3-18-13 Dream Journal 5 a.m WILD
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, 03-19-2013 at 07:07 AM (514 Views)
Technique: I did all the usual: remained still, counted my breaths "1 I am dreaming", and visualized entering a dream.
*Sigh* This is where this attempt differs from my previous 6 or 7 attempts. This was the first time that I experienced any type of hypnogogia... I hate hypnogogia... What I read about it is nothing like what I experience during hypnogogia. I used to have what I now know is hypnogogia all the time as a child, I would sometimes even experience it when awake (has anyone else had this experience?). It would happen whenever I would daydream "to deeply" and I learned how to think differently to avoid this sensation. In essence, I have pretty much spent the last 8 or 9 years training myself to think and dream in ways that did not make me experience hypnogogia. I think that this may be why during the same period I lost my ability to lucid dream, and now have very poor dream recall also.
I have spent all day thinking about this, I was very afraid that this would end my lucid dreaming career before it ever even had a chance to get off of the ground.
After thinking about it some more though I think that I am actually very encouraged to find out that there are others who experience hypnogogia also! As a child I always felt weird because I never heard anyone else talking about it, and so I tried to avoid it as much as I could.
Analysis: It feels good to be tackling something that I have always been afraid of. I am going to continue in my lucid dreaming efforts and try to learn to enjoy the hypnogogia, it means I am just that much closer to lucid dreams!
After reading my experience if you can relate, I would love to hear about your experience in overcoming your fear! :-) Please Share!