Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Pardon my french but, I AM NOT THE FUCKING BABYSITTER. I don't give a damn if I'm currently unemployed. That doesn't mean I want to watch two annoying-as-fuck kids all day long. I don't care if they're related to me. Maybe I want to go out drinking, hang with friends, or y'know, LOOK FOR A FUCKING JOB. I'm Sorry my aunt doesn't want to spend the money on a sitter, I'm not a fucking house-boy to be summoned at will. I have hobbies and projects and resumes to which I should very much like to attend. People should watch their own fucking kids...

I literally ask of nothing from anyone because I hate burdening people. So why do they constantly ask of me to do favors, to barrow my shit that means I'll never get back. They don't pay me either. Cut your own fucking hair. Dye your own fucking hair. Pay me for tattoos if I just fucking have to put a tattoo on you. Draw your own fucking pictures so you can bring it to a tattoo artist. Clean your own damn mess. And like the guy stated above, watch your own damn kid. Now everything I thought I like is just favors for everyone, so now it's all work that I hate. No more hobbies.

I have been feeling pretty detached and disinterested in things around me. I had a really great weekend, which made today so much dimmer by comparison. I hope to shake this soon.

I'm sick because my DOCTOR father cannot keep his goddamned germs to himself, you would think he would considering it's his goddamn job.
It's like he purposely tries to get other people sick, and that's not an exaggeration. Sneezing toward you, exhaling near your food, picking up food with bare hands etc.
I would hate him so much if I cared enough. He's just a dickhead.

On a lighter note, I am noticing a lot of people are getting more and more violent toward the injustices in this society, specifically government and corporations fucking everyone over. I really, really hope there is some sort of revolt soon, it seems to be going that way. I don't want societal collapse, but I want huge riots targeted toward the shitty people in government and the evil corporations.

Rave: I've been playing Xenoblade Chronicles so much to the point where I forget about sleep. My father is even concerned about this, but he assumes I'm just on the computer too much when I told him I'm just playing games on my Wii console. I haven't been this interested in a J-RPG game in so long. The storyline, it's just saturated with TV Tropes themes, motifs, etc. that I wanted to spend hours on TV Tropes just to know all of these concepts, and then find more and more and possibly forget that I need to sleep again.

I guess I have this huge interest because I didn't play any video games frequently for 2 years now. Maybe I might be bored again when I finish it, but I don't know, there's so much shit to do in this game. The storyline itself is at least 60 hours, excluding the fact of the hours of level you have to do, and the quests are probably another 30 hours or so, and to be a completionist in this, it's a least 120+ hours when you aren't used to the game.

Crazy, crazy, crazy! I haven't had this much fun since Twilight Princess that presumably took 100-200 to really unlock everything (I think that's was exaggerated by the Zelda Community)


Rant: I hate it when relatives that teach you how to drive tell you that you have to be calm and relaxed, and they're next to you barking more than a Sergeant at Boot Camp. I understand that you want me to be conscious of my environment and eventually become proficient in safe driving, but when your condescending voice keeps hammering my concentration, and you're asking me why I'm not doing a turn right, it's probably because I want to make us both crash (kidding).

I understand that people just want you to be safe, but there's a time where you're forgetting that person has to be able to practice what you're teaching without you being domineering. I get that if I'm not careful, I might run over a child, and that would be the end of me, I get that, just let me calm down and practice. We're at an empty parking lot at a school, there's no one for me to crash into, and I'm going to get this down because I just want to be able to drive already.

I guess another Rave is that my father is going to give me his jeep, and that I'm academically suspended. Yes, that's a Rave, because it's a lot better than being Academically dismissed. So I have 12 months to start thinking about what I want to do, and hopefully get a part-time job or something, or work in freelancing for commissions with drawing (in the general art community, and especially for the adult and fetish communities, because finding the right people who are horny enough to get their favorite preference/character(s) is easy money).

I just need to study how to advertise and get into freelancing and finding an actual job, and hopefully going to a community college and get my basic courses settled. I really should have taken my AP Government teacher's advice to do community college and find the credits that can be transferable. My father has been surprisingly calm since I admitted to him about me not doing well this semester, but I have to eventually tell him I'm suspended. It was bound to happen, so it'll just make him want me to find a game plan. Other than that, I managed to get 3 people interesting in doing a sub-lease for an apartment I have a contract with, hopefully I can go make another ad on Craigslist and other sites for anyone interested in taking over the lease.

That's a bit of wishful thinking, but either way, I'm glad I'm starting to do things that are realistic instead of being trapped in that apartment trying to survive college like any other person.

Had dreams....but my mind doesn't want to recall it, i think it's readying itself for a grand finale in the next few days... O_o

Feel like absolute crap. Cried for about 3 hours last night, didn't go to bed till one. Feel like a piece of shit and I know it's all my own fault and that makes me sad because I didn't mean to make this happen.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Feel like absolute crap. Cried for about 3 hours last night, didn't go to bed till one. Feel like a piece of shit and I know it's all my own fault and that makes me sad because I didn't mean to make this happen.

We all have regrets

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Feel like absolute crap. Cried for about 3 hours last night, didn't go to bed till one. Feel like a piece of shit and I know it's all my own fault and that makes me sad because I didn't mean to make this happen.

I started my new job recently so that's nice, it's not bad at all... have to work from 6-9pm today. Now I'll have some more money so I can go out with friends, have fun and pick up some ladies along the way. It's been too long since I had any cold hard cash.

Yesterday I cycled past my gym and had to cancel my subscription, goodbye kickboxing. Goodbye crazy-ex-military-pervert-bosnian-50yearsold-kickboxingteacher. Going to subscribe to a new one soon though, more hardcore. Time to take it to the next level. I dreamed about cancelling my subscription, it's still pretty hard to say goodbye since I knew a lot of people there and got along with nearly everyone.

Oh well, if there's one thing I've learned in the past year it's that you shouldn't fear change but instead embrace it.

I keep dreaming about smoking pot but it doesn't get me high.

I fucking hate that douche bag Kai, the Hatchet wielding, murdering, asshole. you know, we of the hitchhiking culture already take SO much flak. Either we're murderer's, rapists, drug addicts, or we are hippies that deserve no respect. People are already scornful and afraid of hitchers enough. SO, it really pisses me off that this guy would go, and bask in fifteen minutes of fame, and then go fucking murder a guy for "raping" him. Do you know how much harder it is going to be for the REST OF US now? A few more whore-sons like this and no one will ever pick up another hitcher again.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

I keep dreaming about smoking pot but it doesn't get me high.

I keep dreaming about it too for some reason, but it does get me really high, and it isn't fun because it's so intense.

I seem to keep having dreams about drugs lately, even though I don't have much experience with them in my life. Like last night, I had a dream that I was on some subscription medication, this yellow pill. When I took it I felt high in a way I never have before which is impossible to describe. Mainly I didn't care about anything.

Man I wish drugs could get me high in dreams. My friends say they wake up high. That'd be like a free high, with no risk of testing dirty. I try to get high in lucids all the time but either I can't find actual pot when I look for it (I'll find like a bag with hair in it instead) or it simply doesn't get me baked.

I do get aroused from sex though, and I can come when I have dream sex, which is why that's basically the only thing I do lucid.

I had a dream last night where I met a girl who was a cutter, and I wanted it too so badly. How is it even possible that the want for something I haven't done for a few years is almost completely undiminished? It's ridiculous.

You know, if I had to choose between going back to work today and being thrown into a closet full of angry cats...I might choose the cats.

Originally Posted by Amurehna

You know, if I had to choose between going back to work today and being thrown into a closet full of angry cats...I might choose the cats.

When given a choice between something and cats, always choose the cats.

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

When given a choice between something and cats, always choose the cats.

So if someone asked me which I hated more, cats or spiders, I'd have to go with cats. I kid, I kid.

You could always go with spider cats!

Originally Posted by Original Poster

I keep dreaming about smoking pot but it doesn't get me high.

Switch to ayahuasca. Got me high.

Originally Posted by Amurehna

You know, if I had to choose between going back to work today and being thrown into a closet full of angry cats...I might choose the cats.

Even the meanest cat is nicer than a bitchy boss. Go cats! Meow.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

You could always go with spider cats!

Oh my god. That's even more creepy than the dancing spider cow video on youtube. D=

I have a migraine, exam after lunch and I have to do it on a laptop, going to die. ._.

Got so disorientated before that I tripped over a speedbump... Umm. Oops?

So the girl I love is going to be away until like next Tuesday and I miss her already. Also my dream recall has been terrible lately!

Perhaps your emotional state affects your dream recall HoC. Here is my advice: GFTOW. Go find (or, you know the other F word) ten other women.

I'll spare you the wall of text and out my rant in spoiler thingies.

Spoiler for Rant on Words:

There are a couple of things that annoyed me today. As you might know, I live in Oklahoma, in the next town over from where the tornado devastated homes and took the lives of many.
One of the reps walks up to me and says "do you know if anyone in paint got jacked up?" It seemed like a really insensitive way to ask if anyone had lost their homes.
And then during the morning meeting someone used the words "all of you dealt with her" when referring to a woman who passed away as a result of the tornado.

I don't know about you, but "dealt with" sounds very negative. It bothers me that people don't think about the words and phrases they use. Words are very important.

Spoiler for Work rant:

AND yesterday, I get to work and we have a lot of freight. While we don't have customers yet because the roads are still blocked off, I've been busy all morning.
I stop for one minute to rant (haha) about how people don't listen to me when I tell them things. While I'm doing that, a customer walks up and sarcastically says "I can see you're working hard." Then makes the blabbing gesture with his hand.
One of my rage triggers is people accusing me of not doing my job just because I've stopped moving for 5 seconds.
What the hell? I mean, really? It isn't funny. It pisses me the hell off!!

Spoiler for Rant on Driving:

Yesterday on my way home, as I'm pulling up to the turn lane, this woman decides that she needs to pull in but she's trying to get there from a parking lot really close to the light.
So she ends up blocking one lane of traffic and trying to nose her way into the turn lane. Every time she edges forward, the white car in front of me clearly is saying "no" by edging forward itself.
She glances up and catches me stifling a laugh. I quickly pretend I'm not grinning at her misfortune, while still laughing on the inside.
When the light turns green I decide to do that lane a favor and let her in. Since she's too busy eating, it takes her several seconds to realize I'm waiting.

When she finally notices, she settles across the lane in front of me and waits to get into the furthest turn lane, all the while angrily saying something in my general direction.

Well, if you weren't stupid, you would have left the parking lot from the exit furthest from the light. Then people wouldn't laugh at you for driving like a moron.
Now, I've had my moments of glaring stupidity, but never while I'm driving. Why are people so rude?.