Sangfoot

Last night I went to bed tired and had to wake up early so I decided not to try a WBTB attempt, so I wasn't really expecting to have any lucid dreams. When I went to sleep I just re affirmed my intention to remember my dreams. However I had a series of dreams that were awesome. In them I felt much more "me" in the dream. Like it was first person, and I was in the plot, and they were very vivid and fun. I thought about it throughout the day because I would love to have more dreams in this genre, but I have not been able to think of anything I thought or did differently to provoke them. It's a mystery.

What was really interesting about the sequence of dreams is that in them I thought I was lucid, but I think they were more like dreams about becoming lucid, with only the very lowest levels of any real self awareness or memory because the plots where crazy and I never questioned them, and in the dreams I never considered I had any other body or activated memory at all.

Dream One: Dream Warrior Clan
I am standing with my two sisters in a trial ground of sorts. My whole extended family is standing around the three of us and we are lined up ready to begin a trial. At this time the dream is very vivid and first person and in the dream I imagine that I am lucid now, in fact I realize that all three of us are lucid and this is a dream sharing dream! In fact that is why all my extended family has gathered, because there has finally been a night when all three of us are lucid so that the trial can be conducted! (This is why I don't believe I was actually lucid, because I was fully engaged in this plot at this point).

I am very excited because I have wanted to dream share with my sisters for a while now and it is finally happening! My uncle M.L steps forward and starts laying out the challenges of the trial. At the time I understood that my family was like an ancient clan of dream warriors, and the three of us were being tested to see if our training had prepared us to join.

He shouts to begin, and I look up and see a crazy scene of a hoard of all types of monsters, fantasy, sci fi, everything, running and jumping down floating hills and other floating landscapes toward us.

I understood that the trial was to fight them off. My sisters engage both running forward shouting war cries and attacking the closest of the monsters, I watched them thinking they looked very bad ass. I thought that I probably wouldn't have to fight because they could handle them but the monsters where much tougher than they looked, and some of them were like captains that had dream control and dream powers themselves.

My sisters had each only managed to defeat a small handful of the monsters each, and as I looked around the swarm extended as far as I could see in every direction, even from about because there were floating landscapes above us they were jumping down from also.

At this time I am not really emotionally invested yet, I am just preparing myself to have fun fighting like I normally would. But as I am looking around trying to find a tough monster I hear my sister A.S cry and like she has been hurt and as I jerk to turn to see her, she is on the ground and a big werewolf monster that is like twenty feat tall and all white is standing over her holding a big club over his head to swing down at her.

And I get REALLY MAD! Like more mad than I have been in years in any dream. And I start to summon up my deepest rage and strongest powers, and time slows down.

And I enter a place beyond rage of calm deadly focus, of pressure, and destructive intent, and I want to kill them all.

I am scared I will hurt my sisters, so I look to find my other sister A.B. and am impressed that she is still holding her own. I hold both of them in my mind so that I don't accidentally hurt them, and begin releasing my power.

I summon my Techno (I gift in a previous dream) which begins to well up from the center of the earth spreading my Techno rhythm to the whole planet. The ground begins to shake and a steady thumping emerges from all matter.

I summon my two swords (which won me title king of the arena in a previous dream) which fall into my outstretched arms descending from the sky.

As I look around I think that I could defeat all the monsters with the power I had already summoned, with my rage, my rhythm, and my swords. But I am feeling strong, and am so full of rage that my sister is in real danger even though this is just a trial, and I am angry with my family for letting this test get so out of control so quickly.

So I decide to really cut loose and summon my strongest dream power, I summon my pressure (also a power from a previous dream). Living within me is a million year old demon spirit (my deepest rage and primal arrogance and violence) that is always sleeping and only wakes up when it senses another million year spirit. It is awoken and summoned by my rage and my spirit begins to swell to a great density, gravity, and pressure. I make sure that I am still holding my sisters in my mind so that they are not crushed.

I begin resonating with my techno beat and gently float up into the air, I lower my gaze unto the monsters that are now all paused and looking at me, and I let them meet my gaze as if to ask them who amongst them would dare to stand before me.

And they all start running. I notice that my extended family that was monitoring the trial is scared and shocked, and they are running too as I was angry with them for endangering my sister, and not holding them in my mind to make sure they were not harmed, so my power is violent towards them also, but still not as focused with rage as toward the monsters.

I claim dominion. Non will stand before my violence and power. I gather my rage and power, and flexing my arms back and body I challenge all foes within my dominion to face my power, I challenge them all. And I kill them all.

In the dream it wasn't a long fight at this point. I really just wanted to express my anger and with my strongest anger summoned I flexed all my power and let out a shout, and the next second all the monsters where gone and the dream transitioned.

With all the monsters gone the trial ground looks peaceful again. I start quickly flying away because I don't want to be here anymore. My sisters and family are gone and I am all alone. As I fly up into a blue looking sky I hit a wall and realize the sky is just a painted dome with clouds and blue painted on it. It seems really hard, and I know that it's not supposed to be passable, but I feel like it is like the nether roof in Mindcraft and I know how to glitch myself upwards through it to get out and to the roof, outside the laws, to the space I'm not supposed to get to.

So I glitch myself through the ceiling and I end up in the vast area, and feel and incredible amazement at what I see. This space is full of everything our dream warrior clan has ever captured, confiscated, or created. There are weird devices and buildings all over and I don't really know what any of them are but I feel like they are a great treasure and am very curious to explore them.

As I am feeling this amazement and curiosity the dream ends and I wake up.

Analysis: When I wake up I felt excited like I had just had an awesome lucid dream, but also very emotionally drained. I still felt scared for my sister, but also excited like maybe they were actually semi-lucid also and will remember the same dreams (they did not). I don't usually feel strong emotions like that and the excitement, fear, anger, deep rage, shame of completed violence, and excitement and curiosity again at the end where almost overwhelming. I started committing the dream to memory so I would not forget it, and after rehearsing it went back to sleep.

I had more dreams in the first person nature of this dream through the night, but non of them were as intense as this first one. I really like the first person nature of the dreams though, almost a semi lucidity. I feel like recognizing dream signs, and activating a lucid mindset in these type of dreams to really DILD would be possible.

Last night I finally had two lucid dreams! I was following my normal routine according to my dream goals, and was starting to feel a little disappointed since I have been trying hard to have a lucid dream for 8 days now with no success. Every time I manage a DEILD I feel so much hope like I will be able to WILD now. Actually experiencing a transition helps me to know that it's possible!

End of a long non lucid dream I don't care about remembering, but at the end of it I was trapped in a parking garage with a large grizzly momma bear. At first I saw a bear in the distance, and I was hoping it wouldn't notice me, then I look down at my feat and see a baby bear that looks friendly. But I know that momma bears are very aggressive about protecting their babies and a lot of attacks happen around these type of misunderstandings. Anyway I look back towards the mom and of course she has noticed me and thinks I have taken her baby and starts charging me. I was terrified, I have a dream phobia about being attacked by bears, and I remembered that being attacked by a bear is one of my dream signs and BOOM

Right when I realize that being attacked by a bear is a dream sign I become low level lucid and a totally new dream forms around me with a pop. I am in an apartment complex like I lived in as a kid and am standing around the community pool. I do the usual lucid things noticing how beautiful it looks and all that then I remembered that I wanted to try to practice having waking life self-awareness and memory as well as try to emotionally experience a true non-dual perspective in a lucid dream. I was able to practice my self awareness and memory check like I do in waking life, and I felt like at the time I strongly knew it was a dream, and had some waking life self awareness. When I thought "this is all me, this dream all comes from me" I had like a brief flash of vividness, like everything in the dream pulsed with a color change briefly then went back to normal.

Then as I was looking around I realized that there are no dream characters here, and I am all alone. I have a dream goal to talk to a "real" person in my dreams, and maybe meet a dream guide or find someone who wants to go on an adventure with me. So I start trying to call out "is there anyone who can answer my questions?" "Is there anyone who will talk to me?" and after asking two or three times I hear someone say "sure well talk with you" behind me and I spin around and the two girls from my last lucid dream are walking towards me! This is exciting for me because this is the first recurring lucid dream characters I have ever had! They are the same height, maybe 5'10, and I again have the impression that they are sisters. One of them has blond hair, pulled up in a pony tail, and is the one who does all the talking in this dream. The other sister has silky black hair, and always stands in my peripheral vision so I don't ever get a real good look at her.

I am very excited that they are here so I hurry over to them feeling like rushed like I have a million questions to ask and I can already feel myself starting to wake up a little, I know its going to last a couple more minutes at best like my other DILDS because I catch lucidity as I am waking up.

I ask the blond sister "How can I get lucid more often" and she smiles indulgently at me as this is the third time I have asked her this question. In my last lucid I asked her this question I remember feeling like her answer was revolutionary and brilliant while listening to it, but couldn't remember one word of what she said when I woke up, so I really paid attention this time. She said "The most important thing is to develop/have a lucid mindset... and more words I didn't understand she is continuing to speak but its over my head". Because I was really paying attention I can tell that I am not really understanding what she is saying anymore, so I interrupt her and ask "wait, what exactly does it mean to have a lucid mindset? What SHOULD I be focusing on? What emotions should I be feeling? HOW?"

At this point the dream is starting to fade. She looks a at me a little exasperated that I interupted her, and then she looks over my shoulder and stops speaking and just kind of smiles at me in a kind way. This is something I am noticing that when my dreams are ending whoever I'm talking to looks over my shoulder and its like they see something that confirms to them I'm about to wake up, they usually just stop talking and give me that friendly maybe see you later smile. Then the dream ends

I remember that I can try and DEILD. I focus on laying still as I wake up. I have some fear about forgeting my first lucid dream if I try to DEILD and it fails and I wake up in a non lucid so I briefly remember the previous dream as I focus on not moving.

When I wake up, get back to my body, I still feel very sleepy and I feel like a DEILD will be successful, I feel like the dream is just below my bed and if I relax strongly enough I will just sink into it. So I just totally let go of my body, like totally limp bone, like if I was standing I would just turn into a puddle on the ground, and I get a strong falling feeling like I am sinking through my bed. I feel like I am falling into the dream beneath my bed, like it is a giant bubble, the surface of the bubble is a brilliant white light and as I sink through it it feels very peaceful and I totally cannot real my waking life body AT ALL at this point. I sink through the white light and BOOM

I am back in the apartment complex of the last dream again. I think holy crap I did it, that was totally a WILD transition and I made it into a dream! I am in the office next to the pool area. I look out the window and see the two sisters are still here sitting in reclining pool chairs relaxing under an umbrella. I run out to them and they are excited to see me. I go up to the blond one who was talking before and she sits up in the chair goes cross legged and turns to face me ready to answer questions, I thought she looked very cute sitting like that and was happy that she was excited to see me, and willing to answer questions.

I am lucid still at this point, but less strongly so. I forgot to do any stabilizing in this dream and didn't bring my waking awareness or memory with me as strongly as I thought. I didn't think to do any checking since I knew it was a WILD transition, but next time I'll know that even then my awareness needs a recharging in the dream. I know I wasn't as strongly lucid because this next conversation bit is fuzzier in my memory.

I ask her "do you believe there are things in dreams that do not come from me" I don't remember her exact answer but I remember she looked like it was a subject that she didn't really want to talk about but she did say yes.

At this point the dream was ending and I could feel myself waking up. I got close to her and I knew that I really wanted to remember her words this time, so I told her "crap I'm waking up, can you do a review in like five seconds please!"

She nodded and said "first develop a lucid mindset, then well find out what your name means" I interrupt at this point and say "huh we didn't do that" she continues "then well do a tarot card reading" I interrupt again and say "we didn't do that either!" Then for the first time the other sister speaks, she is standing at my left shoulder "you are confusing him" I look toward her to see her face but before I do I notice she is pointing with her finger, and it felt like she was controlling my focus with her finger because I started to look where she was pointing, and it was like I could notice something that I couldn't before because she was helping me to focus. And I noticed that the first sister had a beanie on and across her forehead stitched on the beanie it said "Tarra" and the second sister said "see thats her name" and so I asked Tarra what her sisters name was and she said "she's Skippy" like the board game risk. No idea what that means.

Yes! Finally a lucid dream! I am so excited right now I woke up 2 hours early just to write this dream down!

Last night I was following my usual routine according to my dream goals and thread "Bedtime Priorities". I have been doing to same thing for 2 1/2 weeks now and was starting to become a little disappointed thinking it wouldn't work. I know this is silly as many of the techniques I am trying say they need at least 90 days of consistency, but without having any lucids I admit I was starting to doubt.

I woke up after a natural REM cycle, rolled over like I usually do and according to my plan tried to WILD MILD. My previous dream was very strong so I was committing it to memory and reviewing it while I started counting my breaths. My mind was not very awake, my self-awareness did not "feel" strong and my memory was definitely not turned on. I remember loosing count around 10 which was very fast, I snapped back to myself and re affirmed that I wanted to count my breaths and remain aware. I remember getting to 10 again before I found myself in a dream.

I have no idea how I became lucid. I don't think it was a true WILD, if it was I would remember entering the dream? My consciousness was just not very turned on, I mean I was falling asleep to the count of 10! I don't think it was a DILD, I don't remember any dream sign that sparked me to question lucidity, I just knew I was in a dream, darn I didn't even do any RC, which I am actually really bummed about because I have several I have wanted to experiment with! I want to test gravity to see if I can notice any difference, and I wanted to practice the reverse reality check I do as part of my waking self awareness.

Here is the dream, it was by far the longest lucid dream I have ever had! Felt like maybe 15 minutes of real time. As I analyzed it I realize my lucidity was not very strong, I didn't remember to do my RC, or try to "turn on" my memory. But it was a VERY interesting dream.

Dream One: I realize that I am dreaming, I am very excited but I don't get that pounding heart beat adrenalin rush I have gotten before that wakes me up. I just KNOW I am dreaming. The dream feels very stable, and I am curious to see how long it will last.

I am in this white concrete dorm room with two beds in it and a window covered with bars. It is the setting of my last dream. I have this intense feeling of almost claustrophobia and I really don't want to be here in this room anymore. My friend from college, TP, is still in the room from the last dream.

We are on the second story so I head to the hallway to try and go downstairs and leave. In the hallway I notice these pictures that were made in my last dream. There where three pictures, each one centered around one of the DC's from my last dream. I take a moment to look at each of them because I think they are so cool, and I stand there just so impressed at what the brain can do. Each of the pictures was made by taking a snapshot of my field of vision centered on one of the DC's and compressing my whole field of vision down to picture size, then making it black and white. I stayed in the hall for a while looking at all three of them thinking about how my brain takes pictures of my whole field of vision not just what I am focused on.

The feeling of claustrophobia returns and I realize there are no stairs to exit. I go over to the window in the room but it is covered in this thick iron mesh. I affirm to myself that it cannot keep me in here and push myself forward to phase through the mesh and be outside. It worked really well I find myself hanging from the bars on the other side on the second story of a house. My friend TP rushes over and is amazed at what I have done like he has become lucid and asks for my advice so I tell him to stabilize the dream by rubbing his hands together.

I drop down to the street and look around the neighborhood. I don't recognize any of the houses and I want to get back to my house to find my bed and see if my body is there because my dream goal is to talk to myself.

I start stomping my foot down and willing that the houses will change and I will be in my own neighborhood. It didn't work but I did get some crazy visuals of houses morphing into other houses. I started running down the block and found myself in a more urban setting like I was walking between sky scrappers.

It's not what I wanted but it's cool and there should be some DC's around here. I start looking for some to talk to and see what they are like. I see a group of 4 or 5 but none of them look very friendly so I move on.

I see these two girls walking and move towards them down an ally. They are sisters, one looks 25 and the other 9 or 10. As I move towards them I get a feeling like they are important, and they will talk with me.

I go up to them and ask "can I ask you a question?" the younger one nods her head but before she can answer I look up and see this shadow void person moving towards us down the ally.

I don't know how to describe him, he was very weird. He had the shape of an adult man, but there was nothing to him, but not like a shadow, like a translucent void. Like he was from another place and couldn't appear as anything else here but a ripple across the background.

He starts walking toward me and reaches out an arm to start pushing me. I feel my lucidity start slipping away. The really weird part is that when he was around I got this strong feeling like I had seen him many times before. Like his appearance and presence was not a shock to me at all.

But right when I was about to lose the dream the little girl grabbed onto my arm real quick and said "Stop, you know he is allowed to ask one question first" and my lucidity snapped back and it felt like I was in the ally again, and I remembered that I wanted to ask a question.

So I turned to her and asked "how can I become lucid more often" and she answered me in what felt like a profound way and a remember repeating it to myself over and over throughout the rest of the dream, but I just can't remember it now!!

After answering she releases my arm and I immediately lose lucidity, but I don't wake up.

The dream transitions and I am back in a college setting. This part of the dream feels very vivid but I am not lucid. I remember seeing my sister A.S and talking with her and telling her something to continue our experiment with shared dreaming. As I am leaving the college campus my other sister A.B comes up to me and I realize I am dreaming and lucidity snaps back to me like it was happening for the first time in this dream. I feel like I have just done a DILD but have no idea what sparked my lucidity. I tell A.B that we are dreaming and she doesn't seem surprised at all. I leave the campus and the dream transitions.

I remember asking my question to the sisters at this point and having accomplished that dream goal I just start feeling really horny. I want to find a willing DC and have some sexy time. For the next several minutes I am wondering the streets looking for a willing woman. Every one I meet seems angry at the world, and is not very attractive. I remember feeling very disappointed with this situation. Eventually I accept that it's just not going to happen, and then I start feeling the dream end and start waking up.

I remember that I want to try to DEILD when I wake up so I start laying very still and affirm that I am not going to move. I start having the most crazy hypnagogic imagery I have ever seen! I see a central very bright light that looks like the effect from star trek when they fire a proton torpedo, except instead of red it was shifting green and blue all wavy like. Then I start to see an extremely bright white light overlapped on top. I start to think that it must be daytime and my sleep mask has slipped and I am seeing sunlight. I hang on and eventually feel my body back in my bed, but I later realize I was in a different position that I was really sleeping and this was a FA, I lay still and slip back into a dream.

I know that I am dreaming again and am amazed the the DEILD worked. The dream isn't very stable and the visuals are cartoonish. The whole world looks like a cheap farm simulator game. There are pairs of barnyard animals roaming over a green fenced in field.

I see a pair of chickens that I realize are the twin sisters from my last dream and start to hover over to them. I don't have a body in this dream and I am just kind of hovering, and I realize I cant hear anything either. So on my way over to them I try to stabilize the dream and start hearing something. My ears pop loudly and I start hearing some chickens clucking or something.

Right when I am about to get to the sisters the dream void man returns. He is rushing towards me with his arm extended and I feel him pushing me out of the dream again. I rush towards the sisters and yell out asking "can I ask another question?" and the void man replies "You are only allowed one question per dream!"

As he starts shoving me out of the dream I hold up my hand and yell "wait!, what if I don't ask a new question but the same one again?" He pauses and this and during this moment one of the twin sister chickens comes over and she tells me to ask my question. So I turn to her and repeat "what can I do to be lucid more often?"

Again she answers me in what feels like a profound way. At this time I can still remember her answer from last time and I remember feeling amazed that she could answer using such different language and analogy but coming to the same point. Her second answer felt very useful and I felt like I was understanding more of the point she was trying to convey the first time.

Then before I could react the void man rushed up behind me and the dream ended.

I woke up and started replaying the dream immediately to try and commit it to memory. I was shocked that I could not remember the twin sisters answers to my question. In the dream it felt so clear and I even repeated it to myself several times in the dream. I really wish I could remember her answers! I have to get ready to leave now, but I am going to be analyzing this dream all day!

So thankful to have had such a nice lucid dream! I hope this is the first of many to come!

Wow I have learned a lot the last couple of days by reading many of Sageous' posts on the forums. I feel like enough has changed that I need to update my dream goals.

Rather than forming persistent realities and meeting recurring dream characters, I would rather practice having waking life meta self-awareness in my lucid dreams. I want to meet and talk to my DC's and learn to interpret from them what I can learn about myself.

In addition to maintaining dream recall I would like to add the goal of turning on memory when in my dreams. Sageous talks about 3 legs to the lucid dreaming stool. Self-awareness, memory, and sleeping (not sure about last one hmm). I realize I have never tried to access or turn on memory in my dreams, which changes everything. One specific thing I want to "notice" and change about my dreams is that I almost never remember who my dream DC's are representing in the dream from waking life.

Complete Task of the Month is fine.

Lol I only was able to practice gravity RC for 2 days from 8-25-2019 to 8-27-2019. I am switching up this goal more towards the practice of the reverse reality check. To practice being self-aware in the present throughout the day, focusing on a non-dual perspective. I would like to do this for 90 days starting 8-27-2019.

And finally to have fun and enjoy dreaming!

updated Dream Goals:
- Meet and talk to my DC's and learn to interpret from them what I can learn about myself. Identify dream archetypes that are present and what I can learn through them about myself.
- Maintain my dream recall (DJ and remembering in morning)
- Practice "turning on" memory in dream. "My body is sleeping (here), this is not my waking body, I am dreaming". Practice remembering "who I am" in dream.
- Complete the Task of the Month (become a pirate lol)
- Practice Reverse Reality Check, meta self-awareness, non-dual perspective, for 90 days starting 8-27-2019
- Enjoy dreaming and have fun!

These were my dream goals in 2013

"My Dream Goals
- Form persistent realities (Meet a recurring dream character)
- Improve my dream recall
- Complete the Task of the Month
- Have Fun! And enjoy learning to dream again!"

As I review them I was able to actually complete 3 of them. My dream recall was actually very good then, and in the 6 years since it has persisted very well. Right now I am able to remember 5 good dreams on any given night when trying, and when not specifically trying to remember dreams I always expect to be able to remember at least one or two.

I was able to complete several task of the month challenges. I looked at the TOTM challenge thread yesterday and was disappointed that it seemed a little dead. There were still challenges posted but no one had responded to it at all. I liked the posted challenge to take over a ship with a pirate crew, so for now that will be one of my dream goals.

I always enjoy practicing lucid dreaming techniques, and of course the dreams themselves are freaking amazing! I recently read a forum post by Hukif talking about what a natural process it is that we dream, and that just like I would like to know more about myself in waking life it is just as natural to want to explore and know my dreaming life, as the two are intimately connected!

Unfortunately I have not been able up to this point to have the kind of consistent lucidity necessary to form persistent realities. They are still my major long term goal though. I have decided that for now to help progress towards that goal I am just going to imagine that all of my dreams are happening in the same reality, even if that reality is that they in some way relate to me. I am sort of hoping this attitude will help create persistent dream characters and plot lines. Maybe those characters are some sort of janitorial or spiritual staff tasked with the maintenance of my dreams behind the scenes or something?

I would like to add a fifth goal of performing the gravity RC for 60 days. As I get more experience with my own lucid dreams I hope to be able to customize this RC to me more, but for now I am practicing it as explained by Hukif.

So my Dream Goals:
- Form persistent realities (Meet a recurring dream character)
- Maintain my dream recall (DJ and remembering in morning)
- Complete the Task of the Month (become a pirate lol)
- Practice gravity RC for 60 days starting 8-25-2019
- Enjoy dreaming and have fun!

I have decided to focus on Hukif's gravity check RC method. It feels natural to me, and I like his emphasis on doing what feels right and makes sense to me. I also like the fact that this form of ADA is very meditative on the present. Practicing it makes me feel more grounded in the present in real life, like I am realizing how often I am zoned out or avoiding things in real life. I have set an intention to "engage" when I find my self zoning out in real life. I hope that this habit will translate into a more active engaged mindset in my dreams also, leading to more lucidity.

I was very encouraged that I was able to have a lucid on my first day trying, even if it was very short. I went into this night with a lot of confidence and expectation that I could do it again.
I have been having shoulder pain at night from side sleeping that causes me to toss and turn throughout the night. I decided that rather then complain about this I would take it as a opportunity as I partially wake up in between sleep cycles throughout the night to turn over I think this could be used to set intention and possibly improve my lucid chances.
Dream One: Towards the end of the night I did become lucid at the end of a dream and try to DEILD. I found myself back in the void, what a crazy place I had forgotten about. I remembered that I needed to stay calm and expect that if I focused I could enter another dream and remain lucid. I remember a feeling of floating in perfect blackness for what felt like 45 seconds or so. I couldn't see anything but I could feel a wind blowing all across my body. I stayed calm and focused on entering the next dream to come. Eventually fuzzy hazzy light started appearing in my peripheral vision, one of these "light blobs" did eventually form into a dream that I was "sucked" into! The dream that formed felt very vivid and clear, but I was to excited that I had done it and just wanted to find someone to tell that I had made it! I started looking for a DC to tell but lost lucidity at this point and it just became a normal, if very vivid, dream.

Today I was inspired and excited to lucid dream again. I hadn't been back on the forums for a year or more so my techniques were definitely rusty. I prepared with some gravity reality checking throughout the day, prepared my favorite and most reliable RC (pinch nose and breath) and went to bed crazy excited to have a lucid dream.

Dream One: I woke up around 5 in the morning naturally and tried to do a WILD. I had forgotten how strong and fascinating everything that goes along with falling asleep can be. I did fairly well but was way to excited on my first attempt to "fall asleep" and my mind was way to awake. I did catch a quick DILD/DEILD towards the end of the night, but forgot to stabilize and was to excited and lost lucidity quickly.
Lesson learned: Focus on managing excitement.

It has been several years since I posted on Dreamviews, and I have missed it. Maybe once a year I will get on to re-read several of my favorite dreams that I would never have remembered if I hadn't taken the time to record them here, and I love it!

For one year 2012-2013 I was determined and dedicated to lucid dreaming. In the 6 years since then I have continued to practice many of the dreaming techniques I learned, but I want more.

I still would like to have the kind of on demand lucidity that people like Hukif seem to have.

As I look at again taking up the kind of focus and commitment I believe it will take to improve my dreaming skills I realize that I will want to record these efforts again for future re-reading, so I'm back.

One big reason that I stopped posting a daily dream journal last time was because it was taking me to long to post everyday, like upwards of an hour. So this time my efforts are going to be much more shorthand with only a quick daily log with breakthroughs more thoroughly explored.

It feels good to be back.

Welp mark the date. I joined dreamviews on March 13 of 2013, and last night after nearly a solid year of practice I FINALLY had a good long lucid dream!

I had 2 10 minute DEILD's and 2 15-20 minute WILD's. There is way to much information from such long dreams to record them in my normal fashion of writing down everything I can remember, that would take forever.

I am just going to record snippets of my favorite one. I feel like I've had a real break through so hopefully I will be able to keep having amazing lucids!

Dream One: Leaving Reality

I am woken up by my dog barking in the middle of my afternoon nap. I don't move at all and focus on transitioning back into a dream. My body quickly falls back asleep and I am able to transition into a lucid dream.

I am in my grandparents house in my bed (not where I am actually taking my nap). I am tempted to waste ANOTHER lucid on sexy time but I remember some of my other dream goals and resist. I explore the house for a while and test my lucidity. This goes on for like five minutes. I am so amazed at the power of the mind. The dream house I am in so closely resembles the real house that it is crazy. I wonder around and appreciate the vividness and clarity of the house for a while.

Then I head outside. The farm is just as vivid and clear as the house had been. There is snow on the ground just like in RL and the trees and forest are so pretty.

I walk out into the yard and again just appreciate lucidity. This is the first lucid I have ever had where I didn't feel rushed at all. I KNEW that the dream would last, and so I was able to take large chunks of time to look around and enjoy the moment. I probably stood in the yard for another couple minutes just looking around.

Then I remembered that I wanted to try to leave "my dream bubble" like Hyu explains in his tutorial on forming persistent realities. I have tried this before but my lucidity was never strong enough to actually do it and I was always woken up or flung back to the ground.

This time I look up at the sky and think of rising up and leaving not just the planet, but my own dream bubble. Hyu believes that to really form persistent realities you have to actually make your brain believe that you are no longer in your own dreams, like it is REAL. The point is not weather or not I think I can actually leave with my consciousness out of my own dreams into a place that is REAL. The point is that if I can convince my brain that I have then the dream will feel like it is REAL.

I fly rapidly up into the sky and up into space. Then I pass into the black void and keep flying imagining that I am leaving my own dreams. I pass through a gray layer and then pop into a space of the black void with nothing but shining balls of light around me. Just like Hyu describes in this place I have no body, I am pure consciousness. I imagine the balls of light around me are other REAL realities that I can visit, each with their own story.

I am so pleased to have finally made it to this place that for a while I just float around in the void. It feels SO peaceful and SO blissful, it is wonderful. Then I start looking for a ball of light to join.

I choose the smallest one I can see (don't know why, I will choose a big one next time). I start willing myself towards it, and I start rushing through the void to the small light. It is farther away than I had imagined, I have to really focus on moving quickly and getting there because it is so far away.

Then I see that I am very close and I am going to make it! When I get there I pass through a light barrier and see a gray bubble that I believe represents the reality I wanted to join.

But I am traveling so quickly that I fly right past it and I think that I missed it!

But then it feels like I have transitioned into a dream again and I am in the most vivid dreamscape I have ever been in. It is crazy vivid!

I have a body again, I am standing on a patch of grass between two tin sheds. Unfortunately I don't have much time to appreciate the scene because to hummers full of troops pull up on either side of the sheds and I see men pointing at me and saying "there he is get him!"

Then men start pouring out of the hummers and chasing me. I have no where to run to and so I start to panic a little bit. Before I loose lucidity I notice that there is a superman, like literally superman with the cape and the S and everything, sitting in the back seat of each hummer. Then I see a man point at superman and then at me, I can't hear what he said but I was terrified that they were sicking superman on me!

Then I lost lucidity and woke up.

So I know that this is probably a huge wall of text now. Just imagine that this was literally one of four dreams I had of this length!

I am hoping that I have made a huge breakthrough and that I am able to return to the black void with the lights of different realities in them again in future lucids, though I don't think I will go back to the same one!

Even though I'm not going to record the other dreams I remembered I did want to mention some conversations I had with DC's. In two of my other dreams I had conversations that felt completely normal to me with DC's, which is weird because normally my DC's are really dumb and slow. In the lucids the DC's I was talking to felt completely real to me, and I didn't realize that was weird until I woke up and was thinking about it. I just wanted to also mention that I hope I have such interesting and "real" DC's in my future lucids also!

This is just a quick entry to mark that I had a lucid dream. It wasn't a very good lucid dream and I completely wasted it on sexy time. It is worth mentioning though because I was able to DEILD three times in a row which I have never managed to do before. I feel like every time that I successfully transition into a dream I get better and better at doing it as I recognize what it feels like.

Dream One: Observing a Mage battle

I am wondering through a castle dungeon like setting and things are very blurry and confusing. I open a door into a largish chamber. Inside the chamber half of the room is painted red and the other blue. Standing on each side is a mage. On the red side is a female mage who looks very smart and cunning. On the blue side is an old man who is clearly insane, and doesn't look at all powerful or wise. They start dueling each other, even though I am standing in the room they are not at all focused on me and I feel completely safe to observe their duel. I don't remember all of the battle but I remember that at one point the male mage summoned a large block of cheese and chest bumped it causing little cheese baby monsters to squirt out the other side and go attack the female mage... This attack was obviously not successful. The battle goes on for some time, and even though the female mage is clearly the superior in power she can't seem to kill the male mage. He keeps flashing in and out of existence, and somehow her attacks are ineffective. He is clearly insane and not doing any of this on purpose, and it was not an act, he really wasn't all there.

While this battle was going on I start to zone out and begin pondering his insanity. I wonder if he knows that he is insane? Or in his mind, is everything normal and functioning perfectly? I wonder if it is even possible for him to see the signs and know that he is insane? While I am pondering this a take a moment to consider the fact that maybe I am insane and don't know it, because I might not be able to see the signs just like he can't. So even though I think everything is normal and functioning perfectly, maybe I am also insane? Who can know....

Side Note: this ended up being a profound thought for me when I woke up and considered this dream. I related it to my faith. Technically I am kind of insane right now, because I don't know everything and I am only able to see part of the picture of this world now. Yet still I have the false belief that I can know what is best for me. That is why I must have faith and trust that my God knows whats best for me and loves me enough to save me and lead me. Because even when i think things are normal and functioning perfectly I can not see the whole picture. Kind of a weird and new thought.

Dream Two: Lucid

I am sitting at a kitchen table talking to my grandma and my dad about that last dream. I am trying to explain the thoughts that I had about insanity to my grandma, but I don't really understand it well enough myself and so it is very difficult to properly explain it to her. She is being good natured and trying to understand, but I can tell that I am not being clear. My dad has been zoned out for a while now, it is still the early morning and he is not interested in having a theological discussion so early.

I take a moment to collect my thoughts and look out the window. Hmmmmm.... I notice that on the horizon there are so EXTREMELY weird cloud formations. They appear to be rainbow clouds of dinosaurs holding hands? There is a T-red, and a Triceratops, and a Brachiosaurus??? Everything feels SOO real that I think that I can't possibly be dreaming. So, I get my grandmas attention and point at the clouds. She starts looking at them, and I think to myself "alright, this is so weird I have to be dreaming, but it feels so real, I am going to look like a fool, but I have to do a reality check to make sure I'm not dreaming". I reach up and plug my nose and attempt to breath in through it, NO WAY! It worked! I am so shocked I have to try it again to make sure, so I do and sure enough I am dreaming! Because of my disbelief the dream starts to fade, I start to re stabilize and am rewarded with a dream transition.

It is night time, I am standing on an asphalt parking lot in the middle of a forest. I am completely lucid now. I take a look around and admire to stunning beauty of the forest. It has been recently raining and everything is damp and shining in the moon light. Without really making a decision a get this strong desire to fly around for a little bit. It has been a while since I have been lucid, and it feels so refreshing to fly around. I easily take off into the night air and I feel blissful flying around with the crisp night air on my skin and in my lungs.

Eventually I reach a deeper part of the forest, where the moon is not shining so brightly. Without my noticing I have flown into a storm. I look at the horizon and see large black clouds all around me. The wind is fearsomely gusting around me now and it doesnt feel safe to fly any longer. The air is full of leafs, and my visibility is quickly dropping. I land and stomp my foot trying to make the storm stop, or the dream transition back to the peaceful night I was in before. It doesnt work, and I suddenly have the thought that the storm is representative of the chaos of my mind and soul.

If this is the case, than I need to find someone to guide me. It is one of my dream goals to meet a dream guide and this seams like a great opportunity to try. So I yell out "God, send me someone to guide me!" Then a large elk like creature with mostly black fur but a white chest comes running out of the forest straight at me. He isn't slowing down at all and so to avoid being hit by his antlers I dive out of the way, I wouldn't have been fast enough to dodge him but at the last moment he swerved slightly to avoid actually hitting me. He never stopped or anything, he just ran right past me back into the forest.

I think to myself, well if he was supposed to be a guide I am not really understanding his message. What should I do now? Then I see two smaller fawn colored dear creatures crossing the clearing and re entering the forest through a small clearing in the underbrush. I quickly chase after them and sneak into the clearing before it closes behind them. After walking through the underbrush for eight or nine feet I come out into a completely different world. The dear creatures see I have followed them and are startled and run away. I don't think to chase them, I just look around at the world I have found my way to. It looks a lot like the standard windows PC desktop picture with the rolling green hills and bright blue sky.

I don't have any time to appreciate the scene though because the humans who where keeping me prisoner in a previous dream realize I am here again and start chasing me to wipe my mind.

I again realize that I need a guide so while I am running away I am searching for one. I see two fox creatures and run over to them. They don't look very nice at all, but I am truly desperate for a guide at this point and so I roll over on to my back like a dog to submit to them and beg them to guide me. They are none to friendly to humans, and one closes his mouth around my throat and I feel his teeth digging into my skin. They are considering killing me to send me from this place, but I beg them to guide me in some way.

Unfortunately I can't remember what happens next and the dream transitions again.

I am back in the same place as before with the foxes but everything is peaceful now. I am with my sister now. We walk up to a table and see a nearly completed puzzle on the table with just one piece left to place in. I realize that the puzzle is telling the life story of the humans that were chasing me earlier. Apparently time passing very strangely in this place. The humans that were chasing me are all old now, and the puzzle is showing them in a peaceful setting representing the good life they have led. This somehow feels right to me, and I move to put the last piece into the puzzle and in so doing finish their story and leave them in peace. My sister was walking behind me and hadn't seen the puzzle yet. I invite her over to see it and watch me put in the last piece. When she gets over I realize that she isn't seeing the same puzzle setting as I am, even though we are in the same dream we are not seeing things exactly the same. Oh well. I feel the dream starting to fade now.

The dream transitions once more before I wake up.

I wake up into a false awakening but immediately become lucid. I am in my grandparents house, I get up and go find my sister to talk about the dream. I find her and she says that she has been practicing lucid dreaming, and that she will try to remember this dream when she wakes up for real. I feel myself waking up so I say goodbye then wake up for real

When I woke up I texted my sister to see if she remembered any cool dreams from last night and told her about the dream. She said she didn't, but thought that it would be cool if it was possible. Bummer, oh well, it was still a heck of a lucid!

Had my first lucid dream worth journaling in a while last night. Just for the sake of my records I have had three lucids this last while that I didn't bother journaling because they where short or not important/cool.

Dream One: Niece

Great dream, I was in a large room full of my family and we each had our own bed. AG, my niece, was a little bit older than she is in RL, like a toddler and she came over to me and we started snuggling and it was the sweetest thing ever. She was so happy, and so sweet nuzzling into my chest. Then I wrapped her up in a blanket and she laid next to me and we took a nap. On a side note my dad was busting SB for wanting to drink, and he told me “well he isn’t the guy we would have picked for her, but he loves her and he has done a great job so far so I think we are satisfied.” Pretty cool stuff

FA 1:

After that last dream I wake up and get up to go brush my teeth and i feel the dream fading, crap I missed a FA!

FA 2 and Lucid:

Then I get out of bed again and I think, better RC even though this feels so real, and immediately I am lucid. I start wondering the house and everything is SOOO vivid. I start thinking of sexual things but I promised myself I wouldn’t waste another lucid like that. The dream starts to fade a little but I begin concentrating on my surroundings and the dream restabilizes very well. I see a large window leading out to the street, I am on the second floor. The street outside is made of large cobblestones that are a dark redbrown from the rain that/mist that is falling on them. I am in a neighborhood and there are other really nice houses around me. I purposefully phase through the window and land in the street. I expect to smell and feel the rain and I do. My skin gets damp and when I finish phasing I smell the air and it smells just like it would after a fresh rain. I start calling out down both sides of the street, because I am alone, “alright God, I stopped myself, and I said I would try to find you or worship you with my dreams, I am here now, what do you want me to do? What do you want me to do?” As I am shouting the dream starts to fade.

FA 3 and lucid 2:

I wake up and get out of bed to start getting ready. I think I better RC after those two FA’s, you’ve got be kidding me three FA’s and two lucids in one morning, amazing! This dream is the most vivid I have ever had, I got out of bed in my room, and it felt like I was in my greandpaprents house where I am living now. I get teleported outside and I am now standing outside in their carport. The dream still feels amazingly real, I have actually managed to stop thinking about reality for a while, so I am not even thinking anymore this is a dream, I am just completely in the moment. I see my niece coming home down the road. She is a little older now then when she was in the last dream, and she can talk now. She is very happy to see me and she runs at me and gives me a hug. She is all covered in blood but I know its not hers and she seems happy enough so I give her a hug and appreciate the moment of seeing her smile at me and talk with a full set of teeth, since she is only 9 months old now in RL. I ask her “why are you all covered in blood, where have you been at?” she is unphased and responds that she is just getting back from the north pole, nothing to worry about. As she speaks she points off towards the north end of the farm and for the first time I look up at the horizon. Somehow I just understand that this is normal for her, at night she comes to this place and goes on dream adventures to these different places. On the horizon are like fifty different bubble scenes going around me in a three sixty. I remember being amazed and looking at each of them, but I can only really remember what ten or so looked like. Each one was like a chapter of a book that promised a different adventure. The north pole one she had just come from had a very smooth frozen sheet of ice, and the northern lights going crazy. It looked like there where two skies because the northern lights where reflecting off of the ice sheet. Now I knew why Amelia had gone there, because she liked the bright lights and wanted to check them out. I starting looking at other scenes. I asked her “do you have time for another adventure? Or do you have to go?” she took a moment to think about it, and even though she was coming home to wake up she said she could probably stay and hang out. So we started looking at the available adventures to see what we wanted to do. There was a beach scene right on the ocean with white sand and perfectly clear blue waters. And a world dominated by a huge volcano that was erupting and spewing magma everywhere, on that adventure I knew you would be jumping from rock to rock trying not to let the lava monster get you lol, I laughed. Then I saw a world that was calm, but had like 10 large white mountains forming in a circle. Around the mountains where flying balls of energy of all different colors, probably fifty or sixty of them in all from all colors of the rainbow. I knew that Amelia would be attracted to this place because of the colors so I showed her by pointing it out and her face lit up and she got very excited and she said “Yes!”

The next thing I know Amelia and I are standing in a white pit in what I can only assume was that world. But now there is not anything flying around, no balls of light, only white mountains and calm. I see these little mechanical devices laying on the floor and I pick on up. I feel like I recognize it somehow, like I should know what it does and how to use it. I pick up another and start trying to activate them. Amelia has lost interest but she is willing to stay a little longer since I have been so engrossed by these machines. I start trying to activate them by force of will, or pouring my energy into them or something, or anything come on work! I feel like I am starting to figure it out when another guy shows up. He looks surprised that we are here, then he takes another look at my face and is shocked! Like how can I be back here? He comes to try to take the machine from me but I don’t let go. I change the positioning in my hand according to lines on the ball and smile at the man. I still don’t know who is is, but I feel like I used to know him. The ball begins to glow and when it does all the others come to life around me. I remember what they are, they are used to make music by reverberating off the surrounding mountains using different frequencies. I start spinning them around but it just makes a horrible noise, the guy is very displeased by this so he shows me how to move my arms like an orchestra director to make music. I do so and I hear a question in my mind, as if from the machines, “what type of music shall we make?”. I think for a second, but decide techno of course. I start conducting the symphony and they start playing the techno song I am thinking about. Amelia is very pleased by this and starts dancing among the lights as they spin around, enjoying the techno music they are making. Then without my noticing she kind of slips away at this point. I enjoy making music for a little longer, and then I start thinking this is amazing that my mind can remember every note and so many different songs to be able to duplicate them in my dreams so perfectly. When I start remembering these things knowledge of reality starts coming back and I know I will wake up soon. I turn the machines off and land them so they wont be hurt by a sudden turn off and crash to the ground. Then I wake up as feeling and awareness returns to my waking body.

I have been really trying to improve my recall recently and it has helped to dramatically increase the vividness of my dreams. I have been remembering two or three dreams a night since my last update, but I haven't had the time to actually write a dj, yay for Saturday

Dream One: Drug Lord
I am at a retreat camp that my family owns (in the dream only sadly ), I run up to my brother (also in the dream only... weird) and start yelling at him. He has started selling drugs and I am very upset at him.... because he is stepping on my toes and will bring "the heat" down on me.

Apparently I am a MASSIVE drug lord and have made billions of dollars producing and selling all kind of drugs. I have managed to do all of this and remain completely anonymous, nobody has any idea who I really am. I am angry that my brother might get found out, he isn't as smart as I am.

I give him a huge bag of money that I am estimating was around 2 or 3 million dollars for him to stop what he is doing, and say I will give him another bag every month if he stops forever.

Dream Two: Fa and Sexy Time
I catch myself waking up and want to try to DEILD. I wouldn't say I am so much lucid at this point, as I am more just straight up awake. I re-relax my body and start trying to visualize a dream. I remember something I read from a DV member the other day about trying to feel a falling feeling, then you might transition to a FA or a lucid. So I start trying to imagine that I am falling, and I quickly start to fall back asleep. I repeat to myself "I am falling" "I am falling" "I am falling" getting more and more sleepy and quite.

I wake up in my bed, crud that sucks it didn't work. I don't even think to RC because this feels just like real life, like I had woken up. I glance next to me and there is a naked woman on the bed next to me.... okay cool (durp doesn't think to RC lol). Sexy time ensues.

This was the most vivid dream I have ever had, it was incredible! I want to describe more so that I will continue to remember in the future, but I don't really think it is appropriate so I guess I will just leave it at that. Okay I lied there is one part that is just to good to forget. It is just something she said, she looks right at me and says "well... let me see what you've got... it's what I came for after all........ humph... I show her.... "HMMMMM... I see you have something to admire... here let me.... okay you get the picture, pretty freaking cool!

Dream Three: Return of Giant Monster
I am at my grandparents farm staying in a trailer. I look out the window and see a HUGE bird creature gliding down to land in the field. The bird creature is at least 10 ft tall and has a 20ft wingspan with human hands on the end of its wings.

It glides around the farm making two circles, each time as it gets over me I here it sending a telepathic message, it says "Let peace and harmony rule this place, let only the blasphemer break the peace" As it circles around a second time I hear it repeat the same message.

Then it lands and starts walking around, it moves less like a bird and more like I imagine a large dinosaur would.

Anyway I am running out of time now so I am just going to say that the bird was evil, and it broke its own peace and tried to kill me and my grandparents. It killed one of our dogs and was able to shape shift into it to try and get into our presence. In the dream me and my grandparents both felt like we had fought this creature before, and had made preparations to fight it again. It was a pretty scary dream, and very vivid.

Dream One: Grandpa

I walked into a weird house and didn't know what I was doing there. Then I saw my dead grandpa and was kind of exited to see him. I went over and gave him a hug and asked him how he was doing.

Dream Two: Art... Something

I was in a big warehouse full of different kinds of art. The room looked kind of like the treasure room from National Treasure except it wasn't, like, as nice. It was just paintings and statues and stuff. In the dream I couldn't tell if I was there to recover the art, or if it was my lair and I was responsible for stealing it

Dream Three: Swimming

I was swimming in a outdoor circular swimming pool in a hotel resort club. Then these two girls, who I knew where some kind Fae, came over and started swimming with me. Then the dream transitioned and I was like a private detective investigating the club for the hidden Fae areas.

Note: I have been watching a lost of Lost Girl recently and that is probably where this dream came from.