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Still Sick

I continue down the stone walkway, and to the front of a two story gray stone building. I understand that I need to enter to attend some sort of committe meeting with several other people. I approach the front area, and am standing between two brick pillars in the front when something feels strange. I see a DC cross the path and noseplug. I become lucid. The vividness of the dream becomes very very high, and is close to waking life. My awareness becomes very high as well. I clap very hard twice and hear the sound reverberate throughout the dreamscape. I shout 'stabilize' right after in a commanding voice. I briefly have the idea of heading into the building, but immediately reason that the plot is a complete waste of time. I begin to work my memory for some dream goals, and am very happy with how easily I can recall all the goals I wrote as well as thought about before bed. I have quite a few at this point, and even think about my previous LD of the night and consider finding another dream beast to tame. I begin walking, then take flight to look at the surrounding. I'm in a large outdoor plaza area, mostly made of light colored stone, during the daytime. There are several tall palm trees in the area, and a two story building in the middle of the plaza qutie a few yards away. Large buildings sit on the outskirts of the plaza, and a few cars are off in the distance. I begin flying a bit higher, and am loving the feel of my control; I can really feel the movement of my dream body gliding effortless through the air in the direction of my choice. I decide to incorporate some slow back flips in order to practice flight skills. I take one, and am impressed by the spinning of the dream scene, and the feel of my dream body as my sense of proprioception raises slightly. I take another right after. I land back on the ground, and begin to think about a couple of sivason's dream journal entries from the previous night. I look down at my vivid right hand and begin to get ready to cast a fireball. I try to feel energy charging in the open palm as I raise my hand. Nothing. I try for some lighting with an outstretched arm, but no luck. I decide I'll probably need more visual work for impressive effects. I decide to reach for an out-of-sight dream item figuring it'll be easy. I think about a crossbow, but reason that it's too big. I go for a gunslinger's revolver, and reach to my back pocket. Nothing comes out, but I make a shooting motion anyway, and see a bullethole appear in high up on the wall of the the gray building in the distance. I fly for a bit longer, toward the other side of the plaza, and skip forward to the interior of the building on the outkirt of the plaza. I find myself coming into a large room of what appears to an elementary school. I see all the students sitting in wooden chairs in group of four at a table. I begin engaging my sense of awareness very strongly. I repeat to myself 'I'm aware inside of a dream right now!' as my awareness comes to a very high level. I remember another goal of simply simulating one of my frequent DILD occurances of simply levitating upward. I recreate the experience, with very good control of the levitation. I continue excitedly telling myself that I'm aware inside of a dream as I look around, really being blown away by the level of awareness, and wanting to reaffirm it to myself I decide to what the 'dream feel' feels like in the present moment and enter a very mindful state. It feels very similar to practicing Sageous's reverse reality check. I continue for a moment, then remember another dream goal I wrote down. I think breifly of going to a lucid chocolate shop, but ignore that goal. I decide to go for another. I begin to ask a child DC what my greatest source of happiness is, but the dream quickly ends midway through the question. I have a very brief semi-FA experience where I hear the re-creation of my alarm going off for work. I ditch idea of initiating a DEILD and decide to get up right away. I look at the clock with a RC, and realize I still have about 30 mins to sleep.

I find myself in a white void with heightened awareness. I do a noseplug and I become lucid. I understand that a dream is about to begin from this state, and want to give it a jump start. I begin trying to visualize some shape and colors, yet nothing vivid is created. I few darker curved figures begin appearing as I try to envision a DC, but nothing solidifies. I decide to simply meditate for the time being. I cross my dream legs that I become aware of, and enter a mindful absorption. A thought goes through my mind that this feels like a waking life mindfulness meditation. After a few minutes, I begin to see a rectangular figure appearing. It gradually begins forming into a sliding glass door. A dream scene eventually fills out, and I have the thought that the sliding glass door probably leads to the backyard area in M Street. With the brief thought, I phase through the glass, and find myself in the backyard of M Street...of course. I'm really enjoying the moment outside on the back patio. The vividness of the dream is very very high, and my mental presence is quite high. I'm very happy just being there. I decide not to stabilize. I remember one of the dream goals of simply walking through a dream-scape slowly, without flying, and simply taking in my surroundings. I feel very grounded and stable in the dream, and love the feeling of actually walking slowly and deliberately through the lucid. I appreciate the small blue tree in front of me which resembles a pine. As I wind around the right turn by the pool, I stare at the dark blue water and the ripples. I think back to sivason journal from the previous night and decide to simply lay down a bit farther down on the pavement and stare up at the stars. I head a bit farther, lay down, and simply gaze up. It feels very similar to stargazing in real life, just more...surreal! It's very relaxing. I get up after a few moments and continue walking around the pool. I reach the other side and lay down once more. I see a small black figure several yards ahead and think of how great it would be to have an astral animal companion in LDs. As I am nearly in a supine position. I am aware of a stealthy,lithe, dark beast - resembling a panther - growl in a deep tone with low volume as it comes by the left side of my head. I notice very thin, light green swerving patterns throughout it's body. The head does not have clearly defined eyes. I actually feel my heart take a sudden pound. I'm aware it's my waking life body responding to the powerful presence of the beast, and quickly affirm to myself that it's just a dream and my entire body calms. I begin to raise and intuitively understand how to tame the dream beast. I stick my hand out and to the right to where the beast is making its way around. As my hand comes out, I intuitively change a two syllable tribal chant in a commanding tone. My head turns as I say this, and I catch a glimpse of the beast. I understand the taming command has been successful. I find myself a few yards up the path all of a sudden, yet the beast is no longer present. I enter a white void for a short period wake up briefly.
*and go for a DEILD