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I remember virtually nothing. I vaguely remember telling someone I love him/her -- possibly my crush -- but that is probably just from my regular thoughts.

I attempted FILD a few times, but failed. I was never tired enough.

Ever since I have began my lucid dreaming journey, a journey which was in large part a result of my reading the dream journal of Hyu "http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/hyu/" I have longed to experience some of the amazing things which were, apparently, happening to my fellow DV members. Well, a few nights ago I had my chance.

My dream starts in a city shrouded in a constant fog. The thing that I remember most from before I gained my lucidity was the smell. It was that strange mix of decaying garbage and industrial pollutants unique to the slums of a thousand cities. My non-lucid self was wandering this city in search of something which eludes me now. I eventually had the good fortune to look up into the sky, as soon as I did, I gained lucidity from the mother of all reality checks. Note to self: if the moon has a face then either A-you are playing Majora's Mask or B- you are dreaming. Once I gained my lucidity I immediately began to more thoroughly survey my surroundings. The city appeared to be a steampunk meets bladerunner version of New York. Having looked around I immediately began to try to exercise some of my lucid abilities. I succeeded in a few minor telekinetic feats, such as knocking the hats off of a few DC's. "BTW if someone ever responds to you knocking their hat their head by telling you :Thank you sir, that hat made me look like a pretentious prick, you are probably dreaming." I quickly grew bored of telekinesis and decided to see what else I could do. With no real goal in mind I raised my hand above my head and snapped my fingers. What happened next is a memory which I shall carry for the rest of my days, with a snap of my fingers I had changed the very night sky itself. All of the stars had changed position and color. I saw stars blink out of existence and other, new stars, take their place. I saw whole galaxies simply appear out of nothingness, and spiral into impossible shapes. As you can probably imagine I was entertained by this for quite a while, I stood in place and snapped my fingers repeatably and just stared at the sky. I eventually had my fill of watching the stars and decided that it was time for me to try something a little more challenging. I have never succeeded in making a portal to anywhere in a dream and was initially at a loss for a destination, then it hit me. I was going to try to make a portal to Terraluna. It seemed rather appropriate that the location that inspired my lucid journey would be the first place where I would teleport to. I stared at the spot on the cobbled pavement where I wanted the portal to appear and focused on the idea of terraluna, on the image that I had formed from reading Hyu's journal. I began to speak out loud the command "take me to terraluna". Over and over, I repeated the command and as I did so the spot where I was focusing on began to smoke, then the beginnings of a black portal took shape over the pavement. I repeated my chant over and over with increasing conviction, but, to my dismay the portal wasn't stable. In the end my portal collapsed with a crack. I had failed to create the portal that I had been so intent on creating, but I had managed to create a very pretty black scorch mark on the ground. It looked like one of those mystic circles which have become so popular in anime and games in recent years. I was preparing to try again when I was woken by my alarm going off. I had failed in my attempt.

This isn't over. I am going to get stronger, develop my technique, and try again. No matter what it takes I am getting to Terraluna.

April 15, 2012
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I did not meditate and this is my first mistake, I think. I wrote my affirmation: I EASILY remember my dreams and record the when I wake in the morning.

Yeah....but I remembered NOTHING in the morning although throughout the night I would wake know that I was dreaming, remember what it was in bits and pieces, then FALL RIGHT BACK TO SLEEP! I know better than to do that.

Yesterday, however, I was exhausted all day. I was stressed out and when that happens, perhaps it's just better to sleep through the night and hope try for a better result tomorrow.

So the plan was to wake up at 3am after a DILD attempt to try a WBTB WILDy... attempt thing.

I had it all lined up, some subliminal video directly before sleep, lots of B6, big glass of apple juice, nommed on some dark chocolate, subliminal music playing in my ears. Off I go to sleep, affirming over and over again I WILL reality check, I WILL become lucid!

..... Aaand there's my alarm at 3am.
????

Ok, wait... dream recall, what did I dream in those 4 hours? *draws a blank* Come ON! Really? Nothing, brain? You've got nothing for me? What about last week when we were having crazy dreams about canoes with on board toilets? And now? Seriously??
Au! du Scheiße! You have to be kidding me!

Fine, whatever, I'm over it. Will wake up now and concentrate on some DV posts, hope the old brain gets the message before I try my WILD.
Lots of RCs, check, more subliminal music, check, comfy memory foam pillow and alert brain, check! We are GO!

..... Aaand SP evades me. An hour goes by. Still laying here feeling numb but floaty, the fuzzy vibrations seem to threaten to come get me then piss off as soon as I see them coming. It's like they are taunting me, sadistic buggers. All I see is blackness, not even a decent HI to be seen.
Eventually got fed up and rolled onto my side to go to sleep.

*tags this post with a triple FAIL*