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My dream recall is still quite bad, but from time to time I still have a vivid lucid fortunately.

I wake up.
I'm in bed at my parents place, and immediately I notice that something feels completely off.
I get up and investigate my surroundings.
Most of my stuff is missing. I used to have a tv here, and an old computer I turned into a fileserver.
All of that, including my desk, all of it is gone.
Everything feels sort of dull and grey, like I'm not really aware.

Awareness? I wonder if I'm dreaming. Yes! I must be!
I rub my hands. Weird, doing so feels very vivid and intense, why is everything so grey?
I decide it is not the dream that is not vivid/stable, but that my room isn't lit properly.
I open the window of my room wanting to jump out.

What is this? Everything is so green. I am in a tropical forest.
What is my parents house doing in a tropical forest?
I jump down to investigate further.
There are small lakes everywhere and the air is very fresh.
I follow one of the lakes enjoying the nice air, feeling the wind on my skin and looking at the sun rays shining through the leaves of the trees covering the sky.
Somehow I feel attracted to a specific location not far away.

Once I get there I find a caterpillar on a big leaf.
It is very colorful and excited.
Why do I know it is excited? I can clearly feel it.
I approach it and look at it very closely.
It's moving to the edge of the leaf and lets itself hang down from the edge.

It quickly transforms into a chrysalis.
How interesting, will I see it transform into a butterfly?
I can feel excitement yet again. But it is not my excitement, it is the one of the caterpillar.
It becomes clear to me that I can somehow feel what the caterpillar is feeling.
It is afraid. Afraid because it knows it's whole body is about to be turned upside down, all it's organs rearranged.
But this feeling is completely overwhelmed by the excitement of becoming a butterfly, and being able to fly.

As it's body starts transforming, the soon to be butterfly is starting to dream.
It dreams about being a butterfly and flying through the skies.
It is no longer worried, just extremely excited.
At some point I think about telling it to control its excitement, or else it might wake up.
But then I realize I wouldn't know how to do that.

The butterfly wakes up, knowing that the metamorphosis is completed.
It emerges from the chrysalis and spreads its wings.
They are very beautiful, with very strong tones of orange red and yellow.
Even though the butterfly is so excited to fly, it has to wait until its wings are hardened.

Once they are, the butterfly takes off and flies high off into the sky.
It immediately knows how to fly and how to be a butterfly, even though it was a caterpillar all its life.

Been pretty sick lately and my dream recall hasn't been very good.
I had quite a few dreams, some lucid, but the lack of details made them feel unworthy of posting.

I'm walking on the promenade in Haven on Teraluna.
Enjoying the fresh air, I walk towards one of the main streets on my way to Yuya's place.
On the main street I go up a level, ending up one level below the topmost one, with all the houses and apartments.
This level features mostly shops and restaurants, I sometimes come here with Yuya for dinner.
It's dusk, so the city is quite lively.

I pass a shop that sells flowers and I wonder if I should buy some for Yuya.
They're all on display outside, so I wander a bit around having a look at the different kinds of flowers.
Some don't look like flowers at all, and some are clearly alive.
They're all very beautiful and they have a distinct smell.
I suddenly realize that I have no money, how am I going to pay for these?

Wait, what? WTF! I'm on Teraluna! How did I not notice that I'm dreaming?
This surprises me quite a bit and it takes me a few seconds to settle down.
The dream feels very stable and vivid, but I still rub my hands and try to feel the presence of my surroundings to make
that the dream remains perfectly stable.

Looking back at the flowers I see one that is immensely beautiful.
The colors somewhat match those of Yuya's eyes, I feel they would be an appropriate gift.
I ask the lady selling the flowers:

"Would you be willing to trade something for these flowers?"
"Haha, of course young man, what did you have in mind?"

I summon my phoenix wings on my left arm and remove one of the smaller colorful feathers from it.
They fall out occasionally, it'll grow back.
I hand it to the lady.

"How beautiful! Please, take the flowers, thank you!"

That went well.
I take the flowers and continue walking towards Yuya's place.
I think about how this dream started on Teraluna, even though I was non-lucid.
Then I realize I'm wasting time.
I can see a bridge crossing from this street to another one on the level above me, I'll be able to see Yuya's place from there.
I blink on top of it, and from there I blink to Yuya's place.

Yuya greets me, telling me that I'm right on time. Did we set a meeting?
I hand her the flowers.

"They're for you."

She seems extremely happy. I am yet again surprised by the way she shows her emotions.
She simply doesn't hold back at all. It feels so pure, I've never seen anyone with such a happy expression in waking life.
Yuya puts the flowers in some sort of vase.
I notice that the dream doesn't feel as stable anymore, and I attempt to re-stabilize which succeeds.

"Alright, I promised you we'd visit the library, let's go!"

The library? Did we talk about this in a previous dream?
Maybe a dream that I cannot remember?
Clearly, I can't recall such a dream, but I am convinced that we did indeed decide to visit a library somewhere on Teraluna.
It must have been a lucid dream I do not remember.
I get ready to draw my wings but Yuya interrupts me.

"Let's fly there! We shouldn't teleport into the library, we might disturb someone."
"Sure, lead the way!"

I take off and fly next to Yuya, trying to keep up.
She's accelerating fast, I can't keep up without summoning my wings.
I remember that in my last big fight I managed to summon my phoenix wings on my back, in full size.
I wonder if I can do that again and use them for fast flight, just the way I've been using my dragon fire wings until now.

I try to accumulate some of that pure energy and manage to draw the wings on my back.
They're very beautiful and very large. They feel somewhat oversized for my body.
It is VERY easy to fly at high speed with them, much easier than with the dragon wings.
We quickly break the sound barrier and everything becomes very calm.

This is the first time I'm really exploring other parts of Teraluna, usually I just stay in Haven.
It is beautiful!
There are very high and complex trees growing directly out of the sea.
They must be over a kilometer high each.
We slow down and fly down, through the crowns of the trees.
It is difficult to navigate them due to their complexity.

There are waterfalls in the crowns as well, I wonder where they come from, are the trees emitting water?
We go lower and lower and finally fly through a maze of waterfalls leading to a spectacular entrance.
The entrance is absolutely huge. Fortunately it opens by itself.
Inside there are the same angel statues as in the entrance to Haven.
As I pass under them I feel myself passing through a forcefield.
Makes sense, the library must be protected as well.

I enter the library in amazement, the bookshelves reach into all eternity.
There is literally no end to them. Even zooming in they seem to go on forever.
The library is very well lit, everything is very bright and white.
The shelves are mostly made out of glass.
Materials feel very modern, but some shapes remind me of the Victorian era.

Yuya explains what the different kinds of books are and we wander around a bit.
She shows me quite a few things which I unfortunately cannot quite remember.
Then we come to a rather special shelf.
Yuya tells me there's 1001 books in this shelf.
They all seem very old, and they are huge.
Nearly 1 meter high and very thick, probably 1000 pages each.

They feel very special, there's is something about them that really intrigues me.

"Are we allowed to touch them?"
"Of course, just be gentle, they are very old."

I pick the first of them, it's very heavy.
I gently deposit it on a reading table and open the first page.
The pages are so old... they feel like papyrus, and you can actually see how the paper was weaved.
Everything in them is hand written and hand drawn. They are not printed copies.
It feels sort of amazing touching such an old book, plus the smell is very nice.
The title of the first page is in a language I do not know.
The letters are formed by geometric shapes, but somehow I am able to understand it.

This book is about the beginning... the beginning of... everything?
They all are! Those 1001 books, is this the story of this universe?
The story of the dream plane?

"Yes, they are, are you able to read it?"
"I'm not sure. I cannot understand the individual words or letters, but somehow I understand some of it."

I randomly try to read the first few lines at the beginning of some chapters.
The first one talks about there being nothing but energy.
Some chapters further they talk about the first gods.
I honestly have no idea how I'm understanding any of this.
The numerous images and illustrations help though.

The language used to write these is very powerful though.
A single word carries much more meaning than any languages in waking life.
Considering this, needing 1001 books to describe the history of the dream plane...
it just feels impossible like any single person could ever know the whole story.

"True, but it's not finished yet."
"Not all books have been written yet, after all we're still living the story written in these books."
"Then why are there exactly 1001 books?"
"Because exactly 1001 books are needed to tell the story."
"But, does that mean the dream plane will end once you reach the 1001st book?"
"Not only the dream plane, the planes cannot exist on their own, they all exist together."

I'm very surprised, it is known when existence will end?

"Hyu... the dream plane has existed for eternities, long before Earth was created, long before your universe was formed."
"That being said, we've barely filled 400 books."
"We cannot even comprehend for how long things have existed until now, so there is no reason to worry about any ending."
"True..."

I browse through some more pages in amazement.
Somehow I understand that this language is very ancient and was meant to be universal.
I think I am able to interpret some of it due to the divine phoenix powers, but I'm not sure.
I end up getting lost in thoughts and wake up...

I am walking aimlessly over a big field.
Something feels completely wrong.
I can't quite put my finger on it, but I am a bit scared.
Somehow the whole experience is a bit frightening even though it shouldn't be.
I have a feeling like the color is being drawn out of the world.
I don't like this at all.

Fortunately I then realize that I'm dreaming, but that scares me even more...
Usually whenever I get that sort of nightmare feeling, which I have right now,
it goes away immediately after I become lucid, but this time, it doesn't.

Suddenly, I feel a very scary presence behind me.
I am nearly too afraid to turn around to face it, but I end up doing it.
There's a man. Even though he's dressed in white, he's dark... so very dark.
It's his presence, it is his urge to kill me, I can feel it... so strongly.

He's wearing a white and silver armor with a white coat and he is wielding a very large polearm.
He approaches me slowly.
Why am I so afraid of him?

He calls me by a name that I do not know, but it is clearly meant for me, and I have no doubt that I am the person he is looking for.
He also calls me a dragon and a dream warrior and claims he is a paladin himself.

"You shall die by my hand in the name of the lord."

I am so fucking scared. I don't know what to do, I feel completely helpless.
He takes his polearm and charges me. FUCK!

Somehow my body reacts by itself.
The dragon within me awakens, or rather explodes. I have never powered up even remotely this fast.
I instinctively summon my katana trying to block the inevitable hit.

I black out for a second as he hits me...

The land is on fire. I am fully charged up. My aura burns, the sky is red and the clouds are burning.
I am so afraid, afraid to die. I don't care if I use too much power, I just want to survive somehow.
He keeps attacking me relentlessly, and I am only barely able to dodge and block his hits. Everything happens so fast.
The moves I use are not my own, my body reacts instinctively, and I know if I interrupt this I will die, if I think, I will die.

"Do you know how we kill dragons?"

He activates some device on his polearm and my katana dematerializes in my hand and rematerializes in a holster attached to his polearm.

"You dragons are helpless without your weapons."

Fuck... FUCK!
He walks towards me slowly. He knows without my katana I don't stand a chance, there's no need for him to rush.
I'm so afraid.
In my desperation I call out into the fabric of space and scream as loudly as I can:

"YUYA!!!"

He's getting closer and closer, just a few more steps.
Finally, he strikes, slowly...

But right before his polearm hits me, I hear the sound of a metallic collision.
I look up. Another man is standing in front of me, blocking the polearm with his sword.
He looks at me over his shoulder.
I know this man. I know him so well...

Silver! It is Silver! A man from my childhood dreams, a friend in combat, just like Yuya and Selene.
Then I see Yuya, she is here as well. They must have arrived at the same time.
However, they clearly appeared independently, because Yuya is quite surprised to see Silver and even calls out his name in amazement.

Silver looks at me.

"Fight!"

What a simple word, but such complexity behind it.
Suddenly I am no longer afraid. I am no longer alone.
The nightmare feeling disappears and the paladin takes a few steps back.

"You're friends of the dragon. All of you will die. No one opposes the lord."

Silver puts a hand on my shoulder:

"He's a paladin. Paladins kill dragons."
"Now take back your sword, you have the power to cast it into the void."

I order my katana to be cast back into the fabric of space and summon it again, and sure enough I'm holding it in my hand.
The paladin doesn't seem too surprised, he's confident that he can take on all three of us at the same time.

"Well done dragon. By asking your friends for assistance you have signed their death warrant."
"Dragons are horrible creatures. How you are able to make friends is beyond me, all of you must die."

I am angry. He is blinded by his beliefs, he has no idea what it means to be a dragon.
He is committing genocide without understanding anything.

"You are but a fool following a false god."
"A man who only believes but does not try to understand is nothing."

The paladin seems furious because I called his lord a false god.

Even with the power of all 3 of us combined, we only seem to be on even terms.
But it feels just like old times, like in my childhood dreams where I would fight together with Yuya Silver and Selene.
We fight together so well, like a perfect choreography.
Silver and I both use our swords and direct energy attacks, whereas Yuya uses her water magic.
But somehow, it just isn't enough.

Yuya is clearly struggling, and I am very worried for her. If something happens to her it will be my fault.

"First I will kill your girl. I will kill her slowly. And I will make you watch."

I can see fear in Yuya's eyes after hearing that.

Suddenly, my mind is blank.
I am calm. Perfectly calm.
It is the calm you experience when your anger is so strong that somehow you drop back into a state of calm.

"Stop."

Silver and Yuya stop, not doubting my request for a second.
I drop my katana to the ground and cancel all of my dragonic energy.

"You fool. Are you sacrificing your self?"
"There is but one fool here."

I power back up, but not on dragonic energy.
I use the same energy I use to summon my phoenix wings, a much more pure and divine power.
My phoenix wings appear, but not on my hand this time.
They appear on my back and they are huge and colorful.
This power is so very different from the dragonic one.

I look into the paladins eyes and take a step forward.
For some reason I am right in front of him now, I have no idea how I managed to approach him so fast,
and clearly neither does he.
With my right hand I reach into the body of the paladin and grab onto his very soul and pull it out.
It feels like an ability I can only use if I truly believe that a person deserves to die, if there is no doubt whatsoever in my mind.
His body drops to the ground dead.

I look into the eyes of the helpless soul I hold in my hand.

"Wherever you may go, let it be known that if anyone in the whole of existence threatens my love again, I will hunt them down."
"I don't care if they are paladin, I don't care if they are king or even if they are god. I will hunt them to beyond the planes of existence and I will crush them with my bare hands."

I watch his soul burn away in purple flames as I crush it with my hand.
My anger finally disappears.
I can't believe how angry I just was.

I hold out my hand to Silver and he shakes it.

"Thank you."
"So long."

He turns around and vanishes.
He has always been a man of few words and I have a feeling I will not see him again anytime soon.

The rest of my memories of this dream are quite foggy.
Why did I call Yuya "my love"?
Was she really my lover, or did I love her as a friend I trust with my life?

This was also remarkably scary for a lucid at first, but it turned out quite amazing.

A few months ago I had to design an "innovative" game as some sort of homework.
Even though I had a good idea, I couldn't figure out one of the key elements in the game.
I thought about it a lot and randomly ended up having a lucid dream where I actually was in the game I designed.

To my surprise, the problematic element in questions was already fixed in a rather brilliant way, which I thought was absolutely awesome.
Since then I've been meaning to test if I can actively use lucid dreaming to sort of overcome similar hurdles, where I'm lacking the creativity to solve a certain problem.


I wake up.
I try not to move and close my eyes, trying to remember any dreams.
Oddly enough, my mind is blank, I feel like something is preventing me from thinking clearly.
I find this rather weird and decide to get up.
Grabbing my dream notebook I notice that the currently open page is not empty.
Did I write something down during the night? I can't remember doing so.

I have a hard time deciphering the text in my notebook, which Isn't very unusual since I often take notes with the lights off if I wake up during the middle of the night.
Suddenly the text seems clear. It says:

"Fireflies in the Sky. Wake up!"

It's written in very beautiful old fashioned style.
I can't have written this! My handwriting is horrible!
What does this even mean?

Then I get it... I'm dreaming!
Fireflies? Huh? Oh well, the wake up note was useful.

I rub my hands.
For once I try to remember if I set myself any goals for lucid dreams, which is something I always forget to do.
I try to think of the current task of the month, but then I remember it's already June and I haven't checked what the current Totm is.
Then I remember the dream where I solved my game design issue and that I wanted to try if I can do something like that voluntarily.

I decide that I want to create a game right now, but I want my subconscious to design it for me.
An exploration adventure type of game in a mysterious world, that's what I want to create!
Something sort of like a modern Myst game.

I summon my Phoenix wings and try to teleport, thinking of these key aspects, but it doesn't work.
I strongly feel like this type of teleportation only works if I have a specific location in mind.
Maybe I should try another form of teleportation.
I think about opening the door in my room, hoping for the finished game to be behind it, but decide against it.
I know what lies behind this door too well, I doubt it would work like that.

I should use a portal!
Using my right index and middle finger I draw a big circle on one of the walls in my room.
Even though the borders of it clearly form and start glowing, the inside is still solid.
This is not working quite right.
Then I remember that KristaNicole uses portals in a different way.
She writes the name of the destination or the person she wants to meet on the portal before opening it.
I decide to try that.

I make the tip of my index and middle finger glow and use them to write onto the portal:

"Explore"
"Adventure"
"Mystery"

I rest my palm on the wall and try to push against it with some energy.
The text I've written glows and the wall within the boundary of the portal disappears.
I'm now standing in front of a portal with a bright blue/white glowing border with very dark purple void inbetween.
Sweet! I step through the portal.



I fall out upside down on the other side, in my usual fashion.
I'm really not very good at portals...
Noticing that I am now outdoors, I look around trying to figure out where I am:


What the heck, I know this place!
Of course! This is once of the worlds in Myst IV!
I'm amazed at first that what I tried sort of worked, but a bit disappointed that I didn't end up in a new game.

Another portal opens and Yuya jumps out.
I am actually very surprised by that. I usually go to her, not the other way around.
Plus, am I not in my own dream bubble? can she enter my dreams like that?
Then I remember that she's actually done it before.

"Silly Hyu."
"You gave me permission to enter your dreams a long time ago."

She's probably right. Why would I not? I love having her around.

"It's amazing what the human mind can do, isn't it?"
"Yes, it absolutely is, though this isn't exactly what I've tried to accomplish."
"Are you so sure about that?"
"Well... this is a world from Myst."

"Are you suggesting that your subconscious accessed the game data to generate this world?"
"Well, no. That would be silly."
"Yes. In other words this isn't a perfect copy of the Myst world."
"How long has it been since you've played that game?"
"Quite a few years actually."
"Yes. Do you really think this world is in any way identical to the world in Myst?"
"Well. No. Probably not. But it feels the same way."
"Exactly. But you still created this world. Your subconscious decided where the mountains go, which way the rivers flow..."

Suddenly I'm not really disappointed anymore. She's absolutely right, I created this, it totally worked.
I point my hand at a spot on the ground and try to grow a tree with my mind.
A small plant pops out of the ground and slowly grows into a fully grown tree.

"Holy shit! This is awesome!"

Yuya smiles.

"Directly shaping things is quite amazing, yes, but what is much more amazing is what your subconscious can generate using just 3 words."
"The conscious mind is quite limited. Sure, you can create any object and design any aspect of it."
"But your subconscious can create infinite worlds on the fly, with millions of objects, every single one designed down to the last detail."

"If I wanted to, could I change this world into another one?"
"Sure, if you let your subconscious do it for you."
"How do I do that?"

"You either request something very specific, a place you know or have seen somewhere,"
"or you request a world that gives you a certain feeling, which is sort of what you did to create this world."
"Yes, but how do I actually change it? Do I create another portal?"
"You can use a portal, but you don't need to, you can simply use your willpower."

Holy shit! Would that really work? That would be so awesome!

"Okay, I'll try!"

I point both of my hands at the sky, and think of the Tron movie.
I want to create a world similar to the grid!

"No. Don't try. Do or do not!"

I know that she's absolutely right, but it's easier said than done.
But I do know that when she says it's possible, it really is.
She has no reason to lie to me, I fully trust her.

I close my eyes, releasing tiny bits of energy through my hands into the sky.
I think of the atmosphere of the new Tron movie, of the lightcycles, of the Grid.
As I open my eyes again, I hear Daft Punk playing in the background, but the volume is very low.

Holy shit! I am on the Grid!
There's blue neon stripes everywhere, I can see skyscrapers in the background, some type of rocks floating in the sky.
It's just like in the movie. It's in the same style, it has the same atmosphere to it, but it's not a location that was in the movie.
I turn to Yuya in excitement.

"Did you see that??? I did that!"

She starts laughing.

"Yes Hyu, I know."

A lightcycle appears and stops right in front of us.
A women gets off, and as she takes her helmet off I immediately recognize her: It's Olivia Wilde / Quorra.


She starts approaching me and Yuya says jokingly:

"I think your subconscious likes Olivia Wilde."

No kidding Yuya, guess who my conscious mind likes as well...
This could turn into a rather awkward situation.
Olivia stops in front of us and says smiling:

"Yes, I think your subconscious really does."

I smile, and try to act unsurprised and not too excited that she is here...
But looking into her beautiful and bright eyes I have to think about how attractive she is and fail miserably at acting unsurprised.

Reading my thoughts, Yuya starts laughing out loud.
She finds it absolutely hilarious that such situations make me uncomfortable, and I find it quite silly that I do.

Olivia asks me:

"Do you want to go for a ride?"

Suddenly I get extremely excited.
Yuya says "Ha. Try to catch up!", creates her own lightcycle and drives off.
I follow Olivia to her lightcycle, getting more and more excited.
I sit behind her, and hold onto her for support.
She smells nice...

As we drive off, my vision blacks out. Fuck! I got too excited!
I desperately try to stabilize the dream. I want to ride a lightcycle with Olivia!!
But it fails, and I wake up.

I'm hanging out in Haven with Yuya and Liv, but the dream isn't very vivid and I feel groggy.
We're standing at some table, and I don't really know what's going on. How did I get here again?
I'm not feeling adventurous at all, which is weird.

Yuya notices this and approaches me.
I feel uneasy and nervous as she is standing very close to me.

She gives me a kiss on my cheek.
Suddenly, I feel the urge to breathe, as if I had forgotten to do so for the past few minutes.
As I breathe in, I get a massive shock of vividness and awareness.
Colors become vibrant and burn into my eyes. I start to hear what is going on around me.
It feels like every nerve in my body just turned on, I can feel everything!
As if I was in a coma, and somebody just woke me up.
I knew I was in Haven, I knew I was with Yuya and Liv, but it is only know that I truly realize what this means.
I've experienced this sensation a few times, but it remains as impressive as the first time.

"Holy shit!"
"Indeed."

Yuya laughs.
I look at my hands, I can feel every single tiny hair on my hand and fingers, as the wind gently brushes through them.
I quickly investigate my surroundings because I'm hearing music.
The 3 of us are standing at a table with different drinks on it. There are other tables with other people as well, it appears that we're at some kind of party or celebration.
There's a band playing many different string instruments, so that's where the music is coming from.
I really like the music, it's mostly cinematic music, very dramatic, but also full of energy and very pleasant.

Yuya hands both Liv and me drinks, they look like shots.
Liv doesn't seem to trust her drink, she's investigating it carefully.
Yuya and I pour ours down. It burns a bit in my throat, the drinks are very strong.
But they're very good. Liv finally drinks a shot as well and seems quite surprised.

"What wonderful liquid is this?"

Yuya and I have to laugh, and we continue having a good time and having drinks. Liv is such an innocent girl.
I clearly feel that I'm getting drunk, and I do so faster than I should.
After just 3 shots I can already clearly feel the effect, but the dream remains extremely vivid.

"Yuya... how come dreams feel more real than waking life?"

She smiles.

"In waking life, it feels like I'm on autopilot the whole time. I do not see the beauty of my everyday life, everything seems boring and normal even though it really isn't."
"Why does it feel like I'm asleep in waking life and awake in my dreams... awake right now?"

After some thinking Yuya replies.

"In waking life, you are busy thinking about a million things at the same time."
"You might not realize most of what's going on, but you subconscious continuously tries to solve all the problems of your life."
"There is simply not enough room to think about your surroundings the way you do right now."

As always, Yuya's explanation makes a lot of sense, but I still feel like I'm missing something.

"Well... I simplified it quite a bit... it is quite complex, I don't know how to put it in words..."

She puts her drink down and puts her hands around my neck. She then presses her forehead against mine an closes her eyes.
Our thoughts merge for a second and I catch a glimpse of the proper explanation.
But I can't understand it, it feels like it goes beyond the limits of my imagination.
I do understand the conclusion though, and I feel like it makes more sense now.

As Yuya opens her eyes I get lost in their beauty.
I'll never get used to such beauty, to such infinite detail.
Usually, I'd start feeling insecure and look away, because I know I'm streaming my thoughts towards Yuya, and she'll immediately realize that I'm thinking about how beautiful she is.
But I'm drunk, and I keep looking for a bit as she smiles...

"I feel funny!"

Both of us look back at Liv, she seems to have had quite a few shots while we were distracted.

"Liv, are you drunk?"
"Huh? I don't know."
"Have you never had any alcohol?"
"Uuuuuh, I don't think so?"

You can tell by the way she moves that she's really drunk.
I have trouble avoiding to laugh out loud, but I got a funny idea.

"Liv, tell us a funny story!"

Yuya is about to crack up.

"I'm way too insecure to tell you anything shameful!!!"

But she continues anyways.

"So... you know how I seduce people in their dreams to leech some of their energy?"
"Well... see, when a succubus seduces someone, she awakens the natural sexual urges within that person, but blocks out the thought of having sex..."
"This way you get lost in a state where you're extremely aroused, but you won't do anything..."
"But err... apparently not everyone is... interested in the same things?"
"There was this guy, about a year ago... he casually started to get his dick out... I thought I had forgotten to block his sex thoughts at first... but I didn't!"
"He proceeded to try to FUCKING PEE ON ME. I mean, can you believe this shit?"
"What is wrong with people???"

This is too much.
Yuya and I burst out laughing. We both have to hold on to the table to avoid falling to the ground.
Liv, the shy succubus, that fact alone is funny enough as it is, but hearing her tell this story because she's drunk, it's just too funny.
All three of us can't stop laughing... I can feel the dream fade away, but I can't stop.

I'm on Teraluna.
Yuya is teaching me about dream bubbles, or temporary dimensions like she calls them.
We've done this before, but this time she's telling me how to create a completely customized bubble, with my own rules at will.
She's explaining that using the 'natural bubble' we spawn in when we dream requires little to no energy, but it is also impossible to fully control.
We can definitely influence it to a great extend, but the control is limited.

Creating a custom bubble whilst in the dream plane requires a lot of energy, and it is fully customizable, but unfortunately they are very small and somewhat limited in features.
You can create a simple room, and apply some rules to this room, but you cannot create a beautiful outdoors environment for example.

The idea is quite basic, create a custom room and apply the rule "create gradually more powerful monsters attacking myself".
According to Yuya this is a rather high level training method, and quite effective.
Not only do you have to stay alive, but you also have to keep the dream bubble up, which requires a high degree of concentration.
Maintaining such concentration during a battle is very hard.

I don't understand how it works, but I somehow understand how to do it.
It's quite complex and requires delicate energy manipulation and a lot of willpower.
You have to fade into the new dimension at the same time you're creating it, it is a very weird and confusing experience.
My first few attempts are quite unstable, and the dream bubble breaks twice.
When it breaks I simply fall out from the spot I created it.
But then I get a feeling for it, and suddenly it seems very straightforward.

I am fighting waves of increasingly more powerful monsters, using my dragonic powers and my katana.
Even though the monsters are very realistic, there is no blood or anything.
When I slice through one, it simply fades away.

I'm trying to push myself to the limit, to see how powerful I truly am.
My own aura causes massive vibrations throughout my body, it feels great!
I move at an incredible speed, and the heat of my aura leaves burning trails behind me.
The dragon tattoo is fully grown and glowing in a bright blue.
Even though when I fully focus, time progresses so slovely I can time every one of my movements perfectly,
I still occasionally manage to move so quickly that my mind cannot keep up.
It's a fantastic experience.

I'm at my limit, I cannot keep up with the monsters anymore, at this point I'm just reacting instinctively to stay alive.
One scorpion like monster manages to pierce me with its tail.
It feels really cold for a split second, then the dimension disappears and I fall back to Teraluna.
I check my chest, I haven't hurt myself, this really is an amazing way to train!

... I'm now at Yuya's place.
I'm exhausted and we go to bed... I feel myself falling asleep very quickly...
I know this feeling from waking life. The numbness of my body, the heavy blanket feeling, the lightheadedness, I'm beginning to dream!

I am floating through darkness. I do not have a body, I am pure energy.
A scene starts to form around me.
The ground is volcanic, there are small crates everywhere and colorful plasma is streaming out of them.
There are a few lava streams as well.
I realize I cannot be on a planet. The horizon has no curvature and there is no atmosphere, I can see directly into space even though it is daytime.
Somehow this place feels oddly familiar.

I feel a presence behind myself and turn around, I am still floating in the air.
A white and blue dragon approaches me. He is very beautiful but also very fear inducing.
He has two pairs of insanely large Wings, and two tails with white blades on them.
He stops right in front of me, gazing into my eyes.
His voice is deep and so strong it is resonating in my body.

"You are Dragon!"

I am surprised by this statement, even though people call me Dragon all the time.
I always figured I was somehow using dragonic abilities, but I never considered being an actual dragon.

"I use the powers of a Dragon."
"No. You are Dragon. Always."
"You were born Dragon. Appearances are irrelevant. You are Dragon!"
"I am here because you need to know this."
"You are near the age of waking. When you do, your powers will fully awaken."

His presence is absolutely overwhelming, I feel that whatever question I would ask would be inappropriate.

"Thank you."
"Remember... you are Dragon... ALWAYS."
"Yes."

I wake up in my bed at home. I want to tell Yuya about this dream, but when I turn around I realize my mistake.
I am not on Teraluna, I am at home... I just woke up... stupid me.
I take some quick notes but then my eyes start to itch.
Rubbing my eyes, I walk to the bathroom to check in the mirror if I have something in them.

I am shocked when I see myself in the mirror. My eyes are glowing lightly... The same way Yuya's eyes do, the same way mine do when I look at myself in a mirror on Teraluna.
What is happening???
I am Dragon... always? Shit... this can't be!
I turn around to look at my back in the mirror, searching for the dragon tattoo which I know cannot be there.
But there it is...
It is not fully formed yet, my skin is bleeding in the spots where the dragon tattoo is in my dreams, and it is slowly being filled with color.
Holy shit... am I really a Dragon? Am I awakening?
I can't decide if I should be amazed or be worried about the consequences this would have on my future life.

But then I realize that I'm wrong.
Of course... I am still dreaming, holy shit!

I wake up again, this time for real.

I'm trying to exit my room, but for some reason, opening the door requires an abnormal amount of force.
I realize that I'm dreaming and the door suddenly gives in and acts normally.
Ha, how weird.

For some reason I remember one of KristaNicole's recent DJ entries, where she RC'ed by counting her fingers.
I never do that, I wonder if my finger count would be correct?
I look at my hands, and although they look normal, I do count 6 fingers on my left hand.
Wait.... what am I doing? I should try to visit her!

I summon my phoenix wings and search for her aura, which surprisingly, I find immediately.
I take a step through the fabric of space and find myself in an unknown building.
At first I have a feeling that I don't belong here, but it immediately goes away.
I look around trying to find Krista.

I notice that my surroundings make little sense, something is just off.
When I look at a shelf, then away, and back to the shelf, it looks completely different.
I'm getting distracted again... I try to sense Krista's presence and approach it.
Then I finally spot her behind some sort of desk, but it changes shape whenever I don't concentrate on it.

I understand that this is the shop she has mentioned a few times in her DJ.
She's dreaming, but she most likely isn't lucid.
I approach her, wondering how I should make her become lucid.
I think about projecting the thought directly into her head, like I do with Yuya sometimes, but it feels wrong, like it would be invading her privacy.
For some reason I also feel that I can't just tell her she's dreaming, she has to figure it out on her own.

As I stand in front of her, she looks at me and clearly finds my appearance quite weird.
No wonder, I'm just wearing loose white pants and nothing else.

"Can I help you?"
"Hi Krista."
"... do we know each other?"
"Of course we do... even though we have never met."
"..."
"It's weird, isn't it, you didn't even see me come in."
"... err"

I hold out my right hand.

"How would you like to go on an adventure with me?"

Krista looks at her hands. Yes! she's doing an RC.
She looks back at me astonished, then she looks at my hand, clearly pondering whether or not she should take it.
I act all confident, like I knew exactly what I was doing just now to make her become lucid,
even though I had no idea what I was doing, I just went with what felt right.

To my surprise, Krista then walks straight through the desk between us, and grabs my hand.
I summon my wings again, and take us both to Teraluna.

For some reason we end up in a lookout spot, at the top of Haven. You can see the whole city from here.

"Welcome to Teraluna."

Krista looks at the two suns, the planet Teraluna is orbiting, and finally at the city beneath us.
She's wearing different clothes now, more comfortable ones, though I cannot remember what she was wearing before.
For some weird reason I feel the urge count my fingers, because I feel that the count wouldn't be off now that I'm here.
5 on the left, 5 on the right, everything seems perfectly clear...
What am I doing...?

I look at Krista, she's still staring at the city. I wonder if it looks anything the same for her as it does for me.
She looks back at me, and I notice the incredible amount of excitement in her face.
I want to calm her down, I know I lost quite a few dreams by getting overexcited, but I don't know how.

"I..."

She vanishes in front of my eyes.
I should probably have warned her about getting too excited...

I feel happy that I remembered one of my goals, and that I was able to make Krista become lucid.
I wonder if any of this really happened, even though right now I know it did.
But I also know that I probably won't believe it anymore once I wake up.
I realize that I have asked myself this question too many times, and it is a waste of time because it cannot be answered.

I try to meditate but I wake up.

This dream was bloody amazing o_o
It was so exciting!
I wrote it down immediately after waking up to make sure I don't forget anything.





I set myself an alarm for ~5 hours of sleep to WILD.
I had a hard time transitioning... I was about to give up but then somehow I ended up in a dream anyways.

I'm on Teraluna, in front of Yuya's house.
Before entering I decide to attempt to induce a "deep dreaming state" similar to here.
I grab a fruit from a bowl on Yuya's table and sit down in a meditative pose, trying to focus on each of my senses individually.
But just before I feel that I'm done, I am interrupted by something very weird.
I hear a deep growl, like in a thunderstorm, and I see the sky above me deforming.
It feels like someone is trying to break through the sky, but that doesn't make any sense.

Actually, it does, the protective energy shield surrounding Haven?
The ground starts to shake, it is so strong I nearly fall over.
The growling is now excessively loud. I am confused. Something is wrong.
A big creature smashes into the ground right besides me and debris is shot into the air.
At first glance, he looks human, but he's excessively muscular and at least 3 meters tall.
He looks at me with a dark smile. I don't like this at all, I feel like he's here specifically for me.

Yuya storms out of her house.

"NO!"

The man grabs my arm and I am dragged into a wormhole.
I fall out in a completely different place.
I get up, ready to defend myself.
This place looks dark, I don't feel very well at all.
It's a place of ruins, I feel that many battles have taken place here, and many souls have died."

"Why did you bring me here?"
"To die..."
"... why do you want me to die?"
"You're supposed to be dead."
"What?"
"Pff... you don't get it, and you won't, and I don't give a fuck that you're alive again or why you are."
"Then why do you want to kill me?"
"This discussion is pointless, I just want to kill you."
"Why the fuck would you want to do that?"
"Pointless... absolutely pointless..."

He seems disappointed.
He approaches me slowly, making a fist with his right hand.
This feels so real... I have had dreams that felt perfectly real before, but for some reason, this is even more intense.
It's not that my senses are superior to previous dreams but... I'm afraid.
I feel real danger emerging from this man, like he could really hurt me.
I don't understand why that is, and it confuses me.

My phoenix wings are not reacting, I cannot get out, I must fight... or... I could try to wake up?
No! I won't. I must fight. I do not know why, but I am absolutely certain that it is the right decision.

He charges me, and I blink a few meters back, trying to increase my focus on this battle.
But he blinked right with me.... FUCK!
I try to defend myself from the imminent hit with my arms, drawing up a protective energy shield around me, but I am still hit hard.
I feel the pressure of his hit all over my body, the energy shield makes a cracking sound and disappears, I'm not sure if I would have made it without it.
He's strong... too strong maybe. I can't feel his energy, probing his aura reveals nothing.

He charges again... I launch a sphere of energy at him, but he just blinks through it.
I concentrate as hard as I can... time slows down allowing me to evade a few hits and place myself in an advantageous position.
With all the energy I can muster into a fist, I hit him in his shoulder.
I can feel my energy resonating in his shoulder and causing some damage and he blinks away.

He laughs histerically.

"AHAHAHAHA, this is going to be SO MUCH FUN!"
"FIGHT you little dragon, FIGHT WITH ALL YOU GOT!"

I feel threatened, but at the same time he makes me furious, trying to kill me without even explaining what the fuck is going on.
He summons a very long katana, probably 2 meters long.
I power up as hard as I can, the dragonic energy causes strong vibrations within my body, and I feel very hot.

"AHAHA, you're gonna fight me with your fists? WITH YOUR BARE HANDS?"
"You amuse me dragon."

Fuck... the katana... if only I had my...
He blinks in front of me, trying to slice me with his katana.
I blink away, but he keeps blinking after me.
With every blink we make, he manages to barely slice into my skin.
It hurts every time he cuts me. He doesn't deal any real damage, but I can't keep going like that, this needs to stop.
I'm fighting a loosing battle, I need to do something now!
If only I had my katana... if only I knew more about these dragonic powers...

Thinking about the dragon within me, I feel anger... rage... fury!
Fuck dodging these hits!
I carefully time my next blink and manage to deflect his katana with my left arm.
I hit him right in his stomach with my right arm, releasing much more energy than last time.
But he manages to blink back before I have released all of the energy.

As he blinks back, my body reacts on it's own fueled by anger.
I use both of my hands to launch a fireball at him, it should hit him just after he exits his blink.
But my body keeps going instinctively, I form a ball of energy in each hand and launch one angled to the left and the other to the right.
He appears out of his last blink with the fireball right in front of him.
He instinctively dodges it by blinking sideways, causing him to blink right into one of the energy balls.
It explodes and he is launched against part of the ruins.

All of this happened within less than a second, the battle is so fast, and he is so powerful.
But finally I can catch a short break.
I feel vibrations in my arms from launching spells so quickly in a row.
It feels like the bloody in my veins is on fire, but it doesn't really hurt.

I feel powerful, and so angry. But... it's a bit different from anger I experience in waking life.
It doesn't feel like I am controlled by my anger at all, it feels more like the the dragonic energy causes me to feel angry,
but without loosing control, and without properly despising anyone, more like a "state of mind to battle".
The power of my dragonic energy feels a bit like a combustion engine.
The harder I rev it, the stonger the vibrations, the anger and my power becomes.
But I have no idea how hard I can rev this energy through my body, the vibrations feel like they could be dangerous to myself if I overdo it.

If have many small cuts and bruises on my body, but nothing serious, but I can still feel the pain.
It doesn't numb down the way it usually does, but I somewhat enjoy it...
I enjoy the fear, the pain, the anger, the power, not knowing what will happen next, it is SO EXCITING!
The man emerges from some debris, he doesn't seem hurt very much, just a few small burns on his chest.

He smiles

"This may become an interesting fight after all."

He's extremely arrogant, acting as if I pose no challenge against him.
He summons two large snakes and sends them to attack me from left and right.
I can somehow remember moves, as if I suddenly had conscious access to my muscle memory.
I let the anger fuel me and concentrate energy into my right arm.
The dragon tattoo on my back has grown tribal extensions over my right arm which are now detaching from my arm, forming a glowing red whip.
The end is still attached to the tattoo.
I grab onto the whip and use it to kill both snakes with ease. It immediately turns back into the tribal tattoo.

I charge at him, but he summons a lot more snakes, too many to handle with the whip.
I concentrate my energy into both of my fists and hit the ground below me with both of them, releasing all the energy in the process.
The energy creates a burning shockwave which obliterates all the snakes attacking me.
I blink in front of him. Because he's so big I end up mid-air, and try to punch him in the face.
He blocks with an arm, and hits me in the face.
I can't block it, and I can't draw a barrier in time, but oddly enough his punch doesn't hurt that much.
I land on my feet without falling over.

Blood is leaking from my nose.
I lick it, looking at him, and I smile.

"You're right, this may indeed become an interesting fight after all"

That was a very arrogant move, but all this battle emotions make me so excited.
I feel that I'm strong, and I deserve to act like that, in fact I believe this is the proper etiquette when battling other beings of such strength.

I finally manage to probe his aura. He's way stronger than me.
Then again, my aura is a lot stronger than last time I battled.
I don't know what the difference in power between us is, but I feel like he's stronger, but I'm slightly faster.

He laughs hysterically.

"That's the spirit."
"NOW BRING IT ON AND DIE!"

I power up even further. The energy revs through my body faster, I feel that I'm approaching the limit of my body.
My eyes start to burn up. I feel pressure and heat on them.
The sky turns into a dark red color, and the clouds turn into storms of fire.
I understand why this is happening:

Those who use the eyes of the dragon shall see the red sky burning, and so shall those who glance into these eyes.

We charge at eachother. He jumps up high, trying to slice me with his katana from above.
I can feel so much energy emitting from his blade. I can never let it touch my body.

I instinctively jump up as well, trying to meet him mid air, to clash our swords.
But... I don't have my katana? Why did I jump?
But then I realize why. My katana... I have been searching for it... but it has been with me all along.
It is a sword made specifically for me, to be used by my powers: those of a dragon.
This is why it was forged using a bit of the essence of my own dragonic energy.
This sword has a spirit... and as such I can hide it by depositing it within the fabric of space, which only very few beings can access.
And this is where it is... where I left it years ago as a child... everywhere yet nowhere.

We're both approaching each other in the air, closing in for the kill.
I call out into the fabric of space for my katana, and it materializes in my hands.
It is so full of energy, I must have left it like that.
We both swing our swords, time has slowed down to the extreme.
The blades clash, and release tremendous amounts of energy.
A small bit of his sword shatters, and fractures form all over the blade.
I notice a lapse in his focus and take the opportunity to blink and ram my katana into his heart.

Due to the speed of these actions, we land about 10 meters from eachother.
He's holding his damaged sword, and my hatana is lodged in his chest.

Yuya appears from a portal, ready to help me fight, but she quickly realizes just how strong my aura is right now.
She looks at me somewhat surprised. She was obviously worried sick.
The man jumps at me again, trying to finish me with his sword now that I have no blade to defend myself.
Yuya wants to act but I interrupt her with my thoughts.

"Don't be afraid... I got this..."

She stops...
I look at the man, who is halfway through his jump.
My katana is still full of energy, and lodged in his chest.
I give him a dark smile, to make him understand that he will now die.
I snap my fingers, and all the energy in my katana is released at once.
The man, whoever he was, is burned to dust by the energy, and his broken sword falls to the the ground and is shattered into pieces.
I catch my katana. It is very beautiful, but I'll have time to admire it later. I cast it back into the fabric of space.

I approach Yuya, slowly powering down. The sky turns back to its normal color, and the vibrations slow down.

"Are you alright???"
"Yes. Just a few bruises."

Considering my blood covered face and all the cuts, this may have been somewhat of an understatement.
She seems speechless.
She understands exactly how strong this man just now was.

"Sorry for making you worry, I was trapped in this place."
"It's.... it's all right... you're safe... but... how did you remember... these powers... and your sword?"
"I suppose all it took was to fight for real once."
"At least I think this was for real... was it?"

She goes back to her mysterious self, knowing that I am safe.

"Maybe... only you know the true limits of your abilities."

I feel absolutely amazing.
The feeling of overcoming such danger, of winning a fight against such a deadly opponent, the power I experienced just now.
But as the vibrations leave my body, my vision blacks out.

I wake up.
I feel extremely refreshed, full of energy, I feel like going for a run around the block right now.
But it's still a bit early for that...
I get up and start writing down this dream.
Screw taking notes and getting back to sleep, I don't want to forget a single detail...

I was taking a break from all the work I've had recently.
Just chilling out, watching some random episodes and movies. (Game of Thrones pilot, Dr. No)
Then I got tired and decided to take an afternoon nap.
I put my rather comfortable chair all the way back and listened to some ambient music with my eyes closed.
For some reason there was some Daft Punk in my playlist, I remember it because I was getting into SP whilst listening to:


The music slowly becomes muffled (I don't know if this is the right term), like if I was under water.
I know I'm about to enter a dream when I'm startled by the feeling of arms embracing me from behind.
Assuming that this is caused by SP I try to ignore the feeling, but when I notice a breeze of air on my face, I decide to open my eyes.
My vision is extremely blurry. I can only distinguish between different intensities of light, but I cannot see any shapes.

But then I feel the presence of Yuya. She's holding me from behind, these are her arms, and suddenly I feel very much at ease.
My vision sharpens and I notice I am riding a motorbike with Yuya.
We're on some sort of red planet. At first I think that we're riding in a red sand desert, but the bike has too much grip for the surface to be sand.
It must be some sort of stone with a sandy texture or something along those lines.

I don't really care much about my surroundings though, I'm very much focused on Yuya.
For some reason, even though I can't see her because she's sitting behind me, she feels even more real than usual.
I can feel her chest expand against my back as she breathes, for some reason this really overwhelms me.
She's resting her face on my left shoulder, and I can feel her breath against my neck.
I can even feel her heart pound very lightly.
I feel extremely good, ecstatic even.

I take a short look of my surroundings.
Besides the red planet surface, I see a red sky covered by some white clouds.
I'm a bit surprised, because my dreams usually feature cold colors. Blue, Green, Yellow are common colors in my dreams, but not Red, at least not so much of it.
There are weird animals flying in the sky. They look a bit like jellyfish, except they are waaaaay bigger, and well, float in the sky.
The bike I'm riding is futuristic, and definitely not of human design.
The dashboard is in an alien language, it consists of combinations of different geometric shapes.
I spot many triangles and circles.
The engine has much more torque than one would expect from a bike engine.
It's sound is also very deep and bassy. It's definitely a combustion engine.

I accelerate a bit, but not really by much. Testing out the bike doesn't really tempt me.
I just want to enjoy being so close to Yuya.
We keep driving like that for about a minute, sharing our thoughts.
But none of us really think of anything, our minds are blank and at peace.
Sharing this feeling is very refreshing.

Then I wake up. The transition out of the dream is very smooth.
I regret that these WILDs during afternoon naps don't last very long at all.
Nevertheless I feel very happy and refreshed.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I haven't attempted a WILD in a long time because I don't get enough sleep as it is.
I woke up after about 5 hours of sleep this night, and realized that I could sleep as long as I wanted this day.
This sounded like a good occasion to try to WILD.
I was drifting in and out of split second dreams, having trouble to transition into an actual dream.
After some time I finally managed to properly calm down and transition though.


I open my eyes, and find myself in a weird bedroom.
A kings palace is what first comes to my mind, seeing the insanely big bed I'm in, and the luxurious Victorian decors.
I don't feel like wasting time though, I have a goal!
For some reason the dream feels immensely stable, I feel like I'll be able to stay for a long time.
I immediately teleport to Teraluna using my phoenix wings.

As I emerge from the fabric of space, Yuya is standing right in front of me, waiting for me.

"Ready when you are."

She knows what I am planning on doing. I remembered that Faye has helped me remember that in childhood dreams, I was wielding a very special katana.
We've already established that if I try to fight all out with a conventional weapon, the vibrations of my dragonic energy causes them to break.
I know that my old katana still exists, and that it was made specifically to withstand these vibrations.
But that is not the main reason I want it, I mostly want it because it is an item from childhood dreams, the idea of finding it again amazes me.

"How do we do this?"
"Only you can find the katana, but in order to do so, you must first remember it properly."
"Any suggestions?"
"Absolutely. We are going to venture into your past."
"We can do that?"
"Well, not exactly. We can't turn back time obviously, but we can relive your past to some extend."
"That sounds amazing!"

With no more than a wave of Yuya's hand, water emerges from a lake below us, and starts forming a portal on the bridge we are standing.
The water calms down, making the portal look like a mirror surrounded by a stream of water defying gravity.
It's quite beautiful, but it also feels weird and mysterious.
Maybe I find it mysterious because the mirror is reflecting everything besides ourselves.

We walk through it holding hands, and with just one step we are in a completely different location with no portal leading back.
I immediately get a very strong déjà vu feeling, I have been here before, a very long time ago.
We're inside an old stone tunnel. For some reason I know that it is part of a tower structure.
We start walking forwards, going through some stone rooms and more tunnels.
I note how real everything feels.
Walking barefoot, I feel the structure and humid surface of every single stone I step on, and the coldness within them.
The place smells old, wet, a bit like salty water, and I feel a light breeze on my skin.
My vision sporadically becomes unnaturally effective, allowing me to see the surface structure of stones very far away.
The place is old and broken down, it hasn't been maintained for a long time.

As we keep walking the déjà vu sensation becomes stronger and stronger.
Everything feels rather mysterious.

"We're here."

We enter a bigger room through a tunnel, and I get quite a bit of a shock.
There are three people standing in the middle of the room, but I immediately know they are not actually there, they are a projection of my memories.
One of them is a younger version of myself, probably 14-15 years old.
Then there's a past version of Yuya, although she doesn't look younger than she does now.
And the last person, holy shit! is that Selene?

Yes, I know it is her. She's only a little older than the younger version of myself, maybe 16 or 17.
She has long brown hair and is wearing some sort of leather armor.
She's also carrying two long knives.

The younger version of myself is wearing loose white pants and a white armless shirt.
He doesn't seem to be wearing the katana I'm looking for though, which I find a bit odd.

"Holy shit! Is that us and Selene?"
"Yes... let's follow them."

As we follow them I sometimes catch a glimpse of what this place looked like years ago around them.
My past self gets attacked multiple times by samurai covered up in black clothes, but he doesn't seem to have any trouble getting rid of them.
I was so confident back then, I didn't overthink things, I didn't hesitate. I just lived in whatever reality I was presented with without thinking about it.
Seeing myself like that is oddly amazing.

We enter a new room, which I identify as the center of the tower. The room has no ceiling, it goes all the way up to the end of the tower.
In the middle there's some sort of elevation. In the past version, there's a small table with a crystal on it there, but it isn't there anymore now.
My past self takes the crystal, but gets interrupted by some dark humanoid creature before he can escape.
Out of nowhere he summons a katana and cuts the creature into its face.
The creature is only barely able to escape its death.

This is the katana! this the one! It is very beautiful. It reflects the moonlight all over the room.
One side of the blade is engraved with a dragon, similar to the fire tattoo appearing on my back.
The other side is engraved with a bird, presumably a phoenix.
The illusion suddenly disappears, and I am alone with Yuya in the room.
I sense a presence and immediately power up.

The dark creature from the memory appears. He has a massive scar on his face from the katana cut years ago.

"Hyu... and there I thought you were dead."

I'm afraid, he seems to be very strong.

"You must fight..."

He teleports right in front of me and hits me in the stomach.
It hurts. The punch is so strong I am thrown a few meters through the air, right into a wall.
As I get up he is right in front of me, about to smash me with a twohanded sword.
It cuts into my left sholder, and I am barely able to teleport a few meters away.
Fuck... a split second and I would have been dead.
I need to focus, especially because this teleportation maneuvers are quite disorientating.

The wound on my left shoulder immediately stops hurting and the bleeding stops.
I focus on the creature as hard as I can. If only I had my katana right now...
He charges me again by teleporting right in front of me, but this time I am prepared.
As he tries to cut me with his blade I teleport behind him, just before he hits me, and I launch a ball of concentrated energy at his back.
It hits him hard and explodes.
The burning remainder of his clothes are scattered all over the room.
He has a massive wound on his back, but still faces me again.
He wants to keep going.

He laughs hysterically.

"It seems my end has finally come."
"Surrender!"
"I shall do no such thing. Finish what you have started years ago!"

For some reason I know he is right. I have to kill him, he needs to die.
He needs to pay for sins he committed years ago, and he knows it...

He charges me again, but this time I take the innitative.
Before he is able to teleport, I teleport myself towards him.
I slap him in the head with the back of my right hand, releasing as much energy as I can in the process.
The vibrations caused by the impact cracks his skull and most likely destroys his brain.
He falls to the ground dead and his remainders erupt into flames.

My shoulder starts hurting again, and there's a little blood coming out the rather deep cut.

"Now you remember the katana, now you know that it is more than just a memory."
"The rest is up to you."

Yuya approaches me and heals most of my wound using water magic.
I teleport us back to Teraluna...

non dream - lucid - non lucid

My dreams start getting more vivid again, even though I'm still quite stressed and I don't have enough time to sleep properly.
I didn't believe that my dream recall would improve before I have more free time, but I am very happy that it seems to do so.


I am walking through the city. I become lucid for no apparent reason, I just know that I am dreaming.
For some reason I feel the urge to use some form of dream control.
I look up into the sky, there isn't a single cloud. It is a very nice day.

I point my right hand at the sky and command it to rain with my mind.
It starts raining, even though there are no clouds.
The DC's around me realize what I have done and become pissed.
I don't really care about them and just start dancing in the rain whilst creating background music for the dream.

I am quite impressed how easily I can control the dream, it is so stable.
Some DC's approach me with an angry look on their faces.
What do they want?

"Go away."

All DC's around me cease to exist. This is an intriguingly good feeling.
I should probably do something more productive though, even though this is a lot of fun.

"Excuse me."

What the hell?
I turn around. There is a women standing in the rain. Didn't I just remove all DC's?

"Hello friend, what brings you into my dreams?"

(I have no idea why I feel the urge to talk like this, but it is not the first time this has happened.)

"I'm sorry, I do not mean to intrude."
"It's quite alright."
"I need your help."

I look at her closely. I'd guess that she's in her late 20's, maybe early 30's.
She has natural curly red hair and very dark eyes.
I approach her with confidence.

"What is it you need help with?"
"There is darkness within me, darkness which I cannot face alone."
"I need help Hyu, I need help facing this darkness."
"Do we know each other?"
"You do not know me, but I have read many things about you."

I feel the sudden urge for an adventure.

"Lead the way, friend."

She opens a portal, using the hand flicking trick I have used before.
I find it somewhat impressive, then again, why would she not know?
I form an energy shield around myself and follow her through the portal.
Somehow I just understood that using a shield can prevent some of the portal trouble I have encountered before.


We are in a very big room. It looks absolutely amazing.
The architecture is absolutely blowing my mind, everything is so detailed.
It is a blend of old japenese, victorian but also futuristic design.
The neon-stripe lighting and the heavy usage of glass gives it a bit of a Tron-look but for some reason it blends very well with the older elements.
The windows are very colorful, like in Christian churches, except the drawings are clearly not religious.

I realize I'm getting distracted. I follow this women over a marble path.
There are doors to the left and right of the path, but they don't lead anywhere.
There are no walls or anything, just doors.
I get the impression that I am in the dreams of this women and that she created all of this.

"This is highly impressive!"
"Do you like it?"
"Absolutely. Have you created all of this?"
"I have indeed. I'm an architect, I have let my inspiration run wild for a few weeks, and this is what I ended up creating."
"Wow, this is really impressive, so you can create persistent scenes?"
"Yes. If I want to keep a scene I save it behind one of these doors."
"Wow... I'm speechless."

She seems to be very experienced with dreaming.
She laughs.

"Says the guy who can step through the fabric of space."
"I'm an architect, this is what I do, it's not really that hard for me."
"I see..."

The marble path ends before another door, but this one is very different.
All other doors were white stone with beautiful carvings, this one is pitch black.
There are many Japanese seals attached to the door.
I've seen them in manga before.
Some of them look very recent, others slightly older. All the older ones are destroyed.

"This is where I have sealed my nightmares... the darkness."

She sealed them away? I didn't know anything like that was possible.

"I can no longer contain them, I need to face them and destroy them."
"I have no doubt that I will manage to destroy them, but I am too afraid to face them alone."

I was wondering how I could possibly be of help to someone who can do all of this.
But I suppose this makes sense.
I power up and draw a protective energy bubble around us using my phoenix wings.

"Let's do it."

With a wave of her hand all the seals disappear and the door opens.
There is nothing visible inside, it's just darkness.
But even though I cannot see it, I can feel it, VERY clearly.
Fear emits from this room, just pure fear.
The women starts shaking.
I grab her hand.

"You can do this."
"Yes... SHOW YOURSELF!"

The yelling was unexpected.
A ball of pure darkness comes out of the room and hovers in front of us.
She grabs my hand strongly and I reinforce the protective bubble even further.

"BEGONE DARKNESS. I HEREBY CAST YOU AWAY FOR ALL ETERNITY!"

Her voice is very powerful, I can feel it resonating in my body.
She then speaks some sort of incantation in Japanese which I cannot understand.
The darkness catches on purple fire and disintegrates before my eyes.
As the last bit of it disappears, the Door that was housing it turns into ashes.
How impressive!

The women drops to her knees.

"Are you alright?"
"Yes, now that the darkness is gone, I truly am."
"Thank you for you support young dreamer."
"You're welcome."

She summons a small engraved stick of wood and hands it over to me.
It is immensely detailed and very beautiful.

"A gift for your troubles."
"Thank you!"
"I am very sorry, but you must leave now."
"Oh?"
"I don't usually let others into my dreams, please understand."
"Of course."

To be honest, I don't, but it would be disrespectful to say otherwise.
If these are truly her dreams than she deserves privacy whenever she so desires.
I draw my phoenix wings and prepare to teleport to Teraluna.
I feel that I am no longer welcome in this world, I will not be able to visit it again once I teleport away.

"Goodbye friend."

I step through the fabric of space and the dream ends.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I occasionally have dreams where I feel I am in the future.
For some reason in these dreams, I'm usually in LA California, even though I've never been to the US in waking life.
There is no actual indication that I am indeed in LA though, I just know I am.
This dream was extremely vivid, I haven't had such a vivid dream since I started being busy with school.


I wake up in my king size bed in my house in LA.
It has white pillows and white sheets and it feels very smooth.
The sun is shining through the extremely big window in front the bed.
The room is very bright.
I feel refreshed and get up. I'm only wearing boxers.
I go to the window and take a look.
The view is absolutely amazing, my house is on top of a hill, I can see all the way to the ocean from here.
I go into the bathroom and freshen up.
The bathroom is very big, and very modern and colorful.
I see myself in the mirror, I look good, I look happy. (and slightly older than I do now)

I leave my bedroom and go check on my pets.
I have quite a few parrots in a very big outdoor cage.
The door of a room leads directly into the cage, I go inside.
The cage basically consist of a whole room with a grid instead of a wall on one side.
There is sand on the ground and a lot of different plants for the parrots to sit on.
I can feel a fresh breeze coming in through the grid, it feels good.
I play with the parrots a bit and go downstairs.

Here I enter another room which I have transformed into a habitat for my lizards.
I own about a dozen bearded dragons, and they are happy to have such a big room all for themselves.
I don't stay in the room for too long, the heat and the bright lights needed for the dragons makes me dizzy quickly.

I walk inside the kitchen / living room to grab a drink.
The room is extremely big. This house is a true mansion.
I feel like I really belong here, I absolutely love this house.
I grab a drink of orange juice and exit the room to go outside.
I am now in front of the pool drinking the juice.
The pool is quite natural looking, it looks a bit like a spring feeding into a pond.

There are a few beach chairs in front of the pool, and a bar where I keep a lot of drinks.
I often have guests over, and the bar is a huge success.
I decide to just lie down on a chair and chill for a bit.
As I approach the chair I see a girl already lying there.
She's my girlfriend, we live together.
She has long orange/red hair, green eyes and a few freckles around her nose, wearing a white bikini with a red flower drawn on it.
She's so lovely... so beautiful. I am so happy that she's my girlfriend. I am going to marry this women one day... I love her so much.
She makes me a sign to join her on the chair and turns her back to me.
I join her and hold her in my arms.

Her hair is my face, it smells very nice... a bit like lavender.

"Good morning sweetheart, how are you?"
"Great! How are you?"
"I feel absolutely amazing, like life is too good to be real."
"Like a dream?"
"Yes, like..."

I'll be damned. I am dreaming!
I feel sad at first, I wish this was real, but then I realize how amazingly vivid this dream is.
I look at my "girlfriend", realizing I don't even know her name.
I can see the pores on her skin.
I can feel the heat of her body and of the sun.
I can hear the small waterfall in the pool.
I can smell her, even still taste the remainders of orange juice in my mouth.

Wow, this feels so real!
But what does this mean? Why do I dream about a future in California so often.

"Are you... real?"

I immediately realize that this was a stupid question.

"Of course I am, Hyu."

I think about trying to unsummon her, to see if she's real, but it feels wrong and I decide not to.

"Is this my future?"
"..."
"You're not going to tell me, are you?"
"It might be your future, it might not be."
"How so?"
"Everything is possible, after all destiny is governed by chaos."
"Even the slightest change will change the course of history, no-one can look into the future, we can only look into the past."

Well... she isn't a normal DC alright...

"So all future is uncertain because of the chaos theory?"
"Yes, but even though it is, time is relative."
"Future present and past, they're all the same."

I don't understand what she means.

"But how can the past depend on the future?"
"If this is the future, then by seeing this you will inevitable change your past and destroy this future by doing so."
"That is why you cannot see into the future. That is why destiny is chaos."

How true... I'm impressed that I can think this clearly even though I'm dreaming.
It must be because the dream is so vivid.

"Who are you...?"
"A girlfriend... a wife?"
"..."
"I am what can be, and as such, I am chaos."
"You are quite mysterious aren't you?"

She turns towards me and looks me in the eyes.

"Just the way you like it."

Her eyes immediately remind me of Yuya's.
They are different but they also have that infinite detail.
I don't think that this women is Yuya, but they have something in common, I can feel it.

"Tell me your name."
"That I cannot, because my name is a secret."
"Why?"
"Because it changes everything."
"It does?"
"Everything does, every bit of information, regardless of how benign it may seem changes your whole of reality."
"Why am I allowed to talk to you at all then?"

She smiles.

"Of course talking to me changes everything."
"Every dream changes everything, everything you experience will change you for all eternity."
"Then why can I not know your name?"
"I told you, it's a secret."
"But why?"
"Because I am keeping it one."
"Your curiosity is truly endless Hyu. And that's how it should be, that is how it needs to be."
"I love you Hyu."

Saying that she loves me overwhelms me with emotions.
I am not sure what to say, but I do love this women.
The feeling is so strong that it is only barely bearable.
She closes her eyes.

"Now kiss me."

I close my eyes and kiss her.
The feeling of love is so very strong that I don't even realize that the dream is slipping away.
I just want to hold her, for all eternity.

Then I understand that I've woken up and open my eyes.
I can still feel the heat of her body.
Oh how I wish she was with me, here in my bed.
But I don't feel sad that she's gone, I still experience this feeling of loving someone.
I know that it will probably last until the end of the day.

This was quite an intense night.
I had 3 non-lucid dreams prior to this.
Unfortunately those were followed by a FA in whom I took notes in my DJ and went back to sleep.
I can't remember any specifics about them.

Then I had these 2 dreams and took notes in my DJ again.
When I woke up I checked my notes to see if this was a FA as well. The page in my DJ was blank and I was pissed.
It turns out I must have flipped the page after taking notes though, because when I got home from uni,
I was quite happy to find I actually did take the notes when I flipped one page back.

I am hovering over some clouds. Cool, I'm dreaming again!
I try to land on the cloud below me which works.
I look around trying to spot something interesting whilst yelling out to see if someone is there.
Then I spot some kind of structure to my left and approach it.
It seems like someone build a few wooden houses ontop of these clouds.
A person approaches me and says hi.
He introduces me to two of his friends, once of them is named Kiwi.

"Kiwi is a cool name, I like it!"

The other person jumps ontop of me and makes spider noises (like the ones in minecraft).

"I'm a minecraft spider!"
"That's... great I guess?"

I am now with Kiwi on top of his wooden house.
He points into a direction and mumbles something about a city.

"Do you want to fight?"
"Huh?"
"A friendly fight, just for fun."
"Are you a dreamer?"
...
"What are you doing here anyways?"
"I started out here."
"I see."

He looks at me.

"Laters."

and disappears. That was weird.
My vision fades. I decide to focus on not moving and wait it out.


I wake up but manage not to move and even keep my eyes closed.
Nice! I'm confident I'll enter another LD within a few seconds.


I'm back in the clouds, but everything from my previous dream is gone.
There are no more structures and no more people.
I hover around a bit, rubbing my hands against eachother, and suddenly I think clearly.
What the hell am I doing hovering around? I should make use of this DEILD!
I summon my wings, which I decide to call phoenix wings from now on and lock onto Yuya's aura.

I feel like she's not on Teraluna so I try to communicate with her using my thoughts.
For some reason I feel like it would be rude to just teleport to her when she isn't home.

"Yuya? Can you hear me?"
"Yes!"
"Can I visit you?"
"Of course! ... Actually... wait!"

I guess I'll just wait.
Can I wait in a dream? just like that?
I notice an air pocket next to me that seems distorted.
It looks like half of a bubble.
Is that a portal...?

Right as I try to investigate it, the bubble bursts and Yuya falls out of it, straight into my direction.
I catch her mid-air.
She starts laughing. I can feel that she feels a bit stupid for falling out of a portal like that even though
she is very experienced with portals.

Her hair is brushing against my body. She's so beautiful.
She looks into my eyes... endless blue...
I suddenly realize I'm still holding her... awkward...
I gently let her go. She is amused that I feel awkward about stuff like this.

Yuya looks around.

"How did you get here?"
"Uuh, my last dream started here I guess. Where are we?"
"On the frontier of the Dream Plane... I've never been here."
"I met a person called Kiwi before, I think he might be a dreamer."
"Maybe..."
"You're forgetting something!"
"I am?"

Right! KristaNicole!

"She's looking for a Dream Guide. Do you think we can help her find one?"
"Hmm, I'm not sure, but it's worth a try."
"Let's go meet her!"

I notice I still have my wings summoned.
I hold my left hand out and close my eyes.

"How do I find her aura?"
"How have you found mine?"
"Uuh..."
"Just think about her, how you feel when you think about her. That's what her aura will feel like."

I search through the void, or maybe the dream plane, I'm not really sure where I'm searching when I do this.
I think of KristaNicole's Forum Avatar, about the first DJ entries that pop into my head.
It takes a few seconds, I notice we're really far out.
Then suddenly I find her. I'm sure it's her.
For some reason I'm really calm. Last time I tried sharing a dream I was extremely nervous and it caused a lot of problems.

Yuya holds onto me. Off we go!
We step through the fabric of space...

(I can only barely remember the next fragment)

... I'm on a road I think?
... Something is happening around me.
I spot KristaNicole walking past us. Can she see me?
... I approach her to say hi.
I wonder whether I should call her Krista or Nicole...

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I am in the countryside, walking up a path which leads to my house. (I have never seen this place)
The path leads up to the top of a small mountain.
The area isn't very populated, so I don't encounter many people on my way up.

I finally reach a small street, my house is at the end of it.
There's a few more houses, maybe 12 or so and a water fountain in the middle of the street.
For some reason I am attracted to the fountain, it is very beautiful, but I don't really know why.
As I approach it I start to question my surroundings and quickly realize that I am dreaming.

I am happy to have become lucid, but the feeling quickly vanishes.
In front of the fountain I find a dead wolf. He seems to have died because of a deep wound on his neck.
I feel odd. Seeing the dead wolf makes me kind of sad.

It starts to rain. Has it ever rained in my dreams? Does it rain because I am sad?
The sky starts clearing up and it stops raining, rays of light start poking through the clouds.
A small bird emerges from the light and lands on the fountain, looking at the wolf.

I have seen this bird before! It is the same as in the Dr. Who dream!
The bird looks at me for a few seconds.
Then he switches his attention back to the wolf.
He spreads his tiny wings and they start glowing in all kinds of colors.
Some glitter emitted from his wings lands on the wolf.

The wolf comes back to life and looks at the bird. They exchange a few thoughts, the wolf is thankful that the bird saved his life.
He runs away. I am amazed by what I just witnessed, but I still feel somewhat weird, although in a positive way now.
The bird takes off and lands on the hand of a girl.
I recognize her, It's Faye!
She looks different than last time though, but her aura is clearly the same.
She has long brown hair now and shimmering green eyes.

"What have you learned from this experience?"

I remember that WakingNomad has asked me this question a few times.

"He's a phoenix..."
"Yes, he is, so what does this mean?"
"I don't know... what does it mean? We are in my dream bubble aren't we?"

Faye gives me an affirming nod.
She acts very mysteriously. Yuya sometimes does that as well.
I kind of like it though, I've always been a fan of mystery.
She wants me to keep thinking, I'm supposed to come to a conclusion.

"So this phoenix, he is part of my imagination?"
"A projection of your subconscious the people on your forum would say."

I think this is the first time a DC has made a direct reference to DV.
Faye talks about how in my dream bubble, everything that I don't actively create is a projection of my subconscious.
I already knew that, and she knew that I did, but she's trying to make a point.

"So where does this idea of a phoenix come from?"
"That is the question. Knowing the question is half of the answer."

I really like the way she is speaking, it is so mysterious, yet it is very clear that she is leading me onto the right path.
I look at my left arm and spread my own wings, which I use to navigate the dream plane.
I remembered correctly, the wings on my left arm do look exactly the same way as the wings of the phoenix.

"When I use these wings to teleport, that is actually a phoenix ability."

I say this more as a realization than a question.
And after saying it I know that I am right.
I can use these wings to move through the fabric of space and easily navigate the dream plane by doing so.
I can also heal other beings, but the ability is far too complex for me to do anything major.
I could never revive someone, not even a very simple being, such as an insect.
The sheer amount of energy this would require is beyond my imagination.
I remember that I have used these abilities many years ago in my dreams.
My vision is blurry, I assume the dream is about to end, I feel like I should thank her before it does.

"Thank you, I have indeed learned many things from this experience."

I say this quite awkwardly, I am a bit shy.
Faye approaches me and whispers into my ear.

"I am your dream guide you know, this is what I do, maybe you should ask me for help more often..."

non dream - lucid - non lucid

After the last rather special dream, I decided to WBTB and attempt a WILD the next night.
I really wanted to see Yuya again, I kept thinking about her when I went to bed.

________

The WBTB alarm goes off and I try to WILD thinking about Yuya.
Unfortunately I fall asleep...

... I'm walking... just walking... aimlessly.
There is no path, there is no ground, I'm just walking.
I get a sudden burst of awareness and my vision sharpens.
Clouds turn into objects and I can see that I am on Teraluna.
I have a hard time focusing on my surroundings, I zone in and out a few times until I manage
to stabilize the dream.

I'm talking to Yuya. She know's im stressed in waking life, so she made me special tea that will help me relax.
When I drink it, it "tastes relaxing".
I talk to Yuya about my last dream, about hovering through a galaxy full of pulsating stars...

"I want to show you something... come here..."

She sits on the ground and makes me a sign to sit in front of her.
As I sit down I feel very light headed, but also very relaxed, probably because of the tea.
Yuya takes a meditative pose and I mimic it.
I'm sitting right in front of her, facing her.
We both close our eyes and start linking our thoughts.

"Let go of your thoughts... let go of everything... I will guide you..."

Her thoughts become mine and my thoughts become hers.
Our consciousness start merging together.
With Yuya's help, I manage to free my mind of all thoughts and let go of all the muscles in my body.
My dream body is slowly falling into a state of perfect calm, like it is turning itself off.

I can feel Yuya's body touching mine, but I know we're sitting apart from each other.
Yet it feels like we are embracing each other.
After some time I realize that it is our minds that are embracing, not our bodies.
I feel my body completely turning off, it is slowly letting go of my "spirit" (I call it spirit, I don't know what else to call it... my mind? my consciousness? my soul?)
As my body turns off I completely loose perception not only of my surroundings but also of my emotions...

... I can see again, but it feels different from seeing. I am now a small cloud of pulsating energy, and so is Yuya.
I decide to call this form "spirit".
Yuya is very pure and blue, there are fine crystalline strings emitting from her center.
I am green and orange a complex, complicated, "worried" but gentle mix of colors.
My strings move around more nervously than her's.
Our spirits are touching, and we start moving into a direction.

I start seeing an infinite amount of other spirits, forming a spiral galaxy of energy.
I see many kinds of spirits. The spirit of a small bush of grass, the spirit of a tree, the spirit of a bird, and the spirits of many other beings.
They are all beautiful in their own way.
I understand that what I am seeing is the essence of life, it is what drives us, it is why we live...
We keep floating along some sort of path, our spirits are linked, we decide directions as one.

After some time our spirits detach, and I feel my dream body forming around me again.
I open my eyes and I am sitting on a huge green leaf. I am very small, and the plant the leaf belongs to is very big, it can easily carry my weight.
Yuya appears next to me, smiling like she always does.
I don't ask her any questions because there are none to ask.
What I saw is beyond my level of understanding, yet because our consciousness was merged, I caught a glimpse of it.

I am still in an extremely relaxed state and I don't feel like talking or doing anything at all for that matter.
We just sit on this leaf, enjoying the feeling of not thinking at all...


Notes:
I am not a spiritual person, but I do believe that we all have some sort of spirit or soul, depending on what you want to call it.
It doesn't make sense to me that our consciousness consists of only a neural network.
I'm not sure where those extremely relaxing dreams are coming from.
Maybe I'm longing for this relaxed state because I am stressed in waking life?