FryingMan

Lots of dreams, recall poor, only vague impression of long dreams, too tired from previous night's loss of sleep

+ walking into a large enclosed structure/building within a larger building, dark, lots of metal hanging around, a bunch of guys in there were pretending they were in prison, swaggering and positioning themselves as cool, asked WTF I was doing in there, I didn't belong, I left, and shut and bolted the door, they all shouted "HEY" (there was no light) so I opened it again.

+ on the crew of a Star Trek ship? (which I had more recall of this one!)

+ in a racquetball court (I hereby promote this to formal dreamsign status, happens a lot recently), I'm warming up with friends we're about to play, I hit the ball a few times, I hit it to a friend so he can hit it, he doesn't, the friends decide to play instead in another court in another club later in the week, I say, WHAT? Aren't we going to play, I imagine the other court has narrow passageways leading in to the court.

Trying to always go back to DEILD at each waking, so recall suffered and don't know time of dreams.

+ in a concrete underground bunker, I'm looking for the toilet, I see a hole in the ground where it used to be. A workman is quizzing me about bolts in the ceiling.

+ in a large hall with long wooden seats (Church?) I'm trying to move ahead of a slow moving group, I can't get by.


00:00 Wednesday 2014-01-22

05:00 1 4mg galantamind, 1 250mg (300mg?) alpha gc

+ lived in a land where the rulers were against me, I had to leave and come back. Long dream. There's a refridgerator/ice maker I wanted to give away to some poor folks there was a place to plug it in, as long as they would let me use it, I would come and have drinks there. At the end I was going somewhere in a jeep with 2 girls they had left their crutches behind we had to go back to the bad land to get them but it went OK.

07:47

+ in a racquetball court, fairly dark lights weren't on, it was not the right size, it was not deep enough , threw a ball around, there was a bunch of stuff in there I was moving to out of the way so I could play, but I didn't have a racquet then I see a racquet.

Was trying to get in to a court , the walls were so opaque I could barely see through, but I saw players playing there ,I think I probably need reservations.

Tried alarm-based DEILDs starting at 05:00 but was too awake, didn't make it back to sleep after first alarm, eventually back to sleep at around 07:30, turned off the alarms.

05:30

+ walking on a beach. neighbor boy with mother is there too, his foot gets stuck in between some stones, I'm walking over the sand and over rocks in the sand.

+ work elevators. Walking past a group of people returning from lunch. On an outdoor path. The group starts pressing into me strongly and closely as I try to push past, I keep an eye on my bag to make sure nobody steals my stuff. I"m keeping an eye out for cute women in the group. Someone says "oh, my." I reach the elevators, there are about 3 elevators. There's a crowd, can't get on, elevators open on left, a tour group is there, they don't get on at first, tour guide says "the minimum age is 52."

A bunch of short dreams throughout the late morning punctuated by quick awakenings.

Somewhere in there tried a classical WILD, was reaaaaalllllyyyy sllloooooowwww to get relaxed enough, but eventually felt the beginnings of ragged breathing, jerking eyes, and an "all-body-buzz" which are my WILD noise indicators. No body movement hallucinations, felt a bit light-headed. Tried to remain calm but didn't make it into the dream.

08:00 ?

+ I find myself Looking at a wall of snow about 6 feet away right in front of me. The snow at the top level of the walll is the bottom of a ski run. I"m thinking about how I could try to jump down this wall on skis: how I would try to dig my ski edges into the sides of the wall, and I also think this may not work since the wall is more or less vertical and I'd probably just fall down, the wall is about 10 feet high. As the dream fades I realize I'm dreaming and try to get back in but I don't feel like counting it as a lucid since the visuals were gone before I realized I was dreaming.

09:30 (dreams from many earlier quick wakings)

+ walking past my elderly mother in the living room, she's sitting in a chair. Something snags her skirt and pulls it entirely off her, I'm trying to find the cloth and put it back, she's laughing, I finally can get a hold of the cloth and put it back in place.

+ I'm walking outside on a street with my son, lots of people outside. We're carrying a pet hamster in a glass. There's a pet store nearby. I want to go in and I say there will be a lot of cute animals there. My son is reluctant, he may be concerned that we'll lose our hamster. I look at the hamster it has kind of a shimp-like face with big black closely-set eyes. My son pours some water into the glass with the hamster. I look at it and say it has a stupid little rhinoceros-head.

+ plane crash. I'm in my car at the top of the hills. I see a large commercial jet plane flying overhead at the top of the hills, it's taking off and barely misses me, flying towards the water. I'm driving. I'm in my car then at the bottom of the hills and look up and see the plane flying, and looks like it's in trouble. It flies out over the water. I"m at a red light. I'm leaning forwards to see the plane in the sky through my windshield. I see the plane bank sharply and head back towards me on the land. The traffic light is now green. I drive out of the way so the plane doesn't hit me. I'm driving in water, to the left, the plane will crash land a bit to the right, I think I'll drive way out to the left in the water if I have to to avoid the plane. There are designated parking areas on a pier for the cars in the water.

I walk by the crash site and I see bodies floating face down. There are certified drivers who are diving to save the people, I see several. Someone says "oh, yeah, there's sharks." I think of course there are sharks there is probably a lot of blood in the water from the crash. I see a few people walking away in soaked clothing and I think a few have been rescued.

+ walking by a vietnamese restaurant, I'm outside on a boardwalk, there's a menu posted on a board, I'm reading it and see an item on the menu is called a "whiskey rim-shot." I also see a picture of a big bowl with red liquid inside and slices of hot peppers, I think it's a picture of someone's bowl after they've eaten and used a lot of red chili sauce.

(Experimented with DEILD attempts on every waking so alot of recall sacrificed)

Lots of wakings through the night, I still roll over / move at all wakings. I realize I'm rolling over but it's too late. I go back to sleep right away with the notion of DEILDing. Tired from previous night's 3-hour sleep loss. I recall a waking at about 3 hours, and

+ (DO) A woman and I are in some chidlren's play-place (tubes), we take turns pulling each other out of stuck positions

+ A huge family is being cooked for, it's in a deli, there are lots of cats wandering around, I notice in particular a white cat with luxurious fur, and a scraggly older cat with dirty white fur

+ Driving with wife, I'm in passenger seat, she's not paying attention (on phone or something), I keep screaming "pull over! pull over!", I grab the wheel, we're skidding sideways across the road, we pull off on to a dirt road, we get out, my kids and I are walking and sinking into mud to waist depth, I'm concerned we'll drown, I tell my kids to move slowly so as not to sink deeper, we get out OK.

+ At boy scout camp, the patrol camps are all squished together in one small spot, the camps and areas are delineated by little 4-inch-high curbs made of stones running everywhere in no particular pattern. The patrol members will be able to see each other.

00:00 Monday 2014-01-19

+ Playing blackjack at a table, buying a snack from the dealer who handed it to me over a 3-foot high clear plexiglass barrier, spied a former neighbor of mine who was behaving entirely deranged, walking around with severely squinted eyes (not the first time I've seen a DC with squinted eyes, weird) knocking into people and babbling, I'm riding in an office chair with wheels I roll right up to her and call her name, she opens her eyes widely as she recognizes me, and she says something about the correct words/grammar to use when discussing dachsunds -- she holds one of my seated legs between her standing legs and I think this is a bit inappropriate.

+ I'm trying to woo a crush by giving her pieces of strangely glowing minerals I find in the ground.

+ Driving in my childhood neighborhood I get chased at high speed by some bad guys.

Woohoo, just woke from my first DEILD!!!!!

It was soooo cool. The details are a bit hazy, but I was recalling some dreams from the night, lightly thinking about them, glad that I had any recall at all (having imbibed on New Year's Eve, and gotten to bed crazy late), and decided to just try to drift off quietly and DEILD, very lightly thinking of one of the dreams.

The next thing I knew I was looking at some indoor scene in a hallway in a house. I think I was aware as the image formed and brightened. It was very bright, the lighting was very good. I thought wow, this is a really solid image, normally my HI is brief but this was really stable, I was kind of puzzled at where it came from. I just looked for about 10-15 seconds. I stepped in to the scene and it was a dream! I got a lucid rush, turned up a staircase to my left, bounded up the stairs, exclaiming, "YES! It worked!" reached the landing at the top of the stairs, another hallway, turned right, a bathroom was right there, I walked into it and started to shut the door behind me, and faded to awake in bed.

The cool thing about this was that I did not wake from a lucid, it was just a ND. Oh boy, I think 2014 is going to be the year of the DEILD for me, this is VERY exciting. I'm going to look into the alarm based options as well!

Stay quiet, stay asleep, and DEILD!

Now *that's* the way to start a new year!

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-30 comp #16 night #18

01:49 bedtime (urgh! bad!)

07:43

1) performance of computer chips. I meet a marketing guy from one company on the street and he rolls out some marketing posters, showing certain companies holding certain spots in the ratings list. I check with the other company that game/performance was not their intended platform.

In a boat with computer scientists, climb up stairs to open upper level for a meeting to discuss the chip performance, there are some big wakes we ride over making the boat rock a lot front to back, I see the water and the waves approaching the boat.

The ships arrives at a place with a whirlpool and a waterfall, they both need to be avoided. I'm in the water. There's a boy in the water, directing our attention to these two dangers to avoid them. (Something weird about berries and chewing these berries and getting them off of your neck). If you avoid the dangers there is a police chase, and the police will always get you. I see an overhead cartoon depiction of a police car chase.

2) my mother is performing a financial audit/full business report of a company. She's comparing the number of employees and expenses versus the goals of the company. She's preparing detailed typewritten reports on large brownish sheest of paper. Her conclusion is that everything is going perfectly well in the company. She's describing the troubles she had producing the large charts in the typewriter, like she at first thought of having to type each letter individually and then having to re-adjust the paper to type the next letter. I see words written in a foreign language as well as English on the report.

3) a company lunch. I see the kitchen where they're cooking. All the food was white. I did not want to eat it. Cheese/chicken sandwiches on white bread, I saw the finished toasted sandwiches piled up waiting to be taken. I wanted to go to a different cateferia for lunch. There was a warning sign posted over a stairwell about how some employees had been talking about a 3rd party company (that specialized in charcoal) and these employees had been overheard discussing confidential information, and the charcoal company was angry. The Japanese CEO of the charcoal company appeared saying something about the history/honor or the company.

F1) last day at work, shook hands with colleages including BI. They were going out for lunch but I had other plans.

4) I was being detained by a big black bald police officer, I'm sitting on a coach in a room full of columns. He won't let me get a drink of water because it's against protocol. There's an annoying little black guy sitting on the couch poking me, I push him. I complain about him and move to the other end of the couch. He puts something in my mouth like a little wafer of ice cream.

Scene in a restaurant where a rich woman is trying to figure out if her (dog can have ice cream?). She's eating lots of cheesecake. I'm sitting on the couch eating ice cream and I put the spoon down on a towel on top of the couch, she comes over, I think she'll be upset about me putting the ice cream on the couch, I pick it up and she says something.

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00:00 Sunday 2013-12-29 comp #16 night #17 LD #16

02:00 ? bedtime. Kids were in our room doing a skype chat with an old friend really late

07:26

1) animated cartoon race looks like sidescroller video game small cartoon characters one walking one on a bike/trike, they're moving from right to left, I watch for a few seconds and am amused. I think it's funny that the girl passes the boy and wins. Sitting at a table, the cartoon race boy is JoSa, the girl is his sister, I'm sitting at a table with a bunch of other children and JoSA, I ask him "How is your sister, anyway?" He had trouble speaking/answering, he was embarrased, he spoke French? A little. His sister I understood didn't like something about the world.

Looking closely at JoSa, I focus up close on his left eye. It is very large with strange streaks of orange. The eye is looking around, it sort of has a chameleon look to it. There is a huge strange red area between his eye and his nose, even larger than the large eye area, filled with red capillaries running back and forth from top to bottom (like refridgerator coils).
Children eating around the table, the subject of money comes up. I say "math is really tricky, how did you do on the exams?" One kid has apparently earned drug money, he has a fistful of bills, his mother comes up and takes it, he can't have the money "because Jesus did not touch the money."

The kid are trying to forge some forms. They're filling out the forms with their childlike block capital letters, I see the letters, they're obviously written by children, I think this forgery will never work.

2) bad grandmother, was pounding the poor grandchild all around, roughly placing the child on the ground. The GM put the child inside even though there was nice weather outside, something about "warming up" but I know that it ridiculous because it's very warm outside. The grandfather always watched to make sure the GM didn't hurt the child. The GM told the GF "oh you can never do anything," and the GF answered because he has to stay and watch her.

3) UL (lake) Indian battles. We're standing in a high overview looking down on a bunch of Indians, we shoot a volley of arrows at them, this causes them to start chasing us, they're mad that we shot the arrows at them. This was at the main boy scout campsite. You can't outrun the Indians, they're going to catch us and probably skin us, it's going to be bad. It turns out the main campsite was some sort of sacred ground and the Indians would not enter this area, that's why the scouts chose this place for the camp. I'm trying to climb up some rocks in the camp.

4) tractor battle. I'm driving a large vehicle with high clearance like a truck. I'm trying to get back to the main road which is right ahead, but I'm currently on a sandy/soft-earth area and I'm trying to find a path to the paved road but I can't. I'm moving forwards and reverse several times. I then realize the enemy has constructed a moat all around the truck and there is no path to the road. I hit the edge of the moat and the truck almost flips over forwards, it goes up to about 70-80 degrees before falling back down. I see some metal girders buried under the sand in the moat. Then the enemy rushes the truck, and I jump out to fight. Some come over to my side and are trying to construct a bridge over the moat made out of garden lounges, they make a high bridge, I doubt they will hold the weight of the truck.

F1) I'm returning somewhere with a group, I stop to eat in a cafeteria, there's a guy at a table behind me eating his own lunch.

F2) on a country road, looking down the lane, then there's a tomato vine that grows several feet per second. I support it with my hands as I watch it grow farther down the road, I see the little tomatoes forming, someone is quizzing me about the length to which it will grow.

07:37 BTB

long time hovering on the edge of sleep, at least 2 hours. Lots of dreamlets, some perhaps dreams forming. Tried a WILD on back at one point. Gave up after a while. Some external disturbance, but never waking up much. Did not get up out of bed despite long to-sleep time because I felt that manging this balancing on the edge of sleep was important for lucid dreaming: for LDing, one is on the sleep side of this edge, while I was on the awake side last night, hoping to transition over.

10:29 LD #16

F3) watching a small orchestra playing without a conductor. I look to the side and see my brother-in-law lying on the ground under a table, sleeping. I think that makes sense, he's tired. I see someone else also lying partly under the table (my father) but his feet are protruding out past the end of the table.

5) standing in line at an attraction/ride. I'm near the front of the line, my younger son is playing on the ground in front of me. I shoot a rubber band at the ground in front of him. We start shooting rubber bands at each other for a while, one hits me hard in the chest area and I say "Hey don't give me a heart attack!" The attraction is in a building out on the water, and we're waiting for the shuttle boat. I move forwards in the line and rest my right arm on a counter. There are peoole behind me in the line. My wife is concerned we won't make it back in time because we have to go somewhere. I figure we indeed probably will not make it, since once out on the water we will be unable to return without the boat, currently the time is 07:45 (?) and the attraction is probably at least a couple of hours.

Walking on a road past a building, I go in, it's a huge chinese banquet/buffet meal. The staff are finishing setting the places and starting to bring out the food. There are many tables set with many plates. I'm walking around looking at the tables. The guests have not started arriving yet in big numbers. A few are sitting down to eat. I think I better grab a plate soon before everybody else arrives, there are a few dishes on the tables already. I can't find a plate, I see some serving platters, that's not a dish I can use. I see a place setting with a plate and I take the plate and put some food on it from some of the dishes served already. My plate is floppy like a paper plate it's hard to keep it from collapsing. I maneuver around a server bringing a big plate of food. I sit down to eat, I start to eat, I look down at my plate I see it with food up close, I realize this is a dream and I slowly wake up...

...but not very much, I think briefly about the dream but I'm not very awake, and I fall asleep again...

6) ... and wake up in a luxurious fluffy huge hotel room entirely in white (with no memory of prior dream at this point). There is lots of furniture around: couches, beds, everything is white. I'm alone, looking for family, don't know where they are, I was sleeping on a fluffy white comfortable couch with white comforters. I go through a door it is into an adjoining room which is darker, I'm confused, I say "Huh, What!?" I look around the room, there's nothing in it. I return to the original room and go out through another door. It looks like the main room door of a hotel room, lots of throw bolts / slide locks. I enter into the banquet room (of previous dream), there is a maid cleaning with a large vaccuum cleaner, and some people farther along to the left are sitting down to a buffet breakfast, I look down and see I'm wearing my tattered "comfy shorts", I'm embarrased about them and go back into the room to change into my sweatpants.

I see in a sumptuous luxurious sleeping area with wafting white gauze curtains my sons lying in bed. Older son is to the right and covered and asleep, younger son is to the left and uncovered and awake, my wife has prepared a breakfast tray for him the tray is with him in bed. His face is underneath a large couch rectangular cushion (held above his face by the
couch, not resting on it) whicih is screening the light from his face, he's asking my wife for a blueberry muffin.

This is my first recognized dream exit, dream re-enter sequence.

10:39 BTB

drowsing on and off for several hours.

14:00

F4) thanks (sarcastic) for hiding the refugees in cells with the masses, for telling them it's safer to mingle with the groups, the corrupt immigration officials are managing them, they've been slaughtered. All you have to do to get back to the other group is declare yourself to be a "dikta". A guy then looks at a girl and says "I'm a dikta"and she says "OK" and pushes him over to the other side.

F5) going to church climbing over fence in a stone ampitheatre. Walking up the rows there is a photographer. He says he likes to take pictures of women when they're sitting down because you get lots of detail, there are a number of young women sitting down bottomless, their privates are visible.

There's a guy hiding in a hidden area with a small window, up above the sitting area, he's chatting up a woman in the audience area, he's trying to pick her up, she has a clever reply, he comes out he's a nondescript guy in his 30's with bumpy face and a thin mustache.

Probably spent at least 4 hours not sleeping between to-bed and final waking time, so it's probably just 8 hours of sleep altogether.

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00:00 Saturday 2013-12-28 comp #16 night #16 LD #15

01:08 bedtime

05:53
golf, thte queen and the humulus, crazy dogs, dales in the garage, starry moonlit night

1) game of golf, a father is hitting his golf ball, which knocks into his son's ball, the announcer says "if it goes down the right hill the son will be the winner." there is a small mound about a meter high with various slopes going forwards/backwards and left/right. The ball is like a small tribble, a furry ball with white/brown patches. The son is watching the ball rolling down into the target "hole" (more like a large bowl), so he is the winner. I'm also watching, up close. I imagine it would be stupid for the son to knock the ball out of the hole since he'd lose points.

F1) the princess/queen is waiting for someone. I'm with her. She's going into the back of the library, I follow and sit down with her. She sits down and reads a story. I see "the princess and the humulus" written on a wall. The "humulus" is some other woman.

2) MD is driving down the driveway into my childhood home's garage where I'm standing with my wife. There's a refridgerator there, low, long and rectangular. RD has been coming to spray the things growing inside the refridgerator with water. My wife is asking my why I can't do that, she was upset that I wasn't doing it and someone else had to. I couldn't find the spray bottle which is why I couldn't do the spraying. I say if I could have found it I could have done it. ND is up at the top of the driveway (on HC). M's car comes into the garage and manages to turn around in a tight circle without having to back up, it turns around several times. He manages to avoid hitting my parent's car. I tell my wife she could leave a message for RD on this other refridgerator in the garage.

3) sitting with a bunch of people outside. There had been some battle. There were crazy attack dogs like little Tasmanian devils whirling around that are posting signs on fences about their enemies. I'm standing next to an open furnace. I'm indicating with my head towards the furnace, several times, and I say that they could soak their enemies in oil and through them in the fire. They said they tried it before and it didn't work, but I know it can work.

F2) guy in a car with a date. If all else fails, they could look up at the stars and the moonlit sky. I look up and see a beautiful night sky with silvery moonlight. They need to find a place to park, though.

F3) there's a cord leading up to a security camera high on a street pole on the street.

06:04 MILD and SSILD.

06:57 still trying to sleep

07:35 still trying to sleep, get up get a snack, BTB

08:57 LD #15

4) walking/running through well-lit narrow office corridors with white walls and blue office carpet, I realize I'm dreaming. I continue walking a few steps. Dream feels unstable (dizzy?), I rub hands together, I hold them up in front my eyes and feel the rubbing and see my hands (they look normal). I do my stabilization kata: pat down my dream body with my hands while counting to 5, I see my torso and legs, I'm just wearing my underwear, so my hands are slapping on my skin, it's effective, I feel my hands on my body. I hear someone behind me in the corridor, I don't want to encounter anybody while stabilizing, I count to 5 again turning around, I don't see anybody. There are lots of intersecting corridors (at right angles). Vision is clear and vivid, dream body is well-lit. I have good memory of dream goals, I have a huge point-fest all planned. I feel stable, vision is clear. I say "OK, Pickman, time to get down to business!" I reach my right hand behind me to summon him and fade to awake in bed. Total time, about 45 seconds. Lying on stomach, head to the right.

12:25

5) On ski lift with sister, brother-in-law, and parents. We're looking at the snow paths down below. The path has gently rolling hills, my sister says that it looks like a really attractive path for beginners. Lots of bumps to do little jumps if you want to. The lift reaches a 90 degree turn to the left, and I say "here we go up the mountain!" We're up very high there are large snowy mountains. I feel like I'm starting to slip off my seat. I wonder how my folks will get back down since they're not skiing.

01:30 wife woke me up

6) in the neighborhood a few blocks away from childhood home, down below. I'm standing in a clearing, looking down towards a circle. I see houses and a playground beyond the circle. There are houses in the distance, I'm studying them, they seem to be under construction. I'm trying to remember if those houses were they before or whether they were new. There are lots of open arches in the design, I'm thinking they're building more and more houses down there. There is an opening leading through some trees to the playground. I say "that playground must be for everybody who lives around here" I go into the playground. There is a drinking fountain there. It's low to the ground again a brick wall, in a tight spot, I turn it on and bend down to get a drink. There were some small kids thre playing.

F4) Frickin' awesome flying scene. I'm *imagining* that I can fly. I'm flying from the hills down to the city. I'm It is superman-style flight, powered, will-controlled speed, not just gliding. I see the trees and the ground passing beneath me, I'm ecstatic, and say "oh yeah!". I'm astounded at how well I can "imagine."

I almost didn't remember the flying fragment. It's amazing how much we forget every night.

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00:00 Friday 2013-12-27 comp #16 night #15

00:15 bedtime two 200mg tabs of Valerian

04:29

F1) skiing, there's not enough snow

1) arcade game contest, you have to get a huge balloon-like ball through a hoop in the ceiling. The game is arranged with mirrors. It's very hard to see what the goal of this game is exactly, I'm trying to figure it out. Eventually a faint hoop high up in the back comes into view and I know you're supposed to get this huge ball through that hoop. I'm trying different ways, including throwing a deflated balloon, then I get the idea of get the balloon in place to fall through the hoope: I tie a a string to the balloon, throwing the string over the roof of the building beyond the game area, and pulling the string from the other side of the building to get the balloon directly over the target.
Dream changes to their being an attack from one team on another down a river. One team is waiting for the other team, there's an ambush. The older people are upset they didn't want to participate in an attack, it is a betrayal of trust. Is some places the ground is food, like pizza.

F2) A guy says "only people who are believers (O) can come inside".

F3) A guy fails the test of good character, "b" (flat mark) Pyt.T. is grading the test. I see a hand/pencil making a mark on the grading form paper up close.

F4) a campus police offiicer is standing in full uniform in the distance, I see his badge. They're advertising the job of being a campus policeman. There's a guy sitting at a gate then this policeman comes out.

2) bowling in the bowline alley throwing the ball, left handed, it crosses over the middle, hits near the 10 pin, but in a very slow chain reaction all the pins fall down for a strike. I said "wow that's one of the (ugliest/slowest) strikes I've every seen!" Some people were watching, they don't react much. I'm happy to get a strike. I bowl another ball, having trouble releasing it on the proper arrow. I try to stand far back, and approach the 2nd arrow from the left. Look at the ball and the finger holes are all wrong and spread out strangely and there are more than 3, I see the ball up close. I'm playing another guy, I bowl the first ball, and he bowls the second shot, I say "hey you're not supposed to do that, that was my shot." He's upset that I chastised him, and he says "that's the reason why I don't like to play this game," which I think is ridiculous. All the time I'm in the left-most lane of the alley up aginst the left edge of the building. I keep missing my arrow, and the ball at one time skips over an entire lane and enters the gutter of the 2nd lane to the right.

04:40 BTB, doing MILD and SSILD

07:11

F5) watched a woman having a nightmare about being a mermaid. Her legs were short and amputated-looking rather than fishy. Then there's a close up of her bloody decapitated body with the neck stump rubbing up against the bottom part of a couch next to the floor. The view is from overhead.

3) with children trying to watch a movie, I'm in a rocking chair that won't stop rocking, like it's motorized. It's really bothering me, I'm trying to figure it out, to make adjustmets, I say "it's a bad rocking chair, a RC should only rock when you want it to."

We're doing a project with these kids, building something, a little toy house is being fixed up.
Outside with a bunch of kids, they're playing in water.

The kids are playing in the water, a small shallow creek with short reeeds. "we're being sponges" they say. I move to stand in the water too. The kids are naked, and I get naked too. They're all little boys but one is a girl. She's older and she's not naked but is topless. She is shy and keeps turning away from me, I keep maneuvering for a better view. I'm walking in the mud and feel it on my toes.

I'm concerned about making progress on all the projects, the kids are not concerned, they say "you could do t his, you could do that," since they're not concerned, I say, "OK, I'll be a sponge, too."

I see two purple fly-like insects up close with triangular heads covered with insect eyes, their weird mouth appendages are touching each other. I recite the little poem "There were purple bees, kissing in trees." Then I see a very colorful small rainbow minnow flying through the air, it stops in front of me, I see the horizontal stipes of the colors, purple on the top and bottom, and red and yellow in the middle, it's beautiful. I say "hey did you see that?" The guy saw it.

4) in a room, large, tall ceilinged, rectangular, white paint on the walls. It's like a hotel or a dormitory. Son2 is there and wife. Someone rings the bell. Nobody goes to answer the door, eventually I go open the door, I open it, there's a second door, but on the doorknob inbetween the doors is a piece of paper. I take it back into the room and open it. It is a number of pieces of paper stapled randomly together so it's really hard to open and see anything. I eventually see some number, it's a bill for the stay, 1000, or 1900, or 19000.

There's a large toy/model house, one floor is a drawer with a lot of garbage in it, food garbage, and it's wet. Food and dirty. There are strange coins, I try to flip one of these coins but I can't because the coin is too large. I try to do this repeatedly but can't. The coins are rolling around on the ground. I try to find a smaller coin to flip it. I find some "19 r" coins, they're not normal coins, they're only for buying a weird thing. A giant vacuum cleaner starts spewing out sewage into our room. I put it out into the corridor so it's a shared problem, not just our problem.

09:53

F6) a doctor is searching a man for lesions inside and older man's head. I see the top of the man's bald head, his head is bumpy like an egg carton (or snow moguls) all over the top of his head, the doctor is pressing in the valleys of the head poking around trying to find something. I see the front of the face of the patient briefly.

5) in childhood home (DS!!!), I hang up a coat in the hallway closet. We're rushing somewhere. There's a sweater that wouldn't go properly into a drawer. My wife asks me to push it in, I look down and see it protruding from the bottom drawer of a dresser. My wife has a business with Yo Yo Ma, but he hasn't been working recently, but we were still paying him. "If he's not working why in the heck are we paying him for?" Wife answers "he still works occationally, he taught just a few days ago." I say "it's amazing you have so many contacts with famous people." My wife was talking about paying the insurance so we could take care of a pink spot under my arm.

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00:00 Thursday 2013-12-26 comp #16 night #14

00:17 bedtime cup of peppermint (two bags) and St. John's Wort tea (tea big teaspoons)

01:11 long discussion at bedtime, felt very awake, took 3mg melatonin to prevent sleepless night, in retrospect it might have been better to be awake for a while but get some dreams , but I also wanted to "reset" my going to bed time to midnight.

07:45 alarm, up for breakfast duty, no recall, melatonin really zonked me out

09:06 BTB

09:40 phone call, important business matter, had to do some printing and scanning, was almost asleep or asleep, took a while to get there since I was wide awake at the BTB time.

10:27 BTB... I do NOT accept a night without any dreams! Lots of dreamlets/HI. I saw my backpack and the view from the bed out into the corridor very clearly. This one seemed to last for a long while. I did a motionless RC but it indicated awake.

11:47

1) baseball game. I'm in the close outfield just behind 2nd base. A ball is hit and runners are running around the bases. I see a base runner who has rounded 2nd base falling back to 2nd. The runner is naked and he has a giant huge flappy stomach. I'm amazed that that guy can run bases at all he's so fat. He stands up and he's so big with his arms on the ground and his feet in back of him that I think he looks like a centaur. Then he fully stands up and he IS a centaur. He has the face of a famous fat actor and his chest is very hairy with red/brown hair.

2) leaky house & GF
I'm in a big very tall ceilinged old leaky house with lots of sleeping lofts. It is raining outside and the rain is dripping everywhere onto people's beds. I hear the rain pouring into a cooking pot and filling it up that someone has put on their bed. I think my cousin's bed is going to be very wet, he won't want to sleep there. I see damp beddings on the beds. I pick up the pot to empty it. I walk past one bed with a girl sleeping in it on her right side, dark hair, pretty face, light skin, I see her shoulder/top of her chest, she's piled deeply under many feet of blankets, she is the girlfriend of the guy in whose bed she's sleeping.

I stand next to another bed, I'm half-way through taking off my shirt over my head, when my college GF (D.B.) appears and says sarcastically "wow, is that your (celebration?) outfit?", I know I look dishevelled, my hair is a mess. I say "I know I look....'attractive' right now" (being ironic), "but I'd really like to lie with you for a while here, can I?" She says yes of course and comes into my arms. Her bed is right in the open area, my bed is up above in a much more private area, I think of asking her to come up there because it's much more private.

Some workers are moving through the area, moving large objects, the objects are banging into the sleepers lightly.

F1) a big house is a huge toy house model, I see the model a few feet away from me. I know someone is in the garden there.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-25 comp #16 night #13

00:00 bedtime

03:03

F1) I said "bullshit bullshit bullshit..." about the flying man, flying around with a (something?)

04:39

F2) fighting

05:27

F3) someone's trying to get me in trouble

07:22

1) "ship battles & potstickers"
On a ship at night in the Mediterranean sea, one guy is swimming in the warm water, the crew is on board, one of the guys is playing the classical guitar, suprisingly well, I hear it clearly and follow the melody for a while, he's not playing perfectly but still very well, I'm quite astonished such a rough/low-brow guy can play so well.

It's daytime and the ship is moving through the air, we've taken on a huge cargo lot of rugs, piles of rolled up rugs cover the deck, I'm concerned we have too many rugs on board.

Enemy scouts ahead of the path of our ship have spotted us and recognized our ship. I'm in a team to kill the scouts. I try to chop the head off of one guy by hitting his neck from two sides at once with a blade in each hand. It's not working and I'm squeamish about continuing.

Attack scene: inside the ship, the enemies were attacking, the enemies were approaching the doors and shooting in grenades that bounce around inside around corners and exploding. I also shoot some bouncing grenades back at them.

I'm DO: 2 from my team are retreating back to our ship, one, an infantry, makes it inside but stops to help/watch the flying mech partner, which is caught by another flying mech in a strong stream of machine gun fire, I watch the steam of fire, it is ripping our mech to shreds, pieces of metal are flying everywhere, I think our guy won't survive.

I'm in a high place, and a woman is gesturing/calling to me from a platform about 100 feet down a hill from my position and asking "what happened to the potstickers?". There are a few people on this small platform (about 4 square meters). I can't understand what she's saying so I mimic holding a telephone up to my right ear with my right hand so that she will call me. She doesn't, so eventually I fly down to the platform. They're asking me where the potstickers are. I conclude that someone threw away the potstickers which were boiling in the water when the attack began, so nobody knew there were still there in the water and probably threw them out with the old water. I put them in the water initially, then was distracted by the attack, I tell this story a few times. I then see a frying pan with some potstickers/dumplings cooking in oil and ask "hey is anybody going to have these?"

08:31 took 30 drops mother's wort.

F4) DO flying over a map of the US, I was trying to figure out a route to the West coast.

09:59 BTB

11:13

2) "amazingly real imagination" (all but lucid: vivid, active, but without "I'm dreaming")
Swimming in water, I see up ahead some people, I go to them, still in the water, they're talking about what happens when you fall into a pool of juice (different kinds of juices), I say I swam once in a pile of sliced kiwis. I have trouble saying kiwis it comes out like "kee-vees", and I repeat it again, the woman looks at me funny. I swim away from them and see a girl nearby. I say to myself "if this were a dream I would get with her," I reach for her and then my vision sharpens and she comes very clear, it was like becoming lucid without the acknowledgement that I'm dreaming. I'm amazed that my "imagination" is so powerful, 3D, and realistic. Vivid high definition clear visuals, and I have good touch sensation. She's naked and I touch her for a few seconds before the scene changes.

3) "coffee with the drunk blonde"
I'm in some kind of a bar, there was someone I knew there, a beautiful blonde-haired woman in a black evening dress. she was very drunk, I did not want her to try to go home by herself. She starts walking out, I go to her and say "let me help you home, let's go get some coffee." I felt attracted to her. We're starting up some stairs, I said "turn around," she's ahead of me on the stair and turns around and I pull her into a light hug, and I kissed her right cheek through her blonde hair. We continue walking around looking for coffee, I'm holding her closely against my side with one arm around her waist, I feel her against me and I feel my hand on her waist very clearly, it's soft and a wonderful feeling. I imagine some people are looking at me funny (isn't he married?) my answer is "hey she's just a friend and I'm helping her out". I said "let's go for a coffee in the hotel, it will wake you up," she says ok, we're in a restaurant she starts to sit down in a regular open area, where other people also sit down at the same table, I say "no no let's go back here," I indicate a sort of lounge with couches, there's an even darker more intimate area to the right but we don't go there. We enter the lounge area with couches and she says "now this is more like it," there are a bunch of black kids playing games on another couch, and she really likes kids so she went to play with them, I think "oh, great," sarcastically, I go to sit with them.

4) "gangster casino & the mayor"
It's night and I'm standing outside on a sidewalk, I'm next to a business / office building with black shades drawn down over the windows, there is light inside, there are people moving around, I think a security guy is watching me through a window. I'm standing there watching something on the ground. Another guy appears standing next to me and watching me. I'm wearing a robe with nothing underneath. I think it was a bank at first, but later imagine it's a casino.

And older woman was reelected mayor. She was whooping it up in celebration, skipping through the crowds and waving her arms in the air and whopping in delight. She had prepared a gift for the city upon becoming mayor, and she was working on a building-sized banner to proclaim this gift. The gift is a full day of no government regulations, including not having to pay taxes on that day.

I'm inside the casino, it's very small, just a few tables, this is a private/gangster casino, I'm looking for a blackjack table. I see a table with a young skinny sneaky looking Italian looking male dealer, I imagine he's a card shark and very adept at cheating. I find a table but i can't see the table limit sign. I'm poking around the table looking for it eventually find it and see it's a $5 minimum table, I'm turned off by this I only wanted to spend $20 but still play for a while. I'm playing a hand, maybe I lose a hand, the casino chips are huge about the size of a pancake. I give the dealer cash and wait for my chips. I have a bunch of cards in my hand I don't think they're from the table. If these are my cards I could follow the play along with these cards and know exactly which cards are still left, no reason to count cards.

This whole sleep cycle was on my stomach, head to right of pillow, normally I sleep only on my side, sometimes I sleep on stomach in late morning briefly if both hips/shoulders are a bit sore. Quite an amazing dreaming night given the fact that I had a hugely stressful evening last night with a lot of drama. I didn't expect to sleep not to mention recall anything. But I was very tired as well. Got to sleep earlier than normal, I really need to keep my to-bed time around midnight for better dreaming.

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00:00 Tuesday 2013-12-24 comp #16 night #12 LD #14

01:54 bedtime

07:21

F1) lampshade

08:57

1) F says my work area is very dirty: you chop up insects, you do (other things) , etc, all over the place,, I see it and agree it's very dirty: tools and clippings of things are all over the place. I ask him to please show me his secrets to how he sets up his work surfac. He says come here I'll show you. He started showing me how he sets up his work surface by nailing a yoga mat stretched over a large piece of wood. F shows me several small custom video game computers about the size of a cell phone obviously home made with about 8 buttons/speakers on front. One game is a jedi lightsaber fight, he programmed them in hardware with chips. I play it a bit, I push a button and the little figure on the screen does a stab/lunch with his shiny lightsaber. It has good music effects as well, F said he used a radio program API to do the sound. F went to a conference show off his creations, I thought to myself, I wonder what happens if you move one player on top of another player, I think his game may not handle this case and one player would disappear behind the other player, and this would be a glitch. But no, when this happened, the wookie hugs the other player and a little message pops up. I would love to make games and little electronic projects the way F does.

2) approaching the rebel base command center with some other young computer hacker DCs. The base is surrounded with huge rectangular force fields, there is lots of security. There are a lot of busses approaching a drop-off area. There is a big field of radio controlled communication dishes. Some are old models, some are newer ones. One hacker says "look at the enemy antennas!" I (or DC?) say "What do you mean 'enemy antennas'?, that's a standard (some model name) model! I used to reprogram them to play (some game)" I'm looking at these antennas and I see one is a really old, decrepit model. I'm remembering that one could be reprogrammed to play a simple game. I/someone pulled a lynch pin out from the base of an antennae pole and I think that we should put it back in.

3) Walking by a table with playdough on it, the playdough has gotten too hot and it is melted and nasty, somebody is upset about this.

In kitchen to get a glass of water. I go to a cupboard around to the right to get a glasss (they're odd shaped/tall, kind of hour-glass shaped), I go to the sink, there is a teapot with many strips of frozen chicken standing vertically inside it, and all around. The women in the kitchen are defrosting it. I'm trying to get water to flow from the pot/faucet into my glass without hitting the chicken because 1) I don't want raw chicken juice in my water, and 2) the women might get upset that I'm interfering with the defrosting process by making it defrost faster . I turn on the water and it starts flowing over the defrosting chicken. I can't turn off the water for a while, I try different places to turn it off, you have to push down on the tap as well as rotating it to the correct location. It finally turns off. They say it's not the location, it's how far down you push it.

4) on a road leading in to a tunnel, there is a jedi lightsaber battle. Good/bad guys not clear, not sure what side I'm on. I do a force-pull of a lightsaber that is on the ground and start battling with one guy. The lightsabers keep falling down, I keep looking for them and trying to do force-pull to me. I remembered a legend, of an unbelievably strong jedi, who went into his last battle against insurmountable odds. At the end he was covered in wounds and perished, but he defeated multitudes of opponents before succumbing.

5) (not sure this waking) I'm walking on a road with trees and see a duck fly by, it can change the color of rubber dish gloves. I start flying, I have two yellow rubber dish gloves, there is some random DC flying 20 feet to my left watching me. I will the gloves to change color to blue, and they change. Then back to yellow. Then I try to change to red, and the color comes out more like orange, half-way from yellow to red.

Later on down the road, I'm on a bicycle and the random DC is too, we're approaching a checkpoint, I stop my bike to the left side of the road, and the DC is going too fast, I tell him to slow down, he makes a fast curving path to the left with his left foot out to prevent a fall, but he manages to hold on and not fall over.

10:07 BTB close to sleep, body rocking hallucinations, close to sleep, disturbed by wife.

10:56 LD #14

6) In a dark (but not pitch black) random room, nothing notable in the room, I start feeling like I'm becoming lucid, "Hey I'm getting lucid in real life again! Whoa....I'm dreaming!" I take a few more steps deeper into the room with widely-open eyes and a sense of wonder/surprise, and then I'm awake in bed.

A few days before, I was walking in waking life and had a very strong impression of becoming lucid: things became crystal clear, people were kind of shining, it was very much a "dream feeling", lasted about 10 seconds. Thus the "lucid in real life again" in the dream.

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-23 comp #16 night #11

00:30 bedtime

06:07 "Escape from the bunker"

1) escape from a bunker where I'm being held captive. Some sort of mafia/gang is holding me, I enter a room with 3-4 strong metal doors with no knobs on various walls, when I see the doors have no handles on my side I realize I'm being held captive and start panicking, I will be kept here forever forced to do whatever the gang wants (like make porn films). There are lots of people moving around. The doors are opening and closing and some guys come in, I take the opportunity to try to find my way out. One of the guys I see is the leader of the gang and has a remote control in his hand which causes the doors to open. He sees me making my escape is angry and follows. He's threatening me, I make it to the outside, and he says he'll blow me away, and I say it will be just like our usual showdown, "I'll blow you into a million f***ing tiny pieces." I imagine our next battle will be with heavy artillery like tanks or bazookas. A lot of people outside are talking about my threats. "Oh, he says he'll blow [the boss] away"

F1) boy scouts rebuilding the latrine which was falling apart.

F2) insurance company, going on a vacation/fishing trip, talking with someone about going on vacation, I could go to a travel agency to book my vacation, there's a fishing vacation it only costs like $400 day to have a big fishing boat with all the equipment and bait. The travel company was outdoors at an airport.

06:14 BTB

08:45 BTB again, not drowsy before. Did some MILD/SSILD, was already pretty awake don't think these hurt.

10:51 got to sleep eventually. Found some drowsiness, got close several times, got some body rolling on waves hallucinations (I caused these). Thought about / tried a bit of WILD. Made it to sleep using my focus on relaxation. Took some effort but made it.

2) "Spiderman on the brain"
I'm DO. Peter Parker can't stop thinking about spider man. Everything he does in school is related to spider man. He can't draw anything else but spider man. Every class he has, every report he writes, has to do with spider man. I see a table willed with spider man related writings and drawings from all types of classes. There is a 3d spider man skull model with all the small bones labelled, Peter Parker is using this to practice moving one little tiny muscle. / bone in his ear.

3) in a (college dorm?) room, it's the room of a rich girl, and old friend who became estranged came into the room and sat down, saw the room, she sat down like she was completely comfortable in this place. Looking around the room, there was a fireplace, and the fireplace was completely covered/faced with plain upholstery: the opening, the mantle, thte sides, and the area over the mantle,

F3) biting Cat/boys. A cat bit me on the back of my neck and held the bite. There were also little boys who follow and bite. You have to dive into the ocean then they will dissolve away. I imagine diving into the ocean.

F4) evil titans. They're taking over. They're being observed carefully from a distance by someone (I'm DO), then my perspective changes to the one observing. Lots more to this, forgot.

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00:00 Sunday 2013-12-22 comp #16 night #10

01:30 bedtime. Why oh why do I persist in these late bedtimes? Just can't tear myself away from DV. Will get to earlier eventually to see how the dreaming goes...

04:17 bowling with friends.

1) I'm in a bowling alley, I bowl a ball. There's one pin left. O from Lx shows up to play the game with me. The pins start moving around dodging the ball, O is doing this via some control. O takes a shot, and I do the same thing, press a control and make the pins jump out of the way. After the shots we're waing for two other friends to arrive in their car. We're in the parking lot which is very full, someone pulls out and we jump in to the place to save it we're waving with our hands pointing to the spot, therre are other cars coming but our friends make it.

Walking beyond the parking lot, I see a bunch of people sitting together in an area, they're old funny looking Indian/South American looking people, they evolved somewhere where there is lots of water and this is a very dry place, so they're very uncomfortable. A lot of them turn to look at me with big eyes.

It took a bit of effort to get this recall. At first there was nothing. Surprisingly, since it's still quite early and I was quite tired, I feel almost no drowsiness. After about an hour, drowsiness returned, and I got the sinking deeper relaxation going, but movement in bed woke me again and again right at the critical moment. At some point fell asleep for a brief period before the alarm went off at 08:00.