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Dream From Jan 6 '14:
it is day, though overcast.
that's not odd for January, but Newcastle can be tropical.
the location is the public housing units in Hamilton South, in Fowler Street, at the Beaumont Street end.
im outside, at the letterbox, or near the steps that lead to unit 1, and the other units in block 6.
the weather, being overcast, is like that of winter, in the middle of summer.
in the ground, between the block of where unit 1 is, and the block where my unit is, there is a garden.
the garden is parallel to fowler street.
looking at the garden, the design of it, is like an iced vovo biscuit.
as i look west, fowler street is to my left, and beaumont street is behind me.
there are flowers, vegies, or something else growing in the garden.
as for the garden bed, i can't see it.
there is a soaker hose to my right, and there is water from it, going onto the garden towards fowler.
although im standing away from the garden, at the east end of it, the garden doesn't get my attention.
the hose gets my attention.
there could be a thin/narrow concrete path, between the two rows of the garden.
as for what is being grown in the garden, it could be flowers or vegie, or something else, but not sure what.
where i am, im out the front of unit 13.
although overcast, im not really sure why the hose is on, and watering the garden.
as for who put the hose there and turned it on, i don't know; it wasn't me.
what i do know, is that i want to run through the water.
as for any drizzle, i can't smell any, nor do i feel any.
well, i don't run through the water, because my cell phone could in my left hand, though i could put it away or turn it.
something is in my left hand.
well, i have something separately, in both hands.
there is a basketball in my right hand, and i grip it like that of the NBA.
because of the two items, i don't want to run through the water, and get my phone wet.
well, i may end up going through the water, to get it out of my system, though i don't recall doing that.
and i don't recall getting wet.
regardless, i do see the garden from unit 13.
so, i raise my right hand, and see the basketball there, attached to my fingertips.
and then i decide to check out the other unit blocks.
so, i go past block 6, towards darling street, which is to my right, and north.
to my right, is a section of grass that leads towards darling street.
the grass is like that of a corridor between buildings, and is about 10 metres long, by 2 metres wide, going away from me.
so, while walking the corridor, i bounce the basketball.
while doing so, i do a left handed lay up, against one of the brick walls of either building.
"oh well" for anyone who is bothered by me doing that.
after the lay up, i look into a unit, to my left, along this corridor.
the unit is ground floor.
not sure a door is open, or whether a window is open, because i can see a young woman in her bed, with a blanket or quilt over her.
can only see the back of her, and she is on her right side.
her light is off, but seeing her in bed, is odd, due to the time.
and i can't hear her sleeping.
the woman is not known to me.
the quilt or blanket design, looks like a blue pattern.
given the lack of light, i can see her quite well.
maybe she is sick, or sleeping it off.
so it must be that i have accidently seen her.
her mattress is in a frame.
she is a few metres from me, but close enough.
so i continue walking.
in another unit, to my left, which i can see inside, because another door or window is open.
there is another young woman, sitting on her bed, studying, with her feet on the floor.
a bedside table light is on, which is to her left.
she is, or could be studying with a laptop, on a small wheeled table.
she is of course, sitting, facing to my right, though i see her right side and almost the front of her.
could be wearing pjs.
she is a few metres from me, but close enough.
the woman doesn't see me, or wouldn't know that im outside and can see her.
and so, i keep going.
and i can see inside another unit, which is like the one im in.
there is mattress like mine.
there is no bed sheet on it, but there is a pillow, at the head end.
a blanket or quilt is on it, but as a pile.
perhaps the bed is not made properly by the tenant.
looking to my right there is a bed side table or a chest of drawers.
the mattress though has my attention, as to why the bedsheet isn't under the pillow.
then i leave from there, and away from the direction of darling street, back towards my unit.
as i step back along this corridor, from that mattress unit, i see there is a stove on the grass.
the stove is upright, and on an angle.
its to my right as i go past it.
according to the top switches, the red light is on and one of the hot plates is on.
strangely none of the flour hotplates are one, nor are the covers.
and there is no smell.
the grill and oven are both shut.
somehow, this stove is plugged into a lead outside from somewhere.
thats a puzzling.
why is a stove outside, and why is it plugged in, to a power lead?
and im the only person who can see this, so i can't ask anyone.
there is a brick wall of a unit, to my left.
i dont take another step back towards my unit, because the scene changes.
next, im fishing over a concrete pipe, in a small creek near a small bridge.
it is day.
this could at the Peel river, along Scott Road, near the velodrome.
using a rod, i bring up a small muddy looking eel.
the eel is about the length of my hand.
then i see that im in dad's boat, with him.
it is day.
we are both near the front hull.
dad is to my left, and im facing left.
we are sitting, almost hip to hip.
the seat could be a bench seat.
my legs aren't crossed.
the water where we are, is clear, with a green tinge.
where we are, is not known, nor is the depth of the water.
im holding a fishing rod, which is red, and regular length.
so i let the line down into the water, as i hold the spool piece.
on my line, or on the hook, is a really small caramel coloured cube with the yy pattern on it.
dad has already lowered his line in, which i don't see him do.
so i hold the line with my finger, at the spool.
i let the line go down further, before bringing it back up.
the water depth is still not known.
so i lower the line again.
with his left hand, dad helps me with the spool.
what, like i don't know how?
i say to him "you teach me, surprisingly!"
then i lower the line again.
this time im puzzled.
either, my bike is on the line as i let the line down, or bring the line back up, with the bike attached to the hook.
it attached via a cable between the seat and the handle bar.
eh?
so, i turn the rod to my left, and lower the bike into the boat, like that of netting a fish.
and do so in front of dad, who doesn't object to me doing that.
how does the bike fit in the boat?
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Oct 12 '14:
Despite not entering a comp, or even knowing what the comp is, i have won a CD from Rhema Newcastle.
Although i can or am due to collect the prize from the station, the CD seems to be in the right leg pocket of my cargo shorts already.
That's before or after i see the CD my hands.
It looks like the Killing Heidi ep cover, which is blue.
And, i see that im in Adamstown Heights along the Pacific Highway, because Ocean View Street is to my left, during the day (?)
Next, and daytime.
Am at the Nioke Place and Madison Drive intersection, there in Adamstown Heights.
Im on the south side of that intersection, being at Nioke Place.
Im standing on the corner of Nioke, looking at the road of the Pacific Highway, with Nioke to my right.
Im standing on that corner, ready to cross the road, over to Madison Drive.
In the path or kerb where i am, there is a dip, to use for a traffic light pedestrian crossing.
To my left, is the pole and button, to press, for pedestrians to use the crossing.
There are people over on the north side, at the Madison Drive corner, so i don't press the button to cross.
As for the Pacific Highway, there are two Newcastle bound lanes, of cars.
The cars have stopped at the traffic light, which i see on the west side, and are Newcastle bound.
One lead car, is a white sedan, which i see the driver side of.
Although the pedestrian crossing light is red, i see my former TAFE teacher, for carpentary, cross the road to halfway, from north to south, while its a red pedestrian light.
He is a Christian, with a moustache.
His car rego when he was my teacher, was his personalised number plate.
His name is David, but his surname starting with M, escapes me.
His car was a brown Volvo station wagon.
I step to my right, into the kerb gutter.
I would cross on the red, but i wait for the green, so i can cross "legally".
In my hands are one or two pages of a4 paper.
Its folded, with the paper edge in my hands and the fold part away from hands.
As i cross, i try to unfold it, but i either refrain, or simply can't unfold it.
Looking at the paper, there is some text typed on it.
One word near the fold is upside down and i can't quite read what it says.
Is it a prescription for headache tablets or other medication.
Is it a typed referral letter ?
I look at it as i cross and don't see Mr DM or other people.
The dream ends, when my alarm for church wakes me.

here is a link for the video.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOJd2tJGgnU


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Dream From Dec 26 '14:
the location is a parking lot, like a ground level carpark, with multiple spaces.
or, its a set of rear to kerb parking spaces in a main street somewhere; possibly like that of Warners Bay, on the east side of the esplanade, facing Lake Macquarie.
its where the shops are.
my back is to the screen, and im looking south.
the cars are parked a few metres from me.
they are parked at 45 degree angles, rear to kerb.
i see the front left of a white car, parked between a van and another vehicle.
the white vehicle, is a two, or four door.
Jula's daughter, Angel, is standing, then crouching, at the drivers door of the white sedan.
her face is clear to me, but not close, though i know its her.
the driver door is open, or is opened so she can talk to the driver.
angel wants to know about a horse.
she may ask about the horse, or a horse, up to two times.
i don't hear her ask the question, but i know she is asking about a horse.
the driver doesn't answer, nor does anyone else.
i envisage the horse as being in a paddock, and not as a race horse; it maybe a retired race horse.
the horse is grey, or white.
so, since she doesn't get an answer to her question, i want to help her.
i don't approach her, but stay where i am.
i want to approach, or i would have to, to ask her my question, because i don't want to shout from where i am.
im about to take a step to approach her when the dream suddenly ends.
im still in dream mode, but awake when i ask her my question.
so, i whisper the question, which is "what do you want to know?"

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Nov 25 '14:
this starts with me having left an office like room.
i have left the office after completing a mission as an astronaut.
the US Government had chosen me to complete the mission.
im walking with Nick Stahl, who is to my left, towards an elevator.
we have the choice of two elevators.
its from here onwards, that i see what occurs.
he presses the button for us, to go down, to ground level.
where the buttons are for the elevator, i lean against the wall with my back to the wall.
the elevator to my left, opens a split second before the one to my right does.
as i get in the elevator, Nick asks me do i want to catch up for dinner or something.
as the door closes, i say that ill consider.
and then it closes.
then i lean against the wall with buttons on it, but against the handrail on the wall.
the door is to my left.
on the inside of the door is a pattern, like a pipe screensaver.
its gold, and it something like the pattern.
then i tilt my head, to deal with vertigo, and close my eyes a couple of times to do so.
although an elevator, i don't feel the sensation of going down.
im not stuck, but the sensation seem implied.
as i look in front of me, at the opposite wall, i see a floor to ceiling window.
there is no frame, and its all one piece.
and i still keep my head tilted.
the elevator now seems tilted to my right, hence the tilt of my head.
although in an elevator, its no longer one of those.
and i don't even really know what is happening.
seems a subtle change has occured, so subtle, that i don't notice.
i can see outside this window, and it is day.
well, it seems im in a NASA space orbiter, flying above the water surface of what could be the Hunter River, there in Hexham, going south to Newcastle.
and, there is another orbiter next to mine, to the left of mine, but a few millimetres behind mine.
that is so peculiar.
they must be tilted down slightly, at the front.
and thats what is causing my vertigo, while im standing.
i can see some grass, on the other side of the orbiter.
we are of course, flying from my left, to my right.
the speed isn't "flat chat" but fast all the same.
its not like that of 60 in a 60km zone, nor 100 in a 60km zone.
the orbiters are probably one to two feet off the water surface.
wow, and it seems so "normal" for that to occur.
we could be going back to the NASA base, like that of a return to earth briefing.
thats a guess.
next, and daytime.
i see im in a jeep like vehicle (a military one), and with soldiers.
there is a jeep in front of me as well.
we are one a two way highway, which curved subtley to my right.
its about 3 degrees off centre from a 90 degree angle.
we are travelling south that i know of.
then i see an orange chevy camaro convertible overtake us on unbroken white lines.
its Liam from room 3. (Catherine Street, Waratah West)
he has apparently gone rogue.
he gets a few metres in front of the jeep thats in front of me.
as he overtakes, he may fire guns at us from guns under his car.
or he does that from in front of us.
either way, he shoots at us.
the screen follows him like a low fly over.
the guns are automatic, with the long necks.
not sure he hits the vehicles.
he may get some soldiers.
not sure i get shot in the arm.
then Liam stops on the left side of road.
the jeep disappears.
i join Liam on the side of the road, but down a short enbankment, which i step down.
he is out of his vehicle, on the side of road, just above me.
the enbankment is covered by old trees, which i am surrounded by.
the ground is white, but not snow.
its like marble, but could be sandy or sandstone, but certainly not quicksand.
there is some grass, and some dirt.
i step around some of the trees.
i see Liam, to my left.
i want to chat to him or talk to him, like that of a negotiation.
why that is, i don't know.
i stand next to one tree to protect/guard myself from him, not that he's gonna do anything.
seems he won't do anything, and he seems fine anyway.
not sure he has a handgun.
then Gibbo arrives.
he steps down the enbankment towards me, but not straight away.
he isn't aggressive, but he does want to hit me.
so i stand with tree in front of me.
Gibbo approaches me as i see him from behind the tree.
he lifts his shorts up, because he is such a large sized man.
he does have a beard and moustache.
i say to Gibbo, that he can hit me all he likes but i want to protect myself.
and, i wake before he gets to hit me.

any comments or questions?

Dream From Oct 14 '14:
its night time.
the location is a house, which im inside.
either im renting, or im paying it off, as my own.
the time is after 21:00/9pm.
the night time could be a bit cool; nights here in Newcastle can be cool in spring, towards summer.
the inside lights are dim, though i can see a bit of inside.
then, i decide to go outside, to do one or two things.
the front door, is parallel to the street i live in.
it must be a suburban street.
so, i go out the front, and stand on the lawn.
so, i stand on the front path, which leads out to the mailbox.
as i stand outside, the front security light turns on.
there are steps to the front door like that of (my Catherine Street address)
the lawn may've been mown recently.
to my left, is a two path driveway.
the front light is shining over the rear of it.
to my right, is the rest of the lawn.
one room is protruding forward from the house.
although the light is not getting past that wall onto the lawn, im pretty sure the wall is weatherboard.
i think i want to check the mail, and the power box, which, is on the not driveway side of the house
but i stay standing and looking at doorway, though the light is getting my attention.
as i think about what to do, a young woman appears from the dark side of the house.
she is Winsome D's daughter.
i know its the daughter, by her physique.
she doesn't even startle me.
she doesn't say anything, she just appears.
and then i see that we are both inside.
we are in the hallway of the house, which is wide enough for two people.
its like pop's in Arinya Street, where it starts at the front door, goes straight for a metres, and then turns right, to go to kitchen.
this one thought, doesn't turn right.
the lights inside are on, but are rather dim.
its almost a black and white scene, with some colour light.
near the front door, but on my left side as i walk away from front door to go further inside, is a buffet like mine.
she is wearing a white buttoned blouse, with an unbuttoned red cardigan over it.
i can only see the shoulder part of her upper arms and just below her neck.
her blouse us buttoned, all the way up to the collar.
surprisingly, i don't see her face, yet.
she has two small packages.
they are plastic, with a gold pattern on them*
in these two packs are plain white square envelopes.
she puts them on the buffet and steps past me.
the two packs, are one on top of the other, flat.
she is at other end of the hallway standing, but not looking at me.
is she looking at a mirror?
is she simply having a look around?
i go over to the buffet and lift the top package up with its left edge on bottom pack.
i look for her name on bottom side of top pack.
she sees me do this and says "hey!" and i put it back down.
then i see us in what could be the living room.
going by the drawing, it would be where the kitchen was, in pop' Arinya address.
im standing in front of a corner piece of furniture; is it another buffet?
there seems to be more than one in this place.
my back is to the corner and i see her to my right, heading towards me.
the light is on, and i see her face, a bit clearer.
she steps towards me, as though she used to live here.
her body language gives me that vibe.
is she visiting, to see what the place looks like?
she stands to my right as i face the corner.
i get to the point.
i ask her "ok, what is your name, and what is your age?"
wearing what appears to be a skirt, her answer is "well, Philippians 4:8".
so i jokingly say to her "is that your age?"
she snorts, like that of a laugh.
what i don't do, is look at her as i talk to her.
and thats not avoidance, its so i can concentrate.
well, i hear her voice, so thats a plus.
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

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Dream From Dec 21 '14:
seeing a woman, sitting on a two seater lounge.
she is sitting upright, and on the left side of the seat.
i am standing behind her, and look down to her.
she is wearing a green tee.
i only see the back of her, so i don't know who she is.
her hair is short and black.
to her right is a three legged wooden light stand.
the cover of the light is like a plastic bowl.
the lampstand is about 1.5 metres high.
its upside down, with the light at the floor, and the feet above the woman's head.
im not sure a power lead is attached to it.
i see the stand like that, so im guessing the woman didn't turn it upside down.
ah yes, apparently the lightstand wants to get into forensics.
or, does this mean the woman wants to get into forensics?

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Dec 21 '14:
it is daytime.
it could be winter.
im sitting in the grandstand in an AFL Stadium, for an AFL game.
it could be winter, because on the ground, to my right, half of the stadium or half the ground is in shade.
to my left, in front of me, is sunshine on the ground.
there is a big crowd.
am with dad, close to ground level.
as for an AFL game being played, not sure of that.
i can't or don't see any players.
however, im guessing that the Hawthorn Hawks are playing.
it could be like the 2014 AFL Grand Final, when they played the Swans.
well, there may not be a game being played.
anyway, i turn to my left, and look up the grandstand.
flying above the ground, and some rows up, is a flock of seagulls.
for whatever reason, the Pelicans NBA team comes to mind.
the birds are definitely seagulls and not pelicans.
they are flying, like that of being at an AFL game.
not sure what they are after, because dad and i don't have chips.
then, thinking out loudly i jokingly say that "they'll win the next thousand wooden spoons (in the AFL)".
i know its the seagulls because of the Manly NRL team.
then, i turn around to my right.
a few rows behind me, i see a woman, and i think her folks.
they are all a bit vague to see, especially her.
she does look like the woman who sat next to NZ Warriors coach Daniel Anderson, in the 2002 NRL Grand Final.
is this woman, my lady?
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Dec 10 '14:
the location is similar to that of shopping world in tamworth.
i don't see myself enter the complex from the front entrance, from the carpark, or from any side entrance.
i do see myself enter big w, at the main entrance and not at the checkouts.
the lights are on.
the checkouts are on the front carpark side.
and the main entrance is on the shops side.
where i came from, may have been the carpark, because i turn left, to enter big w.
what i do know, is that i don't know why im even going to big w.
i have no plan, no intention, or thought to buy anything from there.
all i know, is that i enter the store.
i get as far as the first few steps inside.
the customer service counter is to my left.
the perfumes and women's products are to my right.
the floor isn't tiles that i know of, but its shiny or polished.
well, i only get about two steps inside when a swarm, mob perhaps of young people gather around and in front of me.
there are hundred's possibly thousands of people gathered in front of me.
ok, maybe not that many, but a lot have flocked to be in front of me.
they stand in a semi - circle and they are one metre from me, which is good because the space is necessary.
i think most are teens, boys and girls.
as for who any of them are, i have no idea, but they seem to know me.
some of them maybe wearing school uniforms; could be the Kotara sports uniform, which is worn on Wednesday.
these people have gathered of their own choice.
i havent done the Fonzie "finger click" and everyone gathers.
and i haven't demanded for them to gather in front of me.
i have done absolutely nothing, for them to gather in front of me.
all ive done is step inside the shop.
its as though my influence or something about me, has drawn them to me.
thats a first.
anyway, i say something to them.
my voice is like that of a young male, used in a computer game, or in an XBOX game.
my voice sounds funky, and could be from a motorbike game.
so, i speak to them, and, they do listen, but they don't question me.
i stretch my arm out in front of me, flat, to them, with my fingers pointing to them.
and i speak to them.
what i say to them, is not something i would say regularly to them.
its something, that i can only speak to them, just once.
im not a teacher, or someone of authority who interacts with them on a daily basis.
its not prophetic as such, but like that.
what i say, which i do hear but don't recall, is both effective for their response and their reaction to me.
instead of grumbling, they all smile, maybe nod, and decide there and then, to rectify what they have done in store, and/or to each other.
its as though i have spoken to their hearts.
and then i leave.
so i leave, and walk towards the corridor, towards the Woolworths end.
that walkway to the undercover carpark, is to my right.
again, there are some teens, possibly students from Kotara.
again, i point at them, not rudely, but with that influence.
i see one male, side on, right side.
he could be facing his girlfriend.
he is with 10 or more other people.
i say to him "you haven't paid for your food".
i thought he would've paid for it as he ordered it, and not after.
my voice is like an excited or enthused game show host.
he looks at me, smiles, rolls his eyes, and then proceeds to pay for his food.
that seems to trigger his mates to do the same.
not that i stay to watch it occur.
i don't recall going along the walkway but i may see woolies from about the donut shop, before the escalators at that end of the complex.
i don't recall pointing with all my fingers at anyone or a group of people.
i only see the takeaway shop, the one time.
as for big w, i may go inside, up to 3 times.
not sure i point to people in the complex and speak to them.
the words that i speak, aren't mine, so it must be the H.S speaking through me.
as for what i say, i don't recall everything that is spoken.
i guess its prophetic.
its stuff like "treat her right", "tuck your shirt in" etc.
it seems so basic and yet it has a profound effect on people.
i enter big w one final time, and see joseph at the doorway, near customer service.
people are gathered.
its like im a rockstar or someone.
Joseph is to my left.
he looks like that boy, who at age 3 or 4, was trained by his father, to do body building.
i see that Joseph is young, and has thin arms.
i jokingly say to him "i want you to do 20 billions push ups" on the spot.
i almost stumble or say another word when i say billion.
i say that, because joseph may have irritated a friend of his, which i didn't see.
i say it, as i think it up as i go along.
well, 20 billion pushups is way too many and would take a lot of time.
and i dont have time to watch.
and, im sure Joseph's arms arent up to it.
so, i get him to do ten instead.
he could do more and looks keen to do a lot, but 10 should do.
as for what i say, it was to the solution, and not to the fault.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From June 28 '14:
it is daytime.
the location or setting is that of Alma Road in Lambton.
the exact time isn't known.
whether it is summer or winter i don't know.
what i do know, is that im out the front of Leiluna or one of the shops on either side of it.
the bus stop is to my right, be it a few steps from me.
the school zone sign is to my left.
i think the Westpac Bank or another bank is across the road from me.
i know that the locale or that im looking diagonally up the road, and see the locale.
its external wall is yellow that i know, even though the sun is shining rather brightly on that wall.
the angle that i see the wall, is about 50 or 60 degrees, or whatever the angle is.
there could be cars parked along alma, on both sides.
where the double white line are, along the bitumen, to separate the east bound and west bound lanes, there is a rectangular section of green grass.
it goes from the Regent Street pedestrian crossing, down to about or in line with the bus stop, or possibly as bit further.
it doesn't go as far as the laneway.
the patch of grass, is about the width of a cricket pitch.
the grass is really green, good quality, and short.
at the crossing end of it, is that of a grey brick wall, made of thin grey rectangular construction bricks.
its a single thin wall, going across the width of the pitch.
its like the wall of an overpass, which is supposed to link Alma to Rugby over the Regent Street intersection.
the wall isn't tall, itd be about 1 - 1 and 1/2 metres tall.
it seems to make a momentary appearance.
it blocks my view of the primary school, but i can see up Rugby Road a little bit.
what i do knows, is that i want to, need to, not so much have to, perhaps can, go swimming or learn to swim.
to do that, it seems i can only turn right into Regent from Alma, going north.
i do know the leagues club, is around the corner to my right.
turning right isn't legalistic as such, but i think going up Rugby or even turning left into Regent, going south just wont work.
i know that the Indian Restaurant, and Dowling R/E are in Regent street.
what i do notice, is that the traffic lights for Alma, are different.
they start on the locale side, and take a design detour, to my side of the road.
then i see myself on the Rugby side, facing Alma.
im at the lights and in a car.
the grey wall isn't there.
and i don't look to my right, to see the school.
as with Alma though, not with swimming, i can only turn right, from Rugby into Regent, going south.
i guess i need to "see" the right turn from both sides.

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.. it is something like that.

Dream From Dec 17 '14:
it is day.
the location is Belmore Street, where the old Salvos premises are.
what i know is that ive been in the main hall for counselling, which has finished for the day.
and now im out the front.
apparently ive had counselling because i have abused my wife, and now my 14 year old daughter.
whether the counselling is because of bail conditions or whether my wife and i have chosen it ourselves as our own decision without external advise from anyone, i don't know.
well, i seem to know that counselling is the thing to do.
initially, while out the front of the Salvos, i think to myself that the counselling makes sense.
then it dawns on me.
er, i don't have an actual daughter.
and slap my forehead.
when was it, that i could have possibly "abused" my wife, and daughter?
the particular abuse isn't known, so i don't know what the abuse could be and i have no recollection.
so, i guess i haven't abused my wife, and daughter.
and now i want to talk to my wife.
there is a white 4wd ute out the front of Salvos, parked at 45 degree angle going left.
there is a y pattern metal case in the back of it.
the 4wd may belong to Christopher S.
so, i cross the road and see another 4wd ute, similar to the first one.
this one could belong to Rodney S.
then i go back to the church.
out the front of the accompanying house, to the left of that first ute, is a four door sedan.
in the back seat, is my wife, who i can see through the rear window.
i want to talk to her about the abuse.
although i don't see her get out of the sedan, she does walk with me, along Belmore Street, going south to Gipps Street.
i have convinced her that i have no recollection of any abuse towards her, and our daughter.
so, i ask Amanda W, Amy S, or another Salvos woman who i know, to be a witness to the chat of my wife and i.
the woman does join us, but is a few steps from us.
my wife and i go left, into Gipps Street, to a few metres along Gipps Street, and then left again.
we both, or i do, stop at a red lid wheelie bin.
my wife, who is facially quite attractive, is wearing a pair of black trousers, and a black tank top.
i see her side on, right side.
as for who my wife is, i don't know her.
is she from Coledale?
having repeatedly told her that i have no recollection of any abuse and that hence, she has joined me for a chat, i ask her "what happened to our marriage/relationship?"
she believes me or knows im right.
her answer to me is "our marriage at the start, was great before our daughter arrived, and then our relationship changed slightly".
well, the slight change is news to me.
plus, the number of years we have been married isn't known to me.
however, my wife and the witness, agree that i have been truthful.
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Nov 15 '14:
am in a room at end of a rectangular table, with other people.
that big bloke from Mayfield Eagle Boys gives us instructions about some forms to fill in for photo id tags.
he is wearing a polo shirt.
we have to get two forms from a cupboard (be it from on top) and one from the reception desk.
with our id, we fill in the forms, and then give them to the woman or whoever at the reception desk to do the rest.
one guy goes before me.
the reception is a corner design.
the cupboard is between reception and the table
so, i go to the cupboard and get the first form.
the cupboard has six small doors, and a gap in the middle **
the cupboard is a made of wood, and looks like my wooden book shelf backing.
i look in the gap for a second form, having gotten first one from on top.
ok, where is the second form?
is it on top and i missed it?
then apparently i find the second form.
then i go to the reception desk, which is to my left from cupboard.
and then i grab a third form.
reception desk has a raised section at front of it, for us to lean on.
the desk itself is a bit lower.
i see it side on with desk in front of me and front of desk to my left, goin away from me.
i see the woman, her left side.
i see the first guy ahead of me facing her with his form.
he is dark skinned and i see the right side of him.
i have all my forms and my licence.
i have filled in my forms, or maybe i want her to check them.
i don't staple the pages together.
and, i don't get to her, before the dream ends.

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Dream From Oct 25 '14:
the setting or location is that of a room in a conference centre or perhaps an RSL.
its a function room, for people to gather in for, a function.
the folding doors for this room, are to my left, and the windows are at back of room, to my right.
in the middle of the room are some tables, which are circular, and can sit up to about 6 people.
the function could be a reunion, or something similar to that.
sitting at one table, with his back to the windows, i see a man, (front view and left side), who looks like or is that of Gough Whitlam.
he passed away earlier this week.
i can see his face, so i know its him.
he is clean shaven, and looks about 50 years of age.
initially i see him by himself.
then, to his left, sitting next to him, is his twin or his replica double.
"he's beside himself".
this twin or double is also a "good" version of him.
there is a white square plate in front of him, with some pasta on it.
the top few strands seem to have pink on the top side of them.
every other strand is white.
then i see sitting opposite him, and facing him, is that woman in the mental health admin, who sits next to that Stephanie woman.
this woman is tall, slim, wears glassed and has long black hair.
she turns around to her right, looks at me, and smiles.
i can see her facial features.
not sure of her relationship to Gough Whitlam.
she is that Daya woman from the mental health admin.
does she represent a daughter figure, a girlfriend figure, a niece, a carer, or something else?
the lights seem to be on inside, even though i can see sunshine through the windows.
there could be some grass outside, regardless of any driveway, or any recreational facilities outside.
the wall colour inside, is a plain colour, such as white.
as for what the woman, and what Gough is wearing, not sure.
she could be wearing her work clothes.
are they in an rsl, or are they in an aged care facility?
the tables are a creamy colour, are stable, and designed for such a room.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Aug 26 '14:
it is daytime.
the location could be an industrial area, or an out of town area.
it reminds me of Carrington, being Cowper Street, towards Bourke Street.
the road is straight, and is smooth bitumen.
im standing on the south side, which is kerbless.
all of Cowper is kerbed, but in this, its kerbless on the south side, which doesn't surprised me.
im facing south, so, where i am standing, i look to my left, which is east - see drawing.
there are two side streets, the first one, being a few metres away from me.
the other street, is further still.
on my side of the road, is a police 4wd.
it ends up in the furtherest street from me.
the odd part, is that i don't see the 4wd do any turn, from my side, to the side street.
it just, ends up in that side street.
i see the left side of the 4wd, where its parked near the corner.
it has the alternating blue and white pattern.
then this repeats, but this time, the 4wd is in the side street, which is closest to me.
what is that about?
there could be, or is, a bullbar on the front of the 4wd.
and, it could be a Toyota, or other "make".
when i see it the second time, i think or know that the police are gonna wanna know what im doing.
next thing i know, a policeman is talking to me.
he is the copper, from nowhere boys.
and im with the boys from that same tv show.
the policeman doesn't interrogate us, he just asks what we are doing, and then he leaves.
so, there i am with the boys from that show.
we are discussing or trying to figure out what we are doing there and the how what when and why of this situation.
it takes us awhile but i think we reach an agreeable conclusion.
what i see is this:
along the side of this straight road, in the grass or ground, is an abandoned rail line.
although i don't quite see their faces of the boys, i know its them.
about where i am standing, under the rail line and in the ground, is a section of grey fine pieces of gravel.
to my left, there is a wooden cover over the rail line; its like that wooden section in the rectangular rock things along the foreshore - see drawing.
this cover is either over the rail line or its part of the rail line, causing the rail line to be raised up off the ground.
what i don't see, is the train track to my right.
as we discuss this situation, i seem to have a flashback in regards to what happened prior to us being here.
so in this flashback, its daytime.
im in the backyard of the Belmore Street Salvos premises and facing the back of the house.
on the ground, is a small soccer goal frame, which is about one foot high and one foot wide.
it looks odd.
and there is a goal keeper in front of it.
im sure i see two rectangular boxes, joined together at one end.
they are on the grass to my right.
although i dont see it happen, i kick a soccer ball into the goal.
and thats because i have the opportunity to do so.
other than that kick, the score isn't known, til later in the dream.
not really sure what the boxes are on the ground for.
as for the goal keeper, he looks dressed like a hockey goalie.
and he is wearing green trousers.
and then back to the rail line.
so, i look down into the gravel section.
are there some piece of glass in there, or are some of the gravel pieces reflecting the sun?
somehow, that goal scene makes it into our explanation.
not that i see, but those two cardboard boxes could be in the gravel section.
one of the boys says that his team lost to my team 20 - 19.
really ?
this is the first i knew of that.
there was only myself and the other guy, in my team.
well, whoever was in the team, with that goal keeper in the team, i dont know.
the guys are standing on both sides of the track.
then i look up to my left, past this train track to a roadside boundary fence.
its flyscreen material.
as i look at fence i see the girlfriend of the asian guy from the the show.
her friend or both her and her friend, are nearby.
then i look at flyscreen fence.
on the other side of the fence, on the inside boundary of the property, is the woman from go girls, on nitv.
she is the slim one.
despite not seeing her face clearly, i know which actress she is.
she maybe wearing denim jeans, not that i see down that far on her, a black singlet, and blonde hair.
her upper arms are up, inline with her shoulders and her hands are on the fence, like that of grabbing or holding onto a chainlink fence.
although standing straight, i see her at an angle across her.
she is talking to someone on my side of the fence, but i don't know who the person is, that she is talking to.
one of her legs is straight, and supporting her, whereas the other is relaxed.
she is saying something as she has her face against the flyscreen mesh.
apparently she can get through the fence, by morphing, without cutting herself, damaging her body, or without dying from doing so.
then she leans back, and as though dared, she then morphs through the fence from her side to my side.
she starts to do it.
i don't wince, but i have to look away.
does she complete it?
how would a person morph through a mesh fence like that, without being breaking it, or without causing damage, or death, to ones own body?
i look back at train line, and continue to listen to any plausible explanation for us being there.
then i look at the wooden cover.
then, without any warning, i see a young woman step up from gravel and onto wooden cover.
she steps from the section of train track to my right, but i look and don't see where she came from.
as she steps up from gravel to the cover, i have a revelation, a flashback, or an epiphany.
the woman is 20 something. shorter than me, and slim.
she is wearing denim jeans, a white short sleeved tee.
i only see the back of her, and have no idea who she is.
as i get the revelation, i see behind her a round thing of rainbow colours - see drawing.
amazed by this, i put my hands to my head.
wow!
i think the revelation, albeit a split second, is that of how we got there but its not as i thought it had happened.
in the revelation, its shown differently and makes sense.
it was brief enough that i got it.
the dream ends after that.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Aug 4 '14:
its daytime.
the location is chemist/pharmacy, possibly like the one in Cardiff, at the corner of Harrison and Thomas Street.
the lights are on, but i don't see myself enter it.
while im lookin supposedly looking for some medication, be it as a bottle or as tablets, i see a woman who i once liked.
whether she was Rach McC, or another woman, i don't know for sure.
and there is another woman as well; i see both briefly.
while looking for the medicine, i hear a song from the ceiling speakers.
its Dive, Jesus freak, Supernatural, or another DC Talk song.
its not loud, but i can hear it.
just inside the entrance, near an aisle, is a white square wooden box thing, on wheels.
it could be one of those bargain bins, with medicines and other health stuff in it.
the woman is standing on the other side of the box from me, and facing me.
she is singing along with the song.
she is wearing a pair of brownish coloured trousers, like the black ones that i have, which are microfibre.
i can see the outer hem as well.
she is slim, about my stature.
and also wearing a white tee shirt, without a collar.
her top is covered by a brown or fawn coloured jacket thing, which is unbuttoned, so that the white tee can be seen.
she is brunette.
her face is a little clear to me.
the other woman, related to her, or is a friend of hers.
because the woman is singing, i ask her does she write songs.
she nods.
i think to sign her, so i leave the chemist/pharmacy.
then i see that im at Waratah train platform on the Newcastle bound side.
it is daytime.
im on the path near the overpass bridge, and step onto the platform.
to do that would actually be illegal.
i walk along the platform towards the walk bridge.
that same woman from the chemist, is sitting on a bench seat, to my right.
that bench seat is close to the steps of the foot bridge, but close to that small brick building, which is used for something.
upon seeing her, i turn to my right, bend my knee slightly, and excitedly give her the signal, for a goal in afl.
she is smiling and happy.
she is sitting on the middle of the bench seat, because two other females are to her left, and to her right.
one female could be or is her mother.
the other female is a girl.
giving her the AFL signal gets her attention, because the other two were vying for her attention.
so i keep walking towards the foot bridge.
i don't get close enough to it, to step up it.
and i don't know where else i would go.
so, i walk back along the platform.
now that woman is to my left.
as i get to the end of the seat, at the foot bridge end, the girl is standing, trying to get on the seat.
so i nervously give her a right hand wave to my left at about elbow level.
and turn my head slightly to my left to see her.
she is still happy to see me, and only smiles.
there is no reciprocation of the AFL signal, or hand wave.
i head for that overpass bridge, and step off to where i started.
and i wait.
i want to go back and talk to her or at least give her my phone number.
and im about where the footpath of overpass is, where i can see the train tracks.
i look along the track to the walk bridge.
an oscar train is slowly arriving to the platform.
its on the west side of the walk bridge.
the train is red and yellow.
before i go back to her, i keep waiting.
and probably wait a tad too long before i go back.
and apparently i have a backpack on me, which i look in.
in it, is a red front cover exercise book, which i use to write my notes in, from gencity.
and, there is a white booklet, like the one novacare has.
then i go back to her.
im back on the platform.
upon getting to her, with the bench seat to my right, i get on my knees.
and i can't get any paper out fast enough, to write something for her.
the train is getting closer.
so i get a page of paper out of the exercise book.
and write my phone number for her.
i do it twice, because there is a red 3d box at top of the page, and, because of writing on the other side of page, opposite of where i write my number.
i rip the paper from the book, and give it to her, just as she gets up and boards the train.
but i don't look up at her, as she boards the train.
did i ask her for her number, because i look in my notebook for it.
or did she give me a piece of paper with her number on it, that she dropped in my possession as she boarded ?
does she say her mother approves of me, as a boyfriend?
the page that i find, is set out as follows:
her name (sarah?)
28/occupation, not given.
text here.
text here/gluten free.
text here.
text here.
text here.
text here.
unfortunately, i don't see all thats written; or lose it from memory upon waking.
some of the text is different colour, such as red or pink.
and then the dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From July 29 '14:
it is daytime.
im standing, with back to screen.
im standing in front of a row of screen shrub hedge, which goes across the screen.
there are green, and red leaves.
im sure pop had some plants like it.
i can see a bit of the hedge, because it is short in stature.
and i see that my name is written at the bottom right of screen, in white, like that of when another program is advertised during a current program.
but i don't hear my name.
why my name is there, i don't know.
my name is there, its visible, but not obvious.
then i look up to about the middle of the screen.
there is more of the hedge.
it appears to be an outline or a boundary line.
the rest of it, is like the #.
i see that, up the screen, from middle to the top of screen, but as though im looking down at it, from above.
i see it, like that of driving a car, and scanning the road.
so, the hedging thing, is like a maze.
it looks fairly easy to get through, which could be intentional, so that its not complicated.
there is a young man and woman in the maze, near the left side boundary.
she is to his left, and closer to that hedge, than what he is.
he is closer to the middle part of the # than what she is.
he is taller than her.
his clothes are a pair of denim jeans and that of a shirt, or a top, of some colour.
she is wearing a red top.
im sure they are boyfriend and girlfriend; there is no indication from them, to suggest otherwise.
see drawing for inside of maze design.
the maze and boundary hedge would be square in shape and about the size in width and length of a family home.
the couple are between the left hedge boundary, and one of the long horizontal edges. when looking down at them.
next, or dream 2?
it is daytime.
the location is that of a vineyard.
initially i am standing and holding onto the left side door of a truck, like the milk truck that delivered milk to the Westdale house.
im not holding on for dear life, but i am holding on.
and i briefly see the left side external wall of the truck.
its plain, white, no words or logos.
and i don't see the ground.
mu current focus is the back door.
on the top left corner of this door, is some pattern or design.
i see it appear, like that of the Luc Longley basketball cup i have.
see drawing for pattern.
the top left of the pattern appears, as though its a revelation.
it could be red, and appears by itself.
then i breathe on the one below it, like that of breathing onto a window, in winter.
this second one, in the pattern, appears.
the colour appears to be yellow.
im sure there are no words, logos or other stuff that shows.
for some reason, i try to get the rest of the pattern.
and to do so, before time runs out.
there is no timer, but even so.
im not aware of any comp, or being in a comp, for this to happen.
i don't get to the third one in the pattern, when i get off the door and see that im standing on a track.
it seems the pattern on the truck, relates to the vineyard.
was the pattern a clue.
was i meant to stay on the truck?
could i have gotten more of the pattern, before it was supposedly too late?
should it matter what didn't happen?
what about what did happen?
as i stand on the ground, i see the grey paved path the truck is on.
just in front of me, the track is raised up, like a mound, for the truck to drive up and over.
and i watch as the truck drives away, and around a corner, to my right.
not sure i was on the truck at the time, or whether i see it as i stand on the track, but looking to my right, i see a section of the vineyard.
it could be a row of hedging with a track parallel to it.
its about driveway width.
is it bitumen?
in the background, there is a boundary fence, which could be or would be vineyard like.
there is a vine like plant growing up it.
am i to look around the vineyard, because i don't.
as i stand there, the dream ends.

any comments or questions ?