Just Another Dream Journal

I went to sleep at around 3:30AM and I crashed fast and hard, but I still tossed and turned a lot. At some point, I even ended up at the opposite end of my mattress lol

One dream was just... wow.... but it's merged (in recall) with another dream or two.

There were 2 peoples or nations or planets (?). A marriage was arranged to unite the worlds or kingdoms. I watched the dream mostly, but sometimes I saw/felt the story from the POV of the main female DC.
She had heard stories that joining with this man would be painful almost to the point of death, so she was extremely anxious.
The man was attractive enough. Not handsome, but definitely good looking. He had blond hair and a baby-fat face. He looked young and innocent except for his eyes which were black and way too serious.
He asked her what was wrong and she told him what she had heard. He asked 'Is that all? That's what you've been fretting about?'
She said yes.
He began transforming and told her she had every right to be afraid.
He became a giant wisp of darkest shadows with a form in the center not completely inhuman but definitely evil.
His form enveloped her and she screamed.

There was SO stinking much more to the dream but that's really all I recall.
I do remember her telling him that if he hurt her he's the one who should be afraid because someone (another guy? Her true love?) would make the creatures existing most unbearable.

In another dream, I was on a trip with my hubby. He wanted to get a camper and stay at some strange country B&B. We were assigned to slot 3 which was too close to the sewage outlet, so we left. I interacted with the owners a couple of times, but I've forgotten all that went on.

In another dream, my grams was dying. It was said she would be dead by Monday and my parents wanted me to visit with my bio-dad and my friends because when they (we) home to Florida, we'd never return.
I remember seeing my Uncle Hank and my childhood friend Dawn at one point, but that's about it.

In another dream, which may have been connected with the first, I was exploring on some alien planet. People were upset because their spears had rusted unusually fast. I suggested salt water, but the water had always been fresh. We went to investigate and sure enough, the waters were very salty.
The environment was breathtakingly beautiful. The water was the same light shade of blue as the sky.
There was a sort of bridge/walkway through some of the water, and there were these strange fish. The walkway was underwater by a few inches and I thought the fish were being used as weights lol because they were at the edges. They just preferred it there. Then I wondered how they could be alive when they're fresh water creatures and their environment had so suddenly changed.

I also dreamed of a fat little boy. He was still in diapers, but when pulled aside for some reason it was discovered (quite by accident) that he knew the mathematics language of computers.
And at some point, a little child worried because I lit a candle in her room which wasn't allowed.


Now I'm going to eat. When I'm done, I'll try to remember to come back here and add proper line breaks lol

And no... I hadn't taken any allergy meds all day :cackle"

... for me before bed!! Which sort of sucks because it HAS gotten rid of the phlegm

In one dream, I was fighting some robots. Some random DC's were my crew and I kept watching them get killed off one by one. One was shot in the chest just a couple of feet away. I kept shooting the robot, but it seemed impossible to kill.

Then I had an upsetting dream about my hubby trying to convince me to go into a mental institution. I kept trying to tell him, as lovingly and polite as I could, that while I trusted him, I didn't trust him THAT much lol But they had some sort of helmet that was making headway in encouraging weight loss. And he was up in arms because our insurance was refusing to pay for my gallbladder surgery because I went to another town and I had a DNR that wasn't signed by anyone in the local medical community. He was thinking about suing the surgeon because I was septic and putting on weight. He said I should have lost at least 100 pounds from the procedure alone I'd only weigh 50 pounds

There were dream snippets of animals going inside one of the secret rooms I sometimes dream about.
And another of me being frightened by an enormous bug I thought was some crimson wasp. Someone told me it was actually a butterfly, and as I looked more closely at it, it unfolded it wings and was absolutely beautiful... only it had the mouth of a "pinching beetle" and I still didn't want to get all that close to it.

I had a dream about the people from my old Congregation. I was confused because they were talking to me. One of the people was my old friend Roxanna. I still miss her IRL.
I don't remember anything more though there was a lot more to the dream.

Then I heard zones 2 and 4 go off IRL and I realized it was 8:00 and hubby was going to work. I fell back to sleep and dreamed I had sex with a 17 year old male relative
Those who keep up with my rants can probably guess who that relative is, but I'm too paranoid to say- anywhere
There was some woman sleeping in my bed. My hubby was out of town. He kept talking and I told him to shut up before he woke the woman. But while in the act, it occurred to me just who this person was and then the woman woke and said she was going to go to the Overseer because she just couldn't remain quiet.
And then I woke up in total disgust, feeling like vomiting.
WTH?

**EDIT**
I just did recall, for some reason, another snippet of dream. I dreamed there were lots of cats in my yard and all of them were in heat and had their butts in the air. I went around sprinkling their bottoms with pepper so the male cats would be uninterested lol

I think there is something to allergy meds giving you more intense dreams. I've taken at least one for the last 3 night and each night I've had extreme dreams.
But then I either wake up too quickly or I wait too long to record them and forget most of the details.
I went to sleep last night at 10:10 and I woke up at 8:00.

I recall only bits and pieces.
In one, I was playing some game as if the game was life. I was zapped somewhere to a forth garden but it was very dark and spooky and there were spirally things hanging from the ceiling that would shock you if you got too close.
Someone was teaching me about the garden and at one point I had to look through a periscope to spot some dangers. There were leopards surrounding one area.
I asked if I would ever be able to remove the spirally things and she said no.

In another dream my step-mom and mother were together. We were at my grams house with my uncles. I was confused because my Uncle Hank was alive and Uncle Jimmy was missing. It was assumed he wandered off to die alone.
There was a lot more to that dream, but I've forgotten.

In some other dream, I was working with some robotic interface. I don't recall exactly how we interacted. But he (the interface) was bugged. He spoke first in a male voice, but it changed to a woman's voice and back and forth and so on. I told him to run a diagnostic test on himself and he reported some great failure.
I gave him to some tech guys to fix.

Then I was on some spy mission, tracking a robotic dragonfly with a camera mounted on it. Some other people, with my team, was at the bottom of a hill intercepting audio from it.
Its wing broke, however, but not before it found me. We worried the mission was compromised, but I picked it up and we raced back to the office.
We were then pursued for the information we gathered. They even broke into our headquarters. I was taken prisoner. A guy carried me down a hall with many doors. He kept kicking them open and then his companions would search the area. The last spot held a cabinet. My daughters friend Brittany was inside hiding. They dragged her out.
I don't remember how the dream ended.

In some other dream, I was doing some sports activity with a guy and some girl. The guy collapsed from a severe cramp. We ripped open his pants and I found a HUGE knot under his skin. I kept messaging it, but the other woman kept interfering, thinking her way was best (which I barely recall was one step away from molesting the poor guy).

In another dream, my skin was peeling as if I had suffered a severe sunburn. I kept peeling it, but I worried some sections weren't ready and I'd make things worse.

That's it.

I ended up going back to sleep for about 2-3 hours and I had some pretty cool dreams though I've forgotten most of them.

An uncool dream was of a mole falling off from my side. I've had a mole there IRL my entire life. I was scratching at it, in the dream and I saw it fall off. I looked down at my side to verify and there was a circular spot with green goo which was also bleeding a little. I scrambled around trying to find my silver nitrate sticks. I eventually remembered having run out but I found a mostly used stick that got the job done well enough.

In another dream, I was upset and hungry and at a diner. An elderly woman appeared and patted my arm and said the kitchen was open. She could make me some eggs and I was very happy lol

And then comes the awesome dream I wish I remembered more of.
I don't recall how it started and it seems to be 2 dreams melded into one:

I remember a little girl sitting in a field. She was very afraid because kids were being "erased" by some evil entity. A man had been keeping this girl safe because the entities feared him, but he hadn't showed up at nightfall as he always had in the past. So the girl was hiding in the field, but the entity found her anyhow. He asked where her protector was and why had he abandoned her. But the girl knew better and would not accuse her friend.
Then things get a little fuzzy. The girl took off running but it was as if a force field was around her and she always ended up at the same place before she could get very far away.
The entity mocked her and said something along the lines of "too bad you couldn't find [that thing]"
But then a memory stirred. She looked along the ground and found something resembling a diamond jutting out a rock. She picked it up and asked him if that's what he wanted.
It was...

Then I appeared in the dream and I was fighting monsters elsewhere. My health was getting low and I was desperately trying to figure out how to access my items so I could take a potion
I ended up barely escaping. Then some large creature appeared and I climbed onto his back. He bounded down the wall, careful to find footholds in windows and ledges.
A lot more happened, but I've forgotten it

I don't know when I went to bed last night. I forgot to write it down. It was just after midnight though- I remember now because of Farmville lol. I took 2 allergy pills and fell right to sleep. But I tossed and turned all freagin night.

I remember dreaming about swinging and twirling from some poles at a park. They might have been poles from a swing set/monkey bars combo. I was having great fun until I met a wasp at the last pole. Someone shouted a warning but I had already seen it. I shooed it but then it chased me lol
I then realized I had just had surgery and wondered if I should be exerting myself so much so soon. I couldn't remember anything about the surgery though so I asked someone. It had been brain surgery. A circular piece of my skull had been removed and I was told if I pushed on the roof of my mouth hard enough, that the bone (which had been replaced afterward) would pop out.

At some point, I dreamed I still had my bottom teeth, except thin metal rods were holding them in place. The rods irritated me so I pulled a couple of them out.
At some other point, I dreamed I had doctors order to eat only a clear diet. As soon as I heard that, I scarfed down 2 chocolate covered marshmallow eggs

I dreamed some building was on fire or something and I followed the cries of a little kid. I saw her from a distance and told her everything was going to be okay, but then a lady appeared out of nowhere and carried the girl to safety. I felt a little dejected at losing a chance to be someone's hero, but I shrugged it off and made my way back down some external stairs.

In another dream I was with my parents and some other people. I sold 2 cigarettes to a couple of kids for 50 cents each but two other adults caught me. One of them was actually the person who told the girls they needed to pay me. They made a comment about not buying pot from him. Another woman didn't say anything but it was clear she would if the kids were caught.
My youngest daughter kept harassing me, asking if I mailed an order for some brownies. I kept telling her I had (but I actually hadn't). Someone else slipped me $50. for something.
Then entered my mom, extremely upset, claiming she has narrowed down her search for my dad's harlot.
There was more to that dream, but I've forgotten it.

I was sitting in a chair in one snippet when I felt an insect crawling on my arm. I swatted it, then feared it was a wasp. It was actually a roach (which I loathe) and I pulverized it into goo.

In yet another dream, I was walking through a neighborhood that was supposed to be one in Florida where my ex lived. It actually looked like a local neighborhood I drive through almost daily. I was trying to convince myself that some disaster had come about and I was psyching myself out, worried I'd find the parents of my ex dead in their home. I wouldn't check on them, but kept walking. I eventually ran into some other people.

In another snippet, I was visiting a couple of elderly ladies. They had four cats and one of them had a stub for a tail. I picked her up right away and said she reminded me a lot of Rogue (my favorite cat who ran away several years ago). They wanted me to take her because if not, the cat had to go to the pound. But I set the cat down and sadly told them I lived in another state and it wouldn't be possible because my mom was highly allergic.

That's all I recall

I don't really know about it is about this particular dream that freaks me out, but it does every time I have it. I've not had it for a while though.

I don't recall how things began, but I was in a small house. The lighting was bad and there was a woman in the hallway. Some DC was with me and he was looking for pictures to give to her. She ate them.
I found a book about the vanities of women which was filled with pictures, but she refused it and asked what it had to do with her.
There was a horrible safe room in this area. It always reminds me of a safe. It was junked up and the man was annoyed because we were going to be needing it soon, but he couldn't get the secret door opened because it was at the other end of the clutter.

I eventually cleared it all out and unbarred the door. The door you enter through completely seals and you would die in the room if not for the other one. Only, we were going to be pressed for time and wanted to seal the entrance before hand and enter through the exit. But it latched so completely and could not be opened from the outside. I ended up sticking a rag in the door to prevent it from locking.
There was also valuable stuff inside the safe room and I worried about leaving it unguarded, but there was nothing I could do.
I went to tell my companion but he had died (?) I was about to rewind the dream to an earlier "save" but became lucid long enough to realize the dream never really changes and it would be best just to wake up.

>>The paintings and pictures came from watching White Collar before I went to sleep. I don't know why she was eating them though. The book came from the intro to one of Alexander Popes poems which spoke of women in curious fashion (to me anyhow). Ah yes, the Rape of the Locket. The entire poem was weird to me.

I crashed last night at around 9:30 and woke up feeling sick at 6AM (sick like a medicine hangover). I know I had a lot of dreams during that time, and some were even pleasant, but I've forgotten them thanks to the last dream/s I had.

I don't recall where the dream began exactly, but I think I was at a table. Zee's friends Katie and Brittany were beside me. I told Katie I needed my iPad back and she said she didn't have it anymore and she would explain later. I told her she would explain NOW. She told me she sold it on eBay and I became infuriated. She kept trying to get me to keep my voice down (though I wasn't yelling), but I marched right over to her mother and told her that her daughter stole my iPad and I expected it back.
Even though I was worried Katie would tell on me for teaching her about scratch tattoos and sharing smokes with her, I had to speak my mind. I was sick and tired of people stealing from me.
My hubby was nearby and he told me he was disappointed in me. But then later in the dream he was proud for me sticking up for myself.

Then the dream changed or merged into another one. I was sitting in theater style seating. I was close to the bottom with Katie. I confronted her on her purchases. I found where she had bought a book "Studies in the Scriptures" that was written in Spanish. I called her a fool (she spent $90.) because I could get one for free at the local Kingdom Hall. I told her I expected every single penny back and whatever else it took to replace my iPad.

Then she made the mistake of mentioning Zee. I told her she would NEVER see or speak to Zee again. I further said I would sooner send my daughter into Foster Care then to have the two of them anywhere near each other. Which made Katie very upset. But then it wasn't Katie anymore but a random DC. She told me I didn't know what I was talking about- that the book was from HER religion and she showed me what the title actually translated to. I told her I apologized for my mistake, but it didn't change the fact I was going to the police and getting a warrant for her eBay account.

At that point, a JW woman I love dearly- a woman who I've only heard raise her voice once IRL, she's that soft spoken- stood up and told me to get my ass out of there. It was only then that I realized I had been making a scene. I turned around and saw my p-doc in the audience.

I was so upset[ furious], that he followed behind me to see me home. Of course, my house was thoroughly disgusting. My kids were little and I asked who last had bathroom duty, because odds and ends needed done. It wasn't that bad though. The bed was gross though and my p-doc said he wouldn't lay in it anytime soon if he were I- but he was commenting more on its stability than anything else.
There was a strange container in the bathroom that interested both of us. It looked a little like a more flattened shaped genie lamp. He lost interest and stepped out of the room. I managed to get it open and there was silver creamy stuff in it. I smelled it and it got on my nose.
He said he worries about me. I wiped it off my nose, but he wanted me to sit down so he could properly wash it off.

My house was 2-storied and one of my kids (not a real kid) was exceptionally small. He was walking down the stairs with my doctor and I. The kid was near tears and I asked what was wrong. He wouldn't say. I asked if he would tell just me and he nodded his head. We disappeared into some other room and the little one said he felt like the Doctor was trying to get rid of him just like his dad and step-dad. He thought my p-doc was trying to spend time alone with me but I pointed out that the little one had never been asked to leave.

At some point during all the iPad drama, Zee showed up. I briefly told her everything that had happened as well as my threat to send her to Foster Care. She wasn't angry at me, but gave me a hug intead and said something along the lines of "poor mommy".


I know how all of the first part of the dream came about. While visiting Zee, she said we had to start family counseling soon and I would be very angry to learn half of the stuff she either didn't tell me or lied about. I told her I could guess some of it and that I was still angry about my iPod. She asked if I knew the truth and I said no, but I've guessed she sold it for drugs. She told me then that she was at a drug dealer's house taking care of his baby, who was crying. She had just gotten her cellphone from her friend so she was doubly distracted and forgot it there. Her friend then left state and she didn't know the apartment number of the dealers house. By the time she saw them again, they had already gotten rid of it

When I got home, Katie, Brittany and Anthony showed up at my door. They all crowded into my bedroom. The make pretenses for a good 20 minutes then ask for a smoke. Unfortunately, I'm one of the neighborhood's "cool" moms. I told them I wouldn't be doing it much longer because I was quitting. Then we talked about e-cigs for a while. Then Brittany told me about a scratch tattoo she gave herself and I called her an idiot because she cut much too deeply and she only succeeded in giving herself an ugly scar. So then I felt compelled to educate her on how to properly do it.
I usually hid from Zee's crew when they come over. I hate being the cool mom. At first, I only gave smokes to kids after I spoke to their parents to make sure it was okay. But then those kids would just give them to the other kids so I figure why try to keep up with what's what.

In the first part of the dream, my hubby was disappointed in me because I had been stupid enough to let someone borrow my iPad to begin with. But then he was proud of me speaking my mind because I'm naturally passive.
I'm not sure about the symbolism behind being in theater seating and having an "audience". The Witness was there because I've been thinking about returning and they've all been on my mind lately.

As for the second dream... I really have no clue about any of it. My house has always been the bane of my existence, but I also fell asleep thinking of ways to rearrange and decorate my room.
The cream I got on my nose represented Silver Nitrate.

I've now been typing this for almost an hour. TIme to eat...

I went to sleep at 3:30, woke at 11.

I remember tidbits about losing my car and being at the same vacation spot snow and all. I don't recall any animal dreams
But I did dream that my son Myles had died. "Ms. Jessica", my main spiritual mentor eons ago, came over to comfort me and to give me the name of a good funeral parlor which was run by someone named "MelanieB"

That's it.

I slept for 11 hours straight. I feel like it was restful, but my mattress is pushed away from the wall and my blankets are all over the place. I only recall bits and pieces of my dreams.

In one, there were lots of kittens and other animals. Forget the details though.

In another one, I was at a store and I couldn't find my car. I wish I could remember more of the dream though because there was a lot more to that story. I get fleeting glances of babies.... Ah yes... As I was leaving the store, a family was walking in. The had a toddler in the seat part of the buggy but he managed to fall out. The door greeter caught the kid by his feet right before the little one cracked his head on the cement outside.
And I don't know if it was in this dream or another, but I was waiting in line to order food but I stepped away to grab something. I was going to go to the back of the line, but a really nice man told me I could have my spot back and everyone behind him was in agreement.

Then there's the dream I REALLY wish I could remember. It was a surreal "nightmare". I was being chased by (?) but I was also on vacation. Snow was everywhere and there was some weird body of water that I've dreamed of many times in the past. It's located in the middle of nowhere and while it's not incredibly wide, no one knows how deep it is.

That's it

Some time has passed, so I've lost some of the details but....

I dreamed of many kittens again. Yet the dream spiced things up for a change and added a bunch of cats and rabbits too. Two of the rabbits were ones I've lost Neval and Mylopsia.
All of the animals were running around together. The rabbits kept getting loose and I was terrified the cats would eat them, but they all seemed to get along just fine. Some kittens were even nursing from Mylopsia
Then I went outside and the boys were loose. They had gotten their chains tangled together. I unhooked Snuffanuff easily enough but Rocky kept jumping all over the place and then I noticed that half of his face was missing

In another dream, the car theme ruled. I kept trying to get gas but ended up on the wrong side of the pump or way too far from the pump, then I wasn't filling my car at all but a gas can. Then I lost the gas can, lost my car, was going crazy trying to find everything I took off flying to get a better view, but it was so windy, I kept getting thrown off course. I eventually found my car and, drove awhile then parked some place I thought was safe. Turns out it was a semi-frozen body of water. I got out of my car, walked back somewhere, heard the ice crack and watched my pride and joy slowly slip beneath the water. I even tried to use my dream super powers to telekinetically pull it out, but it was hopeless.

I woke in a panic and annoyed at all these "stress" dreams. WTH? Life is fine right now. Life has been fine for over 2 weeks.

I also had an extremely bad dream at some point but I've forgotten it completely. I went to sleep at around 3AM and I woke at 8:30.

I almost forgot the music video dream. It was awesome. I was here at DV, checking out music videos and I found one by Enya (but it was actually, Enigma). I thought it strange because I could hear a musical score, but there were absolutely no lyrics. Then the video became my dream. *I* wasn't there but saw the following:
There was a couple in a garden, passionately kissing and in each others arms. But then you hear a bird call out and the woman looks up into the tree and sees a hawk/falcon. She grabs her lover by the wrist and they run as fast as they can down a path and to a cobbled road. She meets with a friend and tells him in confidence: "Hide him. Guard him. But if it looks like he's going to be captured then kill him. That would be a better death than what's being planned for him."

But then you hear the rush of horse hooves and a noose (as a lead) is thrown around the lovers neck. Then you see a young boy: blond, thin, with freckles. He looks to the woman and says: "You killed my uncle and my mother."
But the woman protested: "I'm not dead!" and she held her hand out to him.
Then I woke up.

I'm getting sick of the kitten dream. My brain is trying to tell me something and until I figure out the symbolism of the dream, it will plague me. It doesn't help that I don't recall the entire dream. All I do remember is walking through a house and there were tiny kittens everywhere. I found one who was close to death so I moved him closer to his mother. He started nursing but I found him again, in death throes Beside him was a pile of poop and I almost got my hand it in but I had to pet the little one to try to bring him some comfort.

The driving one was a typical stress dream. I had to get up a hill, but the road was covered in snow and ice. I made several attempts, but I kept sliding back down. THen I clicked my cars overdrive button and lowered it a gear and got to the top of the hill with no further problems. Once at the top, someone wanted me to drive them to the store. They were carrying a tiny baby and had to walk across slippery ground to get to the car. I was afraid for them and thought them foolish to have the baby out.

That's it.

Though not necessarily in that order.

Last night, I dreamed of being in a fancy hotel with my hubby and a teensy kitten head popped up out of the sink drain. I helped it the rest of the way out and saw its mom on a nearby counter freaking out.

I took a nap from around 7-11 this evening after having eaten TGI Friday's Onion Rings "Chips".
In one dream, I was on the phone with my oldest daughter. She was asking when she can come home (for a visit) and I told never because I can't afford all the back and forth driving. She became extremely upset and started speaking some other language. She translated what she had said and one of the words was the "F bomb". I find that word incredibly offensive IRL. My kids can get away with dropping occasional bad words but NEVER that one. So, in the dream, I told her I was hanging up because I didn't want to hear that sort of language but we still managed to say "I love you" before I did.

In another dream, I was in some house and there were kittens EVERYWHERE. You couldn't take a couple steps without fearing you'd squish them. There was a lot more to that story, but I don't really recall anything other than going into some guys garage/basement and asking where the breaker box was because the lights were out. He was worried about something (?). And later in the dream, when I told some other random DC about the encounter he became very concerned for me (??)

In the most disturbing dream I think I've ever had, my youngest daughter went into great detail about how she and her friends raped a classmate during a sleepover. I will spare you the details. I felt outrage for the sake of the girl and my bile rose...... literally. I woke up sitting in bed, unable to breath because of those stupid Onion Ring Chips lol. I was choking on acid which also makes me vomit a little, but I instinctively swallow which causes a seemingly endless loop until I regain consciousness enough to take control of the situation

Oh yeah.... I also had a strange dream about some "Asian" tribe. A very elderly woman was recounting her life in her village and how, when she was younger, conspired with others her age to destroy the elders. She shook her head in sorrow at their foolishness. But she went on to say the elders still live on in the descendants of the tribe and how she could always tell who had been related to this or that elder. She could even tell, because of it, who would come into power and who would have a bad life. She spoke of one such person of having a "water mark" (totem tattoo birthmark) who inherited it from a certain wise elder and how he became Emperor of the tribe for many, many good years.

I don't remember actually being in that dream. All I recall of it is her story and some faces. Ahhh yes... she was being interviewed by some News channel. At the end of the dream, specialists were brought in who debunked her ability to tell the bloodline of everyone from (what became) a very large tribe- merely from appearances. They went on further to say there were originally 10 elders (who were somehow destroyed), but that created enough diversity in the gene pool for significant differences.
I rolled my eyes- even though "I" didn't really exist lol.

I've been placed on a blood pressure med called Minipress which is helpful for nightmares and night terrors. It usually works very well. Last night was the exception.

I took one and laid down to sleep at 1:30


I dreamed I was in some sort of hostage situation. I was in some house with a few ladies, one man and a bunch of little kids. I was NOT cooperating with them in the least. I felt certain I would be raped, but I just couldn't stop my defiance. I was just SO MAD.

At one point, I grabbed my phone out of a purse [RC missed- I don't carry a purse lol] and I tried hiding it under a couch cushion but I was caught and dragged away from the phone by my feet.
Eventually, I escaped and it turns out I was in row apartment housing. At the end of the row I ran into a woman and asked her to call the cops. I didn't know which house number I had come from and I worried about the others, so I went back.

When I entered the door, one of the women was holding a gun on the 3 bad guys and the man of the house boasted about the level-headed thinking of his wife. He beamed at her and I felt his jab against me for putting up such a fight.

The cops came and they took out one dead body. The body of another woman was wrapped in some sort of plastic to keep her insides from falling out and to keep constant pressure on her wounds.


I woke up and took another minipress, don't know at what time. (My p-doc wants me to take 2 at bedtime but I can't take them together or I get extremely sick)

In another dream, I was at some sort of religious event. I think the people there were Catholic for the most part. One woman was very welcoming. She was a nun but not in the traditional sense. She didn't wear a habit and she wasn't a virgin because she entered after having kids and being married. Then the dream contradicted itself because she went on to say the Priest wanted her to change her name when she was 17 because no one would want to marry her. But she refused. Her name was pretty common too, Margaret, I think.

She was very depressed and I told her to just cast her worries on Jehovah and he would sustain her. She despised herself though so her worst enemy was herself. Then I told her to remember Job as he wrote the book of Jude [ say WHAT] and how many of the disciples entreated God to take their problems away but he said no. It wasn't God punishing them, it was them having to live with previous actions or the effects of time.

She appreciated the comfort and sat with me. Conversation got heated somewhere else, and I HAD to get involved and correct someone's misunderstanding of a certain Bible verse (?)


In yet another dream, I heard a knock on the door. I opened it and found the construction crew. One of them was letting me know they were just finishing up. There were garages and smaller building all over the yard, but they looked unfinished.
I walked outside to look at their progress. There was a pile of logs near my house and as we walked by the pile became unstable and rolled. Many people were it. A couple were buried. I raced to see where I could be of help, but I felt in the way as others beat me to the wounded. So I just tried cleaning up and rearranging tools on a table (?). Then it occurred to everyone that some people could be completely buried.
All of us started to move the logs and sure enough, we found 4 white slaves (?). They were in some recess and it didn't look like they had been crushed, but they still appeared dead.
I went to check on one of the women and she darted up in shock. She said sorry about the fright, but she must have turned her "rape shield" on at the last moment. lol

A recurring theme seems to be assertiveness and aggression. Both of those things have been on my mind a lot. Especially since I answered some questionnaire about/for my youngest daughter and one of the questions was: "[Does she] knows the difference between assertiveness and aggression?" I became very annoyed at the question. I thought to myself: "There's a difference" "What's the difference"
that says volumes about me. Once I thought of it, I knew the difference and was like But in my mind, they go hand in hand because all my life my assertiveness has always = someone else's aggressiveness
So, it seems my dreams were telling me I need to stand up for myself more often, but I still need to use logic.

As for the rape theme.... in my demented mind, rape is still sex. I've not had sex for over a year and I went to sleep last night in a "mood". I can't cheat on my hubby, but if I was raped..... yeah, warped thinking I know. As if any sane person would ENJOY being raped.

The first thing I recall is dreaming that my teeth were falling out. They came out with little effort (i poked and pulled a tiny bit). It was as if they were suspended inside my mouth by nothing and I wondered how they hadn't fallen out sooner and I thought of an example of slamming on my brakes while driving and my teeth just flying out lol
In the dream, my p-doc was my Dentist and I worried how he would react.

I've not had such a dream in a VERY long time. I blame Erii's post about the Dentist

In another dream, I was at my Grams house and I kept missing phone calls because she had a telephone that flashed red instead of ringing for the hard of hearing. But then the dream gets all jumbled with another one.
What I recall of it is being at some bar/restaurant. The Land Cruiser was in the parking lot but it wouldn't move. I went out to put something away and berated myself because not only had I left the keys in the door, in another door hung the keys from my new car.
I was traveling somewhere and I worried about hubby finding the Land Cruiser.

Somehow all of that gets jumbled with yet another dream of me babysitting. One of the neighbors was a real ass and he came over to harass the little boy under my care about one thing or another. The boy was only about 6 or so. He just barged in and went to the boys room. I told him the boy was napping and that I wouldn't try waking him and that he needed to leave etc. He shook the boy awake and the boy promptly bloodied the mans nose
The man left, taking his little daughter with him (?) and the mom walked in and I started rambling off what happened. She was furious and went to the door to yell at him, but at that moment, his little girl fell and cracked her head on the sidewalk. Her dad was right there but we females still wanted to rush out and comfort the child, but we held back.

Which jumbles my memory further and I recall my parents at my Grams house. They were upset about something and had to travel a great distance to pick up my kids because my sisters car broke down (kids were with them). My dad raged on about how what goes around comes around and he might not give my sister and her hubby a ride home before bringing my crew back.

Which further jumbles with the dream from the bar/restaurant and someone asking who my hubby was and being shocked by the answer and more shocked by the age difference.

And then I recall having laid down on someone else's bed and I was certain I had been exposed to lice and I became highly annoyed.

I only slept for about 5 hours and it was definitely NOT good sleep.

I took a nap from around 5-10PM (some "nap" lol) and I had a dream worthy of recording.
It actually wasn't anything special but it left me with a good feeling when I woke.

It started out kind of strange. I watched the dream as I'd watch TV. There was a boy of about 10 and he was twirling around young, thin-ish trees. He'd run at them, jump, grab and then turn in circles until the tree was uprooted (they were growing on a sandy incline). Afterwards, something caught his eye (?) and he felt bad for his actions and wondering how many animal homes he had destroyed.
Then a hideous woman came along but he saw her as a young girl which melted the woman's heart. He picked her dandelions (?) before the flower stage and the pieces kept blowing away in the wind. He didn't notice, though, and the woman didn't mind.

Then he was going to make her "soup" and so he began gathering ingredients. She asked if she was free to leave whenever she wanted (she thought she was his captive?) and he said "I guess so... you're old enough." Implying he would have made her stay if she was younger but only because there were dangers in the woods.

Then the dream changed completely. I was there and there were 2 young boys. One of them found a Donald Duck Pez Dispenser and tried eating some of the candy still in it. I asked for the dispenser and began telling the boys what it was. I told them they had found something from when their fathers or grandfathers had been boys and that the Duck was of a cartoon- something you would watch on a thing called a television. I noticed an old fashioned TV in front of us and indicated it. I then told them about cartoons and indicated a nearby coloring book, telling them it was like that, only they moved around and talked etc.
They were in disbelief lol.
I went on to tell them about movies and how they made you feel anger, sadness, joy or hope or even terror.
They started looking bored lol and I woke up.

Before then though, I had some run of the mill dreams. In one, I was going to help my brothers ex move but I didn't want hubby finding out. I was driving the Land Cruiser for some reason. There was a thick blanket of snow on the ground and I turned around in the driveway, careful not to get hung up when I backed in the yard a bit. Then I realized I didn't have enough gas and that I would have to reschedule.
There was another dream before that one, but I've forgotten it.....