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Sometimes waking life just sucks. Family drama means I'm driving around late at night and don't get into bed until about 4am, f^&*ing great. Despite this I remember experiencing a lot of dreams, but most degenerated into just a couple fragments or vanished entirely. Decided just to take a "night off" -- no sleep mask, no earplugs, still slept pretty well. Having no sleep mask definitely affected recall with morning noise and bright light hitting the eyes. I wouldn't mind just running away from it all to a (silent, totally dark at night) hut (with a comfy bed) away from it all so I can get down to some serious dreaming.

+ crazy billiards: in a pool hall selecting a cue stick they're all short thin knarled warped branches, finally find a good-ish one, I think it may be too long, I chalk up the "tip" which is a large flat area like a branding iron, I'm chalking in the pattern of an "X". I line up a shot at the table, I see the stick is warped along its shaft, I rotate it until the warp is aligned with the long axis of the stick and doesn't interfere with the aim, I take the shot and it shoots straight, this is a great pool cue it turns out.

+(f) exploring some house, see laundry machines

+(f) some tense situation, look at (my detective partner?) through a strange device made from multiple lenses, can't really see clearly.

Dreams vague, hazy mostly. Most clear #1 at the conclusion (waking moment).

22:30 read self-hypnosis for lucid dreaming script

23:33 bedtime
00:00 Monday 2014-07-28 Competition #18 night #1

06:17

1) I'm driving some vehicle with others in it, there is a stand/road with people leading up a twisty narrow road that I need to go on, there's not room, the seated people lining the path all stand up (to honor a king?), I direct the vehicle and go up. At the top I start jumping through holes and moving through maze-like paths and tunnels, picking up keys and tags that are associated with people. At one point I think I've chosen "Pam"'s tag, I look at her and see her seated in an orchestra, she's a clarinet player, dark-ish skinned almost middle aged sort of skinny not really my type, I'm continuing searching and see some more tags on a sign for a (chinese restaurant?).

The guy I've been paired with asks me to take him to the DMV. I do not want to and think about blowing him off, but decide that would be rude.

I'm sitting at a long table with friends starting a party, one guy pours his homemade alcohol (I called it "airplane fuel") into my jar-cup. I'm getting drunk and commiserate my bad luck in the pairings with my friend DC:

Me: "I got paired with a guy instead of a girl."
DC: "I know."
Me: "He asked me to take him to the DMV!"
DC: "I know!"
Me: "I HAD TO WAIT THERE WHILE HE FINISHED HIS DRIVING TEST!!!"
DC: "I KNOW!"

I say the drink is not half-bad with the added flavoring. Friend-DC says "oh no that's the wrong way you have to drink it straight!" He prepares a new drink for me and plops it down in front of me. It's a massively giant clear mug the size of a beer keg, about 2-3 feet tall and 1 foot in diameter. It is full of the clear liquor and ice. I think if I drink this thing I'll surely die of alcohol poisoning. Everybody at the table is laughing and clapping. I'm staring at this massive mug and say "WTF?!" and do a nose pinch,.... but I'm already awake in bed and moving my physical body to do the nose pinch (and so can't breathe).

2) I'm on on stage at a rich kid's party (saw a rich kid's fancy party IWL at a park a few days ago), I'm carrying a present from stage right to stag e left in front of the crowd. It's just the top empty carcass of a wrapped present there is no present inside, and so I call out "false alarm, false alarm, false alarm" as I move to where the rich kid is sitting. I reach there and put down the box. The spoiled rich kid opens a present, it's a board game "The Game of Life," the kid complains that she already has this game and throws it into the air and and all the play money from the game goes flying like confetti through the air. I think about this game and how (false memory) there are all these little loop-dee-loop paths that you can get trapped on unless you make a proper roll of the dice to escape.

3) I'm at a party that's still preparing for guests. A big group of partiers arrive just as the hors d'oeuvres are brought out of the oven on baking sheets. They're mostly round dumplings, each sheet with its own color. The newcomers start gobbling down the hors d'oeuvres before they're even put onto plates, I think that's rude. I want to eat some too, but resist. I see a platter of roasted and sliced steak the middle slightly reddish/pink.

4) it's late evening twilight I"m outside in a huge garden at a friend's house (large party?) There's nobody around I'm only in my underwear, I start running trying to get to my clothing before people come out. While running I realize there's a small girl also running right beside me she's also only in her underwear, she's sort of getting in my way. Then people come out from everywhere and get in my way.

F1) I'm approaching sitting in theater seats on an incline. I sit down one seat away from the guy already there my explanation is that I want the aisle. He puts his feat down onto the open seat in front of him.

F2) In a work bar looking for ChL?

06:40 WBTB -- awake for a long time, slow getting back to sleep. Should I just get up? No, practice relaxation. I eventually sleep again. Remee goes off somewhere in here a few times? I turn it off.

10:51

5) I'm meeting with friends/acquaintences, there's a conference going on, arranging a meeting later. I or someone is folding a piece of white paper. Reading a sign posted outside about the celebration schedule, it turns out that it started a week ago but the meeting for the night is still on. We arrange to meet on this corner. I say "this is the north west corner" and I'm thinking about compass directions and how the streets are aligned with them, that's how I come up with "north west." Later I"m driving a car on my way to this meeting, I enter an intersection on a green light turning left but cars still cross left/right as if they have a green, I'm confused by this but yield to them and make the left turn, up ahead the traffic turns right it's gridlock that's where I need to go.

6) I'm kissing a pretty girl and sort of sucking on her upper lip (signature technique), I realize the girl is not really into it maybe I'm forcing myself on her, she's leading me to a meeting I realize this meeting is in a subterranean band room and they may trap me there for all eternity because there's no way for me to get out. Even though this event was staged in my honor, I'm concerned it's a trap so I do not attend. I'm talking to people on the ground outside and some cloth translucent fences appear around me, I'm not too concerned because I could always fly out if I have to.

Pretty sure there were more dream scenes during the night but forgot them.

00:45 bedtime

03:39

+ the judge on the train car is distracted by the girl walking outside, people are paying for things at their places at the cafe

+ getting into a helicopter, thinking about altitude

05:57

+ (major face palm, swore out loud at this recall) spend time with a guy working on the aurora iwinks talking about ld count, remee settings, see his circuit boards. I'm lying in a bed in a room, I'm watching the progress of a woman outside I'm watching her through curtains, maybe she'll get into the tent. I pull the curtains aside and look outside and I see a ring of people wearing white crowns in a circle it's some religious ceremony. I'm standing in a circle of people normally dressed we're doing some sort of routine/dance, going left, going right, then "bumping" together in the center.

Sitting down in a row of chairs I notice another guy sitting close by in another row perpendicular to mine -- his clothing is highly bright and patterned, and I see the words "Aurora" and "iWinks" on his clothing, like an advertisement. I'm excited to see this and talk to him, telling him "I've just had my 46th!" (meaning lucid dream, I'm sure he'll understand he must be into lucid dreaming, too). I take my remee off my head? My wife comes by and kisses me on the cheek, I give the guy the "ssssshhh!" signal so he won't tell my secret. My wife leaves playing / dancing with a young man.

I'm sitting in a dark corner talking to the Aurora guy, I'm saying I'm waiting for the iWinks because it has (and we say in unison) "REM detection." I start talking about my remee settingg. We're now lying in bed (mattress on the floor) in his apartment side by side still talking about remee, I think this is a bit strange and gay, I wonder what he thinks of it. He's now with a friend on the side of the room hunched over something working on it, I "recognize" the other guy (false memory) and think I know both these two guys. I'm talking about my remee settings and he interrupts me and says that some famous guy ("Steve"?) says that 3 hours is the best interval. He offers to program my remee there's an unknown setting he has a circuit board he designed to do it. I see the circuit board it's about 3 inches by 3 inches, I wonder if he built just one or if he bought a bunch of them in bulk. I see his remee (a portion of it) strapped to his board, I see another one and pick it up to look at the label to see if it's mine.


+ kids are sliding down a snowy hill decorated with colorful lights

+ college housemate reunion I don't know anyone think about posting my years there a former housemate disagrees with me about when I was there he's only half right I calculate the years. There are young men and young women, they don't recognize me, I look at them and seem to recognize one name. I ask if they knew NI, the physics student, a good friend of mine. I think I should post the years of my attendance on the doorway to help people place when I was in the house, I think the full 4 years of college, CL (who was a housemate) says no, I realize right only the 2nd 2 years since 1st year I was in the dorms and 2 year we all lived somewhere else, he says no and gives another date range but I know I"m right this time.

00:00 Tbursday 2014-07-03

01:48 bedtime, egads I'm out of control. Watching too much Friday Night Lights

09:39

+ playing my instrument in orchestra rehearsal, the conductor called out my group to play our part alone, I lost my best reed in a big container of them all looking the same

+ meet my former accountant (true IWL) RC on a street corner

+ I'm discussing with a guy who's digging out more room in his house, but the space goes under a city street, I ask about what would happen if a really heavy truck drives over the room on the street, I see a hole appear and dirt being shoveled out from the excavation.

+ I've been given access to a computer lab, where I'm not going to waste time, I'm going to write a family planning application, then WL friend MO is doing the same thing

+ two groups of people (2 guys, 2 girls) trying to stay anonymous realize the've recognized each other, it's embarrassing, one is named Marcy.

lost early recall, darn, it was pretty interesting:

+ swinging around athletically in some strange place with large vats with coach Eric Taylor from Friday Night Lights (one of my all-time favorite shows BTW)

later:

+ breakfast beer with ex-gf LD. I'm sitting at the dining table with LD on my left and my mom somewhere else. LD gives me a little bottle of beer as a gift. I open it and pour 3/4 of a small juice glass for me and for LD, saying I have to drive soon so don't want too much. LD says she doesn't want any because she has to drive, so I take her glass and since I don't want more either, pour the beer from her glass back into the bottle, with my fist around the opening, it's a bit of a messy job. My mom seems really critical of LD, which annoys me. I go into the kitchen and see there are lots of rotting vegetables and rice and generally nasty pile of food garbage stuck to a spot on the dishwasher, I'm picking up piles of it with my hands and also pick up a bunch of forks and knives and throw the utensils down somewhere.

+ CD is driving the wrong way, see cats/dogs, crazy mountain baseball in a large, high rocky bowl. It's night-time and I'm in the front passenger seat of a car driven by former colleague CD. We need to be heading to downtown B, we're in the hills at the top of the street that goes by LL park. He heads higher up the hills instead, I say no we should just turn around and head down, we'll be at school in just 10-15 minutes that way, he starts turning but instead heads higher into the hills, I say "ok whatever." I see 2 cats and make some cute comment about them, also about some (imaginary?) dogs. We're driving on a dirt/grass narrow road curving to the right around some big mound to the right.

Out of car it's daytime and playing baseball, the mound to the right is a high rocky bowl with tall steep rocky sides, the ball has been hit out of the field, I'm scrambling up the hill to retrieve it and throw it to my fielder waiting at the rim of the hills. I think/hear that you can get up to 12 points for hitting the ball out of the stadium, I wonder if we can catch the running on one of his 12 attempts at running around the bases. I reach the top of the hill and look down into the bowl, about 20 young men are arranged in an arc around the field. I'm holding on to a rock standing just on the outside of the bowl and a guy comes up behind me and tells me to "move my ass" so he can get it but I'm barely hanging on there's nowhere to move and I see other guys in less precarious situations and tell him "why don't you go tell one of them to move their ass."

00:00 Wednesday 2014-06-11

00:45 bedtime

08:15

+ in a space ship that is a giant squid monster with a huge red monster mouth full of massive curved sharp teeth, i see the mouth from a few different views opening and closing, a toy is offered to the monster who accepts it with a tentacle, I see a room full of young people. The monster shapes its tentacle when accepting the toy in to the shape of a person?

+ (Palpatine?) is addressing the imperial senate (he calls it the "space senate") making demands, he is attacked by a force through the communication channel and starts flowing around through channels on the ground, "help him!" I yell

+ I'm part of a kidnapping gang, I'm given the job of interviewing our victim with a tape recorder (watched "1408" in the evening IWL), I don't want to do the interview, I can't figure out where on the recorder to talk and to listen. I ask a few questions a few times and the answers don't make sense. Someone (me?) speaks to the assembled group of family members of the kidnapped victims saying that he (me?) is no longer going to be pursuing solving the case, they get angry, some guy in our gang shows up with a sword.

There's some sort of party in a multi-level restaurant, I see one gang member arrive and he comes up the stairs and it chatting with people at the tables.

+ filling a large clear bowl with water that I expect will turn dirty brown and it does, I pour it out and fill it again, I see there's a brown/bronze pattern on the plate under the bowl and wonder if this is coloring the water or if the bowl is just dirty

+ in bed touching my former girlfriend, it's dark,

Spoiler for explicit:

I'm touching her and looking at her face, she looks somewhat surprised and hesitant, I reach down to her (ahem) and feel she is sopping wet, I think oh boy she's ready let's go, but I let her go because I feel she's not into it, and she gets up and joins a crowd of people standing in line and I try to follow her progress through the line to keep her in sight

00:00 Sunday 2014-06-08

00:05 listen to the-power-of-self-hypnosis track (7th rep)

00:32 bedtime

04:48

(early morning recall, yay, finally getting some back):
+ hiking in beautiful mountains under a clear blue sky, looking into the distance and seeing tall mountains appear, walking up besides rugged mountain rivers, avoiding robocop walkers (heh). I see the clear blue sky (IWL wondered at the clear sky at bedtime last night after some rain and lots of clouds yesterday), and looking into the distance some tall craggy cliffs appear

06:37

later morning (remee went off in the middle of a dream, shocking me awake, recalled other dreams):

+ two guinea pigs fighting in a small house suspended from a tree branch outside, one falls out, I pick it up and nuzzle it, it has a baby on its head, the woman who owns the other guinea pig is annoyed at my wife, she thinks "our" guinea pig was the cause of the problem, it was night.

+ I walk into my childhood room and look around, everything seems in place (but it was off a bit), I take off my shirt and move to hang it up, then think that vultures can fly 500MPH right into you and that would really mess up your face. I look to the right as I enter the room and note that the twin bed is missing ("as it should be, we took it out" false memory), there are some things on the ground like a reading pillow with arms on it. The edge of my work desk is overhanging the head of the 2nd twin bed closer to the window, I think that's where I sleep (looks kinda small). I'm taking off my shirt and putting it on a hanger, hanging it on the shelves, facing the shelves standing close to them, that's when I think of the 500MPH vulture.

+ Wife tells me to call my sons who are at a concert, I'm driving on a road and think they've organized the concert here, the road is on a hill, I call younger son, remee hits and I'm suddenly blinded (still driving), wake up in a panic ripping the mask of my face so I can "see" again (oops). I speak to my younger son, I have him tell me his location at the concert, he is in section B-12, I write this down, then BOOM that's when remee hits.

Falling back to sleep, lots of HI, I see: people getting into a little blue car, a star-shaped leaf on my desk, and others I've forgotten

00:00 Saturday 2014-06-07

01:06 25 drops (mugwort/wormwood?) tincture. Pretty sure it's wormwood, it's very bitter

01:18 bedtime. Yeah, late, I took a night off, essentially, had fun with family, drank a beer in the evening.

08:30 ? final waking

+ in childhood neighborhood, see into neighbor's home, see AR and others, I'm pretty sure it's her, I'm outside looking in through glass walls (dream sign)

+ sneak into a home, it's night, there's a large family (8+ children) there celebrating (Christmas?), many kids and two parents. The father is operating some sort of remote controlled toy with the kids. I see bookshelves filled with many copies of games and books, because there are so many kids. There are chess sets on the shelves. The floors are steeply sloped, at least 30 degrees, practically diagonal, at one point I mention this to the parent if they knew that their floors were sloped.

The parents borrow money from me at interest to pay the cooks: they want $10,000 and they'll pay me $1,000. I have a fistful of bills in my hand and I'm trying to make sense of the interest calculation and who is going to hold the money. They need cooks because they have such a large family.

Later I go out to the detached outside garage.

+ Standing outside a building on top of a hill at night with some people. At some point I start sliding down snowy hills with a boy to avoid pursuers, we enter the teleporting fireplace network. It operates first by lifting and pushing down a large "reset" lever set in the floor, then you have to push a smaller lever on the "ceiling" of the fireplace about 10 times then it will teleport you, but either I don't operate it correctly (or the network is "busy") and the pursuers catch up to us. When we closed the door to the fireplace there was snow outside, and when the pursuers (adults) opened the door the snow was gone, I noticed this and thought that we had been in time-stop stasis for an entire season, I was trying to get the attention of the pursuer and tell this to him, that the teleport network must have been jammed.

While we're sliding down the hill I imagine we'll need to teleport to another fireplace at the top of the hill in order to continue evading the pursuers, I wonder how long we can keep this up without getting caught.

00:00 Friday 2014-06-06

00:15 bedtime

+ my wife is closing and barring a transparent-walled gate (dream sign), the number "666" arises, I say "no, no, no, that won't do" and it changes (to 665?)

+ something with a suitcase full of clothes

+ riding a helicopter from a high platform down to a conference center, I've left my shoes behind so I ride back up fast to look for them (looking for my shoes was an ongoing theme, I left my shoes IWL on the beach and waded yesterday, I kept looking back to make sure they were still there), the ride back up was really fast.

There was a long sequence of walking around/interacting with people (see some girly private bits?) leading up to the helicopter ride, forgotten.

+ talking with my wife about a gym membership, she's asking about the size of the pool, I think it's big enough for her since I swam in it previously

+ walking with some young man, teaching him some calculus (differentiation, continuity), I go on for quite a while about differentiable points on a function and tangent lines, I imagine the graph and make motions with my hand indicating a point where there are lots of tangent lines (like the "v" part of an absolute value graph), I'm talking about how you can't differentiate words, I see some letters on paper (colorful, with "M"'s and "C"'s, words not recognizable), you need a numeric function, a woman also confirms this point that you need a numeric object.

+ (thanks, ~Dreamer~, for the incubation of bathroom fails ) in a large open bathroom with open stalls, need go to #2, head to the very end for privacy, the toilets are not solid ceramic but make from a lattice-work of cris-crossing metal tubes (how can they work?!), a guy sits down practically right across from me ("really?!") then women start walking through the bathroom, they're too lazy to go to their own bathroom I think, before sitting down I push a big pile of clothes I'm carrying with me up to a ledge, I have to push it up several times before it stays put.

+ approaching a concert, walking through hallways with other performers, I repeat "figaro figaro figaro", I tell my son to pay attention to the singers, then I'm sitting in the orchestra the conductor looks my way briefly, I've missed my entrance apparently, I hear my stand partner make a tentative entrance then stop, I look at the music, it's pretty tricky rhythm and the pace is really fast, the conductor is conducting in "one." The music consists of 8th notes and 8th note rests repeated over and over in a syncopated rhythm.

+ see high school friend KK she's playing her oboe and really sucks in the spit after she finishes playing (I think this his her bad habit) (and how disgusting it was when during a lesson I did the same after my teacher, who smoked, played my instrument for a bit, ewwwwwwwww), I think no matter how well you play the oboe it always sounds a bit quacky. The oboe sound is pretty good but not quite professional, there are a few honks/quacky sounds.

Night full of dreams (love these), didn't record until morning, about 60-70% of the list I built up mentally through the night survived.

00:00 Monday 2014-06-02

00:19 bedtime, remee on, 70% brightness / 5 hours delay / 15 minutes interval

Lots of wakefulness during the night, getting back to sleep many times, no recording until late morning and final waking, the dreams are spread out through the night

10:30

+ I'm buying a woman's swimsuit (for myself), I don't know which dressing room to enter to try it on. It's a bikini with different colored top/bottom. Should I go into the women's locker room (because it's a women's swim suit) or the men's locker room (because I'm a man)? Both lockerrooms are very busy I see, I fear ridicule from the men's locker room.

+ I'm a kids' swimming / water polo coach, I'm walking outside the pool along the edge talking to them, breaking them up into groups to even the sides for water polo, I look down and see I'm wearing a woman's one-piece suit, a pattern with white and pink/red, I enter the game and play goalie, I almost score a goal instantly upon entering the water, the opponent goal is not directly across but it diagonally across the pool, there's a second opponent goal on the same wall as my goal a bit further down. There are lots of players in the water right up next to me, very many shots at my goal, and I block practically all of them, they call out "what are you doing?" and I answer with "you're not very clear about the job of a *goalie*".

+ I'm in my childhood home's backyard with college friends F&D, I show them my lemon tree and habanero plants. I say "do you remember this lemon tree?" Then I see the habanero plants, the peppers look normal at first but then they swell to the size of oranges, I think I should have eaten them when they were small, when they get so large they lose their spiciness.

+ I hesitantly invite a bunch of kids down my driveway and direct them into the backyard to play.

+ entering my apartment building. There are construction workers in the (small) entry hall, and a board full of (black tiles?) leaning across the way blocking access, I either move this or climb over it. I go into the stairwell, they've replaced the (previously normal) staircase with jungle-gym/playground climbing equipment, how will the old people go home? I'm walking up/climbing up and reach a dead end, I look to the other side of the "stairwell" and realize it's the one with the better access so I need to go back and up that way.

+ Walking through a hallway, one guy I think was a priest with a backpack bulging with holy books, but he has cut his hair really short and has a moustache. I think the construction work has moved the stairwell into the used book sale area of the building.

+ New top-3/5 sex dream, she's a young / beautiful / hot girl and we're going at it for quite a while, she speaks at one point (definite improvement in interactivity, normally sex partner DCs are silent), close to lucid, felt very bold & present in the moment.

Spoiler for explicit sexy time:

I'm in bed with a smoking hot beautiful girl, we're having intercourse, I'm on top of her. I see her face clearly and we kiss passionately a bit. Then she says something about "all the guys who want to f*ck her" and I think this means she's a hooker. I wonder for a moment about the wisdom of deeply kissing her but she's so beautiful. I don't care if she's a hooker because she's so hot and beautiful that I will definitely repeat my time with her. It's taking me a long time to reach conclusion and I apologize to her about this, and say that it's because of this condom I'm wearing. I think when I say this that she will probably not offer that I should take it off, and I don't really want to. I move her into a number of different positions in order to increase the sensation, at one point I hear the "splorching" sounds of our sex. I move us towards the edge of the bed. I raise both her legs into an "over the head" position and see her great body below me, including her private bits which are a bit hazy but visible. The sensation is better here, I'm also feeling the stubble in her armpits and think this is sexy (hey YOU clicked on spoiler!), I realize I want to stand up on the ground with her still on the bed. This works for a bit but then things get abstract, Im still standing and she's on the bed in a doggy position but her privates are wrapped in some sort of small cardboard box. Then I'm kneeling on the bed ready to keep going but she's disappeared and I'm calling to her to come back to continue. I wake up and have to go #1 pretty badly.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-05-27 -- missed it by thaaaat much

00:38 bedtime. Fall asleep really quickly, I have a great deal of drowsiness, barely have time to set any intentions about remembering dreams before falling asleep

remee on

08:30 wake up and recall, no recording during the night

+ I see a naked girl's below the waist spread-leg view sliding towards me, she's sliding on the ground. She's from a family so poor they can't afford toilet paper so they must wipe their butts by sliding in the snow. I'm DO following this family on a car trip, we come across an intersection where the road branches off to the left, down a gently sloping mostly straight snow-covered road. The kids whoop and get out and all slide on their butts (clothed this time) down the hill, I see them weave around a few cars, I'm following behind them DO. At one point we come across a big steep hill to the left, covered in snow, we go over and start to climb in order to slide down, a few boys are at the bottom of the hill having slid down. At the top of the hill is a playground swing set where some girls are standing around, I go there and start flirting.

+ I'm walking outdoors among separate small external school rooms, it's dark/night, I'm thinking about dreaming, I say out loud "I'm dreaming" (and didn't get lucid, that's an unfortunate first), I think I even nose pinch but I think I couldn't breathe (but I'm not sure), I may have checked my hands, two young men overhear me and are asking me if I can fly when I'm dreaming, I say "yes, watch this!" and jump about 25 feet straight up into the air and hover there for a while before coming back down, after that we all go in to the class room.

+ talking about higher math with a young woman math student. We're walking towards a building it's dark outside. We're talking about all the math lasses one should take in University, we're naming them, and simultaneous say "real analysis." Complex analysis is too hard, you can't make real-world models to study them. She made hundreds of 3-d models to help in studying real analysis, I think she made representations of parabolas/hyperbolas/saddle points. I think about settings some of the variables to 0 and then drawing the cross section of the shape in the resulting plane projection of the equation.

+ in a motorcycle club (IWL yesterday saw a guy with a t-shirt that had "MC" on it and I thought this meant motorcycle), the leader of the club has painted huge stripes/emblem on his parking place. He has placed markers in the spots to the left and the right of his parking spot to make sure his spot is marked and reserved. I see briefly what I think is a set of motorcycle scales (to weigh them) in a parking spot just next to his.

In daylight there is a large "butcher block" full of knives, axe heads, and sharp instruments embedded into the wooden block, one falls down I pick it up and try to quickly jab it back into the block, but it bounces out again. I try this a few times it won't go in, then when I try again all the knives fall to the ground. I think that's ridiculous and think about just walking away but no I don't want to leave that mess so I pick them all up from the ground (where they got wet/dirty) and spread them out on a table to the right, someone comes by and it's time to go for lunch

+ in twilight some guy has found my packs of leftover chinese food that I'd forgotten. They are flat packages of dumplings covered in plastic wrap, the first one I see is pot stickers (about 1+ square foot, 20 or more potstickers), another one is larger (pork bows?), he breaks the plastic wrap on one and I think that's going to be really nasty since I forgot to put them in the refrigerator, they're spoiled for sure, anyone who ate those would get sick.

I'm already awake when I see remee's lights at some point in the night.

23:00 bedtime 2mg melatonin to reset sleep schedule

00:00 Tuesday 2014-05-20

08:30 (?) final waking

"What was I just dreaming?" is magical. Went from nothing to all these scenes, they just started flooding in. I love dreams

+ crazy racquetball: an angry mob invades my court, they want to take it from me, I stand up to them and they back off

+ trying to find my way back to my court, it's moved into a ridiculous area with about 6 "lanes" each one about 1 yard wide is supposed to be a "court" with people playing a game there, I'm teaching my mother to play she hits the ball the wrong way, as I'm setting up to show her the right way (you have to bounce it on the ground first) I realize the floor is grooved so the ball bounces strangely, a black guy borrows my racquet and hits my ball way the heck away across the street, which really pisses me off, I should make him go get it.

+ some guy is letting a live fish go into a lake, it's a large strange looking fish, it was being cooked previously in hot water, I think it may not survive, maybe the cool lake water will revive it, and I think it's probably against the rules to let such a strange fish go into the lake

+ I'm swimming through the murky water and regret letting that weird fish go, I imagine all sorts of weird slimy fish will be brushing by me

+ setting up a barbecue in old boy scout friend's RB's yard, I'm advising on placement, no not next to the house, put it out here, but rain might get on it so we should get one of those portable tent/cover things, a kid is poking his fingers into the electrical socket by the BBQ, I see sparks, and I think he's going to get blown across the yard by a big shock

+ I don't want to be the boy scout leader, they choose an adult instead, he comes and pushes his way into my place at the table which is laden with lobsters and other food items and he leans way over the table and really tucks in, I see a bucket of funny looking candy canes across the table I choose one which is chewy and delicious

+ I'm cooking porridge for the boy scouts (notice a theme?), I test it with a ladle which is dirty, it had ketchup on it, I see the ketchup get into the porridge and start to spread through, starting to turn a bunch of it red/pink, I try to get it out with a clean spoon, I pick up a spoon of the thickest ketchup/porridge and blow on it and want to eat it, I think they'll all complain about ketchup-flavored porridge, it turns into small shells of pasta and there's barely enough in there for one or two servings.

+ approaching McDonald's in a car, I'm in a hurry to get in ahead of the crowds, many cars are pulling up, I notice the power is out inside the restaurant, the power is out everywhere all around in stores but the street lights are all working, I think why not tap into the street light circuits, the manager inside has the same idea, and they start handing out orders, there are hundreds of orders backed up and people waiting, I think this will take forever.

+ I'm thinking about playing the saxophone, the reed for my instrument has been chewed/bitten down to where it's not playable, I drop a fresh reed into a shot glass of water to get it soaked in order to play

+ a guy I don't like is playing piano, I admit he's playing well, I think it would be good to play some lounge jazz, he's playing nice improvisations, there is music with a lot of notes on it, but if you know chords well you can just play arpeggios.

00:00 Monday 2014-05-12 LD #37 long vivid dream

00:00 bedtime, remee on, same settings, set alarm for 05:00

04:21 wake naturally, start WILD

05:15 ? not feeling sleepy enough, turn to stomach, basically stop WILD attempt

06:32

+ cute girls are sitting outside, tons of people are all around like a festival, I think some are twins, one of them is sitting/squatting with her butt directly on the ground/mud I think that's odd, I see she's wearing a thick leather "bikini bottom" and that's shielding her from the dirt/mud, I see her exposed back and water is streaming down it, it must be from rain

+ playing racquetball with several friends, I can't remember how many points everyone has, the court is normal (first time, normally strange things are in the court), I play a point, winning it, then I serve once winning it, and serve again but miss the ball, I have 20 points, which is bad, because you lose when you get to 21 (?!).

+ standing at a store counter in a foreign country, they're processing something for me, the manager says there's a problem with my folder, it's not stamped, I think this is outrageous I've been here for (I do some mental math) 4.5 years, the girl clerk hands me a large wad of cash as change, I start counting it, she shakes her head that that's a bad idea (thieves could see), there's a guy standing right up against me with his arms around me with both hands digging in to my bag, I try to pull away and shout for help repeatedly.

+ I'm trying to find my way back to the above counter, I replay this several times, I get to the place where I know it used to be but it's not there, I'm very disoriented/confused by this, I ask a woman on a tall stand/kiosk sheepishly for the day, the month, and the year, I"m embarrassed to ask this because it shows I'm out of it, and she tells me but chuckles a bit, I bring out my phone to look at the date, and my old beloved deceased dog appears at my feet, but he's wrong, he's the size of a squirrel and has the face of a pig, I get lucid and am astonished at the clarity and visual detail, it's so lifelike, I fade in and out of lucidity then solidify, the woman calls to her assistant girl in another room, I go to her and tell her she must come see my weird pig-faced dog, then I wake up

+ ...and fall right back into another dream, non-lucid: I'm flying DO by a huge building, I see inside, there are lots of people celebrating, I think that's a great place to get lucid and walk around, I'm flying over huge indoor buildings filled with immigrant workers and their beds laid out in huge open rooms, I see all the little people below lying on beds and walking around, a big group of them is seated for a meal

+ I'm with my wife inside an english-speaking clinic in a foreign country, there are 2 sick men there, my wife goes to sit on the bed of one of the sick guys she wants the doctor to look at her leg, I think it's a bad idea to sit on a sick guy's bed, the doctor comes in and talks to one of the guys that <something> should lessen his symptoms, I see a ferret sleeping on a tray table next to where my wife is sitting, I go to point it out to her but I see it's actually a medical instrument of some sort covered by ants, a guy says somebody must have left out some food.

22:30 bedtime

00:00 Tuesday 2014-04-29

04:42

+ trying out a chair in a furniture store. Enter store, wife sits in chair in the corner by the door, someone says "oh you got the best chair in the house". I'm looking at a recliner, I'm asking it it's a "zero gravity" recliner, one that lets you lean back so far that you're completely balanced (IWL family member's house said their recliner was like this 2 days ago). I'm trying it out doesn't quite completely balance. Looking at the mechanism underneath trying to see how it configures, there is a single wooden shaft with bulbous ends, and two rows of sockets on either side, all made of a light colored wood, you can move each end of the shaft into the various sockets to configure the chair. I have a small glass of an orange drink with me and I set it on the floor being careful to put it so that nobody will knock it over but I think the store guy will get upset with me so I figure I'll just drink it so it won't spill.

+ curled up (dead?) spider, two guys talking about it, "wouldn't you rather get it before it was ready for you?"

06:59

+ in the shade at the beach on a sloping sandy hill underneath trees setting up my blanket, there are some people down at the bottom of the hill, there's won't be many people here because it's the time of the year where this part of the beach is in the shade. Not an ocean beach, lake. Down on one side of the hill there's something going on with some people.

+ Sitting at a table in a Chinese restaurant I overhear someone ordering and the waiter says "no fried rice" I say "WHAT!? THERE's NO FRIED RICE?! It takes like 5 minutes to make! I could make it myself!" I think about ordering one of the other kinds of rice (3 other choices). some people next to me finish and leave, we exchange some words

+ standing in some room holding a strange long weapon, I think it's a hauberk, I examine the little blade at the top that is on a mechanism like a tree pruning pole, it's very sharp, some people come to discuss it, I say I think it's a hauberk, and yes it's sharp, I turn it around and there's a wicked looking sharp spear at the bottom of the shaft. It's a nasty looking weapon. There are some small wooden shields attached near the top.

+ observing water polo at the pool, some players are standing outside the pool throwing the ball to the players in the pool

+ a tender moment with my son as of 10 years ago

+ a young boy changes and walks by with his robe opened, I flip it closed to cover his "stuff" and wonder what my wife (standing next to me) will think of me doing that

22:40 initial bedtime, churning stomach (ate too much too close to bedtime)
23:00 ? took 1mg melatonin

00:00 Monday 2014-04-014

06:42

+ lots and lots of sharks and shark attacks, and action on boats

On a boat with crew, (hunting sharks? Not actively...), some guy comes on criticizing us for hunting sharks, I say to him would you love the sharks if they were biting your baby? I see a scene of a baby sort of bouncing in an out of a shark's jaws.

+ On the river with boats

+ jogging on the deck of a cruise ship

+ see sharks just below the surface in the rough (shaped) water.

+ clever sharks: they only leave bite marks (I see various bite marks on parts of the ship) then disappear.

Weak memory probably earlier awakening.

08:01

+ playing volleyball in a room with kids but we're using a bathrobe instead of a ball, it keeps getting hung up on the net, it's hard to push over the net. I see my opponent's arms (a girl?) come over the net to my side and I call foul. A bunch of kids come to my side to help, they're lined up in row.

+ walking through a mall, we walk by an open store that used to be something else I think. We arrive at the TV place, my wife is singing to get someone's attention, she goes up to a worker and grabs her arm and shakes her to get her to serve us (she's already serving someone else), I'm really embarrassed by this The woman does not want to deal with my wife, she says we should have read the information she sent us ahead of time before coming in. The TV woman says when we switch to digital they will remove the pixelated duplicated channels (to be replaced by the true digital versions).

+ looking outside a window, I think I'm being observed from people behind windows across the street, I can't see anybody at first but then I see people behind the windows holding up mobile phones and tablets pointing them at me. I'm crouching down behind some girders trying to avoid being seen.

+ in a room with students writing tests, one guy is writing with his pencil in his mouth I think that means he's disabled, but I see his hands work. I get a pencil and paper, I drop my pencil, I'm looking over a counter at a girl I think I dropped my pencil on her side but she says "there it is," and I look on the ground and see my pencil near my feet.