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12.04.13

Last night, bed around 1-2 am. Woke up 7:50am and got up with intent to WILD soon.

Layed down on sofa around 10am to WILD. Of course, that's like an invitation to my cats to come and lay down on me. If I just lay down to watch the tv, I can call them, but they don't come. For some reason, they know when I'm WILDing and that's like a catnip. One cat found a comfy spot at my feet, and I could still feel her, every time she stirred. The other one, the chest-cat, jumped off after maybe 20 min, just as I was getting relaxed. Good things, as I was able to continue with a WILD.

Matra was "I'm dreaming", later switched to "When I see, I get up" and Later yet "I see, i get up". This has worked for me in the past and I knew it will work today.

I kept giving into the dreamlets, dipping down below into sleep, only to wake up slightly just seconds later. Next thing I know, I exclaim "I see!" I'm on a bed and I realize I'm dreaming. I get up, and take a look around. I'm in my childhood bedroom. I make a decision not to rush, but also not to worry about stabilizing, because I remember OpheliaBlue saying, that if you worry about stabilizing, then you have already lost.

So I just KNEW, that I'm gonna be ok without stabilizing. I took in the sights. Dark yellow light from setting sun was permeating the room. I made a consious decision to not just throw myself out the nearest window as I normally do. I wanted to walk outside using the doors. So I went through a few doors, each time with bit of trepidation if the door know will work and if I find behind the door what's suppose to be there. But I also KNEW, that doorknobs will work.

I walk throught the front door and as soon as I do, I can smell the dusty, summer air and my bare feet are getting almost burned by hot asphalt pavement. I take a right around the house and continue on the sidewalk. There are 2 new buildings. I can see through the windows, they are some kind of a gift shop or visitors center. I take a few steps back to check out the large letter/number designations on the front of the building. I want to remember them, so if they build them in the future IWL, I will know that's what i saw.

Here I lose it.

2.
I'm in a bed again. Not my room from WL, but in the dream, it's my room. I remember I wanted to look back and see myself laying in the bed. I look back and bed is empty. I look again, trying to trick my mind into showing someone there, but no luck. Bed is empty.

I make a decision to walk through doors again. I'm hoping this time, door will take me to some exotic place. I walk through a few of them, and last one takes me to my childhood room from WL and from previous LD. This makes me laugh histerically. Haha, my room=exotic place. Nice one, subcon.

3.
I'm on a sidewalk in a strange city. Not too modern. Looks like a pedestrian zone. I realize I don't have a plan and don't want to just walk around aimlesly. So... I grab the first guy and drag him into the small shop. It's tiny. Just a panel with some merchandise behind it, a clerk, and space for 5 people tops.

So I stand this guy int he corner of the panel and the front door. I Know I don't have much time left. I pull his pants down, I pull my pants down and I give him a BJ. While I do that, I observe some dust and a fly on the pult to not forget I'm dreaming and I keep repeating "I am dreaming" to keep aware. Too bad though, because soon after i wake up. Maybe new policy is in order. Me first, BJ next?

Not sure if they were WILDs or DILDs. First one felt like a WILD, but others... Didn't get any transition at all. Both times I just realized that "I see". Either way - THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU and LOVE YA

And I'm happy, that I was walking and NOT flying. Finally.