Last night bed around 9:30pm
Woke up at 3:50 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC and went back to sleep some more
Woke up at 5:16 am - got up for WBTB
2x4 mg GM 5:40 am and to the sofa for a WILD
up at 7:45 from lucids
My cat was laying on me the whole time, keeping me very light asleep and even waking me up at least 1-2 times. I was having hard time falling asleep so I wanted to try on my side, but cat was laying on me, haha.
Throughout the whole time I was trying to do the IMP - impossible movement, or just my old style moving my body to see if I'm already asleep. This also after I woke up and didn't think I'll get into lucid again. But it helped a lot and I did.
I have a good memory of the whole thing, because half way through I realized that I can just pause and retell the previous parts to myself to remember them. I used to retell them to myself during transitions between DEILDs, but I don't have transitions between them anymore.
I fell asleep and was trying to get up, but couldn't. Couldn't stand up or float up. I got up, walked a bit then got pulled back. I was thinking kinda upset that this will be second time in a row when I didn't get lucid.
But then I got up again and started walking away, when I remembered what I wanted to for years now but never did. I returned to my sofa and looked at it! It was empty. But it was the exact replica of my sofa placed in same position and location and what I felt but didn't see a copy of my real room. The sheets were of the right color (darkish blue grey) with wrinkles and all and a cover peeled to the side. I got so happy and told myself "great, I'm not there, look, because I'm in a dream". As in away from the bed, haha.
First I was in some industrial complex. We were sleeping in some service room. I was venturing out from there looking for stuff to do. Started climbing this building but the outside was not stable. People on the ground were asking why the heck I'm doing it. I just wanted to get up high.
I was trying to figure out what to do. When I remembered Pk's jumping over stuff idea. So I started to run, but that woke me up.
I wanted to grow myself big again even though I knew I have already tried. Not sure if I remembered that I didn't finish the task last time. I started to grow, but then I felt my feet disconnect from the ground and got disappointed. I started to shrink again, and I did this a few times. I didn't really feel myself grow, but I was watching the ground. Large puddles of water and moonlight reflecting off of them, they were getting smaller and decided to watch my progress like that.
I'm in a crowd of people, walking around. I catch a reflection of me in a window. I have man's underwear on and there is something in it. Pull it off and there is a huge pen0r. It looks ugly, all bumpy, curvy, colors from pink to angry red. The end is wrapped in some tissue. I unwrap it and walk up to a girl. We sit down and start to kiss and touch. It never gets further, but not because I didn't try.
Somewhere in the middle of the experience I try to estimate the length of it and I come up with 40 min. The dream, haha, not the pen0r.
5. Ask subC what my DV avatar means - fail - TOTM
I'm outside on a busy city street. I'm watching the DCs walk by. They are all different, with different attires and I'm happy I see DCs. Then I remember the TOTM. I turn to a young man and about to ask him the question, when I remember it's not suppose to be DC, but my subC.
I walk away a few steps from him, wait a second and look up at the skies to make sure it's clear I'm not asking him. And I say out loud with clear and articulate voice.
"What my ... ( I search for a word here) DV avatar means?"
I keep looking up at the sunny skies, but I get no answer. Only some not so distant noise, like a rumbling.
6. Help someone cross the street - success - TOTM
I walk another block away from there when I think of another task. I recall the "make a tea" task but I know that's the only one I completed.
So I think of the Help someone cross the street. It was nice and sunny. There is a lot of DCs. A young "sister" which for some reason I believe is French is walking towards me. I grab her by the arm and tell her:
"C'mon, I will help you cross this street. There are no cars here, but that's ok. Just a few more minutes and we are there. Here is the sidewalk." And as I said it, I heard a grey older type car coming by and I was happy that my help was now not so silly looking. I got her to the other side of a not so wide street to the sidewalk with grass. Then we started french kissing. Since she was French.
7. Drive a car (rip out engine and wheels) - success - TOTY
I remember another TOTM (actually a TOTY but I don't know that). And I feel the urgency as I feel like I may be waking up.
I actually remember this task when I see a huge, old type, german car with no top parked by the sidewalk. It's matte black with some gothic looking style. It's a bit menacing.
I open the hood and it's empty, so I open another and another. Seems like the hoods are layered, haha. But there is no engine in any of the compartments.
I walk around to the other side and look at the wheels. They are huge, rugged, black, dirty and warn out from heavy use. I KNOW it's easy to rip them off, so I grab one and pull it off. It comes off right away. I move to the next one and do the same. The belly of a car is dirty from many roads it traveled. I see something that looks like another wheel deep under the car. But I dismiss it knowing that it doesn't belong there, it's just my subC messing with me. Besides, I didn't want to get dirty climbing under to get it. As I think that, I don't see it any more.
The car is full of people all dressed in clothes from era of the car. I'm thinking pre-WWII, Germany. First and I think second row is taken, so I sit in the second or third. I will make it work, even if I'm not behind the wheel.
There is a dude sitting behind me and he does something that I can't even say what : D
So I sit down and I'm looking at the lady behind the wheel. I ask for the keys. I have to ask again and someone turns to me with keys in his hand. I take them and I ask for ignition. I ask again and it appears in the headrest of the seat in front of me. I put the key in and turn it. The car starts. I look at the wheel and I make it turn the way I want. We cross the intersection where I helped that nun cross the street when the street dips down. I will it to fly over it, realizing we should be on the surface, so after the dip (which looks like construction site of a highrise) we kinda land on the street again.
Here I wake up and decide to write it all down.
There was classic sex with a dude somewhere in there too, but I remember I was also doing something else at the time, like a split person. Same thing happened last time. Ain't nobody got time for that. hahaha
I'm so stoked
Thank you my subC, you the best
This was last night. Bed 10 pm. Watched The Town movie, where bank robbers have a shootout with police in riot gear.
Long and detailed. Took 2x300 alpha gpc.
So I'm in a building with others. Trying to escape. Get to a huge room, size of a hangar. We are high up. Looking down, the room continues to the left. Blood on the walls. It's some kind of a killing room and same was suppose to happen to us. Long heavy chains are hanging by the walls from the ceiling. I'm thinking if I could climb up, swing the chain, grab another one, all the way to the exit. But they are too far from each other.
Someone comes and opens locked door, let's us continue escaping. Going through corridors and rooms. Now in a residential house with group of escapees. We have a long way ahead of us. I'm looking through cabinets to find survival gear. Finding clothes, plastic forks, tupperware, items for personal hygiene. Packing them all. We see police in riot gear sneaking around the house. Watching them through the window blinds. Then I hear my mom yelling outside the window if I am there. I get out through another window and meet up with her. Now some people from my original group walk by. I tell them to watch out for police car on the corner, so we turn and walk other way.
This was a couple of days ago.
I'm In Peru on a group tour. Walking through some caves. Guide tells us about artifacts that can be found. We look, and sure enough, there are silver colored rings in the ground. Some are only half berried, some found after some digging. I pick some up, but then I leave them. I don't know why we were able to find them and what's the catch. When we are leaving, one male tourist says "will pay for these copies" . It made me think that guides put them there for groups and then they make them pay for it.
Another scene - going on a fast boat across a large lake. Water is very muddy and turbulent. Lots of strong currents, large waves. I'm thinking which way I would swim to the shore if we capsized.
Last night, bed 10pm 2:15am
2:15 am - 2x300 alpha gpc and back to bed for 1 hour 45 min till 4 am
4 am - up for wbtb
I started to feel the effects of alpha gpc very soon, but couldn't fall asleep long or deep enough to lucid.
2 dreams before WBTB
In a house, some people, something about clothes, someone coming for a visit, he is drunk.
I'm in Somalia. This is my first dream visit in this country. I'm walking in a corridor, a man hits a woman that was just passing by, slams her head to the wall and I can hear the sound it makes. I know that woman are mistreated here very badly. When a woman encounters a man, she has to kneel down, otherwise he will get mad and do something. We are coming to a bus station, but I can't get there, because there is a man on top of the stairs being a dick to a woman. One lady sitting on a bus station bench shakes her head to me "do no come here now". So I kneel at the bottom of the stairs, but get up when I have enough of it. The guy at the top of the stairs looks at me and I think I made a wrong decision but I don't care. I go around and squeeze by the gate and hop on the bus as it is leaving.
Now we are on a tour boat. Next to us is what I think is the other shore, but when it starts to move I realize it's a very long boat. I'm looking for my camera wanting to take a picture how they are using the river as a freeway. Every inch of the river is covered by boats and they are going fast as cars.
5am - 2x alpha gpc
5:10am - 2x4 galantamine
5:10 - sofa
I had a dream I was WILDing and then I saw what was happening around me with my eyes closed. But no awareness and I don't think I got lucid at all.
Last night, bed at almost 10 pm - 3:20am
House on a hill I used to live in. Lots of people, parties, noise. Walking on the patio, a black dude in african clothes is starting to play bongo drums. I'm like really, you have to do that now, at 10:30 pm? Then I look at my watch and it's 1:30 am. I'm like fuuuu. Too late for that noise.
I'm in a house. My cat got out. I look and she is on the driveway, not able to move away from a few coyotes. I'm walking fast, praying I get there on time. Throwing rocks and branches at coyotes. The move and dodge them, get hit a bit, but don't leave. I'm hoping my cat won't start running. I get there and scare them off. Inside, I'm telling her:
[11:52:14] <gab> I was protecting my cat from coyotes last night, haha
[11:52:39] <gab> then I was telling her "you came <--> this close to being taken!
[11:53:16] <gab> it seems like I can talk to my cats in mydreams, and they can talk and understand me too
Same nite as Grow yourself big to reach the moon attempt before the WBTB. http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/gab/
So after the alarm woke me up at 4 am, I stayed up for a WBTB
WBTB 4am-5:30am (I was so stoked from a random lucid, that I couldn't sleep sooner. Plus, that is my usual waking time so I had to fight my body's urge to "wake up for the day" and stay in the sleepy mode.)
I already took 2x300 Alpha GPC at 3 am, but I felt like I used that up for that random lucid, and since my WBTB was so long, I took another 600.
- 2x300 Alpha GPC
- 2x4 Galantamine
Sofa at 5:30 am
Woke up from lucids at 7:52
I estimate lucid was about 60 min long, maybe bit longer. I could tell the extra choline made a difference. I was getting headrush and entering lucids at much faster pace than normally, and the headrush was very intense.
I don't remember much details, since there were no breaks in lucidity when I could retell my lucids to myself. And I slept more after I wrote down a few keywords.
Ok, so there was a TON of sex in this one. It was happening with some invisible entity, for a long time. But there was some problem, he may have forgotten to take my pants off. Then bunch of other scenarios with chicks and dudes.
After much walking and exploring, I remembered the TOTM Make a cup of tea and report how it tastes"
I start looking for some place to make the tea. I see some fire on some snow covered ground. I decide to go closer and use it. Hoping to see people there who will have cups and stuff. But there are 2 dogs by the fire. Another fire is nearby and I see a cat by it. I come closer and as I'm wishing for it to be a fox, it turns into a fox. He is not very friendly, starts to chase me away. Needles to say, he didn't have any cups : D
I come to a market place and I search the stalls. There are some glass colored tea cups on one of them, with some liquid in them. I ask "is this hot water"? Vendor says no, it's tea. Well, that's not what I need. I grab one cup, dump the liquid from it and I ask the vendor to put a bag of tea in it. She is putting some in her cup as well, but it's not a bag, it's lose tea. I'm ok with that and she sprinkles some in my cup. There is a pot with semi hot water and I pour that in my cup. I hope I don't burn myself when I taste it. It taste like rose-hip tea. Kinda mild flavor, but very nice. Lukewarm, not hot at all.
After that I go for some more sx and slowly losing lucidity, until some long dream in singapore or other major asian metropolis, in a hotel with my brother and his wife. Not sexual haha, we were just there.
Did some flying, didn't see much, looking at hands to make it more clear, didn't really work.
Updated 03-09-2017 at 08:39 PM by 50242
Last night bed 10 pm - 3am
3 am - 2x300 GPC
set my alarm to 4 am for a WBTB
LUCID before WBTB and galantamine
The alarm woke me up from a lucid. I just had to giggle as I had no idea why the alarm is beeping since I'm in a lucid already and it was awesome.
LUCID - TOTM bonus - Grow Big - didn't finish it coz alarm
I don't know how I realized I'm dreaming. But I start walking through some rooms. They are well lit, but no exit. Looking through medial cabinets to find a flashlight and maybe something to open the locks with. Finally there is a window. I get out.
Walking on a street, trying to remember the TOTM, but I didn't read them yet, because I didnt do the WBTB yet. I see a beautiful cat. Long hair, stripes of brown and black, white socks. It's playing with a tennis ball size ball of same color as he is. I rejoice, yeey, a cat in my dream! I start calling it and as I'm getting closer, I realize that the ball is another cat, perfectly round ball, with a face on it, blinking at me. Haha.
I'm still walking but now there are buildings on both sides of me. Now I remember one of the TOTMs - Grow yourself big, above the clouds, step on the moon.
I look up, but buildings have overhanging roofs, so I keep walking till I see the skies. Looks like buildings are trying to close in to take the access away from me, but I'm having none of it. I think "grow big" and I'm starting to grow.
I'm past the roofs now and the view I get is INCREDIBLY beautiful. I see distant rolling hills, rocky, orange soil, like in american southwest. I see an Arch, and another one, much bigger one closer to me. They are incredible. They skies are getting dark, clouds are gathering. I see wind turbulences on the bottom of clouds, wind whipping them like mad. Wind is picking up, now it's getting strong and I see pine trees getting bent and branches flying off. All this time I'm saying 'Keep on growing". And I'm growing.
Now I have reached the clouds. It's dark grey in there and warm. I realize that's how it's suppose to be. I see small particles flying by. I realize that usually when flying high up, that's where I lose lucidity, because I lose view of the dream scene. So I figure quickly, I will have to look at my hands to not lose reference as to what I'm doing. I keep saying "keep on growing" when my alarm wakes me.
This was a few days ago, I forgot to type it down, but it seems resurfacing.
It's at night. I walk into a house. I walk fast through a room. I need to get to the other side of the house to pick up what in my mind looks like my work bag. All the rooms are illuminated, but as I'm going without stopping, I'm turning on all the light switches. Lights turn on. I'm scared. I know I can't let that be known, or that scary thing will know that I know and it will show itself. I walk through 4-5 rooms in a straight line. When I get to my bag in the back of the last room, I realize now I have to make the same trek back and I'm struggling not to run and scream in fear. I'm kicking myself why I even went there, why I didn't prepare my bag at the front door, why I waited till night time to go get it, why I even agreed to go and get it. Why didn't I just said no.
I get out and my mom, who was waiting in a car is already coming towards me. Looking for me, because I took longer than she thought I would. When she see me coming, she turns and I'm following to the car. But it's harder and harder for me to walk, as if invisible force was drawing me back to the house. I reach my arm and cry for her help to grab it and help pulling me forward. I was so scared.
Bed at 8":30 - 3:30am
Very detailed and long dream.
I'm on alien planet with someone. We are intruders, if they caught us, we would be in trouble. Investigating something going on. Or we just kinda fell into this situation and trying to get out.
Underground facility. Lots of civilians and scientists. Some are looking at us, knowing we don't belong there. Me and my female friend walk by some containment bio suits and decide to put them on so they don't recognize us. Lots of corridors, doors, bright rooms with medical looking scientific machines and tools. Something big is goin on.
We come to a place where a short, wide lift is taking people to the surface. We realize we need to get to the surface to escape, but also that the bad thing that's happening to civilians is on the surface. They are taking them there for some experiment disguised as something else. Something about mothers and having babies.
We get a care package which I first didn't want to get, but my friend puts it in front of her face so they don't recognize us. There is some drink with a straw in it too, so it makes it not very suspicious.
Whoa, 14 days since last entry : (
Finally recall tonight that I can actually put into words, haha.
1. I'm in my childhood house, but I don't know it at that time. In my brothers room. I'm swinging around and thrusting with a big, toy pirate sword. Two kids are looking at me. I say something like "this time, that person won who didn't win yet". One of them asks "so that second kid won?" And I say "nope, me again". Haha
2. I'm on doctors table. People are getting shots. It's my turn. I watch how the doc picks from a set of needles that are secured in a pouch, kinda like tools would be. He picks the biggest one. Actually, it's a she. She doesn't want me to straiten my arm out, just pokes me few times in the elbow area. Someone tells her to do it differently, because she is taking chunks of my skin off and I look and it's bloody.
3. - There were other dreams, feels like work, again. Dont recall that one, but happy with tonight.
Last night bed 9pm - 4:20am
Yesterday there was an ad - one of those videos that go fast to show you a lot in a short time. So it was a video of making chicken calabrese. Looked good!
I made chicken calabrese. Stuffed with cheese and something else. We were all eating it. My dad came home later and also had some.
Last night bed at 9pm - 4:30am but couldn't fall asleep till well into 11 pm
I'm at work. We need to move boxes and fix things. Director asks me to do stuff so I'm running around with a small black shopping cart, putting boxes in their right places.
I'm going to school on my bicycle. Ground is covered in deep snow, with tracks left by cars. It's a bit melted and so hard to go through. I see people cutting through a walkway between tall buildings, but I keep going, then turn left to my school. But the road is blocked by police with some K-bars. Now I know why everybody was cutting through the other way. I find a place where I can lift my bike over and I continue.
At school, a very common theme is not being able to find my class. I'm wandering the building, up and down the stairs, asking everybody, checking the rooms, but I cant find where they are. It's already into second lesson, and I'm still not in the class.
Last night bed around 8:30 pm - 4:30am
I'm somewhere outdoors. There is a strange looking swimming pool, with slanted, concrete sides, with grass growing from between the slabs.
A kidnapper arranged 6 or 9 tied up girls in the slopes, with spaces between them. They are soon unconscious and slip into water. I know he doesn't want them to die, so even when I see them with mouth submerged, I somehow know or hope that they are gonna be ok.
Now I'm standing in some other pool. It has beautiful turquoise water with gentle waves. I put my head at water level and all I can see is this gorgeous water. I tell myself I'll have to take a picture of this so I remember it and I can dream about it.
Later I'm in a big city bus. Have a feeling it's NY. I tell the black woman bus driver about the girls in the pool. Then she whispers them to another passenger who is getting off, so they can alert the police.
Some kids in the back of the bus are cold, so I find some blanket and a comforter and give it to them.
Last night Ė bed around 8pm.
2:18 Ė 2x300 GPC, back to bed
3:30 Ė up for WBTB
3:58 Ė 2x4 GM and sofa
DREAMS before 2:18
There is a flood. Whole area is covered with deep, almost white water. Only tops of trees are sticking out. I see some monkeys trying to hold on. For some reason I need to get to the other side. I am on a small sandbar thatís not even visible, but Iím standing on it. I want to start swimming across but the waves are getting bigger and bigger, about 5 feet above my head. I turn back but the waves are carrying me. Somehow I made it back and now there are 2 upturned boats caught on the sandbar. I turn over the smaller one, a canoe and Iím glad that the oar is there. I get in and start to paddle. A really huge, tsunami like wave is cresting over so I grab the boat and dive under the wave, kicking furiously to make it back to the surface.
Iím visiting someone in the suburbs. Single story houses, all similar. Nice working class neighborhood. Their neighbor is a guy from my store, T, who we donít get along. But I donít care. We go out to some school fundraising action. They are serving us food at the table. First course is a meatball with something. I taste it but leave the rest on the plate. A russian waitress yell at me why I started if I didnít finish it, someone else could have had it. Iím telling others that I had meatballs with more onions and I liked them a bit, with less onions and I liked them more, but these, I didnt like. We all agreed there was something powdery or dry in them that was bad.
Visiting another people, this time from WL. Guy is telling me his plan Ė going to Pittsburgh. I ask: ďa gameĒ? He says no, Target. He calls it that, because of poor neighborhood. Mentions german store and I go off on history of our beer and how it was good then but now its really good.
Iím in a middle of transitioning when my cat jumps on me. Then jumps off again when I get to transition again. I hear the 5am chime. Wake up from below experience at 5:28am
I start seeing a TV screen. Black and white female face with big lips, moving. I kiss it and it kisses me back when I will it to do so.
I stand up and walk out to the balcony. I think ďoh wow, this is my childhood home, my roomís balcony.Ē There are wires for drying laundry and for a second I stop to ponder if I should jump over or go under. I go under and climb up on the rail. I squat down. I take a moment to realize, that Iím feeling and seeing everything in great detail. I have only a T-shirt on and I feel my hair blow in the breeze. I feel so free and happy.
I gently jump down. Incredible roller coaster feeling in my stomach makes me giddy and even more happy. Gosh, I missed this so much. Iím starting to think that I will hit the ground, but I slowly take flight. I notice with amusement that Iím again in my flying lazy boy position. As if sitting on the lazy boy, legs in front of me, slightly bent, flying feet first. Iím so happy. I think go higher and I do. I think go over the roof, and I do. I see a beautiful, clear moon in the distance with 3 stars near it. For a second I debate if I should go there today, but I decide not to.
Cat got me out of this LD.
Iím back on the sofa. I get this sensation of extreme acceleration. My head is buzzing like crazy and itís so intense, Iím starting to worry a bit. I donít know how to enter a LD from this type of transition. I tilt my head down, pushing it to the pillow so I change direction of flying. Itís so intense, twice I tell myself ďIím not scaredĒ. After second transition, I see a nose illuminated, but nothing else. I will it to become brighter, but it doesnít work. Another transition, and this one is the most intense. I try to think to get my dream body out of my via my head into OBE or AP.
5 am clock chime.
Iím laying on the floor in a large room. Like a school gymnasium. My cat is sitting on me. I donít know what to do. I notice slight movement when I breath, so I try to amplify it. Now Iím moving couple feet to the front and back with each inhale and exhale. Itís an amazing feeling.
I realize I could probably stand up. I do it and I walk outside. I see a grapefruit tree. No, itís a pomelo, I correct myself. I want to pick one of the huge, green fruits, but the branches are too soft and delicate and I donít want to break them. I touch them and the trunk of the tree and itís very sponge like.
I keep walking and come to a ridge. Moon is high up and itís quite bright. Below me is a witch all in black, returning to her hut. Iím not scared, but I want to change her anyway. I keep saying ďgood princess, good princessĒ. But she is not changing.
Got up at 5:28 to write this up, then went back to sleep some more.
Iím being chased. Lots of streets, warehouses, buildings, rooms. Windows are boarded up. I start to tear it down, finding a hole and getting out. Guards are patrolling outside.
Bed 8:30pm - 3:20 am
Few of us have some luggage going on a luggage belt, so we decide to follow it as not to lose it. We get on a belt. I'm not sure if it's safe, more likely not safe. I see a guy sitting in front of me, so I assume the belt tunnel is not gonna get too low. But I still almost lay down as not to have my head sticking out.
There is a lady standing by the belt as we go by, kinda smiling understandably, so I'm reasonably sure it's gonna be safe. Even if the sign says there is a wrapping machine with some blades coming up.
I'm in a warehouse. Someone is coming to visit so we suppose to clean it up. So someone takes some heavy equipment and pushes the whole isle over to the wall, so a new, clean isle got pulled in it's place. Done, haha.
I'm sitting on top of some high box or cabinet. I'm all dirty, vaguely remembering that I had to escape through some muddy water or something.
I remembered this later on.
We are establishing a family business and they are deciding who from the outside will be part of it. I'm worried if I will be included and I ask them about it. I think the answer was "yes".