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LD15: As an experiment for another thread I tried 3 wilds through the night to see how much difference various amounts of sleep would make. The first attempt was right when I started the nights sleep. I got to see some colors, but failed to WILD. The second attempt was at 4 hours sleep. I started picturing my right hand. I would count to five on the fingers putting one up at a time. Evenentually I slipped into a LD. Everything was black except the part of my body I looked at. I went through an elabrate stabilizing routine for about 2 minutes. When I looked around I was in a small room holding a flask of clear liquid. The resolution was poor and the images were dark. The beaker may contain alcohol? Maybe I will taste it. It falls and I rush to clean it up for a second. Then I think, 'this is a dream, don't bother cleaning.' When I look up the small room is crowded with people. Resolution has improved. The people start to jossle around and push, kind of mosh like. I float up above them and yell 'stop'.
I have a false awakening. I am at my Dad's when I was working for him years ago. He want's me to get up and work. I tell him I am trying to LD and he needs to leave me alone, his wife joins in bad mouthing me. I appear infront of a gas station and stab a knife through a pepsi bottle. Wait, this is a dream. I am lucid again. I have to calm myself down, I am still angery. I go inside then come back out and then I loose all recall. Duration~5 minutes

LD14: I woke up early and try to WILD, the problem is I am in a hotel and trucks keep going by on the freeway. I wnt to try my own dream goal of vividly smelling something. Some one just suggested I try something with emotial attachment to me, and I had decided on a lotus flower.
I finally get into a lucid state and slowly create an image. I am in a small room. I look up and the night sky is up there. It is made up of big stars that look like the ones teachers put on test papers. There is a small table in the room. My focus is kind of vauge so I stare at the table and move closer. There is a book on it. I decide to try to read. Like always the words move around and are nonsence. I re-read a paragraph. It has change into other jibberous. My phones alarm goes off. I manage to reach over and hit snooze with out completely lossing the LD.
Things have lost detail, so I focus on the table again. OK, here I am, but what am I forgetting? I wanted to do something. What? OH yes, my dream goal. I remember that febuary's goal on DV is the one about walking into a painting. Could I put the two together and get a lotus flower that way. Lets try.
I scan the walls in the small rooma nd eventually there is a large painting in a frame. It is blank. I picture a swamp scenery. It apperars in the frame. I grab the sides and step through. Splat! I land waiste deep in mud. I turn around expecting the flower will be within reach, and there it is. I pick it and try to find the picture again. The pframe is there and I have to pry myself out of the mud to fall back into the small room.
I pull up a chair to the table and create a vase for the flower. Darn I can not smell it! I try again. No luck. I try to smell the nasty swamp mud, but fail here to. My snooze finally goes off. I wake up. Total duration~12 minutes.

LD13: In a normal dream I ask someone where my dad is. THey say he is fishing over there. The place they point is in my front yard, where in real life the irrigation water keeps part of the yard wet. I realize he should not be able to fish there. I go over there and there are crabs everywhere. I do a reality check, trying to look closley at my surroundings for clues. Sure enough, this is a dream.
There is a vivid fun scene for a couple minutes, where I swing on a vine just above the crabs and also a bunch of crayfish. Then I walk along with dirty cutoffs and muddy bare feet. THe surroundins now look like the gardens of a nice hotel. I go inside and walk into a nice resteraunt. I try to change so that I am no longer dirty, but my control sucks from the sleep aids and beer I took at bed time.
I decide that I may as well just go somewhere else, when a waiteress grabs my arm and drags me out. I mention she is escorting me out when I was already leaving. She rants about me being a poor dirty bum. I decide that I am the owner of the hotel. So I use a cell phone to order new cloths from one of the shops. A male secretary of mine brings them (as I now own the hotel!) I go in an elevator and come back out dressed in a suite. I take a large group back to the restraunt and tell the matradie thatwe will not accept her as our waitress, because she is mean to poor people. At that point I loose lucidity.

LD12: The non lucid part of this dream has me staying in a hotel (I actually was stying in one in real life) The ceiling was seriously water damaged and the bedding nasty. Three women came in and said we have to share the room, as that is the way this hotel works. You got to be kidding, I need sleep. Oh, and to get off of their bed!
Turns out I brought along my own bed from home, it is there across the room. I see them all crowded in the little hotel bed and offer to share my bed with anyone of them that needed more space, as it is a king size. They glare at me. Suddenly the room is full of rowdy partiers and they are sitting all overr the sides of my bed. The place is filthy with beer cans and a large bong is sitting on my bed. I tell them that sharing a room means they have to sleep, and can not do this. The men in the group get angery, and I feel threatened.
That is when I realize it is a dream and teleport away. I am out in a street at night and before long the crowd from the hotel catches up and surrounds me. I was not thinking straight (I had taken sleep aids and a beer) so I had very limited dream control dispite being lucid.
Thet tell me they are going to let a woman beat me down as a humiliation. I hate this, what a stupid dream so far. I can't seem to teleport away now. I decide to act tough and tell 'them that is fine, after I have personally beat down every man amongst them, one at a time.' I also said some intimidating things that I do remember but are not worth repeating. None of the men are willing to be the first, so the crowd dispurses.
A man comes up and asks if I am the guy in whatever room at the hotel, and informs me that those people have stolen my bed. I loose lucidity at that point.

I work 14 hour days about half the time. I often must heavily sedate myself to get enough sleep. I took ambien, antihistamines and a glass of wine. Tried to WILD but passed out almost at once. I slept 7 hours and barely have fragments of recall. I do not have a way around this on certain nights. Darn!

LD11: In this one I had a very long running vivid non-lucid/ lucid mix. The dream went on for about an hour. In my real life I was contacted in a friendly manner, by an old friend who has been giving me nothing but contempt for 7 years. My brain wanted to fret over the subject in my dreams, even if I wanted a nice pleasent LD. In the dream I would be with him, his new wife, and his loyal friends. I would worry he really intended on poisoning me or what ever. Then I would do a RC, gain reasonable lucidity and fly away from them. I would screw around for about 3 minutes, then there they were again, and I would fall right back into a non-lucid full of all the mental anxiety. That cycle repeated 5 times! So, in an hour long dream, I am lucky if I got 15 minutes total lucidity. My brain wanted to work out its issues in a non-lucid, and fully intended on battling me for the right to do so.
I think it would probably be un-natural and bad for someone to "always be lucid" because non-lucid dreams seem to serve an important function. High points from the short lucid bit. I flew along the top of the Boise River and drug my feet in the water, kind of like water skying. I also had a part where I spider climbed all over some huge buildings. High points in the non lucids. A very vivid explosion and burning building scene, and looking at his new marble floor that was ultra HD. Lucid duration ?~15 minutes (5x3minutes)?

LD10: 10th LD in the 8 days I have been placing my journal on this sight. I had no luck until it was time to get up. I told my wife I wanted to take 1 last stab at an LD, so she got up and I started the WILD process. This time it only took a few minutes. The swirling colors became a fairly clean image. I looked around and found myself standing in front of a historical building here in Boise, The Train Depot. It sits atop a hill and has a park attached. All of the buildings had been painted silver and the words on the buildings bell tower were all wrong. I looked at my hands to help me stablize> I usually do specific Mudra hand gestures to bring a little more control.
I have usually seen my hands with the correct number of fingers, but this time one had two extra small ones. I rechecked the other and it sprouted a six finger. Oh well, I often am very picky when stablizing (see my last LD) but really did not have time for a marathon dream, as I knew my wife would have to wake me soon, so I said good enough and tried to decide what to do.
My dream goal that I have so far failed to meet this month has been to vividly smell something. Not just picture that I did, but to actually incorperate my sense of smell in the dream. I decided that sinse I already had a nicely formed park, I would assume it contained flowers and go try to smell them. I casually strolled down by the pond and found bacholer button flowers there. I tried to smell them, sticking my nose right into them. I tried this for about a full minute. I actually did preceive a hint (a tiny hint) of real sent there. This is the first time I remember ever engaging my sense of smell so far. A tiny step forward, but the experience was maybe 5-10% of the waking sense of smell, so I do not consider that I met my goal.
I walked back up the hill and came to a trailer where a DC of my mom was on the porch. I went inside and looked around. Nothing much of intrest so I went in another room and decided it was time to stablize again. I did my hand mudras, and created the proper amount of fingers. Then I chanted 'OM' 3 times, to bring my sense of hearing into the dream. I went back out to the front room, where DC mom was on the phone. (I think my wife may have walked by the door on the phone, influencing the LD) I saw a box of oranges, and decided to try my dream goal again. I picked up an orange and tried to smell it. No luck here. DC mom was glaring and said into the phone she had no privacy. I found this seen boaring so randomly picked a short adventure I could attempt before my wife was going to wake me (we have somewhere to go this morning).
I decided to go fight with a beautiful vampire woman, but then have the story progress so that we ended uo in a sexual scene. Kind of inspired by Buffy's affair with the vamp Spike. I was not sure how to start,so I just programed the idea into the dream, went out side, and attempted to levitate. I figured I would fly around and just come on the vamp. I can always levitate, but this time I was heavy and realize a shadow woman was staddling me with her legs wrapped around behind. Ok, so this must be the vamp. Well that was easy. I stood up (I levitate Indian style) but she was gone. Sudenly two shadows each grab one of my hands and pull me. I yank one of them around in front and she becomes a solid beautiful vamp. We battle, but only for about 45 seconds as I am in a bit of a rush, fearing my wife will wake me any minute. The scene resolves the way I intended, with some hot steamy stuff.
When that scene was over I had a false awakening. I was getting up in my real house. A van pulled up out front so I looked outside and saw an uncle who should not be randomly at my house. This brought me back to a lucid state. I was going to repeat the stabilizing routine, but realized that the dream had been going on for about 20 minutes, so time was running out. What could I do real quick that would be a good use of the last tiny time I had? I decided to see how quick I could forcce an awakening, so I sat in my office chair and focused on opening my real eyes. I popped awake, and came straight out to write this. Duration ~20 minutes.

No lucids. Darn. A very vivid and long non-lucid with moderate recall. Ther was along stretch of running about doing things, but little recall. Then, I remember a weird scene where I was looking down to a lower level at some spiral stairs. My friend drops a bag of Chinese food, and I watch it fall and splatter. Very vivid. Then I am down below, and me and others are trying to clean it up. Finally I go through a door into a pool hall. Something unsceen punchs me in the stomach. Then 4 pretty Asian women start attacking me. They came one at atime with basic moves like a old kungfu flick. I do judo type throws on a couple of them. Suddenly my shirt is knocked off. Then I punch at one of them and it knocks her pants off (has long johns under) and attack another whos Kimono top is knocked off (bra under).
I remember thinking "this is really down right silly" and "my brain is a bit of a perv" yet this failed to bring me into a lucid state (so close!) Then I woke up, and before moving I thought 'man that was so close to getting lucid, and a funny playful scene at that. So i did not move. I pictured the scene and hoped to re-enter it lucid. But, no luck.

I had to take sleep aids, and did not even have recall of non-lucids. Oh well, I just had 8 in 4 days, so I am pleased.

LD8: My aunt drives up alongside the road, in a horse drawn buggy. She says her car is bbroken, so she is riding into town. As she pulls away I realize it is a dream. I flock of geese are overhead I try to change 1 of the to black. That works, he is black. I wake up! Lame Duration~1 minute

LD7: I know my wife's alarm will be used for at least 2 snooze cycles, so I just sleep until i am sure she is out of bed for good. When she is finally up and not going to disturb me I give it another try.
Nice! Right back into a fully lucid LD. That makes 3 in one night, not bad at all. Because the other two this night have been sort of OBEs with some dream randomness, I decide not to give my brain a chance to side track me this time. I am vividly lucid at the start, so no need for a RC.
I am on some low platform and look up at the sky. It is not the normal earthly sky. WOW! It sure is pretty though! It has a lot of depth and color, plus way too many stars, kind of like pictures from Hubble. I am content to just examine the sky as it is fabulously detailed.
I am being nuzzled by an animal trying to get my attention, and make me look around. I am sick of my mind trying to get all random on me tonight (see last two entries) so I decide to ignore it. I find this sky wonderful. The animal nuzzles me more instantly, so without looking down I push its nose away with the palm of my hand.
Wrong move! It is in the form of a big dog, who barks very viscously at me and forces my attention away from the sky. Oh, wait. This is not a DC, this is a real entity. I have had entities pretend to be animals before, so I am not sure if it is a random animal like entity or one of the reoccuring people, who is screwing around. One thing is clear, I have ended up in an astral realm of some sort, and this guy is pretty scary looking.
I back away from him, and ask if he is just making pay attention or if he is mad at me. He communicates telepathically 'that I was sitting on his dog house'. I am suspicious that he is joking with me. There is a small building behind me so i jump to the top of it, to put some distance between us. He does not follow me.So, I am in an astral enviroment, but is it a city? I do not recognise this part of it, it is kind of rural looking, but there are buildings in the distance. I try a new method of travel just to branch out a bit. I zip forward like some kind of sea snake, or wave length. That was new but worked well. I am at some buildings. I climb up some in a spiderman kind of mode, and screw around a bit. I get past these buildings, but still don't recognize this astral realm. I jump down into a field and look around, still very rural.
Hey, there is that dog again, but he seems friendly. I sense that I am being followed and watched at a distance by at least two people. I have been tailed alot lately and would like to know why they have been following me. I had decided while awake that the next time it happened I would try to catch up with them and flat out ask the why they were doing it. I have suspected it was 'The Monks'. I told the dog to run ahead and see who they were. It acted happy to do it, and took off. I charged after him, and thought I may catch them this time. Suddenly 'The Diplomat' is there in the field, and says hello.
Ok, so now I know where I am. It is the major city, that has a cathedral and seaside cliffs. 'The Diplomat' once told me he has been living here for 4 decaides. But, now I have to wonder, was he pretending to be the dog? Was he one of the people following me? If he was one of them, does it mean it is not 'The Monks' following me? Or does it mean he is somehow involved with 'The Monks'?
I walk with him for awhile and he takes me to a building. We go inside. It is like a coffee house kind of place. he takes me to a table, and introduces me to 4 more male entities. They invite me to sit down, but it seems crowded and I would have to sit very close to a stranger. I tell them I will stand. 'The Diplomat' hands me a cigerette, the first time I have seen anyone on an astral world smoke. How odd, I don't smoke anymore in real life, but decide to try it. Yep, tastes like smoke and feels hot. One puff is enough. They are just sitting around talking. I am not really able to follow the conversation, and it does not seem to be valuable teachings, just chit-chat.
I tell them that my wife has been sick lately so I am wanting to spend time with a woman, while I have the chance. I walk away from them and look around at the other entities that are just hanging around. I finally find a female entity who is cute and interested in being with me. We look around for any place less public. We find a quiet alcove, and suddenly I am being expelled from the astral area! Damb it! Those 'Monks' think I need to spend my time learning and practicing all the time. They always try to ruin my fun. I shout that I will stop and back away from the alcove. I re-enter the astral area. How rude.
This irritates me. I know some off these beings like to fool around, but the people following me try to prevent it. I tell 'The Diplomat' I want to go somewhere else. He walks me to his mansion. It is a very fancy place. He shows me a room I can use. It has a nice bed, so I consider laying down and meditating. However, I now see someone is in the bed. It is 'The Diplomat'. I may be getting the wrong idea here, but I was suspicious he wanted to fool around. I explain to him that even if they have no specific sex or if they do, my own mental issues would only allow me to enjoy a woman's company that way. He gets up and offers me another cigerette.
I am not a bad person, or overly homo-phobic, but the scene makes me nervous, so I tell him I intend to go find 'The Older One' of 'The Three Women', no offense intended. I wander around for quite awhile, not sure how to find her. I did run into one female who seemed very friendly, but I did not like something about her. I finally found myself on a major street where many enties were walking. No luck finding her, so I just screwed around for about 5 minutes jumping into a tall tree, trying to float in one place and watch the crowd, and so on. I finally saw somone who may have been her, but just as I reached out to tap her shoulder... My wife closed the bedroom door, and was making a bit of noise getting ready for work, and I awoke. Duration~45 minutes

LD6: After i am sure my wife is back in bed, I try to return to a LD by picturing where I was when she got up. I appear in the front yard. I am already lucid at the start of this one. I am trying to decide what to do, but my brain puts DCs walking down the street, and also the same two noisy DCs coming from the other direction. I am sure my brain is trying to create a story line and pull me into it. Well, I am not interested in a story, I want too train! Frustrating. I jump up onto the roof, and decide I may as well change scenes all together. I can see out across the city towards down town, so I decide to attempt a clean teleport. I want to get down to the base of the biggest buildings and look up from the bottom. I vibrate my energy body so that the image is disrupted and know what I will see when I stop. I stop. Darn it! My brain has decided I need to have a random aspect to this dream. Like, "opps, you only made it half way, oh, there is a bus, why not get on it?).
Sorry, not interested! I climbup a building and visualize down town in the distance. My wifes alarm goes off! I awake. Duration ~3 minutes

LD5: I am coming back into my kitchen from the hot tub late at night. I do not remember having opened the door. Hmmm, reality check time. I try levitate. i do not float right away, but feel so much energy radiate from the effort that I am still suspicious. Try again, sure enough, I start floating. I have been neglecting to stabilze my self to often lately, so I immediately make myself do it.
Look at my hands. Carefully preform some basic mudras (specific hand figures), form a triangle between touching thumbs and forefingers. then interlock both hands at the middle two fingers with outer finger tented. Try to vocalize, just a basic OMMM. Sounds good, deep and resonant. Ok, stable enough. I am in an exact to scale version of my house, maybe a bit of OBE while in a LD? What to do? Oh yeah, I am focusing on taste, sound and trying to smell (no luck on smell yet) lately so maybe try to eat something. How about a bannanna? They have a distinct pleasant taste. Sure enough in the front room is a bannanna, but it is partially opened and smashed. Oh come on! Maybe if I go to the fridge I can summon a good bannana?
Decide not to bother with the fridge but to go outside through the back door. Pretty vivid, I can feel the tempature drop between the two. Still seems to scale and correct (OBE?). I hear loud voices from the street that is back behind the back fence. I levitate up to the roof, and get a better look. There are two DCs sneaking around doing shifty things and being loud. Not very interested in following any story line like playing hero at the moment, so I look into the front yard. The roof is all spongey and gives way beneath my feet. OK, that is less like OBE, but that suites me fine. I jump down into the front yard.
Noisey people are now walking down the road in front. Screw them, I am not looking for a story line now, but wish to practice. I decide to play around with fine motor control by doing jumping high kicks and trying to clear the single story roof top with each. After about five fun kicks, I am woken by my wife getting uup to use the bathroom,

LD3: I did not have much luck during the night, probably form being to tired. The alarm went off and I hit snooze so decide to just do a brief DIELD. I was able to get into a LD in only a few seconds. I was highly aware, but that was a problem in itself, as I clearly was partially awake. As a result the LD had little depth or clarity. Everything was black except for what I intended to interact with. I usually try not to be a perv. in my dreams, so I can spend the time doing other things, but my wife has been sick lately, and well... you know.
I just summoned a DC in the shape of an old girlfriend and felt her up for a few minutes. The snooze alarm woke me up again. Duration ~8 minutes.
LD4: Same as above but I had to do the DIELD steps again. I decided since I had low clarity and depth, plus knowing the snooze would only give me 9 minutes to just go ahead and be a perv (wife has been sick). I summoned a scene in the front seat of a car, and decided, why settle for an ex-girlfriend? I summoned a DC that was supposed to be Jennifer Aniston (she is cute) and enjoyed myself until the alarm went off again. Duration ~8 minutes
Not a very exciting night, but hey, I got to spend some time with a cute TV star even if the resolution sucked.

LD#2: I find myself at the university I attended in my 20's. Having no reason to believe I should be there I become lucid. What to do? I walk around a bit to see what the subconcious may stir up. There seems to be a commotion in a locker room, and a bunch of DCs are trying to get in there. A man looks at me and seems like he is considering something about me. I focus energy at him to make the rest of the crowd focus on him instead (no idea why I did that). I decide the whole scene looks cluttered and uninteresting so I turn around and look for something else to do. I see a room for martial arts. Hmmm, maybe some sparring or rolling on the mats could be worth doing. I go in the door and become fully lucid. I realize that the 3 men in martial arts outfits may be 'real' entities, but I am not completely sure. Everything is extra clear and no odd distractions are happening. I ask if I can join. Sure. The instructor is giving us a small lecture on something to do with hands. He goes on for a bit, but what ever he is teaching has something to do with other dimensional grids and who to do something involving them with your hands.
I can not understand the topic well at all, so I excuss myself and ask if I can just do rolls or something if they wont be sparring. I take a big leaping role across the mat and it is all slo-mo and weird like the Matrix scenes. I loose lucidity and recall at that point. Duration~5 minutes.