In This Thread We Write About Things We Think We Only Do

[tommo]

Oh no way you do these kind of visualizations too? They're so much fun Oh but I don't ever get disgusted by realizing that I am breathing the creepy drunk pedophile's (or other like disgusting people's) breath. Rather, I become sort of invigorated that I am sharing breath in such an intimate way with all of these beautiful, complex, multi-cellular beings all around me! It's very connecting to know that. Whether the person is "gross" or not appears rather trivial to me when I am engaged with imagining such connectedness. Haha, I have OCD so I get a bit too disconcerted that I'm breathing in a dirty looking persons breath haha Oh but that is by far the most amazing and interesting part of it all! The way I used to explain the feeling to myself when I was much younger was that my existence was sort of like a game for an alien, like there was an alien that would sort of dip his face into a dish like the pensive dish from Harry Potter in order to experience a whole other existence and life where it forgot about itself and therefore could take back new wisdoms and have deeper perspectives on its own existence. And then after experiencing my life, when I die it simply becomes aware of itself again and lifts its face out of the dish. But I would feel that the alien dipping its face into my existence was really just the real me. And I would feel that there were other aliens that would do the same thing, like it was very common for them to do. Interesting. Sort of like Hinduism but with aliens. I'm a lifeguard and a swimming lessons instructor. What do you do for work? Interesting too. I just deliver pizzas atm lol. Dunno what I'm gonna do for real work yet, been thinking about horticulture or chemistry though. Probably something in horticulture/botany.