I started out the night doing a new meditation. I was opening my core chakra's & tried to add a new one from the extended version which heightened my vibrations. I didn't close them because I wanted an OOB but what I got was a new bad experience. First, I had a False Awakening in which I got up to go pee. I was exhausted when I started & kept thinking I had drank too much tea & this would interrupt my chakra meditation by me needing to pee. Like I said, I was just too tired & had just went anyway so I risked it. Which would explain the FA while doing my chakra exercise. Next was me climbing back into my bed & the following began. I was experiences all the high vibrations of an OOB which excited me but alarmed me at the same time because I could feel vibrations that weren't created by me this time. I began also to experience the most intense pain on my body. I looked later for bruising but I haven't seen any but I have extremely sore spots on my chest, upper thighs, upper arm, wrists, ect. I also couldn't see which was a new thing for me. My other OOB experiences or attempts left me able to see but this time I couldn't. I was yelling for Mike to no avail. I could here my screams in my head but he couldn't here me. I could tell I was reaching for him in attempt to wake him up but it was my astral arm & hand. Eventually I was able to use my real arm & hit him. He woke up & of course he understood what had happened. I went to smoke 1/2 a cig in the bathroom to try & shake off the terror I was feeling & tried to come back to bed. I started back w/ doing my chakra's again feeling still scared but more in control. No dice on that front. Then I entered in D1: I was at a retreat for lucid dreamers, people who could astral project & also had other abilities. I had brought w/ my tools of the trade which included books, notebooks w/ notes & diagrams, etc. The retreat was really familiar to me as did the ppl. (I'm not good w/ DC names unless they are from this waking life. The retreat came complete w/ sleeping quarters, practicing rooms, schedules, a communal eating area which we spent a lot of time catching up w/ each other & showing each other our newest knowledge that we had accumulated. I was doing really well w/ this. And it all felt totally natural. The familiarity was uncanny!Then I rolled into dream 2. D2: I was back at the retreat for the next year & I hadn't been as prepared. (I've never ever experienced a dream in which time was played out like this, it was really new for me.) This time I had left vital information at home & had slacked off a bit. I had noticed that now others were doing much better w/ their new research. And then things got odd. An old boyfriend of mine was there from my childhood. Anyway he was ignoring me in the dream & I tried to be patient in hopes that things would okay. Unfortunately it didn't happen even in the dream. He was my last boyfriend I had when I had been ripped from my home in my 8th grade yr due to things beyond my control. There is a lot of history w/ him & when I was just 18 we had a falling out because I was smoking pot & got details screwed about the details that led up to my departure in 8th grade up while on the phone. These circumstances are way too long for me to journal today. I've written of things pertaining to this subject in old journal entries on DV. Any way, This was an extremely hard thing for me to except throughout the yrs. Not to mention his best friend & my childhood friend was also on the phone. Till this day I can't find them anywhere to make amends . Anyway he was ignoring me in the dream & I tried to be patient in hopes that things would okay. Unfortunately it didn't happen even in the dream. I feel as though I could very well have been a part of something like these retreats in a past life. Your soul lives on when you die. Also there are also core ppl that are present in these lives. I think somehow the previous dream bled into my existing dream sequence some how & it changed the dynamics of it. Non-Lucid-Green Lucid-Red Side Notes-Purple Astral Projection/AP-Brown/OOB
LD#13 DILD/WILD/OBE? Monday, 1/9/12 Bed 2am Before bed last night I read Waggoner’s Lucid dreaming book, I just finished it, as a matter of fact. Last pages deal with inducing DILDs via MILD. Formal and informal suggestions. I specifically paid attention to part from Castaneda’s book “The road to…”, how don Juan was telling him to look at his hands in his dream and Castaneda didn’t understand, how in the heck is he suppose to do it. So I looked at my hands while saying “tonight in my dream I will look at my hands and realize I’m dreaming”. I also said this every time I woke up at night, and at WBTB. DR: 3am Lots of people, bunch of thoughts, activities about Lding WBTB 6am-7:50am LD - woke up from LD at 9:40am I was trying to WILD, but fell asleep before anything happened. I had quite a long dream before I somehow realized I’m dreaming. So this would be a DILD. But I didn’t look at my hands. I did finger/palm RC and it was the weirdest one so far. My thumb went in just half way into my palm before I stopped pushing, because it was so real. Not like a playdough in previous RCs. When I pulled my thumb out, there was a big wound that started to close up, I could swear, there was blood. Quite uncomfortable. But I also remember trying to roll out and levitate out at the same time and I remember hovering above my bed and not knowing how to stand up. That would be WILD/OBE. LD- I’m in a big, one story house. Lots of rooms, lots of people. It’s some kind of a trip. My mom is visiting, rest of the family has left. I tell her, we should go and do something, since she is the only one left visiting. There was a bunch of kids and cats. Someone put some chicken soup in the yard for their cats, so all the cats from neighborhood were hanging around the yard and inside the house. One kid got eye infection and we were like oh, great, not everybody will get it. I somehow realized I’m dreaming. I’m floating around in a house, propelling myself by touching furniture. Suddenly my left had gets stuck to the cabinet. I look, and the cabinet handle was just fixed with some strong glue. I have to pull my hand hard to get it free, it feels like skin from my thumb will peel off. I get to the room I was before and think about what to do, when I remember I wanted to look at my cats in OOB. I see both of them and they look normal. I squat down and call them. My boy starts hissing and backs away, but a kitten that I don’t know goes after my hand and wants to play. Then I’m outside. It’s night. I remember I wanted to go to the moon. But I also remember, that I have changed my mind and wanted to stay close and explore the city. I look up and there is the moon, tiny, behind a mist and is rapidly getting smaller until it disappears. I start flying around, bouncing of bushes and trees. Everything feels real, branches hitting me in face, and I can smell jasmine and see it’s small white flowers everywhere. Try to fly up but not much luck. There are 3 tree trunks, like a birch, but completely white. I try to fly to the top, propelling myself with my hands, but it’s not easy. I wake up.
Sat. 12/31/2011 Bed 1:30am I set my goal to OOB or LD. For OOB - look at my sleeping body, my astral hands and cord. Go to the orbit and from there go see my mom in Europe. I’m in US. GM+Choline 5:47am I had 2 OBEs before 8 am and LD between 8:30-11am. OBE#1. Starts as a dream. I’m in a big, bright room with friend of mine and her two kids. It’s a living room and a bedroom. It’s not my place and it’s not my friends place. We are playing. Then I go to sleep and I try to have an OBE. I feel the telltale tingling in the back of my head. I come to the point, when I decide to try and roll out from my body. I kinda expect to hit the floor. I’m amazed, when what feels like 3 inches from the floor I ‘bounce off’ the ‘antigravity energy field’. I immediately start walking away from the bed, not wanting to get pulled back. It's not very hard to walk, feel only a slight pull. I don’t stop, until I come to the end of the hallway with some windows on left and door at the end. I want to stop while inside, don’t want to go out yet and split second later I remember I wanted to see my sleeping body. I struggle to see better/open my eyes. Although I see quite well, I feel like my eyes are closed, but not the feeling as I’m looking through my eyelids. I manage to open one eye just a little bit and I see much better, but I’m not sure, if that’s not my sleeping eye so I don’t continue opening it. I turn around and look for a cord. I don’t see it, but I know it’s there. I follow it back to the bed. First thing I see is the end of the bed, rest of it is hiding behind the wall. I’m curious to see if the bed is empty and I’m in LD, or if there is a sleeping body. As I come closer, I’m amazed to see the sheet pushed up by what clearly looks like two feet and legs of a person sleeping on his back. I come closer and again with amazement, I see a sleeping person. She is wearing an orange t-shirt, with sheets reaching half way up the torso. I know it’s me, puffy cheeks and all. The person was not sleeping in the same position, as I was when going to sleep and when waking up (right side). I exit the place and find myself floating between two 10 story apartment buildings, like you find in central/eastern Europe. I remember my goal to go to the orbit and I want to fly straight up. It’s not working as I wanted, so I approach the building and propel myself with my hands grabbing on to balconies to go higher. I find myself on the ground behind a corner. I think it’s over, but then I realize I could look at my hands and know for sure. I look at my hands. They look very gentle, light yellow/see-through energy and they quickly fade away. I did look at my hands one more time during this experience, but not sure when. OBE#2 I wake up briefly, just long enough to say “lets try this again”. I feel the tingling in back of my head again and will myself to levitate, but it’s not really working. I think I decide to just go to sleep when I realize, I have my ceiling about 6’’ from my face. I immediately say “to the window” and I feel myself in the top left corner of my window, the exact location, where I was practicing to end up. I’m in my apartment. I again remember I wanted to go to the orbit. I try, but it’s difficult to fly. I try superman style. Then, I’m next to a building, still up in the air. I know I don’t want to go through the wall as this could be a portal. But I fly in anyway. I feel the change. Inside is a bigger space than I would expect from size of the building. It’s warm, filled with semi-liquid, very soft dark grey matter that separates, as I float through it. I feel like I shouldn’t be here and exit through the wall on the left side. I never felt presence of my helpers. Did I surprise them and got out when they were not expecting it, or this wasn’t an OBE? The more I think about it, I feel that this was a low awareness OOB. But I’m opened to suggestions. I have read about APs for many hours before bed last night. LD#11 I wish I got up to write it down, but I didn’t. I kept repeating to myself what it was about, but by the time I got up, it was too late. Actually I feel like I may have written it down, but there is nothing in my DJ.
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