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23:00 bedtime 2mg melatonin to reset sleep schedule

00:00 Tuesday 2014-05-20

08:30 (?) final waking

"What was I just dreaming?" is magical. Went from nothing to all these scenes, they just started flooding in. I love dreams

+ crazy racquetball: an angry mob invades my court, they want to take it from me, I stand up to them and they back off

+ trying to find my way back to my court, it's moved into a ridiculous area with about 6 "lanes" each one about 1 yard wide is supposed to be a "court" with people playing a game there, I'm teaching my mother to play she hits the ball the wrong way, as I'm setting up to show her the right way (you have to bounce it on the ground first) I realize the floor is grooved so the ball bounces strangely, a black guy borrows my racquet and hits my ball way the heck away across the street, which really pisses me off, I should make him go get it.

+ some guy is letting a live fish go into a lake, it's a large strange looking fish, it was being cooked previously in hot water, I think it may not survive, maybe the cool lake water will revive it, and I think it's probably against the rules to let such a strange fish go into the lake

+ I'm swimming through the murky water and regret letting that weird fish go, I imagine all sorts of weird slimy fish will be brushing by me

+ setting up a barbecue in old boy scout friend's RB's yard, I'm advising on placement, no not next to the house, put it out here, but rain might get on it so we should get one of those portable tent/cover things, a kid is poking his fingers into the electrical socket by the BBQ, I see sparks, and I think he's going to get blown across the yard by a big shock

+ I don't want to be the boy scout leader, they choose an adult instead, he comes and pushes his way into my place at the table which is laden with lobsters and other food items and he leans way over the table and really tucks in, I see a bucket of funny looking candy canes across the table I choose one which is chewy and delicious

+ I'm cooking porridge for the boy scouts (notice a theme?), I test it with a ladle which is dirty, it had ketchup on it, I see the ketchup get into the porridge and start to spread through, starting to turn a bunch of it red/pink, I try to get it out with a clean spoon, I pick up a spoon of the thickest ketchup/porridge and blow on it and want to eat it, I think they'll all complain about ketchup-flavored porridge, it turns into small shells of pasta and there's barely enough in there for one or two servings.

+ approaching McDonald's in a car, I'm in a hurry to get in ahead of the crowds, many cars are pulling up, I notice the power is out inside the restaurant, the power is out everywhere all around in stores but the street lights are all working, I think why not tap into the street light circuits, the manager inside has the same idea, and they start handing out orders, there are hundreds of orders backed up and people waiting, I think this will take forever.

+ I'm thinking about playing the saxophone, the reed for my instrument has been chewed/bitten down to where it's not playable, I drop a fresh reed into a shot glass of water to get it soaked in order to play

+ a guy I don't like is playing piano, I admit he's playing well, I think it would be good to play some lounge jazz, he's playing nice improvisations, there is music with a lot of notes on it, but if you know chords well you can just play arpeggios.

00:00 Monday 2014-05-12 LD #37 long vivid dream

00:00 bedtime, remee on, same settings, set alarm for 05:00

04:21 wake naturally, start WILD

05:15 ? not feeling sleepy enough, turn to stomach, basically stop WILD attempt

06:32

+ cute girls are sitting outside, tons of people are all around like a festival, I think some are twins, one of them is sitting/squatting with her butt directly on the ground/mud I think that's odd, I see she's wearing a thick leather "bikini bottom" and that's shielding her from the dirt/mud, I see her exposed back and water is streaming down it, it must be from rain

+ playing racquetball with several friends, I can't remember how many points everyone has, the court is normal (first time, normally strange things are in the court), I play a point, winning it, then I serve once winning it, and serve again but miss the ball, I have 20 points, which is bad, because you lose when you get to 21 (?!).

+ standing at a store counter in a foreign country, they're processing something for me, the manager says there's a problem with my folder, it's not stamped, I think this is outrageous I've been here for (I do some mental math) 4.5 years, the girl clerk hands me a large wad of cash as change, I start counting it, she shakes her head that that's a bad idea (thieves could see), there's a guy standing right up against me with his arms around me with both hands digging in to my bag, I try to pull away and shout for help repeatedly.

+ I'm trying to find my way back to the above counter, I replay this several times, I get to the place where I know it used to be but it's not there, I'm very disoriented/confused by this, I ask a woman on a tall stand/kiosk sheepishly for the day, the month, and the year, I"m embarrassed to ask this because it shows I'm out of it, and she tells me but chuckles a bit, I bring out my phone to look at the date, and my old beloved deceased dog appears at my feet, but he's wrong, he's the size of a squirrel and has the face of a pig, I get lucid and am astonished at the clarity and visual detail, it's so lifelike, I fade in and out of lucidity then solidify, the woman calls to her assistant girl in another room, I go to her and tell her she must come see my weird pig-faced dog, then I wake up

+ ...and fall right back into another dream, non-lucid: I'm flying DO by a huge building, I see inside, there are lots of people celebrating, I think that's a great place to get lucid and walk around, I'm flying over huge indoor buildings filled with immigrant workers and their beds laid out in huge open rooms, I see all the little people below lying on beds and walking around, a big group of them is seated for a meal

+ I'm with my wife inside an english-speaking clinic in a foreign country, there are 2 sick men there, my wife goes to sit on the bed of one of the sick guys she wants the doctor to look at her leg, I think it's a bad idea to sit on a sick guy's bed, the doctor comes in and talks to one of the guys that <something> should lessen his symptoms, I see a ferret sleeping on a tray table next to where my wife is sitting, I go to point it out to her but I see it's actually a medical instrument of some sort covered by ants, a guy says somebody must have left out some food.

22:30 bedtime

00:00 Tuesday 2014-04-29

04:42

+ trying out a chair in a furniture store. Enter store, wife sits in chair in the corner by the door, someone says "oh you got the best chair in the house". I'm looking at a recliner, I'm asking it it's a "zero gravity" recliner, one that lets you lean back so far that you're completely balanced (IWL family member's house said their recliner was like this 2 days ago). I'm trying it out doesn't quite completely balance. Looking at the mechanism underneath trying to see how it configures, there is a single wooden shaft with bulbous ends, and two rows of sockets on either side, all made of a light colored wood, you can move each end of the shaft into the various sockets to configure the chair. I have a small glass of an orange drink with me and I set it on the floor being careful to put it so that nobody will knock it over but I think the store guy will get upset with me so I figure I'll just drink it so it won't spill.

+ curled up (dead?) spider, two guys talking about it, "wouldn't you rather get it before it was ready for you?"

06:59

+ in the shade at the beach on a sloping sandy hill underneath trees setting up my blanket, there are some people down at the bottom of the hill, there's won't be many people here because it's the time of the year where this part of the beach is in the shade. Not an ocean beach, lake. Down on one side of the hill there's something going on with some people.

+ Sitting at a table in a Chinese restaurant I overhear someone ordering and the waiter says "no fried rice" I say "WHAT!? THERE's NO FRIED RICE?! It takes like 5 minutes to make! I could make it myself!" I think about ordering one of the other kinds of rice (3 other choices). some people next to me finish and leave, we exchange some words

+ standing in some room holding a strange long weapon, I think it's a hauberk, I examine the little blade at the top that is on a mechanism like a tree pruning pole, it's very sharp, some people come to discuss it, I say I think it's a hauberk, and yes it's sharp, I turn it around and there's a wicked looking sharp spear at the bottom of the shaft. It's a nasty looking weapon. There are some small wooden shields attached near the top.

+ observing water polo at the pool, some players are standing outside the pool throwing the ball to the players in the pool

+ a tender moment with my son as of 10 years ago

+ a young boy changes and walks by with his robe opened, I flip it closed to cover his "stuff" and wonder what my wife (standing next to me) will think of me doing that

22:40 initial bedtime, churning stomach (ate too much too close to bedtime)
23:00 ? took 1mg melatonin

00:00 Monday 2014-04-014

06:42

+ lots and lots of sharks and shark attacks, and action on boats

On a boat with crew, (hunting sharks? Not actively...), some guy comes on criticizing us for hunting sharks, I say to him would you love the sharks if they were biting your baby? I see a scene of a baby sort of bouncing in an out of a shark's jaws.

+ On the river with boats

+ jogging on the deck of a cruise ship

+ see sharks just below the surface in the rough (shaped) water.

+ clever sharks: they only leave bite marks (I see various bite marks on parts of the ship) then disappear.

Weak memory probably earlier awakening.

08:01

+ playing volleyball in a room with kids but we're using a bathrobe instead of a ball, it keeps getting hung up on the net, it's hard to push over the net. I see my opponent's arms (a girl?) come over the net to my side and I call foul. A bunch of kids come to my side to help, they're lined up in row.

+ walking through a mall, we walk by an open store that used to be something else I think. We arrive at the TV place, my wife is singing to get someone's attention, she goes up to a worker and grabs her arm and shakes her to get her to serve us (she's already serving someone else), I'm really embarrassed by this The woman does not want to deal with my wife, she says we should have read the information she sent us ahead of time before coming in. The TV woman says when we switch to digital they will remove the pixelated duplicated channels (to be replaced by the true digital versions).

+ looking outside a window, I think I'm being observed from people behind windows across the street, I can't see anybody at first but then I see people behind the windows holding up mobile phones and tablets pointing them at me. I'm crouching down behind some girders trying to avoid being seen.

+ in a room with students writing tests, one guy is writing with his pencil in his mouth I think that means he's disabled, but I see his hands work. I get a pencil and paper, I drop my pencil, I'm looking over a counter at a girl I think I dropped my pencil on her side but she says "there it is," and I look on the ground and see my pencil near my feet.

22:19 bedtime (super super tired)

00:00 Saturday 2014-04-12

01:00 <<- first early waking recall in a while!

+ outdoors picnic? People are saying do you remember this picture? I do remember it. A scene with (LH, B mayor?)? There's a storm coming

07:32

+ skiing down very steep snowy hills, I'm thinking a lot about skiing technique. Bright sunny outside. I'm jump turning my skis keeping them parallel, go down very steep, I jump out at one point to make a turn and instead of landing on the snow again I'm floating straight down for a long distance hovering above the (very steep) hill. Slide on butt down to the bottom of the hill amidst trees, notice I'm wearing plastic shower sandals as bindings, I walk back up the hill, I see a small strange thing (like a hornet's nest) at the top, I see inside it with its holes and chambers. I see a bear foot track in the snow. I think the nest belongs to GG (boy scout).

+ (Long detailed dream) dance party, dance with sister she says B.O. Want to slow dance with the high school short girl with the weird squished eyes, but I think she's too short for me. My mother, dad's cousin GL, and sister are on the dance floor, I dance with my sister, she says I have two kinds of B.O.? I look down at my chest and stomach (no shirt on) and imagine washing it. There's a girl in a public tub she's topless it turns out. I'm in room with other kids I jump/fly all the way across the room and force pull a toy lightsaber off of the ground into my hands and swing it around a while. I'm chased for a while by a girl brandishing a pool cue I think she wants to stick it up my butt.

+ wine on bus I'm chaperone. I'm pouring the glasses for the students, it's red wine, I"m being careful not to give too much.

+ in group bedroom with other young people, someone mentioned windows OS and I make a joke and say "windows is as excellent as it is an operating system." I mean to imply it is not excellent and is not areal OS, I plug earphones into clock by my bedside, I flick the switch on the clock on and off and look for the difference in lighting on the clock and barely notice the difference between on and off.

+ veterinarian's office, some guy twirling guinea pigs around inside a towel/cloth, I say poor guinea pigs, you shouldn't do that, he lets them out they climb over my back, I find out I really stink, I find I have very dirty underwear, I'm freaked out by this I realize it must have been when the guinea pigs climbed over me they peed right onto my pants at my butt

+ contest, in a group (kids + teacher?) in a driveway a few houses down FL from HC, how far can I throw the apple, at bus stop near S & FL, throwing down the back side of FL, there are trees overhead there are a few openings I'm trying to aim for the openings and really throw far, but the apple only goes about as far as the last thing before it splats on the ground, I think my throwing arm really has deteriorated.

23:03 bedtime

00:00 Friday 2014-04-11

07:49

+ beer & alcohol with (boy scout buddies?), some party? Ordered and picked it up, was drinking bottles from the refridgerator but everything was warm. I was opening container after container, beer, vodka, some guy was there, (JC?).

+ basketball, I'm at an outdoor court and make a layup approach dribbling the ball, I jump to make a dunk and I jump really high, my head goes higher than the top of the backboard, and I make the dunk.

+ fans in the orphanage place. In a building (orphanage?) I see many large hair-dryer-type fans embedded into the walls and ceiling. Something about forming football teams from the people there.

+ racquetball with Christmas trees, playing, huge groups, I see tiny marble sized RQB dribble by me at a "corner" on the right rear of the court, I position my racquet to return it as soon as it clears the wall but by the time it does it's already on the ground, I say "aw, man!". I play several points against a guy, I'm serving from around a "corner" the "right rear corner" of the court, I'm thinking it must be really hard to serve from here as a right-handed player. I make a soft lob serve which fools my opponent, and the other time he gets it. A big bunch of people arrive for a team game, they're in two different uniform styles, one is blue&red, the other different colors (which I think is my team). I'm giving instruction, I think they're normally tennis players, because I emphasize that you must use your wrist with the RQB racquet, I demonstrate, and say don't try to use the power from your elbow/shoulder like you normally do in tennis. I show the write technique several times. I show them the wrist tethers, I say "these are useful..." and a DC says "...so that your racquet doesn't go flying across the room", I say "that's right," I put it on and twist the racquet and demonstrate. I'm wondering how we can play a decent game with all these people, it will be very crowded.

There's a Christmas tree (or two?) in the court. I say "we should clear out these trees." They're in Christmas tree stands, I'm trying to move one, and when I lift it the tree lifts right up out of the stand. While I'm trying to put it back in I notice that the trunk of the tree was not previously set into the center of the stand, it went off to the sides, the reason for that is that there were lots of little branches still attached to the bottom trunk. I'm trying to put the tree back in to the stand and I think perhaps I should first pour out the water.

+ car parking car is turning from busy traffic into a parking lot to the right, another car skidded to a top almost hitting us going by on the right hand side. Driver of our car is an older man we go into a parking lot trying to find a parking place

+ My good friend MR broke up with his hot Italian girlfriend (fake memory), who ran an apartment complex, and had a circular lounge with chairs arranged in a circle outside the rooms, I think of pulling her up from a chair and hugging/kissing her

+ I'm walking down the street with grass clippings (like blown from a power mower) all over my clothing (I can also see my back!), I brush it off, a man offers to help brush them off of me

+ I'm assembling my instrument, I'm talking with others who play the same instrument, we compare the funny parts of our instruments, mine has a part that is partially made from a plastic straw

+ I'm arriving to childhood home (didn't recognize it in the dream) into the back porch, and a very short many is leading away a woman (my customer?) from the house giving her a sales pitch ("... <something> 3500 <something>..."), he's looking at me knowing he's stealing a customer of mine

+ In a rich house, people are eating, I see a tray of food with a transparent cover, at first I think it's dessert, then I lift the cover and see odd little pizzas, and a few strands of spaghetti

+ (in same party?) there's a woman with a fox-like face, we (almost?) connect...

23:58 bedtime, a tad late.

Almost asleep probably 20 minutes later, and wife comes thundering into bed, tossing pillows around, pulling the blankets, and clearing her throat loudly. Thanks, dear, now I'm wide awake. I start to get really frustrated, but I push it away since all it will do is keep me awake, it serves no purpose. I make it back to sleep in not too long.

And I shook my head in incomprehension/condescension as a high school student at my grandmother and grandfather having separate twin beds.

real sleep time somewhere around 00:30 probably

00:00 Monday 2014-03-24

+ shoes, garden, chips, hotel

+ driving on paths hunting for gold
Finding a champagne producer.
at the ocean steep cliffs down

+ security guard at the mall showing me around he has the key to everything door used to be closed but they tell me now it's open

+ super wide celebrity-signature tennis shoes. A bunch of shoes are there I see them from the heel point of view, one is really wide. It's for sliding on clay courts. A female fit young tennis player is playing on a clay court and is sliding around. She's married to a good looking young fit male tennis star.

+ large golden rocks, the local residents are watching us and wondering what we're doing.

+ the driver of the car is not listening to me and my directions, he keeps choosing his own road and always ends up at a dead-end. I say I've been bicycling over this area all day and I know it really well, I'm telling him "now left, then right." The dead ends are where the curbs come so close together than the road is barely wide enough for a bicyclist or pedestrian to fit through.

+ we make it to the ocean, and there's a 50-foot cliff down to the beach. "We'll never get the gold out like this" the dude says. It's OK I say, let's keep going on foot.

+ at the champagne place, it's not buried treasure, but a regular champagne maker. There are bottles of champagne with labels and price tags all around. The prices are high. We talk to the vintner about the delicate flavors.

+ in a hotel with SB. "What a great hotel room, it's huge," go out into the garden, see a child on the other side of the fence, then we're there with the mother there are 3 small children with long blonde curly hair, 2 girls and one girl-looking boy. At a table with a bag of chips. The mother says they don't eat artificial things, and the bag of chips I'm holding I show her the indredients: corn, <picture>, oil.". The picture is a picture of a strangely curly green hot pepper. The woman eats one. It's twilight.

+ making out in the ocean with a CG. We're swimming in the fairly large waves, I want to wait until we swim around the back of a nearby rocky island so that we're not visible from the shore, even with binoculuars. We reach the back of the island and we come into each other's arms and make out passionately, our bodies rubbing together, still amongst the waves.

09:42

+ in a bus with guys, I see their faces, a hunting trip has concluded. Stopped at a restaurant to eat. It's a blacks only restaurant. I say "don't worry I saw some white guys inside." We go in and I have no shirt on I keep thinking I should go back to the bus and put on a shirt, I'm feeling very white here. One of my black friends asks me about the food, I look into a soup bowl and see it looks like French Onion soup but I say it's "savory soup."

+ with wife she's not happy about something she was with her old mother and she says even her old mother remembered her birthday, I'm trying to think what day it is and when her birthday is I can't figure it out. She's threatening to find things I ask "are you looking for things that aren't there or things that I'm hiding?" I'm digging through the car and think I have to go hide things better .

+ bunch of people together, see a CG through a door in a tight grey leotard twirling around

+ bells ringing, time for church

+ in high waves in water, I'm trying to find my way to a bargain ski resort that friends have told me about. I go to a "high place" in the waves where I think I should find it but don't see it. I look up high into the far distance around me and see several sun-lit snow-capped mountains, and perhaps even see a ski lift far away on one. I "fall down" the steep water wave hill to the bottom of a valley where I see a small, cheap, low-end ski resort, this is not the one I'm looking for, below me (flying DO overhead looking down) I see a tight set of kind of dirty snowy mogul runs.)

I'm wondering how to get back up to the top where I started.

00:00 Sunday 2014-03-09 competiiton #17 night #2

00:08 bedtime

05:30

1) (WTF?) I'm looking at the ceiling of a room and there are large square gray constructs there arranged in a pattern. I think this is some sort of billiard table and I look for shots I could make and think about where there things would move around to if i hit them. On the walls across the room there are tracks that go up and down along the front of closet doorways (IWL I think this was my parent's bedroom), and two billiard balls are racing up and down these tracks. One of the balls is trying to jump ahead of the other one. The balls are replaced by small dogs and they brake hard by sticking their front legs out straight in front of them and digging their butts into the ground and dragging them.

07:06

2) I'm outdoors, among trees, doing something with the ground, there are tools here. I notice some long straight channels in the ground (looks like made from cement?) that go from one are to another area and I think I need to make some more of these channels. I'm trying to find a tool that will help me gouge the ground in the proper shape. The tool I'm thinking of is like a giant allen-wrench-shaped crowbar, but all I can find are some axes, but I know these won't do a good job. I go looking for my partner with axes in hand to see if he has the gouging tool. I'm carrying the axes two in one hand at first then adjust (like a good boy scout) to carry one axe in each hand proper safety-merit-badge-boy-scout style.

I'm approaching an area where there is a line of shrubs going from my left to my right, I'm near the left end of this row, beyond this there is a hill going up on which are close-built colorful houses in many rows going up the hill. A woman appears from around the row of shrubs and sticks a plant quickly in the ground near the end of the line of shrubs, and she disappears again behind the back of them, I think she's marking her territory. I see my friend/partner and ask him about the tools and he doesn't know. I see a house to my left and a plant that marks the boundaries of the property lines. Then I'm looking up at the rows of houses and telling my friend how to get to a particular place I know up there, you have to go up a steep hill and turn onto a street.

3) can't pick up papers in driveway, why do I bother picking them up I'm not going to use them anyway, I see some handwriting on a page and assume it's my handwriting. There are some people parking and approaching I think we're probably in their driveway I think we should leave we're probably freaking them out. A guy says we're going to use the papers again. The pages are turning into confetti and getting blown away, I can't pick them up. The guys says something about "think of all the computer stuff it was harder to do without what we did."

4) Walking through crowded hallways in some high school. I see a drinking fountain in front of me I want a drink but it's a bad one, as the stream of water flows horizontally and way too close to the bowl/faucet so you risk touching something dirty. A bit farther down the hallway I see a drinking fountain with a more vertical stream. A teacher is showing me around. I wonder if I know anybody at this high school. There's a little 2-lane bowling alley, very very narrow lanes with kids bowling there, I see a control room for the alley next to it, there's a boy sitting in there and there are lots of controls and computer circuit cards and wires there. I think that's awesome. But then just beyond it there's a full sized bowling alley with "23 lanes" full-sized. As I'm walking by the lanes on my left I watch a boy bowl (right-handed) a gutter ball. I think the kids would be amazed if I got up and bowled a strike.

I come across an odd lane where the whole lane is rippling in waves about a meter high and one meter apart between crests. 4 people are standing in between the waves, and the game involves getting the ball to move from one wave valley to another. You also get points to doing maneuvers with the ball. One couple of the people, boy and girl, start doing something that causes the ball to orbit around their necks and heads, and they start kissing. I get a "camera zoom" view flying in a circle towards the woman's face and keeps zooming and zooming up to her lips and I see she has a bit of a mustache (WL day residue!) and the dream ends while the view of her lips keeps on zooming until they fill the entire view.

00:00 Saturday 2014-03-08 competition #17 night #1

01:11 bedtime. Family serious situation event, no avoiding the lateness
Long to sleep, very stimulated. Required self-hypnosis relaxation, probably slept no earlier than 01:45

05:52

1) Cancan dancing party. Several couples in a room cancan dancing, small apartment living room combined with a kitchen, the women are stripping. I'm on the other side of the room, the women are sitting on the couch, they're wearing big fluffy cancan burlesque-dancing multi-layer skirts. Their legs are up and underwear sort of visible underneath all the layers of skirts. One of the men comically crawls out from the couch passing beneath one of the women beneath her skirts and reaches up for a feel as he goes by. A guy asks me something like "with all your super powers, are you able to avoid getting a hard-on with all this going on?"

2) I'm in some guy's house. I see a GIANT rat, beaver-sized, white. It's fairly slow, I think we absolutely have to catch it, we can't let it set up house underneath the guy's bed. I start to chase it, it goes from room to room. It goes in to the bathroom, I close the door on it to trap it and call to the guy. I'm in the bathroom holding a container/cup of soapy water, the rat has shrunk to the size of a small mouse, and it has dunked itself into the soapy water. "Oh, no, it's trying to drown itself!" I declare, I pour out the water and the rat/mouse under a faucet and turn it on, I'm trying to rinse off the rat to save it. It's not moving, the guy says too late, it's dead, it's gone, I keep trying to rinse it off to save it (directing the water into the mouth of the thing, "saving" it!), I see from below the rat mouth, there is a strange two-layers of mouth, larger outer mouth and a small normal rat looking inner mouth with long teeth open in a dead-looking position. I'm looking at these mouths for a while.

3) I've just arrived with my parents at their retirement complex (false location memory). My parents are behind me (I never see them), I'm leading the way into the stairwell, I remember this place, and I perceive that I know exactly that my parent's apartment is, and I want to show that I know the way by finding it myself. I intend to go up a set of stairs and down a hallway a bit. Still on the ground floor entry area, there's a very narrow pathway of uneven paving stones, we walk along this. I approach a table, it shows the remains of cups of drinks, my mother behind me says "see this shows there's always something going on here," there's no way around the table, so I start to climb up a chair to walk directly over the top of the table. Then I suddenly see two women sitting at the right side of the table, I step down immediately and say "oh I'm sorry I didn't see you," one of the women says "oh you saw us." I'm walking along the right of the table right by the two women. One of them does not look very old, young-side of middle-aged, dark hair. She addresses my mother talking about me saying "we have to bring him here more often for a visit," I think she's probably interested in me. I have a glimpse of a head of black hair with some strands of gray here and there. A gong sounds, my mother tells me that this is the signal that the group BBQ is starting, a midnight BBQ I think to myself. I want to go to the BBQ and eat something. Walking over open rolling grass hills, like a golf course, there's a man next to me, very distinguished looking with a big head of hair and a strong bifurcated chin, a Dudley Dooright looking sort of fellow, talking about his family, the women or one of the women at the table were in his family. A staff member arrives, we're at my parent's place, he opens (the dishwasher?) and there's a HUGE shelf of silverware, he gathers up a big armload of it to take to the BBQ, I think this is rude to take this stuff from my parents.

Long back to sleep. Figure might as well get up for WBTB

WBTB - sit in chair and continue relaxation. I'm avoiding looking at the time so I'm not sure exactly when I got back to bed.

Still hard to sleep, finally relax mind enough to head towards sleep, takes a lot of self-hypnosis relaxation but I finally fall asleep, no idea of the time.

???

I wake up, do some recall, don't record, no idea of the time, fall asleep again.

F1) in a house, we're visiting, a group of people, I'm looking around at the floor and we've totally trashed the place. Toys, food, garbage, everywhere. I think it's going to take a really long time to clean all this up.

F2) sitting with a group of people inside, someone hands me an envelope, it has something for me from a previous company, I'm opening the envelope and reading it, a guy comes around and I think he wants to read over my shoulder and I don't want him to.

F3) in a courtyard outside a home, there's a guy there, and a dumpster, and a ping pong ball inside the dumpster. A guy is grilling a multi-layer piece of chicken, I see him flip over the inner layer.

11:38

F4) mafia guys all stuffed together sitting in large wire grocery shopping cart, I'm standing right next to the cart. They're planning a big family meeting, I ask about what if you don't show up, they say you're considered as leaving the family and are as good as dead.

4) I enter a room where our young friend ND and a friend of hers are playing. I have a big bucket of water and I pour it out into a toilet. The water from the bottom of the toilet overflows badly (much more than whatI poured in) and floods the floor of the room. The water is sloshing and flowing around the room, it's about 6 inches deep. I'm scrambling around like crazy trying to figure out what to do I find a sort of mop and try to push the water towards one of a number of really big drains in the floor. One of the "drains" seems clogged so I turn the mop upside down and use the handle end and jam it down in to the "drain" to clear it up, a few times, it doesn't work, then I see more clearly that this particular thing in the floor was a fan and not a drain. At some point later the water has all drained out.

F5) wife on phone talking about costs of jazz lessons, she repeats, $65/hour. I think it takes a long time to learn jazz, my friends in school spent years in jazz band learning to play jazz, it's not something you can pick up quickly.

23:51 bedtime <<<<!!! W00T BEFORE MIDNIGHT!

00:00 Wednesday 2014-03-05

07:01

No recall? That sucks...wait...here it comes...ah, got it. These are from earlier wakings mostly, and I remembered them!

+ in my childhood neighborhood park, on the basketball court level. Lots of people are playing with red, white, and blue basketballs, just like mine. I'm sort of a coach. I'm a bit disappointed that people are kicking them around. The players vanish, I go to pick up my ball, there's one that looks like it in the bike rack corner but is deflated, ah, there's mine a bit farther down towards the fence. I sense that there are 2-3 people who wish me ill / no good / want to catch me on the middle level above me, so I decide to take of flying out of the park. There's some sort of odd ceiling above me but I clear that and head for open skies, willing more speed from the point source of infinite energy in my head. I sense that they see me flying away.

+ I'm on some sort of open train flatcar. Arriving at a transit hub/hotel. I go to a desk with a young woman to register. I think the accomodations have something to do with sharing a room with her. She's nice at first but then she looks at my papers and she frowns and says suddenly "I can't help you there's nothing available." I know somethings up and I say "You're lying! Where's your supervisor?!" She's talking with a supervisor and she says "these <tickets> could be used by *anybody!*". I say that's because they were only very recently arranged by the company.

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This maybe warrants a

+ Non-lucid, but last night I saw streaks of old, pixelated computer-graphics looking lines in the sky. My only thought? Wow those look like pixelated old computer graphics lines in the sky DOH! They emanate from a thing in the distance. Looks like a space ship I think. Then there's the Star Trek starship Enterprise flying about 500 feet off the ground firing bright white phasers in all directions from phaser turrets placed all over the ship's body, and the ship is floating serenely from right to left, turning a bit to the right. I'm wondering about these phaser mechanisms, it seems there are actually mirrors used which rotate to direct/aim the phasers. Then I see one of these mirror constructs up close, I think those must be powerful mirrors. Then I'm down inside the mirror construct like being in a vertical closet in sort of a bin on the bottom pushing controls to get out and I can't. There's a helpful woman assistant there right across from me being very patient telling me what to press but the bin is still not releasing me.

Perhaps day-residue of alien space ships and experiments?

+ I'm thinking of going into the guacamole business! I'm stirring a big tub of spicy guacamole with lots of red hot pepper sauce mixed in. I'm thinking that I can buy avocados and sell them and if they get too ripe I can make them into guacamole. I'm outside a building on an empty lot and there's a large sign for some imaginary Mexican hot sauce.

07:45 drowsy enough to sleep more? I try. Get close. Some SSILD, some relaxing, some daydreaming.

08:58 close enough to my time limit: get up for the day!

Less awareness, but lots of long dreams, only fragmented memories, many random moments. Didn't voice record so much detail lost, but did do mental recall for some while.

+ walking along the shore of a lake, shore to the left, water to the right, a foot or two above the water, a guy in front of me gets mad at a huge boulder and pushes it in to the water, then jumps in after it and keeps on splashing it as I walk by shaking my head wondering why he's doing that.

+ leading some people to a sort of cavern/room where there is a wall/entrance made of beautiful semi-precious stone, like a giant door-sized polished geode.

+ with children, scooting over a floor that is as slippery as ice.

+ trying to find a pool table in a crowded pool hall, one comes free but another group is also waiting for it, I look at the pool tables and see many covered tables but they are really small and of weird shapes.

+ my son tells me that a friend of a friend of his saw me in a restaurant doing something obscene. I think this may be true but I can't admit it, that would be disastrous. I think my best bet is to deny it and try to discredit the source.

+ in some barracks moving among lots of people, many are shaving at sinks/mirrors, the leader of the group is placing some burdensome responsibility on me.

+ my wife is going to go on a walk in a frozen forrest with a friend of hers.

another good recall, lots of detail, two wakings, this time more wild and wacky

00:00 Saturday 2014-03-01

00:40 bedtime

08:41

+ back at a house where I used to rent (or sold?) there are Indian men there (Asian Indian), I'm looking for an old picnic table, I see a new wooden picnic table in the yard, I meet the new guy there he asks me to come pick up stuff, there are folding chairs, and the old picnic table. I'm leaving the place going out through a fence, the fence opening mechism is controlled by a jerry-rigged medium-sized garden shear which you squeeze the handles to operate the mechanism of the gate to open the door, and a rubber band pulls the shears open again after you stop squeezing it. I'm interested in this mechanism and say I wanted to build something like this but couldn't I was impressed he could build it.
A small nuclear bomb flies ahead of me I see it hit and the blast flowing out in all directions, I see the hit adn the blast several times. I think about flying up to look down on the damage. I think that can't be good for the area.

There's a meeting (talking about the bomb strike?).

+ On an outdoor path heading out of the city. To my left are growing a lot of vegetables, like pumpkins, and tomaties, all around there are thick patches of growing vegetables. I'm talking to someone on my left and say "if everyone in the whole world did this there would be no shortage of food." I happen upon an outdoor nursery on the right side of the road with a samping area. I'm looking at all the things and concentrate on the habanero peppers, all kinds of different varieties. One of the guys who works there comes out and tells me the names of the varieties I see some longer thinner ones in a plastic container. I hold one "pepper" up in my fingers it's supposed to be really hot I can feel the spiciness directly through my fingers, it looks like a leaf of raddichio lettuce more than a pepper. Someone is with me and says "oh my god it's free!?" and starts grabbing handfuls. I'm not sure it's free but take some peppers.

I'm back at my house with my basket of "peppers" in my garden to plant them, one of them nwo looks like a huge carrot that has split due to age and the juices are running out I think I should have chosen one that wasn't split like that. The peppers are weird they have two parts, the long pepper part and a really long stem with a small flat round pepper meat head that you also need to plug into the ground. I'm looking at a flyer from the nursery that reads that they want people to return at least some heritage seeds back to the nursery. The flier reads that of all the people who rented baskets from them only two people sent back any seeds. I'm planting them in a row, and the guy from the nursery is giving me advice where to put the tops and bottoms, and says not to push one hard but just drop it into the soil. I think hmm I guess there is money involved. They rent you packages of plants but you're supposed to return the seeds. I felt bad I didn't give them any money.

+ inside a huge house. Funky / home-made house. I'm sitting around a table with a bunch of people, talking and having a good time. I get the impression that all these people all work together somewhere. I have a sneaking suspicion that I know these people and that I've seen them before. I look around the table slowly, looking at each different face intently, I'm trying to place them. There are men and women, some funny faces some regular. And I say tentatively, "Do you guys....work...at the *card club*?!" And there is instant silence all around the table. Nobody wants to answer. Someone eventually says "yes." I didn't know where the card club was but I figured out it must be in this house run by that older grey haired bushy mustache man in his 50s/60s.

I'm walking around the house looking for the bathroom I have to pee. I can't find a bathroom. I find a strange water/heater apparatus with a moving pump hooked up to a small rack of shoe-box-sized computer systems. I had earlier seen the man working on something in the house, that must have been what he was working on. I see down a stairway to a level below the main level it looks dirty/junky/not finished basement areas. Someone points me down a hallway to the left . I enter a room with a little step up, the step is nailed on to the wall at about hip level, and it leads to a very small slit of a doorway leading to a tiny bathroom. The opening to the room is about 2 inches wide. I couldn't possibly squeeze through the opening.

A female country music singer starts singing about the bathroom, I say it's a thumbalina bathrrom because it's so small, and immediately the singer sings loudly "IT'S A THUMBALINA BAAAATHHROOOOOM..." (sings more stuff about it). I say "that's what I like about this house, you have all this funky little stuff like this tiny bathroom."

I'm at the far other end of the house. I notice the colors are pale purple and greens, pastels. I'm talking to the owners and say how I really love his house and say how huge the house is, you could walk forever in all directions in it. He says yeah when he's working on something on this side of the house and forgets a screw in the bathroom it's a long walk there.
Someone asks me about this man and asks if he's Episcopalian.

Outsider the house in the street/road I see kitty-corner a little strip mall with a dunkin' donuts and some other shops. I think "wow, this place is so awesome they even have a dunkin' donuts across the street I imagine that people come to visit and bring donuts all the time....

more recall coming in: washers, dry cleaners

...Inside the donut shop I think there's donuts and there must be fruit, too, but nobody ever buys the fruit, there's a woman behind the counter cleaning a bunch of huge grapes. My parents are in the store and they say they're "donut vegetarians" (meaning they never eat the donuts only the fruit).

Driving away from this place it's dark twilight, a hilly road, heading down through curvy road, I see a freeway onramp sign but the freeway number plate is to scratched and faded I can't read it. I think it reads <freeway #>, so I take what I think is the onramp. It's going downhill steeply, the road becomes heavily grooved with the grooves pointing down hill, the grooves are about 1-inch deep and 1-inch wide. I think that they really help with grip in the rain. I'm going faster and faster (there's no car, I'm kind of floating), I think about my sister because I think she lives in these hills...

.... another memory different dream: walking on dry earth climbing up a hill. I look at the ground and see the dry and light quality of dirt, I look at the vegetation on the hill and think I must be in California. There is a fence at the top of the hill the top of the fence is bent over under a tree, there's some sort of park on the other side of the fence, I go in ther are people there. I'm in a group of these people, I look at their faces, they're kind of Mexican/Pacific Islander looking. Some comment about more and more people are making the town bigger. It's some sort of park and I'm meeting my children there.

... back to the road...there are more and more gough marks I'm going faster, I think this is where people lost control and ran off the side of the road, I lose control and run off the side of the road into the dirt where there are very long think tight coils like vehicle suspension coils but hundreds of feet long. This area is under a lot of trees. I think what does my sister do here, and she tells me "I never go faster than 75 mph." There is a pathway here made up of boxes/doors/scrap painted wood about one meter wide and long and curving off ahead, my sister says "when that's wet you lose control and hydroplane on top of this path".

At the end of the path it's lighter, my sister is sitting on a fence to the left and is sitting next to a patch of yellow and green growing zucchinis, there's a little animal rustling about in the leaves and my sister is touching this plant.

+ Driving through a town, I notice a dry cleaning store across the road on the left. They take in your dry cleaning and they send it off to the dry cleaning factory and get it back and you pick it up again at that store. I look inside the store from across the street and it's almost empty. I see an outdoor complex of laundry stations where you can come to do laundry with big sink areas with an old roller dryer, there's a woman using it who tells me "yeah I'm still drying your pants this way."
Elsewhere in the town talking to my wife on the phone, she asks where I am she's annoyed I'm not home.

I'm standing and looking at this dry cleaning and laundry places, standing looking at them and analyzing them. I really felt like I was there, like it was a waking memory. At the table with the card house employees was also a high awareness moment, I really looked slowly and intently at each one of their faces.

08:56 it took me 15 minutes of non-stop fast talking to get all that voice recorded.

Awake for a while, eventually I gather my will to empty my mind and get back to sleep.

13:03

+ Sexy time on a stage. Afterwards, I'm in the hall, I leave out the back and come in around the front.

+ A huge parking lot is absolutely packed super tightly with parked cars. I'm with my wife we go down to the end of the lot we're looking for our old parking spot. Wife says we used to park right here, it was in a driveway, so I said I didn't think so. We're looking on the grounds and see the old markings of previously painted spot numbers they're close/tight together. Some other woman (the lot manager) and another couple are talking, my wife butts in and says "excuse me excuse me, let me just say something let me just say something," she's upset. I go back to the entrance area to this parking lot I'm now inside a restaurant. I'm standing on a counter, there's a guy there preparing a to-go tasty breakfast for me. He gives it to me. I'm looking for a fork to eat with I'm saving some for my wife I'm not sure if she's eaten anything or not I ask her did you get any of this.

+ A guy is judging girls who are singing in order to select one to sing in his restaurants, I know the judging is rigged and the girl was selected already ahead of time. One of the girls who I know, who is singing really well, he interrupts here and says "yeah yeah yeah only you and <this other girl> are any good," but he selects the other girl. I know it's rigged.

+ In a bar with a stage, some guy is going up on stage, I'm reassuring him that he'll do fine, he gets up on stage and starts acting like a total buffoon and goofy, I thought "oh god why did you do it like that if you'd done it like normal it would have been fine." There were a couple of waitresses standing in front of me by my table urging him on, I pinch one of them on the leg/butt and she then pinches the 2nd other waitress on her butt, who then looks back at me in shock with a "did you just pinch me?" look on her face.

+ a celebration, a bunch of young ladies, a bachelorette party.

+ scene at some house at night time, on the large front lawn, the house is in the distance in front of me, Indian family, father mother, couple of kids, a kid comes out shell-shocked, something happened, his (her?) feet were burned I knew, he/she is asking "where's the water?" I know he/she wants the water for the burned feet. I bring all the family together into a group hug, the father says "everything is OK why do we need to do this?" I say it's OK for the family to hug and to be brought together.

sometimes my dreams are wild and wacky, sometimes there more mundane, this last night was more mundane, the night before was more wild & wacky. Nice amount of detail again though, from 2 wakings.

00:00 Sunday 2014-03-02

00:30 ? bedtime

07:00

+ wife tells me: "You know I love you dearly but when we were making love earlier you farted and it so startled the priest that he didn't know what to do so he just left."

+ I'm babysitting some little kid, we're arriving at my parent's house, we're walking down the driveway and he smells my breath and says "What is that smell!?" I'm concerned because I realize I've had something to drink and I don't want his parents to know. At that his moment his father arrives outside on the street to come pick him up.

+ In a car about to start driving a line of girls walks by on the right I open a window to high-five them as they walk by, they start screaming at me not to back up because I'm about to run over something behind me.

+ I'm looking at an overhead map of the city that shows where my older son is working. I arrive at the office following my son I'm calling his name but he's not hearing me or not responding. I pause at reception wondering if they'll let me by I decide just to start walking in to the work room and they don't stop me. I call to my son again and I'm carrying a pad of technical drawing paper that I think he needs because he's working on maps.

+ In the same place (?) a room filled with people sitting down, young men are wearing blue shirts. The guys at the rightmost seat in the row stand up one after the other from the front to the back of the room, the guys make a religious sign when they stand up.

+ I'm in a bunker looking out of the narrow slit, there with mother, father, sister, bro-in-law, we're looking at and talking about the weather coming in from the ocean. I see in my vision a remote hillside near the ocean where the weather can be better detected, so I decide to go fly there and check it out. I fly into the air and head in that direction but somehow can't fly very fast. My sister tells me whatever I'm doing it takes a long time to fly out there. I tell her I'm going to fly out at super speed. I tell my sister "I can't do it if you're watchig". I arrive at that remote destination and I'm in a room with cabinets wanting to return to my family and to show them how far I flew I wanted to bring back a string/yarn with me but I think it's not going to work since it will run out of string before I make it all the way back. I try a few times taking off with string or fishing line but I realize it won't reach The last time I stop taking off and fly back I see a cat in my left peripheral vision following me which then jumps to catch the string I'm carrying.

+ Inside a place with a bunch of workers. There are valuable things there inside boxes I call to the work master to tell him we must one by one go by each box to make sure that nothing was taken by the workers. I'm holding a silver tarnished trump, the work leader is the guy who plays the trumpet. He says it's a beautiful trumpet but it's tarnished, I spit on a spot and rub it with my fingre and see the tarnish. I ask him to play a piece and hum the tune (Handel's Messiah: The Trumpet Shall Sound) but don't remember the name. He starts to play and I get weepy and cry because it was my father's favorite piece. and he's no longer with us (false memory), my mother and son are sitting in the audience and my son (s2) is starting to make all kinds of funny comments.

I'm pretty awake at this point after doing this recall. I keep reaching for more and more recall. Daydream a bit. Eventually I gather my will to empty my mind and I sleep again. Probably awake until around 8-8:30

10:00

+ driving with my mother, she's driving I'm in the front passengers seat she's not paying attention to the road (we're driving on GP Blvd) she keeps looking at something in her lap. I keep telling her stop that pay attention to the road, I see that oncoming cars are swerving very far into our lane several times. There's a lot of traffic in the oncoming direction, a large line of cars, someone says this is because of the protests at a house we pass up the hill on our right. This was at twilight. Now in daylight down in the city driving down Sol. Ave. I'm trying in vain to put on my seat belt, I keep pulling it out again and again and trying to buckle it but I can't find the right place to buckle in. The car then loses all electric power, and I'm in the back seat the dashboard has gone black and the seat belt has gone extremely tight and I can't move at all. We're just coasting down the road with no power it's a slight downhill so we could coast for some ways. I'm thinking "how in the hell will I get to school now." I tell my mother to coast to somewhere at least so we can stop in the shade but some cars brake in front of us and we must stop in the road.

We're on some sort of side street I'm standing outside the car, some guy comes up very friendly middle aged guy with a cheery face and start talking about things like countries being aggressive or not aggressive. One guy comes out and I fake-recognize him, I shake hands, tell him yeah yeah, I recognize you, "my name is <full name>", and ask "did you work at <former company-x>?" I'm not sure if he recognizes me or not. I feel like I recognize him and fake-remember his name as "Gabe Martini" I think he formed a partnership to start another company.

+ my children (as of about 8 years ago) are sitting in front of a computer in my sisters old room at my parent's house. S1 is wearing odd glasses like coke-bottle-bottom lenses, they're both wearing glasses, I say "remember the primary rule of programming, step-wise refinement. Make a function that does something and then write it later."

+ in a hostel with young people. There's a girl by my place, a boy beyond him. I'm taking off my pants and realize there are people in the room and hunker down behind a chair, I'll put my pants on when they're not looking. I think I should ask the girl out because I have a car (remembering my first college car). There's an annoying girl on the other side of me that is messing with my things, she's pulling my earbuds out of my pile of things and one of the plastic ear pads has fallen out and she's complaining that they don't work for her. I tell her it's an advanced sort of headphone system that doesn't work with all systems, and I see a little circuit board. She's upset that I'm not helping her to get it to work, and I tell her angrily it's my stuff, this is a personal space here, everyone's bed is a personal space, and I point around the room, the middle area is shared space, but everyone's bed is personal space. I see a video game scene briefly.

I'm walking around the floor of the hostel, it's dark, there are lots of white doors in the hallway. In one room I get a glimpse of a girl taking off her shirt, I back out quickly feeling embarassed, then go back for another peek . I go into another room, guys are in there, not the right room, back in the hallway, go back into our room, which is a 45-degree diagonal corner door. Now there are two girls on the other bed. I see them clearly. The girl sitting to my left on the bed is a blonde and she says her name is "Gippie" (hard G). I shake her hand.

I'm sitting on the floor they're sitting on the bed, I think I should invite them out because I have a car. I think I'll ask them to kiss me when we get to my car. We go out. The next stop is some place where I'm going to find dates for the girls. There are guys and girls there but they look really sleazy and skanky and are older. They start talking about sex but I say these are good girls I don't want to find bad boys for them. Behind me there's a particularly nasty girl who starts speaking really fast gibberish barely can make out any words, but I laugh anyway to show I think I understand what she says even though I think it's nonsense.

A young man comes for one of the girls and stands before me there's nowhere to sit so he sits on my lap I'm not excited by this he's a dude, he has a big platter of presents for the girls, I realize the presents are all full of alcohol he's going to try to get the girls drunk, I see for example 8-balls full of alcohol. My younger son (s2) is sitting a few rows back on my right and he sees the alcohol platter and exclaims loudly "Holy Shit!". I'm quite upset at him for using such language.

+ weird baseball: outfield is tall rolling hills the inner "outfield coordinator" must shout to the far outfielders because the hills block the view of the incoming fly balls

+ 2 women talking about dreaming: "have you ever dreamed about a dog in a car?" (they weren't talking to me but I answer anyway) "Yes I remember a dream about a dog climbing in through the sunroof -- I think about telling them about lucid dreaming but don't

+ cartoon dinosaur who sleeps for millions of years because he soaks up the water every time it rains

+ there are large sheets of salt-water taffy on the ground, I eat some, there are large packs of cheese I've supposed to take to some company but I think I'll keep it for myself, some woman offers to help me carry them, I decline at first but then accept

+ in conflict with some people I'm accusing them of draining all the water out of the carport, and show my hat sitting on the ground as proof that the water flowed out in the direction of their carport, but the woman there doesn't accept responsibility and I'm upset.

+ playing racquetball, my momentum is towards the back, my weight is on my back foot, but my opponent's next shot goes to the front of the court, I can't make it in time, maybe earlier, scoot my racquet across the ground to the front of the court to hopefully get the shot but it misses

+ another racquetball game, I think my heart is overstrained so I stop playing, then 3 guys bring their beds and cots into the court to spend the night, they have my childhood red LED clock radio and we're talking about what a great radio it is, I hear the announcer over the radio, we're comparing it to a modern radio and the modern one is not as good, the announcer is talking about a baseball game.

took a nap but no recall, almost WILDed, saw an image forming but it vanished when I gave it my attention.