FryingMan

sometimes my dreams are wild and wacky, sometimes there more mundane, this last night was more mundane, the night before was more wild & wacky. Nice amount of detail again though, from 2 wakings.

00:00 Sunday 2014-03-02

00:30 ? bedtime

07:00

+ wife tells me: "You know I love you dearly but when we were making love earlier you farted and it so startled the priest that he didn't know what to do so he just left."

+ I'm babysitting some little kid, we're arriving at my parent's house, we're walking down the driveway and he smells my breath and says "What is that smell!?" I'm concerned because I realize I've had something to drink and I don't want his parents to know. At that his moment his father arrives outside on the street to come pick him up.

+ In a car about to start driving a line of girls walks by on the right I open a window to high-five them as they walk by, they start screaming at me not to back up because I'm about to run over something behind me.

+ I'm looking at an overhead map of the city that shows where my older son is working. I arrive at the office following my son I'm calling his name but he's not hearing me or not responding. I pause at reception wondering if they'll let me by I decide just to start walking in to the work room and they don't stop me. I call to my son again and I'm carrying a pad of technical drawing paper that I think he needs because he's working on maps.

+ In the same place (?) a room filled with people sitting down, young men are wearing blue shirts. The guys at the rightmost seat in the row stand up one after the other from the front to the back of the room, the guys make a religious sign when they stand up.

+ I'm in a bunker looking out of the narrow slit, there with mother, father, sister, bro-in-law, we're looking at and talking about the weather coming in from the ocean. I see in my vision a remote hillside near the ocean where the weather can be better detected, so I decide to go fly there and check it out. I fly into the air and head in that direction but somehow can't fly very fast. My sister tells me whatever I'm doing it takes a long time to fly out there. I tell her I'm going to fly out at super speed. I tell my sister "I can't do it if you're watchig". I arrive at that remote destination and I'm in a room with cabinets wanting to return to my family and to show them how far I flew I wanted to bring back a string/yarn with me but I think it's not going to work since it will run out of string before I make it all the way back. I try a few times taking off with string or fishing line but I realize it won't reach The last time I stop taking off and fly back I see a cat in my left peripheral vision following me which then jumps to catch the string I'm carrying.

+ Inside a place with a bunch of workers. There are valuable things there inside boxes I call to the work master to tell him we must one by one go by each box to make sure that nothing was taken by the workers. I'm holding a silver tarnished trump, the work leader is the guy who plays the trumpet. He says it's a beautiful trumpet but it's tarnished, I spit on a spot and rub it with my fingre and see the tarnish. I ask him to play a piece and hum the tune (Handel's Messiah: The Trumpet Shall Sound) but don't remember the name. He starts to play and I get weepy and cry because it was my father's favorite piece. and he's no longer with us (false memory), my mother and son are sitting in the audience and my son (s2) is starting to make all kinds of funny comments.

I'm pretty awake at this point after doing this recall. I keep reaching for more and more recall. Daydream a bit. Eventually I gather my will to empty my mind and I sleep again. Probably awake until around 8-8:30

10:00

+ driving with my mother, she's driving I'm in the front passengers seat she's not paying attention to the road (we're driving on GP Blvd) she keeps looking at something in her lap. I keep telling her stop that pay attention to the road, I see that oncoming cars are swerving very far into our lane several times. There's a lot of traffic in the oncoming direction, a large line of cars, someone says this is because of the protests at a house we pass up the hill on our right. This was at twilight. Now in daylight down in the city driving down Sol. Ave. I'm trying in vain to put on my seat belt, I keep pulling it out again and again and trying to buckle it but I can't find the right place to buckle in. The car then loses all electric power, and I'm in the back seat the dashboard has gone black and the seat belt has gone extremely tight and I can't move at all. We're just coasting down the road with no power it's a slight downhill so we could coast for some ways. I'm thinking "how in the hell will I get to school now." I tell my mother to coast to somewhere at least so we can stop in the shade but some cars brake in front of us and we must stop in the road.

We're on some sort of side street I'm standing outside the car, some guy comes up very friendly middle aged guy with a cheery face and start talking about things like countries being aggressive or not aggressive. One guy comes out and I fake-recognize him, I shake hands, tell him yeah yeah, I recognize you, "my name is <full name>", and ask "did you work at <former company-x>?" I'm not sure if he recognizes me or not. I feel like I recognize him and fake-remember his name as "Gabe Martini" I think he formed a partnership to start another company.

+ my children (as of about 8 years ago) are sitting in front of a computer in my sisters old room at my parent's house. S1 is wearing odd glasses like coke-bottle-bottom lenses, they're both wearing glasses, I say "remember the primary rule of programming, step-wise refinement. Make a function that does something and then write it later."

+ in a hostel with young people. There's a girl by my place, a boy beyond him. I'm taking off my pants and realize there are people in the room and hunker down behind a chair, I'll put my pants on when they're not looking. I think I should ask the girl out because I have a car (remembering my first college car). There's an annoying girl on the other side of me that is messing with my things, she's pulling my earbuds out of my pile of things and one of the plastic ear pads has fallen out and she's complaining that they don't work for her. I tell her it's an advanced sort of headphone system that doesn't work with all systems, and I see a little circuit board. She's upset that I'm not helping her to get it to work, and I tell her angrily it's my stuff, this is a personal space here, everyone's bed is a personal space, and I point around the room, the middle area is shared space, but everyone's bed is personal space. I see a video game scene briefly.

I'm walking around the floor of the hostel, it's dark, there are lots of white doors in the hallway. In one room I get a glimpse of a girl taking off her shirt, I back out quickly feeling embarassed, then go back for another peek . I go into another room, guys are in there, not the right room, back in the hallway, go back into our room, which is a 45-degree diagonal corner door. Now there are two girls on the other bed. I see them clearly. The girl sitting to my left on the bed is a blonde and she says her name is "Gippie" (hard G). I shake her hand.

I'm sitting on the floor they're sitting on the bed, I think I should invite them out because I have a car. I think I'll ask them to kiss me when we get to my car. We go out. The next stop is some place where I'm going to find dates for the girls. There are guys and girls there but they look really sleazy and skanky and are older. They start talking about sex but I say these are good girls I don't want to find bad boys for them. Behind me there's a particularly nasty girl who starts speaking really fast gibberish barely can make out any words, but I laugh anyway to show I think I understand what she says even though I think it's nonsense.

A young man comes for one of the girls and stands before me there's nowhere to sit so he sits on my lap I'm not excited by this he's a dude, he has a big platter of presents for the girls, I realize the presents are all full of alcohol he's going to try to get the girls drunk, I see for example 8-balls full of alcohol. My younger son (s2) is sitting a few rows back on my right and he sees the alcohol platter and exclaims loudly "Holy Shit!". I'm quite upset at him for using such language.

+ weird baseball: outfield is tall rolling hills the inner "outfield coordinator" must shout to the far outfielders because the hills block the view of the incoming fly balls

+ 2 women talking about dreaming: "have you ever dreamed about a dog in a car?" (they weren't talking to me but I answer anyway) "Yes I remember a dream about a dog climbing in through the sunroof -- I think about telling them about lucid dreaming but don't

+ cartoon dinosaur who sleeps for millions of years because he soaks up the water every time it rains

+ there are large sheets of salt-water taffy on the ground, I eat some, there are large packs of cheese I've supposed to take to some company but I think I'll keep it for myself, some woman offers to help me carry them, I decline at first but then accept

+ in conflict with some people I'm accusing them of draining all the water out of the carport, and show my hat sitting on the ground as proof that the water flowed out in the direction of their carport, but the woman there doesn't accept responsibility and I'm upset.

+ playing racquetball, my momentum is towards the back, my weight is on my back foot, but my opponent's next shot goes to the front of the court, I can't make it in time, maybe earlier, scoot my racquet across the ground to the front of the court to hopefully get the shot but it misses

+ another racquetball game, I think my heart is overstrained so I stop playing, then 3 guys bring their beds and cots into the court to spend the night, they have my childhood red LED clock radio and we're talking about what a great radio it is, I hear the announcer over the radio, we're comparing it to a modern radio and the modern one is not as good, the announcer is talking about a baseball game.

took a nap but no recall, almost WILDed, saw an image forming but it vanished when I gave it my attention.

23:45 bedtime -- finally, a decent bedtime. Took 1mg melatonin 40 mins ago to help in readjusting the schedule. Fell asleep pretty quickly.

Set intention to wake up after every dream and recall, and try to DEILD back in.

00:00 Thursday 2014-02-27

04:20 intention worked, I woke up with some recall, I haven't woken up at the 4th hour in some time. Decided after trying to get back to sleep without success that I'm still no so keen on waking up a lot, but I'm going to do it for the hope of increased lucid moments.

+ outside looking at the walls of some houses/ buildings. I don't like the boarded/cemented up windows and I know my younger son doesn't like them, either.

+ inside a house, we'd just moved in, I see a young Indian boy walking through the house wondering what he's doing here he wasn't invited, I walk down the corridor to the entry way I see through the clear glass front door that other people are waiting just outside, I step back to the hallway so they won't see me so I won't have to deal with them. They come in anyway, they're the Indian (asian) family that owned our place before us, they came for a visit. They say it looks very different. It's very messy, lots of stuff on the floor. I say yes with different furniture a place can look entirely different. I look at some of the furnishings, they are odd, like solid 3d mathematical shapes (spheres, cones) made out of a mottled brown granite, stacked on top of each other. My sister says something about the crystal chandelier. I say something about it too and I hear my mother's voice say, "Oh, <my name>!".

We're in a family room looking at a TV mounted high on a wall of from the ceiling. It's showing some (news?) program, the reception is terrible it's really static-y. The conversation topic is about how I don't like cases around TVs because if you're sitting to the side the side of the cabinet blocks some of your vision, I imagine a cabinet that opens by itself automatically. I go up to the TV (which now has a cabinet around it) with a piece of paper to measure the loss of screen space from the side, and show this (about 1/4 inch) to the others in the room.

+ I'm DO? in the back seat of a car with dark/black upholstery, there's a super cute fluffy young puppy sitting in the middle of the back seat, my view position is eye level with the puppy, the owner is in the front seat and is feeding it little treats and saying doggy things like "goooood boooy...". He gives the puppy in the end a little doggy bone treat wrapped in a plastic baggy.

+ I was holding a shovel/trowel in each hand in some fictional backyard scraping the dirt picking up the last poops of my recently passed away dog (who actually died 4 years ago). I thought these would be the last ones I'd ever clean up and I'd never see him again. I said to myself "he lived for 17 years [true], and he lived for 5 years after getting cancer [false]", I got quite upset. One of the handles in one of the shovels didn't fit the shovel head well and came out.

I woke up very upset and emotional. Intention worked too well, after recall, recording, and quick bathroom trip, couldn't get back to sleep.

Tried "relaxing SSILD" for a while and started getting some imagery, but external noise always prodded me awake.

09:00 back to bed....fell asleep eventually in there somewhere.

12:15 woken by wife to fix the internet, solidly asleep, argh!

+ saw a cute girl from the pool, checked her out a bit as she walked by. She walked through the opening of a low square metal fence and said I shouldn't stand so close (to the fence) so people could walk through. She goes to sit at an outdoor table (night time)I see a bunch of young ladies also sitting there. I move to a different place away from that table and realize my computer fell out of my backpack, I pick it up.

+ some struggle, forgotten

+ other stuff, forgotten, quite a bit, due to shock of waking, dang

Well I went ahead and pulled the trigger on my bedside lucid cocktail this morning. Conditions were not ideal: super late to-bed time (3am approx), and it was already about the 6th hour (approaching 9am), so it was dicey at best but I had a quiet home (both kids out in the morning today) so I decided to go for it. It looks like the 8mg galantamine did the trick, plus all the extra choline (bitartrate and alpha gpc).

Again the mixture was: 2x GalantaMind 4mg (each capsule 4mg galantine, 50mg B5, 100mg choline dihydrogen citrate) for a total of 8mg galangamine, 100mg B5, 200mg choline dihydrogen citrate), 1x choline bitartrate 310mg, 1x Alpha GPC 300mg.

Mostly I spent the next 5 hours trying to get to sleep. At approximately 1-2 hours I did start getting pretty abnormally strong HI.

Somewhere in the 2+ hours my daydreams started getting a lot more realistic than usual, with more visual and tactile feedback, but still very much daydreams.

Numerous times I gathered my will and emptied my head and tried to sink into relaxation. Again and again and again.

At one point it finally worked and I got to sleep and dreamed...a lucid FAKE OUT!

I feel myself in bed, and I started getting a solid image appearing before my dream eyes. I was coaxing it on, "Ok, good, solidify, solidify, that's it..." I'm anticipating entering the dream. I see a tall outdoors strip-mall sign pole with several store signs on it. Interesting. I'm looking at them and pushing them into focus. Then I start thinking something like, "aw man, this isn't a dream, this is the view from my bed. You see, there's the KFC across the street, and somebody will come out of that door soon, there's the guy now, he's walking down the street" I watch him go by. Then I get self-conscious that here it is daytime, and I still feel myself lying in bed (apparently outside in a parking lot) (in the actual position I was really in bed), and people will walk by and see me. I think "oh that's ok, people sleep in all the time and see people in their beds." I get up and some woman in her car comes tearing into our outdoor carport just off of the sidewalk in a big rush. She jumps out (with a briefcase?) and runs across the street to the entrance of the subway. I think we need to put up poles to block our carport, but realize that the people who drive quickly into our carport will hit the poles and their cars will go flying into the air.

I follow into the entrance to the subway. Up stairs, through a window/door. Lots of people, I see my wife just inside the window in the crowd (purple blouse?), I notice her chest . I'm trying to push through the crowd to walk faster towards the subway platform, but I can't since there are so many people. I see two pairs of 2 movers (who work for the furniture store at the subway platform, of course!) moving two large cabinets along the walkway with the crowd. They're approaching an overhead beam, I think they're going to smack the furniture top into it, they end up just grazing it lightly.

I go down some stairs and can't find the platform. It's deserted, in a large building. I think I must be at the gym, since the swimming pool is that way. I turn back and see about 20 feet from me who I think is my old grad school girlfriend, I call to her, but then I realize I didn't put on my gym shirt and I notice my bare chest/stomach. I'm not in perfect shape. She turns and walks away, not noticing me, I see a big entryway in the distance...



so that's basically I think good news! It seemed really vivid. This dose seems to work for me. All I have to do now is prepare another little LD cocktail baggie by the bed and wait for better conditions. And with repeated determination I finally got to sleep, despite being all juiced up on choline and the G. I definitely need to take it early in the night, probably not later than 4 hours, maybe earlier, and perhaps work in some melatonin.

Terrible to-bed time, like 03:30, I'm slipping again to bad habits. Still managed some recall, though:

+ at my favorite lake on a plastic blow-up raft, I paddle around to the lagoon, across the lagoon a I see alot of other campers, I try to look at them through binoculars but they don't bring the view closer, I think I see someone looking at me through binoculars. The mouth of the lagoon is a river flowing out into the lake, some people are standing at its edge on the other side from our side, I think the river will keep them out of our area

I've leaving the campsite with a few other people and realize I'm lost, I don't see the familiar landmarks, I look towards the lake and up into the hills and think I see the familiar path. I'm on a bike and heading up very steep hills I have to get off to walk it up, there's a handrailing on the right. I "remember" that the lake is in a valley

I emerge into a city street scene, hilly, with cars and streets and buildings. I'm looking for my car, I have a remote(?) and click it (?).

+ I'm following my jr high sweetheart, she's wearing a pink frilly dress, we're outside and it's dark/night, she asks me if I remember the dress, I don't frankly but say I do, I sort of remember that when she wore it before the belt had pokadots and say so. We arrive at a party at her house, the house is filled with people, I'm standing close to her but feel very self-conscious I don't know what to do or to say. She pours a tiny thimble-full of some (alcohol I think) drink for me/us.

+ I arrive in the outdoor room of my college room-mate (male) "F", I jump up to the top of his bunk-bed and sit on the end with my feet hanging down, it is right up against a fence to the neighbor's house, there is a tall bush/tree partially obscuring the view ahead and to the right of the neighbor's house. My friend climbs up and straddles me facing me hugging me, I'm weirded out by this, I wonder if he wants to make out, that's strange, to be polite at one point I nuzzle the side of his head with mine. He says the neighbors actually broke one of their own windows to that they could see his bed better "so that they could see some new things" (referring to he and his girlfriend in bed). I hear some aerosol cans in the neighbor house and it seems like they're getting dressed. F's girlfriend "D" arrives, I notice she has VERY hairy lower legs starting at about the mid-calf down to her feet. Not normal hair but very dark long and spiky looking hair sparse with the skin visible in between. More like little twigs than hair. She starts applying "spray on shoes" to her lower legs and feet, I jump down and look at this I see a pattern of the boots forming on her legs, I say I'm not into trendy shoes I wear the same brand until the manufacturer stops making them, I take off my shoe and show them "like this 846 model here".

Then I'm at a party of grad-school friends, I see some they see me and act like they haven't seen me in years even though I "know they saw me yesterday," we do one of our jokes acting like TV commercial announcers, "NOW how much would you pay?..". Someone tells me to watch the ham/cheese sandwich. I see it up high on top of a cabinet, someone's reaching for it. Someone's preparing frozen snacks, he pours of the contents of a bag onto a platter to be cooked, it's mostly candy, I see a few pieces of pizza and bacon, I think that's not much bacon it's going to be gone soon.

A rollaway bed is being unpacked, looks comfortable, some other camp kids want to climb up on it, I get on it, the bed is on a raft in the water. My wife is telling me something about a box of chocolates which I don't understand, she's saying something about it is wrong for her brother who is diabetic.

Today is my 6-month LD practice anniversary, and what better way to celebrate than to get a satisfying late morning lucid performing a TOTM, and a good night of recall.

08:00

+ (earlier waking) I'm moving through a house structure and some guys, at the end I think they want to turn me into a werewolf. Lost lots of detail.

+ I'm with college friends in our old house (WFP). I want to go out for a break from studying. I have a bit of trouble speaking but I eventually get it out that I just want to go out for an hour, let's go get something to eat. I know we have a lot of studying to do, people are not enthusiastic about coming out. I walk into the house and see my good friend housemate N.I. Someone mentions going to Jack In The Box. I say "do you mean the one by SP Blvd?" I think everyone's coming out with us, but it ends up that they just want to put in their order with me and we go out and bring it back. One guy tells me his order, something with chicken, I have trouble understanding his order, we need to pay him back, he said no, (me and NI) already paid him back. I see some young women in the kitchen of the house.

+ In a silver-colored large empty building. It is a hospital. There is criticism of them painting it silver/gray, since when cars drive by the headlights will reflect strongly off the paint and disturb the patients. Also the color is scaring people, it's not white, it's not black, it's right in the middle. I'm standing and looking at it for a while. It makes a silvery shiny reflection inside the building and is not good. Daylight outside, somewhat dark outside, it's completely empty.

I turn around and go to leave, I'm with NI from WFP, there is a rack of equipment and books, introductory books and kits about how to work with microprocessors (like the Stamp chip), I say "hey look at that" and gesture with my hand towards them as we go by, NI then grabs one like he's going to shoplift it. I'm mortified by this, I think we'll get caught, I look for a security camera, I see one on the wall, I point it out to him, I say "there's going to get you." He says he better put it back. I think that it's OK because we haven't left the place with the item yet so it can't be considered shoplifting.

+ I'm in a khaki/tan colored tent, it's completely closed, I'm sleeping in there with some other guy. It's a tall pointy-topped tent. I look at the guy's face, he opens his eyes, the face is slightly distorted, something's not quite right, he has blue eyes, he's freaked out because there's no "outside," I tell him "it's ok, it's ok, outside there is blue sky and sunlight, shall we open the tent and see the sunlight?" He says yes. I zip open the front of the tent, we see the outdoors including blue sky, he's calmed down by this. There are several walkways leading away from the tent, one more or less straight ahead bending a bit to the left, another goes off to the right. There are buildings in between the two paths, it's in some sort of complex/compound.

About 20 feet away down the right path are sitting 3 guys kind of dark-skinned , as soon as I open the tent they get up and head my way. I have a feeling "uh oh this can't be good." About 5 feet away they make demands, "give us all your stuff except for (something)!". They're threatening us clearly. I call over my shoulder to my tent-mate and say "call 911 tell them we're being robbed!" Of the 3 one guy goes off down another path (to head off assistance?), 2nd guy disappears, 3rd guy comes up demanding the stuff. I'm frightened but I resolve not to give him anything. We start struggling/grappling. At one point he's behind me, I reach back over my head grabbing his head/shoulders and lean forwards trying to throw him over me. Doesn't quite work. I think though this guy is not used to anybody putting up a struggle. I think "wow people just give things to him without a struggle." At some point my wife comes by and helps in the fight against the robber.

He disappears, I'm looking over down a balcony to a walkway below (I'm on the 2nd floor). There are Indian (Asian) security woman walking around with guns. One reaches up to me (somehow!) and hands me some things. Some are small gold colored keys, I ask "are these the keys to my room?". "Yes" they answer. They also give me a security key. It's like a 6-inch wide fork with a dozen or more tines. On the left 4 prongs are bent down fully, and one on the end is bent down halfway. "Well no wonder those guys (the robbers) were able to get in, this is such a simple combination!"

They also give me a gun, a 6-shot revolver, and 4 bullets for it. There is something not quite right (vs. a real gun), it has a typical cylinder, a trigger, it's in my hand I feel the trigger, I think "where's the safety?" I don't want to shoot myself or anybody by accident. I'm rotating the cylinder and wonder if I should put it on a bullet or an empty. An empty is safer but on a bullet is ready for a fight. I see a little safety switch on a (weird) horizontal platter behind the cylinder. I try putting on the safety and pulling the trigger and it seems like the gun will fire and think that's a crappy safety, I look to the right of the cylinder and see a larger golden safety mechanism, and that seems to lock up the trigger well, but if I pull it really hard a mechanism lifts up from the platter and the gun will fire but it's much much harder.

I take the gun and go out and have fake battles with it, I point it at some guys and think about hitting them in their arms, aiming for the body since it's the biggest target, I'm jumping over some counter hiding from an Indian (Asian) woman who's after me, I then turn and track her and think about shooting her (don't do it though), and how video games have helped my aim.

+ I'm in an outdoor tent, there's a guy there who's a trainer, I'm learning different technique, I'm looking at him, he's choosing the next thing that I should study, he's looking at a screen with the picture of a staff, and I think "yes! I'd like to learn to fight with a staff!" In a foreign language the item is labelled "lepeshka" which I know means some kind of bread, not a fighting staff.

+ In a gas station? There are gas pumps, a guy there is training how to fight against bears. He's down a ramp and successfully fights off two bears. He says "trained bears always go for the head." Their hands go for your head. You bend your arms and put your arms on each side of your head and hold your head with your hands to defend. You then take "two offensive steps backwards." Then he has me try it. I come face to face with a weird pig-bear thing with no discernible face, it's a snuffling grunting muzzle but tall with brown hair. This thing does grab my head. It's in my face with its faceless snuffling snout I take two aggressive steps backwards and think "is that it?"

12:34

lots of dozing on and off, sleep on stomach at one point and dream, but lucid is on my right side

+ revisited the scene of the tent + robber fight. I'm approaching the gates of the compound from the outside. There's a black guy in leather, not sure if he's security or not. Get in the gate, I "recognize" it as the place of the earlier battle. There's a picnic table with scuzzy low-life sorts sitting down at it to the left, I think "we have to get rid of those guys." There is a big lawn of grey clumpy dead grass. I have a thought about lucidity looking at this grass. I'm talking to the head of security who is a black man (he may be Morgan Freeman), I say "ok this time I want a security room with an exit in the back so I have somewhere to escape if I'm attacked from the front." In front of me is a big red (white window trimmings) multi-story building (3-4 floors tall), convex curved, bending back to the left and right. The next time I look up it's a 5-6 story tall elegant futuristic building with totally transparent glass walls facing the yard. Very elegant / rich quarters I can see. I'm hoping to get a central suite with a great view but realize I probably won't, they're for the bigwigs, there's a suite off to the left with a worse view and I think it will do.

+ I'm somewhere up in one of those suites. There are plates of fancy deserts. I see a jelly-tart with a prawn on it, I take a bite, I realize as I bite that I'm very full and I'm not hungry. It tastes like shrimp. There's a woman eating the same pastry thing I am, I ask "did you taste the shrimp?" She says "it's shrimp eggs." I think it's a bizarre pasty flavor.

+ I'm at my childhood park. I have to get by a robot wielding a giant wrench, I get by it. I'm attaching something to the old metal swing frame, with a wrench. It's some sort of bicycle / trainer. Two older more experienced guys are there, now that this is installed we have to use it, and ride a million miles on it, we'll meet back here "about 1am-ish." There's a van and some conversation with people inside it, something about the C. family and AIDS.

+ Still in my childhood park at the same place. I'm on the middle level, looking down to the basketball courts. Enormous pipes are shooting out huge volumes of torrential raging water on to the lower level. There are giant drains where the water is going down. I see a huge bag full of ceramic planters 1m in diameter getting blown easily by the water across the courts. I go around turning off faucets which shuts off the water. I walk down the left-side path and take a drink from a drinking fountain. I (imagine?) a conversation with the mayor and I mention that I just happened to be on hand and turned off the water. I get down to the bottom and see the bag of planters.

+ I'm in a park/playground, in shade, I see a car and people doing something under the car, (are they trying to steal it I'm thinking), there are lots of people around. I'm following some kids, I see topless boys and girls and am amazed because I know they don't do that in America. I'm walking through a few doorways, in one doorway are the parents of one of the kids, a father (to the left) and a mother (to the right), emerging on to a sandy playground area. I grab the mother and bring her with me, and I realize I'm dreaming. It feels hazy at first and I have to "push" my head into clear lucidity, it still feels hazy, but I get a grip and rub my hands and things stabilize. I have the woman standing in front of me looking at me at arms length.

( I keep rubbing my hands and rubbing my fingers against my palms while I'm talking to her.)
(My first lucid interactive conversation with a DC!)

Me: "Hi, my name's (my name), what's your name?"
DC: "Susannah."

She had short hair. Looked to be about 30. I remembered the TOTM! I'm finally going to get my wings I think!

Me: "Who is your one true love? Who is your soulmate?"
DC: (looks confused).

All this time I'm moving around, slowly rotating, moving around the playground, she stays right across from me at arms length, I'm rubbing my fingers against my palms.

Me: "Who is your one true love?"
DC: "My husband."

I'm satisfied that I've completed the TOTM and relax a bit, and caveman dream me (CDM) takes over.

CDM: (with a mischievous expression) "Have you ever kissed another man?....."
Without waiting for an answer I (CDM?) grabs her chest with both my hands and start squeezing.

CDM: "You have beautiful t*ts"

and I slooowly fade to awake. Nooo! Always just when it gets "good" I remain still and have a full-body tingly feeling and think I could really get back in, but I know it's late in the morning and I want to record.

Did everything "wrong" but still ended up with some recall. To bed super late (2am-ish), ate a bunch of chocolate late in the evening (I have no caffeine tolerance so it gives me a caffeine buzz), ate a big heavy meal immediatley before bed. Up early for breakfast duty, so only one recalled dream. Not nearly as clear as other nights this week but still OK.

Tomorrow marks my 6th month anniversary of LD practice!

morning (get up) waking:

+ I'm in my (fictional) house, putting on socks, sock on left foot is ripped to shreds at the toes, all my toes show through there's barely any material over my toes, I adjust a thread of the sock from one toe to another. I think I should put on my birkenstocks, but wonder about whether this will hurt my foot (real life memory, I currently have a foot issue). I see outside a window to the path running down the side of the house (very narrow, neighbor's fence is right there), I see bright green grass clumps growing up through the cement pathway, I think the side of the house is dirty/messy and do people ever clean there, I hear the next door neighbour (the next house is just a few feet away) over the fence. I'm thinking about going out to get some fast food.

after breakfast duty, about 1.5 hours later, back for a nap. I'm wide awake, but manage to eventually block off all thoughts and daydreams and get back to sleep.

next two wakings:

+ in a rented house, meet the landlord man, more man friends of his come by, I speak English, but they're (foreign), I repeat in foreign language, they laugh I think at my accent. One guy lies down on a narrow long couch and sinks into it I think it looks like a coffin. There's a rollaway bed by the wall. We say yes everything is fine with the apartment. We normally deal with the landlord's wife. He's older about 60-70.

+ wife and kids are going on a trip they're meeting the bus at the store down the street

+ I'm getting off a bus (at my childhood home, bus route doesn't match real life bus route) I have a lot of stuff, the driver starts going again before I can gather everything up and get out the door, as he gets impatient that I'm taking a long time to get off, I go up to him and yell (foreign language) "STOP PLEASE!", he stops, I go back to my seat, there are so many bags there, I try to gather them all up into my arms.

+ In a room with my wife, I'm lying down, there's another older woman there standing over my head with her feet apart, there's going to be some "swinging" action, I remove my underwear, feel very self-conscious about what this woman thinks of my "equipment", I look up and see some kind of bizarre and unappealing genatalia. I have some concerns about my wife's devotion to me.

+ (DO) overhead view of some sort of game where pieces move over terrain. Bunch of people/kids/ some sort of club?

+ outdoor scene of water and ice flowing and heaving in large pools (residue of watching glacier calving video a few days ago?)

+ a young female doctor saves me from 3 "stroke bubbles" heading for my body through one of the tubes attached to me (I see them), and then attaches a matrix-squidy-like mechanical thingy (neuron stimulator?) encased in a glass tube with thousands of ultrafine metal probes to me and I study it, it takes two-handed operation to work, I'm then in a car with some device telescoping outside of the window and I'm concerned its weight will tip the car over.
There are other bubbles in the tube, the doctor was racing to me from some other location. The squidy thing is highly intricate and very bizarre looking, the glass tube and the squidy thing is about 1.5 feet long and about the size of a fist in diameter.

+ observe a battle to the death for control of one of a set of mind-operated super weapon cars which make the owners wealthy since they're so valuable, and the winner beats his opponent when he's locked body to body with him by transforming himself in to a small child so he is much shorter, and then firing the machine guns in the door of the car through the body of his enemy (and the bullets don't hit the child-man because of his smaller size). The scene begins by approaching a home in a deserted area, some thought about growing corn.

+ working with a technician on diagnosing the problems of a super complicated electronic device, I see him fixing some shorted wires, I'm digging in to putty-like coverings on the nose of the device to expose a necklace clasp which is malfunctioning, I say how strange/funny it is that a tiny simple component can ruin the operation of such an expensive complicated device. We're inside some sort of super-high-ceilinged hangar open to the outside, the device is on its side with its nose pointing to the left.

+ outdoors at twilight playing catch on a large open field, I know the T family (facebook friends) lives just a hundred yards beyond the field, I think how surprised they will be when I show up for a visit since we've never met in person. I start at one side of the field, head across the field and look backwards at where I've been. The T's live ahead and to the left of the final position/orientation.

+ interviewing the owner/designer of some super-secret device (perhaps the one worked on above), he's showing me around the grounds of his design centre, I stand at a beautiful outdoors scene in the shade of trees looking at a crystal clear flowing creek (flowing left to right), there's a Y intersection in the water, and gardens/houses/hlils rising up to blue skies and clouds in the distance, I wonder where we are and ask him "is this nearby the (some real place)?", I ask if they dump their waste into the water and a woman's voice says yes, I was going to try to drink the water but won't now. Outdoors/bright daylight.
The fork of the Y is to the left, extending around a garden containing a house. I want to find out where this place is so I can return (and drink the water?). I'm standing here for some time just looking and wondering where it is.

The above is probably my strongest location awareness in a dream yet, really wondering where I was and trying to place my location relative to other landmarks that I know.

+ (possibly continuing the above) face-to-muzzle with several fierce dogs sliding down some sort of pole/tubes, the point is to hold on, I'm a bit concerned about them biting me

+ playing some food tossing competition with an opponent of mine, I think he's rigged the game, it's like shuffleboards but with pieces of food, first guy tosses a piece of food and the second guy has to make his land as close to the original as possible, he starts with some orange colored cake thing, I think he's messed with my piece, I end up wadding a bunch of orange cake together and tossing it and it lands pretty far to the right of his piece, I think he's rigged the table as well since it's just a foot off of the ground, way too low, -- some people nearby are laughing about a girl in a contorted funny position on her knees. Walking by a table with cakes/muffins on it on the way to the competition I think of eating some. Probably residue from watching "Hook" right before bed (the bright colored imagined food fight scene).

+ I see my old college roommates (real, college age) are repainting the front of our house (fictional) with a mural against a white background, I see my face painted on the mural as one of 3 faces, I'm honored they put it there, it's a drawing of my face looking like how my wife drew me when we were still dating, then the friends are sitting around a circle joking, I'm standing a little ways apart, I think they're talking about me

earlier waking(s?): only memory key worded and back to sleep

+ I'm a student in highschool class (literature?), the teacher beats the crap out of a student to my right who was not paying attention, he screams at another student on the left side of the classroom who was reading for another class, and he criticizes the reading style of another, I move to stop the initial beating but the teacher stops, I follow attentively along with the reading after that . I'm looking at a book with writing in it but (waking analysis) the words are all squiggles, not letters.

+ some police cars are zipping by down the street, and one moving about 150MPH blazes by

+ some people are moving in to a house they've bought, the workpeople are saying it needs more work, they're doing the work, the woman buyer says "I hope you didn't take out the roses," and the guy said yes they had to.

later morning (voice journal all dreams at this point).

+ in a restaurant, I see a childhood friend a few tables away against a wall, I call out to him and ask him if he remembers my name, he remembers first but not last, he says "you're (my correct first name) Taylor!", I say "no, not like Eric Taylor, by the way I love the Friday Night Lights show," I quiz him about where I live, and he gives a joke answer ("about 20 meters north of <somewhere>). and everybody laughs, I realize he doesn't remember much about me, I see a dachshund put its front legs up on a table and take a drink through a straw of someone's iced tea, I think this is hilarioius, then another of my adult friends GS messes with my food and knocks my burrito onto the seat, I reach for it at first (it's broken open) but don't want to eat it "because that's where all the skanky ho's sit!", my friend is laughing uproariously. My original friend who worked in a shop in (some city), I didn't want to embarrass him by asking him if he still worked in that store, he said though no, he turned it into a restaurant, and I should come for a free diner there, some random guy says "let's put on a party for the cheerleaders there!" I agree and point at him like saying "you da man!", he points back and me and we clasp fingertips.

+ I see a large intricate piece of automated machinery, lots of circuit boards, I see the wires, it's making smooth movements placing lenses in front of cameras, I wonder if the arms could move faster

+ lying in a shallow pond, I see crayfish in the water, I reach to touch one, I see and feel springs of cold water, a deer nuzzles me, then 2 baby cows are nuzzling my face with their noses, I see a big jet-black plastic-looking bull with meter-long curved horns, I think if he charges me I'm a goner, I stand up with my sword, but he doesn't charge me. There are two holes in the ground of the pond shooting out the cold water, I wonder if it's safe to drink, I think the source of that water is a river beyond the bank in front of me. The water is about one foot deep, and my moving around startled away the small crayfish and other creatures. I"m lying on my back (waking up?) when the cows noses touch my face, completely covering it, I open my eyes to look up seeing the two "baby" (but still quite large) animals standing over me.

+ I'm eating a thin steak at an expensive steak restaurant, it is brown on the outside, pink on the inside, and a jet-black ribbon runs around the outside of the stake like a piece of sushi, a narrator voice says something like protect your investment, don't use a butter knife to cut your steak (or it could fall on the ground) something arrives in a limousine (steak knives?).

bedtime 01:30 (late late late! argh)

+ my right foot was stuck in the mouth of a walrus

+ (memorable long one!) my search for my former colleague AG at some company led me through a golf driving range, creepy dark underground claustrophobic pipes/rooms, an Indian restaurant where I was the only customer (I left and returned immediately and the waiter had removed all the tables in the room, "wow he's fast!" I thought), a dangerous equipment testing ground (run by AG's group, his group is playing a prank on me leading me around on a hunt to find them) where they burn the equipment at high temperature (I want to get out of there fast), an encounter with a creepy but buxom and sexy succubus doing her best to tempt me into her lair (it was close but her B/O turned me off as I got close, I took control then and asked what her story was, it turned out she had been badly burned), attempting to escape the island in a car via the only road out past corrupt police in the pay of the company, climbing over glass backyard fences, and finishing at a beautiful sea-side scene where I thought I saw a manatee by the water but it turned out to be a palm trunk, and where I had outsmarted some mid-level drug dealers landing in a boat and battled hand (me) versus knife (him) with their leader, falling through a glass ceiling and crying blood tears (falling down in front of me) in order to protect our eyes.

I asked the succubus (this is my waking term for her, in the dream she was just a creepy/sexy woman trying to lure me to her). I'm thinking "why not?" kind of mesmerised by her very large chest, and as I'm coming in to her I catch a whiff of quite strong body door, which snaps me out of my desire, I take control at that point, and start asking her questions, "so what's with you? Why are you here? Were you hurt? Were you sick?". and as I get closer to her she unwraps her (black, kind of fishnet-stocking-like clothing), and shows me the burns on her head and torso. She slinks off into her inner lair still beckoning to me but I don't follow, I know the results will be bad.

With the drug dealer he unwraps the delivery from my team and only about 4 packs (of drugs presumably) fall out, he says "hey where's the rest, there usually is 20!?", I'm smug I know my team has earned money at this mid-level dealer's expense, the drug kingpins are waiting on the shore (this guy's team is in a boat approaching the shore) for the delivery, he comes out brandishing a knife and we fight.

late morning BTB:
Very awake at about 7:30-08:00. Uncomfortable in all positions. Start daydreaming, hoping to drift off into dreams again, too alert, daydreaming gets too stimulating, I think about getting out of bed for the day, I decide no, "you have to want it like you want to breathe," and I want more chances at lucidity, so I gather my will and clear my mind and relax, and soon I'm asleep again!

+ in a house with some friends, having cocktails before bed, joining a middle-aged woman in a robe heading to the living room, "why not, as long as there are snacks" I say, I'll have a cocktail or two, the snacks might be dim-sum, there's not much left.

+ there was a halloween celebration, some adults, some kids, I think about shooting something into a basket hanging from the ceiling like basketball, I don't as it might break the baskets, I think it would be rude to seduce the daughter of my hosts after they've shown me such hospitality, I just flirt with her lightly.

+ someone sees a picture I'm holding including a high school friend (real one), they tell me he has become a University professor, I ask "in Chemistry?" they say yes, I find that a false memory friend ("Andy Grove", actually is a real guy, the former CEO of Intel) has become a professor in Computer Science, I visit his office and see his nameplate, people are complaining that new office equipment required them to throw out all old, incompatible equipment and replace it with new, compatible equipment, I see someone taking away an armload of the old equipment.

+ sitting next to a man at a restaurant at his table, there are lots of open tables nearby, I'm thinking something about this man, I think I visited his table before.

+ a recliner bed had been broken /burned. I witnessed the burn up close lying on the ground, there was small smoke/fire, I see two thin black horizontal burn marks running the entire front of the bed/couch, we go looking for the maintenance guy, we find him holding garden shears (golden?), he comes and fixes it by putting in a long 2x4, the bed used to recline individually half-and-half but now with the long board in it it will only recline as a whole unit.

bedtime 02:00 very very late, bedtime may have played a role in a sort-of cycle-adjustment-technique since I was in solid REM at the time of the morning when I've been recently waking up allowing me to get lucid. After lucid took me a long hour or more to get back to bed but felt like I had another lucid in me, so I summoned my discipline and emptied my mind and I was almost right (last dream). After both the lucid and the almost lucid waking I held my position and felt like I almost DEILDed back in but didn't make it.

Nice night, great recall, fun dreams, way to break the dry spell!

1) (lucid) walking around in a big house, saw a guy I don't see any more who didn't belong there, got lucid, flew [first lucid flight!] from the 2nd floor down to the first floor superman style doing a barrel roll and whooping, lost lucidity and encountered a bossy boy who was telling me how to fly and who could fly himself which surprised me

2) in a company cafeteria, I'm happy that I returned to that company, it was terrible working at (other company), my friends call me over saying they have deli food, there are lots of things to eat like huge pieces of pizza packed with pepperoni and cheese hanging way down over the plate, I take a piece and think I should have taken more.

3) outside among suburban houses, watching an older middle-aged couple sliding down a roof across the street, I point this out to my friend and say "this will be a train wreck", the man makes it down, then the woman, I run back to our stuff thinking they might steal it, and they've pulled a prank on us rearranging all the lids of our containers and generally moving things around

4) walking by a big chalkboard where I want to (do something?) knocking into a person nearby, I think they're going to put on a clown show for some kids instead

6) see an old colleague and think we should go play tennis

7) walking through house empty of furniture I see carpet stains, I think I could make out with the woman who lives there, and also have an encounter with her daughter.

8) flying/gliding very high over city lights far below from hills far above, I have a beautiful view of the city below, I realize before I go too far that if I glide down to the city then I will have left my truck behind in the hills, I pull a big wide U-turn and fly back to find my truck.

9) Outside somewhere, someone says to go to "McGruber's cabin", I climb up by an old wooden cabin up a hill, squeeze through a fence, and enter, it's like a clubhouse, people are everywhere, they're carrying plates of sausages.

10) approaching a mansion, I replay this a few times like a game, first time there are too many dogs in the way, second time I encounter just one dog who wants to chase a tennis ball on the ground, I try to enter the house through the garage door, there's a ragged hole in the garage door to the left, I push my way through, the first time I enter no one is there, second time the woman owner is taking care of her mother in a chair, I walk past them pretending like I belong, see out to the back yard, there's a party going on, I go there, find a group of 3 cute girls, suggest they should "pay me some attention," (not my exact words, they look shocked, heh), when they're reticent, I use lucid-like DC "mind control" saying "you WANT this", when one is coming closer I wake up in an adrenaline rush. Almost lucid, I had to think for a while if I was lucid or not after waking.

Follow-up to today's earlier entry : went back to bed for a late morning nap and slept for approx. 3 hours, 2 sleep cycles, I recall waking up once with recall but chose not to record and just try to slip back in, I did go back to sleep but not lucidly, don't remember those first dreams, but I did wake up right from the second batch of dreams with decent recall.

As is typical for those late morning dreams after about 8 hours it pretty much was "go with the flow" very low awareness, except right at the end I was sitting with a bunch of college students on some table and notice a long blonde haired stunning girl with her back towards me (pink leggings?), and I start to hit on her making a joke about the topic of conversation (which was showers), I touch her back to get her attention and start to give a stupid pick-up line involving showering ( ), and decide, no, I'm not going to do that, and I instead just am very genuine and "would like to go out with you." She's looking at me and says something is different about you, your hair?, and I touch my face and realize I've shaved off my beard, and I feel that my hair is very long and sex-ay.

Then that transitions to hanging out with a bunch of college girls and a narrator says "you don't want to run with the buffalo" (meaning you don't want to hang out with girls who just are with you to raise their status but are otherwise not in your league.) and I wake up.

+ surprised a burglar at my parent's house [most of the furniture was already gone from their living room]: a woman, I take her in a headlock (after wrestling away a heavy wrench from her hands) out to the street where her partners arrive in a big van/truck, a man gets out and points a gun at me, I put the woman in front of me, I'm dialing 911 with my free hand, I eventually connect and shout to the police my address and that there's a burglar with a gun pointed at me and I have a wrench in my hand but haven't used it yet, he wrestles the phone away from me, he shoots 5 or 6 times quickly, I feel pain and see blood on my left side but I look down and can't figure out if I've been hit or not

+ DO: a woman is talking to another woman about dressing ("wear inexpensive clothes but make them look good") going in to a movie theater and watching the economy movie.

+ something about parking in the parking lot at a former job

Not lucid but one of my most memorably long detailed, multi-scene dreams with scene to scene continuity. Probably 15 minutes subjective time at least.

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00:00 Monday 2014-02-03
01:11 bedtime
06:49
1) Sitting at a table in a house with a guy I know, he has a black beard/mustache, I state his name in the dream (but don't remember). We're talking about something. I put a glass of wine for him on the floor behind his right ankle, he doesn't know it is there. He stands up from his chair and starts to step backwards, I say "no no no!" I know he'll knock it over and he does knock it over and the wine spills.

His wife came home and we talked about inviting them to dinner and we started talking to him about his schedule. He's saying he can't do it one day, or another day, I misunderstand I think he's talking about a dinner that he is putting on and I sort of wanted us to be invited to his place.

We go to the kitchen, where his wife is. We were offering him some soup. We brought big barrels of soup/stew was looking for a place to put it. I saw the sink, some cabinets, the garbage (underneath some cabinets) I filled up some containers to the brim with the soup. I felt bad about filling up his containers.

Sitting around a table talking, I'm trying to unlock my ipad, I can't get the 2nd or 3rd character of the code to enter correct, I try at least 8 times, getting very frustrated. I explain my inability to enter my code because my thumbs have to stretch very far in order to hit the correct letters on the screen.

I came back later to the kitchen and noticed the garbage can was filled to the brim with our soup, his wife had thrown it all away. It's time for us to go I offer to help take the garbage out since it's full of our soup., "it's the least I can do," he hemmed and hawed eventually said yes. We're going outside to the garbage, the house is on a hill, there are a lot of switchbacks in the path going up to the garage. We have to go all the way to one side to get to the gate, then walk through the gate and go all the way back the other way to get to the garbage. We reach the gate to the garage, and I play with the mechanism, I look closely at it and examine it. I think about all the different places where my friend could lock this gate, but I don't see two loops of metal close enough together to put a lock through. Perhaps drilling a hole may help. My wife walks by carrying a giant garbage can full of soup wrapped in plastic on her back like a camping backpack. I reach to her to help carry it but she pulls away and keeps going (I know she doesn't like me offering to help once she's already almost finished something).

We're looking at a fence railing and thinking that someone could lie on the fence railing and roll to the other side to get over it.

We're walking back down the hill to the house, it's very steep, and I start gliding in the air. I'm gliding and hovering riding the air currents, but staying more or less in the same place. I'm surprised that I'm not losing altitude and say so, my friend has turned into my waking life friend NM. I quickly gain some altitude even. I say that I have always loved gliding/flying since watching the show "The Flying Nun" as a kid. I love his hill, it's a great place to glide, he mentions that the thermals would be really good over on the highway since the heat radiating up from there is intense and you'd go "VOOM" straight up into the air. I think I could glide forever here! I could go over to the freeway and hit a thermal and get up really high and glide back to his house.

Back on the ground walking in to his front door, the path is very precarious, there's hardly anywhere secure to put your feet. The steps are decrepit and falling apart. The front door is a few feet higher than the path and beyond it, you have to really stretch your legs to get them into the door frame. NM is standing in the door to help me in, I'm trying to get a good foothold. I reach out and hook my elbows through the door frame and pull myself in, squeezing my NM. I think/ask NM wondering how his elderly parents could come to visit, they'd never be able to make it in the front door.

Back around the table with group of people, we're talking about a new company. There's one friend there, and also the inventor of the product at the head of the table. My friend announces he has bought the rights of all advertising of the product for the next several years. The inventor when he heard this was shocked, because he/the company needed to do this . Apparently everyone thinks that I gave this friend the idea of purchasing the rights to the product, I objects saying "hey, hey, it wasn't my idea!" Someone offered me a glass of wine.

good variety last night, much forgotten, still tired

+ playing baseball in the snow, the ball shoots past into the outfield and gets lost in the snow

+ walking through a big place with lots of people, some naked ladies lying around on the ground, checking them out "subtly" as I walk by . Bodies exaggerated in various ways.

+ driving at night, try to pull into a place that it turns out is closed, then suddenly I'm in, a guard calls out something at me, I say in a foreign language "exit!" (to communicate I'm leaving), he calls after me (in FL), "exit?", I say "exit!" and I'm out again.

+ sitting in church, people start dancing in a circle in pairs holding hands, I stand up and look for a free partner, a (redhead?) woman eventually takes my hands and we start moving in the circle

+ soccer goal? (not sure this was a dream or a waking memory of sitting in a restaurant with soccer playing on the TV screens last night)

+ playing a space ship video game, shooting at two other guys playing nearby, I'm just off the edge of their screen shooting individual torpedoes at them who are orbiting a planet, I imagine the key sequences required to do this.

+ I notice a large square hole in the right upper leg of my jeans (about 6 inches on a side), I see a system of multi-layer padding and rollers/cushions underneath, I'm staring at this in confusion for a while, I'm upset my pants are ruined, we try putting various patches over the hole but it won't look good.

+ church scene: there with various young people, there's a screen, someone said "this technology (some name) is a great way of authenticating," it was based around little images.