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+ strange pool table in hall [DS!!!!] cue, screwing on top, inspecting tip, small square uneven table, upset that nothing better's available

+ on bed in (CH parents' room?) with "our cat", another (not ours) cat comes, I call to it, it comes and I pet it , several cats in the room, I tell my kids about the new cat that came

+ something in a house, about people (man and woman?) in a room

+ basketball nobody can make a shot passing is hard feel weak and uncoordinated warming up with team plan is to make shots around the key team standing around the court warming up, low light indoors no features of the building noted, try to make a shot up close and can't, "nothing but net" but it fell short. Nobody makes a single shot.

+ in Ch.Dw's cube at work, I'm admiring his air freshener feel the breeze on my face, hear it, taste how the air is fresher, want one for my cube

+ work cubes, loud girl neighbor playing music/talk radio, she turns it down, not nearly enough, "No way, that's not gonna work," she's hostile to the idea of turning it off or using ear buds.

+ the young woman is changing the water filter cartridge on the large (standing freezer shape) water dispensor, puts it in backwards at first, it makes a very unpleasant sound chug-chug-chug, "IT'S IN BACKWARDS! BACKWARDS! BACKWARDS!" She changes it then I walk around to the front and dispense a glass of water and say "thank you!"

+ [vague] driving on/alongside a large truck/trailer need to hand something off?

+ in a bathroom, standing at sink, double sink, looking at the lines of liquid dispenser rubber-lined that run along the top of the counter emptying into the sink, I think about the angle it was done at to make sure that gravity will pull the liquid into the sink, I run my finger along the latex/rubber material of the displenser path and it is very pliable, like a soft caluk, wife L comes in (now it's double toilet) and I know she has to pee, it won't bother me, she sits down to pee and I turn around and sit down on the toilet right next to her and think "zabavno" ("funny/fun").

+ getting on bus, waiting outside for people to exit, doors close, I force them open to get on, the people on board don't want me (it's already crowded) so they force the doors close, I force them open again and push my way inside and sit down, sitting down, large group of girls in matching uniforms, white blouses, all get seats, for a second I think about standing up to give them a seat, but I realize I'm the old guy here and they wouldn't take it, in the end they almost all get seats,

+ view in theater 3 girls in matching red witch (?) costumes plus a couple others in the seating area, they're in the area to the right of the right aisle towards the back (about 80%, still some rows behind them), my viewpoint is from the central seating area a bit more towards the back from them

+ in theater, discussion about the fire-retardant properties of the main curtain, how it burns especially in stages, slowly, in a particular pattern, in order to give people time to see this and to escape. Meet Ewan McGregor, ask him about the fire curtain, he says "oh yes I've seen a lot of theater fires." I say "oh, really!?" with a tone, he says "oh, no it's not like that

+ see Mr. R (former scoutmaster) shake hands talking about boy scout troop <number>, with the other men there, I say I'm not the official leader of the troop just a volunteer

+ woman is taking dollar bills from a printer/machine and feeding them back in, several are rejected, and she gives up and takes out her wallet and puts them away in it.

+ See Neil M. working on computer equipment in a cube full of computer equipment in an office environment (low cubes, indoors), walk by I'd seen him earlier (deja vu?) I'm on my way somewhere else doing something, I notice he has a holographic white wolf display working that displays on his head making him look like a white wolf, he's moving it around rotating and turning his head

+ more scenes, forgotten

Geez, almost a month of no DJing...and I'm surprised that I've had no LDs since the competition! Oops...well the New Years festivities are wrapping up and it's time to get back to connecting more strongly with dreams and dreaming.

Full Huberman stack last night an hour before bed. In bed at decent time. No screens for an hour or two before bed. 15-20 minutes of Zhine "mind merging with space" meditation. No food close to bed time. Fitbit says I slept for 6:48, 84 sleep score, only 34 mins awake. Deep 1:05, REM 1:36, 90% below resting heart rate, 7% restless.

My goal was to immediately head back to sleep on every waking. No delving except for when there was a ton of recall on hand, presumably on final waking.

A ton of scenes. Some nice, amusing, fairly present dreaming.

Went to bed with the mindset of "whatever happens in the night, I accept it"

+ At a grilled food stand, selecting the small burger I want, they're talking to me about which I should choose and they're talking among themselves. Outdoors, daylight.

+ Running a foot race. Start at the starting gate, I anticipate the signal and lean out and put a foot forwards, pull back. Start running. I'm in my underwear only. It's more a slow jog. Run alongside JH (company N CEO) for a while. Outside/daylight/open space walkway

+ looking for mom in the maze-like blue/white tile bathroom corridor complex, get trapped inside?

+ counting money at a desk in a room, with partner, and woman counter, I tell my partner (woman?) to be careful with the envelopes of cash I'm giving her, I want her to count it carefully and keep a total before giving it to the clerk to make sure they don't steal from us

+ in wash/laundry room, scarf gets stuck in washer, open top and pull it out, guy comments on my writing on the whiteboard (in <foreign> language, interesting that he seems to know it too), turn away, turn back and the guy has erased the whiteboard and I think stolen all my money and stuff. I get aggressive and dig in his pockets for my papers, I bash his face repeatedly with something heavy and leave him (I imagine) bleeding on the floor.

+ in CH bedroom, it's hot, 3 guys there, open blinds, open window, admire the view, pretty accurate, notice some buildings not there in waking life looks like new construction, point out "see, there's the GG bridge!". One of the guys asks about one of my twin beds, asks if it should be moved up against the wall (adjoining the hallway), I answer no.

+ See son S1, no eyes, glitter across face, some tattoo markings, this is a cosplay thing?

+ In large tubes/tunnel complex, Reach opening looking out on underground river, look down below me and see this is where they've been leaving the packages for delivery, several large ones in brown paper wrapping are there. My package is there and has been opened, I'm angry about this, I look at it and it is a large balloon shape, think this is a gift from S1?

+ A woman has successfully managed to get away, and she has her money with her.

+ As I'm packing up things (in the laundry room), I realize I'm leaving behind several objects, like the model plane remote control that has the climb/descend buttons on it (white control cube with black buttons and a white cord), I think somebody may want to fly my plane, but they won't be able to without the remote.

+ fairly long scene, there are teams of people, some have big guy knocking on doors and forcing entrance. There is a meeting, the leader is (testing?) me, I answer that I am "a reporter," he signifies his approval.

+ observing and playing weird pool/billiards, it is a really ancient table, small and rectangular (and white?), with a zig-zag lightning-shaped divider in the middle of the table, I think this is for when stripes/solids are chosen (like 8 ball) one side must put all their balls on one side, and the other team on the other. Then I'm playing at the table. I have the cue in hand, it has a very small tip, I look at it, very narrow like a snooker cue, but even narrower, I'm looking for chalk, I find it the chalk is beige colored and there's not much left, I chalk the tip and then set up a draw shot, I am the cue very low on the cueball, there is some professional observing, I'm imagining the cue ball spinning backwards, and know that one can use a striped ball to practice drawing as you can see the stripes spinning backwards. The rules of the old game involve not having the cue ball touch the sides of the table, or at least the sides of the central area (which when I'm thinking this is a square-ish area in the centre of the table, not just a vertical divider)

+ MEO 2023-01-02

+ in a bowling alley. Watching the ball go down the lanes. It's very wide like a US alley. I think that kids when they play will get a lot of gutter balls. Watch some shots being made. See a small area of lanes off to the left of the main lanes, arranged perpendicularly to the main lanes, I think this is a kids bowling area and that this is a good idea.

+ outside, observing a tall (10-12 story) apartment/office building, there has been a fire or some other major issue, the walls/windows of about 25% of the side facing me on the upper stories have been blown out. People are hanging out of the windows/standing in the blown out area, a lot of them. Water is pouring down the face of the building (from the fire extinguishers?) I think this will wreak havoc on IT inside those rooms.

+ In an laundromat, fairly large square room full of laundry machines lining the walls, and some in a row in front of those along the walls, I'm observing a guy starting a load in a machine in front of me, he has to make a call to a central dispatch, relaying the settings on the washer, and get back a code that he has to enter in order for the washer to start. I say that why doesn't he just remember the code in order to use it again and again without having to call the center every time, he shakes his head, I realize "ah, the code is probably tied to the individual machine?" and he nods yes.

+ sitting in some large open area, like a transit terminal, people are sitting at benches, there are some people near me with a small very shallow wide curved (in the up/down axis) table, it looks like they're not using it, I think of taking it or asking if I can, because I could use it, it would make it easy to work on the forms (?) I need to fill out/write on.

+ In a car, driving, I'm barefoot, I wonder if this is dangerous?
Outside in a urban area, daytime, walking through groups of people, I enter an indoor market area, there are lines at food counters/cafes, I want some food, but the lines are long, I go around the outside area and find a food window with no line, I go there and ask about what's to order, it's a Mexican place [DS], the guy there is really pushing this deal on me, where you pay a (lifetime? year-long?) up-front very expensive fee then you get to order there as much as you want (?) I don't want this "deal", the guy is showing his dishes, lots of different meat dishes, one of which has a number of bright red hot peppers.

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In a future moment, I return to this Mexican place (which is inside a grocery store?)

today (Happy New Year!)
Everything wrong for sleeping: bedtime ~ 2am, watching video in bed before bed, 100g ice cream w/cookie, 2 glasses champagne...but hey, that's New Year's!

+ receiving phone call in top level of childhood park (deja vu, happens twice?), some payment needs to take place?

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2022-12-31 (morning of)

+ [thought dream?] piano fingering: thinking about playing scales and how the right hand starts with the thumb and the left hand starts with the pinky, and how this takes coordination

+ [f] with sons S1, S2, one of them (S2?) says my full name, I say "yes-eth?" as I used to do when younger when someone did that.

+ [f] toys on table (don't remember)

+ [long, vivid] playing team "RQB/tennis" in a very large old room, like a warehouse or a factory that's been emptied out, super high ceilings, old wall material, (brick, other stuff), table in the middle of the room, there are about 2-3 people on a team, I'm new, it's played with tennis racquets and a tennis ball, and you hit the ball to the front wall like in squash/racquetball, I ask the main guy there about the rules: "do you have to hit the ball to the front wall before it bounces twice on the ground? Can you use the ceiling?" (He answers "yes"?). On the table I open my hand and I'm holding a large pile of foam ear plugs, and everybody takes a pair from me, these are used, and I think it's sort of gross that everybody will be putting them in their ears. Think about swinging the racquet, it's heavy and inconvenient(?), not great for this fast sort of RQB-like game.
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Now outside and I'm chasing after a girl I like, she's running ahead of me. We're hopping from floating platform (about 1 meter square each one) to platform, and I manage to get ahead of her, I wonder if she'll notice, and then jump/flop/lie down in a boat, and she flops on top of me. I really like this girl, maybe love her, I'm holding her tightly in my arms lying on top of me, the other people (from the tennis club?) are in a boat parallel to us and I think they see us as a couple. (She turns into being made of yarn? [Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy day residue]).
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I'm thinking about that tennis club and think it used to be a a military factory? I "remember" that "yeah, it was the old Toyota plant".

+ it's daytime now and that car that was stuck in the snowbank IWL is still there and they're still trying to get it out. The house that is on the corner of the accident has a burst water pipe and the yard is entirely flooded. There is a floating large barge in the middle of the water flooded area and the residents are using it to cross from the street entrance to the house

+ [f] strange ceremony

+ boxing class/club? Indoors, narrow/long corridors, I'm DO? this is a boxing club, someone's fighting. There's a woman giving footwork instruction: she takes a bow-legged stance, and is saying to notice the location of the feet of the opponent, and if he gets too close, to call it out ("feet"?) as a violation of the rules

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2022-12-30

+ infiltrate building/church. There is a large box filed with brown liquid and machine parts, it is the heat exchange system of the building. Inside the building I think I may be recognized, a man challenges me, I see a woman who I think knows me


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2022-12-28

+ tricked in battle arena [don't remember]

+ something about BF MR?

+ [f] outdoor scene open area there are some guys running by and there is an explosion

+ scene at work in Microsoft (?) [false never worked there], in an office, there's a manager at a desk, talking to "Tim" ask if he still works at (Boeing?)
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Outdoors there is my "work area" which has my bed and it's very messy there are a lot of wrappers. It's in a parking lot outside the building, there are some shrubs around. I see there is a (box?) on the ground with a lot of junk/garbage and it has spilled, should I pick it up? There's another guy there who's going to help cleaning it up, I (he?) am/is using a shovel to gather together the garbage.

+ in a house, I see old GF SuBu, (she says?) "there's no time for music", there's a guy there (her new BF?), she comes walking with me and I think she's going to explain why we can't be together (?)

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2022-12-27

+ outdoors, large group of people, there's a ceremony that requires the location of a blue piece of grass among the huge field of regular green grass. We're using a girl who has the special ability ("blue vision") to find this blue grass, we're (magnifying?) her abilities and transmitting them to everybody so we can find it faster. Then the view zooms in to the ground and the special piece of blue grass is there, I'm amazed we found it, and I pluck it and take it with me.

+ team adventure/fight in a large indoor/outdoor structure (like a Tribes base) very rectangular block architecture, I can fly, I move up to a higher ledge. Inside an area with floating plates, I'm hopping from plate to plate

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2022-12-25 (?)

+ At PTL house, standing before the front entrance and kitchen window, look in and see TiZim, she is young there, I think we're homeschooling her at our house. Her mother PZ arrives. Then I'm standing within a house structure that is open and under construction, it's the neighbor's (Mar) house, my dad is there managing the project, some filter needs to be replaced, it's hard to do, it may be very expensive to do, some frame structure falls near me

+ Outdoors, daylight, I'm looking through the glass walls [DS] (on all four sides) of a small dry cleaner's, there are pieces of clothing hanging on hangers inside and I'm looking at them, I wonder which one is mine? But the cleaner's is closed.
Moving on, there is a view of suitcases, my sister P asks me "is that your suitcase?" (I'm moving as a flying DO). The suitcase is full of my messages (?)
There are neighbors walking by on the sidewalk, I'm concerned that they may complain about all the people who constantly are hanging around my house (the neighbors are scraping up poop from the sidewalk?)

+ [don't remember this one] Kids in hallway, kid dying in 2 years, he does what he wants

+ outdoors car with sons S1 S2, something about a National Geographic magazine (drawing? Inside the car?), I need my copy, S2 says to cut out the pics I need?

+ Examining the floor in a garage, a portion of it is cement, a portion of it is wooden boards/slats. Somebody (me?) wants access to the (treasure?) buried beneath the floor. Some guy says we need to dig all this up. I'm looking closely at the floor and thinking that will be a lot of work to dig it all up, then I find a latch for a small trap door, I open it and inside there is alot of sawdust there, ( I find another trap door with a latch handle?), it's quite small, about 1 foot square, and inside is full of sawdust/dust.

+ in a yard, I'm trying to hit a ball with a bat for kids to do fielding practice. I'm throwing the ball high in the air for myself and trying to hit it as it descends, I miss several times, then I start connecting with it, this happens when I swing higher (not waiting so long for the ball to fall).

(more dreams, forgotten)

earlier:

+ outdoors, deserted planetscape (Amazon's "Night Sky"). Standing up against a building which is a living being, and is breathing in and out(?)

+ [vague, frag] bombs? snow?

WBTB
Long BTS
Brain churning
Get a grip finally and start doing TWR's four-petaled colored drop and dakini lotus in throat visualization: yellow, green, red, blue, <repeat>, eventually fall asleep
Start seeing dreamlets: people walking past, close-up view standing before a brick wall

+ playing basketball [DS] with a small volleyball [DS] in an indoor white-ish court, lighting medium/low. I'm making shots, a fading jump shot and I nail it, then I dribble down to the other side of the court and attempt a reverse layup with ball spin, and I miss. I then try to hook the ball in with while standing under the basket and a bit to the right, again with spin, on the left side, but I also miss. Step back a bit and swish a shot Head back to the other side and try a long distance (about 3-point distance) shot, specifically using strong wrist action, I'm standing at about 45 degrees on the left side (facing basket), using the wrist action to really aim the ball, and the shot is strong and ends up being a line drive with no arc, and heads right for the basket, but passes just below the rim through the net, missing, and the ball continues on and lands and rolls fairly far off the the court in an open area where my wife L is doing something with rabbits or stuffed toys, I'm waiting for her to throw the ball back to me. Later on (in waking or in dream) I'm telling Sensei about this dream I had. I think (in the dream) he's be impressed by some of my shots.

+ in a light hallway/stairwell with a man with whom I just concluded some deal (?), and he is now offering me (and wife?) the opportunity to invest in 3 real estate deals. I'm on the fence if I want to participate or not, it's risky, but the returns could be good

+ in a room some people around, there is a round table with a cardboard box of left-over pizza on it. I open the lid and look inside and at first I see just a few pieces of leftovers, but I decide to eat them anyway. I open the box again to pick these up but I see further back in the box there are a couple still whole pieces. I pick up one of these full pieces and it is really thickly covered in cheese. I detect (or anticipate?) some nuggets of sausage there, too. I'm taking some bites and I'm turning away from the people so they won't see me eating it (?) [DS]. Then the manager of the pizza place is commenting on the order volume from different sources.

+ moving from gas station to gas station in some relatively remote area, vague details, something about eating corn, a row of corn kernels all stuck together. I'm on a motorcycle and it needs repairs, but the current station is busy, I'm going to have to go back to an earlier station (where a guy was playing violin?)

+ <return to real estate deal stair/hall-way> an older man is teaching a young child to play violin. I notice the finger action the child uses to produce the different notes (the hand is not on the fret, just in open air). The emphasis is on the bowing position. There is a long bar across which the bow is being drawn. The teacher is showing a style where the downbow is long and slow and the upbow is where the rest of the notes of the measure are played all together. The teacher (and I am thinking along with him) emphasizes that in the beginning, it is good to learn to draw the bow and play using the full length of this bar. The student is bowing and the bow is leaving white resin marks on the bar showing where it contacted the bar, and the bow is moving up and down the full length of this bar.

+ [FA?] I'm trying to find my computer glasses. There is a large bowl of glasses and cases on top of the high left-side commode to the left of the TV. I eventually find the glasses I was looking for [true in WL]

+ small girl and boy: outside in large open area, almost a white void, nothing really there, a few counters. Walking around with them. Tell the boy he's fat? (he's not), joking/chatting with them, I say "the shark is going to bite you on the <foreign word for butt>" the girl laughs

+ animated 3D graphics movie, photographer advertisement: I'm observing the 3d graphics characters as the filming is ongoing, I'm thinking it's not very high quality, or that it's not an interesting movie. Then I see a sign for a photographer advertising his services, it says something like: 7:00am - 7:19am, $789, I think wow that's expensive, but I also think in that time he could take hundreds (500 or more) pictures.

+ car (honda accord) occupied by gang, changes to old beige convertible with top down. I'm walking up to my car (white honda accord) on a city street, it's parked at a curb, there are lots of people around, I think what if there are people inside? I get there look and indeed there are black gang members in the car, a guy (with beard?) in the front passenger seat and a (goth?) girl the back seat right side. They're just chilling there. I yell at them s/l "GET THE F^&* OUTTA MY CAR!". They have no intention of moving. I stand up, in shock, wondering what I should do. Call 911? Would they even come to a report of "there are people in my car"? I'm in the city of PA, I could just call the regular cops? should I just get in and drive somewhere?
Then I look back at the car (at some point the girl who was large/fat was sitting on the roof?) and there is no roof. I say "what did you do to the roof?" but I recognize that the car is now a convertible and that the roof is just down and maybe they'll make fun of me and point that out. Then I see that the car is entirely different: it's a long, 1960's-70's entirely beige colored (paint and upholstery), large convertible wagon. "What happened to my car?" I think?

2022-12-20:
+ in my room, on my laptop looking at (inappropriate) material, videos maybe, the screen zooms out of my control, and at that moment some guy enters my room. I'm frantically trying to cancel and close the video but the zoom feature is stuck and I'm pounding on the keyboard to try to get control back

+ outdoors daylight group of weird young people: two girls have <female privates> on the back of their heads, some dynamic action, squirrel woman?

+ church loud singing girl take up woman comes down her hands are bound leather metal ring
In a Church large high ceilinged cathedral, slanting seating like in a stadium leading up to where the roof meets the floor, the priest and choir are chanting/singing but it's hard to hear them because there is a group of people behind me (leading downwards, I'm facing upwards as the floor climbs up) who are talking very loudly and drowning out the choir. There is a girl who is crying, her mother takes her up to the top there are beds/pods there and lays her down there, then comes back down to where I am in the pews, there's a guy next to me, (she has the face of a squirrel? don't remember this but it's in the notes), her hands are bound up over her head with a small black leather belt and there's a 1-inch chrome metal ring protruding out of the top of the leather belt.

+ kiss the pretty girl, "you're so beautiful!" (purple outfit?), observation platform up above: do they see me?
We're lying on the ground in this open area, her teeth are fairly pronounced and her lips are thin

+ long table tea party with spitoon(s?) turns into meeting on language evaluations, "we used to be the rainmakers"
(This is the observation area from the above scene?) People are sitting at a long narrow table [DS!!!!] like a picnic table. I'm observing from one point and everyone is sitting a few feet in front of me. There's one guy with a spitoon for his chewing tobacco (and he's spitting into it?), other people are serving and drinking tea, I wonder if someone's going to pour the spitoon out mistakenly as tea?
Moving back up the table towards where I am people are reviewing documents, an opened book, I see a lot of words written there, it's a language guide? The group are instructors teaching (English? Linuistics?). Two people who have fallen out of favor and are no longer leaders of the group say "We used to be the rainmakers" (meaning leaders). The leader is turning the pages of the book and evaluating the students , there is wording there describing the characteristics of each student (?)


2022-12-21:

+ earlier (didn't write any notes): fight in the snow on LaLom blvd in B hills?

+ in a bank: indoors, large open area. Row of agents on higher elevated area on stools sitting at counter, they're sharks giving people bad rates?
I'm discussing a (loan? financial transaction of some kind) with bank's team in the middle of the large room. I pull up a high table with a tall chair and bring it alongside the large conference table at sit on the stool, the banker asks what I'm doing, I'm angry and say that the table is too low and uncomfortable and I'm upset about discussing my private information in such a public space. The banker (team of them) then moves our meeting to a private meeting room on the side of the open area.

+ in a family reunion? I'm walking behind my mom and I see a guy walk past her on the right, shouldering her obviously on purpose twice in rapid successsion. I get mad at him and call him out and say it was on purpose. He jumps on to a long table [DS] flopping on his back in front of some other guys sitting at the end of the table. A couple of my relatives get up and leave the reunion in protest to how my mother was pushed. I decide to stay and continue to listen and side of move to a hiding place and crouch down
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It becomes a product troubleshooting meeting. They're talking about problems with the products. I stand up and say I'm glad I stayed to listen, and tell them that I have seen the problems myself: using my concrete printer I have notice that the plastic parts are too brittle and tend to shatter. There is an idea of urgency in needing to address the problems and get the product launched as soon as possible.

+ company N screen: an employee is demoing a screen technology, sitting at a desk in a large open indoor area [DS], this screen material has the special property that it highlights movement of objects that are (not supposed to be there?), I think this would make it a great material for a fighter jet windshield as it would highlight (the objects get brighter to make them easier to see) incoming enemy objects.

BT 00:45 19.12.2022

+ walk past company N group, they do not respond to my greetings. Outside, daytime, walking in bare hills?

+ company N stock window: standing about 20-30 feet back from a service window counter with 4 open windows with 4 parallel lines with people standing single-file. I'm in the 2nd line from the left, and it's the "purple" line. My line surges forwards and I see a bit closer to the front. Each window is different, and has a big title over each window, a range of digits, which I think has to do with the purchase price that the employee has made in the (ESPP?) plan. My old friend and colleague JoWei is at the front of my line, and is handing in pieces of people filled out in a matrix style. I think and say that these look like bingo cards.

+ JTy conversation. Company N colleague, asks me "how did you like the <conference>?" I answer that "I'm bummed, because I thought that somebody [from company N] would have called me back by now. JT says "call me, then I will be able to call you" (because it will be answering my call as opposed to reaching out to me, which he's apparently not allowed to do).

+ discovery and publication of an important math function, books, featuring arrows, the theory has been evolving over time. In a covered parking area at night time, I see pages of the books discussing this discovery, it involves diagrams with arrows on them.

+ screaming at (actors? characters?) from the hobbit on a dark hill just below me, trying to fly up to the top, can't fly, (they're dragging at my feet?), I'm screaming about how bad the movie adaptation was?

waking
WBTB
came downstairs
BTS (about 0.5 - 1 hour later?)

+ I'm preparing for a fight against an opponent, I have some apprentice (young girl?) who will fight my opponent's (dog?). I will fight with my sword, it is a long sharp slender rapier. I'm trying to find it. There are a pile of short kitchen knives, serrated knives, even a long and heavily serrated blade, but this is not my sword

+ sitting outside in daylight on a high ledge with son S2 on my left and S1 on my right. I say something about <term for oral sex performed on a woman>, son S2 says "c**t lips and a**hole!" I say "did he just say c* and a*?", son S1 says "vaginal...<something>".
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I move to the left, I'm hanging/floating outside a building's (2nd floor?) window, I'm inspecting growing vines there, I discern that there are cherry tomatoes growing there, (out of season so I'm a bit amazed?), I comment on this to the owner, I fall down towards the ground on my way down I pass a mass/web of (poorly seen) dark blobs which I think are spiders, continue down and I see another, larger such blob: dark/hazy poorly seen large clumps of spiders. Can't move on the ground, struggle to move, wake up in bed jerking my arm.

+ in a room indoors, neutral lighting. There is a girl there, babysitting a small weird creature. It is vaguely human, very small, with a small head, sort of "Dobby" looking from Harry Potter but smaller. It is sort of slightly moving around and wagging / turning its head. I say "he's so small!" she answers "yes due to his (medical) condition." She lies back raising her arms up, I notice some black pit hair, I think this means <other places> are hairy, too. I'm looking at her and wondering if I can engage with her. Is she too young? She mentions how dirty this place is (apparently my place?), how "you haven't picked up since I was here (2 weeks ago?)". I look around and see a lot of McDonald's wrappers, I begin picking these up. I see a number of sauce containers peel-off tops around and also pick these up.

+ With wife L. She's upset that I'm spending time (returning to?) a group led by "Hagrid" (?), she doesn't want me spending time there: "Leave his group!" she says. I say OK, you know best. She is either topless or in a tight halter/tank top and looks really sexy. We go to relax in a "water pod," we put our heads inside, and look up, and I'm amazed that I can breathe easily inside the water.

final waking ~09:50, OOB 10:06

Big celebration date yesterday, awesome day & evening, late bedtime (almost 01:00), and early waking (~06:00)
Got up, some computer time, keep the lights low, feel really tired, wife & dog wake up and come downstairs, I decide to return to bed and sleep more. I feel asleep and had a number of dreams including one short DILD!

+ my wife L and I are in a vacation home/rental. It is a mess. How have we managed to create such a mess with all of these things, I don't know. Picking it all up and packing it will take forever, I think. The owner/manager comes by. I have a discussion with him about the cost. The terms $15,000 comes to mind, but that's too high I think. I think it should be more like $9,000 which is much more reasonable. I ask him for an invoice showing the cost. He says he doesn't do invoices. I say/wonder, how can I make sure I'm paying the proper amount without an invoice?

+ I'm flying outside between some medium-tall (8-story) buildings, future-istic and rounded in shape. I think it's a very effective flying technique to image that you're a bird and fly to the top of nearby buildings. I try that and do gain some altitude. There are young people on the rooftops, some of which are large open platforms. There are musical groups playing there. I arrive to a group and intend to join, another guy arrives and stands on my right with a (clarinet?), he's also late to the group.

+ [LUCIDD #281 DILD] I'm walking in an area indoors with an open area in the middle, a long rectangular area with completely clear, transparent water, full of fiish. I recognize this as a dream sign, and I'm looking at the fish to see if there are any large/unusual fish, as this is usually conclusive of dreaming. I don't see any, all the fish are small/medium in size and look normal. I feel completely awake, and feel a bit silly in doing a state test, but I decide to do a nose pinch to confirm, anyway, and to my great surprise, I can breathe! I am surprised by this and repeat. I notice when I squeeze my nose it feels a bit harder than in waking. There are some girls around, but I don't want to get sidetracked, so I decide just to do a few short touchings. The first girl is blonde, but rather fat and hairy, naked, and sitting with her back against a wall, she's sort of catatonic and zoned out and doesn't respond to me or my touch. Her knees are bent and each arm is resting on top of each knee (?). I immediately turn from her and walk past another girl and touch her briefly, "Niiiice!" I say... and I quickly turn from her to avoid getting distracted, and move outside through a set of doors. I feel things fading and quickly bring my hands up to rub them, but my waking hands move in bed and I'm awake (FA? Don't know, fell asleep again)

+ [f] walking outside in a city scape, people around, go indoors, onto a stairway, something about a big guy?

Bed time super late, ~01:00
OOB 08:48
2 mag threo caps, 200mg l-theanine, 1 sour cherry cap
fitbit says 1h42m deep, 59m REM

awake at 7 or 8?

+ outside on street, see former dog B [deceased], then walk past him again, I think he may be dead, but then I see that he is trembling and his eyes are darting around at high speed, I think he's in severe distress and needs to be put to sleep. I want to call wife L to have her come and help. I'm concerned though that this will upset her. There is a parallel story about a police agency searching for a criminal gang, and a truck that I'm using that has been used by the criminals. I do not want to be associated with the criminals, so I want to call my wife L and then destroy a business card that I'm carrying, to rip it up so the police can't associate me with the criminals. The phone number involves the digits "1" and "3", I push the buttons on a push-tone phone.
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[not sure it different scene or different dream]
Walking outside on street, walk past two young guys talking boisterously. One of them has replaced his hands/arms with robotic arms with huge robotic hands that are like pincers or a bulldozer digging head. They are heavy and dangerous, I do not want to get hit by those. I think he pushes me with them they are very strong. I wonder about how his brain and nervous system was interfaced with these attachments, so that all he needs to do is to think what he wants to do and they respond. (I also think that this is a sort of depressing thing to replace human arms with machine arms?)

+ [f] moving through dark rooms, there is a locked door

+ with people who are rebranding a famous piece of music to be performed under a different stage name at B university, I see the tickets/banner for the concert, it is very clear, black and white lettering. I'm drilling someone with questions about how a musical group treats people. I want to know how they treat the members of the 2nd violin section [I don't play violin!], before I consider joining the group. I get upset that they are not addressing my questions [DS!!!], so I keep repeating them and getting more intense and angry.

+ with sis P and BIL M at the piano, P is giving advice on how to play a particularly tricky part of a piece, it involved reaching up under one's crotch and playing the notes that way, she also showed an approximate way of playing it, by reaching in to the piano and plucking the strings directly. I make the observation that "a piano is just a horizontal harp with keys"

WBTB
8mg galantamine, 600mg AlphaGPC, can't fall asleep for like 3-4 hours

+ at P & M's house, she is holding her baby [FALSE, no baby] in her arms, it takes a massive loud crap, I guess this means the diaper needs to be changed. I walk around her looking at her and I see some vague light beige "poop" has spilled out of the diapers onto her arm. I ask "anything I can do to help?" Someone answers, "No, P&M need to deal with this themselves".
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Walking around the house, I feel *really tired*. I have no idea how I'm going to be able to drive myself home. I wonder what time it is, I find a clock, it is only around 7pm, I'm going to have to figure out how to last the rest of the evening until the end.
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In the kitchen, I wonder if everybody likes the coleslaw I made, I ask them, I see dishes on a table with remnants of various salad dishes.
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+ [LUCIDD #279, DILD] I'm in a large open area, sitting on a white table, I look around behind me and see my bag/wallet there, I think oh man I left those there, I hope nobody stole my money. I try to open my wallet to look inside, expecting it to be empty, but someone can't open it. Then I'm in the middle of a bunch of beds (it's a furniture store apparently), a huge wide open area, there's a woman there, I get lucid and come to her and we make out for a bit then the dream fades

+ I'm lying in bed in "my house" [FALSE], I look around, I'm confused, I see the dark brown/grey wood paneling on the walls [FALSE] I don't remember how I got home. I think about ordering some professional "companionship" and wonder how I'd pay: with credit cards?

+ [LUCIDD #280, DILD] Awake in a bed in a different house, I feel constricted by my clothing, like I really can't move, I sit up and try taking it off, look around, see that it's both a room in a house, yet it's open and in the distance I see a city skyline in bright daylight, get lucid, and despite the difficulty I'm having moving and the really tired/stuffy feeling in my head, like it's filled with cotton, I say "well might as well explore" and stand up and move to my right, which is towards a raised area which seems to be an office area and a kitchen. I catch a glimpse of movement there and think this is my "wife", and I "know" her name is "Vicki." "Vicki, here I am," I call out, "and I'm <ready for frisky time>", I get to the kitchen and look around but there's nobody there. Continuing to the right I enter a sort of utility closet/hallway area with a black door and a doorknob, I open the door and enter the garage. The visuals are really hazy, I have the impression of large white fluffy/fuzzy things, like several large cars parked next to each other all covered in snow [but I don't recognize it as snow]". Nobody there, still want to get frisky with "Vicki," so I go through another door which I think is a shortcut back into the living area where I started. Back in the living area, I look around and catch another glimpse of movement around a corner, move there and see "Vicki." She turns to face me, she is up against a desk or cabinet. I come up close and look into her face, at first her features are caucasian and really pretty, medium long brown hair, and I tell her "You're gorgeous!" Then as I study her face it begins to rapidly morph, like my mind is rifling rapid-fire through a series of remembered faces, her face changes many times within a few seconds, mostly to variants of young Asian women, sometimes to abstract things like a mask shape. "OK, If you're Asian, that means that you'll have <a particular anatomical feature>, pull down her pants to confirm this [not super clear], and begin some frisky time activity. In a second or two the dream fades.

bedtime 2022-12-14 00:45
final waking & OOB 08:45

very decent dreaming night, good variety through the night and fairly good recall. Short bit of lucid-like control (spiderman web-slinging) at the end but not counted as lucid. final dream upsetting but still vivid and interesting.

Long awake period starting around 06:00. LONG, probably 1-2 hours at least. finally made it back to sleep and had a series of fragments/short scenes

earlier:

+ [f] in a kitchen, we're cooking something, I'm wondering if we have enough flavor packs to cook what we want to, or if I'll have to go to the store to buy more

+ [f] standing in the rain looking down a tree-lined long, straight, dirt road

+ [f] lying in bed with wife E, TV is on beyond foot of bed, I have a control, there is something going on with the volume? I'm on right side, I lean over and take E in my arms and say "I loooooove youuuuu!"

+ in a (work?) bathroom, large, multi-chambered room with high, tiled walls, pathways leading between the chambers, I put my plate of food with (chicken nuggets and tater tots?) down on the counter, I go to another chamber and want to get back and can't find my way there for a while, I do get there eventually and the tater tots are gone, there is a man there and he comments something?

+ in a work cafeteria line, with a girl, the cafeteria counter extends for a long distance straight in front of me, on my left, I'm thinking that the girl I'm with will have the beef, there are large cuts of beef and all sorts of meat with a worker stationed there behind the counter to slice and serve it.

+ in car outside old PTL home, kids party, I'm taking pictures from a hidden location inside my car, my wife E is outside the car to the left. I get out of the car to my right, I'm trying to move the pictures to a hidden location before I'm seen, I don't make it in time, my wife walks by me but doesn't look at what I'm doing

+ I'm at the pool with my young kids. They're in the water. I particularly see S2. There is a large crowd of people at the gate waiting to get in to the pool area, on the other side of the pool from where I'm standing something is blocking them so they can't get in.

WBTB
LONG BTS, but success!

+ I'm a guest in a house, my dog's fur is all over my clothing and getting on the carpet/blanket , won't invite me back be, vacuum it up, yellow balloon stuck in vacuum, plug in to vacuum module, but no bag so dust bubbles out making a mess, the guys there say "Hi, <my name>"

+ sitting on ground on blue mat in group people all around, waiting for some talk/presentation to start. My feet are out in front of me, bent at the knee. Two young guys (mid-late teen) sit down right at my feet and begin playing a game. They totally ignore me and don't care about impinging on my space. The one on the left is leaning his arm on my leg, and I'm trying to reposition my feet so that they're not sitting right on top of them. After a while of me moving my feet, the guy on the right looks and me and says "What's your problem?" I get mad and retort "I was here first! You came and sat down right on top of me!"

+ [DO view] two small airplanes nearly collide in mid-air, they land, they avoided collision by adjusting their wings, both have wing structures where about 1-2 foot length of the tip of the wing can fold back onto the larger wing, reducing the wingspan. I think this means (when the tips are folded back and the wings are shorter) that the plane weight can't be supported as well. The pilots have landed on a hill overlooking a large flat area below with buildings and hangars, and they are planning a stunt where they take off/glide straight down the hill, perform a loop-de-loop then land and park inside the hangar.

+ actress recites long speech in scene being filmed (in a library? multi-level), then the main actor enters and misses his mark, the director cuts the scene and talks to the man about where he's supposed to stand, then he praises the actress saying it was an ideal performance. I look around and see a level below the current level that we're standing on.

[Long final dream follows with multiple scenes, remembered transitions mostly]

+ need charger for my flip phone, it's in my bag but I've left my bag somewhere
see room with desks arranged in it
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trying to call wife L, phone doesn't work right, resets after a short time if you don't dial the full number, try to call her on speed dial she must be there
Finally get a call to go through but a man answers it, I'm upset at this, he's like a photographer and my wife is partaking in a work bonus where she gets
to do do a photoshoot. The man is irritated and quickly hangs up on me.
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standing at food table, my belongings are spread out all over the table, blocking other peoples' access to the table, one guy comes from the right and wants to get at the food, I'm trying to gather up my things getting them out of the way, there are so many things to gather up. I do clear some space and see the food: they are open-faced sandwiches, mostly just bread with cheese on top, like croissants or just slices of bread with shredded parmesan on top.
I open up a back door and it leads outside to a deserted parking area, I hear Mexican music playing and think of getting some tacos somewhere.
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I enter a convenience store, I think I'm here in CA so I might as well get tacos or some corn tortillas. I see some tortillas stacked (not packaged) high on a shelf above eye level. I look at them, they're not all that appetizing but look mostly OK, I walk around to the other side of the shelf and see ready-made small burritos. Further inside the store there are a lot of people standing in line to order their lunch. The line looks too long (it must be the lunch hour) so I decide to leave and go somewhere else. At the exit a manger woman is sitting at a register, there is a turnstyle exit that only lets out one person at a time as a security measure. There are two buttons there and only one of them opens the turnstyle, people get hung up on that. My turn comes and I press the right button along the right wall, it is the wrong one, then I press the left button and it works.
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I'm out side and flying along a freeway, it is night-time: very dark twilight [DS], there are no cars on the freeway, I have a feeling that it is 1am, how did it get so late so suddenly? I think it may now be too late to call my wife. It being so late explains why there are no cars on the freeway (I'm fllying along the right shoulder). I have a very dirty large white sponge in my hands, and I want to throw it away, but I think, "Hey, this is CA, there will be a garbage can along soon" so I hold on to it to wait for a garbage can, I look along the road scanning for one but don't see one and forget about the sponge. I take a right off of the freeway and am flying high in the sky. It is still dark. I fly past a floating platform where a couple of (police?) security cameras are mounted. I want to call my wife, I'm not sure of the time, I think I will get the accurate time if I land and take out my iphone. I also think that I need to go to her apartment, but realize I don't know the way, how could I have forgotten it? I sort of get an idea but it's not clear. I see some buildings nearby and decide to land on a roof to call her. As I approach the buildings I fly up and gain a lot of altitude unwillingly, I want to land, so I decide to do a "spiderman web pull" where I shoot the webs from my hand and then do a sharp pulling movement, I do this and I fly quickly right towards the roof and land.

I call my wife and I get through to her. She's upset. She says "I found what you had in (your report/presentation?) on your hard drive, it's DISGUSTING, and I found other things, (if I tell you what they are?) you WON'T be happy". I'm shocked, she's broken up with me, I'm just standing there with my mouth open in shock, and I slowly wake up in this very upset state, I'm lying in bed on my right side with my mouth open.

bedtime ~ 01:00, final waking ~11:00 (w00t!)

+ walking through B hills (down LaLo) with MiOliv [frid] we come to an open area and I have the urge to fly. I launch myself but I fall. MO jumps down very far I can't believe he doesn't break both his legs when he falls

+ on the LHS plaza there's a lot of police action, I had received a phone call and the black-uniformed B police are there to interview me about it

+ in a club/restaurant that is filled to waist level with water, I see that the new management has installed stepping pads on top of the water to make it easier to get around. I walk by the manage's corner which is a desk on carpet in a corner without water. The manager walks by me and stuffs some cash bills into my hand and says for me to take care of the place while she's out, but she's given me so little that I doubt that I'll be able to do anything effective. I walk by the (statue?) of some guy in a narrow part of a corridor, he's large with a big round head and face and I notice the beard stubble on his cheeks/chin, I think he perhaps was a (golf?) competitor with me.

+ in a large room like a hostel or hotel bedroom, there are beds there, I'm in the process of checking out (?) but not really ready to go, 2 women arrive and sit on my bed/chairs and won't move, I notice that the beds are really dirty

WBTB
Long periods BTS, success!

+ Sherlock Holmes type detective story on HC, I'm carrying a hose with water shooting out of it and I walk over to the Man's house and look down their long driveway. We're folding a large flapping sheet/flag. Walk towards entrance of HC and look up in the sky and see dancing bright lights [DS!!!! HOW DID I MISS THIS! Such a solid DS!], they become dogfighting planes shooting missiles at each other. As I watch, and as they dodge and maneuver, they come closer. They look very CG with wireframe visible along with the texturing. Some fly right over head very close by. One lands next to me, sort of round-ish Millensium-Falcon looking, I'm lying down now on my back, the thing after landing is the size of a large toy/child's model airplane, I wave to it.

+ SOmeone is making bootleg Nintendo cartridges. The trick is using a cracked version of the security chip inside the cartridge. In a store selling these cartridges.

+ [f] see a girl's [ahem]