Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I actually kind of wish people were more like that here. I can't imagine anyone just saying hi here in public without some reason. Maybe I'd be less antisocial if everyone didn't keep to themselves.

Me too, it's the first time it has happened to me! Starting now I will say hi to anyone who sits in the train when I get on, and if a conversation unfolds it will be great, but it's not necessary. In fact I already said hi to someone on the train the day after that (it was a girl coincidentally) and she just looked at me with a strange face and immediately looked away and didn't say hi back. LOL, I didn't mind anyway and just sat down.

Can you PM me what that list looks like Dianeva? I'm such a procrastinator as well lol, and my to-do lists suck if I ever make them.

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

Athylus: Maybe you'll see her again, who knows. And now you know, right?

My stuff: If all goes according to plan I should graduate in December, so I just don't know anymore. On one hand, finding and building a friendship that will last past graduation and moving to another city is highly unlikely. On the other hand, I'm fucking lonely and if it wasn't tearing me up before it certainly is now. It's great having an awesome husband, pretty much a buddy whenever, but I'd like someone else too, you know? Someone I can talk about my husband to, someone else I can hang out and go places with. I need a new perspective and I need variety and stimulation and non-romantic emotional comfort. So basically, should I just tough it out for the rest of the year and if something develops, great, or should I keep on trying to make friends, probably have a slightly higher chance of success because of the effort, and feel more like a failure if I...well, continue failing?

Insomnia has been super sucky lately, I've been thinking about cutting every day, I'm stressed and tired and feel like a rather pathetic excuse for a human being.

Who knows, she said the same thing! That time I will ask her phone number.

Cutting will probaly only let your anxieties manifest itself stronger, I advice you not to do it! About making friends... well, it just happens I guess. You don't just become friends with someone, it takes a lot of effort really. It's been half a year since school started (wow...) and I've made two friends who I sometimes speak. Sometimes I just talk with them, even call them on skype or just chill at school... play cards or whatever. We often talk about nonsense, but sometimes deep conversations arise.

When can you call someone a friend? I don't know either, they're just people I like and they like me back. Being yourself is hard, but I try to be myself and if people don't accept me for who I am that's okay... just means they aren't friends hehe. Eventually someone has to show initiative and ask the other to go do something, you know? Like going for a beer on a sunny day, or maybe go to the movies. There's enough people at uni.

Originally Posted by FuzzyPotatoes

I'm normally not the ranting type, but Liverpool are cunts, West ham have got cheated again by disgraceful referees, I don't even know if you guys like football but I'm mad!

I love football but I'm more of a niners fan.

(Murica')

hehe, Anju, that's what I was going to ask Crashy but forgot. Perhaps he's just really optimistic... or a fortune teller

I never got into sports.. but I think my hubby watches everything out there (and gripes because we don't get certain channels since cable went to crap). He's a big Nascar and racing fan but he watches basketball, baseball, football and hockey too. He says he watches those in case a patient mentions them... but I think that's just an excuse

No real rants from me today. I slept until 6AM then crashed again at noon and didn't wake up til 7PM My daughter just informed me that they don't have a ride to work and they start at 9AM this week
I'm going to go watch some trippy music and see if it triggers sleep again...

I rave is that I've only had 4 cigarettes today (I'll smoke another before bed though). I've been going through a lot of e-juice though. It has NOT been bothering my stomach this time around. Perhaps I got used to it.
Another rave is that I've been in a SIMS 2 mood and I'm creating a large neighborhood from scratch. I've already created all of the lots and most of the parks, gardens and shopping areas. I've discovered I really dislike making massive homes. I just finished creating one for an alien family. I told my daughter "It's customary for people to wash up when entering a home so I placed the jacuzzi in the entrance." She asked "How do you know what's customary for aliens?"
I laughed and said "I created them. Their customs are what I say they are "
The entire basement is a swimming pool (almost "C" and backwards "C" shape on either side of the stairs).

Okay... I do have a rant. I've lost almost all of the expansions for the game. I only have mansion stuff remaining (along with Downtown, College life and Seasons). So there's a major lack of options. The beds I use (because I cheat for money) are the best... but the kids beds doesn't rejuvinate energy and comfort as well. So, the kids beds only give 6 comfort whereas the adults give 8 (or something like that). If I buy a couch that's 6 comfort or above the kids either sleep with the adults or nap on the couch- which taxes their energy reserves. Same with counters... If the bathroom counters supply environment and the kitchen doesn't, the sims walk all the way to the bathroom for water I find myself using the same items house after house simply for the bonuses. That gets really old after a while.

So, I was casually sitting on a stool at the kitchen bench then Dad nonchalantly says, "Oh, we're getting flu jabs tomorrow," then I freak the fuck out and fall off the stool. A needle? A fucking needle? NONONONONONOOOOO!

Yess! Got my retests back and made it with a 6,2 and a 6,8! Still on 57/60 points now hehe, too bad I can't get all of them this year though... oh well, next year I will make it. I'm such a risktaker though, but I guess that spices life up a bit.
I've been having quite a lot of dreams about my decade long friend who I have stopped hanging out with recently because of us changing, I expect them to stop soon.

Zhaylin I really like that chrono cross (no idea what that is though) soundtrack, added it to my favorites.

Alright... time to probaly fuck this test up I have in 2 hours (lolol). Even if I do, I will make it the second time. Won't forget to say hi to a random person today! Maybe I should mantra that...
Edit: Nailed the test.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I woke up this morning feeling really happy. I dreamt about living in Australia and I did so many amazing things like scuba diving, surfing and stuff like that.
It was such a perfect and vivid dream.

I asked my parents if we could go on holiday to Australia last year. And they said: 'Well maybe next year?'. So I really hope we're going to in December.
But why does it have to be so expensive? I think it's about 1000 euros just for one plane ticket, that's alot tbh.
I really want to move to Australia within the next 10 years. Preferably Sydney, Brisbane or the gold coast. But it seems really hard, just leaving everyone and everything behind.
Build up a life in a foreign country all by yourself, find a place to stay, get a job, make friends,.. It honestly seems impossible to me. But that's basically my dream in life.
I really don't know why I've always been so 'obsessed' with Australia. I think it's because I started watching australian soaps ever since I was a kid.
From what I can tell, the beaches are absolutely beautiful comparing to the ones in Belgium. And I really like the accents as well.
I honestly don't think this will ever happen, it just seems really difficult. English isn't even my native language. But the teacher says I'm quite good at English though.
So I really don't know. But I'll keep my hopes up high. And who knows, maybe one day I'll move to Australia

Dude, come to Melbourne. Fuck Sydney.
I will show you the most amazing beaches you could imagine. Seriously, I will. If you come during Uni break of course.

Rant.... Got in to an argument with one of the other Lankan girls.
I kind of treated the other girls like crap coz of the Lankan girl.
I mean, to be fair to me, they suddenly started just talking to each other in their language even when I was there.
I told her that too, and it took like.... massive explaining for why that's a shitty and rude thing to do.
Thought it was common sense tbh....

I cut myself last night as well. Also a few days ago.
I did it once before years ago just mostly to see what it does, pure curiosity. It does nothing. But now my leg hurts.
I guess it did ease the anguish a little bit.

Rave: Not sure if I mentioned it, or only to Aly, but I got inspired by this recent conversation about basically not caring what people think of you.
I'd been on that track already, but after all that crap with Lankan girl, I'd lost confidence and just generally felt depressed.
But yeah, I got motivated by all this talk and in one of my classes I simply asked the girl who I sat next to about the question.
We kept taking to each other, I got absolutely no work done, and we left together.
She started to walk the other way at a certain point coz she was catching public transport and I was going to my car, and I was like "alright, I'm going this way...."
AND SHE FOLLOWED ME!!!!!!!!

Instant amazing feeling. Just knew she liked me right then.

The whole thing was really funny.
When we got up to leave the class, the teacher was like "Oh!, you're leaving?" coz it was like 5 minutes before the end of class.
And I'm like "yeah, I couldn't concentrate anyway" and the girl quietly laughed at that, which made me laugh coz I realised what that meant.

I didn't even mean it like it sounded, I just meant coz she kept talking to me I couldn't concentrate.
I seem to do that a lot; say something which everyone interprets as something else, and it's either smooth as fuck, or they think I was insulting them.

Extra rave: Got all the homework and assignment etc. done.

Rant: Have to do that presentation this week....
Thankfully I procured some xanax, but I still don't want to do it.
Ah well.... guess I have to.

Originally Posted by Anju

Wait wait...so you don't already live in Sydney?

No, I wish I lived in Sydney though. But I'm actually from Belgium.

Originally Posted by tommo

Dude, come to Melbourne. Fuck Sydney.
I will show you the most amazing beaches you could imagine. Seriously, I will. If you come during Uni break of course.

I would actually love that, can we make this happen?





I just googled some beaches in Melbourne and they look quite amazing to be honest.
If you can show me beaches like that, I'm totally up for it haha

There are so many amazing places in the world, even considering you have a narrow preference (like that there must be nice beaches). It's kind of an odd phenomenon that people seem to latch onto one particular place, like they're denying there's anywhere better and that one place is perfect for them. Everyone seems to do it. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with wanting to go to Australia, or Canada or Costa Rica or Japan or whatever it is. But it's just that there are SO MANY places in the world. Some have amazing atmospheres that are literally non-explainable until you experience them yourself. I know this after being to only a few places, so I feel I must not grasp the truth of it. So this is just a kind of observation. I fall for it too. I absolutely love Costa Rica and whenever I imagine living somewhere 'perfect', I imagine living there. But realistically, there are probably places I'd prefer that I've never even heard of. I mean I've never even been out of North/Central America. I've never even been anywhere in Canada besides BC (wait, I literally just realized that isn't true anymore, damn I used to take a sort of pride in being able to say that!).

It's just odd how when you grow up somewhere it becomes mundane, no matter how exotic it is to other people. Like tommo actually lives in the amazing place Crashy wants to go, with beautiful beaches, hot weather (for me hot weather, large bugs and nature sounds when you go outside rather than the sound of constant planes taking off are vacationy things. I can hardly even imagine them being part of normal life... It would be like being on vacation all the time). Yet tommo actually wants to move elsewhere eventually, because he's so used to it. I don't really have a point to this, just rambling.

I really need to do productive stuff now. And not go back on reddit for another hour after hitting send. My regular morning procrastintion is ruining my life. By the time I get home from my walk at 2 pm or whatever, I'll feel it's so late there's no point in even trying to be productive. And that career fair tomorrow... I'm not even going to go into that.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Wow! I ended up clicking another link

I don't think I've ever been mentally/emotionally aroused before watching those. Something about the colors and the way the chords light up is absolutely amazing.

**EDIT**
Very interesting. When I first watched the synch. videos, I was energized. But after about 15 more minutes of it I fell right to sleep.
Too many new sights, sounds, emotions tend to drain me and knock me right out
I was up at 6AM. Perhaps I can use the videos as a sleep aid (until I become immune to them )

A youtube piano player by the name of marasy8 does a great version of night of Knights. Though he does a great cover of every song

*faints* WOW, Dutch!! I felt like the video was on fast forward. That guy can move those fingers!!!! Most impressive!

Glad you liked it, Athylus. Chrono Cross was a PS game based on the game Chrono Trigger. I didn't play much of it. I was extremely religious back then and it had way too much magic in it for my conscience. I placed the game in my hubby's stairwell to his attic and it disappeared. I have no idea what became of the game, but I don't have anything to play it on now-a-days anyhow... But I loved the music. I pre-ordered it and got a bonus CD of instrumental music from the game. I still have that CD somewhere. I loved the music (didn't I already say that )

Tommo. As much as those girls speak their language around you, have you picked up any of it? It would be so funny if you just started speaking it one day when they're trying to be all private and secretive

No rants from me. I didn't feel like sleeping last night, so I caught up on Hulu shows and made Plarn.
SO- for all you genus's out there.... How many feet of plarn did I make?
I cut 25 bags. 1 bag= 11 strips. 1 strip= 18 inches. I'm still working on it. I cut the bags into strips but I'm still looping them together. I've worked about 5 hours on it so far and I'm only halfway done *whew*

**EDIT**
How would I work that. If there's 11 strips per bag for 25 bags that would equal 275 strips? If there's 18 inches times 11 that would come to 198 inches per bag? 198 inches equals 16.5 feet. So, one bag be 16.5 feet worth of strips? Rounding down, 16 feet times 25 bags would come to 400 feet? Is my math correct?
It takes around 170 bags to make a sleeping mat (they're made by volunteers for the homeless). A sleeping mat, would be what 6 feet long by around 3-4 feet wide?
That helps put things in perspective for me. I'm not doing anything charitable. I'm thinking about turning this project in to a bag for my step-daughter (who donated a couple hundred bags- or so- to me).

I'd go to Australia if I could right now. Ugh though, one time I took a piss at a crack and a black widow crawled out and I nope, nope noped the fuck out. I imagine Australia would be like that every day.

rofl, OP. Australia might not be the place for you then Then again, I'm sure they get a lot of hype. I'm sure it's safe in the cities. Tommo?

My rant is that my e-juice is starting to bug me. My mouth tastes like butthole again Next will come the hunger. I fill my clearomizer about 3-4 times a day. Is that an extreme amount?
Another rant is that my friggin daughter, Destinee, is lying to me. The friend staying here is NOT emancipated. They gave themselves away. She's not even 17. I think she's actually 15. Which is a rant in and of itself. Why do parents always send their kids to my house? I don't "mother". I feed and shelter and that's about it. I don't supervise. I'm too lenient. I'm a terrible mother. But even when my kids were minors, their friends would spend weeks or months with us and the parents had never even spoken with me.They'd stop by every now and then to drop off clothes or money and that's about it.
I've only actually met a couple parents. Do those parents just not care at all?

Brittany was caught shoplifting before she came to stay with us. Once again, giving themselves away, I picked up that Destinee was caught as well. What the heck?! Destinee has to pay restitution but Brittany might be sent off. She's talking about killing herself before that happens. Ugh. Destinee's 18 and is going to get herself sent to jail if she doesn't watch it! I told her that if they expect to stay here, there will be NO MORE friggin LYING. I don't know what to do about Brittany. As long as my son believes she's emancipated and 17, he'll do fine on a polygraph.

Which is why I'm a friggin hermit. I can't draw on loyalties. Minors always take presidence even if they're not my own. I can't let her live on the street because her mom fails to step up (they get into fist fights so mom probably welcomes the break!)... and my son was stupid enough to get himself in trouble and he can always move out. There's still the homeless shelter. If people have options, they should use them- even if the options suck.

I just don't get people. Brittany went on and on about how she "stood up to" the cop because he was being rude and disrespectful to her. I'm sorry but no. She and my daughter were in the wrong. I feel if someone is in the wrong, they should just suck it up and not cause themselves more trouble. And they've been ranting about the couple who takes them to work. The girl ended up in the hospital overnight for a sinus infection and dehydration (she's pregnant). Brittany, especially, went on and on about how messed up that young woman is and I'm thinking "they give you a ride to and from work. suck it up. Show some gratitude."

I just don't know anymore...

Minor rant here, just stressed. Just took a test (think I did ok), have two quizzes tomorrow and a huge genetics test Thursday which I really really think there is a high likelihood of me failing (which, let's be honest, is totally my fault), so now I need to cram like mad. Then I also have various homework assignments and a Spanish oral exam that I'm stressing over, then tons of papers, tests, quizzes, homeworks, etc until finals next month. There's just so much in such a short amount of time, I'm having a tough time dealing. But deal I must.

And so we go.

Edit: As a side note I've found that studying + exercise is a really effective combo for me. Memory is better when studying is done in chunks first off, and I need something to break up the monotony. Exercise gets out pent-up frustration and boredom, and when I'm done I want to sit again. Then I study more and on the cycle goes. I'm glad I finally figured this out, even if it is a little late for tons of school use. Not to mention it's productive and healthy. So there. Suck on that, stupid boring genetics textbook.

Advice to some idiots out there....MONEY DON'T SOLVE YUH PROBLEMS!!

Originally Posted by hathor28

Advice to some idiots out there....MONEY DON'T SOLVE YUH PROBLEMS!!

Unless of course your problem is having a shortage of money, or one might be dealing with other idiots in which case money most certainly solves your problems.

I only post here when I'm drunk

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

Unless of course your problem is having a shortage of money, or one might be dealing with other idiots in which case money most certainly solves your problems.

Ya but what i was trying to say is, people use money to feel superior to others....i hate that/those kind of people, they should go to hell.

First of all, NO one can tell me who i can or cannot be friends with....don't matter who you are you can't tell me shit.....people who do that are controlling people. Go on and be friends with people i don't like...i don't care...at least im not low enough to keep ex's as friends. >_> You do your thing and i do mine and keep it that way! If you can't keep it that way...then bye.

I think I'm gonna get some kind of chronic disease soon. It's really horrible how I pay absolutely no attention to my body.
The least I could do was kind of quit alcohol (or just reduce intake at least), but that has caused me to overeat and drink too much other shitty stuff like soda and water. Although I know what I should be doing (I have it all worked out), I can't seem to get the motivation to get off my computer chair. I'm damned useless and it's really annoying.

This is the rant thread, right?

I am so awake I thought it was 1:15PM for a moment

I slept from around midnight til 5:30Am yesterday then went back to bed at 6:30 and slept until 11 Without Provigil there is no hope for me having any sort of normal schedule.

I'm working on my second ball of plarn. Boy it's time consuming! But I'm catching up on Game of Thrones. It's a shared website my son found and the quality is horrendous. I can't even tell the people apart sometimes. But it is bootlegged and I am able to get the gist of what's going on so I'm thankful for it I'm just about to finish season 2. I really had hoped the young King would be dead by now!!

I couldn't afford my Celexa today. My period should have started on the 7th. Now that I'll be missing a couple of days I'm afraid of the pain that usually comes with failing to take my meds when my cycle arrives.. blah. My period is almost never late. I don't know what's going on with that. I might have myself stressed about it because I've gotten horribly sick at the end of my last 2. Maybe the stress is the factor (but it's not REAL stress just a "hurrumph, I wonder what plague I'll come down with THIS month " sort of thing)

In the 10 minutes or so that I've been working on this post (kids kept interrupting) I went from wide awake to dead-to-the world. I think I'll go back to bed now...

Nicromno. I know that frustration VERY well lol *sigh* Hope you discover the secret! Be sure to share it if you do

Blah. My nipples have felt like a baby's been chomping on them for several days now. And now I have cramps... but still no cycle The cramps are from caffeine though and not from a lack of Celexa (different sort of cramps). I have to take my son to counseling this evening so I really hope things start before then (instead of waiting until I'm 2 hours away from a restroom!!!!)

A rave is... well, no cycle It's a love/hate thing
Also, Brittany decided to move back in with her grnadmother in case she's to get sent off. At least she's no longer talking about killing herself!! I told her Placement isn't all that bad. Unlike the psych wards her mother tends to send her to.
I'm also glad there's one less person in the household and that I don't have to worry about my hubby and son.

Another rave is that our 5 kittens are so stinking cute. But the rant in that is well... 5 new mouths to feed. Paulie's missing though. I don't know where our male ran off to. Another rant about the kittens is that 3 of them have eye colds. Why do all of our kittens get those? We clean them with a damp cloth and it eventually clears on its own. But what causes it? It's gross.

The Office Manager called for me to come in and sign tax forms... and I asked her to find me 2 proofs of residency. I'm going to use the Office as my home address as hubby does. It seems like the much simpler route!

Another rant is that one of my kids took a sip from one of my small soda's in the fridge. I buy them their own sodas and when those are gone, they have tea to drink. They like tea. I don't. The worse thing is that none of them will friggin admit it. They lie and say "it wasn't me". Well, it was one of you I thanked Miley once for admitted it was her, several months ago. I just told her to lay off. So I doubt it was her. My other 2 claim they don't "like" Coke.
I don't get angry (as in scream, belittle, threaten). Why lie about something so friggin stupid *rage* I simply tell them to knock it off and leave my drinks alone. I'm mad about the lying.

A rave is that I just finished season 2 of Game of Thrones. Awesome! One of the better quality links actually worked for the last episode which was even better!

A rant is that I'm ready to go back to bed, but I can't because I have to fill out that paperwork...

It's a mixed emotions kind of day

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I would actually love that, can we make this happen?

I just googled some beaches in Melbourne and they look quite amazing to be honest.
If you can show me beaches like that, I'm totally up for it haha

Hm, not sure where those are. But looks like somewhere around the coast near the city.

How would you feel about these?





I know a bunch of little secret beaches around there which you have to climb/jump over a bunch of big rocks to get to.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

There are so many amazing places in the world, even considering you have a narrow preference (like that there must be nice beaches). It's kind of an odd phenomenon that people seem to latch onto one particular place, like they're denying there's anywhere better and that one place is perfect for them. Everyone seems to do it. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with wanting to go to Australia, or Canada or Costa Rica or Japan or whatever it is. But it's just that there are SO MANY places in the world. Some have amazing atmospheres that are literally non-explainable until you experience them yourself. I know this after being to only a few places, so I feel I must not grasp the truth of it. So this is just a kind of observation. I fall for it too. I absolutely love Costa Rica and whenever I imagine living somewhere 'perfect', I imagine living there. But realistically, there are probably places I'd prefer that I've never even heard of. I mean I've never even been out of North/Central America. I've never even been anywhere in Canada besides BC (wait, I literally just realized that isn't true anymore, damn I used to take a sort of pride in being able to say that!).

It's just odd how when you grow up somewhere it becomes mundane, no matter how exotic it is to other people. Like tommo actually lives in the amazing place Crashy wants to go, with beautiful beaches, hot weather (for me hot weather, large bugs and nature sounds when you go outside rather than the sound of constant planes taking off are vacationy things. I can hardly even imagine them being part of normal life... It would be like being on vacation all the time). Yet tommo actually wants to move elsewhere eventually, because he's so used to it. I don't really have a point to this, just rambling.

Hehe, yeah I want to move to Canada, haha
Well that's one place anyway.
The other two are Iceland (which is almost impossible to get residence in) or New Zealand.

I do appreciate the environment here more and more though. It's just that there are places which are not at all like anything you can find here.
And I want to them, so much....
Mainly dense rainforests, pristine wilderness (like Iceland), volcanoes, hot springs etc.

But yeah, I get what you mean. Which is why I've started to appreciate the everyday things. I realised even our suburbs are pretty damn forest-y.

Sometimes as I'm driving back home, coming down this hill, I see mountains surrounding the area and trees everywhere, with houses and cleared areas only taking up about 10% of the landscape. And it's beautiful, really beautiful. But you just don't see it when you're in it, everything is concrete and "development" and boring, cliche gardens, and shops and parking lots etc. etc.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I really need to do productive stuff now. And not go back on reddit for another hour after hitting send. My regular morning procrastintion is ruining my life. By the time I get home from my walk at 2 pm or whatever, I'll feel it's so late there's no point in even trying to be productive. And that career fair tomorrow... I'm not even going to go into that.

Ever since I heard it, one line from this songs always sticks out in my mind.
And it's only become more prominent when I think of getting on the internet to do mindless crap first thing in the morning.
Not a fantastic song, but that one line always enters my head in the morning if I think about just zoning out on the net.


"Looking for a better way to get up out of bed instead of getting on the internet"

Eventually it motivated me to just focus on reality, and remember I can get on the the internet to chill later in the night if I have time.

Not that the internet isn't part of reality, but it really does just waste your time if you let it.
Do I really need to see that picture that's been reposted 17 times in the last month?
Do I really need to read another stupid pun thread?
etc. etc.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tommo. As much as those girls speak their language around you, have you picked up any of it? It would be so funny if you just started speaking it one day when they're trying to be all private and secretive

Yeah I have. One time I was like "I could tell what you were talking about then" and one of them asked what and I said it.
And she said I was right.

I mean I only know like 10 or 20 words or so. Mostly I can tell by the body language etc.
As well as some words they don't have Lankan words for, so they just say the English word lol
So yeah I can kind of pick up the gist of some of it if I bother even listening. Which I don't really these days. Obviously.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

I'd go to Australia if I could right now. Ugh though, one time I took a piss at a crack and a black widow crawled out and I nope, nope noped the fuck out. I imagine Australia would be like that every day.

Yeah man, I fight for my life every day. I'm surprised I've survived this long.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

rofl, OP. Australia might not be the place for you then Then again, I'm sure they get a lot of hype. I'm sure it's safe in the cities. Tommo?

Lol yep, exactly.

Even in the country it is safe.

If you want somewhere dangerous, it would be South America.

Australians hype up the danger way too much.
We *do*, I think, have the most poisonous/venomous animals of any country, but 99% of them will avoid you at all costs.
Even the Cassowary which could kill you with ease and is insanely aggressive, will be gone before you even know it's there, which is why you rarely see them. They just avoid you.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

My rant is that my e-juice is starting to bug me. My mouth tastes like butthole again Next will come the hunger. I fill my clearomizer about 3-4 times a day. Is that an extreme amount?

How many mL's is it? Seems about normal to me.
If you vape a juice with almost all glycerin, it last's longer.

I've gone back to cigs mostly for now. Tbh the only reason I quit was coz of Lankan girl, so no point vaping anymore with all the hassle, except for the money savings and health benefits of course. Although I'd probably still be vaping anyway if e-cigs were better.
I didn't have a lighter the other day, but brought my e-cig with me. The atomizer was all clogged so I took the wick off to use the coil as a lighter for my analog cigarette. And.... jesus.... it looked horrible. It was so gunked up with crap, the wick was falling apart and full of.... I don't know what.
Just makes me wonder how healthy they really are.
I'm 99.9999999999% sure they're healthier than analogs cigs. But with all the flavours which leave so much residue in the atomizers.... I mean, what is it? Who the hell knows. And *some* of it is going in to my lungs....

Eh, anyway.... we still need better e-cigs. Maybe with some sort of filter which only lets nicotine and vapour through or something.

Rave: Did that presentation. Was pretty easy. I started getting that shaky voice half way through, so I coughed, chuckled, breathed and continued.

I skipped a few cool things that I wanted to talk about, as I usually do. But I did alright, remembered what I had to say and didn't look at my notes for too long. And got a laugh out of my zombie jokes in there lol. Although no one got my Inception reference.

That teacher I was talking about, after I finished said "good, tom".

Just warmed my cold heart....
I've literally never gotten a compliment in that way after a presentation.
There have been the usual sympathy compliments due to my obvious sucking lol
But I dunno.... the way she said it was so nice.

I feel like we're the same in a lot of ways. Kind of autistic, but not autistic, like me and Dianeva were talking about a while ago.
She doesn't bother with formalities, like "how are you?" etc. She says "hi tom" and that.... but then straight to the issue at hand. I like that.
She.... calms me I guess.
I feel like I can be just totally socially inept/disregard formalities and social niceties etc. and she's not gonna be judge me for that like pretty much everyone does.

I'm wondering now whether my attraction to shy/quiet/calm or free-spirited girls is related to that.
Maybe it's just that desire to not be constantly judged for being fucking weird.

And it's not just that negative judging. A lot of the time people think I don't like *them*.
Like in the labs people will try to talk to me while I'm focusing on doing whatever we have to do, and I pretty much just completely ignore them.
Sometimes I'll half-recognise that they're talking to me/asking me something, but it's just not important enough or interesting to me to bother getting off track and responding to them, so without even thinking about it I just continue working and don't respond.

I guess most people just think about social acceptance maybe a bit too much.
I used to. I've always been the way I described, but even then I felt the need to be accepted by most people in general, even random people I walk past or whatever.

Now, I really just don't care, I don't even consider them.
Like the other day I saw a lizard on the path walking toward Uni and just stop to try and catch it.
Didn't even consider whether anyone would be like "wtf is this retard doing?" lol

Ugh.... I guess what I'm saying is I feel more comfortable about just being weird now, and I accept that I am just fucking weird.

I mean, what normal person tries to become conscious during their dreams?
Not a single one.

And I feel sorry for the people who have no real interesting in anything and just seek acceptance from others, and wouldn't even discover or consider anything unless a majority in their social group have started getting in to it.
There's so much amazing shit out there! How could you not be interested in any of it?

Originally Posted by tommo

Hm, not sure where those are. But looks like somewhere around the coast near the city.

How would you feel about these?





I know a bunch of little secret beaches around there which you have to climb/jump over a bunch of big rocks to get to.

Those beaches look absolutely amazing. Do you live close to them?

And about the pictures I used. The first one is a picture of St Kilda's beach and the second one is called Elwood beach? I'm not completely sure though.
But I think that's what they're called.

Now that I think about it, I did survive the amazon with its Chicken Spiders and Bullet Ants and stuff. I survived sleeping outside in the south for months. Australia can't be worse.