Psionik

I let my mind to freely associate concentrated on being here and now... and I let body fall to sleep.
After some 5 minutes I appeared to be flying above moonlit rocky landscape. There wasn't animal life nor plants. Only rocks... and then also many mountain lakes. The moon was shining so bright that it looked like at cloudy day. Only difference was, that the light appeared to be silvery in color. I let myself to be slowly carried over country... and then I was flying above lake... It was so clean, I saw every rock in the water... it was maybe 100m deep but I saw bottom of lake clearly. I was fascinated and slowly steered to fly above lake... The moon was mirroring on the surface of lake. I felt peace... everything looked peaceful, pure, nice. I changed the course of my flight to next lake. That one was deep, very deep. It looked like kilometers deep. Then I again changed course and flew directly into that pond. Crossing the surface of water it felt like I broke through some resistance, but nothing strong. And I flew in the water into the deep. Deep down...
I didn't manage to reach bottom, since my wife interrupted my trip and woke me up by movement in her sleep.

It was dream. I was in the city. I found lost friend, she was unhappy. We went to restaurant and talked and drinked tea. I felt somewhat happy, but also confused and uncertain. I remember only these few pieces of quite long dream.

It was unremarkable lucid dream, I was walking around and searched for differences, but nothing seemed to be out of ordinary.

At the end of LD when my sight became more and more unclear, I met some brunette(I couldn't recognize her, but I felt it was someone close to me) in great distress. She was panicking. I don't know why. But I took her hand to stop her from running aimlessly and said. "Please stay still, don't stress yourself. Wake yourself! This is only a dream. Relax your mind. I'm with you. You are safe." And she quieted herself. After a few subjective minutes, during which I was loosing connection to that LD, I woke up.

I was cleaning basement in my house when two bats flew inside through doors and hanged themselves on ceiling... I looked at them and I saw something malicious in them. Their eyes were slightly alight with red light. I thought- vampires... I let them be for time being as they didn't do anything. I returned to cleaning some mess(dust, saw dust, small scraps of paper and small pieces of wood) again.
Then third bat flew inside, this one was big. It was normal one. One bat (transformed vampire) flew startled away and big bat flew after him.
Second bat changed to vampire and ran to me- head first, mouth open, teeth glistening... I catched his head gently, changed his course slightly and smashed him hard head on into wall next to me. Vampire was greatly disoriented... He forgot what he wanted to do. He was shaking... I returned to cleaning. Vampire recovered after minute or so and attacked again... And I did the same as before and smashed him into wall with ever stronger force- vampire vanished into dark cloud and cloud evaporated into nothingness. I returned back to cleaning without thinking about what happened.

Note: whole time I felt to be in peace, relaxed... even through that incident with attacking vampire.

It started as I was driving a car through city. A policeman stopped me and told me that my car is leaking ladybirds I got out of the car and went to look. There was about 30cm wide and as far as I could see track full of slowly crawling ladybirds behind my car. I told policeman that I don't understand where they are from, that we have only turtle My wife and children came to me with turtle and skateboard. I put turtle on skateboard but she didn't want to come out of her shell. I told policeman that she often sleeps. Surrounding was slowly changing during this part of dream and there wasn't car anymore and it looked like we were in large room. Turtle came out of her shell and started to flap with her feets and propelled herself on skateboard till she rammed into wall. She flapped a few moments aimlessly and then started to go back into shell singing the song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C65TN8j5OIE Well only a few lines of it :
I takové dny jsou,
že rána za ranou...
zas právě tebe najde,
a málokomu dojde,
že padáš únavou.

Translation:
There are such days
that hit after hit
is finding you again
and hardly anybody will conceive
that you are falling from exhaustion...

Then that turtle come out of shell on opposite side, head at the tail side and started again to flap and propel herself from wall... till she again rammed into opposite wall. She had fallen from skateboard and started singing next part of song:
Zas připadáš si sám,
máš v hlavě hlavolam...
Proč hůl nad tebou lámou,
a lásky dál tě klamou,
vždyť nejsi odepsán ...

Translation:
You feel alone again,
with mind-bender in your head...
Why they give up on yourself,
and your lovers are cheating you,
when you are not useless...

I walked to turtle to take her up, but I found only plushy toy at the place where she had fallen from skateboard... I was losing contact with dream at that time, my vision got more and more uncertain, blurry. I found something else on the ground, hard, maybe the real turtle, but that touch was last contact with that dream and I was awake.

I found myself in temple. It was similar to our own temple in my village, but altar looked different, there was more gold plating on wood, and it was shining. It looked majestic somehow, in undefinable way. I wanted go out and home. But as I turned I saw again the same altar where doors out sed to be. I was confused... and turned around a few times, then I did reality check. I concluded that this is REALITY and not a dream.(Only few times I managed to differentiate between reality and dream in my dreams) I concluded that I have SLIGHT problems with my memory and I probably turn too fast to register doors. Therefore I turned directly to altar and walked backward out of temple.
Once outside, everything looked normal. I walked around temple. There were two people deconstructing an old howel. I had my bicycle nearby but it looked different. It has very big tractor transmission added on fork with big wheel on it. And two big auxiliary wheels on every side of that transmission. Man who deconstructed shed told me, that they need to drive it to scrapyard... So I said OK and I rode away. I was riding on my bicycle back home when I saw a dark gray wall on crossroad. I did again reality check, and again I concluded that I have probably problems with my perception of reality and that I'm not dreaming. I decided to use observer state (like I use by OBE) and I rode to wall. I saw that the wall was ever changing structure composed of limbs, hands and heads which looked like trying escape out into normal world. I rode directly into it, without hesitation or questioning myself whether it is sensible or not.
As I crossed threshold of wall it was like I rode into post apocalyptic world. Sky was dark gray... Houses were in ruins, smoking. Wind was making small dust devils... Ghostly figures were gliding aimlessly around it. Trees were black, naked. On the road, there were stones, debris, holes... after some time I discarded bicycle and I was walking forward. Observing, not judging state of things around me. Some ghostly figures tried to touch me, to catch me... visibly screaming. But I keep walking forward through it. I walked through a few ghostly figures, some demons like, some more humans like... I walked. And walked. There was despair, and there was me. There was pain and there was me. There was devastation, and there was me. I was observer. I was there but that THERE was not in me. After some time I got to second threshold (this one was shining) and I crossed it... again without questioning myself.
On the other side of wall the road continued curving into distance... the road was like new, trees around and grass were strong, healthy... The sky was deep blue... it was quiet. No sound was breaking the stillness surrounding me. There wasn't even wind. Everything was shining like new. Atmosphere of conflict and despair were left behind me. I turned to look back. There was no wall, no threshold, nothing... only healthy shining nature everywhere. I turned back on road and I walked. I walked forward observing but not questioning, not thinking, in everlasting here and now. I walked till I woke up.

I dreamed of being close to some kind of podium in my village(It is nonexistent in real world), there was one musician performing RMB: Touch the sky. I start to dance on steps and then i started to run away. I felt strong wind, so fast I ran, but it seemed to me that it is not so fast. Then I forgot to move my feet once and I didn't fall... Then I stopped to use my feet and glided through streets of my village.
I got close to shop. I remembered I wanted to do shoppings for my family. I couldn't stop my gliding, even putting my feet on tarmac didn't make much difference. I turned my back in direction of my gliding and concentrated on stopping. It took me maybe 100m to stop. I went into shop. There were many people inside, I couldn't go inside. I waited. I saw some kind of hamster jumping in between racks in the shop... Then I woke up.

Now in real world:
Half an hour I returned from shop- It was closed. There is written that it is sanitation day. It will be opened tomorrow. It is strange, normally wednesday is a sanitation day.

I started to comprehend my surrounding and I found myself to be flowing in air. It looked as if I was in between two layers of clouds. Clouds were separated by a few kilometers of blue sky. I was weightless. There were ghostly looking animals(some looking like snakes, some like birds...) - they tried to stop me to fly my direction... to change my direction. They were slower than me...
Then I flew in between four massive pillars which stretched from below lower layer of clouds to nearly higher layer of clouds. They were more than kilometer thick- so massive... On upper ends of pillars there was an intricate grid with holes looking like flowers also from marble. I saw plants, trees on that marble grid, it was at least 1 kilometer above myself. Pillars were composed of veined marble... they were majestic... I felt like being on sacred place. Animal ghost were shrieking after me to stop, to not go any further, to go back...

I flew further... marble grid with trees stretching above me and marking my path... I had feeling like some gods (or spirits) are angry with me, that I desecrated their place... they tried to stop me together with the animal spirits. And I flew in between another four massive pillars. The place felt even more sacred than first one. I flew further, through more such sacred places, dragging many angry spirits after me... In seventh sacred place the marble grid above ended. Pillars were much smaller and there was something like altar... I looked on all the spirits which were trying to stop me, only to see, they cant go into seventh sacred place... They looked now nearly black. I was filled with ave and respectful peace. I prayed for deliverance. On altar shining Being materialised. It looked for short time like some kind of minotaur with horns, than it slowly changed into buddha like person. I felt changes of my body. I was surprised- and then I felt changing back. The being was smiling on me and changed me again.

I was in some kind of big city... It was around noon. There were two people man and woman and they told me, that they will do psychological experiment on me. They wanted to try to break me. I agreed to this. Woman gave me an injection(very big one).
They observed me closely. I didn't feel a thing... I was concentrated on here and now to battle possible effect of that medicine. I left from there after a while.

I was walking through that city and reality started to give less and less meaning. I was losing ability to distinguish between real and imagined... It was as if imagined things started to be real and then again vanished. Everything lost its meaning. Something happened and after short while it didn't happened at all. Total chaos in my consciousness. I had strong doubts about my mental health. I concentrated as much as I could to stabilize my reality perception but it was worse and worse.

That man and woman found me! They started to tell me that I killed some woman- I didn't know about anything. It was constructed, nothing was true... wasn't it? I was in big doubt. I saw pictures... It was very brutal murder. I felt ill... I asked myself whether I have problems with my memory. Could I do that without remembering it? They gave me more and more evidence... They told me about great many bad things I did. They asked me to plead guilty.

My denial of reality was growing. I didn't know what to do. I felt strong energy inside. It wanted to leap out of me. I was closing myself from outside world. The man was pressing on me mentally. Where is my logical mind? I want peace. Nothing more... My inner energy surged, reality was broken. It emerged as hairline crack- darkness was leaking from it. The darkness was calling me, lured me inside crack in reality. I felt a pull and I didn't oppose to it. The darkness was slowly creeped around my hands and legs... around my body... like black smoke. It dragged me into crack. And crack in reality closed after I passed into darkness. There was black darkness. There was no thought. There was no doubt... There was peace. My energy was growing. My point of consciousness erupted in actinic white light. I was the only point of light in that blackness. I was one with peace.

I obtained weak lucidity(weak because I had doubts) when I started to close myself from that "reality" After that, only thoughtless consciousness remained.

I'm ill from end of October, I got strong autoimmune reaction induced by Chlamidia Pneumoniae... Chlamidia was cured by strong antibiotic, but autoimmune reaction remained. I must take Medrol(methylprednisone) which metabolizes to corticosteroids and dampens immunity... And what more one of effect is that body becomes accustomed on outside sources of corticosteroids and lowers or stops production of its own in adrenal glands. I try to get off of it, but it is slow process. I must to let to accustom my body to exist without Medrol. A few times I tried to lower dosage, but autoimmune reaction was strong. Now I'm doing it very slowly. 5-7 days for taking off 1mg of methylprednisone less.

Dream:
I awake this morning into another dream. I woke with itching on my whole body with big red swellings. I remembered that I forgot to take piles yesterday and that was the end result... Then I got thought- I didn't forgot! Something is wrong. Wake UP!!!
And I awoke. Everything was OK.

4. 5. 2014
I created a strong feeling of being with friend... I opened myself and with that feeling in my being, I created lucid dream where I succeed to place myself in front of her house. (I imagined her house, not herself. I theorize, that imagination of someone will force my subconscious to fill up the form. Therefore I think that I have higher chance to share dream with someone through indirect methods like placing myself into place where I expect the person.)
I appeared directly in front of friend's house. To my surprise she was standing right in front of door, a few meters away of me. Something made me to run to her and to hug her. It was out of my control. My friend was looking somewhat shaken, somewhat indifferent. Then after a few moments she vanished from my hug. I was surprised, managed to look around for a few moments and then I woke up. This LD was short, subjectively about 1 minute long.

Observations:
Dthoughts suggested to use emotional connection. I created strong feelings, strong desire to be with my friend. I felt out of control a little... Therefore I hugged her. It is not something I would usualy do in lucid dream. State of mind once I set the lucid dream falls to similar I use for OBE/astral projection.
If there was a shared dream, I would probably have an e-mail in my Mailbox. Maybe not... It is dependent on whether she remembered it or not.
If there was shared dream, maybe she vanished from my hug because she woke up...
It needn't to be shared dream, she might vanished because my concentration was strongly affected by generated feelings. I was clearly out of balance.

It is more than half of year ago I had this lucid dream:

I wanted to try to drag my wife into shared lucid dream. As I was in bed I took my wife onto my body so she was laying on me. And I took her into hug. She was tired so she went to sleep fast. I started with relaxation exercises and then I started concentrate on imagining of ring. I made that ring to grow, and made to appear second ring inside first, then third inside second... and so on. It was as if I flew through dark tunnel composed of light rings. It was felt as if my wife was an anchor. I dragged her with all I had through tunnel. It was tiring.
Then we flew out of tunnel into night. We were on large field(or meadow) and some half kilometer away was a forest. From that forest a dense fog was creeping near ground into meadow we were on. In between trees of forest we could see lights of Gothic looking castle. The moon was full and shining bright. There was howling of wolf somewhere afar.
My wife was shivering in fear. I hold her close to me and I told her: "Everything is OK. This is lucid dream. Nothing can harm you. I'm here with you."
We started to walk to forest. It was nice night. I liked it. My wife not so much. Every few moments I tried to soothe her. It looked like she is forgetting where she is. I repeated again and again that we are in a dream, that she hasn't to fear anything, that anything can harm her. That I will take care of everything.
We got into forest. The castle was a museum. I tried to find a way how to go inside. My wife lost awareness(or I stopped to concentrate on her being there enough) and vanished in a short time after that... I was walking around for a short while and eventually lost concentration and woke up.

Observations:
My wife didn't remember anything of this experiment. It is possible that that dream wasn't shared.
It was hard to get my wife with me into a dream. Maybe it is because I was creating that way for her without her input. Or maybe because my concentration was divided between creating rings and flying through them and my wife in a hug...
I didn't find dream surrounding ghostly at all. It was peaceful for me. I found it even romantic as my wife was there with me.

I found myself on a plane. It looked like infinite plate. Blue sky and grey ground without any feature. There was feeling of peace. I flew around for a while. My dead father was there. He looked much younger.
I said:" Hello how are you?"
He told me: "I'm here for three days and I feel very bored."
"How could be bored?" I asked. "It is very peaceful here."
"There is nothing to do here" he answered.
"But there is so pleasant feeling of peace" I objected. "plus you may fly here by yourself"
Then I was shown a vision of fathers work table. Of its drawers. They were being pulled out of table. He tried to show me something on the drawer but I woke up.

Observations:
I looked on that table and its drawers- there was nothing out of ordinary.
Father was watchmaker and he worked by that table for maybe 40-45 years.
He is dead for three years but it looks for him like 3 days?

I appeared in Bratislava(120km from home) and I was walking down the street. It was night. Street was crowded(unusual for me to see more than ~5 people in LD). I looked suddenly forward and there was a friend of mine walking. She was dragging a drunken man. I asked her whether she want to help. She looked at me without acknowledging me, so I walked around her and away. Then I looked back at her. It looked like she was getting old very fast. And has more and more problem to drag that man. The man slowly changed the complexion to unusually red one. But I respected her wish to be let alone.
At once I saw myself from her perspective. I looked younger, much younger than I'm now, with strange side-whiskers. It seemed that around me was shining very dark blue-violet aura and I was not walking on the ground, but a few cm above. I felt her thoughts... she felt longing, regret. From her point of view there was no man... she wasn't dragging anybody with her.

I think, the man was symbol of something what is dragging her down, but she doesn't want to be helped with her problems. I didn't communicate with her for very long time... But then, I had a few foretelling LD and OBE's