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There is a storm coming. Flooding is being considered a very realistic danger. I am preparing my home for the impact. It is a very cloudy, gray day outside. i am trying to lure all of the (stray?) dogs into my home. There is a man in uniform here momentarily. He is helping me, prepare of maybe just nudging me to hurry the preparations before the storm sets in good. I think he is a fireman. As he is leaving I go through the double garage doors to the stairs that lead to my home. I turn back and request that he shut the garage doors on his way out.
"There is a button near the top of the door inside. You can push it and still make it through the door in time."
I am starting to panic and become paranoid now. I'm worried that he won't close the door properly and wondering if I'll have enough time to do it myself.
Inside and out we prepare. Mom is here as well as Suzette. At least two times I notice a cigarette on the floor and consider smoking it. A single one. We stand at the side of the house where a chorus of electronic, chords and outlets are strewn about, plugged into the house. We are discussing weather or not to take them in the house. Which seems silly to me.
Every time I go into my house or some aspect of my house, I am put through this complicated entry process involving a computer with code, password, algorithm etc. I get confused every time I try and remember the entry yet I know that I know it. The entry is like an elevator with a lot of yellow, metal and glass.
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I am going down a familiar hallway in a familiar place.
Very cave like with stone.
Like the inside of a castle on Mario Land.
I go to take an elevator contraption to another area but jump on after it starts back down.
Now I am on the top of the elevator/lift contraption.
I remember thinking that it's okay if I die because I have an infinite number of lives here.
And as I descend with the lift, I begin to wonder if it will hurt.
Just as I'm starting to worry, we take a sharp stop then turn.
The lift is now traveling horizontally.
The walls of the shoot are like mining tunnels.
All packed dirt, stone and wooden beam.
I see that up ahead I'm going to run into something that will surely mangle and kill me.
"But it's okay," I think to myself, "because I have more lives. But will it hurt?"
I begin to feel the pressure of this vague obstacle coming down upon me, squeezing the life from me. No pain.
Bar, Kendall, Red Outfit, Abs, Jessica/Squeaky, car, fast food.
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I am dressed in all red. I have on a red headband, top and sweater.
We are in a dark bar.
There are three or four of us.
Two of them separate the third, Kendall, and at the bar.
We sit on the stools of the long, dark wooden bar.
We sit and converse and joke around.
We are all good friends.
I have a feeling the other two are also friends from college.
I say something regarding how I have a history of dating/sleeping with men who have nice abs.
It is directed at Kendall of course.
We discuss how we are glad to be in here as opposed to out there.
I am in a car with my niece, Jessica.
We are going to get some food.
When we get out of the car, we are cornered by two guys that seem to know her.
Jessica is now her mother, my sister, Squeaky.
She's flirting with them.
I am aware of my body language.
I try to avoid sending any signals these men might confuse as attraction/interest.
I don't feel like being social at all.
I took 1000mg of valerian root last night and found myself venturing about various locations of my dreamworld. Places I don't remember being in a long time. Going to take 500mg tonight along with a few other things...
...Been doing a lot of scoping around the DV forums and this choline stuff keeps popping up. Then I found this thread about peanut butter and the amazing (although slightly inconsistent) results many were getting. So I did some research and found out I just happen to possess three of the highest choline having foods in existence; Flaxseed, soy lecithin and wheat germ. The wheat germ was the big score. 100 mg in half a cup. You might be wondering why I have these odd things. I'm a part-time vegan so I have a lot of weird shit like that.
Anywhoo. I think I'll take a combo of the three; 1 gram of lecithin, 1 ounce of flax and a tablespoon of wheat germ. Which should pump at least 35-40 mg of choline into my sleeping body.
Whee!
Took four 500 mg valerian root capsules last night. Had some incredibly detailed and vivid dreams. Tonight I'll be trying out 1000 mg. Waited too long to journal so much of it was lost but here's what I got.
Kenny wants to know if I have any money.
He offers to give me some.
I am humbled and I try to refuse,
but he insists.
I am debating which clothes to wear.
I feel as if I traveled to various places on my dream map tonight;
The school
The theater
The forest
The park.
There is a male here who is interested in me.
I think it's attraction he's feeling.
Tyson is there when I wake up (in dream).
He says he's been talking shit about me,
but he won't tell me what.
My dad is here now.
He has offerings of weed.
Handed to me in the scarab box.
I am humbled.
I am very happy.
I am in the school.
A section that I am familiar with.
The intersectional space where the hallway meets with the large gym and cafeteria.
I think that I'm preparing for a journey/trip.
I remember thinking about how I'll be able to buy food with the money Ken gave me.
I get up
Groggily feel my way to the bathroom,
wading through piles of clothes and whatnot.
I sit down to pee.
And I'm peeing,
and peeing,
and peeing,
and peeing.
Forever I am peeing!
I say to myself.
"This is definitely a dream. No reality check needed."
I get excited and
*like someone turned on a large vacuum and aimed it at my body.
I was back in bed.
Wide awake.
And I still had to pee badly.