false awakening

Dream One: Observing a Mage battle

I am wondering through a castle dungeon like setting and things are very blurry and confusing. I open a door into a largish chamber. Inside the chamber half of the room is painted red and the other blue. Standing on each side is a mage. On the red side is a female mage who looks very smart and cunning. On the blue side is an old man who is clearly insane, and doesn't look at all powerful or wise. They start dueling each other, even though I am standing in the room they are not at all focused on me and I feel completely safe to observe their duel. I don't remember all of the battle but I remember that at one point the male mage summoned a large block of cheese and chest bumped it causing little cheese baby monsters to squirt out the other side and go attack the female mage... This attack was obviously not successful. The battle goes on for some time, and even though the female mage is clearly the superior in power she can't seem to kill the male mage. He keeps flashing in and out of existence, and somehow her attacks are ineffective. He is clearly insane and not doing any of this on purpose, and it was not an act, he really wasn't all there.

While this battle was going on I start to zone out and begin pondering his insanity. I wonder if he knows that he is insane? Or in his mind, is everything normal and functioning perfectly? I wonder if it is even possible for him to see the signs and know that he is insane? While I am pondering this a take a moment to consider the fact that maybe I am insane and don't know it, because I might not be able to see the signs just like he can't. So even though I think everything is normal and functioning perfectly, maybe I am also insane? Who can know....

Side Note: this ended up being a profound thought for me when I woke up and considered this dream. I related it to my faith. Technically I am kind of insane right now, because I don't know everything and I am only able to see part of the picture of this world now. Yet still I have the false belief that I can know what is best for me. That is why I must have faith and trust that my God knows whats best for me and loves me enough to save me and lead me. Because even when i think things are normal and functioning perfectly I can not see the whole picture. Kind of a weird and new thought.

Dream Two: Lucid

I am sitting at a kitchen table talking to my grandma and my dad about that last dream. I am trying to explain the thoughts that I had about insanity to my grandma, but I don't really understand it well enough myself and so it is very difficult to properly explain it to her. She is being good natured and trying to understand, but I can tell that I am not being clear. My dad has been zoned out for a while now, it is still the early morning and he is not interested in having a theological discussion so early.

I take a moment to collect my thoughts and look out the window. Hmmmmm.... I notice that on the horizon there are so EXTREMELY weird cloud formations. They appear to be rainbow clouds of dinosaurs holding hands? There is a T-red, and a Triceratops, and a Brachiosaurus??? Everything feels SOO real that I think that I can't possibly be dreaming. So, I get my grandmas attention and point at the clouds. She starts looking at them, and I think to myself "alright, this is so weird I have to be dreaming, but it feels so real, I am going to look like a fool, but I have to do a reality check to make sure I'm not dreaming". I reach up and plug my nose and attempt to breath in through it, NO WAY! It worked! I am so shocked I have to try it again to make sure, so I do and sure enough I am dreaming! Because of my disbelief the dream starts to fade, I start to re stabilize and am rewarded with a dream transition.

It is night time, I am standing on an asphalt parking lot in the middle of a forest. I am completely lucid now. I take a look around and admire to stunning beauty of the forest. It has been recently raining and everything is damp and shining in the moon light. Without really making a decision a get this strong desire to fly around for a little bit. It has been a while since I have been lucid, and it feels so refreshing to fly around. I easily take off into the night air and I feel blissful flying around with the crisp night air on my skin and in my lungs.

Eventually I reach a deeper part of the forest, where the moon is not shining so brightly. Without my noticing I have flown into a storm. I look at the horizon and see large black clouds all around me. The wind is fearsomely gusting around me now and it doesnt feel safe to fly any longer. The air is full of leafs, and my visibility is quickly dropping. I land and stomp my foot trying to make the storm stop, or the dream transition back to the peaceful night I was in before. It doesnt work, and I suddenly have the thought that the storm is representative of the chaos of my mind and soul.

If this is the case, than I need to find someone to guide me. It is one of my dream goals to meet a dream guide and this seams like a great opportunity to try. So I yell out "God, send me someone to guide me!" Then a large elk like creature with mostly black fur but a white chest comes running out of the forest straight at me. He isn't slowing down at all and so to avoid being hit by his antlers I dive out of the way, I wouldn't have been fast enough to dodge him but at the last moment he swerved slightly to avoid actually hitting me. He never stopped or anything, he just ran right past me back into the forest.

I think to myself, well if he was supposed to be a guide I am not really understanding his message. What should I do now? Then I see two smaller fawn colored dear creatures crossing the clearing and re entering the forest through a small clearing in the underbrush. I quickly chase after them and sneak into the clearing before it closes behind them. After walking through the underbrush for eight or nine feet I come out into a completely different world. The dear creatures see I have followed them and are startled and run away. I don't think to chase them, I just look around at the world I have found my way to. It looks a lot like the standard windows PC desktop picture with the rolling green hills and bright blue sky.

I don't have any time to appreciate the scene though because the humans who where keeping me prisoner in a previous dream realize I am here again and start chasing me to wipe my mind.

I again realize that I need a guide so while I am running away I am searching for one. I see two fox creatures and run over to them. They don't look very nice at all, but I am truly desperate for a guide at this point and so I roll over on to my back like a dog to submit to them and beg them to guide me. They are none to friendly to humans, and one closes his mouth around my throat and I feel his teeth digging into my skin. They are considering killing me to send me from this place, but I beg them to guide me in some way.

Unfortunately I can't remember what happens next and the dream transitions again.

I am back in the same place as before with the foxes but everything is peaceful now. I am with my sister now. We walk up to a table and see a nearly completed puzzle on the table with just one piece left to place in. I realize that the puzzle is telling the life story of the humans that were chasing me earlier. Apparently time passing very strangely in this place. The humans that were chasing me are all old now, and the puzzle is showing them in a peaceful setting representing the good life they have led. This somehow feels right to me, and I move to put the last piece into the puzzle and in so doing finish their story and leave them in peace. My sister was walking behind me and hadn't seen the puzzle yet. I invite her over to see it and watch me put in the last piece. When she gets over I realize that she isn't seeing the same puzzle setting as I am, even though we are in the same dream we are not seeing things exactly the same. Oh well. I feel the dream starting to fade now.

The dream transitions once more before I wake up.

I wake up into a false awakening but immediately become lucid. I am in my grandparents house, I get up and go find my sister to talk about the dream. I find her and she says that she has been practicing lucid dreaming, and that she will try to remember this dream when she wakes up for real. I feel myself waking up so I say goodbye then wake up for real

When I woke up I texted my sister to see if she remembered any cool dreams from last night and told her about the dream. She said she didn't, but thought that it would be cool if it was possible. Bummer, oh well, it was still a heck of a lucid!

Had my first lucid dream worth journaling in a while last night. Just for the sake of my records I have had three lucids this last while that I didn't bother journaling because they where short or not important/cool.

Dream One: Niece

Great dream, I was in a large room full of my family and we each had our own bed. AG, my niece, was a little bit older than she is in RL, like a toddler and she came over to me and we started snuggling and it was the sweetest thing ever. She was so happy, and so sweet nuzzling into my chest. Then I wrapped her up in a blanket and she laid next to me and we took a nap. On a side note my dad was busting SB for wanting to drink, and he told me “well he isn’t the guy we would have picked for her, but he loves her and he has done a great job so far so I think we are satisfied.” Pretty cool stuff

FA 1:

After that last dream I wake up and get up to go brush my teeth and i feel the dream fading, crap I missed a FA!

FA 2 and Lucid:

Then I get out of bed again and I think, better RC even though this feels so real, and immediately I am lucid. I start wondering the house and everything is SOOO vivid. I start thinking of sexual things but I promised myself I wouldn’t waste another lucid like that. The dream starts to fade a little but I begin concentrating on my surroundings and the dream restabilizes very well. I see a large window leading out to the street, I am on the second floor. The street outside is made of large cobblestones that are a dark redbrown from the rain that/mist that is falling on them. I am in a neighborhood and there are other really nice houses around me. I purposefully phase through the window and land in the street. I expect to smell and feel the rain and I do. My skin gets damp and when I finish phasing I smell the air and it smells just like it would after a fresh rain. I start calling out down both sides of the street, because I am alone, “alright God, I stopped myself, and I said I would try to find you or worship you with my dreams, I am here now, what do you want me to do? What do you want me to do?” As I am shouting the dream starts to fade.

FA 3 and lucid 2:

I wake up and get out of bed to start getting ready. I think I better RC after those two FA’s, you’ve got be kidding me three FA’s and two lucids in one morning, amazing! This dream is the most vivid I have ever had, I got out of bed in my room, and it felt like I was in my greandpaprents house where I am living now. I get teleported outside and I am now standing outside in their carport. The dream still feels amazingly real, I have actually managed to stop thinking about reality for a while, so I am not even thinking anymore this is a dream, I am just completely in the moment. I see my niece coming home down the road. She is a little older now then when she was in the last dream, and she can talk now. She is very happy to see me and she runs at me and gives me a hug. She is all covered in blood but I know its not hers and she seems happy enough so I give her a hug and appreciate the moment of seeing her smile at me and talk with a full set of teeth, since she is only 9 months old now in RL. I ask her “why are you all covered in blood, where have you been at?” she is unphased and responds that she is just getting back from the north pole, nothing to worry about. As she speaks she points off towards the north end of the farm and for the first time I look up at the horizon. Somehow I just understand that this is normal for her, at night she comes to this place and goes on dream adventures to these different places. On the horizon are like fifty different bubble scenes going around me in a three sixty. I remember being amazed and looking at each of them, but I can only really remember what ten or so looked like. Each one was like a chapter of a book that promised a different adventure. The north pole one she had just come from had a very smooth frozen sheet of ice, and the northern lights going crazy. It looked like there where two skies because the northern lights where reflecting off of the ice sheet. Now I knew why Amelia had gone there, because she liked the bright lights and wanted to check them out. I starting looking at other scenes. I asked her “do you have time for another adventure? Or do you have to go?” she took a moment to think about it, and even though she was coming home to wake up she said she could probably stay and hang out. So we started looking at the available adventures to see what we wanted to do. There was a beach scene right on the ocean with white sand and perfectly clear blue waters. And a world dominated by a huge volcano that was erupting and spewing magma everywhere, on that adventure I knew you would be jumping from rock to rock trying not to let the lava monster get you lol, I laughed. Then I saw a world that was calm, but had like 10 large white mountains forming in a circle. Around the mountains where flying balls of energy of all different colors, probably fifty or sixty of them in all from all colors of the rainbow. I knew that Amelia would be attracted to this place because of the colors so I showed her by pointing it out and her face lit up and she got very excited and she said “Yes!”

The next thing I know Amelia and I are standing in a white pit in what I can only assume was that world. But now there is not anything flying around, no balls of light, only white mountains and calm. I see these little mechanical devices laying on the floor and I pick on up. I feel like I recognize it somehow, like I should know what it does and how to use it. I pick up another and start trying to activate them. Amelia has lost interest but she is willing to stay a little longer since I have been so engrossed by these machines. I start trying to activate them by force of will, or pouring my energy into them or something, or anything come on work! I feel like I am starting to figure it out when another guy shows up. He looks surprised that we are here, then he takes another look at my face and is shocked! Like how can I be back here? He comes to try to take the machine from me but I don’t let go. I change the positioning in my hand according to lines on the ball and smile at the man. I still don’t know who is is, but I feel like I used to know him. The ball begins to glow and when it does all the others come to life around me. I remember what they are, they are used to make music by reverberating off the surrounding mountains using different frequencies. I start spinning them around but it just makes a horrible noise, the guy is very displeased by this so he shows me how to move my arms like an orchestra director to make music. I do so and I hear a question in my mind, as if from the machines, “what type of music shall we make?”. I think for a second, but decide techno of course. I start conducting the symphony and they start playing the techno song I am thinking about. Amelia is very pleased by this and starts dancing among the lights as they spin around, enjoying the techno music they are making. Then without my noticing she kind of slips away at this point. I enjoy making music for a little longer, and then I start thinking this is amazing that my mind can remember every note and so many different songs to be able to duplicate them in my dreams so perfectly. When I start remembering these things knowledge of reality starts coming back and I know I will wake up soon. I turn the machines off and land them so they wont be hurt by a sudden turn off and crash to the ground. Then I wake up as feeling and awareness returns to my waking body.

I have been really trying to improve my recall recently and it has helped to dramatically increase the vividness of my dreams. I have been remembering two or three dreams a night since my last update, but I haven't had the time to actually write a dj, yay for Saturday

Dream One: Drug Lord
I am at a retreat camp that my family owns (in the dream only sadly ), I run up to my brother (also in the dream only... weird) and start yelling at him. He has started selling drugs and I am very upset at him.... because he is stepping on my toes and will bring "the heat" down on me.

Apparently I am a MASSIVE drug lord and have made billions of dollars producing and selling all kind of drugs. I have managed to do all of this and remain completely anonymous, nobody has any idea who I really am. I am angry that my brother might get found out, he isn't as smart as I am.

I give him a huge bag of money that I am estimating was around 2 or 3 million dollars for him to stop what he is doing, and say I will give him another bag every month if he stops forever.

Dream Two: Fa and Sexy Time
I catch myself waking up and want to try to DEILD. I wouldn't say I am so much lucid at this point, as I am more just straight up awake. I re-relax my body and start trying to visualize a dream. I remember something I read from a DV member the other day about trying to feel a falling feeling, then you might transition to a FA or a lucid. So I start trying to imagine that I am falling, and I quickly start to fall back asleep. I repeat to myself "I am falling" "I am falling" "I am falling" getting more and more sleepy and quite.

I wake up in my bed, crud that sucks it didn't work. I don't even think to RC because this feels just like real life, like I had woken up. I glance next to me and there is a naked woman on the bed next to me.... okay cool (durp doesn't think to RC lol). Sexy time ensues.

This was the most vivid dream I have ever had, it was incredible! I want to describe more so that I will continue to remember in the future, but I don't really think it is appropriate so I guess I will just leave it at that. Okay I lied there is one part that is just to good to forget. It is just something she said, she looks right at me and says "well... let me see what you've got... it's what I came for after all........ humph... I show her.... "HMMMMM... I see you have something to admire... here let me.... okay you get the picture, pretty freaking cool!

Dream Three: Return of Giant Monster
I am at my grandparents farm staying in a trailer. I look out the window and see a HUGE bird creature gliding down to land in the field. The bird creature is at least 10 ft tall and has a 20ft wingspan with human hands on the end of its wings.

It glides around the farm making two circles, each time as it gets over me I here it sending a telepathic message, it says "Let peace and harmony rule this place, let only the blasphemer break the peace" As it circles around a second time I hear it repeat the same message.

Then it lands and starts walking around, it moves less like a bird and more like I imagine a large dinosaur would.

Anyway I am running out of time now so I am just going to say that the bird was evil, and it broke its own peace and tried to kill me and my grandparents. It killed one of our dogs and was able to shape shift into it to try and get into our presence. In the dream me and my grandparents both felt like we had fought this creature before, and had made preparations to fight it again. It was a pretty scary dream, and very vivid.

I had four good dreams tonight but I am just going to record part of one and then the lucid I had.

After the wedding ceremony the four groomsmen get up on stage. They are all pretty drunk and this point, and the rest of the wedding party, and the bride in particular, are looking very nervous that they are going to do something stupid and ruin the wedding.

They get in a line and act like they are going to sing a song, everyone is relieved. Then another man, not a groomsmen, comes out from behind stage and gives each of the 4 groomsmen a shot glass and starts filling it up from a HUGE bottle of vodka he is carrying around.

They all look at each other like what is going on, but then shrug as if to say "hey I guess we have room for one more shot before we begin the song... RIGHT?!"

So the three on the right down the shot, but he groomsmen on the left starts to look like he is having second thoughts. (Side note: this is where their actual performance starts. Well I guess it had already started before hand but this is where I thought it started in the dream). He notices there is a discarded metal drum nearby and moves to pour his shot out in it.

When he is over it he pours out his shot... but the shot glass has way more vodka in it then it should! He just keeps pouring and pouring until the whole metal drum is filled up! He looks incredulous like he is wondering what the heck is going on.

Meanwhile when he is about done filling up the drum one of the other groomsmen has a heart attack and falls to the floor dead. When he hits the floor his body immediately starts decomposing and he quickly rots away and shrinks until all that is left is a tiny skeleton that is about a foot tall.

Another groomsmen grabs the skeleton and brings it over to the drum they just filled with vodka. He goes to dip the skeleton in the vodka but it is just a little to wide and tall to fit into the drum.

Se he stands the skeleton up while the other three groomsmen pick up the drum and splash the vodka onto the skeleton. It absorbs all the vodka, no a single drop misses or falls to the ground!

The skeleton starts growing and coming back to life. It is able to walk around on its own but is still in a state between life and death. It looks like his cartilage and some ligaments are back but he has no muscle or skin.

The third groomsmen takes of most of his clothes and starts rubbing himself vigorously. Soon it is like his skin is smoothing out and kind of stretching to start forming around him like a cocoon. It starts near his feet then as he keeps rubbing his legs then torso then shoulders the cocoon keeps forming around him. After he does the shoulders his arms are stuck so he head still isn't in the cocoon. He sticks out his tongue and starts rubbing his lips. The cocoon effect spreads from there and covers his whole head and connects with the cocoon covering his body.

When he is fully cocooned he falls to the ground. After about ten seconds of laying there he bursts out the center like an Alien baby coming out a chest cavity.

He is all sweaty and slimy, and naked.

He picks up the skin cocoon left over and drapes it over the skeleton like a robe. It starts to sink into his body, first his muscles form, then he gets all veiney, then it settles over him and he is just like he was before he died! Pretty cool magic trick! The bride looks relieved and happy that they did something so creative, and didn't ruin her wedding.

There is a whole lot more to this dream before and after, but I don't want to bother to write it all down and that was the cool part. Other than to mention my friend J.D was there and told me he was getting married! What!?

The dream fades and I wake up. Even though this feels real I figure I might as well do an RC to make sure. Right when I though about doing a RC I knew I was still dreaming! I did a nose pinch RC anyway and I could still breath through my nose! I love that feeling!

I realize I am still in the Arena that my last dream was in. I stand up and say "This is a dream, I am lucid, Clarity NOW!" Even though the dream was stable it seams to stabilize further and my level of lucidity improves quite a bit. I know that I am not in danger of losing lucidity anymore so I stop stabilizing and start exploring.

I think about doing a TOTM. Then literally LOL and the horrible timing I have with lucids as I know it is Aug 1st and I have not had a chance to look at the new TOTM yet! Dang!

Oh well I will just explore and see if something cool happens. I start flying around the Arena for a while and it feels really good. Then I imagine I am connected to the ceiling by a string and start swinging back and forth.

After a while I notice there is a man watching me, the Arena had been previously completely empty. I fly down.

As I get close he starts talking to me. He looks friendly and I realize I have been wanting to have a conversation with a DC so I decide to engage him and see what he says.

"High I'm Lillie, how are you doing?"

"High Lillie, I'm _____ nice to meet you. I'm great since I am lucid! How are you doing?"

I repeat his name to myself a couple times so that I will be sure to remember it.

"Yes _____ I know that you are lucid that is why I am here. I need you to deliver a message to my wife and son, Luke. You see, I messed up a while ago and there is a woman in Vegas who will be getting the results of a paternity test soon that will show her child is mine. They don't know about this and I wanted to tell them but never did. Will you find them and tell them for me _____ ?

For some reason I don't ever think to answer his question. I am just trying to absorb the information.

At some point while he has been telling me this 3 other guys have shown up and they are standing nearby listening to our conversation.

For some reason all I think about is trying to remember the information, and I want to get there names right.

"You said your sons name was Luke, fantastic that will be easy to remember (thinking about Star Wars). What was your Wife's name again? Crud and I have forgotten your name also!"

In the dream I couldn't remember what he said his name was in the beginning. But I was able to remember it when I woke up.

For some reason when I said his sons name would be easy to remember everyone started laughing like it was a joke? By everyone I mean Lillie and the three men watching us. I tried to ignore them to hear Lillie's response.

"Yes my sons name is Luke. My Wife's name is Madhu (I can't remember it perfectly but I think that is close. And mine is Pujo (pronounced pooj-ha)" (Side note: I am pretty sure Pujo, the name, came from Archer in the episode where he becomes pirate king. The archeologist that is there says he is a something-Pujo which means pirate slave)

At this point I remember that his name is Lillie so I say so and everyone treats it like a joke and starts laughing again. I am confused and the dream starts to fade away.

Hmm that was an interesting dream. I am very pleased to have had such a long conversation with a DC! Even though I don't think he was a DG or anything I am making progress in the right direction, Whoo!

I should also take a second to mention that I don't believe at all that I was actually communicating with the dead or that there is a message I need to deliver.

I am standing infront of a large man made pond. The edge is concrete and there is a nice sidewalk going around the pond. There are no swimming signs all around though. Like a crazy amount of no swimming signs, it must be dangerous or something. I wonder why?

It doesn't look dangerous. It is just a man made pond in the middle of a well groomed park.

I decide to investigate closer and so I walk to the very edge of the concrete and stare down into the water.

It is a clear blue water and I have very good visibility.

Way down deep I start to see movement. Right now it just looks like flashes of light, like there are a school of fish swimming around or something.

I see some of them notice me and the flashes of light start to head towards the surface. As they come up I see that they are not really fish but more like long eels with huge mouths and lots of teeth. They don't really seem evil to me or anything just large predators. I decide to try to catch some fish for dinner?

I think that I can grab one of the smaller fishes that are now swimming around before one of the eels can respond and attack me. I grab a fish and it works.

As I am pulling it out of the water my dog comes running by me and jumps out into the water. That's rights, I was playing fetch with my dog... right?

I throw the now dead fish I caught back into the water to try and distract the eels, hopefully they will go for the dead easy prey.

I see one start swimming towards my dog. I pull out my knife ...(love how the dream provides ) raise it above my head in two hands and prepare to jump in after my dog. As the eel swims near I time my jump so that I can leap into the water and stab him just before he gets to my dog. I do and it works, I stab him with my now huge bowie knife right in the forehead.

I see that I have now attracted the attention of more eels that are now swimming towards us. I push the dead eel under the water and hope that they are cannibalistic and will again go after the dead prey rather than chase us.

I swim towards the edge and manage to pull myself up. I have a moment of panic as I am pulling my last leg out of the water and I can't see what is happening, I feel like the eels are very close now. But I get out without incident and turn around to see whats going on and the dream transitions.

I am now a little bow cleaning fish with my friend. Suddenly I start to become lucid. I turn to my friend and say

"This is a dream. I think that I am lucid too!"

He just stairs at me with a blank expression. I don't really know what I was expecting of him though. Then Bam! I am in the void.

I am still asleep but I am beginning to feel my real body again and feel like I am waking up. I concentrate on relaxing and try to stabilize the dream.

Very quickly I start to see very vivid black and white scrolling patterns start passing by my vision. This goes on for maybe 10 or 15 seconds. I definitely take notice of them because they are very cool, but I don't want to become distracted and wake up. Or lose focus and enter a non lucid dream so I continue to concentrate on relaxing and stabilizing the dream.

Soon I transition very smoothly into another dream. Hey cool! I have been watching a bunch of the TV show Archer recently and I am so happy to see that they are influencing my dreams. I am in a nice apartment in a lab. Dr. Krieger is mixing some type of ingredients together, he doesn't have a shirt on and he looks supper high. He is trying to tell me something but I can't hear anything.

Then Dr. Krieger transitions and the lab he was working on turns into a fully stocked bar and Archer is there mixing a drink! So cool, I am so glad I get to talk to Archer in my dreams!

I start trying to talk to him. I was going to say

"Archer code name Duchess. It is so nice to meet you! Your a secret agent right?"

He starts talking at the same time, but it doesn't matter because I still can't hear anything. I realize I need to stabilize the dream so I start rubbing my hands and I really concentrate on hearing it and I say out loud

"I am lucid. I can hear things now."

It works and near the end of the statement my ears pop like a yawn coming down from altitude and I can hear things now.

I realize that as I was stabilizing I saw Archer walk away down the hallway. I go after him because I really did want to talk to him.

Damn! There are like a bajilion doors in the hallway. I realize that Archer is gone. Oh well.

I figure now would be a good time to try to have some sexy time. I stare at one of the doors and imagine that there is a sexy and willing women on the other side. I open the door but before I can see or walk into the room the dream fades.

I wake up and start rehearsing the dream so that I will be able to remember it later when I go to journal it. I realize I didn't really do anything amazing, but still it was a lucid so it is worth journaling.

I am not going to go into to much detail but up until now even though I was awake I had not moved or anything. I realize that somebody is touching my junk. Am I getting sleep creeped!... Not that I hatted it or anything but seriously, so weird! Should I let them know I am awake or just let it happen?

Then I wake up for real and realize I just got suckered by a crazy FA. And by the way I was alone in my room and not getting sleep creeped. Good... I guess? lol

Got to remember to check for those stinking FA's!

Technique: Total sleep time = 8 hours. I was woken up unusually by my Dad coming and asking me if I wanted to play golf. I went back to sleep for a ten minute snooze before waking up to play and had an amazing lucid! I seem to have most of my lucids late in the morning, especially when I am snoozing before I actually get up.

Results: Color Code: RL/Comments - Non Lucid - Lucid

Dream One: Humpty Dumpty

I am in a car driving down town. I remember my Dad had just come over to ask me to golf. How did I get into the car already?

I start to think maybe this could be a dream but I’m not sure. I look around... everything is so realistic and I just can't tell if I am dreaming or not. (I need to remember to RC in these situations!)

I decide that this MUST be a dream because in real life it wouldn't be so difficult for me to tell if I was awake or not. I accept that I am dreaming.

OH NO I think, this is just going to be another short FA so I will probably just wake up in another minute, not really enough time to do anything…

NOOO I WILL NOT WAKE UP! I remembered my technique to engage my senses in the dream to stabilize. I focused everything on the dream, I tried to deny that there was any reality outside of what I was experiencing. I was not afraid of waking up because there was nothing to wake up to, what I am experiencing is RL now. It worked!

The dream stabilized, it became so vivid!

I stop the car and get out in the middle of the road. I was going to yell at someone to see if they were real or not but was afraid I would look stupid (For some reason I am afraid of my DC's judging me. Like they will see me doing something silly and think I am acting foolishly. I need to get over this). Oh well! This is a dream!

I remember I wanted to do the TOTM!!! And I am finally having a stable enough lucid to try them!

I remember the one about telling a DC that this is a dream.

I raise my arms and stop a car, it is a man on his way to work in a suit. I yell at him:

"Your in my dream, this isn’t real!"

He looks at me like I’ve lost my mind.

Oh well... did the task don’t really care about his response.

A man walking across the road grabs my attention. I decide to follow him to keep the plot moving while I am trying to remember the other tasks... I cant remember the other tasks…

He goes into a breakfast dinner. There are some other people in there. I still couldn’t remember the other tasks. This is such a good lucid I could have done an advanced task!

I remember something like I wanted to turn a DC into Humpty Dumbty? And have an adventure with him, was that a TOTM?

Oh yeah! I have to lay an egg! I remember I was going to lay an egg, and then pretend it was Humpty Dumpty and go on an adventure with him!

I reach around me and act like I am wiping my butt and pull out an egg!

I am now holding in my hand an egg I just pulled out of my butt... everyone in the store is looking at me, did you just pull an egg out of your butt?

I decide the egg isn't good enough to turn into Humpty, I look at the DC I followed into the restaurant and yell:

"Bam! you are Humpty Dumpty! ... Nothing changes... BAM!!! You are Humpty Dumbty!"

Oh well not working…

I decide that the egg is going to have to suffice for my Humpty Dumpty and because I am getting board because my dream control isn't working I am going to keep our adventure nice and short.

I hold Humpty up and throw him at the DC who refused to change. It cracks on his face and he falls to the ground wiping egg off of his face.

I decide that is adventure enough. Yay TOTM DONE!!!

Moving on

As I was leaving the dinner I did a restabilize attempt because I wasn’t sure what would happen when I left the building. When I refocused my senses on the dream again I started to have one of those moments when everything because SUPPER HYPER FOCUSED and you spend a bunch of time looking at something that seems amazing in the dream but is just stupid in real life. The grout in the tile started to glow orange and the whole room started to almost, glow, with vividness. I didn’t want to get stuck looking at the dinner, I was ready to move on, so I ran out

I run through the door to get back outside,

I want to try to get to a “real world!” like Hyu!

I wanted to try his teleportation technique of imagining your leaving the world you are in, and going to a new one that is “real”. One of my dream goals is to have a persistent realm with recurring DC characters.

I try to fly upwards to leave this world, nothing. I am firmly planted to the ground.

Oh wait! His technique does not actually involve flying, you just see your conciseness rise out of your body, like an OBE, and fly away.

So I start looking down like I am going to float upwards and see my body bellow me.

It doesn’t work… but I do start flying upwards really fast!

I fly all around for a couple minutes, I am trying to gain altitude to leave this world. I still am trying to teleport.

But I realize I can’t gain any more altitude without a point of reference, so I start expecting to see the whole world bellow me like I was in space.

Dream transition

I don’t know how I got down but I am back outside the dinner still trying to teleport. All I managed to do by trying to concentrate on leaving the dream is to destabilize the plot and I can tell the dream is starting to fade. I try to restabilize again but it doesn’t work.

It kind of felt like I was about to teleport for a while, but I was unsure and my doubt was causing it to fail.

I remember my most important dream goal! I want to meet my dream guide!

I can feel the dream fading quickly now, I yell out:

"DREEEEAAAAAM GUIIIDE!"

And right when the dream is failing I here someone in a car across the parking lot shout back:

“Yes?”

I want to see her! It was a women! I want to see her so bad! But it is dark around her car and she is taken by the instability and the dream fades.

I wake up and can’t believe I just had such a good lucid. I immediately right it down! That stability technique was amazing! This was going to be one of those thirty second FA experiences but I was able to turn it into a full dream!! Go me!

Analysis: Expectations play such a strong roll in dream control for me. Next time I am trying to teleport, rather than focusing on what I am trying to leave I am going to focus on actually going where I am trying to get. Also, after reflecting on it I am sure that if I had been able to meet the "dream guide" that answered me in the parking lot it would have been just another boring DC. I need to change my expectations that when I meet my dream guide they will be smart and act like a "normal" person would!

I am SOOOOO happy that I finally managed to have a decent lucid!

Technique: Total sleep time = 9.5 hours. I didn't do any special techniques last night worth mentioning.

Results: Color Code: RL/Comments [COLOR="#0000FF" - Non Lucid[/COLOR] - Lucid

Dream One: Soul Trader

I was like a stock broker except I dealt in souls. I would buy someones soul, who was already dead by the way, and give them life again. I would tell them about the time period they would be living in, and tell them to live a better life than they did last time.

Dream Two: Supper Hero Zombies

I was with a group of people in a basement. A couple get sick and start attacking the others. I start fighting them. As the dream progresses I awaken more and more supper powers until I am basically superman. Meanwhile more and more people are turning into super zombies and I am fighting them. At the end I go to do a Hulk thunder clap to knock everyone down, so I lunge... and yell... and CLAP as hard as a can... but nothing happens. It was like one of those moments when you clap wrong and so it sounds really weird and someone heard you do it so you feel like an idiot? I was confused about why it didn't work and felt foolish for trying.
Anyway then I look up at the sky and realize someone has stolen the Earth and dragged us to a different galaxy to participate in World Arena Combat. Then I find some old friends (K.S) and the dream fades.

Dream Three: Denver Friends

I am with some of my Denver friends (C.H) and she is telling me that because she is pregnant no one pays attention to her anymore, like her opinions don't matter. In the dream it felt like she was working for me and felt like I wasn't respecting her enough.

Dream Four: High School Fun

I am back in High School and my mom is teaching the class. A couple of my college buddies are there (M.G). I take a painting on a whiteboard he has done and start erasing and re-doing it. I find a cool tool that you dip in paint and roll it on the paper and it makes flowers and vines and stuff for you, like a stencil.
When I am done it is M.Gs turn to re-do it. So he calls J.S over and they start drawing a city and writing a rap song?

Dream Five: Principles Office

I am in High School again outside of the principles office. I am not in trouble but it feels like I am supposed to wait here for something. I am hanging out with my sister A.R, we are trying to learn the school rules or something because we are new here. I remember I need to check to see if I have homework due for next hour, but I can't find my binder (which I finally do) and I can't remember my teachers name? Why did I organize my binder by the teachers name and not the class?! I knew the class was English but I couldn't rind the syllabus to see if I had homework due. This was very frustrating because I didn't want to walk in without my homework done again (possible dream fragment of this happening). This whole time people have been streaming by us into the principles office to do something called Clip Tests to test their determination and intelligence? We are told that we won't have to worry about being called in, but I can't remember why.

Dream Six: Frisbee With Gravity Control

I am playing indoor frisbee when I realize that if I concentrate hard and point my palm at the disk I can manipulate gravity and pull the disk to me! It wasn't TK, I was actually changing gravity to make the disk "fall" towards me. I show a couple people, but they think it is a trick and I have a string attached to the disk... I try to convince them but oh well.

Dream Transition:

We walk to the car and are heading home. I start to notice that things aren't quite right, wasn't I just playing with gravity? I wanted to test if this was a dream, but I forgot about my RC checks . I wanted to do something crazy to see if this was a dream, but it felt so lifelike that I just couldn't be sure! Honestly I'm kind of ashamed to say my first thought was to whip out my junk and head towards some attractive girls across the street, but I just wasn't sure this was a dream and to do that in RL would be so embarrassing!

Finally I decide that indeed this has to be a dream. Based kind of on the general fogginess but also on the fact that I figured that only in a dream would it be so hard to see if I was actually dreaming or not.

So what should I do! I couldn't believe I was having a lucid, and so early in the month too! I figured now would be a good time to do the TOTM, Yay! Then I realize the most horrible thing. In RL I haven't looked at the TOTM for May yet, so I could only do one of April's!!!! I was so frustrated with myself that I just wanted to immediately wake up and check the TOTM. Kind of a disappointing lucid, but the stability was really bad now, and I was frustrated with my goals being blocked so I woke myself up.

I could here noises, like music and talking, so I assumed they were from RL and headed towards those sounds to wake up...

Dream Seven: False Awakening - Napping In A Van

I wake up and I here the same sounds that I headed towards in my lucid. I am sleeping in the back seat of our van, kind of weird since I haven't done this since I was a kid. There is music playing and my sister and mom are talking about something.

I realize that before I get to engaged I need to make some notes about last night's dreams. I reach for my DJ note pad and record some notes (Interesting that the logical part of my mind must have been very awake at this point. I can clearly remember the notes I made on the last three dreams, and they are they exact same that I had to redo when I actually woke up). Then the dream starts to fade?! What?

Then I actually woke up and triple RC'ed to be sure. It was kind of deja vu making the dream notes again, really it felt unnecessary since I had already done it once before. I was kind of in shock at how realistic that FA felt, I was completely fooled!

I don't normally have FA's, never had one until I started here on DV. I am going to need to start RCing whenever I wake up to check for FA's.

This was a great start to May!

Technique: I have been incredibly focused on WILDing. I figured I would start from the basics again, since I felt that my technique had been getting sloppy. I had stopped counting because I thought that it was keeping me to awake, and I would never actually fall asleep to transition during a WILD. I didn't ever realize that since I have stopped counting, I have had the opposite problem. Lately, I have been falling asleep to quickly which is really frustrating. So I started counting again last night to anchor my mind while my body is falling asleep, and it kind of worked. I got back to the point where I will be drifting into a dream, realize what is happening, and snap back out of it. I will then start counting again and repeat the process. After this happened five times I got frustrated and just fell asleep. I am having so much difficulty transitioning into a dream.

Results: Color Code: RL/Comments - Non Lucid - Lucid

Dream One: I am on a road trip with my Dad. We are traveling in a huge van that we have rented that is more like a small house inside.

Inside the van we each have our own bedroom, and all the amenities of a house.

We stop at a gas station to take a break and get a drink.

The gas station is kind of dirty, so we both quickly get our drinks and head to the counter to pay. Right before we pay I notice that they have a flavor of soda that I somehow missed. It is a Kirby flavored soda?

I go back to get a second drink, I mean how could I possibly pass up a Kirby flavored pop?

When we go back to pay somehow a line of twenty people has formed in front of the register!?

My Dad is pissed and so he decides to just cut the whole line. We go to the front and they just make room for us... great.

We go to pay and there are two problems. First our card isn't working and my Dad has gone behind the counter to argue with the employee. Second I have taken a drink of the Kirby pop, and it has the side effect of producing Kirby star stickers in your stomach, which I am regurgitating and passing around.

My Dad and I get into an argument about how to pay, but finally manage to get the card to work.

Dream Transition:

We are walking back to our rented van. We are walking towards an intersection with a street light. There are three shady looking guys already waiting, and they are inspecting two pops that are on the ground by the light! I run ahead and tell them not to touch those, they are mine! How did my pops get ahead of me? I must have set them down?

They three guys start following us towards the van. My Dad is arguing with their leader, who starts singing a Ramstein lullaby to prove his point. This makes my Dad even angrier for some reason. But I am listening to the song, I have never heard it before and it is great! The dream fades.


FA One: I get up out of bed and start focusing on dream recall, I would really like to remember some of those lyrics from the Ramstein song. I grab my note pad and start to record my dreams. Then I get up and head towards the bathroom. Things start looking weird and I wake up.

FA Two: I wake up again. Man that was a FA! I can't believe I didn't RC! I grab my pad again (which is empty) and start recording again... wait... I forgot to RC again! This could be another FA! Right when I thought this I knew I was dreaming. But I went ahead and nose plug RC'ed just to be sure. And of course I could breathe through my plugged nose.

I focused for a second on stability, but I was already calm and engaged. And I knew that this FA wouldn't last long so I just skipped this and moved on.

I started to think about my dream goals. Maybe I should try the advanced TOTM?

But I knew that I didn't have long in this FA so I decided to spend some time exploring to see if something cool happened.

I walk out of my bedroom and see my mom calling me in the kitchen. NOOO!! IGNORE! (I have a problem with engaging my family in LD's and losing lucidity)

I walk away from her with her calling after me. Keep ignoring.

I see a strange dark hallway that is not there in RL.

I walk down it and come out in a massive Library entrance room.



I look around for a second. It is big and pretty, but not really that interesting, moving on.

I see another dark hallway, I walk to go down it.

Now the dream is starting to fade and things aren't working logically.

I am heading towards an exit, a group of Werewolves comes out and is guarding the door. I move on

I am heading towards an exit, a group of vampires comes out and is guarding the door. I move on

I am heading towards an exit, a group of Frankenstein monsters comes out and is guarding the door. I move on

I am heading towards an exit, a mob comes out with torches and pitchforks they are guarding the door. I move on

This time I feel a presence behind me. I quickly turn! but to late! Voldemort is right behind me and he stabs me in the back with a stun baton and I wake up!

I wake up. I quickly RC to see if this is another FA, no such luck. Oh well... that was freaking awesome!

Technique: I went to bed at 1 and had to drive my Dad to the airport at 5:30. I usually don't have any dreams for the first three or four hours of sleep anyway, and when the alarm went of at 5:30 I couldn't remember any dreams There may have been a dream fragment but it was pretty worthless all in all.

I got back at 6 and went back to bed until 7, when I drove my brother-in-law to the dentist. I didn't really have any dreams during that hour either, but the real fun started when I was snoozing my alarm, something I don't usually do. I had four false awakenings! These are my first FA's since I started my DJ and I am so excited about them! I know many lucid dreams start out as FA, I was very disappointed that I hadn't had any before. If I hadn't been so stinking tired I know I could have turned each of these into a short lucid, as they were very vivid and I was pretty aware in them. Even aware that it was a FA, I just didn't have the energy to do anything with that knowledge

Results: Color Code: RL/Comments - Non Lucid

Dream One: I am on a plane sleeping. I wake up because I get a phone call, it is my Dad. We talk about something for awhile, I am not really paying attention because I am so tired.

He asks me something, how am I supposed to know that? My friend J.T would know, maybe I can ask him?

I look up and J.T is in the seat in front of me... I know he wasn't there before... oh well, convenient

I ask him about my Dad's question, and he gives me some answer I don't remember. I go to tell my Dad what J.T said, but I seem to have lost my phone! More like it disappeared actually.

Great! How am I supposed to tell my... I look up... my Dad is sitting across from me on the other side of the isle. I KNOW he wasn't there before. I may be dreaming? To tired to care... The dream fades

FA 1: My alarm goes off, oh it can't be time to go to the dentist already! I get out of bed, I notice things are a little weird and do a nose RC. I can still breath through my nose. Oh well.. I know I am dreaming but I am to tired to care (Stupid dream logic!!). I go into the bathroom and start to get ready to leave anyway.

FA 2: My alarm goes off again. I reach and hit the alarm. I can't believe I hit the snooze button last time! Now I am going to make us late!

I am laying in bed, but I am just to tired to get out of bed. Again I think that things are weird. I don't bother with an RC, I know I am dreaming this time, but I still don't do anything about it! To tired! (NOOOOOO)

I know I need to get out of bed and start getting ready. I am thinking it would be nice if there was a dog in the house to come lick my face and help me wake up... Oh look! My aunt and uncle are here with their puppies! They come and jump on me and I am excited to see them. I manage to get out of bed and start getting ready.

FA 3: The alarm goes off. Oh NO! I hit the snooze again! We are SOOOOO late!

I know I should get out of bed, but I am just so tired. At this point I am really loosing motivation to get out of bed, I have already used up all my motivation in the last two FA. Do I really have to get out of bed again!?

I see one of my aunt and uncles dogs, they are still here? I get a sudden burst of motivation to pet the puppies and I jump out of bed to go and scratch their bellies!

Screw getting ready, I just play with the puppies for a while. Then the dream fades.

When I did finally wake up, RC'ed about a jillion times to be sure! I actually felt pretty rested I was afraid I would be tired like in the FA but I wasn't. I got up and showered no problem.

Analysis: I may start experimenting with the snooze button to see if I can reproduce these results, hopefully with more lucidity next time! I think FA was a combination of the snooze button, and my anxiety knowing that I only had one hour left to sleep. Not that this will be fun, but next time before a big morning event I may wake myself up two hours before hand and then go back to bed intending to snooze. But then again, that could be the recipe for one hella crapy day.