non-lucid

00:00 Saturday 2014-08-09

01:46 quite tired, drove to the country in traffic, took about 3 hours.
3mg melatonin, alarm set for 3.5 hours (05:15)
to sleep kind of slow but not terribly.

05:15 alarm, take 2 x Galamtamind 4mg, 300mg Alpha GPC
Not too hard getting back to sleep for once!

07:30

fascinating long nld: "Dreamviews European adventure" featuring: fogelbise, StephL, and "golden lion". Ordering is a bit unclear, but there was a number of scenes:

Trip to Europe with fogelbise, giving a presentation at a conference on the subject of brain-operated devices. We're staying at StephL's place. I was confused throughout most of the dream about what I was doing there and what was going on.

I'm in the kitchen of a large 1-story home with open floor plan. There is a group of people sitting away from me they're being a bit stand-offish, there is a woman there and I ask someone "is that StephL?" I decide it is. She has thick long dark blonde hair.

I return to bed, where fogelbise already is lying under the blankets, and move to get in (we're sharing the bed), but he blocks me and gestures across the room, I see that he's made a bed for me on the floor across the room. I'm a bit confused by this since I had woken up earlier in the same bed with him previously, after all it's not a gay thing we're just sharing the bed, that's all. I see him begin his night-time dream preparations: he's mouthing some mantra and beating his chest rhythmically with one hand.

I'm telling fogelbise how I had taken some galantamine, I was confused about the time, wondering if I have time to sleep for it to take effect.

I see my cat in the living room, but I didn't bring her kitty toilet, where is she going to go to the bathroom? There's another cat here, are they going to fight?

I can't tell what time it is, am I in a different time zone? The (analog) clock on the wall seems to indicate a different time each time I look.

The conference is about brain-activated control devices. That's why they invited lucid dreamers. I introduced myself once as "Luke", I couldn't remember my dreamviews handle, then I remembered it and said "FryingMan," and I make jokes about heroes and Hiro saying "FlyingMan" with a bad Japanese accent so it comes out "FryingMan." A middle-aged man introduced himself as "GoldenLion" from dreamviews.

Two presenters are using a fascinating electronic multi-layered easel to make a presentation, they built this easel themselves. There is a bright orange 3-d display on the front made up of thousands of little orange plastic rods that can move forwards and backwards to form a display (like the kind of monochrome 3d- graphics the Kryptonians use in "Man of Steel"). The easel is many layers thick I get a view of its operation. At the back of the easel is a place where a large drawing can be stored, one of the two presenters repeatedly pulls out the drawing from the easel so it's visible, and then pushing it back in, then pulling it out again, and putting it back.

I'm in a car driving to the conference, it's dark. I'm entering the front seat from the right hand door, I'm confused by the dashboard, where's the steering wheel? I think I find a mini steering wheel very low below the dashboard.

Back in StephL's kitchen, talking to fogelbise. There are two strange microwave-oven-like devices: a two-sided mini-refrigerator, that's very handy because you can get at the food on the shelves from either the front or the back. Next to it there is a two-sided refridgerator that turns out is a wine refrigerator with a transparent front door. I see about 6 bottles of white wine lying on their sides within on several shelves . StephL is standing in the kitchen.

A guy in the flat is playing a fascinating odd recorder with strange tubes protruding from the main playing tube.

I'm looking for a shower and there are large piles of towels and blankets all through the house.

09:10

I"m outdoors across from a large science museum (with dinosaurs and things) there's a large open square between us and the big building, which doesn't have many windows and is really tall and made from concrete and brick. My sons and I are running and jumping, racing across the square, I'm running in a straight line and that means having to jump high (20+ feet) up running over the corners of some structures that lie in my way. We borrow some wheelbarrows/carts from a guy, he's carrying cardboard in them, S2 finds a pair of headphones, S1 wins the race and finds something like a car that he'll be able to sell for a lot of money.

02:08 bedtime

08:14

+ pool/billiards stadium, tables different shapes and sizes, balls large

+ sliding into a locker room to find the tv schedule very threatening man confronts me, Kids trying to see in some room, they can't come down the stairway there's a locked gate door there

+(f) walking along a ledge

+ epic nld (previously secret ) (wrote all this without consulting my notes )

fight:
I was visualizing flying while trying to WILD/sleep, and I entered a dream flying. I sensed that an opponent was flying towards me and I summed a force field umbrella shield to occupy the space in front of me.

I'm then on the ground, and facing two opponents about 15 feet away. I raise my wrists and out of each one a thin dark purple laser beam fires to hit each one opponent. They're slightly moving and I track each one independently, maintaining the fire on them. Then I advance into their position and see a female DC, and engage in some caveman.

trees/theater:
I'm in a large indoor area opening on to a small body of water, across the water is a large stand of tall trees (like Eucalyptus) bright in the sun against a blue blue sky, it is beautiful, I want to capture the moment on my camera, I move forwards to the edge of the water because there's an overhanging ceiling and I want to get an unobscured view of the trees. I'm squatting down for the picture and I see that the light has changed and the trees are now not so bright, like they're in shade. Then I see that some trees are now animated momuments with heads on the top of historical figures like America's founding fathers. These columns are growing/shrinking and swaying like trees in the wind. I hear some guy come up behind me to take a picture I hear him say it's a great view, I think he's too late, the light has changed. I get up to leave, a troupe of young actors has entered the area, lots of people, I walk up a stairway leaving the area past a young Asian male actor who's enthusiastically reciting some lines.

I'm now indoors, heading down a stairway. Off to the side of the stairway are a few rows about 3-4 seats wide of theater seating. A young woman is seated in one seat next to the stairway, I stop to talk to her. I place my right foot (wearing a shoe) onto the seat back where she's sitting, think that's a bit rude, move it away from her towards the edge of the back of the seat, decide that's still rude and take it away entirely, she reaches up and brushes off the dust from my shoe from the edge of the back of the seat. She starts soliciting me for something, giving me a pitch (something to do with the theater? don't remember), as soon as I figure this out I get antsy and say "no thanks" and continue down the stairs.

My way on the stairs is blocked by a large crowd, I need to go down the final flight of steps to the room below, but there's no way. Down below a woman is asking the crowd what kind of drinks she should order. I move to the right of the crowd, there is no banister at the edge of the upper floor, move back to the crowd on the stairs, there's no way through, step to the right and just jump/float down (about 12 feet) to the floor below, some guy is concerned I've fallen but I wave him off, "I do that all the time" I say/think or something similar.

planetarium:
I'm in a very large round room with a tall ceiling, I'm looking at some sort of science exhibit. A show begins on a curved screen that runs the circumference/perimeter of the room's wall right below the ceiling. The screen is opening wider, wider, reaching 180 degrees wide perhaps, and the show begins. There are individual chairs in the center floor area, haphazardly arranged, I sit to watch the show a bit. I see some stuff on the screen and am entranced, some of it is patterns in 3D. I ball comes flying through the air right to me and I try to catch it with my arms against my chest but I miss and it bounces off to my left on the floor

hieroglyphs / artwork:
I'm observing a fascinating drawing that is made of letters and symbols. I start making a copy of the original because I want to save it for later (when I wake up? almost lucid). I VERY CLEARLY see the letters and symbols and copy the first few, the original is on the left and my copy is on the right.

I'm copying a work of art consisting of chains and spiked balls (like the medieval ball and chain weapon) I draw about 10 spiked balls and then start filling in the chains.

23:38 bedtime -- finally, making some progress on bedtime, shooting for 23:00 every night now.

long time falling asleep, wife walking around room loudly and jumping in to bed later, it's hot and uncomfortable.

00:00 Friday 2014-08-08

05:12 dozing, wake to remee lights, sit up, bathroom, sit some more, still feel drowsy, wondering if I've been up too long, BTB

06:50 can't sleep, get up, breakfast

No recall at this point. Very depressed about this combined with the insomnia

09:30 back to bed

long time falling asleep

11:20 wake to dark room, WTF did I sleep all the way through to evening? No it's lightning/thunder/rain storm. As I type this the lightning is so close it makes my computer monitor jump when it strikes. At least it's 10C cooler for now.

+(f) leaving a church with son, I make a sacrilegious quip as I reach for the door handle and turn the knob to leave, I think I probably shouldn't have said that

+ with my GF who's planning a party, she complains this is the first time ever there will be too many girls at the party (it's because she's met so many lesbians recently), I take her into my arms, I'm below her at first, then I roll over and I'm on top of her she's in my arms and leaning back against the corner of a couch, and we enter a long, light, sweet kiss. I see her face, she's a beautiful young dark skinned Asian Indian with deep purple lipstick, it's so nice that I repeatedly try to pull away to tell her how nice this is and how long it's been but she doesn't let me disengage and all my words come out sounding like "Mmph" even though I'm coherently thinking my dialogue in my head.

^^ Very realistic, not being able to pull away though was weird...should have triggered an RC!


+(f) standing on a high place looking down at a low place

+ sitting down by a TV, wishing the midget well on his performance, it's his test, flute music begins, I hear it perfectly and clearly, it's my favorite, Bach flute sonata in e minor (BWV 1034) first movement (without accompaniment) mistake right in the beginning, keeps playing, scene visuals change while music continues to a bizarre amalgam of strange umbrella-shaped trees like I saw recently on FB





I almost fell back into a dream, I felt a sensation like I was standing and hopping lightly on my feet and had a dream entry sensation but then I woke up

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Stayed up late watching "The Purge" movies

00:00 Tuesday 2014-08-05

02:00 bedtime

no wbtb, no middle of the night recording, but I did wake during the night for recall, the dreams came in across 2-3 wakings and I managed to remember at least some of them, there were more but they degenerated into fragments or I forgot them entirely

10:30

+ playing space video game, frag ship following close with phasers. The screen fills my vision, there are lots of ship on screen I'm firing torpedoes and trying to detonate enemy torpedoes, I'm changing course drastically and setting full speed to dodge. I'm not sure what team I'm on (orion or klingon?) but figure later I'm klingon, I see a romulan ship at one point and maybe a federation. At one point I have a fed ship close on my tail I'm moving from left to right, he's right on my tail not quite at 9 o-clock but close enough, I fire several phaser bursts straight to the left and he disappears, I guess I got him.

+ in a prison/hospital, one guy wants to move to the special room. I'm walking/talking with one patient (young male short blonde hair) he wants to go to the room. It's behind bars, the room is large-ish but I'm warning him if he goes in there he'll be spending his entire sentence in there.

+(f) wife is at checkout counter

+(f) downtown B, lots of gourmet restaurants, but they're empty and advertising for chefs

+ in old house, we only have room for the A family or someone else, walking around over sleeping guests. The A's could stay in a hotel, but could also stay with us, there's someone else who wants to stay with us.

+ picking flowers at the childhood playground. I start at the middle level where the clubhouse was, I want to pick flowers for a girl I like, I'm holding a large-ish tall crystal vase in my left hand, I pick a few flowers but they're too short and they fall down inside. I'm looking at one flower that looks like a black tulip with a green stem sticking up out of the flower. Starting to walk down to the lower/basketball level, someone with me stops to lean over the clubhouse railing to take a drink from the drinking fountain. I put down the crystal vase and it almost falls over, I catch it before it does and steady it. Down on the lower level I decide I want some white daisy flowers, I see them growing on the hillside between the levels, I walk over to the hill and jump up on two concrete benches near the hillside and jump onto the hill. I'm picking one daisy flower, I'm trying to reach down all the way to its base so that I get a long enough stem so that the flower will come out of the top of the vase and not just fall down inside. I'm a bit concerned about bugs as I reach down into the clump of green plant stuff where the stem emerges from. I pick several flowers. Some flowers come wrapped in brown paper wrapping with clear plastic windows like rolls from the bakery, one flower is a double-headed flower. I see that my wife has brought the procession of people down to this level so I don't have to climb back up.

Started as a one dream night, WTF? Dreams are supposed to *build* in a competition, not vanish! Boo hoo.

2mg melatonin at bedtime, it's hot, I want to make sure I sleep.

I think there were some fairly awesome earlier dreams but they vanished.

06:30

1) in a coffee shop, talking to dude across from me, soccer girl.

At a large table in a coffee shop, about 8 in our group, the waitress is pouring water into our instant (if this is such a nice coffee shop why are we drinking instant?), the guy across from me is gone for a long while then he returns, he's gotten another cup of "K3", I say "you're probably all set for a night long work session!" I ask him the longest he's been awake, he answers 2 days. He starts talking about the soccer video game he likes to play, how the game creators are very careful about security so the game can't be cheated.

He starts talking about girl on a team(?), I see a series of still photographs arranged in a grid about her and her progress?

WBTB -- up a long time, can't sleep

09:30 BTB, eventually sleep

12:20

wake up with some fairly detailed recall, yay happy for the day again.

2) sister tag tower. I'm in some bridge tower, darkly lit, my sister is there we're playing tag (as adults) she runs up several landings up the stairs and hides in the darkness. There's no way I'm going to get here without her seeing/hearing me she'll just run away farther so I play it cool and just hang out, more people arrive. I think my moment is here so I signal my father to start playing music (singing?), this will cover the sound of my steps so I stealthily climb up to the next landing and I see my "sister" wearing a colorful dress in a crowd of women wearing dresses like dancers and I surge forward and tag here before she can get away, the other women think I cheated, I go and stand in a large platform below where they're standing.

3) football catch punt. I"m watching a (US) football game DO high over the field and a bit to the side. There's a kickoff but the kick goes out of bounds so it won't count, but somehow the play keeps continuing and I see the ball rolling in the center of the field rolling towards the end-zone, I expect the kicking team player (wearing a white uniform) will down the ball on the goal line but at the last second he just stands up and lets the ball roll into the end-zone. Instead of bringing the ball out the kicking team takes the side of the receiving team and without uniforms starts playing a "fake" play of football all to themselves, then one of the big guys runs up the field and the referee declares they can punt (back towards the original receiving team). I see the punt, it looks like a bad kick it is very high but not very far. HEY, the ball is coming RIGHT FOR ME, I see the football spinning rapidly and getting closer, and I *catch* it with two arms! I'm ecstatic, I hold the ball up like a trophy among my group on the balcony. I'm looking for a referee to hand the ball back to and toss it to someone on the balcony level below mine. I think, "crap I should have had someone take a picture of me first before I did that." Then there's a scene of some football players doing a celebration dance, they're right in front of me, and I (unfortunately) see the foot-long schlong and big nutsack of one of the players who's directly facing me, swinging back and forth with his dance, I really wish I hadn't seen that.

4) in store bags of food. I'm walking through a upscale grocery store, I'm looking for some good snack food. I see packages hanging up on the wall, I'm expecting they'll be potato chips, but I see instead it's full of weird things like marinated salisbury steak chunks, I move on through the store where I have to push through some young people coming the other way. I head up a ramp towards the check-out and I notice my legs -- I'm wearing black thermal underwear but the pants are so old and thin that when I lift my legs and the overhead light strikes it you can clearly see my skin, I'm embarassed a bit about that. I'm now approaching a register but the area is like dark casino gambling pit, it's carpeted. There are some "bad guys" also approaching, I wonder how they'll get through. I bring my stuff and unload it onto the circular check out counter, I see I have forgotten to put some of the vegetable items, including a small clump of some short greens, into bags. I count that I need 4 bags and tell that to the clerk who echoes it back to me.

F1) drive past church with missile statues. Driving in a car with my wife, she points out another Church where we used to stop and the kids used to play, I sort of recognize it, I look out the window as we drive by and see a war memorial with about a dozen large sized missiles pointing towards the center of the square.

F2) watching TV in my childhood room

00:00 Wednesday 2014-07-30

ugh "recall recoil" night, poor recall tonight, only 4 short dreams, no recording during night, so mucho detail lost, must have been tired, feel actually fairly well rested today.

01:00 pre-bedtime

01:15 (?) bedtime

Wife IWL keeps coming to me (3 times!), turning on the light, and insists I look at the toothbrushes and identity which toothbrush is mine, and after pointing mine out, each time I say "I'm trying to sleep I don't care about the toothbrushes, I'll go buy a new one tomorrow, let me sleep!"

No recording at night so I have no idea about dream times, but in rough order:

+ I have an old white car, it's like a Dodge Dart, some old crap car. It's parked on a moderately steep hill pointing front downwards. I open the hood and there's some sort of metal cover over the engine with the vague impression of engine parts underneath. I start it up. I return to my car and there's another car parked near it. I start driving and turn around and head uphill pressing the accelerator but it doesn't go very fast.

+ I'm walking down CB it's a very steep hill I see entranceways on both this and the other side of the street to underground pathways. My wife tells me about the hidden blueberry fields, I decide to find them, I imagine picking the blueberries off of the bushes.

+ pizza parties everywhere. I'm in a pizza restaurant, I see college housemate MH (for some reason this guy keeps popping up in my dreams even though we were not really close friends...I do see his posts on FB occasionally though) approaching our table, I see his face clearly, I'm really happy to see him, I offer a double high-5, then I turn around and stick my butt in the air for him to spank (!!?), he does and his pizza slides off his plate onto my plate, it's all gooey and mixed up, I don't want to use my hands to separate the pieces, I think mine is the pepperoni one. I then see college housemate NI, and I talk for a while about how NI managed the relationship with the pizza companies and how our house won the competition for most pizza ordered in a year and got a free pizza party as a result.

Heading out to an elevator going down, 2 girls are trying to get position to get next to a guy. Riding up an elevator getting off, the apartment we're going to is open. All the people we know are supposed to be here but there are just two families of people we barely know, they're looking at us as we enter, I see a few cute daughters/wives with beautiful brown eyes, I take the pizza we've brought to the refrigerator and try to put it inside but the shelves are all overflowing with ground meat.

+ selling a small box of my old junk to an aggressive lesbian for over $100. I'm holding a small box of my old junk, old tapes, random crap, I can't believe she will pay me $100 for this junk, she tries to hit me but I avoid it, I start looking at the stuff and decide hey there's some good stuff in here after all, there's the tape to the famous football play, I think I'll just take out and keep the stuff and give the rest of the junk to the lesbian, I'm keeping my eye on her to see if she's noticing me, she tries to hit me again this time she does.

I leave now I'm driving a horse and cart, I have the reins in each hand, I start by "whoa"ing / stopping the horse, then I pull the reins to the left and the horse goes left, then I pull to the right and it goes right, then we approach an narrow metallic stairway/escalator, I wonder if we can get down it, I just keep going and we somehow get down.

While riding I "play" the tape and hear a portion of the famous football play.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-07-29 Competition #18 night #2

00:20 pre-bedtime setting intention

00:37 bedtime

04:25

1) prayer meeting in (my?) living room, multi-level, some people leave the front door is on the upper level, they are offended, some new people arrive, they are very enthusiastic. I listen to the priest speaking, it sounds like gibberish. Then we're giving a presentation of my database coding project, the code is up on a projector. There are some people there from my job, I wonder what they'll think of me working on this side project on my own.

WBTB

07:15

2) epic long multi-scene dream

ski hill:

ski resort terror attack. I am flying DO high above the ground I see a bomb go off and little people fly far in every direction: up, down, left, right, in the air. I watch this replay several times trying to get a good view.

High DO view of people skiing fast down steep rocky slopes. I see little skiers skilfully navigating the slopes among the rocks. I then see some skiers not so skilfully navigating, they fall and their bodies scrape along the rocks. There is a hill shining in the sun the skiers try to get to the top of the hill at a precise time so that they get the special reflection from the sun as they ski down.

There is another path down the mountain to see the reflection, it is a narrow path along a steep crevice. I am there with a group, including Spock and Bones from Star Trek. The track is only one ski wide and I'm saying "oh there's no WAY I'm going to go on that." I can't imagine how when wearing long skis one can even pick up the back ski to place it in front of the front ski to make progress. There is a sharp turn coming up ahead.

lightsaber lab:

I'm observing some light-saber fight between two Darth-Vader like beings, I imagine their lightsabers clashing and the handles getting fused and stuck together. I imagine jumping in to the battle then with my own lightsaber, slicing the bottom of the two stuck lightsabers in half to destroy it, while then taking the top one and using it.

We're approaching a big door, we have to open it somehow, we're then inside but we're still trying to figure out how to open something, I go further into the huge low-lit room and find a workbench with some aspect of the code/security system. I activate it and feel my cell phone ringing/vibrating in my pocket. Of course! I set up this system to call me to ask for the code phrase! I open my phone (it's a flip phone) and try to read the code phrase which is written on a piece of paper tacked to a wall of this work area. Some sort of small cage has been dragged across the code sentence leaving a word in the middle unreadable. The letters in the other words are kind of washed out too but recognizable as words.

I walk by another tall lab bench and see several early models of lightsabers that we were working on, I "recognize" them. One of them is like a toy with a plastic blade, I turn it on and swing it around and it makes some faintly recognizable lightsaber "bzzing" sounds.

A young woman appears and is telling me that she remembers me as the guy who was always falling over slowly to the ground. I'm really embarrassed/angry about this, I tell her angrily that that was only before I was 12 years old and had yet to develop a sense of balance!

My college roomate CL appears and starts packing up some large rectangular plates. I think these were the things he was working on in the lab. Will he bring them back?

A group of people are gathered together sitting closely. One guy is sitting on a horse who is sitting on the ground. The horse has no skin and I see the fibrous muscles, dark and tough, though, like horse jerky, not bloody. "Them's are good eats!" I say, hoping the horse guy will share, I think he will.

star trek:

We're on the bridge of a Star Trek ship, there are various captains chairs. Some communication is received there is a dangerous situation. I see two people sitting on chairs, one has super long dreadlocks/tentacles for hair and is encased in a clear protective bubble. The crew must abandon ship.

I'm in an escape pod, I see a view of the ship as the escape pod detaches: it looks sort of like concentric round rings of various rocket boosters. I see this several times, I feel a jerk as the escape pod finally gets moving.

Down on the surface of an alien planet, with the group from our ship, I have a high DO view as a more experienced crew member tells about this planet, it's (something like) the "Ice Ceiling" planet. Instead of a sky there is a high ceiling and large chunks of ice can fall from it. As he says this I see a large chunk of ice fall down and cover the group.

The group is standing on top of a hill and the experienced crew member brings out the instruction manual for this planet. He reads how one should target (the aliens?"). You draw a line along each of the (triangular?) feet, then draw a line between these two and you have the sensitive spot.

In a city (on the planet?) there are large buildings. Instead of numbers for addresses they use large books of famous literature nailed to the buildings.

Back in the Star Trek ship:

Someone is speaking with Scotty, he will be leading the new Star Trek shows. I (or somebody?) asks "is that the New New shows or the Old New shows?"

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long back to sleep...yet another back to sleep success. It's hot, bed is uncomfortable, but I persevere and fall asleep.

almost WILD/start-of-dream DILD? A dream starts and I realize it's a dream and I wake up. Perhaps vivid HI. I was in some sort of building/prison, building/inspecting a fence.

09:45

3) I'm interacting with two girls from the yearbook club. Then I'm in with the entire yearbook club and there's a big song-and-dance number.

I'm observing a spy who's in disguise talking to a spy target of his. The spy has a terrible disguise: an entire set of false teeth that start falling out as he's speaking, so the row of false teeth is clearly visible in between the two rows of his real teeth.
Then there's a view of an all-white cart/truck that falls down from the sky to appear, the "fence" of the truck are like large false teeth, rectangles rounded on top.

I'm trying to stop/work a tape recorder, there is important information on the tape, I see the tape playing past the end and the tape entirely unravelling from one reel. I eventually find the stop button but it's too late. I wonder how I'm going to get the tape put back together.

I'm entering a small room and closing the door. I have my ipad with me and I'm planning a session of "personal entertainment." Then in a semi-lucid flash of inspiration I realize, "Hey, I could go get a real girl!" I leave the room start walking out ready to start the search but I wake up.

It felt like waking up from a lucid dream, but I don't think I thought I was dreaming fully so I won't count it as lucid.

23:53 3mg melatonin
00:02 pre-bedtime
00:15 (?) bedtime
many interruptions family coming home late
trying desperately to get to an earlier, regular sleep schedule

01:00 (?) asleep?

remee on, same settings (4.5 hr / 5 minutes / 100% brightness)
I notice remee I think in a dream, color is grey/white, it wakes me up eventually I may have been in the dream the first time but in the void

dreams all night long, but no recording until final waking: a fair bit of recall survived:

09:46

+ murder mystery my partner double crosses me with another partner but we double-double cross him, my gun only shoots red currant berries. I'm in a low-lit apartment with my male partner looking for clues in a murder case. I see two oatmeal cookies on a table wrapped in plastic, I pick them up, the package is opened, I think it's OK to eat them and offer one to my partner. Walking down a hallway I'm trying to shoot my partner with my gun but the only thing that happens is that red current berries appear on his body. My back is up against the door and he says "we two have killed you!" and a woman (another partner?) appears behind him and he intends to kill me. I say "No, John, *we* two have killed *you*" and the woman shoots him in the head.

+ entering a science museum, I think we may get in without having to pay

+ the toy/model/hobby store has moved to smaller quarters at the end of the row, they only have pre-fab construction toys no models, lots of lego battery holding pieces. I'm standing in the store, it's very small with high counters, there are a number of sales people in the store and other people. All around the walls up high are mounted the example toy kits they sell. I think that they no longer sell any models, only pre-made construction kits like erector sets, lego, etc. The store has moved to smaller quarters so they don't have room for everything. The floor is uneven, there is a large uneven "pothole" in the middle of the floor (emerging dreamsign) that you have to step into to move from one side of the store to another. I'm fascinated and look closely at weird lego pieces that hold batteries: C battery sized, CR2032 (round) sized, some tiny batteries. I think these are cool lego pieces.

+ in an open kitchen, the appliances are making funny noises, I watch the automatic cheese slicer in action in the refrigerator. I see the cheese slicer in action, the refrigerator is small a little larger than a dorm refrigerator, the cheese slicer is in the upper left area, you put in a chunk of cheese and it repeatedly cuts it into perfectly even slices, then once finished it plops the stack of sliced cheese down to the next level. I think that only a machine can cut such perfectly level pieces, by hand and knife a person wouldn't do such a good job.

+ I cry face to face with the creepy girl doll/fairy thing that there will be no more of her kind for all eternity. She has teeny tiny teeth like a small animals. She has white/blonde hair.

+ talking about paper vs. plastic in the grocery store, waiting in line for a free cashier. There are 3 lines and I'm standing in one of them, but when another cashier comes free the person in line offers me their spot.

+ crazy racquetball: doubles with older women: sesame seeds on the floor, multiple service lines, the old woman serves raw meat instead of the ball. I'm in the right rear corner thinking about how I'll warm up: backhand shots hitting high to the front wall in the corner so that the ball will return to me. On one straight shot where the ball is returning to me it takes a funny bounce: I get down on the floor to look and I see there are a number of white and black sesame seeds, and point these out to the people in the court. The court is mostly normal (white walls, rectangular) except there are 4 service areas painted on the floor back to back. The women are choosing which one to serve from, I say that I'm used to playing on courts with only one or two such areas (false, real courts only have one service area). Standing behind the women waiting for them to serve the woman tosses me a large chunk of raw pink meat (like turkey meat), I hit/toss it and it sticks to the front wall, the woman cackles "thanks for the points!"

+ I attack incoming (zombie orcs?) with my elven sword, my partner wants their pants, I see 3 pairs of my jeans on hangers. I feel bad about chopping and stabbing at these pitiful creatures, my shiny silver sword doesn't seem to be doing much damage. Their paints are all torn up in shreds so my friend won't get any pants from them. My jeans are hanging on hangers/bars, two pairs look dirty/older, one pair looks newer, I wonder what size I bought.

Another awesome multi-sleep-cycle dreaming night with good retention, woohoo just need to start converting these to lucids somehow.

Will fill in details later when I have a real keyboard

16 minutes of voice recorder notes. Remee on, first waking came just about exactly at remee signal interval (4.5 hours)

+ escape from the bad boys to the golf course (near-epic)

+ signing a contract to take care of the doctors baby for 2 weeks for free

+ my kids catch me with NSFW content on the laptop and unclothed lying on the living room floor, very embarrassing

+ KS's father allows me in the club, luxurious and crazy tennis, exchanging gifts with Arnold Schwarzenegger

+ attack on our club I am a newbie with a shotgun getting advice from a veteran I shoot an opponent starting the war

+ playing chess he's really pushing his pawns my pieces are not yet on the board put them there use queen to back up my pawn break

+ tennis test I pass with faster and faster and more and more accurate volleys I may play Ivan Lendl I go lok for my shoes and socks to get ready to play

+ elevator in the hardware store they're evacuating go outside it's cold/rainy need to get back to the other section of the store which is far away

+ sliding down a super steep sandy hill to an ocean beach where I walk out to catch a glimpse of the special lobsters and get attacked by gangsters. I'm standing at the top of the hill observing the beach/ocean and wondering if I can get down this hill. I run/slide down and decide it's not so hard. I see the water and the shore and wonder if I should swim diagonally from the point near me to the far side of the shore, or just walk along the shore, which is faster, I see a diagonal path through the water. Out on the rocks in the water on the far side of the beach I see two special/prized old lobsters. Some thugs get angry and jump me.

+ jumping through windows in a restaurant avoiding/fighting thugs. I'm indoors and looking for a way out, I see a window with a screen door over a sink, I hop up open the window push out the screen and do a front flip out of the window.

+ the sterling silver tea set is on the ground outside the garage door where anybody could steal it, I move it inside the garage and make space for it. What was it doing outside, anyway?

+ a girl has the remote control for the satellite launch, it takes a few circles overhead before it's pointing the right direction and heads for space. It's about 1 meter square and full of tubes and space-y looking things.

+ (movie?) a guy is talking about the alien raining-fire attack, he hid under a low platform but his friends were only two wet spots left on the ground because they didn't make it in in time

+ The movie theatre interrupts the movie before the end to announce someone lost a watch, everyone in the theater has to help, I find it, I see a patron dressed up as an alien with boobs on her neck. It's a fairly normal looking and sized movie theater, it's still fairly dark inside when they interrupt the movie it's not entirely clear if it's finished yet, we're looking for the watch, I bend down and peer between various rows of seats, against the left wall of the theater I see a watch on the ground, it's a ladies watch with diamonds in the face and a diamond studded band, I hold it in my hand and look for an usher, I find one and give it to him. I see people sitting in the theather, including a woman with an alien costume which is a strange neck attachment making her neck look very tall and impossibly thin in places, she pulls this down to reveal two magnificent breasts, one on each side of her neck, I look at her a few times.

+ Standing in an outdoor area, I walk right up to the tall, beautiful star, who is standing to the side by herself, she is one of three beautiful stars (of some program?) and boldly kiss her for a while. I take her upper lip between mine and just feel it there for a while sort of moaning in pleasure, it feels absolutely fantastic, I wake up with my pillow between my lips I want to DEILD and just relax and re-enter the dream but non-lucid:

+ re-enter dream and now she's furious with me, she walks into an outdoor restaurant and complains about me to her friend, I see her yelling and pointing/gesturing towards me, when her friend glances back at me I give her a cocky wave, maybe I can get with her friend instead, they stay inside and sit down. I float through to the front observing a strange woman served on white cushions, she demands that everything served to hear is super sterile and clean. She is sitting / lying on a white couch to the right of a round table, there is a mirror image of her or another woman to the left of the table, a round white cushion with beige circumference appears and she moves to sit on top of that, I'm hovering above her looking down she stretches out on the couch with her feet towards the top and some pills appear on the couch in a pattern, she sweeps them up and swallows them.

I'm back in the outdoor area and encounter the tall beautiful star again, she's wearing different clothes (a nice tight clingy sweater?) she's not angry with me, I kiss her again lightly a few times and decide to move on before she gets angry again, and say "I'll see you later," I'm going to look for one of the 2 other stars, I see one with another guy she seems crazy/mad so I decide to move on.

+ I'm walking in what seems like a lobby of a movie theater or a casino-carnival, I wander into a room with tables of clear plastic-topped packages of food like caviar (orange and black, on bread), I pick a package up and keep looking around, I realize this is a corporate party and it's not my company, I'm concerned someone will notice I don't belong and kick me out but nobody does, there aren't very many people, I see a woman at the front seated at the table preparing some of the dishes, some of them look like big pans of beans and I say "mmmm". I eat the caviar. I'm walking around the lobby and see an advertisement for a "bourbon bar" and think that sounds good but I can't drink because I'm driving. Farther along I see a huge open carnival area with people playing games and making lots of noise in the distance (sort of like a Circus-Circus play area with lots of game booths). I hear/imagine a booth is a girl booth where you can win some girls to take back to your room.

Walking back I pass a booth with two pale naked Japanese ladies writing around and touching themselves, there is a totally white/pale man there he's the game organizer, I see long hair on the body of the girl to the right but realize it's just hair that has come loose from her hairdo and is lying loose on top of her body, I see the girl on the left is "wide open" and apparently using her fingers.

22:00 3mg melatonin to help reset sleep schedule

23:00 pre-bedtime (intention)

23:20 bedtime (woohoo before midnight, an improvement)

00:00 Wednesday 2014-07-09

03:59

+ long early morning dream:"AED": fAtalistic Eternal Determinants: bizarre interactions with freaky super powered beings, including being required to play Mary Had a Little Lamb on the clarinet (and I don't play clarinet), and a creepy vampire baby/doll offering to make me into a vampire.

I'm in a deep valley looking up at a very high steep cliff where there is a straight-up-and-down-vertical stairway. I'm thinking that noble/royal people travel this stairway (on some sort of a beast like a camel) on their journeys outside of the castle.

Perspective shifts and I see more of the valley, rocks, trees, and this stairway from a different perspective.

Perspective shifts again and I'm hovering DO, I see a huge rocky mountain lake basin in between mountains, there is not much water in the lake, a narrator tells of the water shortage, and I see this is because of a massive artificial drain in the bottom of the lake basin. This basin is a very dangerous evil aware place, anybody venturing there is killed, for example by landslides.

I appear in a large room before 3 beings in white, 2 of them are Tony Randall, one is Jack Klugman, from the TV series The Odd Couple. These are super powered beings. A few others have been summoned with me, and we are required to play Mary Had a Little Lamb on the clarinet. I feel the instrument in my mouth and my fingers on the keys, I imagine playing the piece correctly with my fingers making patterns according to another instrument which I play. Sound does not come out correctly, I remove the instrument from my mouth almost all the way just the tip of the mouthpiece remains and I finally get a sound out of it.

I'm summoned again and one of the beings in white is now in two parts before me on the ground, slowly moving/wiggling, mostly like two large lumps of meat with some hair but is sort of recognizable as a body, I know that the boundary between the two pieces (the axis of the division) constantly changes/rotates, so that the two pieces are made up of different body parts all the time.

Moving in to the next room it is like a locker room but the lockers are screens looking into the world. The beings in white are commenting on something: a procession of some aspect of reality that moves from screen to screen, each time slightly changing and transforming according to their desires, they voice their approval of this process, I'm amazed at their power.

At some point I see a screen/sign with words against a white background, I think it's describing this place/experience, (is it a TV show or reality?), 3 main words like Fatalistic Eternal Determinants, and I think the abbreviation for this is A.E.D.

Back to the valley, there is a fight, a large military naval vessel is in the lake, I have a high hovering DO view, something attacks it and decimates it, most of the ship falls apart like it's been sliced in half, and a black thick stream made up of sailors and machines flows strongly and thickly out of the ship like blood.

Up close scene of one of the sailors, he's on his stomach with his legs crushed underneath a massive stone cube (20-30 feet on each edge), narrator says something like "it's better to be dead than crippled because when you're crippled they'll catch up to you and kill you." The stone block then grinds along the floor over the sailor and his head pops as it covers him, crushing him entirely.

I see clumps of thousands of huge long purple tendrils writhing (and pulling the ship apart?), this is the evil power in the valley. At one point I think you can battle this thing, but them millions more purple tendrils in multiple bunches pour out of the earth and I know it's hopeless.

I'm crawling along some sort of outdoor walkway alongside a large building, it's dark/twilight, I'm paralyzed and don't have the use of my legs. A small baby/doll/creepy vampire being with scary eyes walks by me and offers to make me into a vampire. I'm concerned that this is a bad deal, like it's trying to trick me into a horrible fate, and I ask it several questions like "if I am not happy with this transformation, will you put me back exactly the way I was before?" Each time the thing says yes, so in the end I agree, and I feel the fangs grow in my mouth, I run my tongue over them, and (as I was secretly hoping) I can stand and walk now. I ask the vampire thing if this means I must drink blood now, and I wonder if the white super beings allow the eating of meat.

I'm in an indoor small room with a smaller chamber in the middle of the room, I'm trying to walk through and around this to avoid all the white-clothed beings, because I know they like to cause trouble/mischief on lesser beings, but there are too many of them I can't avoid them so I just walk through, I have the thought that at these higher levels it's very perilous because there are so many of these troublemaking beings. At the other side of the room is a tray with beakers on it, one of the beings is doing something there, I go over and take control, mixing substances together in a small ornate beaker, creating some potion or something, the contents/beaker starts burning/cooking and gets a dark burned look to it, a being is standing right next to me reminding me not to forget something, I study the outside of the beaker and see a flakey/flimsy thing made out of a material like insect wings, I peel it off the beaker (and put it in?). These little things are of critical importance to levelling up, and I think the more advanced beings are blocked from progressing if the things they leave behind are not found, so they make it easy to find them.

05:30 out of bed, can't sleep

08:00 (?) back to bed

12:03

(earlier)

+ Chasing and destroying vampires, jabbing syringes of adrenaline into their eyes, the characters were from Friday Night Lights (Tim Riggins). A dog was helping us track them, we were chasing several of them and catching up to them on a hill.

(waking 12:03)
+ I'm ready to test some equipment in the lab with (Coach Eric Taylor?), my scripts are ready, but I haven't moved them into the proper directory yet. I'm typing at the keyboard and watching the command line on the screen change, I vaguely see the letters.

Long dreaming night, to bed late, slept late, got back to sleep, should have gotten lucid but too tired after trip.

+ skiing downhill at night in a group, at the top of the hill was a campaign sign reading "Americans: we're not as stupid as you think we are!" it's from a candidate whom I think I know

+ playing "hide the USB wireless mouse interface in your ear!" game in a swimming pool with a large group

+ I work hard to recapture our ball in the swimming pool, tons of kids are playing, later it is a flag, I finally get it and victoriously return

+ up close view of a spices stored in a store, mostly hot crushed red pepper, some strange individual slice packing I think is really clever (one of those "you mean *that* was a dream?" dreams, felt very real)

+ The origins of Captain America: at first he's (me) a guy who just likes the suit, I try the helmet/mask on and check myself out in a mirror

+ water is building up in a diamond-shaped cabinet, I rush to get some stainless-steel cook-pots to capture and reach it just as it begins to pour out, it fills up all the pots quickly, I think about siphoning it through a green garden house down to an in-ground water storage area, but there's a guy in there held prisoner

+ in a team of young people/heroes trying to trick the evil witch into appearing, I think she does but the team just stands around

+ I'm on a 3-wheeled motorcycle slipping and sliding on a snowy road, I run into a fence, I try to figure out the best position of the front wheel to counteract the sliding (turned 90 degrees sideways seems best!)

+ arrive on an extremely urgent mission to an important adult figure who just doesn't want to hear it, we should all calm down and eat our dinner first, we start singing in harmony

+ I'm in a small movie theatre as a movie ends, I'm surprised to see about 5 other people scattered around the theatre, we all start doing "raise the roof"

+ something about my parents and lots of food

...and much more that forgot

00:00 Saturday 2014-06-28

01:30 bedtime, disaster, soooo late

+ doom giant demons chainsaw, switching between 3rd person player outside game and character inside game, holding down keys hard on the "keyboard" trying to adjust flying trajectory.

+ on the beach, rain cloud coming, part of the show? it's a real rainclould, small about 100 square feet and it comes out from above the high rock shelf ceiling and it does rain out over a pond. There's a beautiful blonde girl and I see some pit stubble and I say "honey, come here" and upon closer inspection it's a dude, ew. See his pit stubble and some pit hair. Still has beautiful blonde hair, though.

Walk behind and above a CG with amazing legs in a short tight dress, I manoeuvre around to the front for another look but people get in the way

On a beach a big bulky official guy, two children are pestering him to build a walkway on the beach, he says there's no room to do it, too crowded, it would be full of police, they keep saying it would help walking on the beach, I visualize such a pathway briefly, I see that there are mountains in the distance, I think this location is just like my favorite SH beach, but I know it's different.

my wife is setting up a spot back up on the steep sandy hill.

A group is a bit farther on up the hill they're moving a fence to a closed position they play some sort of water balloon soccer with individual little cages the balloons are meant to break on the cages and get the guy inside wet, the balloon gets tossed back and forth a bit I think at first it's a soccer field they're setting up inside a fence like a private area. The big dude tells the kids they need to get formal plans approved by the planning commission.

Spoiler for caveman:

Take a girl backstage from the action, through a narrow space into in a kitchen-like room there are now two girls, I see a view like someone under the table is having intercourse with her, gives me the idea to do it, and I perhaps have intercourse with them, or at least think about it. While I'm finishing with a girl I notice I'm sitting in front of an opened door leading out into a public area, I close the door.

Later I'm sitting in a big chair like a dentist chair and two girls who I think are the same girls from the room, several more girls are also, the chairs are arranged in a very large circle, I wonder if they will "tell on me", the circle disperses and a bunch of girls all come standing around my chair, they're so close I reach for the long hair of one girl facing away from me and touch it and her back then quickly look away when (I think) she turns to see who touched her.

With my wife and some waitresses, they're offering something like deep-fried Chardonnay, and I'm confused by that, "say what?"

23:30 bedtime

00:00 Friday 2014-06-20

02:00 really early recall, woken from music playing outside

+ car chase in B hills, police cars chasing my team, we're driving muscle cars (Camaros) trying to evade them, up and down roads, while driving I'm trying to put a plastic stencil with a round hole on to some console around the console/gearshift to the right and having trouble doing this. We're listening to the police scanner. Heading down A ave. two cars pull together to block the road. Go DO at this point and one of the drivers (man) is trying to convince the other (man) to have sex with him, who resists the idea.

+ walking through dark hallways I enter an (elevator? entry room?) and open the door on the far side leading to a pitch black hallway, I'm hesistant to enter since it's absolutely dark and I may not find my way back. Then a guard comes out from somewhere and asks "who opened the door?" I say something like "oh is it disallowed?" he comes to me at the door and the entry room is then lit and we're fiddling with a mechanism on the wall the guard wants to turn some key in the mechanism, I think I have my own key just let me use it.

+ in hallway with SB, leaning forwards against a strap attached to waist, laughing and "remembering" (false memory) how we used to do this, and say funny words (said a few)

+ walking through dark hallways, I'm drunk / drinking / nauseous almost throw up, decide to stop drinking. Look forward to meeting with girlfriend and getting drunk because we'll probably "get down to business" afterwards.

+ in a place like a big science museum, I noticed the temperature (first time ever!) and it's really hot. I go into a copy center / administrative office and it's cool in there because I think that they have A/C, it feels much cooler in there, and I feel a strong wind in there. I say "dang how do you guys deal with this heat?" There are some girls inside this office, and I have to pee. There are some guys, there's a car windshield separating me from the office girls, the guy says "just pee here" indicating the windshield, I'm resistant since I think it will splash everywhere, but he says "she likes it, she likes to look at it afterwards."

07:00

+ night-time driving get separated from dad go back meet up again on a corner S2 is there talking about how some people were in a car with a big couch on the roof and he couldn't get on it because it was full of people.

+ album story two women: walking outside in the daytime in a quiet suburban neighborhood, I see what I think is a sign for a memorial, I think this is for NB my old scout master who passed away (true IWL), I enter and speak with them and see the album. Then I'm outside, I'm looking at the neighbor's gate, and see multiple pool payment notices on the ground red/pink/white, I think they're really behind on their payments. I see the landlord, and I speak to him briefly. Then I'm talking to a young man outside, we're talking about how so many people leave to cheaper places (New Jersey?) (I think we're in California). I look up and see the blue sky with light/whispy cirrus clouds and gesture with my hands and say "yeah, but here you get this blue sky all year round. You won't get it in places like Seattle which has grey heavy clouds all year round." The guy agrees with me.



I visit TZ in her room, she's younger than now, thin, wearing a beautiful dress, she's happy to see me and she gives me a long warm hug. She's having a big party in here room there are lots of kids there, everyone's having a good time, she seems really happy. TZ hands me her dress/underwear at some point and I'm reluctant to take it, she's still fully dressed.

Standing in that outdoor neighborhood area with a group of people talking about the two album women, someone says they're (the women) immensely fat. I/we peek over a fence and see the women for a quick glimpse sitting down right on the other side of the fence. I imagine one of the two women is evil because there's a cloud/vapor covering her face when I see it.

pre-bedtime: Sensei's combo breaker meditation

23:52 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-06-18

04:52

+ driving on wide empty tree lined streets, seems like a tech company area, turn left at a corner, pass through some stoplights, turn into a parking garage to the left, enter to a restaurant, (inaudible, something about taking people back to there cars, "fully set command"?)

06:54

+ scenes in a fancy restaurant:

sitting on the floor in the restaurant thinking my shirt is ugly/dirty/not fancy enough, I changed into another shirt

see my old house on TV in the background of some news story, I say to my dad, "Look! There's my old house!" dad says no it's not, I look again and see the house is different: decrepit with big holes in the walls.

Sitting at a table middle-aged attractive woman (family friend) is right across from me, then I'm alone at the table with her. She says she has her own business, I look at something written on a piece of paper, and she has a chess set in her office with an ongoing game on it but none of her colleagues make moves. I say "I love to play chess". I start thinking about chess and visualizing a chess board from the side, and how chess is a battle game with not set pattern, it's an open-ended game where you continue on playing until one side checkmates the other side's king. I'm sort of flirting with this woman, we're not alone at the table but right now there is nobody else around so I'm taking this opportunity to flirt with her and maybe arrange a tryst. Then I see my mother sitting a few tables away and I tell her "why are you sitting so far away, come join us" , then I see my cousin GL across the table to my left of the chess woman, GL look bad/tired, she is blinking her eyes which look red and swollen, "oh I feel so tired" she says, I think about all the medications she could be taking. She was saying how she had to leave her daughter K's dinner party "and it's just not a party without me" she said seriously.

Now there's a man sitting across from me. I look down at my shirt and it's a dirty dark maroon t-shirt, I feel ashamed of this dirty shirt in this fine restaurant, I feel really embarrassed. I look down again and see a much more respectable striped golf shirt (I have this shirt IWL), I say how relieved I am not to be wearing that grubby shirt I saw before, and I tell the man across from me how relieved I am not to be wearing that dirty T-shirt. The man across from me is now wearing the T-shirt I was ashamed of except it wasn't dirty. I describe the shirt by saying "it looked just like the one you're wearing," then he starts to take offense, and I try to clarify that my shirt was dirty and his is not.

Leaving the restaurant in a coat check area, 2 small cute girls are smiling at me and talking to me, they ask me "why do you wear a hat?" I answer "because it makes you look taller." They ask me "Why do you wear shoes??" I answer "Because hey protect your feet." I wanted to take their picture but thought their parents wouldn't approve, the girls followed me on my way out of the restaurant and kept waving and smiling at me for a while.

On the way out, my group is meeting with some asian family, one of my party hugs the man, I shake his hand, unsure about hugging him, he reaches out his hand again as he starts to walk by (not offering a hug), and I half-grasp it quickly and awkwardly as I turn to go.

There are now 3 guys sitting behind the bar, they have a tech software start up. They say their work is "in the cloud" and they can build it every night. They say they have set their schedules really tightly and have planned it out far in advance One guy is working at a computer, a few more guys are leaning back on stools against the bar behind them and look really tired, like they've been working a long time. I feel some compassion and say "I know how you feel, buddy."

A platinum-haired woman with a black eye (like she was hit) approaches and speaks with the bar-tender. The bar is really messy full of little bits of trash. She says she had gone out with somebody, and it was surprising because he gave her a black eye.

+ Then the scene transitions and the platinum-haired woman with a black eye is now a gay man (GM1) at home, I'm DO, he's invited another gay man (GM2) to his place for a blind date. GM2 is tall, thin, very light blonde, pale, albino looking, fine/sharp features like an elf, bright eyes. GM1 is playing his favorite music and is carefully observing GM2 for his reaction to this music, and watches GM2's facial expressions. They walk around, go to GM1's bedroom, in his closet, GM1 says "if you want to f%^& me tonight you'd better do better than you are right now." When he says that his face is half visible looking out from behind some clothing hanging in the closet, one bright blue eye. GM2 says he had no intentions of that. They go on for a while about what sort of relationship they want. GM1 has lots of little things spread out on a table, knick-knacks, including something from his dad which is precious to him, he moves it to a lower shelf.

Get up to record this in the bathroom to avoid bothering wife. Try to get back to sleep, and almost on several occasions get back to sleep. Several times saw dreamlets for that vanished as I "looked at" them. Lost consciousness several times but each time movement or snoring from wife woke me back up so just got up for the day. Having a bed partner really sucks for dreaming.