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11/24/13 I came very, very close this time. I have been trying to have a vivid completely non-lucid with good recall. In this dream everything was vivid and as high quality as a decent LD. I remember parts of it vividly. I however di not know it was a dream through at least 80% of the scenes. In a 30 or so minute dream, I only reached semi-lucidity about 4 times and managed to let it slip away. The theme was post-holocaust in my home town. It went through at least 5 sequences. 1) trying to avoid detection from a group of thugs. Me and another carefully circled a building trying to stay on the opposite side. The dream looped here and this made me semi-lucid ("hmmm, dream is looping, how should I change this sequence, hide in the shadowy end of the pool. Stop it, just dream"). 2) Trying to sneak out and connect some kind of power line that would give us power stolen from Mountain Home (semi-lucidity "Boise has the hydro-electric dams, why would MH have power and not us? Stop it") Then thugs came and arrested me and carried me away to MH 3) In the MH head quarters. Buffy the Vampire Slayer is their boss (semi-lucidity- Buffy? Seriously? Stop it) 4) Having escaped and come back to Boise. Cousin Todd greets me and is obviously some higher ranking lieutenant. (semi-lucid- Todd would not be worth crap as a soldier, well maybe the idea is that he has not had access to drugs. Sure lets go with that line of thought. Stop it.)

So, that was about 30 minutes of fairly stable vivid adventure, with almost no input from my conscious mind. I also avoided knowing it was a dream except for the 4 little slips. Even then I managed to ignore these slips and get back into the fun of a non-lucid adventure in the space of one or two mental sentences. Not bad at all.

I am hoping for some interaction from my unconcious mind and am trying for a vivid non-lucid with good recall. This had nice subconcious tones but lacked vividness. It also was not very realistic. It involved three flashes all having to do with teaching LDs.
The first is my dad saying they had hired someone to teach everyone in his office to LD. I was hurt that he had not asked me. Did he not think I was a good teacher.
The second was me typing on DV telling someone I would not be able to help with something. The member told me they did not even know who I was or why they would trust me to help.
The final flash was me chatting in IRC to Gab and a voice in my head accussing me of bragging and wanting to seem special. It accused me of feeding my ego.

There is clearly some kind of theme here that is subconcious and analysable.

11/22/13 More success at having vivid truely non-lucids (not semi).

I am enjoying a soak in a large bathtub. I do not recognose the place. I am done and start letting out the water. My father and some woman enters the room. He wants to know why I drained the hot tub. How is he suppossed to use it now? I try to plug the drain, but it is too late. This is not a bathtub? No it is a hottub and I have ruined it for everyone else. It will take a long time to heat new water up. We used to have a giant hottub whenI was a teen, the dream seems conected to that. I try to get out of the hot tub, but the boards around it are rotting out. They looked fine but my hand has sunk into the rot.
I get out and explore a strange house, the dream fades.

11-22-13 I think I will start recording some of my non-lucids for awhile. I have only been DJing really good LDs, but I would like to start experiencing non lucids again. I have been semi-lucid in ost all of my dreams, and perhaps I may be missing out on something.
I have tried to convince my brain to give me some truely non-lucid dreams, and last night I had some success.

I had a dream that involved being on a forested hill side. I was looking for a place to plant water garden plants like me and dad used to grow.
I then was in a room talking with Dad (no recall of the fact he was now dead. He is a dream sign, but this was an attempt at none lucid) We talked about starting a buisness in Hawaii. I told him that every sunny place was too dry, and every wet place was too shady.
I then was back on the hill side and it was dry and hot. I took a close look at the soil, and wondered if somehow I could change things to create the perfect setting for growing things. The dream faded.

I have lately been considering if I could retire to Hawaii, and maybe buy a condo. This must some how be related.

11/19/13 A long vivid DILD that started with my wife being upset. I RCd by lifting my legs off the ground and attempting to sit cross legged 3 feet off the ground. It worked and I was now fully lucid. I think the dream was about 30 minutes, but it time dilated out to seem like an hour or more. I mostly just played around with fine control using TK skills and talking with DCs. I went for a couple long flights, each ending back up at my house. I had to stabilize 4 times to maintain such a long dream. I used a finger mudra trick each time and they worked well. Fun highlights: On one flight I randomly decided to make all the trees come to life like you may see in Disney films, with great big faces. I also made them sing. It was very light and funny! I also tried rocketing feet first through houses like a bullet. First I pictured smashing through windows, but then switched to going straight through walls.
At a couple points DCs were going on about being upset, but I just tuned them out and did my thing anyways.

11-08-13 I woke in the hotel room after the last LD and did a WILD. I appeared again on the roller coaster. It looked like it was running through New York City. I spent some tyime trying to fly through city streets and cutting tight corners around power lines. I played with flying Superman style and with flying feet first on my back. I think I like the feet first thing better. Dur~10 min

11/08/13 This DILD was perhaps 30-45 minutes long, and I am at work, so I will just jot some highlights down. The non-lucid part involved looking at a new house that had cool fire places all around a central chimney. I thought this would be a good way to use up the wood in the back of my real house. This made me realize I did not know where this house was, and I became lucid.
I rode on a giant roller coaster trough a landscape of vibrent colors and fancy buildings. I spent some time with a female DC on a hill outside a church. I met an angel and she introduced me to another angel. They were named Hana and Joseph. She told me that I should stay and watch the sunset. She had me stand at a certain spot and a weird display started. It was like standing too close to a speeding frieght train, so I could not handle it for more than a moment. I guess what ever Hana called a sunset, was a bit of a sensory overload.

My wife and I are currently vacationing. This morning we had a big snorkeling cruise planned. At some point in an LD my wife DC wanted me to do something. I told her I was dreaming so why should I even think about whatever she was saying.

DC wife got mad and started the classic DC/dreamer argument about it not being a dream. I got sucked in! First time in years that I have wasted time trying to prove something to a DC. I explained we were on a vacation and that my body was in a condo in Maui. Of course she denies it and says I am nuts. I explain about the snorkeling cruise in just a couple hours.
She storms off and now a crowd of family DCs are there denying it is a dream. I get sucked in. I ask them what my mom is wearing with out me looking and they just stammer. I ask them what my uncle is wearing. Same result. I realize what has happened and unstick myself.
Wow! Very old school indeed.

09-29-13 A DILD from a dream in which a pretty lady was filling in at my job. Suddenly I was in the back of a truck. I became fully lucid. I pictured the truck parking and it did. I explored a building that seemed like offices.. As I went through one door everything looked so real I became concerned I may really be awake and just drunk or something. It has been a very long time since that happened. I turned around and suddenly my wife was there. Ok, people just appearing? Yep it is a dream,,, dumb ass, lol. Now lets feel up my wife,,, well, why not? But let's make it a bit of a challenge. Before you can do that you must take her to a nicer private setting. Let's see how fast you can do that... We walk out the same door I came in through, but now we are on some kind of private grounds, like a VA hospital or mental health hospital may have. I decided I am a doctor here and have access to any part of it I want. There must be a cool private area only I have the keys too. I look around. My mind starts to form a smaller building, I fill in the details. It is an old bell tower or something. It become round and tall. It should be attractive say cobble stone,,, it becomes an octagon building of cobbles with a fancy stair. We go inside. It is all dusty and I decide the next floor is going to be perfect. It is cozy and has a nice bed with good linen. We fool around a bit, but this starts to destabilize the dream. I attempt to save it but end up moving my body and fade into a less note worthy less cognitive lucid sequence that I did not bother to recall.

09/28/13 I had more than 5 LDs this night, but they were all basic low grade stuff. "Oh hey, I am dreaming. Can I float, yep sure enough. Look a pretty girl..." and so on. Just short flashes of lucidity. I did have one that was more interesting, although it was only perhaps 3 or 4 minutes in duration. It was full of good graphics and a high level of cognition. Todd was there and I realized I was dreaming, as he is one of my dream signs. I talked with him about what should I do to work on my skills. I remembered that I want to do the "3 mystical places" challenge of my advanced task thread, I listed what that would involve. I just somehow felt this LD was not going to last that long. I said out loud to the Todd DC that I should attempt to get to some place basic but uncommon with some interesting geometric shape, as practice for when I had more time. I thought of a baseball diamond, with all the players and such.
OK, I would simply attempt to reach a live baseball game, and call it good for now. We walked through a hotel lobby and I decided to just do the old ask a DC trick. I asked a random DC how to get to the baseball game. He told me it was just down that corridor and out the door. We took off that way and entered a garden area like many hotels have. A full baseball game was taking place on a piece of lawn that was 90% surrounded by water. I went across the strip of land and seated myself in the teams box. I just screwed around a bit after that and did not bother to really recall any of it.

09/27/13 I am getting better at just watching LDs and letting my subconcious entertain me. In on short LD a female vampire was going to go down on me. I knew it was a dream so I figured I would just see what happened. It went kind of like you would expect.
In another LD a party was going on and I was in 3rd person, just watching. A stripper came in and it turned out everyone at the party was a vampire.
In the 3rd LD I was only going to have a couple minutes because I was using a 5 minute snooze alarm. I was in 3rd person and saw Napolian inspecting troops. I thought jumping into one of the bodies would be a good trick, but I choose aman on a bicycle instead of the military. Next i thought summoning an animal would be a good quick trick. So I picked the idea of a cat. I rode the bike and a cat was on a cart. I just rode by and scooped up the cat. It was pretty realistic having weight and texture. I did not get to examine it furture as the snooze went off.

09-21-13 I had such a long vivid LD last night. I however am not having very complete recall. I do know that I ended up having to stabilize the dream through my sensory reduction trick no less than 6 times. Every time I attempted to get sexy with a DC the dream would start to collapse as soon as I was getting anything out of it.
High points in this very long dream:
-Studying transformation with my DG first of objects then on myself. I gave myself angel wings at one point. They were not allowing me to travel super fast, so I grew little wings on my feet like Hermes. I was able to look down at a very vivid ground and see my shadow. The shadow showed all the details of both sets of wings. I also noticed that I could see individual blades of grass and other fine detail on the ground. I mostly flew from roof top to roof top, but also flew along rail road tracks.
-Early in the dream before my DG showed up I had attempted to get some action with a DC of a woman I used to know. Not only did this destabilize the dream before long, but my subconscious took over the DC and bitched me out. The DC ranted about how I was never going to marry her, then told me I had gotten her pregnant. I was completely aware that this was a dream, so I just listened with no anxiety to see what my brain would say using this DC.
-While my DG was coaching me on transformation I remembered a task suggested in a thread where I asked for advanced tasks. The suggestion was to rapidly age someone. I looked around for a child and immediately found a very young girl (perhaps 4 or 5 years old). I used the same kind of mental work I do when transforming in a mirror. It worked and she morphed growing bigger and changing over about 20 seconds, until she reached an age of about 30. At that point I stopped aging her and attempted to feel her up. This caused the dream to destabilize and I had to focus on reducing inputs to stabilize. I was so close to loosing the dream I ended up having to reduce down to looking at a single letter 'U' and just maintaining that until the dream came back.

I assume the reason I had no luck fooling around was the presence of my DG. He often forces me to pay attention by such means. he also asks why the hell I think anyone would put up with me doing gross things when they were in the middle of trying to teach me.

I think the entire dream could have been no less than 30 minutes, but it could have been up to an hour.

09-20-13 I have been working too much, so this is the first really nice LD in days. Nothing else was worth recording. I again am in a hurry and this dream was vivid and very long, so I am just going to outline it. I will comment on only a couple scenes.
-In bed with two women
-Walking with them. Create a park, and summon huge flock of tropical birds to entertain them. Cause a couple large parrots to land on their shoulders.
-house party, scene change to Hispanic community
-now Hispanic house party. Man slaps one of the women. Pick him up with magical dream jujitsu and slam him down. Time to leave.
-Travelling with cool make DC who almost seems real.
- Flying through trees then create amusement park. Another male DC shows up, but the first does not like him and wants to change scene.
-Decide to go get a bunch of gold, let's time travel to Rome to get gold. Then we will give the gold to some female DCs in Brazil? Sounds good. Flying,,, we are in Rome (change buildings to more classical look)
- Bath house. We can just pick up gold from the changing area. A bather sees us. he comes and shows us 'his' gold coins which are very detailed an look Roman.
-Traveling companion DC says he wants me to watch as he gets us the gold. The other Dc is an emperor and mixes perfumes, he accidently catches the stuff on fire. DC grabs the gold and we hurry out.
- Fly up to a hill and I say, 'we are in a prehistoric time now.' I look 'knowing' all will be wild. A portion of the visual field still shows Rome, like a torn post card sitting on another larger photo. I erase it.
-The other DC from the amusement park finds us.

Got to go now, and that covers all the interesting stuff. I do not know how long this LD was. It was likely 30 minutes or so.

09-10-13 I had just woken in bed from an LD (previous entry) and DEILD back into the last scene. It worked. I was standing in front of the building from the last dream. I was still highly cognitive. I tried to remember what the other TOTM things were. I came up with sneak into a locker room of the opposite sex and observe. I could in no way remember the other remaining task.
I imagine that this was my home town and that I was near such and such location. I wanted to travel to a school rather than teleport, just to complete the locker room effect. I thought I knew were a certain high school was (I should have gone to the college, what am I some sort of perv? I guess I just thought High School, because that is where I used to see locker rooms). I flew along and the High School was not where I thought it should be. I realized I had been picturing it wrongly to begin with and should not have been there IRL. Ok, I was close to another one though. I flew off and abridged the trip as too not waste to much time. It came into view.
I walked into the busy hall ways and looked for the girl’s locker room. A large opening was walled off with a giant shower curtain and girls were going in and out. I hoped a sign would say locker room, but instead I overheard a comment that reassured me this was the place. The task says sneak in. I could have walked in and made the DCs act as I wanted, but that was not the task,,, sneak in and observe. I decide to transform my features and pretend to be a girl. I went looking for a wall mirror and found one just around the corner.
I looked into the mirror and could clearly see my face. I willed the features to morph into a girl’s face. Not a very pretty girl, but a clearly young female face. I would just maintain the feeling of a new face and the idea that I was disguised. I went into the locker room. It was alarge and busy locker room. The girls were just changing and joking around. I examined the view, assuming my brain would fill in some R rated glimpses. I think my mind somehow knew I should not be imagining high school girls, even if my dreaming brain did not see it. All the girls at least had bras on and for the most part even the bras were slightly blurred out. Normally I would count this a failure in my control, but I am actually pleased part of me did not want to look at highschool girls.
Nothing much was going on, so I considered what to do. Again, not consciously considering these were high school girls I planned on fooling around a bit. I picked out a pretty blonde girl and we walked off down a descending corridor. There was an alcove and I took her back there and tried to kiss her. The dream immediately began to come apart. I quickly took my attention away from her and reduced all the inputs down to just doing a simple set of motions with my hand until the dream reformed.
The girl was gone and I was not aware my brain was trying to prevent me from being a dream perv with young girls. I just went back up and found a pretty dark skinned girl and tried again. This time the girl walked away when I tried to kiss her. She stated “I am not a lesbian!” That is right, I am still disguised as a girl! I found this very funny and dropped the whole kissing idea.
I wanted to see where the corridor led and followed it. It just came out on a set of swimming pools. I went back to the locker room. 3 boys had snuck in and were talking with and snuggling up to their half dressed girlfriends. A coach bursts in and yells at the boys, and then turns to me with angry eyes. Wait. I am still disguised as a girl! Ok, fine, I do look like a girl and the coach is not mad at me,,, now. The coach wants to know why he has never seen me before and asks which class I am in. I say something like ‘swimming’ and he seems to think that answer is gibberish. He asks again what class I am in? “7?” Not good enough. He is getting upset. This is were the dream starts to collapse again, and I decide to just wake up.

09-1-13 I had just awoken from one LD and had been very pleased to be done with the first bad dream I have had in a very long time. I used the restroom and drifted back to sleep. I did not try to WILD but it happened anyways. I began having the same anxiety feeling telling me I had cancer (I do not) but I was still fully aware. OK, well here I am in a dream. Stop thinking such stupid BS brain! I looked around and was in a cluttered office or storage space. It looked maybe like storage for a hospital with tables covered with various junk. As it was a WILD I was still very cognitive, so I quickly remembered TOTM. Ok, what was it? Walk up the walls and across the ceiling, plus sing the ABC song. I at this point had forgotten about the locker room idea. Too bad as combining all 3 would be cool. I normally spider climb walls and ceilings, but wanted to experience something new. Perhaps that is more crawling than walking? How about clinging like a bat? I went over to a wall and pictured my feet were bare and had hooks like a bat, and that my arms were long like bat wings, minus the actual wings, with little claw hooks.
I was able to climb up in a more or less upright walking position using the bat idea. The ceiling was oone of those hanging office ceiling, with a metal grid that has fiber board panels suspended. I just hooked my claws on the back feet onto the metal bars and walked out onto the ceiling. Good enough. I reached the middle of the room and was standing on the ceiling (or hanging by my feet just for kicks).
What now? Oh, the ABC song. I started singing it while maintaining the dream about standing on the ceiling, but as soon as I got to Q I could not think of what comes next. I started over and still only got to Q. As I attempted to think a bit too hard, I was suffering the dream collapsing. It had not collapsed yet, but I could feel the start of the process. I reduced my focus down to just my clawed feet holding onto the bar. By reducing the needed processing power I managed to stabilize the dream. When I was sure the danger had passed I expanded the scene back to the full version. There I was, bat like on the ceiling. I told myself to relax and just let the song flow, as I must truly know it by heart. This time it worked and I got the entire song out. I forget the details about how I got down. I probably just appeared suddenly down. The dream faded and I woke up after less than 1 more minute.