FryingMan

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00:00 Saturday 2013-12-21 comp #16 night #9 LD #13
01:30 bedtime
02:16 real bedtime

04:10

F1) a bunch of people becoming lucid, in a competition

05:34

F2) ice cream shop in the mall it's our shop, we expanded it, I see the early construction of just the foundation and the subfloor. Everyone's congratulating us, they like it better than the smaller one. There's a spot at the end which is ours. Sister and BIL came by the shop.

F3) moving through a huge 3d building/space there are peole everywhere. There is a love story, there is only one person for you and you're trying to find them sometimes there are hard situations where more than one person wants the other. Moving through these huge structures, getting to the top (flying?), I'm trying to get higher and higher to get to the top to see something about the roof. I"m not able to get up there.

07:36 "The dog that wouldn't die"

1) On deck at parent's house, I see my dog wrapped up in newspaper, he's very warm there in the sun, he's normal sized, but he's not responding to me, I unwrap him, I think he's dead, I take out the small battery from him and I see he's dead, now he's a tiny dog in which fits in the palms of my hands. I show him to my wife, I'm devastated. I run into the house to the laundry room to find some batteries to bring him back to life. I'm running in "where's the battery!? Where's the battery?!" My son shouts after me "that's stupid, don't even try it, what are you doing?" I get a battery and put it in. For a moment I see him alive, then I don't see him any more, and I think "where did he go?"

I'm entering a mad scientist laboratory, a big industrial medical facility, I'm talking to the mad scientist. I see a living dismembered dog head on the table strapped down. The face is facing away from me the head is lying on its side, I see the severed neck meat with the bone in the middle. There's an experiment that's being done stimulating different parts of the brain of the dog which are actually located a bit down on its back. Then the head is upright on the table facing me, the pelt extends down beyond the head. They run experiments and the head yelps and yowls and apparently dies at the end. It's very disturbing. Something is written on a sign in red next to the head, it reads "Hi (my name)", an assistant says that was painted with yak butt blood. I'm outraged by this whole thing. I just want to take my dog which is in a bag by the table who has been brought back to life by the scientist. I take my dog and run away with some other kids.

2) sliding down a hill with some other people with some animals, my dog zips by on his own down the hill. We're going somewhere, maybe to the beach. We come to a house, there are kids and adults. There's a hedgehog walking slowly across the lawn away from us. We look at him. The hedgehog then see see is climbing up on the beams of the overhang of the roof. Someone says "don't shock him! He was starting to come out!" I look at him for a little while and decide he's not coming out.

I go inside the house and see a bag of chips (round flavored corn chips) I eat a few chips and realize this bag may have been meant for something else and shouldn't have eaten them. There's a party in this house, there's a lot of food open around the place, there's taco mix, dips, there's a table in a living room they're packing up this food to take it somewhere, there's a bag on a table, I lift it and hear glass clinking together, I think there may be wine insdie, I look inside and see two wine bottles, they're opened, I'm thinking "how are these not spiling, they're on their sides?" I look inside there is an amazing invention: a special stopper that goes down inside the bottle that allows you to store an opened bottle of wine on its side. There's a funny big upright handle that attaches to the edge of the table (like a beer tap) that holds the opened and stoppered bottle of wine upside down. The idea is you must pick up this wine with one hand upside down, and you pass the bottle to your other hand, and it won't spill because of the stopper (explanation goes on for a while about the hand passing).

3) I'm with people in daylight in California, wow look at the blue sky, it's warm, There are kids and parents, they want to slide down the hill, across a busy street, I say "STOP!" "Don't do this, you have to set up someone to watch for traffic. When a car is coming you have to signal stop, and when the way is clear you signal go, I hold up my hands to show the signal for stop and the signal for go. The kids are mimicing these signals to show that they understand. I'm amazed at this blue sky, I'd never get that sky where I currently live.

F4) I see the DG (wife of JT) with funny looking eyelids. I think about how peole change, I saw her in a party room.

08:12 BTB

10:52 Christmas mother lightwaber battle crow girl (LD)

F5) I'm a detective.

4) Christmas celebration. I'm home finally to see family for Christmas. Not my family though, I don't recognize the faces. A very large, sumptuous rich home with huge rooms, in the room where the Christmas tree will be. Earlier I selected a tree, and set it up, I thought it was a great tree, I brought it into a room to set it up and decorate. The tree starts falling apart, and I realize it had been constructed from smaller from little bits of branches all tied together. I could see little potted plant pine trees as part of it, it fell apart. I saw a green flag tied to the top of the tree, I thought it was a signal that it was a bad tree, I'm pissed about this tree.

I'm in a room with other men, trying to set up a long series of table/benches in order to be the work surface for preparing Christmas/decorating. The men are some agreeing with me some disagreeing, I'm setting up the tables so that one interlocks with the other to form a very long single table.

In a huge sumptuous house arguing with people I don't know about how to set things up for Christmas, we're disagreeing, there are two cavernous adjoining rooms, we're in the living room and the dining room is just beyond us, a huge open aired area. I'm upset, this is not how I wanted it to be, I wanted it to be the way when I was a boy. They're saying "we can set up this room then that room." I say, "NO, that room's the dining room, we're not going to set up the tree in there.

Then the whole thing turns into a giant mall with canned Christmas music and stores, highly commercial, my Jr high school best friend is in a shop preparing something, I'm so upset because this isn't how I want Christmas to be, I'm on the verge of tears. Then my mother (young) is on my left walking with me, I'm trying to hide from her that I'm crying, I don't want her to know that I'm upset, I think "I just wanted Christmas to be like when I was a boy!" I don't want to say this to her. Mother says to me "I think I know why you're upset," she's being very motherly, trying to explain that everythingis OK. We walk for a while end up outside.

5) fruit salad. In my parent's house living room. Wife is fixing somebody a fruit salad. I say "it's OK, I'll maek the fruit salad." I go to the kitchen start cutting fruit, I realize I don't know how much to make so I go back to the living room to ask who wanted it, "OK who's going to have the fruit salad?" there were two middle-aged women sitting in chairs to the right, one say "Oh no no I won't," the other woman says "Yes I'll have it," and someone else had left. So I went back to fix it.

Back in the living room, lying down on the couch, I look behind me and see a glance of my father naked, "ew" I think I didn't need to see that, then I thought "wow my body's a lot like his." There are guys in the room and they're fighting, I'm imaging it's a light saber battle with toy lightsabers with collapsing tubes. They're real but they're not. I'm imagining a lot of ways I'm winning this battle, lots of maneuvers like in the Star Wars movies, cutting off both hands of the opponent in a single swipe, I think if you cut their hands off it's such an easy way to win. Then I think "just cut right through them! How can you stop a light saber?!" Just cut their heads and bodies, I imagine doing this. They don't fall down or die. At one point I move to the entry way and extend my light saber about 15 feet to bonk one of the other guys.

6) crow girl LD #13

I'm in an unknown house in a hallway I see a room at the end, in the middle of the hallway just beyond me there's an open door leading up to the attic, it's like a closet stairway the walls are lined with books it's extremely cramped. I know that crow girl lives up there. I think she may be my wife. I have a feeling this is a scary nightmare. I call for her and expect her to come down, she starts coming down the stairs, she's young and beautiful with black hair but with a scary nightmare movie dead zombie exression on her face. I expect her to turn into a crow at any minute and it'll be scary. All of a sudden she's a small doll like a little straw man doll in a burlap sack with a drawn-on face, I'm holding this doll out in front of my face with my two hands. I start running the other way down the corridor all the while with my eyes fixed directly on this doll. I move into a room at the end of the hall still looking at this doll. I expect the doll will transform any second and it will be scary. I think "well that will only happen because I expect it to happen." I'm looking at this doll and realize I'm dreaming and I'm partially lucid. I'm still holding the doll and still scared a bit, say "I'm dreaming" again and all fear is gone, I'm lucid, and the doll is forgotten. I turn around in the room facing the door to the hallway. I'm ready for goals now. I begin my practiced group summons, and say "OK, line 'em...." I stop myself, wait, here I am jumping into girl stuff again, my partner's name is Pickman, I'll summon him and get some team points going, what was my partner's name again? Oh yeah, Pickman. And the next thing: I say again: "OK, ladies, line 'em..." (again I don't get to the word "up"), I'm instantly awake in bed, and finish the sentence, "oh, shit."

A slight variatoin on sleep-friendly fusion SSILD this time, I did it a few quick alternations like I mentioned last time: quick SSILD cycle, then relax, quck SSILD cycle, then relax, but then I moved to doing them together: I did the longer SSILD cycles, but with a relaxing mindset, so that I have the attention focused on the senses, but a softer attention, and try to move deeper into relaxation while doing the cycles at the same time. I do a few long cycles this way. Either I dropped the SSILD and went to sleep or I fell asleep while doin this combo technique, which would be great it's just what I was trying for!

Didn't stabilize! Argh! I remembered my teammate's name, but didn't remember to stabilize. I was also not calm, I felt very rushed.

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00:00 Friday 2013-12-20 comp #16 night #8
01:46 bedtime

05:19
lots of action in this waking, way more than what's recalled, I'm walking around doing lots of things.

1) morgan freeman has sexy time with a hot she-male. My view is from the feet of the she-male lying on its back. Morgan has his head oriented towards the feet and is face down, lying off to the right side of the SM. I say "Hey, this one's all you, Morgan." MF pays oral attention to the upper-body lady parts, and then moves down to do the same with the man parts. I'm thinking "ew."

2) a traitorous attack on a US warship by a team which intercepts American forces. Intelligence arrives up the river via boats via woman who hold the data, I see these boats arrive, once they women learn the schedule of the US vessel they deliver it to the interception team. the interception team launches a full scale attack: helicopters launch up from between the palm trees, some helicopters are purple, some are green, fruity/bright colored. I'm DO. George Bush Jr. is president and is on an open barge/boat with the interception (traitor) team, he doesn't like it, he's confused about this attack. All the traitors are trying to convince GB to attack, he doesn't want to. A black labradoodle dog (one of the traitors) with a half-dog, half-Jeb-Bush face is running on the shore alongside the barge, saying "We have to call mother and tell her to call George to talk some sense into him." But George is angry. I give the orders to the attacked ship (which is the USS Missouri, and is anchored in a harbor in a tropical island) to return fire against the traitors. I see massive gunfure erupt between the two ships. The traitorous ship is larger and has a much stronger stream of firepower hitting the smaller ship than the smaller ships's fire towards the larger. This isn't what I intended, I thought the Missouri would have the stronger firepower. I get a close up of the process of enemy ammunition arriving at the Missouri, and the return fire. It is a very large Metal snak-like contraption, where incoming fire enters through the "mouth" travelling inwards, and outgoing fire is move from section to section and fires out of the mouth. Explosions take place on the internal sections, sometimes destroying the outgoing ammunition. I see a close up of one section, little legs descend from the section, where the outgoing munitions fall down and are protected from the incoming exlposions, then the legs retract back up and the munitions continue on the path to fire.

F1) The machines know how to clean up. There's a lot of dust left after the work. I see dust on the work surface and it's getting swept up.

07:30 breakfast duty, didn't make it back to sleep?

8:59 BTB
had to get up at 10, I woke up at 9:59 before my alarm went off!

10:01

F2) middle-aged woman in a house I'm staying in. She's wearing a black top.

3) I'm working on my laptop, my wife is walking around behind me. There's an asian man leaving the bedroom of our house with no shirt on. I think "THAT's odd!?" I wonder what he was up to there. He's got small baby sized shirts, and he's handling cash. I talk to my wife, "did you sell these baby shirts to him?" She answers yes. He's rushing, he says he's working on the Makefile for a project, he has to meet other people to get the project put together.

There are two women standing in a street talking. My view is the perspective from the ground looking up. One was an old girlfriend, I see her stomach is sticking out quite a bit, she's wearing jeans, "Man, she got fat!" I think. I was trying to see if it really was here.

F3) Two Very hairy redhead men with very bright orange chest/stomach hair.

12:19

4) football formation. There is a team of small boys in formation (a wedge) protecting a goal, I'm trying to find a way through to score a goal. I dodge some of them by faking them out but there are too many to make progress. On the sides of the formation are super short/small (large doll sized) boys. I stand in front of one and hold my privates protectively, because I know these little guys' job is to block by hitting opponents in the privates.

5) I'm holding a laundry basket approaching the elevator, I'm meeting the babysitter who is coming for the first time. The babysitter started out as a dark skinned curly black haired girl but became a guy at the elevator. I'm smiling as I approach because I recognize him from the intercom camera but he's never seen me before. I say "hi I'm (name)," I joke once we get on to the elevator because the laundry basket is not very full. I say jokigly "yeah I had a HARD time spreading them out in the machine so that they don't clump together!"

6) It's early morning walking down a city street, the early morning sun is shining, the street itself is deserted but there are some people sitting in outdoor cafes on the sidewalk to the right, basking in the early morning sun. A lot of them are naked. One guy comes up to me and claims me, I learn that they are vampires, that's why the streets are empty, this is the time that they can claim you. I have to figure out how to escape, maybe by getting a room in one of the hotels off to the side of the road.

F4) in a party environment, I've been drinking the $60/bottle liqeur (there was lots of detail, forgot)

F5) in a loft in a building, I'm arriving, I'm calling my dog to come up there

F6) flying fortress with dragons, over the water. The fortress is being torn to pieces in the air.

F7) wife approaches a pieno, trying to find the music, there's a pot of water underneath the piano, the music is falling down, I say "don't let the music fall in the water," she's having trouble finding the music, she wants me to help.

Very happy about continued back to sleep success.

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00:00 Thursday 2013-12-19 comp #16 night #7

01:27 bedtime

05:58

1) We're hiking up a foggy mountain. We want to get over the mountain but the fog is in the way. Someone says it's always foggy like this. We hike up the foggy side, and when we reach the summit the fog clears and we walk down to a beautiful ocean. On the shore of the ocean is a large, transparent, very shark/spiky with many spikes, crystal statue that I know is a sacrifice statue.

Then I'm in the L's (neighbors) garage with other spike crystal statues. Don't touch them. I glancingly touch one on the side by the wall but that's OK because it's not the main one. There are many statues like this around, one up in a tree.

F1) picture of some pepole on a porch. English is not a good language to use, So many different languages need to be represented. (Voice incomprehensible in places)

F2) homeless guy with a stick. The stick was invisible. He'll clean up the yard if he has to. People following him around think he's crazy, but the kids know he's not crazy because they can see the thing he's carrying.

06:06 BTB
06:32 still up, wife snoring
07:24 BTB again after kitchen/cereal snack

09:03

2) star wars jedi game playing on a game tablet, I'm making the game character do many maneuvers to slice the opponent with a light saber. Opponents are trying to jump up and follow the action. I'm not doing very well, a guy is watching me play. I'm sitting at a desk in an office. My workplace is messy. Some young kids walk by behind me, they're looking at my desk, I have a teeny tiny keyboard, he asks what's that for, I say it's a small keyboard, I show him my desk, I have 3 keyboards, a small one, a medium one, and a large one, and I say it's like Goldilock's and the 3 bears. The kid's not interested and just walks by. I was trying to impress some of the girls with him, it didn't work out.

3 ) walking on a nature path. There was a place where you used to be able to drink using the supplied plastic cups. But to save money they've stopped supplying the plastic cups. I cup my hand under the tap and fill it with water and drink. There's a pond nearby. There were several old women, and there were old cup dispensors around and old used cups.

4) sitting at tables outside with a group trying to eat some really strange fruit. It's hard to eat, you can't chew it, it's green and stringy and fibrous. People are trying to peel it and erat it and chew it. Some of the fruit looks like pink, translucent kiwis. I look across the table, and see a really nice large gourmet cutting board made from different kinds of wood pressed together. I say "no THAT'S the kind of cutting board I want to have, not like the teeny tiny ones where you chop a carrot and the carrot falls off down to the floor because the cutting board is so small." People around me aren't paying attention to what I say.

5) aftermath of a party. I remembered that a lot of deserts were left in the refridgerator so I go to the kitchen to get some. In the kitchen on a table I see they have been left out so tthat people will eat them. Tere are a number of large industrial food trays with a fairly large amount of various left-over deserts. 4-5 different trays. I"m looking at them. There's a gelatin-based one, a tiramisu, I'm picking up pieces of these deserts and carrying them around with me. Wife is there at one point.

6) standing outside at what are like deli counters. There is a group of teen girls there. They're laughing at me. I'm holding a squeeze bottle of some condiment. One of the girls approaches me indicating the bottle and asks, "Ooooh, are those ONIONS!?" and puts her mouth to the opening of the squeeze bottle and I squeeze some of the condiment into her mouth. She gets grossed out by that. They ask me, "is this (something) day? It's not celebrated in California" in English and I answer in a foreign language. They all laugh at this, they're amazed I speak English, I'm amazed that they're speaking English, too., because they're foreign girls.

woohoo major back to sleep victory with a snoring wife.

F3) arriving at some location in a car. I get out and see a flat dead roadkill squirrel is somehow attached to the side of the car. It is rolled up. As I look at it it falls off the car to the ground. It unrolls before my eyes and turns into a live cat, moving around.

09:23 up for breakfast duty
11:38 BTB nap
12:11 dreamed about something, no recall
13:00 no recall. unusual, naps usually give several dreams.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-18 comp #16 night #6 LD #12

01:37 bedtime. Exercised late, had to do late shopping afterwards, ate very late, sat around digesting until after good bedtime.

05:47 a long dream about something.....just couldn't get it! Only two really really vague fragments Spent 30 minutes trying to recall, resulting in being VERY awake.

05:57

F1) there were experts and there were newbies

F2) pigeons

06:40? out of bed, into rocking chair

07:06 BTB-1. Room feels too hot, bed uncomfortable

07:15? feel no progress, not sleepy at all, a bit hungry, to kitchen for cereal

07:27 BTB-2
feel some sleepiness on tap as I get into bed, comfortable, will get to sleep I predict.

07:45? almost asleep, wife starts snoring put in earplugs.

08:00 wife up to do breakfast duty, bed to myself, let's get down to business I think.

09:25 LD #12

1) on a wide tall circular spiral slide/"staircase". I'm sliding down the staircase slowly. There are girls spaced along the railings in provocative poses. I try to slide closer to one to cuddle, but she keeps sliding away from me. I give up eventually and imagine "OK if you don't want it, fine." it's just not meant to be, I slide farther down the slide, with my hand held behind me in case my "girlfriend" wants to come to me. A moment later I feel a hand in mine and I smile thinking she's interested after all.

2) In a large indoor area walking with a bunch of other young guys, in like a mall. We're playing football. We're horsing around with the ball making mock football plays. We're moving farther down the hallway. At one point the play starts suddenly going in the opposite direction. I'm running along back the way we came with the guys, and I'm running through a group of cheerleaders. All of a sudden I stop dead in my tracks. I look to the left and see some cute cheerleaders. I instantly take one of them into my arms and think, "I'm dreaming." and I'm lucid immediately, quickly. The view becomes super clear and vivid and totally lifelike right away. There are a bunch of people all around. She has her arms around my shoulders but she's standing at a distance. She's looking into my eyes with an expression of amazement/shock/annoyance/confusion/what-are-you-doing? with kind of a frown. She's young and cute. In a few seconds her expression softens and she "melts" into my arms, and we're holding each other tightly and we enter into a deep passionate kiss. I keep my eyes open! I'm enjoying the kiss but I'm thinking ahead. "OK, dream goals!" I think. I feel like I have good waking life memory connection. The dream feels very stable, very solid, I feel like I can indulge for a little. I'm taking in the surroudings around me, and I notice that a second cheerleader is standing directly behind "my" girl. Girl #2 is looking directly at me with a very mischievous "hey baby" expression, and then flashes her eyebrows at me 2-3 times comicly/suggestively, like she's saying "I'm next! Let's have some fun" I want to get to competition goals but here I am in a passionate embrace with a super cute cheerleader. It's interesting I note that the girl I'm still kissing is "fuzzy" and "out of focus" in my "peripheral vision" while I'm looking at girl #2 and around the mall. "OK," I think to myself, planning out my actions, "open eyed kiss with this one, then an open eyed kiss with you [#2], then..." ... and I'm awake in bed. ARGH! Total lucid elapsed time, ~15-20 seconds.

Decsion: Cheerleader. Competition points. CHEERLEADER. OK that's settled, easy decision .

Way too excited to DEILD back in but I try anyway for maybe 30 seconds. I felt totally in command/control, confident, and the dream stable, but looing at the time of the dream it appears to be right at the end of a 90 minute sleep cycle so it may just have been "end of dream time." Or perhaps I was just getting too stimulated by all the noshing...

Really short memory of non-lucid leading up to lucidity, unusual for me...
I have a suspicion that I may have "willed" myself lucid, it did not feel like a MILD trigger or a slowly building awareness, in fact right up to the moment of lucidity the dream felt very zombie-like, just-go-with-the-flow. Maybe the first ADA/RC LD?
I have recently been using daytime mantras walking around imagining becoming lucid, e.g., "wait a minute! I'm dreaming." And "Stop! I'm dreaming!" So they may have kicked in!

Normally I do not remember dream faces well but I got a good look at girl #2's face and I think I have a slight memory of it. (No idea about #1, except I think short haired blonde). Short-medium length brunette hair. A very pleasant face, not super-model-sexy, but very nice girl-next-door, *real* girl look. More like in her 20's than teen.

Girl #2 eyebrow flash was actually really funny in retrospect.

09:38 back to sleep again. too excited. up for a bit.

11:07 trying for "nap" still feel sleepy

11:28 wife comes in, wakes me up.

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00:00 Tuesday 2013-12-17 comp #16 night #5 LD #11

00:27 bedtime

02:52

F1) using the metro as dream transportation

F2) something about a store

04:16 awake, no recall?

05:17

1) on a commuter train, sitting on a bench along the wall of the train with my back to the wall, the train track goes over a sudden abrupt quick rise/bump, and I'm thrown up out of my seat several feet, I grab on to some straps, I barely avoid flying out of the open roof of the train car. I say "oh man I should put on my seat belt." There are some other guys with me they all have their seat belts on. I imagine there would have been a news story about a man who flew out of the open roof of the train and died. Train was going pretty fast. It's dangerous to be sitting on an open roofed train without your seat belt.

Arrive at a train station, I'm trying to get from the upper platform to the lower platform where there appears to be a train leaving and I need to get down to see if it's my train or not so I can get to where I'm going, the train is about to leave. I'm standing above the roof of the platform where the train is, I hop down onto that roof, walk to the other edge of the roof and flip down to the ground very gracefully. Some women come out from ticket offices and say you can't do that you're supposed to take the shuttle bus from the top of the hill down to the bottom. I look up the hill and see this bus, but there's one problem: the bus doesn't go from the top to the bottom, only from the bottom to the top. I say that's pretty stupid.

2) With my wife going somewhere, we walk into a small cluster of very close-growing trees, there's a very small clearing in between them. We have a huge pile of skis and poles with us and we drop them all on to the ground. There are red skis, and blue skis. We need to get going somewhere, so I pick up a huge pile of these skis and poles into my arms, I get one of the red ones, and one of the blue ones, my wife will get the rest, I take them outside and lean them up against a fence. My wife brings hers out and leans them up together. It turns out this fence is the entrance to a restaurant and they're annoyed about our stuff being there I tell them we'll be moving it soon.

3) I'm in an open restaurant / bar playing a video game. It is a two-person game table where you sit down on opposite sides of the table to play. The game surface screen is hemispherical protruding upwards. The game is like an advanced version of Pong, where each player's mallet/racket is a sphere, and the "ball" is a sphere as well, it's a 3D game, all spheres the same size. I'm playing this game solo, so I set up the opponent's racket in the middle of its goal. I'm playing, hitting the ball back with my mallet back and forth several times. There are special powers buttons you can press to make the ball to things like speed up or curve around, I use these. I think how embarrassing it would be to lose a point against my non-existent opponent. I'm playing and scoring. A guy comes up and watches me, he puts a coin down on the game to reserve the next play. I do well and keep going and get more credits, he's pissed and starts leaving, he says something. I'm mad at him but I decide to be a good guy so I leave the game for him to play. "OK I was going to play again but I'm going now." Then I turn around and flip him a double-handed bird (middle finger extended) right into his face.

I'm walking away through the tables in this area, and all of a sudden I look down and see my bag is gone! I figure it must have been lifted off of me by that annoying guy back at the game. I'm in shock, my passport's in there. I look down and see my stomach/pants and no bag is there. I walk back through the tables to get back to the video game place, there's a table where I was sitting previously with people, I see a bag slung over a chair and grab at it to take a look, it turns out it's not my bag. I find a little black boy and grab him and shake him around, I know he's the one who took my bag. I reach into my pocket and find my keys there, so I know he's given me my keys back, I think "OK I have my keys now I need my bag with my passport."

The boy walks back to a couch and I follow, he lifts the cushion off the couch I imagine my bag is hidden underneath. Then I think I should give this boy something of some value, but I don't want to give him something from my wallet. Another guy appears with me and we're talking about and presenting souvenir coins made from ancient coins like ancient Roman coins but they're obviously tourist adaptations. I show them to the boy, here's one, here's another, I see these coins. I have a toy silver matchbox jeep with no wheels, and I say "this was used in the war," the kid's happy about this.

The boy is doing all this because he wants to build a software industry in Egypt, he has a great idea about eliminating copy protection, and he wants me to write some big software to eliminate copy protection, it will be a big change to the industry.

05:26 BTB

Do some SSILD, carefully, gently, taking care to hold on to the relaxation routine feeling at the same time so as not to become too alert. After just a few cycles I feel a strong circular rocking body motion begin. I wonder if I'll be able to jump right into a WILD. The rocking subsides however, and a motionless RC shows I'm awake, so I drop the SSILD and just fall asleep.

07:42 LD #11

4) going uphill on a great river/aqueduct, about 50 yards wide, beautiful blue water at one point, the gradient is pretty steep, 30 degrees or so. I'm watching all the boats going uphill against the flow of water. I'm on a large commuting boat on the right hand side (facing uphill) since the left hand side is too shallow for such a bit boat. I see a guy in the water riding a motorcycle/boat towing a black couch. I'm amazed at this and point it out to my companions. Another guy joins him, also riding a motorcycle/boat, he's maneuvering a larger pontoon and pushing a large black net around the back of the couch-guy to pull him closer to the pontoon.

We reach the top of the hill and are back on land. Running downhill the other side. There are large obstacles we're jumping over, like huge rolled up carpets several feet high. I'm concerned there could be dead bodies inside. There's an abandoned structure on the right with low windows, a guy I'm with says he doesn't like the look of that place, that stuff could have been put there by people who are dead.

We're running down the hill and come upon about 3-4 black guys, I think when you come across people in the wild you have to position yourself like you're scarier than they are, you should brandish knives, crouch down, display these knives, and say something scary to face them down to show you're not scared of them.

F3) woman hiking in the mountains on a trail. I wonder if you can get back on the ridge trail, does it get you back? She's navigating the switchbacks on the trail

5) in a living room with two guys (they are maybe gay?) we have to go somewhere in San Francisco, I'm sitting on a couch, I don't want to go to SF, I need to get home, I say "as punishment OK let's then go to the Cliff House and have drinks." The other guys say that's a great idea. But I say "I really can't go because I'll get home late and in bad shape and my wife will kill me when she comes home because I haven't cleaned the house yet."

6) standing in the bathroom of my childhood home looking out down the hallway, it's night, the lights are on in the hallway, and there appears in the middle of the hallway a beautiful young woman, she is smiling / beaming at me, she's dressed in pajamas.

Spoiler for warning for slightly salacious content:

I invite her into the bathroom, she walks slowly, keeps smiling, I close the door behind her and I lock the door. I bring her in front of the low bathtub by the sink, and I pull her shirt off. I imagine I'll be getting undressed soon too. I kiss her chest (the middle), she tells me (voice or telepathy) "that's not where you're supposed to do that." I say "Oh, where do you do that?" She points to her lips. I say "show me what you mean." She kisses me, I kiss back, we start making out.

My eyes are closed. I'm dreaming, I realize. "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming," the kiss goes on for a few seconds more, then the dream fades to awake in bed. Tried to DEILD back in but was too awake.

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-16 comp #16 night #4

00:30 ?? bedtime

01:47 had dreams but no recall

02:16 some a$$hats outside making a lot of noise, they left soon made it into a WBTB

04:27

F1) in a sports club lifting weights

06:09

1) there are two guys they're preparing to murder an evil criminal another man they are lawmen, but the guy they've caught murdered one of their friends so they're planning to work outside the law to construct a killing device for this guy, it's a tall pole with a huge heavy metal ball combined with a giant metal hook. The device works by immobilizing the intended victim, place the pole over them so that the ball/hook will hit their head around the top, the ball/hook falls near their head, the hook rotates out and stabs into the brain, kiling the victim. They're setting up this device, and the victim is now a teen girl not a man. She is lying down inside a box. She can't see the thing. The ball/hook comes down, the hook comes out, and kills her, but instantly her ghost/soul rises up out of her body and comes to me and I start interacting with her. She has splotchy/zombie-ish skin on her face and body, I realize this is the way her ghost will appear for the rest of eternity. I'm comforting/hugging/kissing her. She's agitated, I'm trying to convince her that she has possibilities and opportunities, for her eternal zombie career. She says she'll never be a personal trainer. I'm trying to convince her to become an actress. She was a low-class girl.

2) Very bizarre scene, there is a human-ish being "egg man" (gives me shivers just to think of it) whose mid-lower body is entirely contained within a large egg-shaped container. This being's eyes are bright red shining slits. There is a bright red shining horizontal slit centered on its forehead. Its entire purpose in life is to live within this egg chamber and to take one thing into its mouth from a bowl in front of its face, chew it, and extract a seed or something from within, and to spit out this seed into another bowl, these seeds are valuable and he sells them. He keeps chewing and spitting these seeds over and over.

F2) I'm looking for something on a large series of shelves. People are watching, things are falling down, I'm trying to pick something up, there's a trailer home afterwards.

3) I'm speaking with a famous woman (former porn star?) beautiful middle-aged woman I'm trying to convince her that she has possibilities and that she should be an actress. She should focus on "stepping up her game" to promote herself.
There's a guy with a foreign girl whom he just met, he's trying to impress her, they're talking with another guy and the first guy is trying to get the speaker to slow down so the girl will understand because she was recording the first time, so that she could appreciate the funny part of the story. He's trying to get him to tell the story again slowly and clearly.

F3) Bewitched episode. I'm the husband on the old TV show Bewitched, my wife is the pretty witch. I tell the housekeeper that our house is full of witches. so she comes prepared to work in our house with anti-witch charms. My wife is upset that I told the housekeeper ahead of time.

4) street rat. On a street at night going up and down the street (which seems to have been groomed to be resurfaced, I see grooves in the ground) on some machine with some guy, I see on one pass an old, slow black greasy rat walking down the middle of the street.
I'm trying to get my coat back from the coat-check, there are hundreds of people trying to get their coats back from the coat-check, I should have picked up my coat earlier before the crowds arrived, I move past the place where people are picking up their coats to another place and think I should return to the place I just passed.

08:28

F4) lying on bed in my younger son's room. He comes home from school, he wants me to enter the security code in some program on his computer.

5) I'm in a gathering (job fair?), I go to the edge of the room, there are packs of food there I think they're free party favors, but you have to pay it turns out, at least $10 each so I decide to pass, the packages are pretty heavy, I see then that there are also packages containing costumes like halloween costumes, they look like burlap sacks some of them, star wars based they seem to be, I think of calling my kids to see which costumes they want. To the right beyond the costumes is the cashier, there are lots of light-covered baubles there also for sale. My friend JoTy and another DC guy are there telling me to try out the toy double-sided lightsaber. The packaging looks really enticing, depicting a bright flourescent green beam, I hold the device with has a thick central handle and two touch-switches underneath some black foam, and the toy turns on, the "blades" are flickery green, not very bright, rather disappointing. I wave it around and it does not make any light saber sounds. I "bop" each of JoTy pretending slicing and the other guy with the ends of the toy. I turned it on and off twice. I thought I could use this to incubate a dream about having a light-saber (!!!!).

6) floating on a raft with college friends, I see CrLe right in front of me. I smack him on the knee playfully and say enthusiastically, "How're ya doing!?" I say "it's amazing we're already halfway through the 3rd year, it's like it just started, it's my favorite thing to do I love being in college". I say I've saved the regular non-scientific-major classes until the last semester of school, taking history and english and all those "uninteresting" classes.

7) a fast food burger stand has opened up. There are a bunch of young people working behind the counter. One of the young people there is talking to me in English promoting the food place. I'm puzzled why he's talking to me in very good English. I go up to the stand and look at the menu, burgers and deserts. I'd like to get something but I know that if I do I'll be too full.

8) on the back steps of my parents house down to the lawn, I see signs that there have been animals tramping around in the garden. On the fence to the L's house, I see what looks like deer hoof tracks in recently dug-up dirt straddling the fence between our gardens. I look up to the street (HC) and I see there a baby black bear walking around. I feel I must run into the house right away to call animal control because the mother bear may be around and that's very dangerous.

10:47

9) some sort of work marketing-promotion event is beind held outside. The marketing gals are setting up booths with lots of objects/paraphenalia in them, they collapse once and they pick everything up, I think that would suck if everything fell down again because the shelves are filled with lots of small things. There is a very desireable object there as well, the point of this whole promotion is to give these away as the big prizes, I'm thinking are these booths going to be left unguarded overnight? Maybe I can come back and steal some.

inside a restaurant, gathering food and snacks with a woman (HR woman from the above event?), I like her, we're sitting down to eat, I'm offering her the things I have: 1) a small opened plastic pack of BBQ potato chips, the chips are small and orange colored from the flavoring, it's a bad unappealing little greasy bag of chips, and 2) a larger pack of unopened white puff balls/crackers of some sort. I think I need to get a bowl to put these snacks in so they look more appealing, I go off to look for a bowl.

F5) flying high in the air, there will be an attack

10) sitting in car with wife who is on phone (I'm in passenger seat) talking about the real estate deal involving a property we share with her brother and his wife, we're selling it. From what I hear of the conversation I gather that all of our portion of the sale proceeds have been given to her sister-in-law. I exclaim, "Wait, WHAT!?" when I hear this. My wife hangs up she's annoyed with me she didn't want the person she's talking to to hear my reaction. She's on the phone describing what happened, my voice would disturb the other person. She calls the person back, I'm trying to get my wife to answer me, I repeatedly ask, "where's our money?", wife says "they gave it all to sister-in-law in compensation for the hard life she's had."

Then I'm driving in a different car with wife's sister-in-law (I'm still in passenger seat), my wife is driving in a different car. I say "where are we going?" To somewhere having to do with this real estate deal. We turn left on to a street, and we're sailing through the stop signs. I think this is a terrible idea, first of all it's dangerous, second we could get stopped and not everybody has valid driver's licenses, it'll be a problem. I think about calling wife on phone and telling her to stop at all the stop signs.

We approach a car head-on (it's parked), we swerve to avoid it, as we pass by the car a small brown/red animal (dog? fox?) emerges from underneath the parked car heading into the street, and pulls it's leg and it's tail out from under the wheel of the parked car. In a cartoon fashion, the leg/tail gets stretched long and thin while the animal keeps pullilng and pulling, then suddenly the leg/tail snaps free like a rubber band back into position on the body. Happens twice (once leg, once tail). I see a small spot on the body like blood.

We're coming up on a big gourmet food store (like a Whole Foods) where my wife wants to stop and get some cheesecake. I want to drive now. I think we could pull in to the parking lof of this store and we could switch places so I could drive. We end up not going into the parking lot, we go straight a short bit and stop. We have parked inside the middle of an indoor office. I'm thinking "oooh, sorry about that" to the office workers, we get out of the car, and I want to move it out of the way (it's right in between some desks). The car has become a child's toy push car that they can ride in. I start pushing the car around to get it out of the way, it's still really heavy like a real car. I'm rolling it around, maneuvering it around a corner to get it out, I start saying "I love small cars, they're so easy to maneuver, my first car out of college was a FF, it was a really small car, but it was great because it's so tall inside. " The office women I'm talking to say "mmm hmmm yeah OK." I keep going on "it was like a volkswagen golf/jetta but smaller, very small very easy for me to sit in."

One of the office women says to me "boy you have some chapped lips, don't you?!". I think about my lips and smack them a few times, they do feel puffy. I look at myself in a mirror and see my lips, they look like two pairs of the sponges inside womens' hair-rollers, two sponges joined for the upper lip, and two joined for the lower lip. I smack my lips and say "man those things really are chapped, aren't they?"

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00:00 Friday 2013-12-06
~02:00 bedtime, in bed at 01:38, but wife came later, had to start over
08:15
F1) long dream sequence about...dreaming?
hungry, wanted to sleep more, got up for small bowl of cerreal
10:00 - 11:00 ? BTB nap couch
11:59
1) in a very cluttered (asian) Indian store. There are many cash registers each with a very dark-skinned Indian (or African perhaps) woman. I'm approaching one register and I realize the woman there is chanting something, I hear it, I do not want her to think that her chant has power over me to bring me to her register to I turn away and head towards another register. At the registers are boxes of shallots and garlic, I go to a closed register (no one is there) against a wall, I pick up 3 big shallots and want to buy them, a woman from another register comes over, I look into her face, and I say "open? Can I buy these here at this register?" I think she probably doesn't understand.

I am aware while waking up, it feels like I'm entering a dream lucidly but instead I'm leaving the dream. If I had stayed asleep I probably would have gotten lucid.

Lots of thoughts about WL stuff interfering with going to sleep. Wife snoring in the morning. No earplugs because my ears are irritated from wearing them all night every night so I'm taking a break from them. Actually slept most of the night fine without them.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-04
00:24 bedtime
05:09
1) controlled flying dream. Walking down a wide street, a building about 4 floors high and long like an apt building is on the left, a bunch of people are on the roof. Trees line the street. I want to fly up there, I start flying towards the roof, I'm going slowly, I decide to fly faster, so I do a zoom-move I look at a point on the roof and I imagine my vision zooming in to that place, then I imagine that I'm there, and I'm there up on the roof. There are a lot of young people on the roof. I practice zoom vision on a spot of concrete on the roof, it kind of works.
I'm down on the other side of the building away from the street with a group of people, my older son is there current age, his gf is there, too. We're talking about traditions. There's a certain leaf that when you buy it as gift, it's required that on a certain day you must buy another kind of leaf to go as a tribute to go with the first leaf. My son gave to his gf the first kind of leaf, but didn't give the 2nd time. I'm "tsking" that he did this mistake. He claims that he didn't know. I *know* that I told him specifically about this tradition, but he was not paying attention. There is a VERY loud crack of thunder, we're all started by this. I think this may be punishment from God.
We duck down to the ground, We enter the building, climbing inside, the interior is dark/wet, water dripping everywhere, derelict rooms. A young teenage man is there, he is sitting with his back towards us with water dripping down from the ceiling onto his back, he's wearing a shirt. He's forlornly sitting, I see a glimpse of his face, I think this is the abandoned son of Bill Gates, I think it's very sad.
Back on the first street, I'm with and older man with a young child, I'm leading him down the road and I'm looking at the weather and I'm noticing the storm, we reach an intersection and we turn to the right. We're concerned about the weather so I fly up into the sky, doing a zoom-fly-move to get altitude quickly into the clouds up above, and there I float turning to look in each compass direction. All around are dark grey and stormy clouds except to the East, which is in the direction we're moving in along this street I see light on the horizon. We continue in that direction, the trees are approaching from the left. We enter hills made from rough dirt, the path bends up and to the right, it quickly turns into what I believe is a rich neighborhood fully of movie stars.
I see a black man talking animatedly to a dirty but wealthy man standing in his driveway just off the path, I know the dirty man is Larry David. I tell the guy behind me that this is the neighborhood of rich people where there are all kinds of funny things happening, if you pay attention. This area has very windy roads with tall trees, I think if I have to I will fly up above the trees to get our bearings and I'll be able to continue guiding us.
Going further along the path past the rich homes into the hills, past the Larry David house, I see on the ground by the sidewalk of the next home two small baking dishes with puppies sitting inside (statues?). Seems like an eery joke.
F1) guy entering a virtual reality cage, closing himself inside, he will control something from there.
2) troubled latina teenager girl sitting working as a cashier sitting behind a plain desk outside in a remote neighborhood out in the middle of nowhere theer are a few small houses around, a poor neighborhood. It's nighttime. I talk to her, I ask if the field across the highway is where they shoot their guns, then I imagine that couldn't be true because then the highway patrol would see them.
05:41 BTB
07:09
3) driving on a road, maybe in white honda, driving through the R wilderness on a country road by myself, I see a swamp open body of algae-covered water to the right and I think that's a place I remembered, driving kind of fast, the roads are muddy, I think I should slow down or I'll skid, I make it through without skidding, I think I'm going up to the top of some high place and will stop at a vista point to see the beautiful view, then I decide that's too high/too far to go on my own in this lonely place, I take a small turnoff to the left, the ground there is very muddy but has been groomed to be even, I think I should just return back not even go to the vista point. It's not a good idea to be out in the middle of R alone like this, there are crushed up trees in the muddy ground.
A weird animal, a yellow "Zog" appears in front of me in between my car and the road, it's walking slowly, it looks like a large yellow stick-animal made from huge arm-thick yellow pipe cleaners. Another car drives by at the same time I'm concerned about this other car, I see a building in this area up and to the left.
I'm back on the road returning back the way I came, I'm in my car but I'm also exposed like I'm not in my car, I feel like I'm running away from the Zog, I know I can't outrun it, I imagine the Zog puts its long snout into my face and I bite the end of it with my teeth to discourage it, a hard bite. I think what am I doing I'm in a car so I hit the gas so I accelerate away from it. Someone says that "in a 2-stroke car with you reach (some metric) you can double your power."
4) University football scene. "HIs feet are on the edge!" The wide receiver faked one way then turned another way. He was given the instruction to lose the defender in the crowd. It was a pass touchdown. The QB was a young man with short dirty blond hair plain face, I zoom in on his shirt, he's wearing not a uniform but a bunch of different layered shirts, I try to count how many shirts he's wearing. At least 4 layers. The QB tells coach he must return to campus for (the dentist?) he wants to drink milk. From the point of view of the bottom of a cup I see milk pouring down into the cup, it's like a milk advertisement. The QB is sick of the gatorade at the football field.
09:18
5) pursued by a wolf on EU avenue. It's dark/night, I'm trying to run into my car. I turn to face the wolf at my car, I imagine bringing out a lightsaber and slicing the wolf in half and someone discovering the two parts of the wolf on the street. There is a statement that "in the Soviet Union they were slow but they weren't stupid."
6) Walking along a street in the daytime (GZ Blv?) past rich houses they're holding lounge sales / garden furniture recliners. Some are painted. They're stacked in big piles in the driveways of the houses. Someone has painted a white chair glittery/shiny pink/red.
7) Selling lumber, EmKlg from work is coming and scratching up the wood to discover what kind of wood it is, he decides it's oak, he decides to buy some planks so he marks off the sizes he wants from the huge chunk of wood, then other people appear and also want to buy some planks, I'm getting alot of orders. I'm going to have to get ready for it and cut up all the wood ahead of time.
alot more detail was in there but I was woken unexpected by an alarm.
11:17
8) On UL favorite lake with parents. Someone is canoing right next to us. They're going in circles about to hit another boat with people in it right on the shore. I tell my folks my dad that canoing on the lake is great I'm trying to get him to go, he's concerned about sunburn, put on a sun shirt I tell him, walking around a bit, I think hey is that R island, are there any people camping there? There is a huge tree there very tall, I look up in it and see a tent or some streamers, conclude someone is staying there. Walking further around the shore I see a huge human made structure with large glass walls melding into the rocks, I'm curious about it, I decide it's a conference center that I've "remembered" that they built. There are people standing in the corridors, may be guards. I imagine going up to the walkway, walking into the center, pretending I belong, going down the elevator to the dock where there is a free shuttle boat back to the city.
9) driving through town with some guy in a car. He's a teacher, I'm in the back seat, I'm getting out it's night it's getting late, I have to go to class, I don't know how I'm going to get to class in the other city, I'll have to take a bus but then I don't know how to go where the class it. I think I shouldn't have gotten out of the teacher's car he's probably going to go right to where I need to go. I should have gone there with him. He has a chinese name, I see a subject of a talk something to do with dolls. There's a bus with people driving by, should I get on that bus to get downtown? But then I'd have to pay, and I have no money.
10) I'm riding a metro/subway, I see the stops going by, I get off, I realize I went to the wrong end of the line, I have to go back, but I have absolutely no money not even a coin. I wonder what I'm going to do. I think I may as well look for some lunch, for some tacos. There's a restaurant nearby looking in to see what it is what food is there, I think it is some sort of taco place there is a menu board, the choices are: some sort of taco meat, ground bbq pork, and something else, I put in the order , there are shredded salads / vegetables.

00:00 Thursday 2013-11-28 (LD #10)

00:00 ? bedtime

03:06

1) riding on a skateboard down a wide, flat, smooth street. I'm going pretty fast and I really enjoy this sensation. Up ahead I see PJ in the distance. I'm on the very front tip of the skateboard. Visuals are very bright, vivid. I see my father walking under some trees up ahead, he seems young and happy. See also my mother off to the right.
04:25 no recall (recorded 03:00 waking dreams at this time, fell asleep at 03:06)
can't return to sleep. after 30 minutes get up to rocking chair, for about 20 minutes. Visualize parent's house and neighborhood, reinforce "I'm dreaming." Move to kitchen, make and drink warm milk. Sit there massaging jaw. Do some relaxing breaths. Decide I feel sleepy, return to bed and fall asleep in not too much time.

06:00 BTB

07:36 (alarm)

2) movie theater taxi driver money tatoo kicking buying snacks at table don't have enough cash in the store there's a security guard can't get by, think about eating it and putting it back on thes shelve, at a table with young people they're laughing I don't have enough change to buy the snacks, I empty my pockets including a chestnut, I say this chestnut is awesome it's worth lots of stuff, I'm missing just a few cents to buy the snacks, I have to back.
I'm at the top of a sandy hill, I turn around and see my wife is coming up behind me, I jump down the face of the sandy hill and slide/ski all the way down to the bottom near the water it's lots of fun, my wife laughs behind me watching, it feels awesome. Arrive on the beach near the water, my wife is behind me, I think it will be awesome to live near the beach and come here every day. There are strange plants around. Two inspectors arrive and are asking for paperwork I think they're after me because I haven't paid yet for the snacks They're harassing my wife I leave quickly to go pay and get receipts, I'm on the way back, I'm in a starnge tilted room, I see a very dirty priest walking from left to right behind me.
I go fowards now in a car open to the sky (like a top-down convertible), there's a bus, at an intersection, I'm in a hurry to get to pay for things, there's lots of traffic, the busses I see are very ornate, old 1950's style A/C transit buses, I'm confused/surprised by this.
I'm in a taxi with a bunch of other people, they're laughing, I'm in the back seat, some guy is pushing through to the right I'm trying to protect my place but he gets there. There are a bunch of movie theaters all around. I think what am I going to do at this movie theaters I should have stopped at an ATM. The driver starts driving and passing the theaters, I call out "stop stop let me off here." Driver makes some comment. I think I have no money for food how can I pay for the taxi? It turns out the fare is only a dime because it's the olden days. I think what sort of tip to give: nickel or penny?
I imagine the taxi driver takes these pennies and puts them in his pocket, and there's a hole at the bottom of in his pocket and the coin rolls down his leg into his shoe. The pennies are safe there but If he's really rolling in the dough the coins will make a lot of noise when he walks.
You don't mess with taxi drivers because they'll kick you so hard it will stop your development. I'm thinking about kids who have strange facial features because they're development is impaired and their different parts age at different rates. Taxi driver has tatoos all over his leg in green/blue, words.

Concentrated on relaxing: relaxing breaths, doing deeper and deeper into relaxation on every exhale, releasing tension, keep doing it, keep eyes relaxed and unfocused, and got back to sleep.

09:00 BTB for nap

10:12

3) in a dorm building looking for my room. I'm on the wrong floor because I've been in a different room. I'm studying with some loud (classical? opera?) music playing on a stereo. There was another guy in the room complaining that guys in the hallway were too noisy (playing violin?) he says he'll never be able to sleep he has to get up early. I'm in this room becaues I need to get up early, too. He asks me to go outside to talk to them and quiet them down. I say sure I put on my shirt and my shorts, he starts to go out, I say hey I'll do it but I have to put on my shorts first, he talks to them they say something about OK, I realize I'm playing loud music myself, I approach and old looking CD player and look for, find, and press the stop button. I'm flexing my muscles, in my underwear, windows open wide to the outside, I imagine girls in other dorms could be looking in.
Go into hallway looking for my room I want to tell my roommate where I am. I was in this other room for a night maybe two. I look into a room, there's an older guy and girl, they're RAs probably, older, he says, "Oh, Hi (my name)", and I'm amazed he knows my name, I'm not on his floor, he must know the name of everyone in the building. I say "sorry, forgot I was on the wrong floor," I go down some stairs still looking for my room, I pass an attractive girl going up the stairs, (I helped her with something?) she says something, make a brief connection, but continue on. Farther I see a french-looking female student with goggly eyes and I think "nah, not my type don't want to pay her any attention."
End up in a place with a weird old woman I think is my mother (no resemblance to real mother) and some other guy, "I don't like how things are around here, I like things the way I like them." Then she gets upset and starts saying "Oh, this is not the time to have this conversation not with this guy (our friend's name the man) over." I get a close up of her lower face and mouth. She has a weird thick beard on the neck under her chin, a thick bristly dark hitler-ish mustache under her nose, and is chewing a massive pile of gum in the left side of her mouth which is open. The gum looks like a piece of a cotton mop with individual strands. It's quite a disgusting sight. It's yucky.

12:14 Lucid Dream LD DILD #10

4) ... fair amount of prior ND detail I felt, but couldn't recall
Approaching a building, want to enter to get something, it has security. The security guy had blown someone else's head off with a shotgun that looks like a water cannon the kind that you extend out, fill up, then push the parts together, but this was a shotgun. Security guard is shooting at me, I'm leading him around corners , I try to time it so I go around the corner and wait for him to turn the corner so I can surprise him to shoot him.
I'm in a room, it's dark/night-time lying on a bed, there's a spider wafting towards me on a strand of web, I try to blow it away, blow blow blow it doesn't go far away, it climbs rapidly up its web towards the ceiling above me. Then there's another spider, and soon there are many rapidly multiplying juicy puffy-body squishy nasty spiders. They were freaking me out, I didn't want to squish them with my hands I was looking for something to over my hand like a glove so I could squish them they were everywhere and multiplying, more and more and more were appearing. They're growing to the size of large snails, sitting on the wall in lines. I get up to leave the room, and as I leave the room I stop in my tracks and do a double-take, and say "Wait a minute, this is like a dream, I must be dreaming" and I am lucid. It felt very realistic. I looked back into the room, it's day-time/light, there's a window looking outside. the spiders may be all gone, but I thrust my left hand forward and willed a bolt of fire from my left hand on to the floor in the room. It appeared and was 1/2 translucent and made nothing burn but I saw the bolt. I tried to shoot lightning bolt but nothing happened. Did another fire blast. Went back in to the room and thought "stabilize." Rubbed my hands together, counted to 5, then patted up and down my body with my hands: chest, stomach, legs. I looked down at my body and I saw my naked chest and stomach. I saw my underwear and reach down to have a look inside, "It's going to be big" I think, it turns out to be normal sized. It seems a bit greasy like there was lotion on it. Everything is *really* realistic.
I'm in this bedroom, then I go outside. It's like a garden path in an apartment complex, lots of tall plants off the path. Lush vegetation. A swimming pool complex comes up on the left. Some people (3 girls?) are leaving it. I think "oh don't leave the pool!" (I'm looking for a hottie). There's a gate, I enter the pool area. I'm looking for a cute female, everyone I come across is not attractive / old. I tell myself "I'm dreaming, remember, you're dreaming, I'm dreaming." I walk more into the pool area. I do a RC at this point because I start to wonder if I'm dreaming because everything is so life-like, the people and the grounds. Check hands, they are not bizarre like last time, fingers were stable but longer than in life, and a little bit translucent. I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming and nose pinch confirms it solidly. "OK, I'm dreaming" I say. Looking at a woman off to the right, look at some people in the pool off to the left, I go and look at them, I'm not finding anyone to my taste, then I think "Hey what am I doing? Just summon!" So I did a hand-behind-the-back summon of PT. I put my right hand behind my back, say "PT, take my hand!" wait a few seconds, and slowly pull my hand around to the front (didn't feel a solid hand connection), and there is PT! I looked at her and said, "Yeeeeaaah, you're PT!" Face may not have been precise but height/age/general look was right. I tried to kiss her, she didn't want to. I look into her face and say, "You want it!" Then move to kiss her. Her face became flat and her lips were thin/unsatisfying/unresponsive, I must have closed my eyes, and I fade to awake.

Half-hearted attempt to DEILD back in but don't make it, didn't really try very hard. I may have moved. Wanted to record because I felt like I started to forget, in fact I at first didn't recall the body-pat stabilisation and dream body inspection.
Elapsed time: ~4-5 minutes. Longest or tied for longest LD so far. Definitely most visually vivid/realistic. No dream fuziness at all, this is first time I had a touch of doubt in the middle of the dream because of realistic visuals. Maybe also because it was a bit longer than the others. Patting the whole body, bringing my dream body into my vision, produced very stable and vivid visuals. Didn't look around as much as I had planned to. First time see dream body. Dream body is a bit leaner / in better shape than now . My younger self.
Dream in S2's bed, LD on right side.
My relaxation technique works! Relax, don't try to WILD or force sleep, relax, unfocus eyes, release tension from body on every exhale, go deeper and deeper into relaxation on every exhale, don't "come back up higher" on inhales. The drowsiness/sleepiness feeling came on immediately upon the exhale of the relaxing breath at both the 09:00 BTB and 10:12 waking. Probably could have kept on dreaming but it's Thanksgiving and I had to shop for dinner.
Happy that I performed most of practiced new stabilization: body pat, look at body, count to 5.

I had some success returning to sleep last night that I'd like to share and comment on.

I had bedtime at around 00:00, and wakings at: 03:00 (recall), 04:25 (no recall),
At around 04:45 I realize I'm not making progress back to sleep. I don't feel drowsy at all. There's no "sleepiness" waiting for me at the exhale of relaxing breaths. I think that's an important signal that sleep is not near, or I'm mentally "holding on too tight" and need to do something to change up the situation and shake this hidden tension loose. Just lying in bed and continuing to relax is not going anywhere.

At about 30 minutes of not sleeping I decide to follow the advice given in several places: get out of bed. You do not want your mind/body to associate being in bed with being awake. I decide to do a "proper" WBTB. Sit in a rocking chair about 20 minutes with eyes closed, working on incubation and visualisation. Move to kitchen, warm some milk & drink it, sit there (all the time in the darkness as much as possible). Massage my jaw muscles (typically the major tension holder in the body). Do some relaxing breaths and find some drowsiness there on the exhale. Decide I'm feeling a bit more drowsy, if not super sleepy, so I go back to bed at 06:00. My alarm is set for 07:30, in the past this knowledge would keep me awake but I ignore it and do not sweat it. I don't "try to sleep", I just try to totally relax more and more deeply on each exhale. Try to maintain the relaxation on the inhale (it seems to receded a bit on the inhale for some reason). I'm sure I can make one more sleep cycle with dreams before the alarm sounds.

back to bed at 06:00 slept fairly quickly, waking at: 07:36 (alarm) (recall)

Back to bed (not main bed, alone, cooler room) at for nap at 09:00 (not too long falling sleep, surprisingly lots of drowsiness on exhale), wakings at: 10:12 (recall) (also not long getting back to sleep after 5 minutes of voice journaling in bed), 12:14 (recall + lucid dream!)

What do I mean by "relaxing breath?" Well, an inhale/exhale that is just a little bit longer than sleep breathing. Not really a big deep breath, just a little bit longer than a normal breath. Inhale as normal, but when exhaling try to imagine all tension melting out of everywhere in your body and mind. Try on each breath to go deeper and deeper, becoming more and more relaxed. I even tell myself these words sometimes (a form of sleep hypnosis induction). Sometimes I constrict my throat a bit to provide a little bit of resistance and sound to the exhale.

This is very encouraging: I'm having more and more success with this technique. With each success come more confidence in my ability to go back to sleep, reducing back-to-sleep stress. For those times where nothing works, get out of bed for a while to shake things up. Sometimes, your body / mind just may not be able to sleep, just know that this won't last forever. As a last resort try something like melatonin. Traditional techniques like warm milk can really help, too.

Eat a small snack if you've been up for a while, it's hard to sleep when hungry.

Make sure the temperature is comfortable for you, this is very important for me I've found. Keep a thermometer by the bed and record temperature at bedtime and waking time and record in your dream journal how well you sleep for that temperature.

00:00 Saturday 2013-11-23
00:35 bedtime.
05:31
1) In a car on a city street driving towards downtown O. Not sure how I got here, a bit surprised, did I take a wrong exit from the freeway? I see the tall buildings a mile or two directly ahead of me. I want to get to B, so I turn right on S. avenue, because S avenue after all is a cool street.
I'm eating some stuff and getting full. I see a Jack in the Box up ahead on the left, and think "Oh man I have to get myself a monster taco, and maybe a strawberry milkshake" but I know it will be too much food. There's another fast food place right next door to the right of the JIB but I don't recognize it's name/sign.
I pull up to the drive-through and there are a lot of people standing around, employees taking orders. There's young boy writhing on the ground in pain by the drive-through menu on the grass. Liquid is spurting high in the air out of his back. There's an EMT tech is rolling the boy on the ground, (like a rolling pin), not trying to treat him, until he dies. They put him in a body bag and take him away.
There's a show with Sen. John McCain he's talking about this boy and how outraged he is, he says "you think your children are safe and they'll try to save them but they don't actually try to save you they'll do a million different things that could be wrong." He says "I saw that liquid spurting out of the boy and I didn't know what that stuff is, maybe it's some sauce I put on this piece of bread here (and eat it), or what?" The audience explodes in uproarious laughter to this. I'm outraged because it's a horrible thing to joke about.
I'm walking with my wife, she asks what the laughter is all about, I say it's just John McCain making a terrible statement.
Long time getting back to sleep. Eventually focus exclusively on relaxing, not "getting back to sleep." I let go of my frustration about distractions from sharing a bed with my wife, start spooning with her, and cultivate feelings of love, warmth, and comfort. I then fairly quickly fall to sleep and have the next LD while still holding her in my arms .
07:39 LUCID #9 DILD
2) TV park, old neighborhood. I'm standing on the middle level, with my back to the swings, near the foot of the hill. There's a low coffee table in front of me on the ground. I notice a cloaked figure at the top of the slide by the street, back facing to the park. "I'm dreaming," I realize immediately. I hop over the coffee table, facing towards the merry-go-round. It is half dark, twilight. I say "LET THERE BE LIGHT!" with my arms raised upwards. Visuals instantly vanish, and I'm left in a half-lit void, kind of like insides of the eyelids in a light area. I call to "NN" to pull me out of back into the dream but it doesn't work. I slowly wake up.
12:30 BTB nap
14:23
3) Golf
Watching some guys play golf. We're on a hill, the players have to hike down a bit to the tee below us on the hill. He hits a ball and it flies towards the green in the distance. There are helpers on the green, they mark the landing place of the balls. This guy's ball lands just inside a small sand trap off of the green. A later shot goes to my mother who's in some water like a tub or pool in a different place, she's sitting in an innertube that also holds the hole for the golf ball, as the ball rolls towards the hole, some guys shake the inner tube and the ball misses the hole and my mother is upset about this, she says "if you're going to do that, (other stuff)".
4) graffiti
In the mountains, around my favorite lake (U), I notice graffiti on some rocks. I look at it closely, it is made up of unrecognizable glyphs in multiple colors and they morph shape as I look at them. There is a tag right in front of me, and another one way up a steep slope that is very dangerous to climb, a large promontory with a far drop all around the edges. I imagine we'll have to rig a rope somehow so that someone can climb up there and clean off the tag.
F1) Video gaming console, it lets you play basketball, there's a special external attachment of a hoop and sensor, it measures the baskets you make. I imagine setting it up in a backyard, it would have to be set up securely with a wooden platform so you could shoot basketballs at it and it wouldn't fall over.

00:00 Monday 2013-11-25
00:00 ?? bedtime
04:49
1) helping a little girl to play the piano. fingers 1-2-4 of the right hand. She's playing with a single flat finger, I'm trying to get her to use proper hand position and to keep her entire hand in position and to hit the notes using fingers 1, 2, 4. Her mother is hovering over her to the left. I'm trying to get the girl to answer a question: "So, pieces usually go by....?" (I'm trying to get her to say "fast"), "so if you want to play well, you can't play with a single flat finger, you have to put your hands in the proper place, so that you know where your fingers are" Her mother is bending over more, I say "Look Out!", the mother knocks over a glass of orange juice with her hair/head and it spills all over everything.
2) Outside dark night scene, going in to a bar from a street corner/intersection, some black guys are trying to pick a fight with us, we manage to dodge them and get inside, once inside we think what are we going to do in here, more anad more gang members are meeting up outside, I think we could make a run for it, but there's a guy standing guard so we're not going to be able to get out.
F1) cleaning up a mess after some kind of event, tall tables, a group of young people.
F2) going through a bunch of letters, showing them to MR's sister, he doesn't want her to see them, I'm holding through this pile of letters and shuffling through them. His sister is very interested in them she's looking for an important letter, like a response to her loan application.
F3) Baseball game
Got back to sleep! Hurray! Wasn't fast, but wasn't hours long, 20-40 minutes perhaps? Focused just on relaxing, holding wife, imagining I was breathing "lucid dream gas" that will put me to sleep and lucid dream in just a few seconds.
07:19
3) indoor shooting range, very small like a convenience store, 4 young boys are grouped at a single non-divided counter shooting guns at targets, one boy is standing back from the counter and I'm concerned he's going to hit the boy to his right who is standing up at the counter. I shoot a small revolver outside, at nothing in particular, about 6 shots, then I open the cylinder so the spent cartridges can fall out to the ground and I notice that they are made with a strange spring-loaded re-usable mechanism, a base and a "hat" attached to the base with a spring. I imagine you can use a recording of a gun firing to trick a criminal in to thinking you're out of bullets, then you can save the girl.
08:58
4) on a road trip, there are guys in the car, I say through the window I'm going to go get some ice cream. In the gelato shop, different extremely colorful very strange flavors, about 8. One has very bright purple in it and is a mixture of grape with something else. One is "liquid filled peanut butter cups." The serving guy gives me a "taste" that is a huge portion, more than a regular portion, and it quickly falls out of the cup all over my (right) hand.
5) in a small home drama show, in someone's living room, the room is filled with people following the actors around, there are a lot of lesbians there. I'm sitting on a couch watching. I recognize one of them sitting next to me, a colleague of my sister's, I slap her leg with my hand and say "What have you seen?" I know that her partner has been in town for a while, but she was new to town. One of the female performers starts laughing while reciting her lines while walking/running through the room to the right, I think that's unprofessional.
6) outdoors in a park at an asian/chinese food snack stand, I ask about the ones with the water chestnuts. The cook is going on and on about the different thickness of the skewers: Very thick and tapering like a carrot, or very narrow like a toothpick, the thickness of the skewer determines how much meat to put on. He asks "Have you ever been to Peking?" They have great snacks there.
7) watching a drama theater presentation in R, but the language they're speaking is English. My wife is translating for me which is ridiculous because the show is in English. We had earlier met some annoying gay guys outside on the steps and now we're sitting right next to them, one is immediately to my left and one other is behind us. My wife is continually whispering "translations" for me I say "what are you doing? Be quiet! I already understand" The guys are saying "shush!" I tell them I'm sorry about the noise. I'm surprised that the program was presented in English.
8) In an office-space, cubicles. We're trying to arrange my work place with office helpers, trying to get my monitors arranged for my computer. There's a young woman whom I share a cubicle with, she has a (in my mind) really stupid idea of combining the monitors and computers so that they're all squished tightly together, I think it wil be very uncomfortable sitting side-by-side with her in that small space. The bookshelves are very high to the side mounted way up on the cube walls. The arrangement is my two monitors turned long side up vertically arranged next to each other, then a stack of cubbies holding cables on the side, and I decide "ok I guess that will work." But then I don't like the cube is wide open to the hallway behind us, I don't want to move to this new position, where people can walk by and see what's on my screen.
10:43
9) Watching a TV news program, I'm sitting down in an armchair to my left, the TV is to my right, the ancorman introduces himself, then the camera switches to the anchorwoman who says "Thank You." and starts in on the story. MEO. A guy is being interviewed. The guy is wearing a multicolored (blue and red)? thick striped sweater. They're talking about a problem in houses, something about ice in the water lines, they're making fun of the story, they don't believe it, they say sarcastically "Yeah, because we know how long ice can last in hot water pipes!" The camera view drops down to the man's chest, can't see his face any more, and the guy has man-boobs visible through his sweater, I think this is very bizarre.
F4) teaching children how to do backbends on a gymnastics balance beam. A little girl is bending all the way over backwards, she's supposed to get her hands behind her, the teachers are on each side of her helping.
F5) sitting in a chair, there's a very attractive young lady sitting next to me, a little in front, in a slinky black dress, we make eye contact but I don't pursue it. Short blonde hair. I think I'd really like to get with her!

00:00 Wednesday 2013-11-27
00:20 bedtime
00:35 still up, getting relaxed.
04:45 (garbled, only tiny fragment recalled in any case)
Long time getting to sleep, argment over snoring, probably didn't get to sleep until 07:00
07:45
1) Playing an old 1980's Control Data Corporation mainframe newtorked interactive multi-user space game called "Empire" (a real thing BTW). My view is filled with the screen showing my and the other ships flying around. I am very quickly pressing the key sequence that launches torpedoes and detonates enemy torpedos. I have a few dogfights with enemy ships. I think my O ship (smallest/weakest one in the game but fastest) has faster torpedoes than the other teams'. I make a kill against another ship. I am dodging enemy ships and fire frantically, constantly changing course. I then set course for a planet where I can fuel. I imagine approaching a huge space station (not in the game view any more).
Inside the space station, the aftermath of a Jedi battle, I'm a jedi and we've taken over the world. A female jedi partner and I are meeting with the former rulers of a world we hve conquered. We're then in a hallway approaching a door where we will make a broadcast presentation to the world telling about our new rulership of this world. "Great time to not have any pants on" I think, noticing I have no pants. I try pulling down a short robe which I'm wearing, it seems to stretch down to the floor. I imagine walking down the corridor with the bottom of the robe wiping along the floor. There are some colorful patterns on the bottom of the robe. My female partner says I should just tuck in the robe to my (underwear?). She says "everyone in the world is watching this (presentation) except The Force." One of the former, vanquished rulers is approaching, I'm sitting down, I think he may try treachery and try to kill me in my bad position with a lightsaber as he walks past me, I imagine him trying a fast attack and I respond by blocking with my lightsaber. I don't like that guy.
There is a presentation of an orchestrated fight sequence given by young children, about 3-4 of them diving and dodging and rolling around on mats.
09:37
2) watching a merry-go-round, there are some women there I'm watching.
stuck between a wooden fence and a building. The fence is like a ranch fence with side wooden boards and lots of space in between the boards. I can't get out, I don't fit somehow. Some woman says "don't worry just don't drink or eat and you'll get through." 3 women from the merry-go-round walk by.
10:56
3) on the beach of a beautiful very bright turquoise blue ocean. Someone says "oh there's whales!" I hear whale-sound in the air, I want to hear it in the water so I lean down over a sandy bank and put my head into the water to listen. I see the flat side of the sandy land above my head. Someone (my cousin G) says "what are you doing, you can't swim there!" But I love it and I would love to swim there, I don't care. They become killer whales, a parent and child. In some large ship with many levels. The small killer whale is a monster with a face full of teeth, dark (purple?) colored. It's following and trying to get me. I'm trying to take a picture of the whales, I have an old-style flat, wide, and long instamatic camera.
4) laying a table outside in some sort of garden for dinner. Inside there's a gathering. One narrator is a mostly naked, large white blonde-haired woman with extremely pale skin and super bright blue veins, turquoise, dark-blue-purple, all over her skin. I find it really nasty.
There is a pit set into the floor of the room under a grating, with buckets at the bottom. They need to be emptied and cleaned. I need to pull them up, it's hard because it's about 10 feet deep I don't know how I'm going to get them up. Emptying and cleaning the buckets.
F1) Caressing the arms and legs of some woman.
5) There's a woman lying in bed with textured stockings on. I start peeling the stockings off (ripping them off in strips). She's in bed with her husband/boyfriend, she likes what I'm doing, but he wakes up and starts smacking me around, I protest and say that I'm just trying to fix a tear in the stockings.

22:29 1/2 cup cold sleep tea (Mother's Wort + rose hips)

00:00 Friday 2013-11-22

00:30 ?? bedtime.

02:24

1) With DD, we had been fighting, we made up at the concert/graduation, it was a big thing that we were friendly & together again, we were being filmed. I saw my face DO and DD's face, my face wasn't my own, it was a generic young blonde face, with a dark spot under the right eye.

2) Filling out paperwork trying to get the deposit returned on a set of skis, the guys asks about (some kind of) skiing, I answer "that's the kind of skiing where you go off the trails." He says "ah, nah, forget that, I just want to go on the main streets." I say "Yeah, I know, you can go one street to another street, and you can just say, 'Ah, F*ck this, gimme a beer.'" I'm filling out the form, I draw a strange W-like character (sort of like a greek omega) but with 3-4 loops instead of 2.

06:20

F1) Young S1 and S2 are wearing University color shirts and waving flags as the train arrives.

F2) A man hosting a show about lucid dreaming, "Be Who You Want To Be!"

Crappy recall, I think that tea kills REM or something. Or maybe I'm just tired? Can't get back to sleep. AGAIN. SH!T. The night started out good with two dreams at about 2 hours, but then couldn't recall.

09:30 BTB nap

10:48 LD #8 DILD !!!!!!!!!!!!

Long time getting to sleep, did incubation scene injection (not holding hard on to visualization) of TG and JQ, and sometimes the scene started changing, like a new DC entered from off-stage, or I noticed something else in the scene suddenly that I didn't put there myself. Happened several times. Turned from back to left side. LD happened on left side. Told myself "The next thing I see is a dream" several times. Told SC "OK time to get that next LD to move along the November goals!"

3) I'm on my parent's deck it's twilight there's a beautiful view out over the city and the water, I immediately realize I'm dreaming! I get the lucid rush/feeling. I think "All RIGHT! Lucid right at the start!" I feel very aware, and I anticipate a long and awesome LD. But then vision goes black! I still feel lucid. I try prying open my dream eyes with my dream fingers, and I "feel" the dream eyes open but everything is still black. I try to imagine taking off and flying towards the water. Slowly fades to feeling my body in bed and I'm awake. Try to DEILD back in but too awake. Need to prepare strategy for the void (if that's what it was). Start rubbing hands RIGHT AWAY at lucidity!

November goals progress: 3 LDs / goal of 8. Still have a week, let's GO!

No more of that sleep tea, I get crappy recall after drinking it before bed.

00:00 Thursday 2013-11-21

00:39 bedtime

05:39

1) J. Tyn's vacation: cliff diving at the fish rock. He had the most wonderful time of his life there. We dove into the beautiful blue water. It was a cove with a tall rock (20 feet or more) in the middle. They spent the whole day diving from that rock again and again. From the water I climb up on to the top of the rock. It's kind of curved in cross section looking down from the top. I was pushed up from behind by the ocean on to the top of the rock. The magical thing about this rock is that the ocean washes over the top of it, there is a little shelf below the top where when the water recedes, food is left on that shelf. All kinds of fish. Boxes of pizza. You don't have to pay for any food, you just eat from what the ocean brings you.

2) I'm a new recruit in the army. Wake up in a room knowing I need to find where breakfast is and present myself for the lineup in time. But I don't remember know where anything is. I wil have to ask my fellow recruits. Get up into bathroom other people are around some men some women. I get a toothbrush and start brushing my teeth. The mixture of the toothpaste with some other thing falls from my toothbrush to the counter and it becomes alive and starts crawling like a snail down the cabinet and over the floor. I'm amazed by this. Other people notice and comment on it.

F1) something about wine.

11:43

F2) Have to meet with F. Jn. so he can go for a walk with a woman, we're going to meet by the tennis courts, S1 and S2 are going to go with me.

F3) On a steep hill, scooting up higher. I'm on an air matress. Beautiful lady to my right, she's getting ready to change/take off her top, I'm scooting higher to get into better position to observe . I see her breasts? They're's talking about some guy they're dating or had dating, one girl says "the couple of times we went out he showed up 15 minutes late."

F4) Young people are performing an advertising jingle inside, singing and dancing.

F5) In a place with people, upset that things aren't going the way I want. There's a huge refridgerator with transparent doors and revolving shelves inside. I see my microwave burrito, cold piece of pizza, and bottle of hot sauce inside. I grab all of these into my hands to go eat them.

F6) I'm laying a trap. My opopnent is like me, and can move at the speed of The Flash. I have a device with a button on it, I'm trying to hide it, I'm lying on the floor, I'm thinking should I hide it behind the door? Should I hide it over there? There's someone coming and I'm going to try to trap him by pushing this button when I see him.

Saw a dream forming? A sequence of images eventually solidifying? I woke up from it.
Oh that cursed 5th hour waking, the bane of my November! I stubbornly refuse to get out of bed or leave for the day without getting back to sleep for at least one more dream session, thus the big gap in times. Took a long time to get back to sleep, got back to bed around 9-9:15. Took a big swig of sleep tea (Mother's Wort and rose hips) around 09:00. Maybe that resulted in so many fragments instead of dreams.... may have felt it kick in to get to sleep.