I am sure I must have been joking. I want to give you $80- for groceries, I have it right here." I picture that I have money and give it to him.
That fixed the random DC action. He is quiet now. I turn to examine the couch and start loosing the dream. Fade to black, but no I am still aware. I try to re-enter by using the same trick I did at the beginning, but end up awake after a minute or so. Dur~10 min

This one is kind of a lucid, but I won't count it. In the back of my mind I knew it was a dream, but not enough for me to count it. The picture is pretty HD though. Enter a crowded apartment with two woman and interact. The land lady enters and says some one reported two prostitutes entering the building. The women are insulted. I go out on the balcony and we are about 5 stories up. Vivid veiw of a river and the city beyond. Then I am in the city and trying to look across and up to the apartment. There is a hot dog vendor and this part of town is run down. As we walk back to the apartment some how, there is a area where bones stick out of the wet clay. I examine a small spinal column. Dream ends.

I was heavily sedated on sleep meds, anti-histamines and wine. I am suprissed I had any recall at all. In one scene Rod Stewart was singing from stage directly to my wife. Another, we were on a Bus and the driver was in the back, not at the wheel. I managed to steer around obsticals by shifting my weight. Then we had made it to someones house, but my wife had migraine and wanted to go. We ended up on the wrong side of town and passed the local Kung-fu master, then said hi to an old friend who was outside a house. We finaly went in a house looking for another friend, and were told she was out back.
Really not an exciting night.

LD17: There were some good parts, but the visual part of the dream kept fading in and out. I could feel myself interacting some times and some of the time I was just able to watch. I think it was a nice enough LD just one with disapointing graphics and sections I could not influence. I had tried to WILD 4 times last night. Maybe my brain is worn out from all the recent LDs. The 4th and final attempt kind of worked, but I was still a tiny bit awake I think, I kept hearng noises that must have been from the waking world.
It took a freakin hour to get to where I had little awareness of my body. I could see all the hypnogogic colors and feel crazy dream randomness. I had a very hard time being able to see my hands. They would form and then dissolve. The more I tried the closer I would come to waking. That is why I titled the dream this way. I guess I was a shadow person or something.
I kept hearing a crow somewhere. It was so loud I knew it must be a real crow. I tried to counter this by believing I was in a desert and it was part of the dream. I did see a desert landscape. The crow just blended into the dream as a background noise. I could feel a dream body and move my arms and legs. I decided to try and throw rocks as a stablizing technique. I would look down and see a rock, but when I picked it up my body would just be a black blur. I could sometimes see fingers, but they would blur out to black again. It felt just like I was picking up rocks and throwing them, and I could see the rocks fling out into the desert. I did this about 10 times, sometimes big rocks using both hands. I tried walking, and it was clumsy. Again, I could feel my body but the visual effect was all dark and blurred. I decided to climb a cliff wall slowly and really picture each action, hoping this would stablize me. I could somewhat vividly feel the cliff and both arms and legs. It felt very much like rock climbing, but I still looked like a vague shadow person with no detail. I came to the top and hauled myself up. The imagery kept getting to be more hypnogogic randomness than anything else and if I tried too hard to affect it I would feel at risk of waking.
At that point I decided to convince myself I was still lying on the top of the cliff, and just needed to take a break. I told myself the colors and patterns were the sky I was staring up at in the desert. That subtle attempt at control did turn the H.Is into cloud like masses and things that could be stars or what not. I had to keep telling myself "I am dreaming" I kept my brain from loosing lucidity by thinking what goals I had set for myself before bed. I had wanted 1)to go to the moon and watch the earth rise. 2)throw fireballs from my hands. 3)shoot lightning from my hands. The HIs calmed down and looked like a night sky finally. I tried to get an image of the moon to appear. It would not. I considered convincing myself I was already on the moon, but decided the goal was to go to the moon, why cheat. I tried to reform a body and had about the same shadow effect. I got up and squatted watching the landscape and sky from the cliff top. I was hoping to see the moon. I saw some clouds that were lit up, so decided I should assume the moon was behind them and get moving again.
I had a random thought that I could transform into a dragon and fly there. It only took about a minute and I stablized again by examining the new body. Oddly I could see more of the dragon body than I had of my human body. It still was kind of a shadow dragon though. I flew up trying to really feel like I was a dragon. I could feel the powerful hind legs and wings, but trying to feel all the parts at once was not happening. I stretched the long body and could move the tail. I realized the head would be on a long neck and could crane around to look at the rest of me. I felt myself having the massive jaws and snake like neck, but trying to turn it back on myself was not working well. Maybe just a little too strange. During the flight a loud rumbling noise happened and I realised someone was warming up a car outside my house. I flew into hypnogogic patterns and lost all aspects of the dream. I convinced myself it was not a car, but the noise a big dragon would make while breathing. Eventually the dream faded back into my mind and I decided that I must be almost to the moon. I was coming up on the ground ahead. I flew around the landscape which was largely in black and white trying to think what the moon should look like. I imagined craters. Sometimes the landscape would look right with craters and often the craters would just be round glowing spots. I decided to try and breath fire. It did work and was cool, but was in very low definition, not like I picture a dragon would feel if it were real. I landed.
I was supposed to watch the Earth rise, so why not watch it in a dragons body? I tried to assume it was about to happen to no effect. I tried to picture a globe and flew off into a barely lucid state of swirling colors and shapes for about two minutes, the shapes kept becoming spheres and reminded me about the dream. I became lucid again but was no longer on the moon.
I just kept seeing flashes of daily life dream stuff but could only watch, not interact or control. After about a minute of this I kept reaching up to open a stove and realized I had a dream body again. I pulled myself from the randon images and walked out the wall. I focused on seeing myself in my front yard and that is where I ended up. I remebered the other two goals. I kept creating balls of fire in my hands and throwing them. At first they rolled slowly along like a bowling ball. I pictured a tree and it appeared. I throw a few balls of fire at it and it finally catches on fire. The images were still very shadowy but much improved from before. I tried shooting lightning into the sky. It was pretty easy and massive amounts of lightning filled the sky. At that point I suddenly woke up. Duration ~20 minutes

LD16 since 02-17-12: A great WILD with shape change and my first walk on water! This was my third WILD attempt of the night and follows the LD15 about 4 hours later, when I had just over 8 hours sleep. It took about 20 minutes to get to a LD state. Many of my WILDs start with dark colors and limited visuals that then improve as I go. I went through a long stabalizing ritual. I examined each major joint and moved them all around until I clearly had a dream body. I realized the scenery was just blurry colorful surfaces and that I should pick a place to be. I could not think clearly enough to come up with anything new, so I decide to do The Kona Resort again. It took about 3 minutes of picturing each part of the scene for it to develop into a cohesive playground for me. I was not happy at first with the clarity of things so I decided to try a new stablizing trick. I watched each hand as I slowly climbed an invisible ladder. I got a deeper clarity from doing this and decided to back flip into the pool. I repeat the process one more time.
I decided I should try to accomplish a goal. I have been trying to have a vivid sense of smell lately, but so far have failed. I imagined that the luau must be taking place and the buffet line should offer many things to smell. I went down it and had little luck tasting or smelling the 4 items I sampled. The Lohee Salmon and lemon cake did have reasonable tastes but no smells. I pictured that the hula show would be going on. When I got to the stage 3 lovely women were performing. I got up on stage and ran my hands all over the middle one (and maybe did more, I'll never tell.) Her hair felt amazing. I tried to smell her hair and got a hint of sent.
I tried shape shifting into an eagle. This is only the second time I have done this where I realy felt like I image a bird would. It was much easier this time and I beat my wings and lifted off. I stabalized in the air examining and flexing my talons. I experimented with soaring, then after a few minutes went and landed by the pool again. I became human again.
I still want to smell something so I remember I thought a lotus flower would work best. The hotel has a nice pond by the pool so I imagined it would be growing there. It was not there at first, so I kept turning and looking until I found it. I picked one and could not smell it, darn. I thought maybe I will give the flower to the luau girl I pictured last time. That made me think of the minor Dream Task of Febuary. I turned it into a valentine's card which took a minute to get a clear red heart card. She was sitting at the tables and when I gave it to her, she gave me a big hug. I did smell a hint of perfume on her.
I had her sit on my lap facing me and levitated up above the trees. I decide to change the scene abit. I looked for a nice boat and found one out to sea. I took us there and noticed she was still holding a big red heart shaped valentine's card. How cute. I played around with the speed boat for about 5 minutes racing around and taking sharp turns. Then I decided to try something new. I wanted to walk on water. I went to the edge and assured myself I could do it. This is new to my brain so it fought me on this. I walked out and for about 3 minutes struggled with the water feeling like wet sponge and trying to not sink into it. Then I realised my brain would need an exuse why I could walk on water. I decided that the sea must be covered with a layer of plastic, kind of like a water bed. That worked and I was bobbing up and down on the waves. I walked across the water back to shore.
I did not know what to do, so I spent about 15 minutes between playing with the hula girl(blush), trying to smell food, and creating more details like butterflies in the air. I actually did smell the food this time, but not vividely. At this time I became aware that my body had to use the bathroom, so I decided to go ahead and wake up. Duration~40 minutes.