FryingMan

I remembered the pre-WBTB dreams as I was falling asleep at bedtime the next night! I was reviewing the dreams, and realized I didn't remember DJing them...ah HAh, those are the missing dreams! Even if they're a bit fragmented by now, I hated losing the entire first half of the night.

+ DO flying view of telephone poles covered with intertwined cable TV cables, some narrator is talking about the cables.
with a small girl (and my wife?), the girl smiles/opens her mouth showing large teeth, rectangular chicklet style, with amber/gold lookign teeth, the woman tells the girl not to pull on her teeth, they should last her a long time.

+ in a grocery store, I seem to work there, I'm flying at high speed up on top of the hanging flourescent lights and swooping down near the floor. Something about eating a tall chocolate cake.

+ outdoors in a parking lot, I'm pushing a huge cauldron of soup in a body of water.

+ inside a tall large garage. Some other guy is sitting in his car, when I walk behind it he starts the ignition. I'm thinking a bit about the dangers of being in a closed space with a working car (?). I drive a strange vehicle that is hard to drive towards the garage door, there is a guy there and there is some conversation.

@6hrs unintentional WBTB
loud truck outside again for 30 minutes idling enging
BTS interrupted by wife tossing & getting up & sighing
But made it back to sleep and had some very vivid dreams including a super clear LD.



details later

+ LUCIDD 211 LD#211 I'm moving in between rooms in a house, like one living room to another living room. I jump float/fly/glide from the entrance of the second room to the far wall where there is a low buffet cabinet, and I twist in the air to land with my butt on the top, facing now the middle of the room. I stand up on my feet and make another jump/float/glide low across the floor to where I was standing before in the first room. I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming, I do a nose pinch and get lucid. I think what I want to do. I'm in an entry room of a house, the front door is in front of me to the right, facing me, I see the door knob and the deadbolt lock. I'm thinking of going outside. Directly in front of me is a narrow, long kitchen (I'm standing on the long axis) with a woman at the far end like doing dishes at the sink. I think I want to get out of here before she turns and sees me. I remember my goal to travel to [Roger Zelazny's imaginary universe] Amber via trump card, reach into my right pocket and feel a card/plastic bag there, pull it out but before I can look at it the woman is now facing and walking towards me. It is my [deceased] mother. All thoughts of Amber or going outside are swept away, I've been wanting another visit with her for a long time. We approach each other, she looks young (40's) and in fabulous health, she's smiling, I say "you look young and great!". I hug her and start crying and tell her I miss her so much. I kiss the top of her head. I look at her and ask her, "What should I be doing?" I'm watching her face while she answers, it seems to transform and morph a bit but it remains the face of an old woman, and I realize I don't understand the words she's saying. I hug her again and realizing she's crying now along with me, and I wonder a bit at why she's doing that. Then the dream fades, a phone call has woken me. ARGH!

+ I'm inside a building with my head laid sideways on the floor and I'm closely inspecting the wallboard. Two guys are talking off-stage about the expensive wood they're using. I see the wallboard is expertly sculpted and curved, a very fine bit of wood word, and follow the wallboard from the hallway into a room. In the room I see a section of wall tiled with very colorful luxurious marble/granite stone, and I point out sections of the stone that have the exact same blue color as my own blue stone in my place that I remember [FALSE], I point this out to the guys sitting in the room.

+(f) blank signs made from lawn signs?

+ talking about the (calculator program) that all the developers use. I start thinking about all the functions I'd like it to have: binary conversion, quick/fast modes for various functions. Then transition into a classroom where the teacher is talking about the COS and SIN functions, about how the value for 14 is the same for 4 and 13 is the same for 3, and I ask is that some fundamental truth of math, the students (laugh?) the teacher says no it has simply to do with rounding.

+ lying on bedroom floor of (friend's?) house, sleepover, two young boys (I'm present age?), I notice the area of the floor which has a large insignia on it in deep bright blue, I think there used to be a floor covering like a rug there, I can't think why the pattern would be left there. The kids use some bad words and when the parent/mother looks in I disavow having said it and point with my two thumbs in opposite directions indicating the boys are the ones responsible. It comes time for bed and I take a quick drink of water from a sports bottle, lean over to my right side, reach up and flick off the light switch, and lie down and close my eyes. I see through my eyelids the lights are still partially on, though, and I wait for the mother to turn them off.

A mother? comes (who looks like my wife?) and kneels down and starts animatedly talking about her night out. I notice her shoulder-length curled-at-the-end black hair. I'm facing her right profile. I think she had a night out at a bar and say that explains it, meaning her animated speech is because she's tipsy. One of the kids ask her about if she had a designated driver, and she says "only on the last stop of the night," as if that explains it and makes it OK, but I realize it's a terrible answer meaning she didn't have a designated driver most of the night.

Outside with a group of people at an election, there is a guy (former KC colleague StHo) who is acting like an announcer, he has some sort of (pentagram?) tattoo in the middle of his forehead. He has the announcer-rhythm and lilt. He's giving initial returns and there is the commentary that the Democrats (they have an 80-year-old candidate?) need to get out to vote. I make an aside-comment about have people checked to see that their bicycles haven't been stolen?

WBTB about 6 hours. Up about an hour or 1.5 hours. Get drowsy again, back to bed.
Takes a while to fall asleep but go full relaxation (body scan, total "letting go", open the head, get the mind out from being stuck in the body) and fall asleep

+ driving the cousins home in the snow, steep hill, car losing traction (no chains), short skis out on the granular snow, can I just have them walk from here? Lots of people out taking advantage of the snow at the resort.

+(f) quick (nice lip action) kiss from one woman, another woman gets naked and sits astride me, I reach for her body, she's a bit heavy, we kiss, transition

+(f) tussle with a young man at the top of the stairs, he falls through the railing and hits the ground below

+ with some women, I realize they're going to the same counselor/psychologist I am, I immediately want to get there ahead of them. We move together through some doorways and enter an office space. It is quiet and a large entry way, with multiple offices off of the central room, I don't know which one is the right office. I'm looking for names and have the name of the counselor in mind [forgot] but can't find it. There are stylish silver-colored nameplates with intricate designs in various shades of silver and grey.

+ tahoe, water, crayfish (toe), around to back, talk more about Tahoe, crayfish (bucket means a meal), "you can't take them out because this is a national park". I see back behind me in the sun on a volleyball park my mother (old) and another woman playing old-person volleyball, but my mom does an impressive overhead smash serve. More and more old people playing volleyball. Some young people throwing net/blankets over the net and I keep trying to pull it out of the way. I enter a room there's an old many there. I go to a toilet in the corner and lift up the lid, there are drops of urine there. I notice in a room through a door right there an old woman peeking at me as I prepare to pee, I move around to put my back to her to block the view as I start to pee, I notice there's a ribbon on white along with the yellow that leaves a pattern in the bowl.

+ Outdoors, physical education teachers/coaches are laying out devices for a training session. I think it will involve running laps. I start a methodical/plodding jog, I notice I'm wearing a bright yellow college (C) sweatshirt and I think I will probably sweat alot in it. I'm running counter-clockwise on the track. There is a group of "cool" thugs/bullies who mock my running style and laugh at me. Around the far corner of the track they accost me and I push one of them aside and make to fight him. I try to keep going but they bother me again. I yell at them "are we here to do sports or do stupid things?"

+ LUCIDD 210 LD#210
I "wake" on my back in bed and suspect I'm dreaming, do a nose pinch and get lucid. I have no visuals, and it's really hard to get up out of bed. I move slowly not wanting to lose the dream. I somehow know that I am in my CH living room. I finally stand up and make an effort to open my eyes, expecting to see a Christmas tree in its traditional location in the corner. I get really hazy visuals and sort of think I see a Christmas tree there but not decorated and I move on to the dining room. I think of TOTM and recall "walk with your head" and think how I'd do that but don't think more of it. Then I remember bring a person from 200 years ago, I recall my planned person, Mark Twain, and I think I will find him behind a door somewhere. I think I should go open the front door to see him.I spent the rest of the time fading in and out of lucidity. I go out on the deck and have an amazing high-def view of the city below, so much detail that I think I can't possibly be dreaming, and if I tried to fly it wouldn't work. I keep walking around the house not really noticing where I'm going and with no particular objective except to keep doing nose pinch. It seems I can't breathe, but there is a small bit of air escaping each time. I keep doing it for a while trying to determine what the result means. Then I find myself lying on my side back in the living room and lookin at a bright orange shoe box on a bedside table. I decide that if the box moves/levitates to my mental command that I'm still dreaming, but it doesn't move. Later on there's a long non-lucid sequence involving a tiny puppy/miniature dog that my old [deceased] dog L tries to pick up and throw over the side of the deck, the puppy leaves puddles around the house and I yell at my wife for buying another dog without asking me first.

Time is about 6 hours. Work on recall. Remember the LD which I'd forgotten at first. Lots of noise, wife movements, hard to get back to sleep. I do a full-body relaxing scan starting at my feet and frequently lose my place, that's good, I'm probably close to sleep.

Collection of brief fragments over the next couple of hours. Moments very vivid and present but short, and don't recall all of them.

+ many moments, a lot forgotten

dog, then dog in car

on the playground trying with a group to get a girl to do something, I show her that the little objects are (not scary?). They are very strange little shaped things, I look at them and poke them with my finger

Making a milkshake for my son at a counter. There are odd deep ice freezers which create cylinders of ice which are used to make the shake and the freeze the milkshake contents. I have my arm deep in these freezing containers and feel how the ingredients have frozen solid. I think that we're using a lot of this ice and we may run out of it, I see that the women who work here have several cyilinders of ice pre-frozen but I think that if there are a lot of orders that they can run out. I'm asking them "is that there the place where you make the ice?".

+ bad lips:
FA? waken? Lying on a sleeping bag/mat on the ground outside at the end of a long road-way? Young boys are running around being loud and I "shush!" them so they don't bother everybody. A girl is brought to us who tells us her story of the lip enhancement surgery that went bad. I can see at first on her face that her lips are large and misshapen, they form a sort of lazy "S" shape on both upper and lower. She wrote a book about her ordeals, the title had the words "boo" and "poo" in it. The more I look at her lips the stranger they become. Now they're more normal shaped but really oversized, and there are regular bumps spread around them, and there are words written on them, (s.l. "life"?) she wrote these words during the operation with the expectation that they would fade in time, but they become permanent.

Later in the dream, there is an explosion (from the use of some hand-held heavy munitions? Like a bazooka?), and the "bad lips" girl's lips explode, as does her stomach. Now her over-large lips are empty hanging bloody meat flaps, as it her stomach.

+(f) I'm lying on a bed in my sister's bedroom in my CH, my young S1 is there as an older toddler, I'm holding him but some force is preventing me from bringing me close to him, I wonder if he will remember this moment later in his life.

+ epic: rotating room [vivid, present, long, recall just medium though, all these scenes are from this dream, I feel]
I walk in off the street to some establishment, a company run by two nerdy guys. (I know them, sort of?) I catch a glimpse of what's going on but I head back out to the street, but I feel a pull to return so I go back inside. I see the guys who run it, and I move towards the back and start to find the rooms. These rooms have groups of people in them, who are sitting and talking, studying, doing things. But the "stage" inside each of these rooms rotates so that the entire room's contents and all the people rotate slowly around in a circle, and colorful lights flash while this happens. I see a guy in one of the larger rooms who I think is CL (college housemate, grad school), I think I haven't seen him in a long time. I'm trying to figure out if it's him.

Lunch line at the cafeteria, is it late? There are dishes on display, they are made from dark-colored rice shaped into mounds. There are 3 variants on the dish all made from the same rice, one is just shape into a log-shape, one is covered with leaves like a tamale, there's another one.

Inside a club, there's a sign, a bunch of people are planning to meet and drink beer, they're gathering and I'm waiting for the people to buy the beer. Seated at the bar, the choices are discussed. There's (chocolate?) beer, and a variant with garlic, but it's root beer not alcoholic beer, and someone mentions that the garlic addition is from the Garlic Festival in Gilroy (CA). There's a really big, fat guy with a bulging naked stomach and I see his arm reaching for things in front of me, I think it takes a lot of overeating to get that fat. His skin is mottled reddish like a red-head.

several sexy scenes:

Spoiler for sexy encounter #1:

I walk up to a girl who's sitting on a stool, and I spread her legs and she's naked and I reach for her (ahem) and spread it open and begin intercourse? sort of vague

Spoiler for sexy encounter #2, explicit:

I'm sitting with my (girlfriend?) on a couch, I begin oral sex on her. She's sitting up on the couch and I'm kneeling in front of her. I focus on her cl!t with my tongue and lips and give her a good tongue-lashing. I see she is getting more excited. As she approaches orgasm she directs me to lick it from the top. I'm going all around it and I see she's approaching orgasm and then she climaxes, and enters the period of over-sensitivity and I stop. I move up to her face and kiss her and she sort of turns away, like she doesn't want to experience her taste on my lips. [This was one of the longest, most stable, and "realistic" sex scenes in recent dream memory, nothing really odd happened and no strange interruptions]

I'm walking through the rooms of this club and looking for a sexual encounter. There are heads of (female sex robots?) lining some shelves and I think about those briefly, there are groups of people around, I find one girl and

Spoiler for sexy encounter #3, explicit:

have her lie down on her back on the ground and get on top of her. I reach down and guide myself into her, insertion is difficult but I manage to begin. After a short while I adjust the position, where I bring my knees up and am half-kneeling still in missionary, this allows me fully deep penetration and the best sensation, it's going well. The girl then says "are you going to pop soon, or are we going to be going at it for a while?" I immediately answer "I'm going to pop soon." Then some woman comes by whom I feel I know and I tell her "I'M BUSY!" She starts talking to me and I repeat again, "I'M BUUUSSYYYY!". Then I realize I've slipped out of the girl I was having sex with, and see I've lost the erection. My (ahem) has become very small, and there is a large bump on the side of it under the foreskin. I pull back the foreskin and see a blister right on the top just a back from the head, I think I got this from all the sex I was just having.

, the dream transitions.

I am "awake", realizing I just woke from a dream, [but I'm still dreaming, but don't realize it fully]. I'm seeing a night-time cityscape in front of me, viewed from a distance as through a window, the buildings are covered with tiny lights that are the lit windows. The shapes of the buildings where they meet the ground is very curvy and organic and alien looking, like the buildings grow from the ground as living things. I think to myself, "where am I? Is this a real city?" I have no idea where I am, so I
open my eyes to see where I am and I see my waking bed-side. ["Oh...", it was a dream vision, I realize.]

I check the clock and see it is about @6 hours. I become very awake. It is hard to get back to sleep, wife is also wakeful and noisy and moving around. I try different relaxation techniques, including all-body scan with relaxation. That helps, I start to lose focus while doing that. Then I work on projecting myself out of my head and body, imagining myself flying around and being not locked into my body. The "locked into the body" and the "grasping mind" are the things I find that keep me awake. Relaxation helps, but turning off that "mind locked into my head" phenomenon is also required in order to fall asleep. I eventually do sleep and have series of more dreams over the next 4-ish hours.

+ I'm in my adult CA PTL home. There are groups of kids with women teachers outside in our back yard. My wife is around. The kids come in and the scene seems to now be in my CH dining room [waking location recognition, not in dream]. There is a cloth work of art on the wall to the left, taking up the whole wall to the ceiling. A (girl?) starts climbing it and I think this will ruin it but it doesn't, she reaches the top and enters some sort of pocket there and falls face-first down to the floor inside the layer of fabric. Some more kids do this after her.

+(f) [from a longer sequence] I'm walking through some doorways, looking for a particular girl, she is some hostess of a company and I need her attention for something? I give her a gift in a box, she opens it and takes it out, it is a lacy/sexy top and bottom, sort of lingerie, but it is made from a bronze metallic rings material and is mostly transparent. She really likes the gift but is sort of surprised by it. Some other people around me comment on it.

During some brief waking I decide my recall is weak for the recent dreams and resolve to pay more attention to the dreams to recall them better. Indeed the experiences following were more vivid.

+ I wake in a room, like a hotel room. I'm naked and the window curtains are open. I stand up and pull the (white, down comforter it seems to be) around my waist to go to the window to pull the drapes. As I pull them I'm outside on a walkway that goes past businesses, there's a woman with her daughter there who slumps down sitting against the wall of a building, the girl is also naked (?) and wrapped in a blanket like me. I go back into my room, and now I notice it is much darker that the drapes are all pulled. I decide I want to peek outside the curtains at the people, viewing them unseen. I hold the curtains tightly and try to open them just a crack so no one will see me [DS], and I do this but realize all I can see is the window screen which mostly blocks my vision. I adjust and find a little opening where I can clearly see people outside. Then the (woman?) comes to my door and I let her in, and she starts talking, someone else comes in (another woman?) and they argue, and the 2nd woman says to the 1st, "I can't work with you, we're done." I remember [FALSE] that we were all in a (music band?) together and this means the end of that. I tell the 2nd woman s.l. "thanks for breaking up the band and forcing me out as well."

Then I'm lying on my back on the ground looking up at a pure blue sky [DS DS DS!!!!]. I'm still thinking about the band breaking up and am really sad about this, and say/think "you can get bad news while looking at the beautiful, blue Californian sky." I stand up and I'm on the lawn of my CH backyard [I'm aware of the location in the dream] There is an odd pattern cut into the grass [DS]: like part of the grass where I'm standing hasn't been mowed in quite a while and is getting quite and looks unkempt, but there is a line like a rectangle extending most of the width across the grass a few feet in front of me that shows that an area had recently been mown. I know this indicates that (something that I can't remember) was just down to the lawn. I head up the steps towards the house.

I'm still thinking about the band breakup, and I think I should call my best friend MR, that I have an appointment with him at 2pm, and that I need to gather together my clothing in preparation for my return-trip to [foreign country]. Inside the house [not accurate] there is my dad and my mother. I see my mother sitting at a small table (eating?). I ask her what I'm going to do right now and she says "eat some pizza!" (which she just made, apparently). I walk over to a counter/cabinet where there is a microwave and see two small red circles on a a cutting board and think these must be sausage/pepperoni from the pizza and pick one up and take a bite, only to find it is crunch and bland and is actually a radish. I put a (drink?) into the microwave and warm it up.

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2016-10-06

+ PTL garden & plants
+ playing and stringing guitar, trying to play "Hero" by Family of the Year. I can hear the intro in my head and I start to place my fingers but the strings have all come off.
+ job, office, CC, sit on tree trunk, McDonald's
+ bag stolen, chase thief, get bag back, are my wallet and passport there?
+ changing channels/scenes on some adult video which I'm watching with my parents, I feel very uncomfortable watching it with them, I can't find a non-NSFW scene, one scene is just the faces of a man and a woman facing the camera, sort of gnome-like faces with large, cartoon-shaped oblong noses, it just lasts a second.

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2016-10-07

+ [forgotten]

+ star trek / star wars / lightsaber battle, the beams are thick and wide (cylindrical), and bendable (with magnets?), holster many on left hip, then holster an open super sharp jackknife, it cuts the top of my left leg at the hip, both an entrance and exit slice wound. Starts bleeding profusely. I sit down in calf-deep water and apply direct pressure to stop the bleeding, then I'm telling a friend of the important of direct pressure in first aid to stop bad bleeding.

+ some guests are smoking: lowbrow redneck types. I find stubbed out cigarette and cigar butts on the sides of the furniture. I pick up a cigar stub and take a sniff to smell it.

+ flying from CH neighborhood: parade balloon figures lit by spot lights. I feel like I may be able to fly if I believe I can and I just try to take off. I take a running start and jump up superman style, and surprise, I can fly! I notice the lights below me changing in perspective as I move. I fly towards a giant female balloon dressed in super tight leggings with a very visible camel toe

+ at a downtown intersection, with a gun (revolver) in my left hand, leaning out the window (?), pointing the gun at some guy's head, cocking back the hammer, but not shooting, I release the hammer back. Police woman comes up, there is a girl in the crosswalk who falls down and her top falls down revealing her left breast, she falls backwards and hits the ground on her back and her whole boob pops out and it really bounces around. A police officer is sitting on her chest? The female officer is questioning me and I continually say I released the hammer and did not shoot that guy.

+ scene from PTL, there's a fire drill, a patio door [FALSE] on the front walk to the front door (side of living room) is open and many people are helping and moving through the house. My kids helped with using a water hose on a the (fake?) fire?

Many scenes in childhood home and neighborhood:

+ street gate and Latvian Asian (L's) neighbors on the driveway)
On the crossroads of S & F outside CH, on the park side of F, I close a portable gate (about 1.5m tall) made from wire across the entire street, closing it. I think this is good (for some reason). and that cars coming this way will stop and turn back and go another way. I walk back to my house. Then I think at night, people may wack into this fence, so maybe it's not a great idea. I also visualize the L's neighbors trying to get into and out of their steep driveway and that this fence would be in their way and they'll complain. Then The L's (both husband and wife) and standing in front of me, I'm a few steps down our steep driveway facing the street, and the husband is talking and I don't understand him. It's some foreign language. I say "I'm sorry, I don't understand Asian languages, are you speaking Mandarin? Or Japanese?" He answers, "It's Latvian, I'm from Latvia." I say "oh shame on me for not recognizing a slavic langauge." Something about his wife working for a Latvian law firm?

+ in sister's room, my wife/girlfriend [FALSE] has invited many strangers in odd clothing (costumes?) into our home. I think they could steal stuff. I tell her (girlfriend/wife), she's standing right in front of me and I'm looking down at her face, sternly, that "you brought these people here, you need to take care of them." But then I'm sitting on a bed there in the room and there are girls and guys sitting on other beds around the room, and I call them by their name and assign them to sleep in particular beds. One guy to my right I don't remember his ame, "What's your name?", I think I will sleep here on the bed I'm sitting on. Then I visualize my bedroom next door, with the 2-3 [2 IWL] twin beds, and think my childhood friend will take one bed and I should take the other so we could talk about the old days far into the night.

+ in the living room with young grandpa and grandma: I see him as I come down the stairs and turn to the hall towards the back porch. I notice he looks very young, he has no gray hair

+ out the door of the back porch on the deck by the stairs to the back yard: my small electronic organ is there and I'm preparing to play the opening to "Arthur's Theme" by Christopher Cross. I can't get the opening right. I can't remember the exact notes I need to play. I know the sound and rhythm, but I can't get more than a few notes into it before I need to go and get the music for it. As I leave the keyboard another guy comes up and starts playing it perfectly right away and I feel humiliated. Then he starts banging on a key which he says is sticking, over and over. I"m looking through a music book but can't find the piece there. I return t the deck and the organ has been put aside and people are saying how someone shot (ping pong or gols balls?) into the Halloween cauldron that is over the fence in the neighbor's yard.

My son is sitting with his (slight older) girlfriend in chairs there on the deck, and she is feeding with small treats and encouraging him to eat.

+ club / clothes / 3 birds in water / water-cube

+ little living soldiers game

+ scary storm cloud

+ ping pong

+ women playing video games: my name on screen

+ LUCIDD 209 LD#209 in building, get lucid, do TOTM basic pocket summon get handful of tiny coins, 5's and 2's, ask guy what they are, he says "5 drachma", keep looking at them, shake his hand, go outside, kiss girl interrupt her she's talking to some guy, "mm, well, ok" she says, I stop and squat down and look around, then she leans in an initiates a kiss with me, we stand up entangled, things get hot, then the dream fades.

+(f) in a house with people playing with furry pets (cat?)

+ "RTL" guy in restaurant, lots of food laid out on on the tables, it's a private party

+ return to room, meet family I saw earlier, kids misbehaved so they're going home, enter office, clsoe dor, walk along long narrow table to far end, move to end, make sure there's room for my feet at the end, set up to work there on my laptop

+ middle-aged asian guy sitting at table eating plain-looking dim sum. "Ssssshhhh!" he tells me and motions to a cart of food and drink behind him. I go there and notice cans of beer, and other drinks, I take one thinking it's beer but it's dark, sweet, and I think it's coke. I sit on the other end of the table from him and suddenly a commercial break starts up, an animation of a peanut butter jar appears in the air spinning around with music and a bunch of young Japanese advertising girls appear and I think this is hilarious and pretend to be the announcer caling out "Jiff peanut butter! <etc.>". Then there's a small saucer of peanut butter in front of me and I'm trying to eat a piece but the chunk I'm trying to take is stuck via a strand to the chunk still on the saucer, I'm laughing and hurrying it's all hilarious and there's a guy sitting across from me and I'm shoving the peanut butter to him to eat and it spills and there's a huge stain on the table all the while the nice Japanese advertising girls are trying to help us eat it.

+ in some room [FA?] in bed with wife with sliding glass door [DS], outside are train tracks, 2 locomotive trains arrive simultaneously, both moving right to left. Our door is open, and people are streaming off the train, I want to go to the door to close it becaue I don't want people coming in our room. I get up and go there but go outside. Wife comes after me and before I can tell her not to close the door she closes it and it locks behind her. Now I'm standing on the platform in just my underwear and I'm furious at her for closing the door behind her and tell her so.

+ at workplace with [unknown] colleagues, I notice a donut tray, boy it looks good, I take a small pastry and eat it. I come back to that area and now a lunch platter is spread on the ground. I'm inspecting the packages. One of them is like bento box, strangely shaped

+ looking at CH back lawn (green) from deck talking to Asian girl, I tell her "this is my home! I grew up here!" [finally, some location awareness in the dream!] then I show off by jumping from the deck to the lawn (it's about 20 feet down) and land, she's amazed, I think of saying "yeah, I'm kind of like superman" but decide against it

+ LUCIDD 208 LD#208 tree on the hill, streams, picnicking groups, climb hill hard dirt path climbing, woman in the group above me which is getting up to leave mutters an excuse for leaving, s.l. "because ... blah blah...dream". Dream? That gets my attention. I do a slow, careful, thoughtful nose pinch and yep, I'm dreaming. The dream ends/transitions after that and I lose lucidity. [Shortest LD ever , but I count it because I had high awareness for at least a moment, and completed the affirmation that I was dreaming].

+ volleyball game, several points, I flub a couple serves and let a ball pass that was in bounds, some balls were out, the guy who serves following me also flubs a serve so I don't feel so bad

+(f) some guy is talking, he's a fishing guide, then I'm imagining swimming frantically in murky water trying to evade sharks.

+ wine tasting: woman ways "grey (?) [meaning white] wine is my favorite!" I say "white is my favorite too, but so it red, I like all types!"

+(f) floating in a boat with a girl up a tight/narrow waterway and sneaking a bite of sushi before our scheduled meal at our destination

+ gathering talking with groups at tables, a guy I'm talking with leave and sits at another table (picnic style bench table) and he's angry at me for dissing him but I yeah, OK, let's talk all night, "we can eat ding dongs, dildos, and ho hos" and think "oops that was a slip of the tongue"

+(f) in semi-darkness arriving at some parking lot place with lots of people, I notice a narrow parking place next to a driveway

+ in a tent swinging above the ground sorting my shirts and my sons's socks

+ miniature stick constructions from big log, avoiding giants on the road.

+(f) [last night perhaps?] on a beach listening to the "shhhhhh"ing sound that the waves made as they pulled back and the water sinks

+ old woman tag, fragile bugs on plants, woman races and breaks her leg (compound practically, bone sticking out but skin not broken), I prepare ice pack thinking about how best to make it at what temperature and with how much insulation, in my CH back porch, hopping over washing machine which is blocking my way.

+ in CA central valley, dark stormy skies, cold, cartoon-colored houses in a row, see lightning going off in the distance, group of kids from across the street comes to us (I'm a kid?)

+ playing pinball, punching buttons trying to understand the starting controls, many balls in play, I vigorously hit the flippers, afterwards I"m in my car and my strikingly beautiful girlfriend comes up to me to say goodbye, leans through the window and kisses me. I love her so much, she is so beautiful, I should just break up with her now otherwise she will 100% break my heart. She puckers up and leans in, her mouth is way too small when she puckers, like a 1/4 inch in diameter.

+ girls gymnastics in huge hall, the library card dispenser machine goes BZZZT! and displays a message that all the cards are sold out, this happens every time I try to key in the "purchase card" combo.

+ buying socks in crowded department store aisle with my kids, "Excuse me, young man", trying to find matching orange-band white athletic socks in the bin, many very orange socks and some with the band but they're too thin, cheap feeling, to my right I notice colorful shorts: in my GS colors of purple and gold, in shiny, satiny material. I take them out and look at them and determine they're too girly-looking: they have terry-cloth portions and are quite small it turns out.

+ rock climbing

+ bikini

+ kisses

+ journey outside, frozen wave

Horrible sleep, to bed extremely late, ears sore from wearing ear plugs/ear buds so no ear plugs, noisy truck parked idling outside, etc. So I was up after only "sleeping" for 2 hours, up for 2 hours, then returned to sleep, trying to WILD, doing SSILD, takes a long time to get back to sleep, but finally slept and started dreaming.

Most of the recall is vague including the LD, but the LD itself was I remember extremely clear and stable and an amazing, fantastic dream-view from my CH.

I end up sleeping for around 3-4 more hours, there is a fair bit of dreaming, but recall of it is poor

As I'm falling asleep I'm doing relaxing SSILD, telling myself some mantras like "I'm dreaming!" and trying to recreate that "WILD feeling" with my vision/mind's eye and I start to feel some REM atonia signs but they don't get stronger. I aim for total relaxation and fall asleep, telling myself I will get lucid within the dream.

There were dreams before and after the LD, mostly forgotten.

+ LUCIDD 207 LD#207 I'm standing in the living room of my CH [waking assessment of location] looking out the window. It's night. I'm extremely interested in the view, I notice more and more fascinating things about it: the buildings in the distance, the landscape/ground itself is like a huge rocky shelf. I'm telling someone, "Look at that! Look at that! Hey, wait! , do a nose pinch RC, and get lucid. I go outside to the deck through the dining room's sliding glass door, and want a better perspective on that fabulous view so I jump up into the air to fly. The view changes perspective from the altitude. I look back behind me [something I don't normally do, I think it's interesting to try to see your takeoff-point!] and where I came from is sort of vague but I see something, and then continue looking forwards. I'm very happy with the LD, visuals are stable, crisp/vivid, and the buildings/scenery is really interesting. I consider that this could be a really long LD. I look down to the ground and notice a female [uh oh, here we go again].

Spoiler for sexy encounter:

I land and go up to her and say "$5 for a BJ!" (I make the wording specifically vague, in fact I mean that she must pay ME afterwards!). I'm standing over her and she's sitting, she's perhaps 30-something with long blonde hair, medium-large build, and showing a very nice exposed cleavage with her outfit. She starts the BJ and in a few seconds

the dream ends.

+in a kitchen, preparing food, I have a big pile of food in a microwave, then I take a big handful of chili from some container and stick it right in my mouth. I'm eating fried crispy things that are thickly covered in a salty flavoring spice that falls off everywhere every time you take a bit. I'm talking with this snack, saying "it's really oily and salty".

Yesterday was no recall due to waking life stress. Thankfully today I had some nice recall. Fairly mundane but still interesting and fun.

(early)

+ [actually, in retrospect, sort of an epic! Long, multi-scene] sitting at my desk in class, like in high school. The teacher is lecturing and I don't have my notebook, it's across the room. I'm trying to remember what he says because I know we'll be tested on it. He starts asking a question or saying something really important and I leap up and go across the room, grab my notebook, and return to my desk and start furiously taking notes. A girl sitting on my right is really annoyed that I'm taking notes, literally writing down what he says. I write down the words the teacher is saying, and one of the words wraps around from one line to the beginning of another one. The girl is staring daggers at me and my notebook, and I write a smiley in the book to tease her. I think of drawing a penis to get her to stop, then I decide against it, but continue thinking how I should draw it: foreskin? No foreskin? How would I draw the tip? Then someone in my class is saying my full name "X....Y...Z...!" out loud. I've been suggested/elected for something? I decide to make a deal with the teacher. "OK, " I say, "but if <some condition happens>....then we get to hold a PIZZA PARTY!" All the student in the class cheer, yelling "Yeah!".

I'm in a pool playing water polo. The ball comes my way, but a player on the opposing team picks it up and holds it up out of the water. I quickly zip to him and strike the ball out of his hand, shooting it directly into the opposing goal which is not far away. I cheer and my teammates cheer with me. More plays ensue, and struggle for the ball in front of the opposing team's goal.

I get out of the water and talk with people. I'm thinking about getting with some girls I know. I'm in my swim suit, and I need to get dressed. I'm trying to pull on some shorts, hopping on one leg, and need to head to the bus.

On the bus, I decide I want to go find (former jr high girlfriend, MaBo). I walk down the aisle of the bus, which takes a 90 degree turn to the left at one point, and continues on straight. I go around the corner and look for her. I find her [doesn't look right] sitting with a girl from band, P (who's also busty). The band girl is sitting practically right on top of MB's lap, facing her. They both look up at me as I approach. I decide to make some small talk, "Hey, what did you think of the game [water polo?]".

Off the bus people are mingling in groups. I come to the conclusion that I want to get really serious with MB. I've been holding back but I decide that I could have sex with her. We're still going out but she may leave me because of my moving too slow "around the bases." I decide to go full-steam ahead and resolve to find her and tell her that I'm ready to get down to business. Then I see/hear someone say that she's been kissing/holding hands with TeLe, a neighborhood boy. I get a glance of a group of them, including MB looking good in a sleeveless top, sitting next to TL on a couch. Am I too late? I stand on the side of the couch. TL gets up and I say "Hey, man, haven't seen you in ages!" We shake hands. I ask him "have you seen DD?" He doesn't say anything but stands facing me and keeps holding my hand. I think we've been holding hands too long now and it's starting to make me uncomfortable.

I leave this area with some gruff older guy. He's teasing me/grilling me about MB, that she is taking advantage of me. I say it was back in 7th grade [actually pretty close, 8th], and I say that I'm going to be playing with he awesome boobs. He says "yeah, they were, but they're probably (super saggy) now". That may be, but I still intend to have fun with her.

(middle)

+(f) down on the floor with my old dog "L". He's frisky. He may bite me so I hold his muzzle in my hand

+(f, vague) doing something with people outside?

(later, after SSILD and WILD attempt)

+ sitting on a couch with people around, I'm trying to figure out which girl I'm going to be with. There has been my steady one, does she still want to be with me? She stands up with a group and moves to the table, I decide to follow and also stand up, thinking that I'm leaving something behind where I've been sitting but I don't care. The two girls and others head to the tables. One girl sits at one table, and another sits at a different table. Great, I think, they've split up and I have to decide, I can't be near both. I go to the one to the left and lean over her and whisper ask if she wants me to be with her, she indicates yes, and I'm happy and sit down next to her.

stressful waking life, late to bed, recall medium/poor

+(f, vague) in a kitchen preparing food

+ at work arriving late climbing staircase trying to avoid (female CEO [dreamsign]?) noticing me late. There is a meeting which I used to be a member of but (quit? was kicked off?) with lots of people at a long table with very complex mechanisms in front of them which they're studying, 3-dimensional puzzles. I enter a room (shop?) with a flying kit (?).

+ trying to find a room at college (but I'm not a college student?) at (Harvard?), I see dorm-style buildings, low but many stories, balconies packed together, there are probably no free rooms anywhere the students have rented them all. In a house with students we're making up some house rules, we vote and all agree and then we start to write them down and I realize we've forgotten to vote on some of the most important topics. I think I should get root beer for everyone. Should I get six individual bottles? Or should I get a large 2-liter bottle? the problem with the large bottle is that they lose carbonation quickly. I put my (wine?) glass of rootbeer on a shelf in the refrigerator.

(wake, BTS, more dreams probably, forgotten)

+ there is a competition, I vs. another beefy guy, you have to acquire 3 matching metal poles and place them on your stand in order to win. My opponent goes out to an early lead, but I manage to find some gold and other poles and complete 2 sets of 3 and claim completion. The judge (a woman?) is grilling me about how/why I did what I did, I kept evading the questions but finally blurted out "OK, I couldn't get the [good?] ones because he [my opponent] got them at the start!].

Then some crazy woman driving a massive truck at high speed hits our [boat?] head on and doesn't stop, she just keeps driving right on down the levy (raised roadway near the water) pushing our vehicle farther and farther away. [COLOR="#0000FF"] I'm aghast with surprise of the situation, I (fly?) following the truck trying to pull our vehicle back to us with telekinesis, first time doesn't work, second time it does work sort of.

Then I'm talking to my wife about the ship masts: should we install gold or (other metal) masts? "No!" she says, we should keep the wooden masts just as the ships were prepared with already.

+ walking/driving by some restaurant (Mexican?), there's some party and we should buy lunch for the whole party, I think I want to get it here. Some close-ups of different kinds of chicken nuggets: real chicken wings, formed nuggets from chicken sludge, and some third variety.

+ angry librarian

+ fight / blade / gold room boomerang / eliza

+ aerobics class starting up in the gym, indian woman hogs the equipment

+ in class, looking at girls outside in hallway, one buxom one presents a full naked side boob view, someone taunts our class, girls are cowering in a pile and whining that the boys should defend them

Spoiler for bunch of nudity:

+ in a van, my "yurt" with a fur-lined upper level is just outside, I keep looking at it, a half-naked (bottomless) girl climbs up to the fur floor of the yurt and sticks her butt out while kneeling, I have a side view, I think if I go out there I'll get an eyefull. Girls appear in the van, I see a topless one with freckles everywhere and I exclaim because she has exquisite breasts. In the driver's seat one girl is sort of choking/dominating another girl, pressing her hand up against her chin and forcing her head all the way back, another girl presents a bottomless view with a "shave shadow". I'm taking it all in.

+ attack response preparations begin. The troops are gathering. I see that the missile silos have been fired up. "Oh God, they've even fired up the missile silos."
Then the Star Wars "Force Theme" and I say "Could you at least not play the Star Wars music?". Refugees are getting on a vehicle to take them away, people are going over a gangplank. A bus tries to go across the gangplank but a guy stops it with his hand. People and I get on the bus. I'm saying "Well at least we'll make it to Siberia, where you can find places with water and nature, but ", I joke, "the mosquitoes are the size of birds." Someone then says "yeah, but the place where there are sunsets and rivers are the hottest places."

The bus driver then directs the bus to head up a steep stairway, and I wonder how it could make progress, but it makes it up OK. On a landing part-way up the hill, on the left, I see a few marijuana plants prominently growing. There is even a sign there, "Marijuana." I say, "OH, LOOK! MAR-EE-JOO-AH-NA!" emphasizing every syllable.

Huge night: solid (but short) DILD, several near WILDs late morning including start of REM atonia, several vivid semi-lucids, one epic in vividness/experience

Late morning doing relaxing SSILD, trying to "relax" into visuals. Dreams/imagery/REM atonia don't come while mind is too alertly focused on visual field, mind must be occupied on something like SSILD cycles or Ah visualization or very light thoughts. Ear rushing and eye twitching happened while on back (like yesterday's WILD-ish experience). Did a RC but awake. Got strong body twitches while lying on side a little later.

+ bubble fly CH with PR and KR flying up from back garden (L tree?) I'm waving bubbles this propels us along we drive back to street by G's driveway and I do a power slide and whip around in a fast circle at the end which drags K lying flat on the ground really quickly across the very rough pavement and scratches her arms very badly and she says s.l. "Augh, I didn't need that" I later apologize to her, go down back steps and both my mother [deceased] and father are happily there working on the garden, the steps are soft dirt shaped like bricks, my feet and other's feet sink deeply into the steps, I notice this but others say they're soon to be lined with (concrete?). I think to myself how wonderful it is with my mother here and how sad it would be (is?) when she is no longer with us.

+ renting a helicopter with son S2, afterwards I say (about flying it) "that was f^&*^%$ AWESOME!" swimming to turn-off, go in, the mechanics are there to immediately check the helicopter upon my return of it, one walks towards me holding a wrench, "Ah, crap," I think, "something is missing from the tool chest and they're going to ding me for it", but instead, this is an extra tool? Then the team of mechanics hold a conversation [in a foreign language] in an Abbott & Costello comedy format:

"Shall we add it?" [to our tool collection]
"Let's add it?"
"Add it?"
"Add it?"
"Let's add it"
etc.

+ mango, homeschoolers prank boy suffering from "short leg" syndrome, I free him from a big meat/freezer locker behind 2 doors where he could have suffocated, then I'm taking bites from a large, cut "street-food" mango, see homeschoolers (skin? fruit?) is mottled with mold, I go back inside to the open fruit market continuing to bite from the mango, wondering if it was cleaned properly. There are other fruit vendors inside: one is advertising long, translucent, juicy strips made from the entirety of some tree.

+ epic: airplane, at gate with attendant, show ID, woman with 2x 45kg of modeling clay paying customs on automated system me:"hope it doesn't dry out", she:"expands like an a$$hole" [at altitude], driving over gently undulating land, I make joke about how [try hard to remember name of airline company associated with England] "British Airways announces new corporate policy limiting modeling clay to 5kg per customer after mid-flight incident", , turn fast sudden corner to right, on very wide driving fast on deep dry dusty dirt roads, I instantly think, "Oh, I'm in Africa! Boy, Africa sure looks different from America/Europe!"
Odd, fantastic cars come the other way. I procede straight on this road which narrows then I'm walking. I notice the houses are covered not in paint or shingle, but flowers. One house is covered in small red and white flowers. The road is now more a wide foot path absolutely bursting with tall bushes of flowers on every side and in front of me. "Wow!" I say, "who know Africa was so colorful and DREAM-LIKE!!!. I'm amazed at everything I see and keep saying this several times. I encounter a flock of about 8 very large (meter tall) purple geese walking up the street the other way. I look into the distance and see a city in the distance and think about getting back to the airport, I think there's plenty of time.

Then I start encountering nude and topless women sunbathing right there on the pathway. The path is now like a narrow footpath leading through gardens and back yards. I come upon two beautiful young women lying on the ground and as I approach they both turn over and I get a quick glimpse of their marvelous breasts. They ignore my presence. I keep walking and encounter more topless women, middle aged and a bit fat, they are all cooling themselves from the heat outside in narrow streams of very cold water. I feel how very cold this water is and think it's colder than it needs to be.

I reach one point and a narrator (?) says this is the end of the "two-people" path and now the "solo/alone" path is beginning, and I get excited about this thinking I can find a beautiful topless/nude woman, think for a second about continuing to the airport, but see a group including some apparently mostly nude women in a pool area up ahead and head towards them.

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

I go to a young woman who seems to be wearing a skimpy bikini but she seems nude at the same time. She has a well-manicured landing strip and I come up to her and talk to her asking about "which sport she is going out for?" while I bring my mouth to her right breast and take it in, and

I wake up.

+ LD#206 LUCIDD 206 bowling alley, standing on left side, ask for lane #2 to be turned on for me, I don't want to be against the left wall lane #1. Sign in on electronic score card, real name, go looking for ball, try 15 lb but fingers too tight, see a "36 pound" blank ball, one with three holes clumped together, then balls vanish, area blocked off by corrugated metal sheets [construction area?], go back through huge sports hall where ping-pong matches are under way. I jump/glide/fly down stairs, not sure if I'm flying because I crash into pile of cushions at bottom of stairs, I jump/leap again towards the exit and think I may be flying again, I hold my self very still and notice that I continue to glide toward the wall in the air and get lucid. I start rubbing my hands and repeating "I'm dreaming! I'm dreaming!" I notice through a square lattice door a series of colorful flowers growing from the ground with foot-long stalks and flat flower petals, 3-4 different flat colors. I turn back into the gym room and think, "OK, TOTM!" But the basic TOTM tasks don't come to me instantly, and the dream fades.

+ I'm in a car (portion of longer dream?) driving on steep hills in neighborhood I have to wait for some passing cars at an intersection. I need to turn around I enter a cul-de-sac and start to pull a U turn fist I head close to a house's driveway and am forced through two signs by their drive way I'm turning to the left and head a bit too close to a wall/fence of theirs in the road and hit it lightly and it shakes. I think "oh crap", but it doesn't appear too damaged, I glance over my shoulder behind me to if anyone is coming out of the house, I back up and drive on

+(f) I'm riding the bus with my kids. We're driving through some suburban downtown business district. I notice it is raining outside. I say "Oh No way I'm going to go running in that rain" (back to the house?)

+(f) coins? Small devices outside with people?

+ molly on the slide, sexual encounter at the top and at the bottom, people come, but I work them into the narrative and they don't bother my activities with Molly. Then a woman sends some kids to another section and tells them to stop what they're doing, something relating to the glare on the monitor, then she is digging into a desk of mine looking for incriminating material, inside are some books, a book laid open to a page with a quote on it and some sand dollars marking the spot, she says something about this. Then things get vague and I get frisky with two very buxom girls, I take their tops off (asking one of them to help me take the other one's top off) but they disappear and I wake up.

+ LD#205 LUCIDD 205 paralyzed FA: A scene forms before my eyes and I'm lying in bed looking at the ceiling and walls of my bedroom. Initially my focus is centered on the light fixtur and I look at it until it comes into clear focus. I notice the central light fixture is wrong, the walls are the wrong color, and the wrong texture. The texture is sort of made from 1-inch wide thin long bands/braids I get lucid (maybe doing nose pinch), but I find I can't move. The visuals are stable. I struggle a bit to get up, finding I can't move, and when I start to be able to move (my waking body?) the visuals fade but I remain lucid. I relax and focus on my vision again and the light fixture fades back in again and visuals have returned. The texture on the ceiling/walls has changed to a repeating square pattern including a small bump that sticks out from the surface. I work on moving the blanket off of me in order to get up, while holding my focus on the light fixture to keep things stable, but moving is hard and I can barely make progress to get up. I hear someone doing something on my left in the clothing cabinet [maybe waking sound, not sure] , visuals fade and I'm awake.