non-lucid

Pretty crappy recall night. Late to-bed probably the reason. Also did Nailler's pre-bed PM routine again. Coincedence?

00:00 Friday 2014-04-18

01:15 bedtime. Wow terrible super late

+ I'm buying a bunch of little cheap things (stamps? coins?) and my dad says the bank called him to verify these transactions

+ I create an eye splice in a piece of rope (?) and my wife re-does it?

+ I'm playing with a suction cup wheel (more of a cylinder, very wide) trying to get it to walk down a glass wall, it doesn't stick at first then it starts working

08:20 get up

23:30 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-16

I tried RILD (rhythmic WILD) with swimming motion a few times through the night but either I'm not tired enough or don't do it long enough, or too many distractions so it doesn't seem to work. Set alarms for every hour starting from 04:00, I notice two of them, turn them off entirely at 06:00 since I'm feeling really tired and not well rested. Alarm includes a buzz which with the phone under my pillow is quite jarring. I don't like alarms! Have to get intention to wake up working again.

Very low awareness with the exception of the mask/mirror/kitchen scene where I feel like "me" but with no memory at all.

06:01

(dreamtime around 01:30)

+ in hotel/motel with wife, she says let's go home for two days, I wonder about keeping our reservation while we're away. Pulling out onto the road in the car (I'm driving), there's a sign across the street about it being disallowed to pick the flowers.

(dreamtime not sure? 03:00 - 04:00?)

+ break up a fight between kids, outdoors suburban environment lots of trees around. One kid is sitting down with his back against (a tree/wall). It is the young face of a boy scout from my old troop. I study his face, I see it entirely very very clearly. He is wrinkling his face up a bit then stops. Thinking about (someone says?) how faces change during adolescence, he has that funny "adolescent" nose, somewhat out of scale with his face. I focus closely on his face skin, it becomes textured and crusty like tree bark, I see the crust fairly closely, including the edge of the crust, like it's a layer on top of his normal face.

Inside the house there are groups of kids we're detaining for some reason.

I get into a shower with one athletic shoe on (right foot) to wash it. I have clothes on, I notice my t-shirt The shoe is very uncomfortable once it's wet, I'm looking at that wet shoe on my foot and flexing my foot/toes within the wet shoe.

Outside in the garden we're talking about the car -- should it go for maintenance service to the shop or should we try to fix it ourselves?

+ playing basketball with black kids on a professional / college court in a stadium

+ Outdoors/daytime/tree-lined city streets. I have my dog (as a puppy) in my hands and I put him in a basket in my "car" (which is like a child's wagon or toy pedal car) to take him home. Across the street to the left I see a small young girl alone/crying walking on the sidewalk like she's lost. I get out of the car and go to her, I pick her up and walk back along the sidewalk, find her mother, give the child to her, the child is like a doll, and seems to be made from two slices of steak.

I return to my car, and my dog is gone. I look through the basket I put him in several times and confirm he's gone. I walk through the neighborhood looking for him I see lots of other dogs. Look for dog in apartment complex on hill, find girl in apartment with her dog, girl and I connect? I get the idea she will not commit.

+ I'm holding a large complex tall rubber mask. There are fitted eye slits in the mask, I pull off the covers of the eye slits they're covered by a thin filmy squishy sort of wet gel, I put down the wrinkled gel covers on the counter and look at them for a while. I put the mask on my face and look in the mirror. I adjust the mask so my eyes show out through the eye slits, it looks fairly creepy with my "staring" eyes looking out of the mask. There is a tall green rubber part of the mask that must be put on over your head. My dad didn't want to put on the mask.

I'm standing behind parent's stove (not possible as in WL it's against the wall), my mom wants me to cook the french fries I'm very confused about what she wants me to do, I see little bins of spices and ingredients right under my face next to me on the back of the stove, I see strange shaped and sized cooking pans and a container of about 20 french fries, doesn't seem like there's much to cook.

+ in car with folks in downtown B near U I drive off the curve onto the street but the car does not bounce too strongly, I miss the last right turn and the remaining streets are all left one way only so I'm going to have to go way around the blocks to the left to get where we need to go

+ fight against transformers (low quality cartoon visual of opponent robots), my team wants to run when they see them, I am confident and run into battle, I jab a power staff into the ground strongly and this blasts all the enemies. I enter a room right there through a glass wall, I know the pillow cat we're looking for is there, I ignore it, the people are abstract and made out of inflatable pillow/cushions on a bed, I grab a "girl" being, turn her over, and run my tongue in a circle around where it's "mouth" should be, and around its "girl parts."

23:12 bedtime

00:00 Tuesday 2014-04-15

07:45

+ superhero flying/gliding/"spider" man. Flying/gliding down from parent's house. Some awesome high speed flying as approaching the city below, flying right through power lines I think I might hit some but know I'll make it through, land and ask about finding some place, there's a field of sand down the road.

Back at the house we're preparing the spider. My "power" is holding a very poisonous big (about the size of a fist) spider in a bag with me. I'm teaching my apprentice how to catch/lead the spider from their lair (in a bottle?) into the bag, leading it with some lure. The spider jumps on my right shoulder/face I feel it's claws digging in, I say get it in the bag! The apprentice grabs it using the bag and then squeezes/squishes the bag hard I say "No, you've killed it!" and the spider poison leaks out onto the ground forming a black pool.

Our cat comes up and starts licking/drinking the poison. I say "you've killed our cat!" the cat starts going into noisy convulsions and dying, it does this for a while, I say "well call the <emergency?> and find out how to ease its suffering."

I'm shaking the big sack/bag because I think the spider is just inside at the top, I keep shaking it and looking to see if I shook it down to the bottom, I'm doing this for a while until I realize it must have gotten out of the bag. I see it scurrying away on the floor and hiding underneath furniture, etc, I'm going after it pulling the house items out of the way to expose it and trying to catch it.

I'm outside on the deck talking with a woman discussing flying strategy/plans what's the best route to take to fly down to the city.

+ See friend DD I'm very happy to see him, he sort of drifts away, he smiles I see his teeth, they're distorted and long with brown roots like horse teeth, I think "he's gone long in the tooth," I see TZ with a distorted weird head on a tiny body.

+ MS from work, we're in car, all of a sudden in a casino, I hear the "ching ching ching ching ching!" of a slot machine, he's asking me what game is best to make his money last the longest, I'm trying to clarify what his gaming goals are.

+ wine bottles in restaurant/winery, I'm talking to representative there, they already have an exclusive bottling deal, I say how about I buy barrels of wine from them and bottle it myself, I see, touch, hold, look at bottles of wine from the shelf of the place, reading the labels, some dry red, some dessert red, imaginary grape names? I think a bottle may hold white wine but it turns out is also red.

+ sailing, see mansion garden in the distance with two sailboats, each circling around in their own pond, one (both?) have red sails. I'm talking about sailing with someone, trying to get another person interested in sailing, I say just take them out and get the experience of running into the wind, it's very exciting, I imagine it, then "hoisting the main jib?" (was thinking of spinnaker but not all ships have those) and just relaxing and going with the wind (and eating a sandwich?).

+ falling asleep in morning: thinking about levels of chess ability, see hillside of mixed green and brown grasses, something about needing to get/see the green grass.

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-10 (#2) (not sure of the first one dated the same day these records seem to be the correct one for this date)

07:55

+ cat inspection: parent's house standing at sliding glass door looking out onto deck. 1 cat is there on deck, second cat comes around. Either I or 1st cat ask the 2nd cat to lift up its arms so we can inspect it the 2nd one refuses it thinks that is demeaning, we see curly fur on the belly of the 2nd cat.

+ music famous musical guy off parent's deck looking down at the fruit tree there's a procession around the tree, people carrying laundry detergent. Famous old black jazz musician is down there too, I have a plastic greenish clear cup, I'm trying to get the musician's attention, I have a question about music

+ TZ is playing a musical conclusion, she's playing arpeggios on the piano, C major then a B, she's complaining that of course she made a mistake.

+ In parent's kitchen, I'm concerned about some guys, I'm looking for special water, I pull a bottle down from the spice cabinet and pour myself a glass.

+ maps, flyover map

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-10

00:27 bedtime

09:20 out of bed

+ swimming in the foggy ocean with John Kerry and friends JT and DT -- John Kerry makes a daring head-first dive into the water missing a (barely) submerged boulder by inches. I'm changing into my swimsuit but don't want DT to see me, I tell her to look away for 5 seconds, I'm pulling up my suit counting to 5 but it gets caught on my feet and I tell DT not to look. I was trying to find a place to change but the shallow water (amongst boulders) was full of crayfish/lobsters.

+ in Church with JT and DT. There is a counter in the middle of the room with tall stools around it as I approach people fill the stools I'm looking for a place to sit. There is singing that is like but unlike what I know, I hear it and sing along with the familiar parts. I talk to the pastor and explain my different behavior because I'm part of another church. Lots of people/families are there

+ walking outside in nature with DT, looking at leaves on the trees.

+ playing video game asteroids-like, I see my ship and the controls I don't have perfect control but do a decent job. The screen fills my vision. The upper half of the screen are a couple of giant unmoving asteroids, the bottom half has my ship maneuvering around to avoid the moving smaller asteroids I think I should shoot some of them.

+ playing 3-d pacman style game, I fly in 3d as DO following game ship, it becomes lifelike 3d scene, I'm doing pretty well

+ wife & kids come home, report car accident nearby, I see car accident in the distance, flying colored sparks, I also see hills in the distance which seem to be lit a bit by the light of the accident area, it's dark/night outside.

+ pull large leafed herbs from inside car and will prepare a soothing tea using a french press after washing them. I wasn't sure at first how to get the leaves to my kitchen. I'm standing outside the front passenger window of the car.

+ observe daylight results of deadly car accident, bodies lying on the street, standing on the crowded sidewalk a tobacco chewer talks to my kids, I get in his face and chase him away by threatening to call the nearby police who will find his illegal chewing tobacco and get him for offering it to children, I think I'm quite a good man for standing up to this guy.

+ parking a car in a self-serve parking garage where you push your car manually on to a lift/elevator and then push it into its assigned stall, can't find my stall, lots of people there in cafes. People are thinking that "aw man that guy put his car in front of mine". I think my stall is number 21 (?), and I keep walking back and forth looking for it but can't find it, there are a lot of cars and motorcycles behind the glass walled little cubbies/stalls for the cars.

+ going out with family from room to swimming pool area with lifeguard there (black female?) we're looking our door with a stange key / lock with shaped hollow regions, we lock the door then I want to check that the key will open it again, there were lots of people around, my vision zooms to the key and the lock.

Slept fairly deeply, don't recall any significant wakings. Also had 2 hour nap from 14:30 until 16:44, not recall

@ My (country) lucid hideout

01:30 Bedtime. Was (re)watching Firefly, cand ouldn't help "just one more episode...just one more...". Room temp: +21C

08:00

(definitely some from earlier wakings)

+ helping police catch crazy redneck drivers who are speeding

+ at work I finally figure out the strange little device in the kitchen is a refrigerator for personalized water cups and that the group assistant had prepared my personal water cup with my name on it loooong ago, I feel foolish that I'm only now figuring this out. The device holds the cups, about 4-5 in a row, on a slightly inclined shelf.

+ go into a meeting room with a bunch of coworkers where a guy is the keeper of the cupcakes, they're everywhere, some are tall and irregular looking like dripped sand castles, a guy says he's working on the last generation of product that we'll have to support for 3 years but will make the company a lot of money, I agree with him on this. Walking by my cube on the way to the meeting I think I see a large strange sign over my cube.

+ some indoor space there's an irregular hole in the foundation, I see another one further on, some guy asks me what kind of animals(s) make that whole (he knows), I don't know he tells me it's two animals (I forgot them) then I see a 1/2 meter diameter tortoise it's on my leg I kick at it I'm so sorry I didn't want to hurt it then it lunges at another guy's leg and he kicks it away, too.

+ I'm walking outside in bright daylight, walk by a van, I'm on some empty street , blue sky, green grass, bright daylight, I'm thinking this would be a good place to live with this much sunlight but it might not be good for my skin.

+ I see my face as if looking in a mirror (but I don't have the sense of looking in a mirror), I'm about half my age and clean-shaved, I say to my wife "oh I must have shaved without knowing it" (I had no memory of shaving), I'm amazed at how young and bright I look after shaving, I see myself very very clearly, I think I don't see any jowls like my wife says I would have if I shaved.

+ At MR's restaurant he's preparing me a margarita, I'm going to have chips with guacamole I realize later I never ate it, at the time Im not sure if I can pay for it

+ sitting at a table with other people I look at one woman and realize she's former colleague Pa Wo and her husband, I say to her "I didn't realize it was you!"

+ on a phone call with the orchestra conductor, he wants to go over the music with me, I'm singing my instrument's part. I see the notes, read the rhythms, and hear myself singing and making harmony. Later on I realize I'm not on the phone with the conductor any more but I don't recall hanging up, I think he's probably pretty angry about that. When singing I'm thinking about B-flats.

+ Before rehersal I see my instrument disassembled into many parts I'm gathering them up to get ready

+ Pull a huuuuuge book: tall, wide, think, from a bookshelf, the title is "Dogs of War: Dachshunds" written by the Nazi party. I'm looking through the book which my sons, it looks like a giant Yellow Pages directory with nothing but advertisements in it, I wonder where all the articles were and if Nazis read all of these ads.

Room temp morning: +17C

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-03

00:30 bedtime, bad, let family skype call go late and interefere with bedtime

Felt very alert, wife to bed at same time, started snoring a bit, felt alert, took 1mg melatonin, fell asleep

04:59

+ climb in the pipe where the monsters are. Lions were not hungry? Night time, dark outside, there is a large long rusty pipe (big enough for people to crouch down in) I'm thinking about finding the entrance to it, it's farther on, I know there are monsters in the pipe. Encounter several lions farther on, they don't attack, they're walking around regally emerging from their stalls.

+ I'm outside and see a large branch/log I think of breaking it off and using it. On a path outdoors in daylight

+ Kind of lucid moment last night, not really worth counting perhaps, at some strange moment where I was looking at some device that had broken open and a voice/being was telling me that our entire purpose of being was now ruined. Then my older son leans his head into the room and asks me what I'm doing. I think this is just like a FA I had the other day where my son leans his head into the room after I know he'd left for an overnight trip, think I may be dreaming and do a nose pinch and it indicates dream but the feeling is weird, like I'm already half awake, I'm hovering between sleep and dream and trying to do another nose pinch with dream hands and think if I get back to sleep I'll lucid dream.

+ grocery store. Starting at the check out, something's not right at the check out stand, I'm wondering where my dental bridge is. Further into the store I see a men's shirt department, the shirts are striped boldly, mostly blue white and purple, there are other men in there also looking at the shirts, I notice an open shirt I think I see the size is "48". I'm not sure that will fit me.

+ (lucid maybe?) I'm contemplating a broken strange glowing device, a voice says this ruins our reason for existence. My older son leans his face into the room and asks me what I'm doing. I think this is strange and seems familiar to the FA I had last week with him doing the same thing, I think I may be dreaming, do a noise pinch it seems to indicate dream, I'm fading between dream and waking, thinking if I get back to sleep I'll be in a lucid dream.

07:46 alarm

+ returning to grocery store (where I was in earlier dream I think) with wife. I've recently discovered this store in a mall. I say "it's like Whole Food Store," we're approaching the store from outside, there are displays outside the front door under a roof. Through the glass wall (dreamsign) I see the inside of the store with lots of large flower displays. We enter the store, I'm carrying a tray with the remains of some lunch on it, there are glass plates and a crystal bud vase, I don't want to just toss the tray down and break things, I'm asking store workers where I should put it, one guy is standing next to a bowl full of a tasty looking salad I realize I still have some of this salad on my plate I should finish it, can't find where to put my tray down. Lot of people in the store.

+ At the top of a tall waterslide, I'm standing up there a long time, I start going down and they turn off the water when I'm part way down so I don't slide very easily. I think they didn't know I was up there and they must turn off the water if nobody uses the slide for a while to save energy. I make a connection with another slide that involves sort of jumping from one slide to another slide tube that runs just below it at a right angle, I hold on and make the transition successfully and reach the bottom. Emerging from the slide some DC makes a comment on something I did wrong on the slide, I say "what? " he walks away, I'm angry at him. Walking back across the slide exit and farther along there is a billboard? And an access panel where one must enter an access code, I see English letters and am surprised a bit by this, I see them clearly, the letters "r", "e", and "n", they're serifs are highly stylised/fancy. I think you have to type "render."

+ I'm looking at a form, either electronic or paper bill where Mastercard is offering your credit, I'm trying to clearly see that part, the words are written all on top of each other and hard to read, I know there's an offer for a Mastercard in there and I want to find it I think of doing a search on the page to find the link.

+ I'm trying to use a paper (electronic?) catalog and I'm pressing on parts of the page expecting it to react like a web page. I'm interesting in how the electronics know where you're pressing on the page.

+ Outside the store there's a large truck that pulls up, I'm sitting down my wife approaches and starts talking about our family finances, I say "shhhhh! People could be on the other side of that truck listening to us" i keep motioning for her to come closer and closer so she doesn't need to shout there may be somebody we know on the other side of the truck. She tells me I must go myself to the judge to explain our situation with the credit cards, I ask what time, she says 7:30pm. She's telling me I must plea guilty before I can offer explanation. I have to say "I didn't know I was going over the limit," make myself sound like an idiot I don't want to, I'm trying to think about what exactly happened with the credit cards, how I was using one card to pay off another and that's not allowed, I wonder how we got so deeply in debt, we had to pay the rent, I talk about this with my wife we discuss how we were kicked out of our rental on M lane by the owners right when our second child was born, my wife said that happened on "March 6th". I'm not looking forward to see the judge to make myself sound like an idiot I have no idea how I'll get away with this.

+ Sitting at a table in a cafeteria area in the grocery store (large, open, widely spaced tables), some men sitting at the table in front of me are talking about tea. Mostly about how there is no good tea in America. I want to tell them about the little gourmet tea shops you can find in some small cities. I maybe tell them. Again I wonder where my dental bridge is I feel the gap in my teeth where it should be.

+ sitting at a table in a kitchen, wife sets the table with food, it looks like large white curds of cottage cheese, there's a funny little baby laughing on my wife's plate, I was playing with it a bit, there are some pink juices in the food and I think it's actually lamb, and I think how the food you're fed as a baby is the food you'll like later in life. I'm wondering if the food is completely cooked, I'm eating it, close up view of the food in the plate.

10:00 trying a BTB

tried breathing synchronized with heartbeat, sort of worked to get relaxed but not WILD
turned to my back eventualy side was very sore

woke on my back, first time I've slept on my back in a while.

+ testing the hearing of a little baby. I'm in a dark room lying on a bed with a small creepy faced baby. I'm lying close and have a close up of its face. It turns to face me when I make a sound, I think that it's good that it responds to sound at least it can her. I straddle it on top it's lying on its back on the bed and I zoom my face from left to right to left and its head turns to follow me and the sound and it laughs at this fast movement. I think of trying something else with the baby but my wife comes in and says that you shouldn't do that with a baby.

+ close up of a guitar fret, I'm playing an awesome tune with hammer-ons, pull-offs, bends, glissandos, I hear the music it sounds really good I see my fingers on the strings.

+ leaving a restaurant with a group of people including a very large woman.

23:00 peppermint + some weird new herbal tea. Supposed to be good for the heart. Hah wired me awake with heart-pounding-strain instead I think. Or all the dark chocolate before bed perhaps.

23:52 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-02

Takes a while to get to sleep, 45 minutes at least.

01:15 wife shocks me awake coming late to bed. She gets mad that I'm mad that she woke me up. Her getting mad makes me mad and I don't sleep for 2-3 more hours while she snores away.

02:55 still awake up to kitchen for milk, shaking my head at the night's scenario

03? on the computer. Wife wakes for bathroom and asks me to get up at 07:30 for breakfast duty. I'm pissed. Go to bed and manage to sleep somehow using my relaxation technique.

07:30 alarm. I was tightly asleep.

+ vague memory of long dreams with lots of activity of lots of people in/around a house. Definitely the sense of long continuous memory of the action. High school friends? Food?

08:07 BTB
08:30? sleep

several wakings, only record at final waking

12:16

+ in ocean with wife lose sight of her I look around back to the beach and into the water again then see her big waves are coming I see her in the water we're close to the wall I go over to get her so she won't be smacked into the wall from the waves, I notice the wave has pulled back and stopped leaving the dry ground around us, I think oh that's nice that the wave has paused, we exit the surf.

+ dictators running camps for kids. Walking high on a hill overlooking the beach I notice holes in the ground with corpses of people buried vertically alive. In some cases the bloody bodies are there, in some cases not, I'm kicking the dirt in to fill up the holes. I see one hole with a torture chamber iron-maiden wire cage I see the place for the head at first I think there are spikes in there but look closer and don't see them but you can't move your head in that thing.

There's a procession walk, going up a hill, they say "follow the red point path" that's the path of our walk. In the distance I see a guy do something that the path up the hill is cleared of dirt it shoots to the left and the right of the path leaving it clean, and a red spot appears at the top. I see him do this twice.

A voice says "if anybody has kept a log of camp we'll want to review them" I think I've kept a log but I don't want them to see it. I see what I think is a large memorial stone. I take a picture of it as proof. KS walks by she was selected to be married to a camper who did a good job, I think she's a virgin as she walks by but as she returns she will already have been married.

+ in a big rich house. A bunch of workmen come into the house through a hole in the ground of a back room. They're workmen for the mob. I'm annoyed by them. A bunch of mafia leaders are there and I'm complaining about the workmen they indicate that only mob members matter, they look up in the rulebooks to see if I can join it takes a large donation and I have to be sure I want to live that sort of lifestyle I'm pretty sure I do not want to so I'll just have to put up with the workmen. Later on I see a grate with screws has been placed over the hole.

There's a fight down below in the hole. I'm present with others, me and my (evil mafia monster partner?) are the only ones who make it out alive. I'm walking down a row of people the evil guys are looking for someone who made a sound to kill them, people are standing close to one another in pairs, bodies and faces pressed up agianst one another, I think I see myself 3rd person at one point. I see everybody close up.

+ in an ice cream shop. The main counter is busy I go around to the left to place my order. I place my order with the clerk for two different flavors, they don't have one of them I see "Oh this isn't Baskin Robbins?" There were super fruity flavors. I walk back around to the right main long counter. I see a pumpkin pie flavored one and indicate that for my second flavor, some DC says he knew I would chose that one and sort of snorts, I'm annoyed by his condescension. I see the clerk serving it up, there is a meter long high chocolate cake bottom to the ice cream that gets served out of a long tube and the whole thing becomes compacted down to fit into your cup. I think they bake the cakes especially this way so that they can be compacted. The clerk spills a part of my cake on the counter and scoops it up and back in to my serving I think that's gross because people's fingers are all over the edge of the counter, it's going to be full of germs, but I don't say anything.

(IWL I got lunch at a place where they put the trays of orders being prepared right out on the sales counter right directly where people stand and can breath/sneeze into the food. I saw a very colorful donut/coffee place after lunch).

00:00 Monday 2014-03-31

00:30 bedtime a bit late

06:30

only vague impressions of dreaming about dreaming, not even a fragment, disappointed in this.

07:30

Well, I got back to sleep pretty quickly, yay

+ running down a hill (Cn. Blvd.) it is a dirt road. Wife as narrator says "the people here are only here for exercise" (I think as opposed to a spiritual purpose), I'm running fast, I pass a group of several men, I'm going high speed, I think they're chasing me, I skid around the big corner and almost fly off but keep to the road. I want to look behind me but don't because I'm going so fast I can't risk a look. Later I sneak up on the group with their leader, think about taking him out with super powers, maybe flying away

+ in a rest stop, trying to get a bottle of water from a little closet area lots of other people, I say "I'm just trying to get my bottle of water" so is everybody else. There are lots of people reaching, I see lots of bottles, I look for the one with my initials on it, I think I find it but I'm not sure. I see the letters but they're not 100% clear. Then there are two ice machines. I'm getting ice and water in my cup, they're up above my head.

I'm returning to sit at a table with some teen boys, I hear a comment they make as I'm approaching the table and they comment on it, saying I have super hearing, I say that's every parent's job.

+ Standing in line with family, next to some woman. My fingers keep getting entangled in her hair, over and over again. I'm apologetic. We're bumping up against each other. I don't engage since my wife is right there. The woman gives up and lies down next to her friends and says something about "missed opportunities."

+ FAs in room. First FA there's a woman there and lots and lots of garbage that needs to be cleaned up. Sleep again, FA and the room is clean, I'm glad I slept again as I didn't have to do the cleaning. Black guy is there I feel warmth and friendship with him, I reach to shake hands it turns into a hand-clasp, and we hold it for a long time, should I bring him in for a hug? I think we do.

Try to get back to sleep, distracted by noise, light, movements, daydreaming. Gathered my will and relaxed, got some images, alllllllllmost made it back to sleep, dozed lightly perhaps, but no dreams, checked time, 09:30, time to get up.

9 days dry now. Need to somehow change attitude.

+ Richard Dreyfus is in the family and I'm proud of this. He's sitting at a table in front of us just chilling. With a couple days of stubble on his face. My immediate family members are in the other room swearing up a storm. My sister and bro-in-law also know famous people, and there are others. I think of telling this to a new person in the family to impress them.

+ Swimming in a pool PACKED (body to body) with people. Clothed I think. I try to swim underneath them.

+ Swimming through the produce aisle, I wish they'd move it farther away from the sporty swimming lanes as its getting in my way. A clerk mentions they could shorten the name tags of the produce (to help with making the aisle take less room!?)

+ At my grandparent's house. Snowy outside. Little relative girl running naked into traffic, just walking right in the road amongst the cars. I go save her. I can't remember her name at first, then remembered it. Some tween-aged kids make fun of me on the sidewalk on the way back to the house.

+ My old (deceased) dog running into traffic, I pick him up, some woman pushes him out of the way farther away from me and I'm annoyed by this since I have to reach farther to pick him up.

+ Shopping for gymnast tights in downtown B. The gymnasts are there, I should see what they're wearing so I can buy the right size and then donate the tights to the team (just remembered this one spontaneously, forgot this previously).

+ In a gas station riding on a motorcycle with a faulty clutch cable (it's sticking on something I can't pull it all the way in). I pull the clutch cable hard to "fix" it and immediately think this is a bad idea. I test it to make sure it still works and does. I wonder if I should go pick up the thing I need to pick up on the motorcycle or with the car.

+ I'm a double agent for Her Majesty. We're standing near the corner of a large outdoor fenced field, I approach her and see around the corner there's a guy hiding from her. I tell her to get down so she's not seen, also wanted to protect the identity of the hiding guy. I say to her any time you need my services, just call me and I will come.

+ I see a tall skinny apartment building is on fire, initially through the reflection of another building. I have my backpack on. I walk resolutely to the building a bit nervous but knowing I must help. I'll try to catch someone who jumps, I decide. A guy pushes me aside with some comment like that's a stupid thing to do. A woman mentions I'll probably break (my legs?) I see children being dropped out of windows but sort of slowly rolling down the surface of the building from ledge to ledge. Fire department shows up.

+ Two kids are playing legos, one is my kid. The other one has never played with them before and is an obese dark-skinned (boy?) I see his fat little boy boobs "cleavage" down the top of his shirt. They say there are no instructions, I hold the instruction books and I hold the books in my hands and say yes, here they are. There is a big dark-skinned mother there, too.

+ Lord of the Rings. Some small group going to a fight, we get separated and scared by something. I think that the first keepers of the ring were the good elves of darkness by the warrior queen who was the last of her kind.

+ Sitting inside at a table, eating a desert?

+ FA in real room? Saw my son come into my room, who had (IWL) left earlier in the day, back in the house, he said he wasn't going after all.

23:16 pre-bedtime
super combo breaker meditation

23:40? bedtime

00:00 Thursday 2014-03-20 competition #17 night #13

05:36

1) male/female confusion gender gangs, ladder you only move up by killing someone, fights, drug messenger they're going to use a girl, I see her standing away from the group with and adult, a kid killed another kid, I see him he's short and dark haired, I think he strangled the other kid

F1) a bunch of people went to and stole things from a house, and destroyed it, and sat around a table and celebrated.

07:00

F2) trying to get multiple gangs to work together, each gang is in a different room, they only work with family.

F3) watching a line of people at work desks passing recommendations one to the other up to the manager.everyone's trying to make theirs be the best.

F4) sitting at a table one guy puts his feet up on the table and the manager jumps up and says he doesn't like it.

F5) I'm so busy on a business trip that I didn't have any time to go and get Mexican food.

2) The key in the cork. A partner in crime is passing a key to some important thing to me. The key is hidden a cork, he hands the cork to me. I pull the cork apart to get the key, it's a small brass key, I'm not sure of what to do with this key, where's the lock I'm supposed to open? The partner is wearing a strange black rubbery outfit with lots of zippers. I'm wrapping up a bunch of locks attacked to a ribbon, and a policemen notices us.

23:56 bedtime not bad, couldn't be helped, family watching news on TV in our room

00:00 Wednesday 2014-03-19 Competition #17 night #12

07:24

1) At near-night-time in childhood neighborhood park, very dark but still can see. I'm on the middle level near the path down to the bottom level on the right. I notice a tree that I think I used to climb, it looks very old, near dead, and that's depressing. I look up and see a small group of green leaves. I go partway down the hill and look at another tree on the hillside going down to the basketball level. The ground had been built way way up and I knew the base of the tree was buried deep in the dirt. The whole scene seems a bit spooky. I'm down on the bottom level looking at the path up the other side, I catch a glimpse of someone running down the far path, I can't see the person clearly, I'm a bit concerned about encountering him. I see steam coming out of two vents in the ground, I wonder what kind of steam it is and suppose it's not healthy to breathe. Someone runs by me kicking a plastic milk jug full of some red/pink liquid, the jug scoots by me and up the hill a bit, I laugh at this. There is now a group of young punks walking towards me and going up the hill. They look at me. I go up the hill with them. One of them is throwing acorns at me which is annoying. I say "Hah, you think that hurts? I grew up in the B schools, every day I had *stones* thrown at me."

2) Dance party. Packed with young people, wife is there. Two people arrive, one is a short Asian woman who looks really strange, I think if she approaches me to dance I'll quickly go to my wife and dance with her. A staff members comes out and announces "ok you kids in the back, you can have beer but can't have harder alcohol, and you'll have to order food." I go to one of these guys and say "Hey, I wish I was in trouble for underage drinking, because that would mean" (do some math in my head), "27 years younger!"

F1) I'm playing in an orchestra on my instrument. One of the punks complains that the music is bad, I say that it's better than the pop music at that dance place which was playing for hours and hours and hours.

F2) I kick over a stool accidentally and it falls into a guy sitting at the next table, I profusely apologize, and say I didn't realize anyone was sitting there now. His friends joke about this, I say I'm not that drunk.

3) With Jr high friend DD, I was telling him "did you know I used to be with AG, and it sucks because I gained a lot of weight in December," and she broke up with me. I see myself posing in skinny jeans sticking my butt out and striking stupid magazine style poses, then I see myself heaving with a noticeable roll of fat around my middle.

We went to a place famous for its furry rats. They come up and climb all over you. One was climbing all over me, I was freaked out by this, i couldn't use my hands to brush it off of me, I said "get it the hell off of me!" My friend said "It's OK, let it crawl all over you, even your face, you have to do that." I didn't want to. There was some schematic drawing of the rats showing their long fur.

08:51

4) swimming. I'm coming from another pool walking by a larger pool and I get in because there are a lot of free lanes. As I'm getting in I start to see swimmers in each of the lanes in the pool, so I take the right-most lane by the wall. There are some people in the way, I'll just swim around them. One of them is a woman with a very large bust, I think about checking her out more closely. But it doesn't quite work, I turn around and go the other way. There's another attractive woman swimming there and I check her out as well. I think "oh man the next time I lucid dream I'm going to have a good time!" I get out of the pool, I hop out and I'm instantly on my feet, I'm amazed at how easily I got out of the pool and on to my feet.

Leaving the pool there are a bunch of people outside, there it a little girl touching pieces of styrofoam, I put one in my mouth it's already a bit wet and I think she probably put it in her mouth already. There were a bunch of little pieces of styrofoam on her shoe, I blow at them to clear them off and most fly away but not all of them.

1 hour swim, 2150 m., moderate sprint lap every 250m

23:06 bedtime

took a while to get to sleep -- deep drowsiness but some room distraction, sleep time maybe 23:30-23:45

00:00 Tuesday 2014-03-18 competition #17 night #11

04:17

1) I'm in a large open luxurious apartment with (fake?) wife, another adult woman, and a child. There are floor-to-ceiling walls and I'm positioned so that I see the full panorama outside. I see that a huge wind is starting I can see the wave of massive wind blowing trees over on their sides horizontally, I say "Get away from the windows! The trees are going to fall!" and I see huge massive trees falling towards our place. The people won't move away from the glass, I'm yelling but my voice doesn't come out well. Some other trees fall on the other side of the house behind my back and this breaks some other glass walls we have. "See!?" I say.

2) In my parent's house, my mother is showing my wife and me some cabinet. She gives us the choice to see the old one or the new one, let's see the new one. It has doors that close down to the bottom. She has two pictures of short-haired 30ish women on the bottom of the cabinets, their name's start with "K". I think my wife might be jealous that my mother has those pictures there. My mother opens a giant trunk to display a huge set of files, 2 meters by 1 meters packed with files and papers. I'm impressed at the amount of correspondence she has. My wife is talking about how she confirmed our wedding date in November (false, it was another month).

3) I am configuring a can of Coke. It has lots of electronic controls. It takes quite a while to get the can correctly configured. When I finish, I look up and see an Asian man, he's expecting me to continue. I think this is going to take a really long time if we have to configure every single can by hand.

F1) G and the cousins spending money for something

F2) the celebrity singer did not want to come

06:27

4) I'm in a small room with a window looking out over a city street. I look outside the window and there is a procession in the street. A car like a limousine is driving very very slowly from left to right. The passenger's side door is open and I see inside. There are some adults and some children there. As the car passes I see that there are bicyclists on the far side of the car to the back and riding behind the car. They are harnassed in some way to the car so that they are pushing it. I think that's a hard job probably and explains why the car is going so slowly. I look farther to the left behind the vehicle and see a topless attractive young woman on a bicycle. I look away in embarrassment at first, then I think what am I doing, take a picture at least! I think I need to find my iphone or my iPad, and run ahead of the procession and take a shot of her. As I go inside to find them I feel like get lucid or start to get lucid but the dream fades and I feel like I'm waking up...

...discontinuity...

...into bed in a very large open white room with very tall ceilings everywhere except for right over my bed which is on a raised platform. I have forgotten the previous dream scene. There is a normal height ceiling over my bed. I sense that my bed area is is on a raised platform. There are no furnishings at all. I sense that the main room is all around and below me to the right, straight ahead, and left, situated on a corner. I look up above across this opening to the wall near the far ceiling and see "windows" (flaps of wall on hinges) that can open and I think people could probably see me through those (dreamsign). I'm looking through one of them which is propped open and I see an industrial looking unfinished space with a long bright white flourescent light tubes on the ceiling of that room on the other side of the wall. I hear what sounds like a circular saw and I suppose they're doing construction to build that space, maybe they're building a restaurant there, but if they do then there will be a lot of people there and they could see me. The vision into the other room with the flourescent lights is extremely clear and bright.

23:15 bedtime, yay!

00:00 Wednesday 2014-03-12 Competition #17 night #5

02:35

F1) The Flintstones in a park

1) going through an entrance with S2, he takes his shirt off, I make a remark about this. We enter long hallways, we start playing hockey on the super slippery floors with a puck of some sort. We're running down the hallways and richocheting the puck off the walls to each other. Someone scoops it up (it has become a vinyl record in a paper jacket) and drops it back down to the floor.

F2) a teacher summons a shuttle

05:35

2) Horses on a hill in the distance, "Hey look at the horses let's go watch them," they move away. There are some closer horses by a fence, coming closer, suddenly a man turns around next to the horse and looks at me. He is dark/middle-eastern looking. He starts talking about a strange cow/horse thing on our left, it is a bizarre looking beast.

3) I'm bicycling with a group of friends including CL. CL is riding a bike that has a large console on it like a big motorcycle. I'm looking at the handlebars of the bikes the others are riding, I'm trying to determine if they're the old curly-style of road bikes, or the straight out style of mountain bikes, it looks curly-style at first but then resolves as straight. One rider is saying he gear broke and it took hours to fix. Another is saying that his gear broke and after replacing it the chain/deraileur in the front is a few millimeters unaligned so he is always having to fiddle with the gear shift lever to stop it from clicking, I see him fiddle with it. We jump out bikes up to the roof of cars and then back down.

4) sitting high on a shelf in the corner of a tall/huge room, the strange cow / horse thing from #2 is there rolling on the ground, I watch as its head moves between the border of the light and the darkness, I think it will sooon see me and I don't want it to.

5) Happy Birthday, G! I'm in G's house for his birthday. There are two women there, one lying in bed and one standing up. I decide to check out the woman in bed, she's very old and wearing lots of make-up, I think "ew." A bunch of people have gathered together to wish G happy birthday. A woman is pouring a drink I think is for me but G swoops in and takes it, it's a large drink I end up with a small one. I start to make a toast, I'm trying to find the words to praise G, I start the toast praising G, just then a bunch more people arrive I can see them approaching the house from outside, I decide to wait for them to enter before continuing.

6) Standing outdoors outside a restaurant, I'm waiting for people. I go check the internet router which is lying outside around a building, I think the people I'm waiting for may be using it. I think about returning to where I was waiting and go to Jack in the Box and get some Monster Tacos.

F3) showing my wife something on the computer

F4) some weird things on the ground near my car

06:00 - 07:42

Thinking about the dreams, thinking about work. Eventually decide to sleep more and finally eventually fall asleep again.

Took a long time. Probably slept at 08:00

09:18

7) Nighttime at old neighborhood partk, I'm on the middle level, I'm with a car and a bicycle. The lower basketball level I can see is packed with cars as if it were a parking lot, I see a black guy slinking and jumping between the cars, I figure he's trying to steal the cars or the stereos. He's really hipping and hopping and zipping around quickly darting between the cars very suspiciously. Then a second guy shows up with him, I think "OK it's time to get out of here," I move to put my bike quickly in the back of the hatch-back car, I try to close the door of the hatchback but the bike's in the way, I try slam slam slam harder and harder to close it but it won't latch. Then the two guys are on my level and approaching me. I get the back door to latch finally and I quickly get in the drivers seat and turn on the car. One guy is coming to talk to me by the driver's window, I know this is a technique to distract me while the second guy will go around the other side and try to carjack me. I pretend to give him my attention and behave like I'm distracted but I'm really getting the car ready to go. Then I slam on the gas and pop the clutch, the takes a while to get going, like the clutch is really soft, but I get going eventually.

8) driving down a steep hill with my (deceased WL) aunt. I'm the driver she's in the front passenger seat, her window is open, we're driving by houses on the right, she tries to grab something from a pile of papers on some guy's mailbox as we pass by. We have to go back, she needs to do something with this paper, I stop the car and put it into reverse and try to go back up. The car is very weak or the clutch is very soft, it doens't engage well, the engine is really revving but we're moving in reverse very slowly. I hear a horn honking and look left/forwrads and see that there's a long line of traffic heading downhill in our lane, I must have caused a traffic jam with this maneuver. I coordinated the foot brake, the hand brake, the gas and the clutch to get going in reverse back up the hill. We make it back to the house.

Inside this guy's house, he's ordered something and it has arrived and I see the packing containers, he's in the bathroom washing it. I don't want to meet him so I move forwards and descend a stairway to an office area. I meet his wife and talk about something here. I then have a view of this office area from a higher floor looking through blinds, it's night and I see the lights in that room contrasted against the darkness outside and I know that's where I was earlier talking to that woman.

There's a guy talking to the landlord of this house and he's asking about keys. I know I have the keys.

I'm working with some guys in this house on a device that can control the minds of people over the phone. I'm the technical lead behing this project and I'm proud that everyone knows this, I'm adjusting and connecting wires, connecting the devicer to a phone system. I see the two wires connecting into the box. I joke about calling people and telling them to "send all your money to <my name>." I give a test call to a friend, he says it sounded very automated, I listen to a message from the system and it does indeed sound like computerized text-to-speech, and the words become garbled and incoherent and lost most of the words and you couldn't make sense of what it was saying.

9) I'm watching some adult VHS tape, I'm interrupted, I return to find a tape sitting on the table partially deconstructed / disassembled into pieces, there are two guys, JB and someone else, I suspect they know what's on the tape and they sabotaged it. I'm trying to put the tape back together, I pull a long stream of the tape out of the taple player and try to manually wind it back up but I don't think this is going to work because it's badly twisted. I'm conversing with these guys, the topic moves to transferring media from one place to another, they don't believe I can do it, I say I can so, I give a detailed account of "hooking wires to the video player, through the video converter, and then to the DVD burner," I say this a few times.

10) I'm looking at a blank greeting card together with my mother, in their living room, it is dark. It says on one page "Diablo," a there's a picture of a little guy with horns and cloven hooves, I'm puzzled but this, on another page of the card there's a large artistic white/grey picture close up of the devil's head (with "devil" written over it?) sporting an evil grin, I think this is a VERY questionable card to be sending someone, I say to her , "you can't send this card!" and my mother answers, "Oh, I'm going to send it anyway!!" My father is bringing in large pieces of glass and white plastic/metal lawn/deck furniture into the living room, he had just washed it, and he's going to build a display case out ot it.

09:28 up out of bed

23:15 ? bedtime, yay!

00:00 Tuesday 2014-03-11 Competition #17 night #4

04:07

1) On the ground floor of a huge multi-story movie theater. It's closed. The staircase is to the left I think about sneaking up and having a look around, it's a big theater and I've always wanted to see what it looks like. I go to the right into the staff bathroom instead. It's a good thing I'm in the staff bathroom club because the regular bathrooms are closed. I'm carrying a plastic cup with a toothbrush in it. There are young people in there, joking around, sloshing things into other people's cups. People are carrying tall cups with toothbrushes in them. Someone is saying he was pranked and someone put shoelaces in his ??.

2) 50 year old friend CL and his son. CL is shirtless and buff, his son looks like him but smaller, CL is on left, son on right, we're going up stairs, we're going to see if the elevator is working but a gong sounds and that means it's time for a prayer, someone doesn't want to to it, I don't know the words but I'm singing along. The view has changed to outside bright daylight, and after singing the prayer the Mother of God says "the Father has no Father because he's the Father."

3) With some guys in a car I'm giving directions. I'm saying "go to the left, then the right." a guy in the car disagrees and says "no that's the <something>" this is his hometown and his neighborhood, I tell him he probably knows the name of every stone and of every pebble, and you probably would name <some thing> the "bliggersnabble" or the "schlorbleflap", that stone over there.

We're in some guy's house, he's coming home he looks up and sees us, I pretend that I'm trying to help him get rid of something, and set the table.

F1) A guy getting out of a car, shooting something by a house, and saying "the best part of this is that you get to be with Henry."

4) in my childhood room, I'm giving a technical presentation. Someone asks me if I can give thte presentation again, I say I'll only do it if I have notes. People gather together to listen to the presentation. There are a bunch of colored pencils/crayons hanging in the air and I'm commenting on the colors, these look like new colors, there's in particular a very special blues and greens, I'm searching for the term for these colors, "they're not pastel, but they're....?" and somebody
says the (fake) name for them and I say "yeah yeah yeah that's it that's the name!"

F2) picking up a desk lamp which fell/swivelled over and putting it back up on the desk.

07:09

5) I'm arriving in a large dark hall with lots of people sititng around sparse tables, I'm there to get baptized, a big guy says that we need to bring our own firewood to heat the baptism water. He says without that the baptism won't go well. We didn't bring any firewood, I look to my wife and say what shall we do? Luckily there are some manly handymen in a shed, the shed door opens and I see stacks and stacks of firewood, we can use that. The handyman start building a sort of little bridge about 4 feet high and 4 feet long, I'm fascinated with the construction. They take several pieces of wood and start the frame, sliding it into place in a special way it is curved. They start putting on rubbery sheets and pulling them tight, pounding the structure with large mallets, pulling it tight and pounding things into place, the bridge is shaping up with a solid walkway covered in this (green?) rubber.

I'm coming out of a garage-like place and see a group of people standing just outside in the light, they're standing with a big tub of water in their hands, I know this is a "suprise baptism," I check my shirt, it's a white shirt but it has logo of some company I used to work for, I think this is an innappropriate shirt. Their first slosh misses entirely, and I walk more towards them to help them along, I'm sort of sorry for them that they're doing a bad job, the second slosh of water at me gets me wet on a corner of my shoulder, it's not very much, the 3rd slosh also misses entirely.

6) I'm arriving at a home coming up the stairs and we're opening the door, it's FF's house, I'm thinking about his nose (which is large/funny) but I don't see it directly, he's standing to my left. We enter the house and I look at my naked arms, I see the skin on them, (they don't look like my arms), F's wife says something about my skin. There's a table that a cat is jumping at and I see a little fast moving yellow blob, I look closer and I see it's a tiny birt about the size of a golfball, I urgently tell F that his bird has gotten loose, but it turns out that it's just a wind-up toy bird.

8:06 getting up for the day

11:30 - 13:00 2km swim / one hour