Well my "I guess I can go to bed whenever I want and still LD" night 3 nights ago was an anomaly rather than the rule! Short dreams last night (but very vivid! and fun!) and the night before (less vivid).
Read some Holecek (up to chapter 6 now, MY FAVORITE: "A Fundamental Meditation: Mindfulness"!!!!
2 nights ago:
+ It came from outer space! I'm standing outside with somebody, and I look up in the sky and see several massive doors (on fire?) falling towards me. There's no way they're going to come RIGHT AT me and hit me, right? They keep coming. I dodge.
+(f) outside daylight with a girl? and walking around a canal of some sort that makes a U-turn (rectangular) and I need to remember that (something was buried here?)
+(f) inside people around I see a naked girl face down on a bed who is half-human half-doll, the skin is sort of life-like but not really? Another (same?) girl is a naked rag doll and I inspect her "bits" and they're made of cloth?
+ Outside, nature/village, daylight. I'm in a tribe of some sort and we're collecting wood? I don't have a phone and I won't be able to reach the other guys. I'm telling them I'm concerned about this, but I can't hear their responses, I keep yelling, "I Can't Hear You! I CAN'T HEAR YOU!" I notice the trees, they are very special trees, one of them is quite old and blackened, they are all bare of leaves [DREAM SIGN] and have very gnarled limbs, like old oak trees.
+ Outside, daylight, nature (zoo?). I'm in the T-rex area! It's coming for me and I jump over a hedge/fence and run/slide down a hill. Have I escaped? At the bottom of the hill still in a park-like setting under tall trees so it's all in shade, (like Eucalyptus trees), there are Baby T-rexes here! Sort of half-human half-trex looking, about 2 feet tall with very sharp teeth, and they're coming for me! I run to a fence (fence is only about 3 feet high) and try to climb over but they pull me back in. I fight with them?
And the really interesting part of the night: in the morning, lying in bed, recalling the above dreams, I remember that I wanted again to try The Phase dream entry (body exit) techniques. So, like in the video I had watched last night (with the weird/cosplay face hot model babe, skip to 41:00 for the technique):
I did the limb wiggle. I tried to "wiggle free" my dream hand and arm from my physical arm. I wasn't expecting anything because I'd been awake probably a minute already, and also had shifted a bit in bed probably. And it started to work! And suddenly, in seconds, I hear a massive rushing sound building in my ears! I knew this was REM Atonia building and I got really excited at this point. I was fully conscious and yet entering the dream state! The instructions say to try to exit (roll out, etc.) of your body as soon as something happens, so I did try, but I tried "too hard" and it was my physical body that moved and sat up in bed. Darn! But very close and very hopeful, especially considering this was the first time I'd tried The Phase DEILD dream entry in a long time.
Horrendous bed-time but I could sleep in. WBTB when son called from school in the morning and needed me to help him with something. That was about 6 hrs into the night. At 7 hrs I was really drowsy and decided to try for BTS and a WILD attempt. Early vivid dreams, too, around 4-5 hours probably.
+ playing concert, girls who are mocking me and following me, I take off my shirt and know that people have come to see me. I'm looking at my sheet music and I see the notes but it's not the piece I wanted to play. Back in "our house" with family I get a paper that my contributions have raised $12,000 for the organization, people really love to come and see me play.
+ I'm walking up to "my house" (PTL), there is a small trickle of water running down the street that is a "T" meeting the one I'm walking along. Two guys in boats, one in a canoe, and another in a boat, are some how travelling in their boats in this small trickle. I "know" them. I tell them "oh man, if I knew that I could ride a canoe here, I would have".
Inside the garage in the home we're preparing for some work by a contractor/construction guy. The guy is middle-aged and is not wearing a shirt. He's talking about how hard his job is and he's carrying a heavy (door?) on his back. I'm on the landing/steps down from the kitchen into the garage and I move something out of the way (a rug?) and lift up one of the top steps, it's made of wood and seems worn away (rotted?) I'm looking at it and thinking it needs to be replaced, I'm wondering if the contractor can do it.
WBTB - about 1 hour
WILD attempt on my back. For a while I play with visualizing the letters of the alphabet: I find that I can see them when I focus on them!
+(f) I get a short dreamlet/dream that I'm in deep ocean water near a whale (no visuals really), and I'm wondering if I should touch the whale's tail fin, or if that would shock it and would cause it to turn to me and attack/grown me.
+(f) short scene: young Squidward (?) meets old Squidward. Old Squidward is lying in a bed under blankets. He takes off the blankets and it's seen he's wrapped in a bandage in his whole body and he has age-related sores all over the place.
Wake briefly and turn to my right side and fall asleep.
+ (vivid, long) I am visiting HF (local friend) in his house (which is G's house next door neighbors to CH). I'm sitting on the ground, talking with H and a girl is there, I reach out to her playfully but H says that she had an "accident" (day residue) and needs to clean her. I move on to the living room. I look back and notice that H (father) is bottomless and I see his (ahem) briefly, I do a double take on this but think no more about it. An older girl is there in the living room and I'm thinking about (how I can get her to her room?). I say something and we move down the hallway. In this hallway I recognize the architectural layout of the house and realize it is the "G"'s house next to my CH. There is a room there and we go in, now it's a group of young people. I see many objects inside, there are food dishes stored on lit shelves. I remember a glass/dish of small bell peppers (red/yellow/orange). I comment that "this display looks like the dairy section of a grocery store!" and it does.
+ LUCIDD 229 LD#229. I'm (riding in a bus?) with young people, I'm quite happy to find myself surrounded by beautiful girls. (A brief thought of dreaming?). We arrive at our destination. I'm trying to get the attention of/ go with one girl in particular? We're walking up steps cut into the side of a steep hill (earthen). Approaching a right-angle turn in the path leading to the right I notice what appear to be large spider webs on the side (and straight ahead) of the path. I feel that I've walked into a strong strand of spider web I feel it on my forehead, I reach up to break through it but it's pretty strong, this happens a few times. Then I remember that spiders are a dream sign and I reach up for a nose pinch. Result ambiguous, I'm not giving it my full attention. I do it again and there is some leakage of air but I'm not yet convinced. I turn around and face the steep hill going down and decide to test my state by launching myself forwards down the hill and trying to fly. I do this and I'm a bit afraid that I may just be falling. But then I'm sure I'm flying and I'm lucid. I fly down the hill and there's the road at the bottom and I turn to the right and follow the road, flying about 15 feet above it. I'm looking for a girl. I see an unattractive woman below and ignore her. Then I see a young hot jogger heading in the same direction as I'm flying. I try to speed up to reach her, but she's pretty fast. I will myself to fly faster and thrust my fist forwards for speed and I reach her. I land [but don't remember our interaction].
Then I'm in conflict (fight?) with some guy. I don't want to deal with him. I make a gesture to force throw/TK him away. He is unaffected. I turn to him and do it again, again it fails. I think "Oh, great, what is this guy, is he going to hijack my dream?" I turn my back on him and ignore him and move forwards.
On my right side is a tall stone/brick wall. I'm approaching a corner and I form expectation that I'll find a hot girl around the corner. I turn the corner holding this expectation and see one. I see a tall, short-haired, blonde woman (taller than my preference) who is talking on a phone. I move to her immediately and she looks a bit taken aback and I take her in my arms. I notice that her body feels completely solid. She is wearing some white suit. I start kissing her. She has really excellent soft ample lips. I pull back and say "I love you." Some more kissing. I ask her "I want to hear you say it !". She doesn't say anything. I notice her fair is very high def and clear. Move on to sexy time.
I wake after that and fall back asleep.Spoiler for sexy time:
+ (fairly long, vivid) I'm in a dorm room of some sort very very wide with a lot of beds in it but not very deep. I'm on my bed which is against one of the side walls of the room. Agirl comes in with a boy and I know she's there to buy drug from him. I wonder at this and think "they're hooking them earlier and earlier." The girl is quite pretty with dark hair. The drug is a sort of lip gloss. I look at her lips and there is a bright, colorful pattern there perhaps like a checkerboard. I want to kiss her to taste the gloss but think I may get in trouble. There is another boy/girl pair like them nearby? Another guy comes in and his hands are covered with the gloss/drug material.
I realize I'm sitting on my bed with lots of young friends, guys and gals, leaning against me and we're all lying in a pile. It's very comfy . I see through the open door some people in the hallway are looking in and I think disapproving. I call out "Hey, this is *my* room and I'm on *my* bed, so I will do a I like!"
A stern matronly woman enters the room. She's not happy that I'm there I believe. The furniture starts getting rearranged (by itself), a bed is removed and a large grey/black couch shift into position next to me. Another piece of furniture arrives. I think she's trying to get rid of me. Then she declared "WHO'S IN CHARGE OF THIS GROUP!?" I know she's talking about me because I'm the oldest here but I do not answer. "GROUP #6 [another group] <is so great, they're doing wonderful..., etc.>".
+ a scene materializes before me, I realize I'm looking at a night time cityscape looking off into the distance. There is a lit, beautiful church in the distance and I see some other shape on the hills in the distance. These are places we're going. I call out to my two male companions that I see the first structure in the shape of a church cross.
To bed later than I wanted but not crazy late.
Need to meditate before bed, and do LD reading. I need to start my "prep for bed" ritual earlier in order to finish it in time.
+ escape and rescue from Grampa's house. I approach the hedge/fence and hop/skip and gain speed and go into a gymnatic cartwheel. I'm thinking about that gymnasts do it this way. I cartwheel up and over the fence on to the side of the house. I enter the house, there is a child cowering against the wall where the dining table used to be. I lead the child out. I get everybody into the getaway car. I'm in a big hurry because I know the bad guys are coming. I rush in to the car and start to drive away but notice a child was left on the curb, too late, the bad guy is here.
+ ... I grab my friend from the back and fly into the air to survey the surroundings. Outside/daylight. There are many mounds/hills in a grid spreading out into the distance, things are sort of dilapidated. We approach one hill in particular and notice that long tunnels/mine shafts have been dug into it. We're both outraged by this and want to find the parties responsible for this. I land and there's a fight with some guys?
+ in a room, dark, with ex-gf SB, she offers sex, I think "already? again?" but go along with it because hey, why not. Sort of vague genital contact. I notice there are open windows, I'm concerned about being seen [major DS], I look out and see run-down women standing around on a balcony on the building next to us. "That's the drawback of being in a separate bungalow, windows all around". Another woman is looking in nearby.
+ in some common room in a hotel, there is a half-height fridge opened and I'm looking in, people in this hotel have taken their food/snacks and stored it in the fridge for later with their name on it so it would be rude to eat it. There is a small table to the left with a large dish on it and people have put (money?) in there to pay for the snacks from the mini-bar, the dish is full. I think "Only Germans would be so honest to reliably pay for the stuff from the mini-bar."
Got to bed before midnight! Yes! A fairly nice night of dreaming, too. Noticed wakings, realized I had woken (in several cases directly from dreams). Up at about 4-5 hours for bathroom break. Right back to sleep. Set strong intention before bed. Did red pearl in throat visualization falling asleep at bedtime. Early recall vague.
+ I'm pooping in a stall open to the room in a public bathroom. The water level in the toilet is odd, it's now up to the rim, it's overflowing? Eek! I'm doing my business and things are "moving along," and I notice a guy standing at a sink nearby. Things get clogged and I have to reach back behind me and start pulling it out, yuck. The toilet is clogged and I have to ask for something to unplug it with.
+ Adventure theme. I save a girl from automatically closing blast doors (that slam down from the ceiling to the floor). I'm standing under them worrying about them closing and jump out of the way to the left just in time. The girl still has her foot caught and flattened a bit by the door.
+ Athletics: stretching with two other people (guy and a girl?). It's all about running fast and starting out quickly at the beginning. We're doing an exercise on the ground that involves pushing ourselves up and getting pulled by the friends. It's hard but I push myself up (on one arm?) and reach my other arm out, it's taken by the friends, and I pull myself up using that the rest of the way.
+ In an underground house complex set down from the street. I'm walking back (after the athletics above?) to the stairway. I see a guy I remember (son of the family who lives there?) lounging lying/sitting on the stairway with another person lying intimately on top of him. I'm trying to determine the gender of the second person, blonde hair, fair features, I decide it's a guy. "Yeah, I always thought he [first guy] was gay." Moving on, I go up the stairs to an upstairs hallway, (and am hanging out with some girls?)
+ [long, vivid] I'm visiting the house of a huge family. Multiple generations of families live in this massive house. I'm looking for a bathroom and I head upstairs. I'm having trouble finding a bathroom and this is getting exasperating, how hard could it be? I open a door in a wall that I see reveals a parallel hallway to the one I'm in, and I think these are the "private quarters" hallway only for the families who live there. I see a far-along pregnant woman in that hallway who indicates that's off-limits to me, and points me to a bathroom in my hallway. I find a room with sinks in front of a mirror but it turns out to be a kitchen? There is a plate with a slice of pizza [DREAMSIGN] on it and I think about eating it?
+(f) I walk past a kitchen counter (with stove?) of a house and turn the corner and I'm in an outdoor market. I'm thinking about this house being in the market.
+ Outdoors, night/dark, walking down a sidewalk, I encounter a (female?) police officer dressed fully in a heavy set of gear, with many things on her utility belt, walking the other way. I come to an intersection and am waiting for a walk indicator but notice that there are no working lights in the traffic light on the street. Continuing on a man walking the same way as me. I notice a group off to the right of people sitting at outdoor tables and I head in their direction. I see a pretty girl sitting at one of the tables, she has long, blonde hair. I do a nose pinch and keep walking towards the table. WAIT...could I breathe just then? Do another nose pinch, it's a bit ambiguous, but air moves so I conclude I'm dreaming. I approach the girl sitting at the table (and she's bald now? I don't care). I tell/will her to get up on the table and pull down her pants and say "show us your (ahem)". Her parents are at the table and say she doesn't have to do that. I lose lucidity shortly after that and don't recall the rest...
Bedtime TOO LATE again, argh!
Started reading Holecek again from the beginning.
+ I'm outdoors in an unknown place and I'm calling/screaming out for my son S2 to answer me, I'm looking for him. "S2! S2!" I hear an answer and I'm trying to triangulate his location from the voice. I come upon a house and I see my wife standing on a level platform above street level, she's holding the leash to our old dog L and she says something
+ I'm in a house, walking around, in one room the floor is caved in in places, and I'm afraid I might fall through. I probe those places with my foot and the floor collapses entirely revealing some open wooden beams and a guy or two crawling around in the area under the floor, they're talking about the floor with me.
Something about moving a heavy object.