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January 15, 2013

Lucid Dream

I was walking down the street in my friend's neighborhood, it as night at around 11pm as I remember looking at my phone for the time. As I was walking back to my friend's house there was an old man walking into his house and he yelled out to me, something like “Hi, hope you have a nice day.”. I turn around and shout back, “Thanks, you too, and sweet dreams.”, and at this point I think I became somewhat more aware of the dream once I said that but it did not make me lucid at this point. As I turn around and continue walking, like I said before I was more aware of my surroundings, I noticed what a beautiful night it really was. All the houses in the distance were shrouded by a light foggy mist with a really blue color, and I remember looking in the sky, it was a darker blue but the stars were out and plentiful. I love admiring the stars so I kept my eyes on the sky as I kept walking, and then something happened which caused me to become lucid, the stars started forming constellation lines between them. I could not make out any of the constellations but there were plenty of lines connecting the stars and I was so not-normal that I knew it had to be a dream. I did not even RC, I was convinced at this point and looking at the sky I wanted to fly, so I jumped way up into the air. A part of me was like “why did you do that!” because the last couple times I tried to do something like flying right of the bat the dream would end, but the other part of me was just staying calm and enjoying it and the dream did not end up ending right here . I wasn't actually flying, I just jumped around 100ft into the air and did a little flip at the top before starting to fall back to the ground, this happens to me a lot. So, as I reached the ground, I don't know what possessed me, but I just lifted my hands up and wanted to make and explosion go off in the distance, which it did. About 3 explosions go off, and I remember being amazed at the lighting on all the houses and even myself, but then the explosions jut disappeared once I stopped paying full attention to them. I still really wanted to fly, not just jump high but actually fly. Realizing that I have had good control in the dream so far, I set out to try it again, I jumped way up into the air with my mind focused on not stopping. This is where the dream got interesting, I was flying alright, but really fast and before I knew it I was skyrocketing out off the Earth's atmosphere into space. I just went with it as I kept going and going, it was almost like I was on a ride, I was just sitting back admiring the view of flying through space. I remember looking back and there was this huge red open portal thing behind Earth, I did not pay much attention to it. At first, there was a lot of colors everywhere, but after awhile everything started getting blacker and blacker with nothing to see. Well, that went on up until I noticed I was approaching something, it was the red portal again, but it was in-front of me. I was not stopping so I flew right through it and it took me back to where I started, right outside of Earth where the portal was to start with. I was confused at the time and something was telling me that I was in a parallel universe where time went backwards and I even had like a vision of some people walking backwards and everything. I can't remember exactly how it ended, but the rest of the dream is unclear to me.

Was short, but I was running and I realized I was dreaming. Then the dream ended after I lost concentration.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- no galantamine + choline (continuing the 1 day on 1 day off cycle)
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
- been trying out different ways to WILD

I was standing I think. My eyes were closed, and I was constantly doing the nose pinch RC. It kept half failing but half working, like some air would escape but most of it would stay in my nostrils. Very odd.

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01/16/13

Detta Walker's Rage
I am in my Fire Valkyrie heading for the moon. I land on the moon and get out, waiting for the dream to stabilize before deciding to aim for a Dark Tower dream this time. I focus on opening a portal. But a portal doesn't open. Instead a door appears. Well, that is consistent with the Dark Tower series… So I open the door and go through to the other side. I find I am on a beach. The beach seems to stretch out indefinitely in both directions with some hills on the one side and an endless ocean on the other. I walk along the beach with the ocean to my left. The first thing I hear other than the waves is a stream of expletives. Wtf? I follow the sound of a woman cursing a blue streak… I find Roland, Eddie, and a woman who could only be Detta Walker. She is cursing fluently at Roland and Eddie, calling them pathetic honkey mo-fos and saying she will bit off their dicks and feed them to each other… Roland and Eddie see me approaching and watch me warily. Eddie seems happy to see another person, Roland seems a bit more hesitant. When they look over at me so does Detta, and she immediately includes me in her abuse. She says for me to come join the party, those two honkey mo-fos are about to have their way with her but she's going to bite off their little white candles and then I can eat both of them, she calls me a fucking honkey hoe. She clearly would like to be accompanying her rant with rude gestures but she is tied to a wheelchair. She pauses and then continues her rant, now she is asking how many honkey mo-fos did they call in to handle one black woman… does it really take that many? Maybe some of them don't even have little white candles, but rather they just have a hole where their little white candles should be… gaping holes leading to the bowels of hell itself… She asks which of them (looking at me) have little white candles and which of them have the holes to stick 'em in. I wonder who she is talking to and I look behind me. There are five men back there, all of them white to Detta's disgust, all of them Templars to my own disgust. Detta asks if I do all five of them at once, I tell her I'd sooner kill myself than let a fucking Templar touch me… She now starts calling them honkey Templar mo-fo pieces of shit. I can't help but laugh. She calls me a hoe again and asks what is so funny, does it tickle to have their little white candles up inside of me? I tell her I don't let Templar bastards touch me. She asks if they're bastards, too? Of course! Their mammas must be so ugly a pig wouldn't do her… their daddies must have been flat drunk for them to even be conceived… then she calls them honkey bastard Templar mo-fos. I notice the Templars are actually being silent. I comment that Detta managed to stun Templars to silence… I like her. She asks if I'm going to lick her cunt… because it has teeth and will bite my face off when I try. One of the Templars finally says I stole something from them and they want it back. Detta asks if the honkey mo-fo Templar bastards lost their fer-special to some honkey hoe. She said I should break it. Then use it to cut off their little white candles. She cackles madly. I have had enough of her cursing. Roland and Eddie seem to be ignoring it and waiting for a chance to speak. Roland finally asks if I am the Raven… then who are those other people. I tell him they aren't with me. Detta identifies them as honkey mo-fo bastard fucking Templars with their main fuck, who is obviously me. I want to calm Detta. I use a song spell to calm her down, or I am about to when the Templars get violent. Roland cuts them down with his guns, though is clearly not happy about using the ammo. I tell him I can help with ammo supplies… and with Detta, who is cackling about how Roland blew the honkey mo-fos can all kill each other. I focus on the song Voices from the Macross Plus soundtrack and manage to soothe Detta. She falls asleep. Probably she will shift back to O'Detta Holmes. I look at one of the bullets from Roland's revolver and use my Pentacle to create more, enough to fill his ammo belts. He asks what manner of magic I used to create those… I am more focused on getting MoSh into the dream. I focus on opening a portal, hoping it isn't too late. Unfortunately it is… everything fades as I wake up.

The dream begins with my girlfriend driving me to go get some food at what seems like a fast food restaurant. We pull into the parking lot and park and she begins to open her door. In the distance I see a sketchy man start to walk up so I tell her to close the door quickly. Unfortunately it is too late and she and the man begin to struggle to open or close the door. After a minute the man opens the door and tells her to get out. She doesn't and he pulls out a very oddly shaped gun. It looks like a squirt gun or something mixed with a real gun and is gray. After he pulls the gun on her she quickly gets out and I walk over to her from the other side of the car. The man then points the gun at me but I hit his arm quickly to grab the gun from him. After this he takes off running and I shoot him. Another person also shoots him but I do not see him as he disappears.