FryingMan

+ driving in traffic on freeway, weaving back and forth between lanes, it's stopped, starts up again, I see why, there's a huge pile of dirt in right in the middle of the lane. I swerve quickly around it, using turn signals (I think it's silly to use them so quickly), I take an exit (left side!) and realize I've taken the exit too soon. I'm going to have to turn to the right and hope I can make it to the place I originally intended to go.

+ (continuation?) I'm at a stop light on a road, I'm on a (bicycle?) There's a girl here (following me?) and we go to a (hotel?) room. (I'm abducting her?) We're talking, I'm asking her questions, she's answering in English which surprises me, I say "It's really convenient that you can speak English!" I take pictures of her and I notice that there's a camera in the room, I think this is concerning but imagine they couldn't be spying on the guests. Then the girl takes the camera and starts taking pictures of me, I am really not so good with this and tell her "these pictures will be just between us, right?" I get a bit dominant-feeling and lie on top of her (we're clothed) and give her a light kiss on the lips, she's receptive, I'm starting to think this could be a very "interesting" situation here.

We're at a table? in a restaurant? with other people. I say "I don't post pictures of myself on the internet" thinking again about the pictures we took together. I realize that all this time with her, I never have fixed the flat tire on my bicycle, and I tell her this.

+ body on wheelbarrow lifted up on top of car and dropped off the back, it breaks into pieces (bloody legs, etc) and I think what a mess, why'd they do that?

+ climbing up on to the (our)? bed at the top of a super tall tower of bunk beds. It is made neatly, twin sized, blue blanket/bed coverings, long way down, some woman is arranging something, I'm wondering about things falling down the sides?

+ [last dream] preparing for an army bootcamp/travel, packing a backpack, find a pile of orders/prescriptions (I see the writing on them), I'm wondering about packing warm clothing -- a heavy sweater (which I'm wearing). Room for all this stuff? I should be prepared in case of frozen weather, I'd rather have redundant warm stuff and not need it than need it and not have it, we'll be miles away from civilization.

I return to my room and all my stuff has been cleaned up. Panic at first, then I see the stack of prescriptions/orders on a small night table. It's late, when am I going to get those prescriptions filled, we're taking off in the morning.

In a high place, looking down on some musical performance? It finishes up, I say "everything was good/it's all ok", but a somber dangerous-looking man standing near me turns away, I know he was very critical of the performance, I notice with a close-up view of his face that he has a horizontal deep gash (not bleeding) about a 1/4 inch deep and about 1.5 inches long on his right cheek-bone area.

I move down some walk-way towards a pharmacy, I check the hours on a sign, it's open until 00:30 I think. I'll be able to fill my prescriptions without having to wait until morning when we're leaving and when it may be too late. There are lots of people at the counter, I see through the glass doors. A clerk is saying, I'm sorry, we're all out of <the musical instrument which I play> for rent, you'll have to check back in 5 days.

Moving further down the walk-way there is a little segment about some video game? There is a narration from a girl about how she is not going to be joining any quests except for <something>. Across the way on the other side I see a sort of video game display (but it's "real" not a screen) showing a person surrounded by a lines of blue sparks, this is a sort of shielding spell, and the writing indicates that this spell is (either the result of of a requirement of ) a particular quest, for which (you need a group of players to complete)?

+ I'm in a long line waiting for service. I'm with my fiance/GF. The people are packed pretty tightly in the line, mostly young adults. I step out of line briefly and the girls behind me quickly move to take my spot, I try to step back in, it's my place after all I think, but they keep nudging ahead of me as the line moves forward. The line reaches a point where an official is stopping people and letting one through at a time, there is a small in-between area with doors before and after, the service we're waiting for is behind the farther door. When I get to the first door, some guys sort of crowd in front of me, I think that this is rude, I should be together with my GF. As people are served, these guys move in front of me into this "no-man's land" waiting area where nobody should be standing, so I also move forwards to try to preserve my place in line.

I finally get to go forwards to the service point, there is a woman in a high little room almost one story higher than the ground level. I hand up something to her and she says I've forgotten the main application, which I then hand up to her (in a transparent file cover?). She quickly says there is a problem with my name, companies in this country will not want to hire me, she's implying I have to change my name. I explain I can't do that, all my documents are all in my current name and it would be a nightmare of mismatched names (if names don't match in this place they do not consider the document valid). The woman is not persuaded. She leaves her little high-cubby-room and enters some staircase leading down below ground level. I'm still trying to explain to her about my name.

About an hour of insomnia between 03:30 and 04:30

+ In a large white cube room, trapped here? Floating around in it, like there is no gravity, jumping from wall to wall, rotating head over heels while doing so. There's another guy here who's an enemy?

+ On the control deck of a military ship, looking for enemy planes with radar, doing various searches, not finding anything except a "parachuter." The military are very neat and precise, they label even the electrical outlets with markings indicating (how much force is needed to pull out the plug?). I clean some small object I'm holding using forced air from the control panel, I think I've used military equipment to do so. I look down and see the (deck captain's?) equipment tray lying on the ground, I think I've used some of his stuff.

On top of a structure in search of a fugitive (the parachutist?), following people down into an interior stairway. There's a guardian large woman at the bottom, and we engage in some sexy time, short, she stands up, says "thank you!" but she needs to get back to work. I continue walking throughout the structure, and come across an open cafe.

Inside everything is branded/colored dark green: tables, aprons, etc. I approach the counter and the open kitchen behind is visible, where the employees are continuing the prep for the day (it's just opening hours apparently). I'm intrigued by what look to be gigantic bananas. It is a South American themed cafe. There is a large table/structure/assembly line there where they are prepping tropical drinks: fruits or blenders with fruits inside are being prepared in order to be blended in a machine, and the drinks can be purchased. I'd like to try some but I think they would be too much for one person.

+ outside, at D, night, near structure currently under construction, look back at main house, think [something...]

+ Basketball -- in a court, playing, high on the side wall of the court is some contraption, a small cylinder, grasping and pumping this cylinder has some effect on the game, I'm trying it, there is the notion that this is cheating?

+ In a garage, walking around a sort of a wreck of a car, it's really falling apart, it was part of a family taxi business? The frame is blue.

I'm working on paying more attention to dreams & dreaming, mindfulness of the present moment and lucidity. I hope to keep it up all through the year, despite the perpetual distractions of waking life. Trying to find a way to smoothly integrate mindfulness and lucidity, purposeful attention back into a 24x7 way of being.

+ at a swimming pool, teacher in the water with students, large olympic size pool, I'm walking along the long side, the teacher calls to me and says "I already have plans for them" referring to a group of youngsters seated in a row outside the pool. I see my young son S2 is there with them.

+ I approach a group of postal clerks seated in an open rectangular area (like a "typing pool" from old movies, about 5x5 workers/desks), and am trying to formulate what I want: I want to see if they can find forwarding records of mail send to me from my old landlord in city S [life-long dreamsign, return to city S] to me, so that I can track down the address or the landlord (so that I can move back there again?). I get pretty confused while trying to explain what I want, and think it's probably not possible.

+ Stuck in traffic at night (driving down LL in B), we decide (I'm not driving I think) to jump the curb and turn right through an open fence, I think this is a brilliant idea, a shortcut to avoid the stuck traffic, we follow some cars on this path, through open fences, make it back to a street (Sol in B on the way to A), driving past restaurants full of people (really packed closely), full-swing celebrations going on 1st and second floors visible (missing/transparent walls), Chinese restaurants I think.

Inside Chinese Church (?), I think colleague Ch Ch is here, he serves here I think (hear his voice?), there is a tall white staircase/pedestal, I think it's stairs to an upstairs area, or maybe just it's a high place where the people sit who run the ceremonies, Ch Ch comes out to meet me(?).

Walking with some (former manager? Unknown/unfamiliar) past people seated at long banquet tables with white tablecloth, I think he's going to offer me a job, but we stop and he turns to me and says that he's sold the entire development team to another company.

I have no idea where the asterisks are all coming from below. RC.

early:
+ company parking lot [DS], thinking about parking. There is a path up and to the right.
Later (different dream?) I'm standing at the top of a steep set of stairs, looking down into the parking area below. I realize I'm standing on the other side of the area where I was earlier (from my car) looking at and up the hill. I'm very careful selecting my footing as I begin to descend the stairway.

+ at work, with JoWei [company 3, B and N colleague], we're going to have lunch. At the counter, there is a choice between different colored aspics. The "chef" brings out different trays containing these aspics, colored brightly: purple, red, blue. They do not look very appetizing.

+ with [deceased] wife, we're walking in a mall (?) outside in the parking area, she says how, since I'm not around any more and don't visit her, she has had to ask BrZim (old lawyer friend who loved her) to come visit her. This makes me really sad. I think I should not be close to her or try to caress or kiss her since this would be inappropriate since we're not together any more [This led to dozing/waking? thoughts of sadness about our sometimes troubled relationship, and how I should have perhaps done more to be better]

late:
+ (ultra-vivid/present, nearly lucid)
It may have started within an office setting, I'm not sure of that.* *
But where it really picked up, was: I'm sitting on a bench in a courtyard outside.* Bright sunshine, balmy California day.* * This area is the yard for a company where I do not work and where I do not know the people, yet I'm still hanging out with them.* *Across from me in a shady circle clearing two people (gender unclear) are playing pickup-jacks.* I watch the little ball bounce, I count along with them: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5.* I don't see any jacks, though.* *One of them has a string attached to their hand.* * I am very content and comfortable.* I think I would really like to work here, because*it is so close to where I live, I would have a trivial commute.* *I'm looking around the fringe of the courtyard to the*surrounding buildings in the area as I think this.* There are people sitting to my left and right, I sense their heads in my peripheral vision, but don't look at them closely.* *I have* a feeling of serene happiness.* *I look up at the sky, it is bright and blue without a cloud.**

Then entering from the left, an inky black roiling cloud blotting out the entire sky is moving rapidly towards us, from left to right.* *I stand up and make some comment (or it's a thought), about how I have to go now and don't want to stick around for that cloud, and with a thought about wondering what they think about my flying away, I do a superman take off and start flying to the right, to stay ahead of the cloud.

I'm flying right* on the wavefront of the cloud, I'm partially within it, I look at it and see bits of things swirling about violently, wisps of cloud, rain perhaps.* *I will myself to fly faster to stay ahead of it.* I really focus on flying faster and faster to stay ahead of it.* I want to fly 2x, 3x faster.* * I turn around and continue flying away from the cloud (back-first) while I'm looking at it.* *I think if superman's suit was made to be water-repellant (meaning it reacts like a magnet to water, pushing the wearer away from the water), he could be able to effortlessly fly faster than any persuing*cloud, because the water vapor in the cloud would repel him away.

Then I'm standing in a long featureless corridor.* I think (or someone says?) that if this were true, people could then manipulate and control superman by moving water around him to repel him into a place of their choosing.* I look down on the floor and there is a flat image of a smashed-up superman, presumably who suffered from this feature of his water-repelling suit.

I move into an adjoining room.* *The visual quality sharpens and is super vivid.* *There are two (female-like) characters here.* *The substance of the room (walls & floors) and the people themselves are like clay models.* *But they're moving.* * Very sharp and vivid.* *The colors are: black, brown, deep red.* They both have black hair, but their bodies seem to be sculpted out of clay as well.* *Strange faces.* * I have a fleeting thought about sexual engagement with them since I detected their female-ness but did not pursue this.* I hear a man's voice from an adjoining room.* I enter the room (wondering if the* women are guards and will follow me), and there is another clay man there with similar features to the women, black hair, he's (training a young person?).* *There's a (clay?) bear?* *

That's all I remember, I think I woke at that point.

late bedtime, ~midnight or later. Fall asleep slowly, L reading on phone, takes a while to fall asleep

no early recall first couple of wakings
2nd/3rd waking set stronger intention for dreaming/lucidity
took longer to get back to sleep after this
a lot of wakings, shoulder bothering

up out of bed ~08:00

later, lots of scenes/fragments

earlier:
+ in apartment, some old g/f (wife?) has returned, at first I'm happy, but the she starts nit-picking me endlessly and I'm crestfallen, and think being alone may have been better

+ romantically together with an older, unattractive woman, she mentions "we need to talk" (about our relationship), and I think about responding "well, one option is not talking" but I don't say anything because that will probably not be received well.

Sitting close (holding her in my arms, we're sitting on a couch/bench, her back is to me), she makes a pun/joke, I get it, I laugh, and say was a good one, she laughs to and is proud of her clever pun

later:

+ (f) I need to satisfy some quest or set of requirements, I think I have time, but others say no I have to finish all the tasks today

+ (f) at some point I'm wearing shorts, and I wonder about how approprite this is?

+ parking scooter [DS!] on a curving curb, I'm looking closely at the curb painting, there's a red zone there, a crosswalk just ahead, and I'm trying to remember the parking rules. There's a car in a spot ahead that looks like it's not marked, and there is enough room for the scooter to park so I want to move ahead to that spot. Where I'm looking at parking right now is just in front of a crosswalk, and is too close to be legal, I know.

Walking on (back along the sidewalk the other way from how I approached on the scooter) is a building (and an outdoor mailbox where I pick up the mail?), it is dark/twilight outside, and I see lights inside the building in a basement complex. I "recognize" the building and the apartment within (think it's where students live, or where I lived?).

I'm in a room, and suddenly I see Rb. Mlls (company R) leaning in from an open window to the outside, and I jump with shock at seeing him because he wasn't there before. He comes in an gives me tasks to do? With some fat young woman whom I don't like?

+ maneuvering in traffic at an intersection, I join a flow with some cars to my left, I realize I'm cutting off one of the cars but keep merging left, we're turning left, then I enter some storefront. Inside is a gaming parlor and the view switches to a video game screen . I'm using a joystick as the game control. The joystick has a yaw input (twisting the stick instead of just rotating it) and I'm experimenting with this as well. The game is played on a circular "board" with different icons/images and the point is to make a full circle of your chosen icon, while others are trying to do the same. No matter how fast I manipulate the controls and replace my icons, the other players keep placing theirs, and I can't make any progress.

warm milk with honey, 500mg GABA, 1g tryptophan
Bed time about midnight
final waking ~07:30
no insomnia throughout the night (didn't look at clock)
one waking pitch black, one with more outside light


earlier:

+ party in arcade basement beer glasses dirty searching for clean one hey let's have a tournament I'm thinking Donkey Kong or asteroids there's billiards as well, lots of tables what an awesome arcade room, the guys there are drinking beer, I want some beer too, I look for a glass, there are swoopy beer shaped glasses (narrower at base and curving up to wider at the top), and there are tall wine glasses, they're all dirty to some extent.

mid:

+ in grocery store, examining shelves, cookies up high, many packages opened and some cookies eaten, the higher shelves (for stocking purposes) have the cookies but the lower ones don't. So they're not really out of cookies I'm really examining the aisle closely Girl there, I'm recommending to her the strawberry yogurt, she's a bit hostile. I return to her later and ask her if she bought the strawberry yogurt, she's friendlier. I see containers of opened/eaten yogurt. As we leave the store and she's going to her car (a very tall, i.e., monster truck with several young people seated in the cab), I reach back with my right arm and we "shake hands" by brushing our fingertips together and I call to her friends "("Kim"?) has yogurt for you!"

+ uni football team, I'm on team, I'm QB?, even though I'm old (current age), my dad was on the football team, too. I'm pumping my fist into the air, so proud of my history on the team. The young people think what is up with that weird old guy, I think they must respect me because I was on the team! I'm walking on some raised path and look down on to a cafeteria scene near a beverage machine.

+ I go into a room reserved for the team, there are ushers standing guard (?), and thre are tables of snacks, I'm looking for something to eat but pretty much everything has been consumed. There are huge piles of wooden chopstick sets all over. I find something to eat but there's not much left, and a woman (and her daughter?) are also approaching that place and (we're going to have to compete for the snacks?)

+ I'm entering the football stadium, looking for my seat, it's dark, since I've been on the team, I think I get to sit with the team? There are a bunch of really big black guys sitting there, I'm looking at them trying to figure out if I can sit here. I do sit and I realize these are TERRIBLE seats -- you can't even see the field, which is way around some distant corner. You can barely even hear the action or the crowd.

+ walking in to (uni) sports facility through tall thick doors, leading someone through corridor, giving directions, [aware of my path]

late:

+ walking with DB (uni g/f) around B, on Oxf st. along Uni border we pass the gym building on our left, I'm planning to set up a racquetball session in the gym for her and her friends and I say I'll join them. Then we're farther from campus on the downtown side, she wants to go to the buildings there, but I don't, I look up the hill and see the clock tower, realize how far we are from it, and say "I don't want to spend the time to go there," (I was thinking of a particular building with a lecture hall, "Wh?"), "I'll take you there later.". She's walking ahead of me, I call to her, "D, " and gesture with my hand for her to return to me. I lead us back towards the gym, we're walking up a hill, there is traffic / cars and we're weaving our way through them, and I ask her, "So, what's your schedule?" (pronounced in the English way, "SHED-YULE"), and she answers that she and (some guy? says name?) are travelling and bumming stays at friends houses. I want to ask her about this guy, if he's a serious boyfriend. I want to take her hand, but I don't want to spoil our friendship, and she may no longer feel that way about me. We reach the back door of the gym and she head up the stairs (very colorful, lots of bright primary colors), and I ask her "How's the nuclear ionics going?" She responds s.l. "oh! You've been following me!" and I know this to be true, I googled her and found out her research topics included the physical of nuclear particles.

Big dreaming night, and pretty good sleep. No extended insomnia.

Got very tipsy, two large-ish glasses of wine.
Ate fresh apple cake, two ice creams, bowl of chips.
Had a happy attitude all evening.
Watched videos before bed.
Read a little bit before bed.
bedtime ~23:30

Taking a more relaxed attitude is everything.

earlier:

+ floating in ocean, attacked by giant whale shark fish like thing, roll around to avoid its mouth getting eaten, it swims off eventually

+ guard at the doorway, I present my key to prove my right to be here, enter apt. see son S1? guard follows, the apartment has colorful but peeling walls, I'm a bit ashamed of the apartment

later:

+ attending some big conference, (outside, preparing to go in)

+ playing wilderness golf?

+ car broken into and emptied. (after a meeting?) I go out to my car parked on the street. It's in the middle of an intersection? The blue ford fiesta? I see that it has been broken into, and completely stripped. It looks like there is nothing left inside. I am panicked and upset, I walk around the car looking for anything, but it's completely stripped. Even my registration is gone, totally empty. Even the jack has been stolen. Looking more, I see there is a door pocket/panel opened on the left side passenger door with some stuff left inside it, I wonder why they didn't take it. There's a police patrol car right next to me, and I'm blocking them and they're trying to get by, I stop them and tell them my car's been broken into.

+ scooter turned donkey ride! [very vivid, feelings of acceleration and gravity!]
The best/most vivid dream of the night is probably the scooter-donkey ride. I was very closely inspecting [inspecting objects, thinking about them and how they work, especially with a close up view, is a sure DREAM SIGN for me. Very often this is door knob/gate locking mechanisms, and sink faucets] "my" scooter. I very clearly saw the gas in the trasparent gas tank sloshing around, interestingly, it seemed to be getting *fuller* rather than leaking out. I looked around back and found that it was leaking, and so I manipulated some things to close the container to stop the leak. I move around to the back of the scooter and inspect the various components that are hanging by their wires attached to the main corpus of the scooter. I line up one on the right hand side and attach it, using guide arrows, and do the same for another component, but on the left side of the scooter. Now a circular grey-scale display lights up with a control and gague system for the scooter and I start touching things to configure it. (There is some woman nearby who comments on something? Forgot...). My attention moves to the handlebars, and the left handlebar front brake control, which seems non-functional. It seems not attached to anything and just flapping there, I try manipulating it buy I get the sense it's not attached to anything. I look down to the front wheel as I'm doing this. I wonder about the maximum speed of this scooter, and the figure 35 MPH pops into my head. I imagine riding it and pushing on the handles to turn (like on a motorcycle, push left to go left, push right to go right). I mount the scooter, which now inexplicably has transformed into a small donkey! There is still a central circular display/handle and I now hold on to this and we take off. It is outside in daylight on a hilly country road setting with no trees. I "turn" the donkey to a side road that heads upwards, fairly rough gravelly/rocky terrain, and wonder if this thing has the strength to go long with me on it, and how well it will go uphill. The response is that it energetically sprints up the hill, very quickly, and *accelerates*! I feel the gravity and the acceleration as I strengthen my grip to hold on! We lurch forwards up the hill, turning towards the right. Now it seems that we are in some multi-townhouse division with a paved roadway/driveway, still hilly, still heading uphill. There are two men working in the road ahead, and I'm somewhat concerned about encountering them. As I pass them they do not seem threatening but are amused at my passage. Then something about turning downhill and giving a little girl a flower, but that is less clear.

+ walking through office with g/f L, we're in the printer room, there are large printer/copier devices there, they have colorful declas on the side, we kiss briefly in printer room, look at oddly colored and logoed printer/copiers, walk to cube, lots of people in close space close cubes, drinks cooler on ice on desk full of bottles of cold beverages, many of them motel-sized small drink bottles, many of them alcoholic, the manager there warns that some of those are very potent, I enter my cube, there's a team of young IT guys dismantaling routers there, wires are everywhere, they're asking me questions

Finally some decent sleep

+ Come up to a work lab station/area, I know they're working on our latest chip which is back from the foundry. They are testing various aspects of it, I wonder if the whole thing works or not. I ask for them to hand me a whole board, they hand me one. It's fairly large for a board, square, typical green base material, and our chip is about 1/2 square right in the middle and is black.

+ driving in car, I want to throw some piece of garbage away [recent recurring DS!], we pull into some sort of rest stop under an overpass, I see a garbage can, but there are two menacing men there, one of them brandishing a long barrel machine gun, I get nervous and we pull out quickly. Cut to driving, and it appears that the gun guy grabbed on to the back of our vechile (which is a truck), and is climbing along the back, I (or someone, I think I've [DO] from outside) is struggling with the guy, getting him tied up to the canvas-covered back of the truck? Wrapping him around with clear plastic wrap?

+ group party, table, beers. Hanging out with people at tall tables sitting on stools (at a bar?) [DREAM SIGN]

+ something about BF MR [DS]

+ Driving in a parking lot, need to exit. Go up curving ramp to top level, need to get a receipt to get through the automatic gate (to exit?), enter office area, I'm waiting for my receipt, but there's a line of people there to my right waiting for service, I'm not sure if I can just go up and get it, I think I can but I'm not sure.
Conversation Steve [plane guy] from company D [first company]

+ fiddling with a video game or screen, there is an image (the joker from batman?) that sort of jumps around, it's like the monitor settings are off or the computer is trying to change resolution, the image is not settling properly.

bed-time: late, about midnight.
watched video, ate muffin
no alcohol

earlier (4 hrs)

Initially no recall, but reached for recall, associated, and these eventually came through:

+ sitting at cafe table (s) (tall, [round?] seated on stools) with people, new people come, I suggest ordering (tuna?), the table is cluttered with bottles & dishes, I want to drink, there are many partially-finished beer bottles. I do not want to drink from the partially-finished bottles. The bottles are classical transparent dark brown, I see the level of liquid in them. I find one which looks to be full, and I pop the top off with my finger/thumb (it's not hard, like it was already opened).

+ dark place narrow doorways, light switches, touch person (bandid?) hair, fear (Mex?). I feel for the light swtich just inside the narrow and slightly elevated (bottom higher than ground) door, find them, flip them (one works, one doesn't in the next entry way?) Feeling for the light switch in the 3rd(?) entry, my hand strays to below and beyond the hanging-open door which is to my right, and I touch a person's body/hair, it is soft/warm/living, and I'm frightened, I think this may be a bad person or part of a gang of criminals

+ outside, daytime, slightly curving small street, buses come, people come suddently streaming moving from right/uphill to left/downhill , there is some big event, I want to attend, I want to get on bus, I want preferred / privelege location, carrying something, think of carrying it with me, I may be carrying it for a long time in my arms, think about getting a bag then it would be more convenient to carry it, visualize myself walking with the bag containing the [unknown] item

long BTS 4am - 7am+

start doing total "release" - "I give up" and fell myself falling deeper, hold especially my face and eyes totally relaxed, eyes unfocused, hold body totally still, everything still and continually release tension over and over and over, face, eyes, tongue, body, and mind, release all thoughts, no visualization at all (no "river running by my head and my thoughts are draining out", no "breath in energy breath out tension"), just continual total release of everything. It took maybe 10-15 minutes (felt closer to 10) of conscious release effort to the point beyond consciousness.

earlier:

+ I find myself in my CH kitchen, visuals are hazy a bit, it is lit but dark like it is night time, I feel immediately strange, light headed/weak, body feels light, I think this is because I am ill or having a stroke or some sort of sudden health issue, I sink down into a crouch to prevent a fall from fainting, and I'm holding on (with both arms?) to the sink counter for stability, [dream ends, I wake up?]

final waking:

+ with g/f L inside, we are discussing meeting the monster which lives in our closet, right now. I'm quite nervous about this.

+ [DO] Playing CDC Plato empire. Flying around Kaz? There are Romulan and Orion ships. I fire torpedoes, I see that the enemy detonates them. One (orion or federation) ship flies close by, so I engage phasers which are effective at short range. They don't seem to activate, I'm reaching for the "f" key on the keyboard? I start to see some milky white substance heading towards the enemy ship?

bedtime, ~10:15pm, yay! finally!
g/f (reading in bed on her phone) woke me mistakenly with sound on phone, boo, this put me off for the whole night. boooo!!!!
around midnight, fell asleep again?
2am woke
awake until 7am!!!!! Up out of bed sitting in other room from 5-6am or so
Felt like my ability to fall asleep was completely broken. I felt the "jerk" of approaching sleep many times but each time I jerked awake. I think this is hyper-alertness from a lot of day work and strong intent. It felt like the time I tried to WILD for 5 nights in a row and eventually lost the ability to fall asleep, with that same sensation of approaching sleep causing an "AHA! DREAM approaching!" reaction, preventing sleep.

+ girl at party, young for me, but I'm close with her, look at her face closely, odd-ish face, not exactly attractive, but I think I'd kiss her. Then she goes around to my back and hugs me from the back, and whispers into my left ear, "I like you....". I answer, "I like you too!" Her father (?) is in the room so I'm inhibited. She's in front of me again and I place my hands on her torso, feel her ribs, she seems a bit scrawny & overly thin.

+ LD #256 In a large, high-ceilinged, dimly lit, white room (more like an empty building with white walls), I'm lookin over my shoulder to the wall to the left of me, I quickly sense dreaming/dream location, not entirely sure yet, but I get up on top of the low solid white wall (it's like stucco) in front of me (like I'm in a loft or higher area above a lower area in front of me) I feel light and "feel like I can fly" so I lean forwards and glide ahead and to the right, and knew I was dreaming. fly through series of crystal-cave like narrow tunnels (little more than body width in diameter) that keep extending into the distance. Fly through areas that keep extending 3-4 times. The visuals are dark gray-scale coloring. lucidity fairly high. play with colors, I declare the "next area will be green" and colors appear in the distance (blue/green). Visuals fade, I expect them to return, and they quickly do, see something in the distance, and approach an area like in a Star Wars game, a section of dark corridor in front of me opening into a small round-ish brightly lit room with equipment, an automated turret or other machinery on the ceiling, that becomes a droid or a stormtrooper as I approach. I pull my lightsaber from my belt (always works! It's always there) and ignite it, get a good solid lightsaber sound, but no visuals [as always]. I will it to be solid and bright, I say or think "be BRIGHTER!" "be BRIGHTER" several times and I get a weak transparent green cylinder to appear. The robot/ trooper approaches, and I wave the lightsaber about to attack, as if I'm slicing it, but it's like a flashlight, no inertia or weight, and I think it's not doing anything. I'm past the trooper and I'm inspecting the surroundings, very detailed and bright, numerous objects are lying about, I move on through this room into an adjoining room, where 3-4 people are sitting / reclining on low chairs or chaise lounges. Some are female and I get the idea for "a bit of fun" (but I want to keep it short and quickly move on, to avoid waking). Visuals are very clear and crisp.

Spoiler for light sexy-time:

I give the one on the right (brunette, mid 30's) a (clothed) quick two-handed goose. left hand on her right breast, feels pliant yet firm. I step back and decide what the heck, and I tell them to show me their breasts,

and I wake up.

+ [vivid, mostly forgotten due to abrupt awakening] another gathering, fairly long, party book, photos & sheets printed, cousin?

bed-time: around midnight
final out of bed: 8:50
movie before bed
ice cream, apple-cake, no alcohol
200mg L-theanine before bed (maybe don't take this any more? Seemed to really wreck dream recall)

around 06:00

+ vague impressions only. Elevator? DD from college house? Scraping little beans on the ground while talking to/thinking about Suz.Bu.? It was a fairly active dream and fairly long, but it faded really quickly.

1/2 of a 100mg B6 at bedtime. Probably a bad idea for sleep.

bedtime, ~00:00

05:00

+ with guy moving towards mountains. The mountains are in the distance and are our destination (or our path leads through them). I can see (vaguely) the rising foothills ahead. Unsure of the path, other than we need to go through/via the mountains. We get to a street where there are people (Chinese tourists?) the street is straight and gets steep quickly.

+ riding with Jr. High best friend DD on a city street in a go-cart-like car. I'm concerned about my hand/legs hanging out the side wacking in to a parked car as we whiz by. I have a piece of trash that I need to throw away but I don't want to throw it just anywhere, I want to make sure there's a garbage can where I can be sure of getting it in.

+ I'm planning an escape, I'm preparing a bug-out pack, I gather my wallet, and a pile of apples. I'm going to exit the country? In a room of a building (bedroom?) I have an accomplice who is helping me prepare. I manage to avoid detection from the large groups of assailants who are pursuing me, I'm not sure how they don't see me. I get away, to the coast, and sail away at night.

up 5am, 6am still can't sleep, out of bed, 1-1.5 hours, back to bed, long to sleep, start seeing some images and get excited about a WILD possibility, get too alert, eventually fall asleep

+ playing RPG video game. I find a big pile of treasure, I see the list of items on the screen. These are very powerful items. I type the "l" command to look at the area and get the list again. They look to be permanent power-ups at first, and there items that suit particular members of the party. I specifically note one for the thief, there is a question of whether it is better than what he already has. Then I realize that the effects of the objects are temporary, I see a "time reamining" meter on one of the boosts, and it only has one bar left (out of 4/5), so that means that whoever finds this has to hurry and get about having more encounters to get the benefits of the boost.

Then I'm seeing a sort of overhead map of the world. There is a mixture of text and image/graphics. It is a world that people can build on to themselves, adding entrypoints for quests. I see strange beasts, mixtures of things like trees with animal feet, emerge from a portal. A big group of them are emerging and dancing/moving around. Then there is singing, like it's a giant flash mob of these fantasy game creatures.