Just Another Dream Journal

I dreamed of tornadoes again. I was on the balcony of some hotel when I saw them. Cocoa was with me and I was terrified that she wouldn't follow me inside, but she did.
I slammed the door and we went to the far end of the room and kept very quiet. The tornado still managed to follow us.
Thankfully, though, there was a small (sort of) trap door on the floor. When the tornado landed on it the floor board spun around and when it settled, there was no tornado but 2 knickknacks of kissing children (which I owned in real life a decade ago or so).

Then I worried about my neighbor whom I had been speaking with just moments before fleeing the storm. I cursed myself for not sounding a warning.
The neighbor was actually 2 doors down (but one balcony over lol). She and her mother were still on the balcony but completely uninjured.

I also dreamed of being outside the trailer and seeing a bear cub. I worried about him and was about to usher him inside, but I recalled the mother bear is never far away. Instead, I went to a window and looked outside.
Sure enough, his mother was outside. But not just her alone. There were 3 other mother bears with cubs of their own and one of the mothers was fighting off a pack of wolves.

I also recall tidbits of flying, dead bodies, driving and food. I've forgotten the specifics however.

Oh yeah, I also dreamed I was with a group of people. I asked how I could find someone to have sex with lol. I complained that I hadn't had sex for over 2 years. I don't remember any more of the dream though.

In one dream, I was with my kids outside the trailer. The animals were carrying on, playing, and very faintly, I heard something like a train whistle.
The sky became dark quickly. I frantically looked around for a safe place to ride out the storm, and that's when I noticed 3 slender tornadoes touch ground.
I then saw my hubby, from the corner of my eye, at his garage. The kids and I raced toward him, but he hadn't seen us and was putting the garage door down. I screamed we were coming.
I don't recall how the dream ended.

In another dream, I was flying. I no longer remember many details other than it was a slightly scary dream which I enjoyed none-the-less.

In yet another dream, I was driving and lost. I passed at least 3 Yetti at different times. I couldn't tell if they were real or costumes, so I finally asked the last one if I could give him a ride somewhere lol.
He declined

In another fragmented dream which has been mostly forgotten, I was in some large building and some sort of conflict was happening. I raced to my "secret closet" which also contained the safe I now often dream about.

I dreamed Snuffanuff [who ran away] came home and that I struggled to tie him and Cocoa up outside. Someone walked by and commented "what a beautiful dog", and out of frustration I asked if they wanted him.
But they shook their heads "no" lol and hurried along. But I heard them say, under their breath, that they had been talked about the other dog. I looked to where they indicated, further ahead and I was confused by the appearance of a large black dog. Then I realized it was Meesha [the puppy] all grown up.

In another dream- in which I played no role except to occasionally jump into the POV of various DC's- I saw a young man and younger woman searching for escape for their people.
I've forgotten the details except for the fact they were a peoples at war. They lived in a place of exceptional "primitive" beauty.
They finally arrived at a hidden entrance, fumbled with a lamp and they each took a crystal from a bowl. They had broken off the crystals from a larger one.

They entered a cave which became a tunnel, which lead them to an underpass in our modern world. They were happy, but "I" still grieved for them.
Their families soon followed and they established their own small community.
But then the leaders took the young mans sister from him to raise her with their own standards. They played on her young age and curious and compassionate nature to draw her away.
The brother was enraged, though a part of him acknowledged it was likely for the best.
I don't recall how the dream ended.

In another dream, I spoke about home-made tattoo and peroxide to someone (?) and I mentioned how peroxide DOES burn.
>>I had that dream because I saw someone yesterday with strange white blots on his tattooed arm. I wondered about it. Plus, I cleaned some grooves in my cabinet using peroxide and I was surprised to discover it stung quite a lot and turned my fingertips white for a long time.

I woke very quickly "hearing" the computer ringing. But hubby wasn't calling me lol

Oh yeah, I also had a "Mario Brothers Dream" lol. I haven't had one of those for quite awhile!
I was just a computerized character going through seemingly impossible levels.

And lost most of my dreams.

But last night, I dreamed I had a buzz cut again. I looked great
>> I had that dream because I saw a familiar face at the restaurant we went to last night. It was a woman who used to work in our Head Shop. She's always rocked a short buzz cut which made me recall mine

I also dreamed my brother was in a blue car and passed me. I worried that he had tried to find me at the house. I didn't want him running into my hubby and didn't want my hubby griping at me about it.
>> That dream came about because I frequently see people that reminds me of him. And that worry passes through my mind before I realize his showing up at my house is impossible now that he's in jail.

The night before last, I dreamed I was using my bandanna to glide through the air. I have those dreams almost as often as I dream of flying and I enjoy them. Sometimes my arms get tired though, so I'll construct a seat and attach it to the ends of the bandanna But the other night it was extremely windy in the dream. I was lifted too high and then the bandanna was ripped from my grasp and I started falling.
People at a nearby hotel were screaming in fear for me. But I was so high up that my decent was somewhat controlled.
I moved myself in the direction of some trees. The top layer branches and leaves slowed my fall and then I grabbed onto the branches before landing at the bottom.
I tried making my way a hill through some thick underbrush but then I noticed an access road. I was eager to show the people who worried that I was okay.

At some point over the last few nights, I dreamed of driving the Land Cruiser backward lol. And I still had the portable battery up front with me, powering the engine (as I had to do IRL years ago).

And that is all I recall.

I didn't fall asleep until 5:30 AM and I woke at 10 this morning. I only recall only 2 dreams.

In one, I was at my grandmothers house. She was still alive. There were animals in the house and she wasn't entirely happy about that. My Uncle Hank ended up renting a trailer for $1,000. a month and he also got his drivers license and a car. I thought that was so strange. Uncle Hank was retarded IRL and had the mentality of a 9-12 year old boy.

Then my Uncle Jimmy showed up (whose also dead IRL). There were kids in my grams house (?) and my Uncles wanted them to drink some moonshine. I told them that a sip would be fine, but no more than that.
They laughed and said the kids had to drink to whole thing. I told them they no longer lived there and had absolutely no say in what goes on. I was really angry at them.

I also wanted a job and my grams had connections (local businesses etc) and I was wanting her to help me find something. Then I recalled past dreams (as if they were real life) where I had worked for a bookstore and just stopped showing up for work.


In another dream, it was like I was watching something and *I* wasn't even in the dream.
There were cockroaches everywhere. One kept being cradled like a baby because it kept wondering to the crook of some guys arm. Several times, I roach ran under a couch cushi

Very strange lol

I've taken my Prozosin for the last 2 nights, and I've barely recalled any dreams.

The only things I recall from last night are:
A REALLY tall horse. He was HUGE. And he didn't want me passing him to go inside some building. His size was ultimately his undoing because I pretended to run one way but quickly veered my course and he couldn't catch me- though he still tried to bite me.

I vaguely recall flying. It was a building with a cathedral ceiling and I was staying high and admiring the light fixtures.

I also vaguely recall being in a room filled with e-cig vapors lol

Tick or no tick, I fell asleep in my bed at 4:30 AM. I set a "thunder storm" alarm clock on my computer for 10:30 and I slept through it until 11 lol

Wow... too intense!
I fell asleep at, I don't know, 1-2AM and I'm now awake at 6AM because of the dreams.
The last one was the most freagin emotional dream I've had in a very long time.

I don't remember how it started, but I was in some house and my p-doc was there. We were talking about how I would react to certain situations. I had an female infant with me and she was the love of my life.
At some point, my p-doc opens the door and 2 women are on the other side. He looked at me sadly and then just walked away while the women came inside.
One of them was a childhood best friend. The other was just a random DC. The best friend was married to my ex-husband and she coming to take my daughter.
I threw a MAJOR fit. I told them that the child (they insisted on calling Gertrude wth lol) was in NO way related to them and they couldn't have her. They tried reasoning with me and asked if my ex wasn't considered family. I shouted "NO!" but then added, "Not where this child is concerned. It's not his!"
Ahhh, no. There was no random DC, it was my mother.

Anyhow... I was shouting and crying and I asked why he couldn't take one of HIS children . It was just for a summer visitation, I don't know why I was freaking out so badly regarding the new baby.
They said those children didn't need them and that they were basically too old. I blurted out my sons secret that he thinks he's transgendered; that he has all sorts of conflicting emotions going on and could really use them,
But no, they insisted on taking my infant from me. I screamed that they couldn't. I asked what legal grounds they had. Then they handed me a piece of paper. It said we had joint custody.
I should have then realized it was a dream, because as I looked at the signature page of the document, the signature changed size and color and I was actually mesmerized by it lol

I crumpled to the ground, asking how such a thing could be possible. Then I remembered that my hubby could help me fight it. We could get a good lawyer. But I felt utterly betrayed by my p-doc and that's when I woke.
I wasn't crying or anything, but wow!

Gonna go buy a Coke. I'll finish later.
But, my p-doc ruled my dreams last night.
The following are just random scenes or phrases to help me recall the dreams later. But my recall isn't that hot to begin with lol

p-doc, hubby, shopping, third wheel, carving across chest
flight, awesome landing, water, lost
strange building, fire on floor, big man
flirting younger p-doc, altercation with punks, kiss, save

I think that's it...

I dreamed about a missing baby again last night. Only it was a boy this time and he was absolutely silent. I was frantic to find him and started looking on shelves and eventually, I found him inside a box. I thought he was dead, at first, but he was only sleeping. I carried him around for awhile but then his diaper leaked and I got poop all over my side and hands.
At some point, I realized he was a twin, and I went in search of the other one. I couldn't find him anywhere and I was getting upset about it. I kept thinking dogs had eaten him, but I kept telling myself I would find blood or pieces of the baby.

I dreamed of traveling and of flying but I don't recall much. At one time, I was ordering food and I asked a very quiet man what he recommended. He always got just an apple. When I flew, I caught the wind in some contraption like a laundry basket. But flight was very unreliable and unpredictable.

I also had some overly emotional stress dreams but I've forgotten them entirely. (Then how do I KNOW I had them lol).

I think I keep dreaming about babies in boxes because of "Miracle Light"- the preemie who was discovered alive after it had been in the morgue for 10+ hours. I have a "phobia" of being declared dead when I'm really not.

rofl, I also dreamed I was a t a restaurant. I was naked and some Witnesses were at a nearby table. I found a small sheet of some sort and whenever I had to walk by, I covered my front and walked backward.
When I sat at the table (with 2 male DC's), the sheet fell and I realized I was showing everyone a bit of boob One of the Witnesses walked by quickly and couldn't help trying to contain a smile and a disapproving head shake.
Then I was outside, behind a car, laying on the ground to force a dress on. My oldest son was standing guard but a cop still caught me. She discreetly waited until I dress, though, before walking the rest of the way to me (she saw my struggles through the back passenger windows).
How odd lol. I've never been one to have nudity dreams..

I went to sleep at around 1AM and woke at 8:30 to the birds screeching for food. I fed them before I went to sleep, but they must have been exceptionally hungry
Because of that, I forgot most of my dreams.

Some tidbits I recall are:
Something strange going on with the sky. There were multiple shooting stars but everyone was freaking out about them.


In another dream, a couple had a baby (a foster kid) but changed their minds and put him in a box to send him back. I got really upset, telling them they couldn't that to a child. I asked the woman how she would feel if the man gave her a "certificate of divorce" simply because of was bored of her [the wording is religiously significant to me]. They both started crying and realized what they were doing was cruel.

In another dream, I was at some sort of function. I was extremely upset about something (?). I was silently crying but outwardly agitated. My p-doc was there and he quietly told me to come see him when everything was done because he could tell how upset I was. When he left, I was conflicted. Part of me was dying from embarrassment but another part was glad he saw how I "really" feel when in such situations.
The thing is- when I'm highly stressed IRL, EMOTIONALLY I behave as I was acting in the dream. I'm a master of "masks" however so I rarely SHOW what I'm really feeling.

My p-doc will get a kick of that dream, but he'd want to know more, but I've forgotten it

In another dream, there was a baby. Someone set the baby near the edge of a bed to sleep and I worried about her rolling off the bed... but she was too young to roll. Then Cocoa got up on the bed and I worried about her pushing the baby off or smothering her by accident.

But then the dream changed and I couldn't find the baby. I could hear her crying and I looked everywhere but still couldn't find her. I even looked under the trailer. At some other point in the dream, a woman fell between the skirting of the trailer and the home, so I took special care to look in that area. But she was nowhere to be found and I was stressing out and crying.

I went inside and I was suddenly happy because there she was. But no... that was my 7 year old niece who was upset that I didn't recognize her. I played it off and told her she had just grown so much since I last saw her. I don't recall how the dream ended.

In yet another dream, I was traveling. Don't recall the specifics but I had lost my luggage, couldn't find the plane etc etc (as is usually the case in such dreams). At one point, I was in a strip club with another person (?). I had been there before (?) and spoke highly of the spa area. I told the person if they had the stomach for it, we could watch the girls in the room with the stage. The person passed and we left.
But as we were leaving, I noticed everyone working at the club was grandmother-old A lot of the DC's acknowledged me as if I was a regular but I've never dreamed of that particular bar before.
The person and I continued traveling by car, but I don't recall where we were going.

That's it.

I've been neglecting my DJ again.

Lately, I've been having a lot of stressful dreams. My mom has been in a lot of them. In one, I was defending the medication I take for anxiety. She's NEVER given me a hard time about meds. She's on anti-depressants herself.
But in one dream, she was very beautiful. She had lost a LOT of weight and looked 30 years younger. All I recall is seeing her twirl in a dress (which she would never wear IRL). Just seeing her like that made me so happy.

I've been dreaming about drowning still; of losing control of my car.
Last night, I was stuck in a dream loop. I waited to long to record it and I've lost most of it though. In the first part of the loop, things were going smoothly. It was a stress-free dream. But in each loop the dream scenes became increasingly unpleasant.
Ugh... I wish I recorded it sooner lol

I had some very strange dreams between 4:30-11AM.

In one dream, I went to my bio-dads house and he was there. I was upset and he came to me with his arms open, telling me he was okay, that everything was okay. He had a scar down his chest as if he had heart surgery.

In another dream, bio-dads wife brought my family some bags of food- stuff she had already bought but would never use. I was with my ex-husband. We had gotten re-married and we were bickering about something.
THen I dreamed of my [step] dad. He was asking me if I told the truth about something that had happened [in dreamland only] several years back. I had been attacked or something and he was asking if I had made it up. I did make it up, but I couldn't admit that to him and I acted angry that he didn't believe me.
We were going to Vermont (?) to see someone in a hospital or something.

In another dream, I was at some location I've often dreamed about but doesn't exist IRL. All the secret panels were being replaced and I was so upset that I couldn't use them anymore. The safe room was still there though as was the secret escape route through the floor.
There was a lot more to that dream- a bad guy, some sort of monster, running and hiding but I don't recall the specifics.
My former WV childhood friends were with me. I was upset that so much was changing over the years.

In yet another dream, the wind was exceptionally strong outside. It blew a black cat right off a picnic table and I couldn't help but to laugh. I opened the door for all the animals to come inside, and my old cat Rogue was among them.

At some other point in some dream or another, my family was showing me some dogs that had been abandoned. They were supposed to look scraggly but they were fine.
There was also something where my kids were all little and I misplaced a tiny bunny and was mad at one of my kids for misplacing it and I feared the animals had gotten ahold of it.

I even dreamed of space... I wish I could recall that one. It was odd. 2 people flew to the edge of space. One went beyond earths atmosphere and the other tried talking to that person but the one in space was holding its breath because there was no air. very weird.

And I also had the typical, "getting lost" in my car dream.

That's it.. gotta eat now

**EDIT**
Oh yeah... I forgot another dream I had.
I was on line, looking at my bank statement, only it was different how it is IRL (though I tend to dream of it consistently). I had made a bunch of purchases then it occurred to me to cancel some of them so I would have money show up on my card for more practical purchases.
But as soon as I would cancel one order, another order would be approved because it was in some sort of cue waiting until I had the funds to complete the purchase.
One of the things I bought was 30 Turbo harvesters for Farmville lol. I was kicking myself in the butt for buying something so stupid, then I "remembered" they had cost less than $2.00
Something else I bought was Everquest 2 related.

The other night I dreamed I had a really big gash in my hand. I looked at it and saw that it was a very clean cut. In fact, it wasn't even bleeding. I looked even more closely at it and noticed I could see all the way into my hand.
I thought it was really neat and gross at the same time, but as I stared inside it, I began noticing other things. There was a couch and a window inside my hand. In fact, it looked just like our living room only there was orange stuff gooing down from the "walls" and "ceiling" here and there.

I had another cool dream that same night, but I've forgotten most of it. All I really recall now is that it was a dream loop and I was in some other time and on some other world.

And this morning, I dreamed I was walking outside and there was snow on the ground. I saw a tuft of fur and wondered which of our cats had died. I started to gently push the snow around with my foot and I saw what I thought to be a starving cats head. But as I looked, it began gasping for breath, then it shook the rest of the snow off and stretched and I saw it wasn't a cat at all but a skunk. I started calling it Stinky or Skunky and it followed me inside. I was talking to it and the next thing I knew, Cocoa was repeating the name in a really high-pitched voice lol

In another dream, I was in an elevator which went to the very top then sped down and crashed through a false floor to 5 more floors. I don't remember the point of the dream though.

In yet another, I was outside when an alarm sounded. Tornadoes were surrounding the town. I helped a bunch of people find shelter, but then I was too late. Around a corner, there appeared a swirl in the air. It was very small and broke up releasing large drops of water. I thought the swirl was ice which had suddenly melted.
There was a house on "stilts" and underneath it served as a parking area for a bunch of cars. I was with a couple of other people and we raced into a car and closed the windows and slammed the doors closed. Only one of the doors wouldn't close all the way and I was freaking out at the person, telling them to close it SOME HOW or it was worthless and we would all soon be dead.
Next thing I know, some cars around us were pulled out and I could see a system of tornadoes. They were most impressive. One of them sort of hovered over the ground at electric pole level. I could see the swirls and I kept hoping it wouldn't touch down.
In the distance was one gigantic tornado which had spawned 5 others.
I don't remember how the dream ended.

In a snippet, I recall trying to Spin. I don't know what my fascination is with spinning, but I absolutely love it in the dream world.

ANother dream I barely recall was of being back with my ex-husband and we were fighting about something.

In yet another, I was the passenger in a car and the driver nearly side-swapped some pillars which surrounded a stop sign. I told her enough, pull over, I was going to drive. She backed into someones yard and I got behind the wheel.
As I was pulling out, I couldn't see the road. She had crossed a short bridge which went over a small stream. I knew I was going to drive into it and I was freaking out because I had to get to my sons MDT. I kept saying I couldn't be late and then I woke up.
I slept through the alarm and I was about to miss my sons MDT lol. I woke up with 10 minutes to spare!

THat's it...
And I've not been on allergy pills lol. I guess I'm naturally trippy