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Journal Entry Lucid #20 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I told my parents I no longer need their permission to have LD. I realized that "right" and "wrong" are just a different view of the same picture so they don't have to agree with me and I don't have to agree with them. I told them that and they were upset at me. They were praying for me, I guess to change. And the most important part of the dream the man with half a face showed up because I have been having dreams that are gruesome where one involved my grandmother being killed and other with a man being stapled. I had the chance to confront it but I blew it for my own selfish telekinesis. I will have another chance hopefully. I meditated and I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragmennt 1, time 8:10pm-12:00am"":
I was in the living room and I see my dad on his laptop. He was using a program without me showing him how to use it. He asked me, "How long have I slept?" I looked at hand clock and it said 11 something. I said that weird why would he ask me, he hasn't slept at all. I then hear a voice that said move to your energy box. It got pitch black as I walked to grandma's room. I awoken for a brief moment and understood that it was the recording of Robert Monroe.

While conscious I tried to go back to sleep. I see a vague picture of a white horse in my room. It then became clearer and clearer. I had arms and I could move them. The first thing I did is rub my hands to stabilize. As I opened the door to my room it took me to a country side. I see a man to my right with half his face torn. No eyes and flesh dragging on his face. I thought I should project love. I don't want him to bother me though. I don't want to wake up,since I wake up after being satisfied with task I finish. I then gave him a cheap hug and I said, "sorry!". I turn to see if he left and he looked at the floor sad and began walking away. Most of the time when other lucid dreamers project love it ends in a wonderful way. I started to feel conflicted about the choice I made, he didn't disappear. I kept walking and thinking about it, I completely ignored the road made of gold and started walking elsewhere. I see my sister along with my cousin FN, AL, and BY. I tried to use my telekinesis and lift my sister up, but I was still distracted by the incident. She was just on her phone, nothing happened. I turned and tried again she went up, but then she shook her head of disapproval and she floated back down. I tried to lift my cousins and they went up but once I tried to lift my sister it doesn't work. I got angry and when I flicked my finger to make them land, they got launched to the floor. I then hear a countdown 10..9..8..-4 I woke up It was the mp3 player doing count down.

Journal Entry Lucid #19 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I slept early, grandma woke me up later around 9. I then gave her medicine and went to bed.

Dream fragment 2 time 9:20pm-unkown"":
I was using a Ipad app that can let you zoom on the earth. I zoomed in and I see the city then the road then I zoomed in and i see a network of more cities and more roads. I zoomed in infinite times and I kept getting more and more. I was no longer using and I pad but my hands. I thought this is strange and I realize it was a dream.

I realized it was a dream. I ended up in one of the cities that I zoomed in at. I started rubbing my hands. I see this military general. He pointed at me. I started pointing somewhere else to distract him. It worked he looked away and started walking away. I thought haha it worked now I could go do what I want. He turned and said, "wait a minute, get him!" He commanded his tanks to point at me. I knew they were no match for me and I didn't want to start a dream war. As a tank started driving towards me. I flicked my hands aggressively and it exploded. I started flying and I saw a lake. I just wanted to compete task so I started flying away. They have already declared war, but I didn't want to fight. I see a higher ranked general show up and he hand shook the other one. I flew down and tried to shake his hand. He looked at me and I woke up The dream was in more details but I got up recalled my dream and went back to sleep without writing it out.

Journal Entry Lucid #18 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: So this is a second LD on the same night. I did a wake back to bed. I think I went to sleep around 3 o clock and woke up around 4 close to five. Well I ate some food, banana PB sandwich. I then meditated for ten min before going to bed. I had some weird dream where I tickled a lizard and it transformed into a monkey. I awoken briefly and went back to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from time: unknown"":
I was in the UK or I thought I was. I sat next to a car to listen to a monk teach, I don't remember any of this part though. I hear someone talking. I thought I need money to get back home. I looked for an ATM. I found one but I realized I need a card to do a transaction. I see a lot of people from my Calc III class walking around. The ATM machines turned into a test taking desks. I see people on the computer. I went back to hear the monk's lectures and he was no longer there. I see people taking test in the dark. I looked for head of administrator of the test so I could take test. She told me to wait and told her students to turn off their computers for us so they won't distract us. They turned it off. The flat screen tv, the computers. She, I will call her head women, took a selfie with her students. I over hear these guys talking about a movie they finished. One guy said, "wow could you believe the ending?", the other responded, "yeah what a twist in the plot". "she got killed in her dreams and she died in real life". This man popped out of nowhere and gave head women an apple, black ugly apple. She ate it. The movie people said that is exactly what happened in the movie. She realized that she was dreaming and she was about to die. I thought that is strange it would most likely be my dream not hers. I started backing up. She looked at me and said it is your FAULT. I kept backing up and I see a group of girls that opposed her, they claimed to be on my side.

I now completely recognized that it was my dream. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize my dream as the girls fought each other. I didn't like all the negativity, and I wanted to use my new superpower telekinesis. I tried to levitate a girl, nothing. I tried again but this time I didn't doubt myself and she started floating. I was in a t-shaped hallway. I took off my shoe so that I could have a stabilization point. I felt the cold floor and it helped stabilize the dream. I then turned around and saw all theses people fighting, all girls btw. With a gesture of my hand flick, one at a time they levitated, about 15 people. I kept flicking my hands and they all levitated, even head women. One girl defined me and floated back down, I said uhh uhh uhh and I levitated her back up. I was happy that more than one person/object can be lifted and can be individually manipulated. I then wanted them out of the hallway. Very gently i opened the door with my mind and took them out.

I see these guys at the end of a hallway and one guy threaten me. I said let's make a lesson out of him. I see a bunch of male rushing out of the room scared. I was in the middle. I stopped everybody at once and levitated them. I saw that I was doing harm when I saw two guys in crunches struggling. I gently lowered them. I couldn't find the guy that threaten me, so I took everybody out of the building gently again. I then went inside and saw a scared man, big bearded man. I thought I could kill him, but then I changed my mind because it is a dream so why should I kill him. I then started flying I doubted myself for a split second and fell, slid across some Japanese building then I gained my flight again. I then remembered what I wanted to do and there was a park right next to me as well. As I was flying I hear a beautiful song being sang. I felt my eyes tearing up as I thought about death as such a beautiful thing as this. I started singing along and I went to the park. Since I didn't stabilize again I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #17 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:10pm-12:53am"":
I was being transported by a sponge bob mobile. At first an actual mobile than I was just flying. It felt weird and euphoric. I see houses, I see mist everywhere. A little sprinkle of water was falling from the sky. And somehow it clicked.

I realized it was a dream. I awoken in my house, grandma's room. It was still night time. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize the dream. I hear a voice say, "One thing is real to you". I thought real? what like the spinning top from inception? I felt like it was talking about my RC and stabilization technique. I walked to the living room, I see my dream grandmother praying. I wanted to feel loved, so I went and hugged her. She tells me you didn't sleep at all, you should get some sleep. I kinda laughed at that in my head, I thought if only she knew what I am now capable of(since it was a dream). I then went to the garage. I see a huge fridge in the middle of the garage. I thought I could turn that into a portal. I wanted to go see Morpheus in the white room to practice telekinesis. I opened it and I see this hot model chick in Alaska or somewhere cold with a beer can the size of her body, like the advertisements. I closed it right away as to not get seduced.

I then remembered all those failed attempts at telekinesis because I want Morpheus to teach me. I then thought I could practice here. I turned and I see my friend TO. He was just observing me. I extended my arm and pointed at an object. I cringed and flexed my muscle to make it levitate. Nothing. I quickly got the doubt, by telling my self to imagine it as if it was easy. I then extended my arm and pointed at the backpack. It just floated towards me. The feeling was strange, it felt like the object was an extension of my arm. I felt the object; back and forth, up and down were just like moving an arm. I then turned and saw a luggage and I wanted to pick up two objects. I felt doubt that I could do it, but I said I could do it and it floated with the flick of my finger. I had two objects floating independently. I started moving one forwards faster than the other. I noticed my friend looking at me. I thought for some reason he is noticing that I am losing lucidity. I started rubbing my hands, of course objects fell. A female came inside the garage and she needed help putting on a glove. My friend looked at me as if I should help her. I thought I get a lot of help from DC, so why not. I go up to her and I started putting on the glove for her. It was a very strange glove. Green highlights, futuristic looking. While doing this I thought this happens a lot before I wake up, distractions. I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #16 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I went to sleep wanting a LD but without forcing it. I laid in what the Tibetans call "lions position". I didn't fall asleep for a while and I had other dreams and brief awakenings.

Dream fragment 2 from 3:20am-6:00am"":
I was playing on some game in my dream, suppose to be a virtual reality game. I put my hand out and I touched this 2in in diameter. I tried pulling it but it was strong. I kept trying and it was painful. I thought pain is like an illusion and I pulled it out. It felt like a dream I thought.

I realized it was a dream. I see my mother next to me atop a of a building. She mocked me, as usual, and said, "Oh so you are in a dream, well then have fun". She tried to distract me, but I left. I jumped from the building to another. I kind of lost control but not lucidity. I see a women jumping as well. I became her them back to me then her. I no longer had a real body. This guy started fighting with me. I was lucid without control. I didn't like it. I willed myself to control. I felt my body about to awaken. I started rubbing my hands. No use I still feel my body about to awaken. I became desperate. I started touching the red brick wall. I remembered what I wanted to do: telekinesis. I then see graffiti on the wall. It was a women. I started following the image and she was running and new painting was being animated when she kept running. At the edge of the wall she made a right turn. I turned around and I see this cartoony place. I was at my old elementary school, Rosa Parks Elementary. I saw pictures of Rosa Parks and other black people. I see them looking at me. I started to cry because I thought I have forgotten about my childhood, but here it is. A voice says with power, "the test was to see if they could get rid of your childhood". I replied no they cannot. I was so relieved and happy and crying. I saw this text that read something like, "Mothers of the Earth offer...", I agreed with it as well.

I see these guys, children walk to the pictures and one guy throws food at the picture. I thought how disrespectful. I became angry. I stopped on of the food in flight. He said. "dam I missed". One said, "what if he is here". The other one said, "no he is gone". It seemed as though they couldn't see me. That is when I realized I could have been a child that died at the school a long time ago. He kept throwing fruits on wall. I grabbed it. I wanted to throw it back at him, but I decided not to. The fat guy says again, " I missed". I thanked my dream for leading me to such a cherished time and experience. I wanted to do the task I set out for: telekinesis, but I felt satisfied and without wanting, I awoken. I woke up feeling satisfied as if something resolved itself.

When I was a child I had an after school teacher who told me that I would not amount to anything. That I couldn't even graduate middle school. It stuck around and I thought of myself as an idiot in elementary. This dream may have closed some old wounds regarding that, I don't know.

Journal Entry Lucid #15 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: WBTB. I watched the Thor movie. I did some RC while watching it.

Dream fragment 2 from 3:20am-5:00am"":
To simply put I was hanging out with Loki, he was doing some mischief. I woke up and I was on a couch realized I was dreaming. The dream was fading. I was in the void. I was very tired. I kept rubbing my hands so I won't disconnect from the dream. I gave out, so exhausted from the night that I just wanted to rest and not resist the whole time.

Journal Entry Lucid #14 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I woke up at 12:50 and watched a movie, Waking Life, now my favorite movie. I have watched it 3x now and every time I notice something unique about the movie. I watched it until the point in which he talks to the biker guy in the bar, (not to include any spoilers). Since my dream recall went back up since I started meditating, I was desperate for a LD. I realized that it is the end of the week. My heart ached for a LD. I know that most of my other LDs were when I was in between longing and serenity. Where I had my intention but my intention did not make me anxious. I listened to some music that I enjoyed. I tried relaxing it took a while. I then let my imagination take over as I kept telling myself the next thing I will see is a dream.

Dream fragment 2 from 3:20am-5:00am"":
The dream was interesting, I was in church and I said hi to some guy. I thought I knew him, but I didn't. I see the kids from church running as usual. This guy was telling them about LD. One child believed it and got into trouble. Then I was on the internet, watching some show on youtube. I found this clip of teens, supposedly uncontrollable teens. I am now an observer no longer on a computer. The teens were acting wild they tried to act like they were adults. They were kissing very sexually while holding each other. I then saw a girl and a guy have sex like in the movie scene where you don't actually see it but it is implied. I see the girl and the guy behind her. I then float my eyes to a different room. As I was doing this the dad walks up to me like I am the camera. He said, "do you know what my daughters told me? My daughter told me THAT THEY WOULD PLAY WITH THEMSELVES UNTIL THEY WENT TO BED, they claim they have a sleeping problem". He shakes his head and walks away. I see two girls sitting in the room with their hands inside their pants or in each other pants. Then one girl wrestle with the other. The cover goes over them this served as a transition like the movie.

I am still a spectator, I am in a cartoony environment. It was a tale about the emotion "anger" represented by some big bluish monster. The cartoon's theme was blue and purple which glowed in color. The voice was talking a lot and as he did the environment along with what is happening changed. I don't remember it clearly but I remember the voice say, "...it was in everyone of us..." The voice kept going. I was in awe by the whole experience not understanding what I was experiencing. I paid attention to the details while being in the dream. I woke up, I had the hardest time walking. I thought wow trippy dream, and now I feel trippy too. It felt like my legs was ahead and too slow when I wanted it to do something. I walked into the bathroom, it was dark as if someone replaced the lights with candles. I started peeing inside of a bucket. I thought oh crap I peed in the wrong place. I thought about it all and I thought I could still be in the dream. I did a nose plug. I could breath. I did it again, I still could breath.

I became lucid. I walked out of the bathroom and realized that I wasn't wearing any cloth but a boxer. I thought ah the clothes will spawn later. I see my sister's friend watching me weird. I also see my grandmother putting on her shoe to leave. I went to her room. I did a nose plug check, I still could breath. I started rubbing my hands then I looked at my hands it was blurry and had no real form. It floated all over the place. I went out of grandma's room. I then looked around everything else was spot on. I then lifted my hands and began to fly. I put had down and I gently went down. I knew what I wanted to do, I saw the blue sky when I looked through the back door. I wanted to fly to the clouds. I walked through the front door. I wanted the front door to serve as a portal. The moment I got close to the front door I became anxious and I could feel heart racing for some reason. I thought man I am going to wake up I woke up and I laid there. I was pleased with the LD even though it was short. I didn't move that much
I woke up and started walking around the house unsuspectingly. I was in the dinning room. I was talking to my grandmother. As I was doing that I lifted my hands and my sister's friend got lifted off the ground. Time froze my body was frozen but I was not. She was frozen. I then went to my grandmother, she showed up a picture of my first dream I had today. It was about a women I was talking to. She had a bizarre look. My grandmother said, "look at her face that should have made you lucid, and now this". I looked at it and realized it is a dream.

I was so grateful. I walked into grandmothers room and I saw a man sleeping there. I was rubbing my hands to enhance the quality of the dream. I started noticing him in more detail. I saw that he had a brown hair, beard, and blue eyes. He looked confused. I was confused why he was in my grandmother's room. I thought this might be the weird logic of dreams, maybe that is my grandmother. I was grateful for my actual grandmother making me lucid that I told him I love him. He looked shocked at first then passive to it. I walked out. I see my grandmother and my father in the dinning room. My grandmother was on far left, closest to the backdoor, and my father was on the right of the table. As I was walking out I told my grandmother willingly in my language, "I love you". I wanted to see how I envision my house to look like in my dream. When I walked out I touched the wall. They were very smooth. The wall of the house was circular which didn't represent my house at all.

I then realized that I could fly. I started flying with my hands raised up to my mid section as if I was using telekinesis. I told myself I wanted to fly without the use of my hands. While in mid flight I lowered my hands and started rubbing them together to get a vivid experience. I stayed up. With pure will power I started to fly any direction I want. I saw my backyard and it had a tennis court. I think also a swimming pool. I turn around and noticed that my house was located next to my school. I flew just a little bit and landed. I touched the ground and felt the cold floor. I thought I must not be wearing shoes. I felt every pressure that I applied. The school looked some what like it did when there was no construction crew around. I see students holding books walking around. then saw a girl sitting down wearing a bikini, I got distracted she got up and started running. I turned around and looked at her butt. I caught myself and tried to focus. I turn around and I see death, but closer analysis showed that it was just a guy wearing a costume. A lot was happening at once. I smelled the air, the smell of roses. I tried to stimulate all my senses. I then wanted to do an awareness with the just my vision alone without rubbing my hands. I was losing clarity, NOT LUCIDITY but Clarity. I knew though that I might start losing lucidity soon so I went back to rubbing my hands. I started rubbing them in a circular motion to get a different feeling.

I wanted to find a door and make a portal to a "training facility" like the one in Matrix, so that I could practice telekinesis there with Morpheus(this has been my LD goal for quite sometime now). As I was walking I saw my friend from school, EK, and IN, they just walked passed me like any other dream character. I called their names. EK turned around. I took out my fist to fist bump him. He then took out his and started throwing his hands around very quickly. I thought what is the point, he is just a DC anyways. I walked away. I looked up and saw a dark cloud appearing. I wanted to go inside the building, which now looks nothing like my school(*form transformation). It started to rain. I hear thunder. People started panicking. I didn't feel the rain. I became confused and tried to make sense out of it. The DC started running for the door as if the water would kill them, they were in pain. I was confused I lost lucidity for some reason maybe it was the confusion or maybe I tried to make sense out it and got distracted.

I watched them take a guy into questioning. He was being accused about something. They took out a box, his "weapon". They started explaining how he would use his weapon. He got angry and he said,"you guys don't even know how to use it". You don't know what goddle particles are. He turned in on. And pointed it towards the man accusing him. It started eating up his stomach. The man fell to the floor and died. We were in my kitchen at the time. The device went straight through the food, bread. I started feeling weak and thought maybe it was the device releasing radiation. I quickly put it into a plastic bag. I kept saying that we have to move out now. They didn't listen. I ran around the complex house and I found trash outside. I threw it in but realized that it was sinking in. I knew that I had to throw it some where very far. I told them to leave. My grandmother comes back to check on it. I got angry and frustarted that she didn't listen. I thought that thing gave me cancer. I didn't want my family to suffer. I tried to help my grandmother out of the garage but ended up with this opening that read luch box.

I woke up in another scene that looked like "waking life". Narrator said, "I was now just like everybody else". I see the main character entering the bar, sitting down. His face was gone. I thought trippy dream and remembered that I was dreaming and I didn't write down my other dreams. I realized I had to write down my other dreams, so I decided to wake up before I forget. I did forgot some details though.

Became lucid by: DILD (awareness and nose-plug RC)

Journal Entry Lucid #13 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:I got up at 11:47pm. I went to sleep around 2:00am. I watched a video about meditation. Before I went to sleep I thought about the trend of having 1Ld/week was going to disappear. I still had hope though. I wanted a LD very much but my priorities were (dream recall > LD). I became happy and delighted about going to sleep. I laid there listening to my favorite tune in a comfortable position on my belly. I said pharse next thing I see is a dream. The song finished and it was completely quite. I kept saying the phrase with content. I fell asleep somewhere here. ( I am sooo happy that I got LD, the whole week I suffered from remembering my dream and I get this wonderful gold mine today I am soo happy.)

Dream fragment 2 from 2:20am-3:56am"":
I was skating in a middle of a busy street. I could hear familiar voices talking about me. They were criticizing me about something. I kept listening then I thought who is it? I turn and I see it was some class mates of mine. They said what's up, and I left. I see my friend LE. He is sitting eating a sandwich. I picked up my board it was a guitar that wasn't quite finished. He said, "that's your board". I said, "yeah I made it all by myself". I don't even skateboard.

-I was now walking in my school parking lot in the back. As I was walking I get an idea to remember my dreams. I thought I know I should tell my life like a dream and make it as intresting as a book. I remembered the previous dream I had and I started to describe it to myself. I then started to describe my surroundings. I hear a chatter in side of a car. I kept walking I see tall grass. I walk down. The chattering has now shifted I notice that

I became lucid and I thought this is a dream. The dream was pretty stable since I just slept. I started to fly immediately. I see the girls that were chattering. One of them I knew the other one was her younger much prettier sister. I hear the younger sister complain about her sister to her mom. I then flew close to their cars. The younger sister flew with me. We went to the atmosphere. I could see the clouds and the sun. I looked at her floating and thought does she know that she is even floating, if I tell her she is would she fall. With that thought I stumbled a little but regain balance. I looked at her and she was facing away from me. I tried twisting to face her on the same level. She turns again. I kept trying, but it disoriented me. I didn't know what direction I was in up down or anything. She said females are the polar opposite to males. I said oh that is why you did that. While she was talking to me I blew some air on her face. She got blown off for a couple of distance. It also got colder when I did that. We went down and landed. She took me inside a house. She looked so independent from me that I thought about the idea that she don't realize that she is in my dream. I said to her how do you know this is reality? she laughed at me. I said everybody laughs but nobody questions. I did a cheap RC. I counted my fingers, and I plugged my nose, I did them with partial awareness. I walked through the shutters. I wanted to use telekinesis. I wanted to lift the house with just my mind. I put my hand out but then I got attacked. I see two ninjas they jumped and tried to hit me. They were extremely slow too. She told them to stop but they didn't listen. When I wanted to fight them it was like I automatically knew mixed martial arts. I punched kicked and dodged them. I stopped and I realized that I was loosing lucidity when I was fighting them. I became too involved. They launched at me again. They grabbed my hands and I tried to remove them. I couldn't rub my hands.

They let go of me but I lost lucidity. I started walking around. I woke up inside of my car. I was so happy I had a LD. I looked for my DJ. I couldn't find it. I went outside. And I started looking for it. I kept telling myself the dream so that I won't forget it. My memory was sharp. I see a car drive by. My grandmother was in the car as well. The people from the other car came inside my car and started taking my mother's stuff. I stopped them but they told me they had her permission. They recognized that I was acting strange so the women asked me what was I doing before they came. I told her that I was looking for my DJ. She became excited and asked me to tell her my dream. I thought I could tell her the LD that I had but I would have to explain LD to her, and she may not like me. I looked at her arms and I thought about how weak she looks. I wanted to tell her to make her feel strong and powerful. I stared into her dreamy hazel eyes. Mesmerized by her beauty someone else drove the car. We were now walking. She asked me if I thought it was fair what the Ukrainians did to their old president. She told me a gruesome story. We were walking in rubble of destroyed building like Syria. I responded by acknowledging what they did was wrong but it lets dictators know that when freedom is token freedom from the people, the people will rise. No amount of power can over come the will of the people, the collective.

I see a camera man recording something. He turns around and starts recording me. I tried to hid. He came to me and told me that it is already too late. I walked away. He started smoking. I started talking to an artist. He made a poster and I said nice to him. Then I see another artists drawing and i said nice to him too. The other artist said, "that compliment was for me". Jokingly I said, "what do you have it copyrighted". He said yes it is owned by (his name) which I don't remember.



Became lucid by: DILD (awareness not RC)

Background: This was my very first lucid dream, pretty old dream around 2011-2012. well here's the story: I watched inception and I really became intrigued by dreams and what they are. I joked around about controlling dreams to my friends and family. I had this thought when I was a child but it got thrown out as a stupid thought by myself. Well I then searched up "dream control" on the internet. I got lucid dreaming as a suggestion. I didn't believe it at first. It felt like a far-fetched idea, but I was open minded to it. I learned a little about LD, but not too much. I thought I was "trying at the moment but I barely did anything". I didn't write down my dreams down. Even my first LD, I never wrote it down, but you never forget the first. I tried a little for a couple of weeks and nothing. I waited and kept trying for a month two then three months. I gave up around the fourth month. As I was laying down watching spongebob I fell asleep during the break.

Dream:I don't remember what made me lucid but I became lucid inside of a room. The dream was stable though. I thought about what I wanted to do for a long time which was naturally to fly. I never thought about limitation. I broke through the roof tops. I thought about flying fast like in the movies where they see the stars passing by them. I immediately escaped Earth's atmosphere. I passed the sun then the stars. I kept going. It became pitch dark. I said uhh uhh I am going all the way. I kept flying for some time in the VOID. I broke through the floor and ended up in my sister's room. I lost lucidity here. I walked around house for some reason in the dream. I woke up and realized that was only ten min of sleeping. I became excited because now I believe.

Journal Entry Lucid #12 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I got up around 1:22 and I studied for my chemistry exam. I don't remember thinking about LD. Around 3:45am I got up and went to my room. I listened to some music and I just tried to enjoy the moment. (I did not listen to any Robert Monroe recording because I wasn't aiming to become Lucid.) I told myself don't care about having a LD, just go to sleep and try and remember some dreams. I went to sleep very hungry.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:10am-4:46am" Family's Support and Mewtwo's Cry":
I remember walking around my neighborhood stores. I was eating food with my friend TO, and my teacher. I came back home and I saw my parents come out of the car. My neighbor who didn't look like himself was driving the car. After he parked it, I helped them get the food out the car. I saw a machine that takes the food to my neighbor's house. It went across the beautiful green grass they had. I turn and I see giraffes and antelopes in our hard. They were fighting with each other it was crazy.

I woke up because of my hunger. I felt sad and angry that I woke up. I thought oh man I am going to have a hard time going back to sleep now. I thought for a second about a video I watched, he said to be happy in every thing that you are doing and do it out of love. I manged to ignore my stomach and I laid down laughing about something. The dream happen within seconds maybe.

I think it was just me talking to myself in my imagination at first. Enjoying the time, but it quickly became a disturbing conversation. [COLOR="#0000FF"]I found myself in church having a conversation with this man and BE, old friend. I saw this guy in front of me and he is telling me if I leave, we will fight. He is going crazy yelling at me. I looked at him at peace filled with no emotions of anger like I usually do. I thought this doesn't make sense. I told my self to move to make sure I wasn't imagining it. I managed to move.

Family's Support: I then had the thought this is a dream why haven't I done anything yet. I started acting casual about it and I walked in middle of the room. I started rubbing my hands because I felt like the dream was on the verge of ending. I looked around to make sure it was a dream and not some extreme visualization. I looked at the kids in the room they were running around playing tag without me thinking about it. As I was about to walk out of the room the guy followed me, he said I am getting weak, BE said the same thing. I felt a little weak but I was excited. I kept going I saw some food, I told them to eat some food. I picked it up it was a pink cookie thing it had a taste of donut. I knew I fell asleep hungry and my physical body can't be tricked for long. I told them hey look at this.

I stopped rubbing my hands and I flew up to the ceiling with ease. The church people started gasping and looking at me like I was a monster. I thought about how it felt, this particular flight. It felt like someone picking me up. I didn't feel in control anymore, my legs started rising above me making my head upside down. I thought ok I will work with this. I started swinging my legs to get a circular motion going. I felt nauseous at first but then I could control my whole body now. I stopped my body and landed. My grandmother wasn't as protective anymore, she trusted me. She told me that the church people are not ready to accept me, (I guess a LDer), they seemed to be convinced thought that it was real life. I started to fly again and I was about to try and go through the door, phase. I bumped into it and it changed my direction of flight. My uncle opened the door for me and he said, "go fly, go up, go high". I saw a beautiful horizon, purple and blue with a blend of orange. I don't know how to describe it really. The dream then froze like a computer screen. I couldn't move the body that I see, everything remained motionless. I then entered the VOID.

Mewtwo's Cry: It was pitch dark but I knew that the dream didn't end. I started rubbing my hands. I let go off my lucidity, I let my thought wonder, but I caught it right away. A dream started to form. I see a wasteland, ugly looking thing. I see Mewtwo from Pokemon, my favorite Pokemon when I was a kid. I thought wow dreams could get random. I thought am I going to be mewtwoI started getting closer to it. It was flying around the dystopic landscape. I became him. I then started rubbing my new hands. It was white and I had those three little fingers that Mewtwo had. The sensation though still felt like five fingers. I could still fly too. I kept flying. I saw a lot of legendary Pokemons. They were flying, running and jumping around, attacking each other. Some shooting beam out of their mouths at each other. I said to them, "we should not fight with each other..." (I don't remember exactly what I said after wards but I know it has something to do with the corruption of lords and how we should not follow them). I then stopped mid flight and I pointed both my fingers side ways. I saw my chest as I was doing this and I saw the armor that Mewtwo had, the dream was so consistent. After I put my hand out to the side I made a purple enegry beam that exploded and woke me up.

Became lucid by: DILD

Journal Entry Lucid #11 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: After a week of bad recall and a night of no recall. I woke up to do a WBTB and then went to sleep after hearing some Robert Monroe. I fell asleep for about an hour and got a LD. I went to sleep not caring for a LD but just wanting to remember a dream.

Dream fragment 1 from 4:30am-5:46am" Trust No One":
I was in the car with my dad. We went to a mansion, to sell it. We heard the real estate guy talking very loud on the phone even though he was at the second floor of the mansion. My dad said, "he won't notice if we left and came back, I forgot something". We drove off I looked anxiously back. I thought he might see us leave.

I was now in my old middle school it wasn't obvious to me at the time but I was walking around suspicious and for some reason I put my hand on my nose and closed it up. I can still breath. I kept walking. It caught me I could still breath. I did it again, still I could still breath. I thought this is a dream, but I didn't believe it. I tried again thinking what if I am doing the RC wrong and not closing my nose completely. I then said this is a dream and ran around like a mad man looking around. I thought wow even a band is here. The band looked at me weird. I looked at my hands maybe to do a RC again but I didn't. I then started rubbing my hands it felt normal like waking world. The realism was spectacular. I realized that I was not going to come out of this dream so I stopped rubbing my hands. As I was about to walk out a classmate that I know walks up to me and he said you are not dreaming. I just looked at him. He said you have been lying to yourself the whole time. You bought a glove with six fingers so that you could believe your lies and you did the nose plug wrong. He said trust me and gave me his hand. I looked at him fishy but thought maybe he is right, I might have lost my mind. I gave him my hand. I lost lucidity. We were now going to some store to buy gloves or something else. A lesson learned: trust no one on the essential truth of reality you are experiencing.


Became lucid by: DILD

Journal Entry Lucid #10 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: After awakening at 11:44, extremely tired, I used the bathroom and remember little snippets of dreams.
I couldn't try to WILD at that time because I am too tired and would fall asleep too easily. I stayed up and I played BF3 to make myself a little awake and too feel happy because I woke up sad. Around like 1:40, I made myself that avocado mixture, with banana, strawberries, tangerine and berries. I don't think the food made a difference though. I heard Robert Monroe's audio advanced focus 10. Then I thought let me do a WILD. I rolled over to my side with my head resting on my left hand. NO luck, King Yoshi suggested turning over if there is no luck. I rolled on belly and I put both my arms back. Just like he said there was a switch. I immediately fell asleep, I want to stay aware but like he said I went to sleep faster.

Dream fragment 3 from 2:20pm-3:06am" Spinning Technique":
I was playing a race on GTA 5. This guy constructed easy race, from point A to point B. I thought this will be easy and I lost. My sister told me about how easy it is. I wanted a replay so they gave it to me. This time instead of looking at the race. We became curious about the AI of the game. I saw this little blond white girl just standing there. An opponent said, "what do you think that AI is thinking about?" I don't know. We went to get a closer look. She looked lifeless. She stared into space just looking at the cars pass by. She then gave us a face look. She started at us for a couple of seconds and then back. I walked away from the race and went up this little hill thing, into a store. I saw my mother and father there. They asked me to go get some food. I left.I woke up and thought, "I should have been lucid", this was only a second of opportunity and I took it. I went back to the same dream and I gave my parents the food my father was gone. When I handed my mother the food she asked me if I washed my hands. I thought about it and thought back to what I was doing before going to bed. I washed my hands and face I thought.

I realized it was a dream and I started to rub my hands. I controlled my emotions this time. I look around and realized that I was in the bathroom. I said, "Thank you, Lord!" or, "what ever helped me get Lucid" (Meaning myself or something else). I walked out the door like as if not lucid, I didn't want the DC to know I was LD. When I walked through the door I realized that we were in a diner of some sort. I saw a waitress give my mother and my grandmother and sister some food. My dad however was in a different table. I thought why would I dream my dad separated from my mom? I looked around the diner and it looked very dark and dim. The quality of the dream looked sad and depressing. I wanted to lighten the atmosphere up and thought if I could get a little object that is bright in color I could change the whole entire atmosphere. I thought about turning one of the napkins into bright baby blue and red. I looked back and at first it was normal white. I said not good enough. I turned again and it was dark red and brown. I thought I got to escape from my family.

Knowing that my family is overprotective in my dream I tried to sneek out. I looked at my door to my left and I saw a dark looking area, THE VOID as some people like to call it. I look at my right and I see the outside with lights on. I walk out. As I was walking I did a quick RC so that I won't mistake it to be Waking life I looked at my hands and as soon as I was about to start counting I saw a smaller pinky starting to grow out as to make the RC fail. I laughed and said this is a dream. Also my grandmother made some petite excuse to follow me and came along.She said in my language, "Where are you going?" I said, "no where grandma". She kept following me. I told her to mind her own business I will be ok. She didn't listen. I knew that my grandmother always wants her way and if she was anything like my grandmother she is persistent. I turn around and I see another copy of her. I thought oh crap it better not be a demon or prototype just like my last long LD.

I quickly told myself not to say that and I told myself to play with the ridiculous logic of dreams. I was still rubbing my hands BTW. I told my grandmother as we were walking back to the diner that the clone was her twin sister. She didn't respond at first but then she said yeah that is my twin sister. She started speaking English, "Dam she fat though". I laughed because they looked identical. They even had the same cloth on. I thought of a way to get rid of my grandmother. I told her in English hey grandmother your fat twin sister is going to steal your food, you better stop her. She turned around and started walking away I found the window of opportunity and I took it. I started doing the spinning technique. I started seeing all the environment get smudged.

I felt my waking body in my room. I thought I was going to wake up then I got a thought of hope,"don't give up". I stayed in the dream. I started feeling my dream body. I saw it get re-spawned in a freeway. Then it got launched to a parking lot. I thought, "is this GTA 5 environment". The quality of the dream was ugly. The objects looked like cardboard boxes with smudged drawing on them. I started rubbing my hands and started looking at the environment. It started looking realistic but the quality only went to the quality of GTA 5 not waking life. I turned around and looked at the cars and I could see the reflection of the world on the cars. I was content with the quality and I said "Not bad". I then wanted to explore the city and at first was going to drive the sports car that were in the parking lot but instead I flew out of the parking lot. I had no doubt about my flying ability, so I flew with ease. I then gently landed on the street in front of the parking lot. I used my hands gently putting them down as if I was doing telekinesis. After I landed, I thought what should I do. I thought about using telekinesis to pick up cars and stuff but thought of making a training simulation where I am in a all white room and their is different objects there. I imagined a door that will take me to this place. I closed my eyes for one second and realized that the dream might changed. I opened them and saw this black circle across my eyes, you know the one you get when stare at something bright and it leaves and after image. I thought WTH, what do I do?

I woke up. I thought at first that I over loaded my brain by the new task I presented to it but I woke up because I wasn't rubbing my hands. I was using them to fly and stuff. I can't seem to get the dream stable enough to the point I won't have to rub my hand all the time.

Became lucid by: DILD

Journal Entry Lucid #9 Dream,Lucid, Comments)
Background: I woke up around 2:00 Am, which was about 5-6 hrs after I went to sleep. I stayed up and I watched some inspirational videos about success and possibility. Then I read Stephan LaBerge's book, I left the computer about 1:20 min later. I went to kitchen to make me some food because I felt hungry, made myself some oatmeal. I don't think the food matters though. I went to my room at around 3:38 am. I listened to Robert Monroe's intro to focus 10. I stayed up for nearly 100% of it. If I did lose consciousness for a second but when I did I regain it by willpower. After doing all the exercises around the end, he mentioned that I have the power to remember anything that I wanted to by touching my head with the tip of my hand and telling myself to remember, so I told myself to remember LD. (*I believed what he said to near 100% certainty but if it failed it was because I touched my head with my hand and I don't know if that is what he meant or if he wanted me to imagine). After 30 min of the audio, I turned over and found a comfortable position to go to sleep. As I was getting sleepy I reminded myself to realize that I am dreaming. I said those famous phrase, "next time I'm dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming". I said this repeatedly and I fell asleep sometime soon. I also heard my moms voice which influenced my dream tremendously.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-2:30am"":I found myself watching my gaming avatar on YouTube. It looked and felt real but at same time surreal. I got tired of watching the car chase, so I got up out of the computer and went to the living room. I hugged my grandmother and father because I thought I didn't see them in a while. I asked them where my mother was. They didn't want to respond for some reason. I thought I know I heard her voice. I asked, "is she sleeping? did she just sleep right now? I haven't seen her all day." My dad looked at me mad, and said don't disturb her. It was early in the night around 9:00pm. Me and my father were outside in the backyard. My mother walks out and started telling us her interesting dream.

She said, "I saw my own brain, literally! I turned over in the dream and saw my brain". I thought that sounds like O.B.E. I told her what if that wasn't a dream and that was real? As we were going back inside the house, my dad said she needs a way to go back to sleep. I don't know what I said, but my father responded angrily, "pssh dream! Dream is nothing". I told myself in the dream I am the only one that walks this path, I am only doing this for myself. I was in the computer room and my mother brought some tea and she asked me which one will make her go to sleep. I said, "I thought you are going to work isn't it early in the morning". I thought this doesn't make any sense why am I doing this looking at the tea bags in my hand. My mother disappeared. I said I better not be dreaming about something this boring. I looked at the time on my computer screen it read at first "9:40 AM.B" then a second glance "9:49 Am" then again "9:50 Am". It was also hard to focus on the numbers. I thought about the time "am" but it was still pitch dark outside.

I realized I was dreaming. I started rubbing my hands right away. I started becoming very excited because it was such a consistent, realistic and not to mention ordinary dream, but I logically became lucid. I tried to spin around to stabilize my dream. The spinning made me very nauseous. It felt like I was shrinking at the same time. It felt harder to breath as well. It felt so horrible that I decided to wake up. As soon as I decided to do that I woke up, with the last thing I saw my grandmothers' bed. I did a RC after awakening and about to write my LD.

Journal Entry Lucid #8 Dream,Lucid, Comments)
Background: I watched an inspirational video when I did WBTB, I woke up around 3 am, I slept around 4:30 am . It was about success and becoming successful. I also watched a video about Mohammed Ali saying "I will show you how great I am". I watched this before bed. I didn't read about LD though. I went to sleep and I accepted that if I don't get a LD it is because I didn't work hard. Not because I can't have one. I said to myself 'I will show you how great I am'. I kept saying this imagining myself become lucid.

I had a dream but I got awoken up by my alarm at 5:50. I went back to sleep and got this.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-2:30am"": I was in some room and we were told to decorate something. This girl followed me around and I walked up to her and I said, "what is your name?"she said, "Cindy". She looked down at her shoe all shy. I walked around my sister's room she had art pieces that I have never seen on canvas. Her room is usually a mess so I didn't see it as much. I met some nurses on my way. They were telling me that they were nurses before they even had a degree. I came back to the room and Cindy already decorated it for me. She yelled surprise and everybody pops out of their hiding spot. The decoration looked colorful and vibrant but mostly childish and innocent. Their was flowers and little trees. I told her it looked magnificent and that she knows how to decorate. I thought in my head though, it is still a bit childish but it is fine.

This guy came tripped over a tree Cindy made and he rolled on a movable chair and he kept rolling around for a while. We were all laughing. It seemed that we were in a different context as he fell. The scene changed with out my notice. We were now in some sort of comedy sketch. Apparently porn stars came to watch the comedy sketch. These were not porn stars but people I know in waking life, they are not friends of mine just people that I see around some times. I laid down on three chairs as I watched the comedy sketch. I became aware of that and I thought I wouldn't normally act like this. I started becoming self conscious about myself but for some reason stopped caring. DC were getting upset because I was talking to my friend. They kept looking at me with disgust. Then the alleged porn stars started talking about their nipple piercing. I was still laying down so I didn't see it, but every one else that saw it became disgusted by it. The one that showed her nipple piercing left to her boyfriend. Apparently he forced her to get the piercing. I went outside with my friends to see the drama. I see this guy walking behind her, skinny scrawny guy. It looked like DMX. I started laughing, I said, "DMX is like give me back my crack women!". The DC started laughing with me, I didn't like what I said, I felt sad that I was laughing at somebody's misfortunes. This DC started starring at me, he gave me a death stare. I said to him, "If DMX didn't smoke crack he would be a better role model". He snapped out of the trance, and he said, "ah huh yeah". He grabbed a basketball and he made it. Then I caught the rebound. They had about three now. It kept coming to me. This guy walked by me with his basketball. We switched off. I left them to go inside.

I saw about 3 or 4 people. I thought there is no way all those people left through the door that I walked from. Their was a bigger door in front of us but I thought they couldn't leave that fast. Let me do a RC. I looked at my hands and counted 1..2..3..4...5 but as I was doing this I noticed that for each hand there was multiple copies of one finger as I moved it to count. I realized I was dreaming. I said I am dreaming to the DC. She looked at me without a care in the world. I told her to get out my way. She didn't want to move. I started to get very angry. I tried stabilizing the dream but couldn't. It got dark. I told myself to let go a little of my lucidity.I started seeing this bright light shaking and making, "Vhmmmm" noises.I lost full lucidity and had a dream about being on a YouTube video

Journal Entry Lucid #7 Dream,Lucid, Comments)
Background: I talked to my parents and asked them if they want me to be happy. They did and I asked them to say they want me to have a LD, they did. So, I had a short LD this night. I guess I value my parents word alot. When my father dreams are pointless my dream recall disappeared and my consecutive LD disappeared. I

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-2:30am"": I was talking to a person about LD, we were waiting in line of a 7/11 or a store like that. Well as I was talking to him a realization came into my head, "I am dreaming". I looked at them and I said,"excuse me but I am dreaming". They didn't react at all. As I was about to walk out, I looked at the line and it was huge. I opened the door and lifted off, "i had a thought of doubt for a split second, but I remembered that I have flew many times in a LD. I went forward the sun is in front of me and so was this huge guy. He was just floating in air. I bumped into him, and he fell. I was going to fly away, but I didn't want to leave him like I left my sister so I went down to help him. He got up and said thank you. Like a loop I found myself inside of the store talking to them. The realization hit me again. I was about to start flying but I got distracted and lost lucidity.