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09-10-13 This dream was very vivid, but the non-lucid part went on way too long. I normally am semi-lucid in all of my dreams (part of me knowing it is only a dream), but in the start of this one I was 100% fooled and non-lucid. I also suffered great anxiety and discomfort in the dream, which would clearly make it a bad dream. I have had very few bad dreams for perhaps the last decade. I suppose being semi-lucid has prevented them, but this was a bad dream at first.

The theme is based on a pain I have IRL in my lower back. In the dream I knew I had been diagnosed with a fatal cancer that was the source of pain (not IRL). I think about twenty minutes of scenes went buy full of great anxiety. I even failed to become lucid at two points that normally would have made me fully lucid. In one scene someone wanted details about when I saw the doctor. I could not remember having seen the doctor, I just knew that I had. In the other I was in the front seat of a truck with two unfamiliar DCs and could not think straight or understand their questions. I was seeing weird distortions in my visual field just like being very stoned on LSD. I concluded that I must have taken LSD and was now too high to remember it.

The people took me to some location where a crowd dressed me in a hazmat suit and tried to explain I was to get into a radioactive space ship that had crashed and to retrieve some radioactive part. The radiation would likely kill anyone exposed for more than a few minutes, but as I was going to die anyways…….

I became lucid at this point. I mean finally it was just too much. Radioactive spaceship? Ok it is a dream, what now? Well why not check out a space ship, I certainly can not get radiation poisoning from a dream. The ship was at an angle down in a ditch or on an embankment and inside was cluttered and small. I could tell I was supposed to crawl in and retrieve something, but that did not sound fun so I went back up. A decontamination unit was waiting, but as it was a dream, why bother? People started running a freaking out that I walked past the unit, yelling I was going to kill everyone. I needlessly touched a few people just to see them freak out. After that I looked around for perhaps 2 minutes and then woke up.

09-08-13 I have been playing a video game that involves selling trade goods. My sleep was being disturbed by my brain going over and over the content of the game. I seized lucidity and tried to force it to stop. Almost no visuals existed and I has no dream body. I was just a free floating consciousness. I could here another part of my brain talking about selling things and with limited visuals experienced replaying game related input. I could not stop this from happening any longer than I stayed focused on it.

I tried just observing again. I was in a Home Depot store and seemed to work there. I just watched. Here comes something weird as hell. A woman has a baby that walks upright, but it is kind of a cyborg baby. Its legs are mechanical and thin, and its head is covered with a weird cyborg helmet. She tells me she needs to buy an exercise machine. She points over to another part of the store. I get down and examine the freaky cyborg kid.
I loose my semi-lucidity for a couple minutes and become a character in the dream. I walk over to the exercise machine and demonstrate it. I would say I lack any lucidity for a minute. A coworker is trying to take the sale from me, and we work on commission. I tell them not to ring it up. A male DC starts to yell at me that I am trying to steal money.
I become lucid again and decide this is stupid. I tell him to keep the sale as I could care less.
I leave the store and try to fly, but I am affected by gravity. What? I see a couple DCs and interact for a moment, then I try to fly again. It is like a super hero jump and I just miss getting on top of a taller building. Ok, wait a minute. Why would I have any trouble flying unless I was astral? Hmmm, I will relax and truly believe I can jump up on top of that building. I get up there and the edge moves back away from me. I try again and can not get above the edge. I grab the edge with my feet and am about 3 stories up. I wedge myself against some artificial boundary and the lip of the roof. I examine what is keeping me from going higher. I can see a grid work of energy criss-crossing like the edges of the holo-deck. Wow, it has been awhile since I ran up against the outer boundary of an astral realm. This place must be tiny! It has a ceiling at only 40 feet or so. I wonder how I ended up stumbling into this place? The dream ended before I got any kind of answer.

I had lots of vivid semi-lucids in which I just observed. I am having fun trying to learn to have random weird dreams again, by relaxing my control. I watched a party, until a pretty blonde grabbed my crotch aggressively for ignoring her. I reacted enough to make her leave the scene, then started watching again. Later she was trying to seduce a guy in the park who looed like the guy from scrubs. A DC of a waitress I know was trying to warn the guy about her being dangerous. She offered to give the guy sex (oral) if he would leave the other woman and get away from her. He said it was too late, and the blonde was mounting him. Then the blonde stole his flying rocket propelled motorcycle, and laughed like the wicked witch. Very fun to watch and try not to get involved. Staying only semi-lucid and watching may just be my new hobby. What fun.

09/01/13 DEILD from last DJ entry. I stay still and picture the first church from the last dream. I am soon in a new LD. Me and my wife aree in the same neighborhood as the last dream. I am pointing out how the scenery has changed to something closer to our home town. I notice a tall parking garage and at the top a SUV is backing over the edge. I yell out "stop." They fall about 5 stories and hit tailgate first. I know this is a dream and consider just wandering off. I decide to go over and just observe. People pull a man and woman free. They are unconscious. One man tells how they were racing and flew over the edge. I correct him. They backed over the edge. Something wakes me up at that point.

09-01-13 DILD Very long ~30 minutes so this is going to be highly abridged as my wife is wanting to go for a walk.
Non-lucid part: I want to get a painting to cover weird metal panel on bedroom wall. Get up and am in a warehouse like area. It is joined to someone else's area, but they are showing me the lock is cut. Better check my inventory. It looks ok. Back to bedroom. Panel is gone? RC. Get lucid, and go outside. Weird sand storm tornado dust devils or hills showering sand on me and guy from other warehouse area.
Bored with that now, I start my lucid recreation. I use my t-shirt as a sail. I hold it in both hands and it fills with wind and I parasail with it. lots of fun,,,weeee, for about 5 minutes. Suddenly street is replaced with entry way to church. Decide to not fight this and go into church. Nice vivid details, people are inside, around corner is a dinner going on.
I leave the church and walk across a bridge. A lady and young person are in the crowd passing by. I want to fool around a bit. I "know" she will turn and take my hand and follow along side. She does. I "know" a private place is on the other side of the bridge. It is. It is a small canal covered with willow branches. We go back there, but the child runs off to tell the people in the church what I am doing. I need to stabilize so I focus on a hand mudra. Stabilized I leave the woman and come upon another church. I go inside and interact with people. I phase through the ceiling onto the roof. It turns clear and stretches a bit.
I woman is on the church across the street. She has wings. I go over there by floating. She tells me she is the Dragonfly Princess. We talk, I try to kiss her, she turns into a rat to avoid my kiss. I love rats! I think it is funny and kiss the top of the rats nose. She turns back. I need to stabilize again (forget what I focused on). I see a carnival is going on at a church up the street. I go there and look around. I am approached by a pretty half naked woman wanting to know how I could be ignoring her. I pay attention to her and check out her body. The dream starts to fade and I stabilize by pretending her anklet has come undone. I focus just on the clasp and do not look up until the dream stabilizes. I decide a half naked woman is too distracting so I politely leave and go on to have about 5-10 minutes more random exploring and screwing around. I finally need to stabilize a forth time and do not succeed. I try to DEILD back in and it works.

09-01-13 DILD Very long ~30 minutes so this is going to be highly abridged as my wife is wanting to go for a walk.
Non-lucid part: I want to get a painting to cover weird metal panel on bedroom wall. Get up and am in a warehouse like area. It is joined to someone else's area, but they are showing me the lock is cut. Better check my inventory. It looks ok. Back to bedroom. Panel is gone? RC. Get lucid, and go outside. Weird sand storm tornado dust devils or hills showering sand on me and guy from other warehouse area.
Bored with that now, I start my lucid recreation. I use my t-shirt as a sail. I hold it in both hands and it fills with wind and I parasail with it. lots of fun,,,weeee, for about 5 minutes. Suddenly street is replaced with entry way to church. Decide to not fight this and go into church. Nice vivid details, people are inside, around corner is a dinner going on.
I leave the church and walk across a bridge. A lady and young person are in the crowd passing by. I want to fool around a bit. I "know" she will turn and take my hand and follow along side. She does. I "know" a private place is on the other side of the bridge. It is. It is a small canal covered with willow branches. We go back there, but the child runs off to tell the people in the church what I am doing. I need to stabilize so I focus on a hand mudra. Stabilized I leave the woman and come upon another church. I go inside and interact with people. I phase through the ceiling onto the roof. It turns clear and stretches a bit.
I woman is on the church across the street. She has wings. I go over there by floating. She tells me she is the Dragonfly Princess. We talk, I try to kiss her, she turns into a rat to avoid my kiss. I love rats! I think it is funny and kiss the top of the rats nose. She turns back. I need to stabilize again (forget what I focused on). I see a carnival is going on at a church up the street. I go there and look around. I am approached by a pretty half naked woman wanting to know how I could be ignoring her. I pay attention to her and check out her body. The dream starts to fade and I stabilize by pretending her anklet has come undone. I focus just on the clasp and do not look up until the dream stabilizes. I decide a half naked woman is too distracting so I politely leave and go on to have about 5-10 minutes more random exploring and screwing around. I finally need to stabilize a forth time and do not succeed. I try to DEILD back in and it works.

09/01/13 Non lucid portion, me and my wife are going up to our hotel room in a very old run down hotel. Their are no other guests and my wife is joking about it being haunted. the room is uncomfortable and I examine weird holes drilled in the floor. We decide to leave but as we do I see a weird thing scurry away in the lobby. I become lucid because it is just like scary movie. Suddenly after getting lucid it is a normal hotel and I interact with some guests for a few minutes before waking.

08/30/13 A DEILD after my last DJ post. I never made it back to a good stable dream body. I was stuck observing my dreams. I watched a small sequence of normal dreams, and decided not to fight it. I want to work on observing more. At some point the dream was all about cocaine dealers. I was unsure why that should be in my dream. TV perhaps? I was able to change the'camera' angle and zoom in on the bags of cocaine. I tried to alter the scene despite my intent to just observe.
This LD is hardly worth recording. I only have entered it because I was suddenlly aware that something was wrong. How long had I been observing 20 minutes or so??? No, that could not be, because my snaooze alarm should have woke me. I tried to relax and assure myself mt sense of time was distorted. Just relax and passivelly observe until the snooze goes off.... NO! Something is wrong! Fine,,, check itout, you will wake your self up and find out you are being silly.
I forced myself awake, and sure enough, my stupid i-phone alarm had shut off rather than snooze. I could have been late for work! Hmmm, interesting enough to record, I suppose. Dur~20 min.

08/30/13 DEILD from last DJ entry. I shook my phone for snooze. I kept still and pictured the hotel room and my wife. I was quickly back in the dream.
I decided that I should attempt another Advanced Task as my lucidity was very high and the graphics were still good. I took my wife's hand and exited the room into a hall way. I told her we were going to attempt another task. "What is it?",,, "We must travel to 3 mystical places, Stone Henge, The Pyramids, and oh say Easter Island or something.",,, "Why not just create those places around you?",,, "just for the challenge, I want to travel to them."
We were out in a casino looking part of a hotel now. I decided too much travel would never fit into the 15 minutes I had. I told my wife, "lucky that this hotel is also an airport." And it suddenly was. "There is the gate to Stone Henge, we are also lucky this airport takes you quickly to each place with some form of magic."
We entered the gate and went down a short hall. We got on some sort of lift. I tried to think about Stone Henge. An image formed of one of the stone arch ways. Ahe said, "There it is, that is Syone Henge." I was not impressed.
We were still on a lift looking into a dimensional gate or something that showed just the one pillar. I said, "No, we still need to get there and have the whole thing look kind of real." The lift itself and everything around it was very egyptian looking, so she said, "I think we are already inside a pyramid, if we just go outside we will have accomplished one of the goals." My reply, "No, I have dreamt myself to pyramids a few times, I need to stay focused on getting itno that gate and seeing Stone Henge."
At that point my wife almost fell off the lift. I gave up on traveling for the moment and helped her back onto the lift. My alarm was going off again. I woke up. I shook it to attempt another DIELD. It worked (see next DJ entry), but was far from impressive. Dur exactlly 15 minutes.

08/30/13 This is a long sequence of DILD experiences, and I think perhaps at least 3 seperate DILDs were involved. I am at work and have no time to DJ, so I will just list a few funny highlights, until I get to the 'Advanced Task' parts.

-at a party. Someone says 'snorting gun powder will put hair on your chest.' BANG from out side. Crowd goes and Shawn has done it. Looks like cartoon powder burns (coyote) and he is strong and covered with body hair. The Scotts at the party love it.

-At same party. I am naked except for an apron. Hot woman sitting on my lap, and one jokingly peaking under apron.

-Beavers/gophers cause land slides to get revenge. Watch passive as this is narrated.

-cartoon sequence were everything looked kind of like I was in a Simpson's episode. I sang a song about how the world had become a cartoon dream.

-flashing back and forth between my real life hotel room and a dream hotel. In one case a spy was in the room saying he had drugged me. I was lucid, so I just casually had a fun fight scene. Me vs. spies.

That is enough of the highlights from a long LD/ Lds leading up to the Advanced Task portion....

At some point perhaps 20-40 minutes into my LDing, after all the stuff above, I was feeling very, very lucid and everything was in high def. I thought about goals or tasks. The TOTM stuff for Sept. was not out yet, and I turned to my thread on 'Advanced Tasks." I wanted to try the crystal growing task Melanie had suggested. I also had previously decided to make it harder, by growing at least 3 differnet forms of crystal, one in each primary color. I had also considered attempting to keep 3 types in my visual field while working on them, but this was not required too call it a sucess.

I went back to the hotel room that had been in so many of the earier parts of the dream, and found my wife in there. I explained the nature of the task to her. She seemed interested in watching and took a seat at the small hotel table.

I sat at the table and the first attempt I just looked at my hand and pictured what I wanted. A stick like blue thing started to grow, it became encrusted in what looked like salt crystals, and grew to about 6 inches long. My wife haded me a flower pot for the next one, so I could leave them standing up right.

The next one was in scarlet red, and grew the same way. I was happy so far, but the crystals did not look like a new form, just a new color. I kept working on the same one and morphed it into clear little green crystals that were cube shaped like lead crystals.

I next grew one that was big and fluffy and looked like ice crystals about like a snow cone. I noticed it was green and shifted it to yellow. This looked very vivid as a wave of color replaced the old color, about like it looks when they flavor snow cones.

So far these crystals were all little and not as distinctly different as I would like. I decided to narrow my focus and get a close up of the growing crystals. I went over close to a light and narrowed my vision, kind of like a zoom in feature. By focusing in close I created little tourmaline crystals in a citrine yellow. They just grew in my hand.

At this point my wife called my attention away from the zoomed in prespective. She said, "look, the things you grew in the pots have purple crystals." I looked at what she was pointing at and one of the crystal sticks had a flower like thing on the end of it. I looked closer and it was a broach.

The broach had not been grown by me while I watched, and was a new creation of my imagination. I knew it would not count toward my task if I did not grow the crystals. I looked at it and at first it was blank, so I decided to 'sprout' finished gemstones out of the surface of the broach. A couple amethysts in a classic cut bloomed out and thena few more in yellow.

This brought a new line of thinking to me. I had basically completed the task, but growing complete peices of jewelry with cut gems sounded fun. First I caused a fancy hair pin to bloom out of my wifes hair. Then I took a close look at it and cause 8 gems to grow, which I carefully caused to form 5 sided fancy cut blue saphires.

I then looked at an amulet my wife held out from her neck and caused a tear drop shaped amethyst to grow from the middle. On closer inspection it was smooth and not faceted. I changed it, causing it to morph into a nicely caceted 8 sided gem.

Having had such luck with growing crystals in various shapes and colors, I wanted to attempt it while keeping the three in my feild of vision. I went to the table and quickly grew the small stick like things covered in crystals. I found out that the same problem happened as may be expected in real life. Focusing on the second and third was hard to do while maintaining vision of the first. I did grow all three in my field of vision in 3 colors, but the detail faded and I decioded this was not going to work well, so I called it good.

At this point or shortly there after my alarm went off. I shook my phone to cause a 15 miute snooze and attempted a DEILD. This worked and will be my next DJ entry. Dur ~? very long, perhaps an hour or so.

08/27/13 After the restroom I looked at the clock and it was 9am. It appears the second LD spanned about an hour as my boy leaving the house would have been about 10 till 8. I was able to easily do a WILD (what a night!)
I am running out of time to work on my DJ so this one is going to be only quick flashes from some of the best scenes. Visiting with women while running around the high school. Running with my long since passed away dog. Going into the high school and looking around when janitors asked me if my dog was ok. Her tail had been cropped. Who would crop a German Sheppard's tail? Climbing floor by floor up the outside of a great skyscraper. Climbing up the largest tree I could find and jumping down,,,, and so on,,, just random screwing around. I have no idea how long this lasted. A very long time, as when I woke up it was almost 11. I am sure some of that time was regular sleep.

08/27/13 Held still and pictured the scene from my prior dream. Perfect success,,, lucid again. I left the old house and went back to the down town area. I screwed around and explored inside a building. I ran into an old friend who told me he was making fire works. Random scenes came and went, but are hardly worth stressing to recall involving exploring the building. I again tried to travel on foot to see if I could recreate a realist version of my city. Again very abridged. I ended up over at my old high school. I found a small group of high school boys, and decided for fun to talk to them about this being a dream, as for some reason I got it in my head at least one of them may actually be a dreamer. I asked them how they could go about telling if it was a dream, and so on,,, I demonstrated how I could step up on to a non existent step, thus floating a foot off the ground. Eventually I thought we should light off some fireworks. I went to the corner of the school closest to the building where my friend had said he was making them and just called out, "hey, can I have some of those fireworks?" No one came to me and the boys were watching. I just decided to skip that part and confidently stated "Thanks kid" taking something out of the hand of a non existent firework delivery boy. The young men looked confused.
In my hand were 4 strips of metal, I did not question it knowing they were some odd form off fire work. I just bent one piece around another. One of the boys offered to light it. It worked and a nice little flare went up and popped into sparks. I decided the next one was bigger. The remaining piece (should have been two, but I ignored that) had expanded in size. The kid lit it and a really nice firework went off with colored sparks falling fro about 30 feet up.
I could suddenly tell I had to pee IRL. How many LDs have been ruined by this? I did not fight it as by this point it seemed like this LD had gone on 30 minutes or so. I just told the boys, "I have to wake up now." I did wake up and used the rest room. Then I did a WILD (WBTB).

08/27/13 Had a wonderful night full of LDs. 3 separate LDs at least, each lasting no less than 20 minutes, but perhaps more in the 60-90 minute range. I had even drank 24 oz of light beer, and it did not mess anything up. I did not really set out to LD. I do not have time to fully describe each, and actually am so pleased and satisfied, I do not want to stress much about dragging up high levels of recall (we are talking 2-3 hours total LDing) So I am just going to jot down some memorable points from each.
The first one was a DILD and I no longer remember what triggered it. I was already having fun for a few minutes and was hanging out with a DC, when I saw my father standing outside a fish store talking with some men. I leaned against the wall and just listened and watched this highly detailed DC, as my father died about 16 months ago. A irrational thought started in my head that perhaps dad had faked his death, but I knew I was dreaming and that was silly.
After that was a long sequence of scenes where the theme was me having super powers. I took a car in one scene and was able to fling it though the side of a building using TK and pretty much no effort other than a thought.
This sequence ended when a stage I was standing on turned into a loud speaker playing music and swinging slowly back and forth under me. In hind sight I think my sons alarm was going off. After many random scenes of levitating and screwing around in a big city, I found myself in a familiar setting in my home town. I decided to try travelling on foot and keeping the scenery some what accurate. I set off to travel to my father's old house where we had a family business, just to see what would happen. I took big leaps over cars and streets. The trip was highly abridged, but more or less correct.
When I got there his wife was running the business and many DCs were about. A long series of scenes took place in which I chose to passively observe. I did have a dream body, and the DCs talked directly to me, but I just wanted to see what my brain came up with.
This LD seemed to span about an hour and had many more scenes and fun, but that is enough to record the general idea. I did suddenly awake at some point (probably from my son leaving through the front door), so I just stayed still and attempted a DEILD, which worked.

08-25-13 I think this was a WILD. The scene starts suddenly, so I do not know if I lost awareness first or not. I was standing in a room from a memory. the room was a party I had attended in the nineties. All the people who I would expect to be at this party seemed to be there. I was fully lucid already, thus it was likely WILD.
I saw a girl in the crowd I had had a crush on all those years ago. I know sex is a big distraction from lucidity, but once in awhile, I let myself go. I wanted to have fantasy sex with this old crush. I 'knew' she would leave the party with me, so I asked her to take a walk. The DC got up and left the house with me. I also knew we would find some private place and right out side was a van. The side door was open and a suede covered bed was in the back.
We got in the van and got naked (suddenly, no transition) I explored my fantasy and really spent time. I developed each scene slowly and made her body as real and life like as I could. This went on for some time.
I do not know what I was trying for, as far as keeping the scene rolling, maybe an actual wet dream/ release. It was not ever getting that far, just close. After awhile things seemed awkward and she commented on being uncomfortable. I tried to ignore this as just mental noise. I shifted the scene and started again in a new position. She still was fussing and uncomfortable, and I was getting more awkward. She finally said, "we have to stop, I am married."
Oh come on subconscious!? Fine... I stopped and figured I should focus on some task instead of just grinding and grinding and so on,,,
I tried to stabilize as things became blurry. I focused first on just one of her nipples, playing with it as a way to stabilize. Suddenly her nipple was gone and the scene had shifted. I was looking into my fish tanks. I heard someone call out to a friend of mine "hey Bob!" My sister was in the room talking. There goes the hey Bob sound again. She asks me what I am doing. I tell her that I am dreaming, and am wondering why I keep hearing those words. I look out the window and someone is outside.
Suddenly IRL I had to go pee so bad it was painful. I thought I could stabilize, but had to pee too darn bad. Oh!!! That is why the sex scene had broken down, my sub conscious was trying to get me to get up and pee ("I am uncomfortable,,)
I just let myself wake up at that point. Dur~10-15 minutes.