Hyu's Adventures

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I've had a lot of dream fragments related to this lately.
I dream them completely out of order, but they clearly belong together.
They're all non-lucid and play a few years in the future.
This is a try to connect them and fit them into chronological order, now that I feel I have enough fragments for everything to make sense.

• Working for NASA
  I own a company specializing in all kinds of modern computer toys.
  We mostly develop futuristic user interface hardware, but recently we've gotten into the development of air plane cockpits.
  Most companies want more modern hardware than what is currently used.
  It's not like our stuff is insanely more user friendly, but it looks much more futuristic and it isn't really more expensive than the traditional stuff.
  
  NASA hired us to design all user interface devices on a new experimental spacecraft.
  It's supposed to achieve high speeds using a small nuclear reactor powering experimental Magnetoplasmadynamic thrusters.
  This would allow traveling to close planets such as Mars in much more reasonable time frames.
  We're supposed to design everything in the cockpit, and all other interfaces all over the ship.
  We're also in charge of creating a simulator where pilots can train flying the spacecraft and to figure out what the most user friendly control to operate this thing are.
  
  NASA doesn't agree with some of my ideas. They prefer designs where the pilot has little control over the spacecraft for some reason.
  I don't understand this and most of my designs feature direct user input, such as a joystick to freely maneuver the ship.
  
  Although I'm not working for NASA directly, I still get to play with their stuff and I spend many hours in the simulator I'm designing.
  After some time we get the bad news.
  The government has canceled all funding for NASA, so the project is scrapped.
  This doesn't directly affect us since we get paid on a monthly basis, not on project success.
  I feel very sad though, I never understood why most people lost interest in space exploration after the first few Apollo missions, and now
  they're scrapping the whole program.
  ______
• Back to Europe
  I get a very interesting phone call from a company in Europe.
  They specialize in the development of nuclear fusion.
  The technology is solid, and produces clean renewable energy at an extremely efficient rate.
  However for some reason there exists nearly zero funding for this.
  I'm not sure if this is because it gets grouped in the "nuclear energy" category by the media and politics, which is stupid,
  or if there is some sort of conspiracy going on.
  The energy is clean, and the reaction doesn't produce hazardous radiation or any other dangerous by-product.
  
  Anyways, they want us to design the whole reactor controls and everything.
  They want a super futuristic look to help them finally convince the media that this is indeed the future of energy generation.
  This comes in handy because I was planning to move the company to Europe all along.
  The US military is pressuring me to work on fighter jets and similar things all the time, and it makes me very uncomfortable.
  
  After relocating to Switzerland I am working with said company on their reactor.
  They finally got the permission to build it. I also work on a supersonic airplane project.
  I enjoy working with everyone, they are not as secretive as the guys in America.
  They like explaining how all their stuff works and I get an immense insight into fusion reactions and supersonic airplane designs.
  ______
• Taking things into my own hands
  The fusion reactor is a huge success. Some people are still skeptic, but most governments are buying the green and renewable energy.
  I make a ridiculous amount of money on this project and also quite a bit on the supersonic airplane.
  I talk to the guys responsible for the airplane a lot because they also work for the ESA.
  I ask them how reasonable it would be to put a small fusion reactor onto a spaceship to power Magnetoplasmadynamic thrusters.
  They confirm that it would be much more reasonable than a nuclear reactor, and would save an insane amount of weight because you don't need
  the very heavy contamination to protect the crew from radiation.
  
  I tell him jokingly that I worked for NASA before and still have all the computer, simulator and user interface designs, we should get some sort of
  new project going.
  A few days later he comes into my office and acts quite secretive.
  He asks me if I was serious about those designs.
  I tell him we never officially sold them to NASA, so I still own all of them.
  He says I absolutely need to come to some sort of ESA meeting.
  
  I have to sign the biggest NDA I have seen in my entire life to enter the ESA meeting.
  It's over 200 pages long, I jokingly say that signing this feels like selling my soul.
  In the meeting I learn that the ESA isn't messing about.
  They have developed a technology that allows traveling faster than light, or rather work around the problems associated with approaching the speed of light.
  It's very technical and I don't understand most of it.
  It involves forming a bubble around the ship, it reminds me of Star Trek.
  
  Finally most people besides some company heads and ESA directors leave.
  I am requested to stay in the room.
  More technology is presented, and it is clear that the presentation is going towards a space ship project.
  It all sounds oddly reasonable, even though most involved technologies are somewhat experimental.
  
  The final problem that is mentioned is financing, ESA does not receive enough of it for a project of this magnitude.
  They want to do some small tests with drones followed by a manned mission into another solar system, using the FTL drive.
  I say that given my recent acquirements I'd be willing to develop all computer systems for free and even invest some money into the mission.
  A few more company heads follow this movement...
  ______
• FTL
  I am now working full time at a special facility used for this mission alone.
  It is absolutely huge.
  We launch the first FTL testing drone into space.
  I am sitting in mission control overlooking most of the technical systems.
  The drone is ready to test the FTL system.
  Everyone in mission control is extremely excited as we wait for the FTL countdown to run out.
  As the drone accelerates, our information becomes more and more delayed as it approaches the speed of light.
  All connections are quickly lost.
  But this was to be expected, we don't have technology to transmit information faster than light.
  The drone is supposed to fly ~1 light day within a few minutes, then stop and transmit a signal.
  If we have a position signal tomorrow we know it worked.
  ______
• Hyperdrive
  We've tested 3 drones now, each one with a better FTL system. The 3rd one worked absolutely flawlessly.
  The engineers have dubbed the system "Warp Drive".
  I have adopted this into the user interface for the spacecraft.
  The director is complaining about it, he says Warp Drive would be very appropriate due to the connection to Star Trek.
  I suggest calling it Hyperdrive instead. He seems pleased with that.
  ______
• Destiny
  All details of the project are clear now, and the ship is being built inside our facility.
  It uses a small but very powerful fusion reactor to power a new form of Magnetoplasmadynamic thrusters.
  It can generate an artificial gravity field, making life on board much easier, and enabling us to cancel out the extreme acceleration forces of the engine.
  Without this the passengers would be crushed by the g-forces during acceleration.
  It is also capable of atmospheric flight. It will fly into space by itself.
  This is actually necessary because it is way too big and heavy for a payload delivery system.
  It is also very solid, with a thick hull. This ship is not build around value for money.
  It looks very different than anything else we've send into space so far, compared to it everything looks extremely fragile.
  ESA plans a crew of 8 people for this mission.
  
  We're discussing the name of the ship.
  Someone suggests calling it "Ikarus", something about challenging destiny.
  I ask why not call it "Destiny" then? "Ikarus" has a bit of a negative vibe.
  ______
• Pilot
  I am playing around in the simulator.
  I often go into the simulator claiming to test stuff, but I'm actually picturing myself being a pilot on the mission.
  I bet everyone knows about it, but I don't care, it's way too much fun. I'm also quite good at it.
  
  The director intercepts me as I leave the simulator. He says we need to talk.
  We talk about how I know every detail about the ship, how I designed most of it.
  Then he says I have by far the best simulator scores, which surprises me a bit.
  He suddenly acts extremely serious.
  
  He offers me the position of captain on the mission, he wants me to fly the Destiny.
  My mind is blown, I immediately reply with "Yes!"
  He asks me if I'm sure, if I don't need to consider the risks.
  I tell him that this is absolutely not necessary, my decision is final and there isn't a doubt on my mind.
  ______
• Trouble
  The Destiny is nearing completion.
  All vital systems are installed, it's basically just missing the outer hull.
  But there is trouble. Some governments are voicing concern.
  The media throws some unreasonable accusations at us, that going faster than light might end the universe and whatnot.
  Telling them that we've already done it 3 times and the universe still exists does not calm them.
  I'm on some TV show defending against other random accusations, explaining why they make so sense.
  ______
• The Signal
  The director informs me that they have received a signal a few years ago, from an unknown source flying by earth.
  He shows me the data... it doesn't make any sense.
  According to the positioning of the source of the data it must have moved faster than light.
  It was broadcasting a specific position nonstop.
  The director tells me that it is assumed the signal was of alien origin.
  I finally understand why some governments are concerned with the mission, we are going to the location broadcasted by this most likely alien object.
  ______
• Lying
  Destiny is ready, so is the crew. The official launch is in 2 months, however we are actually going to launch in 2 days.
  I understand how governments are afraid of a mission that could potentially make contact with another species, but
  I really want to do this, and so does everyone else on the project.
  By faking a late launch date, and claiming that the construction of the Destiny isn't finished yet, we try to avoid the inevitable shutdown by the governments.
  ______
• Launch
  Launching the Destiny is incredibly easy.
  You just open the hangars of the construction facility and fly it out to space.
  This is why we were able to keep the launch date a secret until now.
  We haven't received any official "no-go" from any government, so technically launching isn't entirely illegal.
  We are going to get into trouble though, that much is clear.
  
  I'm sitting in the Destiny with my crew.
  I am the main Pilot, Nicole is my Co-Pilot. She had very good simulator scores and is a trained astronaut.
  She's never been to space though.
  There is an engineer on the crew to maintain the thrusters.
  The 5 remaining people are 4 scientists and a language/culture specialist.
  
  The hangar doors are open, everyone pointing a camera at the facility can now see that the construction is finished.
  We are fully fueled, ready to go, just waiting for the signal from mission command.
  The hangar is right at the end of a very long runway, so we can just roll out and launch.
  
  I'm very nervous when I get the signal to launch. Thankfully the process is entirely automated.
  We're slowly rolling out, after about 100m the MPDT engage.
  They are absolutely brutal, you can really feel how much power those things have even though they're operating below 0.1% of their capacity right now.
  They need to be though, the Destiny weights over 400 tons with fuel.
  I am really nervous as the Destiny finally takes off. It's not like I'm worried that something would go wrong, it's just the excitement.
  The ship climbs at a progressively faster rate and the thrusters become stronger and stronger.
  
  The beauty of starting to see the stars during the middle of the day calms me down though.
  I verify if everything is in order. Everything is perfect.
  We enter orbit and bring the ship into the correct position for the acceleration maneuver for FTL.
  ______
• Decision
  We're in orbit and in position.
  We have a video conversation open with mission control.
  They have just been told that we have to cancel the launch.
  We are ordered to come back down immediately. He obviously isn't pleased to announce this.
  Some official government type figure is with him demanding to comply immediately.
  They have voted a few minutes ago that the project is too dangerous... right...
  The mission director tells me to "try to cancel the acceleration maneuver".
  
  It is very clear what he's doing. The acceleration maneuver hasn't begun yet.
  He gives us the opportunity to say we cannot cancel it and continue on with the mission.
  I block communications and ask the rest of the crew if we should just go for it.
  Everyone agrees that we should.
  
  I enable the coms and tell the director that I am terribly sorry, but it is too late to cancel the acceleration sequence.
  The gov. guy gets really angry and demands that mission control remotely cancels the sequence.
  The director explains that this is impossible.
  Due to the nature of the mission, remote control would make no sense because we're out of reach most of the time anyways.
  The gov. guy is furious but accepts that he can't do anything.
  
  I activate the acceleration sequence. It is quite dramatic.
  Even though the artificial gravity field compensates most of the vibrations and the acceleration forces, it still feels extreme.
  We're being shaken violently and even though the ship indicates we are experiencing 3g of acceleration, it feels like much more, but it doesn't hurt the way more g's would.
  The acceleration maneuver lasts multiple hours. It is extremely tiring feeling such forces for so long.
  Finally, as we reach our wanted speed, the engines quiet down and the vibrations stop.
  We are now cruising about at many times the speed of light; the ship feels perfectly stable.
  Without looking outside you wouldn't be able to tell that we are racing at a mind-boggling speed.
  The outside looks very beautiful. The vision is distorted but very colorful.
  You just hear the gentle humming of the fusion reactor and the MPDT's working at very low power.
  We will arrive at our destination within approximately 2 weeks.
  Everyone is happy that everything worked out so far, and that we managed to actually pull it off.
  ______
• Travel
  I have had multiple dreams about the next 2 weeks.
  I'm either piloting the ship, which is basically just staring at instruments or doing some maintenance work on some ship components.
  So far everything is working fine, a few hiccups in diagnostics but that's about it.
  Nicole and I take shifts staring at instruments, even though if something goes wrong navigation wise, there's nothing we can do.
  You can't exactly make a course correction going many times the speed of light.
  I'm trying not to think about what would happen if the hyperdrive fails. The truth is no one knows, but it most likely wouldn't end well.
  We're all wondering what waits for us at the rendezvous point, or if there is anything at all.
  I think I'm the only one fully expecting something or someone to wait for us at the rendezvous point.
  I'm convinced that signal a few years ago was form an alien probe designed to catch the attention of species capable of FTL travel.
  
  I'm usually just sitting in my seat staring at what seems to be stars rushing by, wondering what's going to happen next.
  I occasionally glimpse at the instruments. They always display that everything is alright and that we're on the correct course.
  It's oddly boring, but the excitement of what waits for us keeps me entertained.
  I sometimes wonder what's currently happening back home.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I am in high school, in my class room.
The class room is currently on break, but the teacher is there for some reason.
I hate her, she's always teasing me because I'm a bit of a geek.
She often makes fun of me in front of the class.
(This teacher really existed, she was a bitch and the hardest challenge I had to overcome in high school)

Someone is trying to bully me, he asks me to give him all my money.
I tell him to go fuck himself.
I know I don't stand a chance in a fight, but I know that letting yourself get bullied in high school
has much worse consequences than getting beaten up once.

We're fighting, the teacher doesn't give a shit.
She looks at us, makes sure that I am loosing and smiles at the situation and keeps working on something.
What a bitch, I hate her so much.
The bully is pushing me against the wall and punches me into the stomach a few times.

I notice it doesn't hurt the way it should.
Then I see that he is wearing a holster with a gun? Why would he do that?
I realize that I am dreaming, but I don't have the time to think about what is happening properly.

Realizing that this is a dream I immediately understand that the bully can't hurt me.
I punch him in the throat with my elbow and he lets go of me.
I am overcome with rage at this point, but not at the bully.
He's just a stupid high schooler, he can't help being an idiot.
It's the fucking teacher, the way she turns going to school into hell for me,
the way she enjoys seeing me getting beaten up, the fact that she wants to intervene now that I
am not the one getting beaten up anymore.

That's right, she stands up and wants to punish me for punching the bully in the throat.
She starts talking in her extremely arrogant voice, but I am too furious to listen to her.
I grab the gun from the bully and remove the safety.
The teacher finally shuts up and looks scared.

I point the gun at her face. I am so furious, so full of rage, I know that I am going to kill her.
I can feel the adrenaline in my body. I'm about to shoot her.

"I'm sorry..."
"Liar!"

I pull the trigger and feel the recoil of the gun. I can't see for a split second.
My teacher is falling backwards to the ground. The wall behind her is splattered with blood.
Her dead body drops to the ground and blood starts spilling over the ground.

Fuck, I didn't expect it to be this realistic.
Ah well, it's not like I really killed her, I just wanted to see what it would feel like to let myself be controlled by all this anger.
It felt quite satisfying.

I am a bit surprised.
This dream must mean that she's still on my mind, even after 10 years. Wow, I really hated that bitch.
I wonder what the reaction of the other DC's is and look around.

The bully looks at me quite surprised.

"Bitch had it coming..."

He smiles in agreement.
I hand the gun back to him, he can't hurt me when I'm lucid anyways.
The rest of the class seems to celebrate the death of the teacher.
I find this absolutely hilarious. I know that everyone hated her, but damn, they're actually celebrating!

Something happened after this which I cannot recall properly...


Note: Yes, I really hated that teacher. No, I would never kill or hurt anyone.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I am in the countryside, walking up a path which leads to my house. (I have never seen this place)
The path leads up to the top of a small mountain.
The area isn't very populated, so I don't encounter many people on my way up.

I finally reach a small street, my house is at the end of it.
There's a few more houses, maybe 12 or so and a water fountain in the middle of the street.
For some reason I am attracted to the fountain, it is very beautiful, but I don't really know why.
As I approach it I start to question my surroundings and quickly realize that I am dreaming.

I am happy to have become lucid, but the feeling quickly vanishes.
In front of the fountain I find a dead wolf. He seems to have died because of a deep wound on his neck.
I feel odd. Seeing the dead wolf makes me kind of sad.

It starts to rain. Has it ever rained in my dreams? Does it rain because I am sad?
The sky starts clearing up and it stops raining, rays of light start poking through the clouds.
A small bird emerges from the light and lands on the fountain, looking at the wolf.

I have seen this bird before! It is the same as in the Dr. Who dream!
The bird looks at me for a few seconds.
Then he switches his attention back to the wolf.
He spreads his tiny wings and they start glowing in all kinds of colors.
Some glitter emitted from his wings lands on the wolf.

The wolf comes back to life and looks at the bird. They exchange a few thoughts, the wolf is thankful that the bird saved his life.
He runs away. I am amazed by what I just witnessed, but I still feel somewhat weird, although in a positive way now.
The bird takes off and lands on the hand of a girl.
I recognize her, It's Faye!
She looks different than last time though, but her aura is clearly the same.
She has long brown hair now and shimmering green eyes.

"What have you learned from this experience?"

I remember that WakingNomad has asked me this question a few times.

"He's a phoenix..."
"Yes, he is, so what does this mean?"
"I don't know... what does it mean? We are in my dream bubble aren't we?"

Faye gives me an affirming nod.
She acts very mysteriously. Yuya sometimes does that as well.
I kind of like it though, I've always been a fan of mystery.
She wants me to keep thinking, I'm supposed to come to a conclusion.

"So this phoenix, he is part of my imagination?"
"A projection of your subconscious the people on your forum would say."

I think this is the first time a DC has made a direct reference to DV.
Faye talks about how in my dream bubble, everything that I don't actively create is a projection of my subconscious.
I already knew that, and she knew that I did, but she's trying to make a point.

"So where does this idea of a phoenix come from?"
"That is the question. Knowing the question is half of the answer."

I really like the way she is speaking, it is so mysterious, yet it is very clear that she is leading me onto the right path.
I look at my left arm and spread my own wings, which I use to navigate the dream plane.
I remembered correctly, the wings on my left arm do look exactly the same way as the wings of the phoenix.

"When I use these wings to teleport, that is actually a phoenix ability."

I say this more as a realization than a question.
And after saying it I know that I am right.
I can use these wings to move through the fabric of space and easily navigate the dream plane by doing so.
I can also heal other beings, but the ability is far too complex for me to do anything major.
I could never revive someone, not even a very simple being, such as an insect.
The sheer amount of energy this would require is beyond my imagination.
I remember that I have used these abilities many years ago in my dreams.
My vision is blurry, I assume the dream is about to end, I feel like I should thank her before it does.

"Thank you, I have indeed learned many things from this experience."

I say this quite awkwardly, I am a bit shy.
Faye approaches me and whispers into my ear.

"I am your dream guide you know, this is what I do, maybe you should ask me for help more often..."

non dream - lucid - non lucid

After the last rather special dream, I decided to WBTB and attempt a WILD the next night.
I really wanted to see Yuya again, I kept thinking about her when I went to bed.

________

The WBTB alarm goes off and I try to WILD thinking about Yuya.
Unfortunately I fall asleep...

... I'm walking... just walking... aimlessly.
There is no path, there is no ground, I'm just walking.
I get a sudden burst of awareness and my vision sharpens.
Clouds turn into objects and I can see that I am on Teraluna.
I have a hard time focusing on my surroundings, I zone in and out a few times until I manage
to stabilize the dream.

I'm talking to Yuya. She know's im stressed in waking life, so she made me special tea that will help me relax.
When I drink it, it "tastes relaxing".
I talk to Yuya about my last dream, about hovering through a galaxy full of pulsating stars...

"I want to show you something... come here..."

She sits on the ground and makes me a sign to sit in front of her.
As I sit down I feel very light headed, but also very relaxed, probably because of the tea.
Yuya takes a meditative pose and I mimic it.
I'm sitting right in front of her, facing her.
We both close our eyes and start linking our thoughts.

"Let go of your thoughts... let go of everything... I will guide you..."

Her thoughts become mine and my thoughts become hers.
Our consciousness start merging together.
With Yuya's help, I manage to free my mind of all thoughts and let go of all the muscles in my body.
My dream body is slowly falling into a state of perfect calm, like it is turning itself off.

I can feel Yuya's body touching mine, but I know we're sitting apart from each other.
Yet it feels like we are embracing each other.
After some time I realize that it is our minds that are embracing, not our bodies.
I feel my body completely turning off, it is slowly letting go of my "spirit" (I call it spirit, I don't know what else to call it... my mind? my consciousness? my soul?)
As my body turns off I completely loose perception not only of my surroundings but also of my emotions...

... I can see again, but it feels different from seeing. I am now a small cloud of pulsating energy, and so is Yuya.
I decide to call this form "spirit".
Yuya is very pure and blue, there are fine crystalline strings emitting from her center.
I am green and orange a complex, complicated, "worried" but gentle mix of colors.
My strings move around more nervously than her's.
Our spirits are touching, and we start moving into a direction.

I start seeing an infinite amount of other spirits, forming a spiral galaxy of energy.
I see many kinds of spirits. The spirit of a small bush of grass, the spirit of a tree, the spirit of a bird, and the spirits of many other beings.
They are all beautiful in their own way.
I understand that what I am seeing is the essence of life, it is what drives us, it is why we live...
We keep floating along some sort of path, our spirits are linked, we decide directions as one.

After some time our spirits detach, and I feel my dream body forming around me again.
I open my eyes and I am sitting on a huge green leaf. I am very small, and the plant the leaf belongs to is very big, it can easily carry my weight.
Yuya appears next to me, smiling like she always does.
I don't ask her any questions because there are none to ask.
What I saw is beyond my level of understanding, yet because our consciousness was merged, I caught a glimpse of it.

I am still in an extremely relaxed state and I don't feel like talking or doing anything at all for that matter.
We just sit on this leaf, enjoying the feeling of not thinking at all...


Notes:
I am not a spiritual person, but I do believe that we all have some sort of spirit or soul, depending on what you want to call it.
It doesn't make sense to me that our consciousness consists of only a neural network.
I'm not sure where those extremely relaxing dreams are coming from.
Maybe I'm longing for this relaxed state because I am stressed in waking life?

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm not sure sure at which point I started dreaming, or if I dreamed all of it, and when exactly I was lucid.
So I'll go ahead and mark things with colors like I experienced them.
In other words if I thought I was awake I'll mark it as if I was, even though I don't really know.
I have never taken any mind altering drugs, I wonder if it's anything like this...

_______

I wake up in bed... I still feel very tired.
The room is very dark and I lately leave the shutters just slightly open so I can see if it's already day when I wake up.
I assume it's still night and I want to continue sleeping.
I notice I haven't moved yet and I don't seem to sense my body.
The thought of WILD'ing crosses my mind.
It's been quite some time since I've attempted to WILD, so why not.

Right as I try to relax, the little colors I see become somewhat bright and start changing.
This was fast? I never get HI this fast, this is weird.
I realize I'm floating over my bed. Am I already dreaming?
Was I having a false awakening? I never get visuals like this when I'm dreaming though.
As my room lights up I realize that I am floating in some sort of tunnel. The room is no longer there.
I'm gently descending this tunnel of colorful clouds and lights.
I suppose I'm actually falling, but I'm falling so slowly that I'm not worried.
I actually enjoy it quite a bit, it's very relaxing.

I can hear ambient music. (something like this)


I try to focus on a color cloud. It is clearly changing it's color all the time, but I can't actually see it changing.
It changes colors right in front of my eyes, but I don't see the change, I only realize it has changed.
This has me perplexed for quite some time. Am I really dreaming? or can you actually have HI this strong?

After some time I am floating in my room again, except it's lit now. The spotlights in my room are on but they
have different colored bulbs in them.
Somehow my room looks much bigger than it is in waking life, but somehow everything is still the same size.
I don't understand how this is possible and hover over to my desk.

I take a can of coke from it because I want to know what it tastes like.
But the can is very weird. It seems way too small, but upon closer investigation it isn't.
I cannot tell if it's a normal size or a tiny can. I can't understand why I cannot distinguish this.
I wonder if this is what tripping feels like? A friend once told me he couldn't tell sizes apart when he was doing some sort of drug.

The lid of my laptop opens up by itself and it goes out of standby.
I am presented with the Visual Studio project I was working on last night.
I was working on a physics engine and needed to add support for air resistance into it, but I was too tired and went to sleep.
I don't understand why this was so hard...

I go to wikipedia and copy paste the equation for drag straight into my code.
The equation appears and the program starts on my second monitor.
I can see the numbers in the equation changing as stuff moves around in the game.
I need to test if it feels realistic, so naturally, I climb into my monitor to see if the falling physics are correct.

I'm falling down yet again, I'm in the game, but I can still see the monitor with the equation as well.
I see both things at the same time.
Whilst I am falling with my first body, I correct an error in the formula with my second body which is still in front of the pc.
I feel the corrections take effect with my in-game body and understand that everything is correct now.

I hit some key that does something and my bodies merge again and I'm back in my room.
The color clouds are back, but I can still see my bed.
But I can't see myself in it which surprises me. I was assuming to find myself sleeping in it.
I go closer and see a pulsating light where I'm supposed to be.
It's beautiful. I go closer and it turns into a galaxy.

I am now floating through this galaxy of colorful stars. I am relaxed... I feel at peace...

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm on Teraluna with Yuya and Liv.
Liv is here for the first time.
The gates would usually prevent any demons from getting into the city, but they let her through because
she has no dark thoughts.

Even though everyone is super nice to her she's still extremely shy and clearly feels out of place.
But she's happy to be here.
We're sitting at the table in front of Yuya's place talking about all kinds of things.
There's a bowl with sweets on the table, and I keep sneaking stuff from it because everything is so delicious.
Lemon marzipan surrounded by black chocolate, yum!

During the conversation I notice that something is on Liv's mind.
There's something bothering her, she wants to ask something, but she's too shy.
I offer her a cookie from the bowl.
Yuya realizes that there's quite a bit of stuff missing from it.

"Hyu...?"
"Yeeeees?"

I chuckle as she throws something at me. (I think it was a hairpin)
Liv realizes what's going on and laughs out loud.
There we go, loose some of that shyness.

"So Liv, what is it you want to ask?"

She turns red.
It takes some time to actually convince her to tell me.
She finally ends up explaining that she is going to a ball.
She has to for some reason, and her sisters will be there.
But she's very uncomfortable going there, because it is common for succubi to seduce someone
rich or powerful to go with them. She doesn't want to do that though.
She's known for being shy, which is a bit ridiculous since she's a succubus, and she'll be laughed at if she comes without a 'date'.

"I don't really see where the problem is."
"But... I don't..."
"You could just ask someone to go with you, you know."
"Nobody would go with me..."

She's not biting, but I can clearly see it in her face.
She wants to ask me to go with her.

"You could ask me for example."
"But..."
"..."
"Would you.... go with me? ..."
"Yes, absolutely."

Yuya says: "See, that wasn't so hard, was it?"

"So, where is this ball anyways?"
"..."
"... it's in hell."

Wait, what?
I look at Yuya. She doesn't seem concerned, so it probably isn't as dangerous as it sounds.
Whatever, it'll be an adventure, it's probably going to be awesome...


... Liv and I are standing in line... to get into hell I suppose?
I'm wearing a red and white kimono, as is tradition for dragons according to Yuya.
Liv's dress reminds me a bit of a prom dress, it's cute, it looks nice on her.
We're at the entrance... it says "Club Hades".
I ask Liv:

"Seriously? Hades?"
"You know him?"
"No... he... what?"
"The club is named after it's owner, he's called Hades."

I find it funny, but Liv obviously doesn't know about Greek mythology.

The inside of the club is actually quite awesome. It's in a huge cave, and the place is lit up by pools and fountains of lava.
I hide my energy at first, because there's a lot of demons here, but that quickly attracts the attention of some predators.
Some bird-like creature looks at me with an appetite.
I quickly change my aura and emit some energy to show that I'm a dragon.
The creature quickly looks away.
I decide to act confident, as if I have nothing to fear here.

There are all sorts of creatures here, most of them look humanoid.
Not all of them appear to be demons though, some clearly aren't and some may very well be human.
During a conversation Liv explains that this club is some sort of a neutral zone.
Hades is insanely powerful, nobody would dare to cause any kind of trouble here.

At some point she introduces my to her sisters.
There's 3 of them, they're all older than Liv, and clearly not as nice as she is.
They seduced some men to come with them. The men aren't even aware where they are, they're under complete mind control.
Her sisters are extremely surprised that she's with a dragon.
The oldest of them asks how she managed to seduce a dragon.
I say in a serious and dark voice:

"She didn't have to."

That's gonna leave an impression.

...I'm a bit surprised that nobody's causing trouble, some creatures look quite aggressive.
I suppose this place is quite safe indeed.
Liv is still very shy, but she doesn't show it to the other guests.
I ask her for a dance. She's quite happy and we go to the dance floor...

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I play starcraft2. I'm quite a bit better at it than most of my friends, but I'm nowhere near as good as to play in a tournament.
I do watch some casts though, follow some of the tournaments, so I guess that I have some idea of how these things work...
After waking up I noticed that this dream lasted for a really long time and there were a ton of false memories.
The gameplay mechanics were also spot on as far as I can recall, although the maps were quite weird.


False memories:
After getting my masters degree I moved to California, LA to follow my career as a game designer.
I suddenly had a lot of free time on my hands, so I started to play sc2 quite intensely.
I got to know a few people, and after some time I ended up in the pro-gaming team "ROOT". (Probably because I watch Destiny's stream who's in root?)
Some worldwide tournament is happening in LA, the biggest one in the history of gaming, with an insane prize pool.
I not only managed to qualify, but I actually got into the semi-finals.


I'm sitting in a glass cabin, in front of thousands of people. I'm wearing sound canceling headphones, I can't really hear anything besides
the sounds of the game and my own breathing.
I played really well in this tournament so far, I'm quite proud of myself.
I somehow managed to stay quite calm, even though I'm playing in front of a crowd, but things have taken a different turn now.

I have to play one of my teammates. It's currently 3-3 ZvZ, the next game will decide who's going to the finals.
I want to win, but I don't want to knock my teammate out.
Without my team I'd still be a random master league player, but thanks to them I'm playing here, in this huge tournament.
They taught me to play this game at a competitive level, I'm this good only thanks to them.

We're 20 minutes into the game. We're both maxed on roach infestor.
The map is quite open and huge. This game will probably be decided within a split second.
If anyone is caught out of position he'll probably loose right away.

I can't take it... the pressure is just too much. My heart is pounding, sweat is dribbling onto my keyboard.
My hands are shivering... I'm loosing it. I have to get my hands under control or I won't be able to micro properly.
My emotions are burning me on the inside.
I don't want to knock him out. I don't want to give him an easy win either, or we'll all feel bad.
I take a glimpse past my monitor. I can't see well due to the spotlights, but there's so many people cheering.
I don't want to disappoint them either.

I see his army approaching. I have to pull myself together, now!
I take my hands off the keyboard and close my eyes, just for one second, in the hopes that it'll calm me down.
And for some reason it does.
We're fighting. Any mistake can cost the game now.
None of us makes one, we trade army's pretty evenly, but then I can see it.
His reinforcements are running into the fight, but they somehow balled up.
I barely manage to catch them with a fungal growth.
He fucked up, I push forward, hard and relentless.
A few seconds later he gg's out. I won.
I can feel the pressure suddenly disappearing. I take a few deep breaths. I'm in the finals...


... I'm at the hotel. The finals are tomorrow.
My whole team is staying on the same floor. Everyone is offering me practice matches.
But I don't want to play, I want to chill so I'll have a clear head tomorrow...

It's the next day.
My finals are against a Terran player... It's my worst matchup.
He's very popular, I doubt I'll be able to win against him.
But knowing that I made it into the finals in my first big tournament makes me stay calm.
Even if I get steamrolled in the finals... I still accomplished a lot.

... He's leading 3-2. I have to win 2 games in a row to take it. I doubt I'll be able to.
But somehow in the 6th game, I manage to pull off some insane nydus play and barely manage to win the game.
3-3 again, well fuck me...
Suddenly I feel a chance of winning again, and the pressure is back.
I'm so nervous, my hands are shivering again and the final match hasn't even started yet.
Then I see the map he's chosen. I'm fucked.
The map is extremely terran favored in TvZ. Unless he makes a massive mistake there is no way to win this, and he won't
make any stupid mistakes...

I can't take it, I have to leave my box to catch some fresh air.
The organization decides that there is a 20 minute break before the final match due to some technical issues.
Well lucky me, 20 minutes to calm down... I feel like throwing up.
The crowd is cheering... I wonder how they would react if I threw up on stage.
I see my team mates waving me over. I walk to them, I can really use some encouraging words.
I notice my girlfriend is with them... huh? did I have a girlfriend?
Of course I do... silly me. (No, you don't...)

She immediately says "come with me!"
My team mates are a bit confused as she drags me away to the restrooms.
She's probably gonna give me a pep talk. The crowd is too loud, we can't have a conversation in the main room.
But she has something different in mind...
She explains that she knows the best way to calm down. I only know what she's on about once she starts undressing.
Right... this couldn't end up badly at all.
But I am way too nervous about my next match to think about this.

We have sex... in the restrooms, just minutes before my final match.
I can't believe I'm doing this. But it really does make me forget about the match for a bit...

... It's time... I'm coming out of the restrooms. The crowd is cheering.
I walk onto the main stage facing my opponent.
I'm calm... perfectly calm. I'm ready!
I shake my opponents hand "Good luck!"
I say this with absolute confidence.
He knows the map is strongly in his favor, he knows that he's the better player, me being so confident is probably fucking with his mind.
He doesn't know what to say and goes into his box.

I sit down in mine and stretch. I'm so ready, I got this.
I look at the map, and suddenly, I know exactly what I'm going to do.
There is one completely insane tactic I came up with recently, which may actually work on this map.
He's probably never seen it before, and I just broke his calm.

I smile... I got this!

non dream - lucid - non lucid

Still kinda stressed with school, my dream recall is pretty bad, but I still remember occasional lucids.
Dreams are usually either short or not very vivid though.

… I’m sitting at a table with 3 girls. They’re all wearing fancy dresses.
We’re finishing our beers and waiting for a specific event so we can leave.
We are going to drive somewhere, I know where. I notice the girl on the other side of the table is insanely beautiful.
She has immensely detailed and bright green eyes, I can’t keep my eyes of them.
She obviously notices me staring at her, but she seems to like it.
She makes it very clear that she’s interested in me with very subtle signs.
I contemplate asking her to go for a walk until we’re ready to leave.

Then I finally realize what’s happening. She’s “perfect”.
And perfection exists in only one place: the dream world.
But this perfection intrigues me...
What is perfect? Why does she appear perfect? I want to find out and look at her very carefully.
The truth is, apart from maybe her eyes, she looks kinda normal.
I can’t find anything specific that gives me this feeling of perfection.
Maybe it is the way she smiles? This pure and innocent smile, something you’d never see in waking life?
I finish my beer, stand up and hold my hand out to her. “Let’s go.”
There is no need to bother with an explanation for the other 2 girls, I’m lucid, I’m in control,
I don’t want them to ask questions, so they won’t.
She gets up and we leave the room…

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I haven't had any 'memorable' dreams for some time.
I strongly believe that this is caused by a lot of stress in waking life.
So when I finished a project yesterday, I was quite relieved and decided to take the rest of the day off.
I still have quite a few things to do, but I figured I could afford to relax for one day and sleep properly for once.
I chatted with some friends on teamspeak and played some sc2.
When I went to bed I wondered if I'd be able to recall an awesome dream this night.
I started thinking about what has happened thus far, and tried to go to the whole 'teraluna' plot again, from the very beginning.
At some point I fell asleep.

This is the second dream of the night.

I'm at some kind of open theater:


It's not as big as in the picture, but the stone seat arrangement is quite similar.
Some sort of concert is about to start.
There's a girl with a violin, one with a cello, one with an e-guitar, a guy with a bass and another on drums.
Quite an interesting arrangement, I like violins and cellos.

I know I'm on Teraluna, but I don't think about it very much, I'm just happy to be here and wonder where Yuya is.
Then I remember that she went to get drinks. I look around.
I'm sitting in the second row, there's not really that many other people here, maybe around 50?
It's nice because we're all spread out, so everyone has a lot of space.
I admire the sky for a bit. Since Teraluna has no artificial lights you can see the stars and nebula in the sky very clearly.
I suddenly remember that I should probably stabilize the dream, I feel like I'm out of practice.

I rub my hands, but then I remember that I have a more effective way of doing this.
I gently activate my dragonic aura, which causes a warm and fuzzy feeling all over my body.
I wish all dreams would start on Teraluna, it is such an obvious dream sign, I never missed it so far.
Yuya joins me and hands me a rather strange but interesting drink.
There's a blue and a green liquid inside, but they don't mix, so it looks all swirly.

Yuya sits down the exact moment I'm stretching my arms, and she sits very close so I automatically put my arm around her.
I'm not entirely sure how that happened. Smooth Hyu... very smooth...
I'm happy to see her again, it feels as ecstatic as it always does.

"You're awake!"
"Yes! Can you always tell?"
"Mostly, yes."

The band is starting to play so we stop talking.
I take a sip of my drink. I'm quite surprised by the taste.
I thought it would taste like lemonade, but it actually tastes like champagne.

The beginning of the first song reminds me very strongly of the Morrowind Theme:


After some time it's very different though.
It's very special, I can't classify it into a genre of music, but I absolutely love it.
I notice the guitar part isn't very hard, I think "I can do that".
I concentrate on it and try to remember it, I want to play it in waking life... (Sadly, I can't remember it at all)

... We're sitting at the table in front of Yuya's place.
For some reason the music is still playing.
We're talking about waking life. I complain that I'm stressed lately and that I want to visit her more often...

... For some odd reason I think of 'dream fruits', there was something about them, but what was it?
Yuya takes one of those blue lemons from a basket on the table and hands it to me.
Then I remember, it was the advanced task of the month on DV! (It's the basic one actually, I confused it)
I can't believe I remembered it, I only read about it once.
I take a big bite out of excitement. It's very sour, I regret taking such a big bite.
Yuya laughs.
We talk some more before the dream ends. (I can't remember what we were talking about though)

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm in my room, playing with my budgie who is out of his cage.
(This is actually the guest room of my old house, but in the dream I believe it's where I currently live.)
My budgie is sitting on my index finger when I notice there's another budgie in his cage.
Weird... I take a closer look. My budgie takes off and joins the other one in the cage.
I guess he found a friend? (Felt like a reasonable explanation)

I suddenly realize that I'm late for 'the party' and open the door to leave my room.
It leads directly to some sort of party, in an absolutely huge place.
It looks a bit like a casino, but with all the machines and tables removed.
There are cocktail bars everywhere.
Everyone is dressed very nicely. Men are wearing a costume or even smokings, and Women are wearing fancy cocktail dresses.
I'm here because my company celebrates the release of a super successful game which I've worked on.
(I don't work yet, still studying)

A lot of people greet me, and I have no idea who they are.
This makes me feel a bit uncomfortable, and I decide that I need a drink.
I approach the center bar and order a brandy, because it's my drink of choice. (I don't usually drink strong stuff, and I've never had a brandy)
It's strong, but tastes good, I get a warm fuzzy feeling all over my body.
I turn around and look at the crowd. A little too many people for me to feel comfortable.
I feel a bit out of place, but at the same time I know exactly how to act and I'm quite confident.

I notice a women next to me at the bar. She's wearing an all red silky dress. She's hot, really hot!
I take another sip from my drink and say hi.
She recognizes me as the lead game designer for the game "Teraluna".
Sounds about right? (I knew Teraluna meant something more, but I couldn't think clearly and ignored it)
No wonder everyone knows who I am.
She starts flirting with me which I enjoy. She's moving really fast, after a minute she's practically throwing herself at me.
I'm pretty horny at that point and decide to leave the party with her for half an hour, nobody is going to notice.

I leave through the same door I entered and I'm back in my room. There are a lot more parrots now, 7 maybe 8.
The girl doesn't seem to find this surprising at all, so I assume the parrots appearing out of nowhere is a normal thing.
I realize I don't know her name, and I feel a bit bad, but once she takes her dress off I have other thoughts on my mind.
We have sex...

... I get dressed, she says she'll wait a few more minutes before rejoining the party. Makes sense.
I leave my room and I'm in a corridor between my room and the party. (It wasn't there before but I don't notice)
A man storms through the corridor and stops abruptly next to me, sliding a few more centimeters over the floor.
I recognize him, he's the doctor (Matt Smith) wearing his usual outfit.

"Parrots everywhere! Hi! I'm the doctor! You're wearing a bow-tie! Bow-ties are awesome!"

I get the urge to ask him "Doctor who?" but I think it's stupid.
But then he looks at me curiously. He's moving around me quickly, looking at me from different angles.

"Aha! Everything makes sense! So it is you!"
"Me?"
"Yes!"

Confusing as always huh?
He takes out his sonic screwdriver, it's clearly broken and makes a pathetic noise.
I'm starting to think at this point. The doctor? does he exist? Well, he's right there isn't he?

"Yes, yes, you're getting there, think think think!"

What? What is it he knows and I don't?
He points at my head:

"We're all in there"

I finally get it... mostly. I realize that I'm dreaming, but I'm not 'fully lucid'.
I understand that this is a dream, but I do not understand that the doctor is a fictional character, I believe he's really there, I believe that he's in my mind.
He explains that something went horribly wrong with the Tardis, and they ended up in my dreams somehow.
He opens a door, and sure enough, the Tardis is hidden behind it.
The doctor explains that he broke his sonic screwdriver, and now he can't fix the Tardis and they're trapped.

I suddenly get an idea.

"Check this out!"

He looks at me with a confused face.
I reach into the left pocket in my jacket, searching for a sonic screwdriver, and sure enough, there it is.
I take it out and hand it to the doctor.

"You're a genius!"

He runs into the Tardis and starts fiddling about with the screwdriver.
I enter as well out of curiosity. I find it funny that the only thing I can think of is "it's bigger on the inside".
He says that he's lucky to have ended up in the mind of a lucid dreamer.

"It's working!"

He says he has to leave immediately because Amy may be in trouble.
My sense of adventure kicks in.

"Can I tag along?"
"God no! Don't you realize? That would be ONE HELL of a paradox! You'd be leaving your time... from within your mind, without your physical body!"
"Right."

I step out of the Tardis. As he closes the door behind me he says:

"The mistery of the parrots. It still needs to be solved! Good luck!"

The Tardis vanishes in it's usual fashion.

I decide to go back into my room to check out what's up with the parrots.
The girl from before is gone. I understand that she vanished because I forgot about her.
However the room is full of all kinds of parrots. There are hundreds, in all kinds of colors.
There are some types of parrots I'm sure don't exist in waking life.
Oddly enough, I know what to do. I scan the auras of the parrots, and I immediately sense one that is far stronger than anyone else's.
And not just by a bit, it's stronger a thousandfold at least.

I search for the parrot in question and end up finding it in front of the window.
It's absolutely tiny, maybe half the size of a budgie, with blue feathers.

"Hello little bird."

He looks at me for a bit, then back at the window. He spreads his wings and the feathers on his body start changing colors.
It's beautiful! He glows in all colors at the same time, I've seen this pattern before!
It's the same one I have on the wings on my arm when I teleport.
I summon my own wings, and feel how the bird starts moving through the fabric of space.
I follow him...

(Pretty sure I shortly lost consciousness here)

... I'm flying though the skies, following this little blue bird as it travels the world.
My mind is blank. I do not think, I just follow.
After some time the bird lands in a sand desert. There's nothing else there, the place is dead.
I land next to the bird. He looks at me for some time, then he starts walking towards the sun.
With every step that he takes, plants grow out of the sand exactly where he just stood.
Grass and beautiful flowers grow right out of the desert.
I think that "he creates life", I conclude that he must be a phoenix.

I follow him for a bit, by now he has not only created grass and flowers but also small rivers.
So small, yet so powerful, what an interesting and wonderful being...

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I've averaged about 4-5 hours of sleep over the past 4 days and I felt quite sleep-deprived when I went to bed last night.
Knowing that I could sleep for as long as I want this night, I fell into bed, closed my eyes and was asleep immediately.
I woke up after about 8 hours, decided that it was not enough, turned around and fell back asleep.

I open my eyes. I want to turn towards my clock to see how late it is, but somehow the task proves to be difficult.
I can't really turn my body, am I in SP?
No. It feels different. I feel weightless, and I can see even though it's pitch black in my room.
The colors are a bit weird. I try to levitate upwards because I feel that I can.
I slowly start levitating and turning in the air.
I see myself lying in bed which gives me a bit of a shock.

This hasn't happened before. I've seen myself in mirrors, but I've never actually seen myself face to face in a dream.
My room seems to look identical to the waking life counterpart, down to the smallest detail.
I try to stabilize the dream, but my usual methods fail.
Most of my senses aren't working. I can't hear, I can't smell, and as I try to touch my desk, my hand just moves straight through, I can't feel either.
I notice that I can feel the presence of the people sleeping in the same house though
I find all of this quite weird, I haven't experienced a dream like this before, and I'm not sure what to do.
I look at my hands and notice that the reason I can't touch things is because I don't have a 'real dream body'.
I'm more like a ghost, my hands are slightly transparent.

As I get better control, I levitate outside of my apartment by floating through the wall.
I want to leave because the sight of my own body freaks me out a bit.
It's still dark outside.
I try to summon the wings on my left arm to teleport, but I can't.
The thought that I might be floating around the real world crosses my mind, but I feel like I can't think about it properly.

For some reason the thought to visit an ex-girlfriend crosses my mind.
I immediately know it's a shitty idea, but then I locate her aura, or more like a feeling in which direction she is, and just start floating towards her.
She's in Sweden, but even though I'm not really moving that fast, I'm crossing the ocean within seconds.

We first met when she was on vacation somewhere close to where I live. We met in a rather weird way, but got along quite well and decided to hang out.
We fell for each other quite quickly and hung out nonstop for 2 weeks until she had to go home.
Both of us knew that a long-distance relationship wouldn't work so we called it quits.
It's only then I realized how badly I actually fell for her, it took me quite some time to get over her.

I'm approaching her house. I've obviously never been here, but I know this is her place.
I approach the window of her room. I just want to see how she's doing, I want to know that she's happy.
I float through the window. She has a really nice room.
She has 3 different e-guitars, quite a few rock band posters on the walls, a king size bed, a really big desk with 3 monitors on it.
There's quite a few books, and a lot of clothes on the floor.

She's sitting at her desk, she's studying. She hasn't changed much, she looks exactly like I remember her.
She turns around and looks at me. This freaks me out a bit, somehow I was under the assumption that she couldn't.
It looks like she's thinking about something. She turns back towards the desk, she didn't see me after all.
Did she feel my presence?
I consider the possibility that I'm really here, in which case what I'm doing would be very creepy.
I decide to go back home... for some reason I'm immediately in my bedroom again.

I want to have a proper lucid dream, but I feel like I can't in this state.
I try to move back into my body...

Well... this was weird.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I can’t sleep. The thought of shared dreaming is keeping me awake, the thought of going to the moon and meeting WakingNomad, Selene, and possibly many more people.
A million questions are on my mind, none of which can be answered.
I can’t clear my head, so I start reading. After some time I finally become tired and manage to fall asleep…
I wake up a few times during the night but can’t recall any dreams.


I’m driving my car. I don’t know the road, but for some reason I know where I’m headed. A girl is accompanying me. She touches my arm resting on the middle console.
I look at her. It’s Faye… she smiles. It takes me a few seconds to understand what her being there means. I become lucid.

I immediately want to go to Teraluna to visit Yuya, I want to go there now, and I know how.
I unplug my seatbelt, the car starts beeping. I summon the wings on my left arm and prepare to teleport to Teraluna.
I take Faye’s hand and apply the brakes. Our bodies lift up and go through the front of the car.
When my feet touch the ground, we are on Teraluna…

… We hang out for a bit (I can’t remember many details) and at some point Yuya is playing with a water sphere.
For some reason I suddenly feel the urge to freeze it, just to see if I can. When I create fire I try to create vibrations, this time I do the opposite.
The sphere freezes and falls into Yuya’s hand. She smiles.
But then I get it: the reason I tried this. I remembered what WakingNomad said. How I transformed into different dragons. As a dragon I can use more abilities than just fire.
But this is not what is on my mind right now.

“Yuya… we were hanging out yesterday, right?”
“Yeah, sure, we were hanging out in the pool, you remember!”
“I do… did we do anything else?”
“You were posing on your desk naked!”

She laughs, there is a small pose.

“... And... you went to the moon.”
"What? The moon? THE moon?"
“That’s why you’re asking isn’t it?”
“Yes… So it’s all true? He was here?”
“Of course. Are you going to visit him?”

Even though this is exactly what I wanted, what I was hoping for, it feels so weird.
I don’t understand what I currently feel, am I afraid of it being true? Am I afraid that shared dreaming actually works?
I contemplate teleporting to the moon right now. I need to know. But something is holding me back? Why?

“But… what if I can’t see him? He sees things so differently than I do. I don’t understand it, I will do something wrong. He knows me as someone so confident. What if I freak out? I…”
“Relax… I’ve told you about the layers of the dream plane before. I know it’s complicated, so I will explain the very basics of it only.
There’s an infinite amount of layers to the dream plane. Unfortunately, you can’t experience all of them at the same time, only a very limited amount.
If two people look at the same thing in different layers, they will experience it differently, but usually their experience will be somewhat similar.
Should the layers be 'far away' you'll need to alter your perception in order to share your experiences.”

I understand what she says, it makes sense, but for some reason I’m still afraid.

“Why am I afraid? … I don’t understand… I want to know! so why am I so afraid?”

Faye answers this one:

“For all your life you have been thought it is impossible, that what you experience right now is fake, that even the idea of shared dreaming is absolutely ludicrous. What you are feeling right now, it isn't fear.”
“Then what is it?”
“You will know.”

I summon the wings on my left arm and lock onto the moon. I’m shivering. She’s right, I’m not afraid to find out it is true, if anything it’s the opposite. But it is indeed not fear I am feeling.
Screw it, where’s my sense of adventure? I’m going now!
I take a step through the fabric of space and end up on the moon.

It is dark, barren, there is nothing here. But then I remember about the layers.
I close my eyes and try to alter my perception. I hesitate to open them for a moment, but I finally do.
And here I stand, on the green moon, and in front of me a man who has been waiting for me.
A man who stands there absolutely confident and calm.
My mind goes blank, I cannot think. I know that this person in front of me is WakingNomad, there is no doubt in my mind.
But I don’t know what to say, I’m just standing there.

“What are you acting all weird for?”

I open my mouth, trying to say hi, but the words aren’t leaving my mouth. I’m shaking, not of fear, but of excitement.
I feel so stupid. I can summon a fire dragon capable of destroying a whole city yet right now I can't even say a simple word.
My vision fades, I am way too excited and I can’t get it under control. The dream is ending.
Not sure if WakingNomad can still hear me so I project a thought onto him.

“I’m sorry…”

I wake up in my bed. My mind stays blank, I don’t think.

“Relax.”

It’s Yuya, she’s standing next to my bed.
I was sure I woke up, obviously I didn’t.

“He must think I’m an idiot. One day I’m all confident and the next I can’t even manage to say something.”
“Don’t worry, he’ll understand, and it won't happen again.”

Yuya joins me in bed. I immediately calm down, take her into my arms and fall asleep soon after.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

After waking up again, I decide to WILD.
It can't fall asleep, the last dream was too exciting, so I get up and write down more notes.
I listen to some ambient music and try to WILD again.

"Get up already, you're dreaming!"

I open my eyes and get up.
Yuya and Faye are sitting in my couch in front of the TV. Awesome!
I sit down on the couch as well. The TV looks very weird.
We start talking about transforming, something I've never done.
Yuya says I'm not very good at it.

I get the urge to try it out and hopefully show everyone that I can actually do it.
Faye says I should try transforming into a familiar animal, it's easier if I have a good idea on how they move.
I decide to transform into a Budgie since I have one and I've seen it fly many times.


It feels VERY WEIRD just shrinking like that and the feelings of my limbs disappearing, and some senses clearly changing.

"How cuuuuuuute!"

I believe that I have properly transformed and try to spread my wings.
It's surprisingly difficult to figure out which muscle moves which part of my body.
I want to fly so I approach the end of the coach in preparation of jumping off.
Yuya states that this may not be a good idea.

I jump and start flapping my wings.
Jesus fuck, this is not going well, I barely manage to stay in the air.
How do birds fly? this is absolutely ridiculous.
I approach the TV... shit, gotta dodge that somehow.
I try to gain some height to fly over it, but it's not enough.
I crash against the upper frame of the TV and fall down onto my keyboard which is in front of the TV.

This is way too difficult, I end the transformation.
Yuya starts laughing out loud, quickly followed by Faye.
It takes me a moment to notice they aren't laughing about my miserable flying skills as a bird.
I'm lying completely naked on my keyboard and my desk.

"Well... this has not gone well..."

Yuya laughs so hard she can't manage to sit properly anymore and she falls onto the couch.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

After all of those non-lucid dreams I did a WBTB.
This is the first lucid of the night.
I can't really remember the beginning, or maybe the dream started out in the pool? I don't know.


... I'm in a whirlpool with Yuya, somewhere on top of a skyscraper, presumably on earth. It's night.
We're just hanging out, talking about dreams, about life etc.
I must have transitioned into "deep dreaming" at some point since the dream feels perfectly stable.
The feeling of the constant stream of bubbles tickling my back is helping this even further.

I'm asking questions about the dream plane.
I don't understand everything Yuya tells me, and some answers she gives me are a bit vague, but I feel like I get the basic idea.
A normal dream always starts within a dream bubble, the content of which is created by ourselves, our imagination and expectations.
When you become lucid and leave the dream bubble, usually by teleportation or portals, you enter the dream plane where you can meet
other dreamers or different beings.
I don't fully understand what she tells me about layers of the dream plane though.

I tell her about my Sucker Punch dream and ask her if it was within my dream bubble or not.
She can't give me an answer, she doesn't know.
Suddenly another person enters the whirlpool... it's Babydoll from the Sucker Punch dream.
She says hi and acts as if her being here is the most natural thing in the whole world.
My mind is blown, why and how is she here???
Yuya starts laughing and tells me that I still have a lot to learn.
She tells me to examine my feelings, I have the answers for everything.

Unfortunately I can't come to a good conclusion, except that Babydoll can't be a normal DC.
So Yuya explains it:

"She's a Dream Guide silly."
"... My Dream Guide? ...I mean..."

Babydoll speaks up:

"Yes, I am your Dream Guide. You've been searching for me, so you found me."

I'm confused. What they say makes sense, but I still feel like I haven't fully understood it.
Yuya tries to explain it:

"Well, obviously I ain't your Dream Guide. I'm a spirit, I am your friend, and even though I will help you and I will guide you, I am not what you call a Dream Guide.
She on the other hand is. You needed a Dream Guide so you have found one.
She can help you with some things I cannot."

Meanwhile Babydoll is playing with the water in the pool. She's trying to create a water bubble like Yuya can, but she's failing.

"So... tell me, what is you name?"
"Babydoll!"
"Seriously? You want me to call you Babydoll? Isn't that a bit... weird?"
"Call me Faye then!"

She's energetic, not as energetic as Yuya, but I feel comfortable being around her, she seems nice.

Yuya looks away:

"Hey Liv, stop hiding there and join us in the pool! It's nice and warm!"

Liv comes out of the shadows, wearing nothing but a thin towel.
Her devil's tail is looking out of the towel.
She blushes and enters the pool.
She's really shy. I find it funny considering that she's a Succubus and all, but it's kinda cute.

I suddenly realize that I'm sitting in a whirlpool together with 3 extremely hot girls wearing nothing but a thin towel.
I don't even know if Yuya is wearing one.
How on earth did it take me until now to notice?
Yuya looks at me... she read my thoughts. I start blushing.
She gives me a bit of a 'sexy look' and starts lifting herself out of the pool until she's showing some cleavage.
I'm not sure what I look like right now, but I bet my face is as red as a tomato.
She drops back into the pool and laughs.
Faye does a facepalm and Liv has no idea what's going on.

I have to laugh myself and lean back to look at the stars.
For some reason I love it when she is messing with me, it makes me feel really good...

non dream - lucid - non lucid

What the hell? O_o
I have no idea what was going on last night, I didn't take any dream related vitamins / supplements or anything. (I never have)
I did have a few drinks, but I can't remember this ever having an effect like this.
I can recall so many dreams and most of them were very vivid.
These are the non-lucid ones, I'll post the lucid ones later.

1. Minecraft
   I'm in minecraft. My vision is the same as what you see on your screen while playing it.
   I've built a huge castle and I'm currently fiddling about with some double doors.
   I want stone doors which I can only open with redstone, so I need to create a hidden
   underground circuit with pressure plates. I have trouble figuring out how to invert one circuit
   but not the other one, without getting them to touch.
   
2. Climbing the Tower
   
   I must make it to the top of the tower as quickly as possible.
   The antenna on the top of the tower needs to be replaced with a subspace transceiver.
   An alien ship is in orbit trying to send us the cure for all sicknesses in existence and this is the only way to go about it.
   There is some conspiracy going on where the governments don't want us to know about it.
   
3. Air Gear
   I haven't read Air Gear for ages...
   It's the middle of the night, I'm sitting in front of my house.
   I'm holding inline skates in my hands, I'm about to put them on.
   They only have 2 wheels each, with an engine installed between them and disc brakes inside the wheels.
   The words "Air Gear" are engraved into them next to a wing symbol.
   I put them on and start riding towards the main road...
   ... I'm at the top of a mountain, on an awesome road leading all the way down.
   There are other people wearing "Air Gear". We're going to race down.
   The race is immensely fast paced, the engines are powerful and the brakes are strong.
   Taking shortcuts by jumping over cliffs is thrilling and the short time you are "flying" feels absolutely awesome.
   
4. Spaceship
   It's the future. I'm in the search and rescue business.
   We just got a distress call from some mining ship in the asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter.
   I'm entering the cockpit of "my" spaceship, which is currently docked at the second international space station. (The ship is about twice the size of a nasa space shuttle)
   
   
   I know what all of the buttons do, even though there's a lot of them.
   I power the main reactor, start the heating sequence for the engines and start a routine pre-flight check whilst verifying the coordinates of the distress call.
   I'm joined by a women, my co-pilot. She says she's sorry for taking so long, puts on her seat-belts and powers up her consoles.
   I tell her it's no problem, we need to wait for the system check anyways.
   After it completes I request permission to dock off, which is immediately given.
   I use directional thrusters to move the ship a few meters away from the station before powering the main engines.
   After accelerating towards our destination I activate the FTL drive console and enter the coordinates.
   I ask my co-pilot if she's ready for FTL. She presses herself into the seat and confirms that she's ready.
   I press myself all the way back as well and hit the FTL leaver.
   The g-forces pushing me into the seat are barely bearable...
   
5. Vampire
   I'm at university, leaving my classroom.
   I'm heading through the corridor and A. a classmate from last year is following me.
   She's following me because I'm luring her towards me with my powers.
   I enter a currently unoccupied room, after a few seconds she enters as well.
   I close the door and lock it.
   I approach her, she's moving backwards until she hits a wall.
   She comes to her senses and asks me what I am doing.
   The urge for blood takes over and I bite her in the neck... I'm a vampire!
   Some blood spills out and messes up her white shirt.
   She moans and shivers in pleasure... what the hell am I doing?